#I do need to fag it up

[fatmaclover]

mac being referred to as joyces boy. her boy. hes her boy. mac being the person to understand joyces writing the easiest. they belong to each other theyre each others lost halves if they were ever separated they would stop functioning. auawhhrhwuah

#mac mcdonald #joyce kelly #joymac #....... #i dont think ill tag charmac. i care u guys but their relationship is more complex than that to me #the childhood best friends -> fag/dyke solidarity that ends up with them closer together than with any partners of the same gender #they need to be able to be each others beards if they werent so outwardly queer #they need to feel a little weird about how easily they make each other laugh and how their hearts sometimes flutter around each other #im sorry if you dont have a friend that makes you question your sexuality after youre supposed to have figured it out #what are you doing #platonic love should be confusing for them. like everything else is. #iasip

[prolibytherium]

after making this post I sat around kind of desperately wishing someone would write something for this scenario, but then wasn't sure if I actually wanted that bc what if they make it into drama or somehow make Dennis central to the plot. I can't have that. And then I slapped down about 1500 words of dialogue for the scenario. And I've been slowly fleshing it out in the form of a story. It's starting to distract me from the original writing I've been making decent headway on. So I'm writing IASIP fanfiction now. This is where I'm at . I'm all in.

#iasip #Chances are high I will be too embarassed to go through the mortifying ordeal of posting it BUT if I do make an AO3 account and post it #there I will be (from cursory inspection) maybe the first person to publish a story that is straight up just about them? #and not with Dee consigned to some sort of supportive role. #Which is tempting #Also as much as I said this isn't about Dennis I am running into the issue of debating whether or not Dennis circa 2023 would say #the phrase 'fag hagging'. because all of them are involved at the beginning and I need someone to say it for a joke to land later #Points against: he is probably the most politically conscious/cautious of any of them (mostly for cynical self-preservation purposes #and maybe like 5% MAXIMUM out of any sincere convictions) #Points for: He is likelier than Frank or Charlie to know what 'fag hag' means and he definitely WANTS to say slurs

[hauntingblue]

Ace...?? they cloned my beautiful wife...

#ace if he was born with his mother's hair but without freckles....... #this 3d intro... damn they spent their coins here but didnt age that well xd #i love how there is nearly a movie for every character that joins since usopp.... sanji got the last one. chopper has one i havent seen #and robin now.... i mean its not their movie but you know what i mean #zoro and nami on the same wavelength i miss you.... my fag and hag sisters.... #robin old design i miss you.... her and nami look so different.... not like now.... #I MISS CHOPPER OLD DESIGN HE LOOKS SO SILLY!!! #the goofy scenes are too good..... 'luffy what are you doing''nothing just a fight' 'okay dont get lost' #also sanji with robin and nami while the others fight... the girls AND sanji #this guy looks like ace with his kinds long middle part hair and eyes.... and luffy likes seeing hum fight #i am seeing things where there are non but my beautiful not dead yet wife keeps haunting me once again #seeing luffy talk about how if he dies fighting to be pirate king then so be it and like HE DID!!!! AND THAT DIDN'T STOP HIM!! #kids with guns TUN TUN kids with guns TUN TUN #robin made a gigantesco mano.... this was visionary #ROBIN giving back the gun to the child so he shoots luffy and he can bounce it back.... luffy enabler num 1. #nami threatening a child with zoros sword.... i needed this so bad. #shryer.... your drip too hard.... your swag too different.... your smoke too hot.... they will kill you #NOOOOOOO the clone of my beautiful dead wife died just like him.... face down... #the old man is dying and zoro knows.... #shryer is alive who woulda thot..... #'be serious' 'im always serious... didnt i get out?' this is him. omg #sanji with the cooking hacks for the fight.... i am sure of it... also sanji spy come back to me.... #THE BOY IS THE SISTER??? AND THE OLD MAN AND ACE CLONE ARE BLOWN UP??? #it is flour lmao they got their ideas from the fight with crocodile #everyone is alive and well 👍🏻including the hat #that was kinda beautiful with that plot twist and everyone wanting to live and all.... #nami strangling zoro!!!! more!!! #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies

[devotedlystrangewizard]

the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.

he never was.

#ramblings #incoherent beyond belief its 4 am #and im trying to avoid manga spoilers #might add a reblog with more coherent thoughts when i wake up but im off my meds so i cant promise anything #actually correction im being vague w the manga spoilers #manga readers know whats up #idk if there are any anime only ppl who havent been spoiled on The Plottwist Ever yet #but i figured there will be new fans and though im not tagging this it might still get seen so #cant WAIT to see our boy absolutely miserable in animation form should they recreate that arc LMAOOO #which ofc is after the germany arc so thats still a long time away #but STILL. itd be fun i need to see this young teenager lose his mind in color with sound #him relying on sebastian to do all his fag duties (sorry. dredge) so he can work his way up the social ladder #trying to gain power while simultaneously proving that he cant do anything but rely on others #hes always needed help in basically every way and he hasnt CHANGED he just got a demon to do it for him #he learns to lie and charm and cheat and all the while hes a fucking CHILD WHO STILL STRUGGLES WITH NORMAL THINGS #ciel is my little baby and i love him deeply no matter how much of a little bitch he can be #his helplessness isnt just 'oh he was raised in british high society' its also that he never got the chance to learn anything #which to elaborate on that id also have to go into manga territory. iykyk #like absolutely at this point he just refuses to learn how to do things he has a pet demon to do it for him #but. #hi the phantomhives backstory is killing me again its so late #both atlantic and the school arc are just setup for the Big Arc but theyre very good in their own right i SWEAR #also when i rewatched the circus arc a while back and i realised how some scenes were shot #the heavy foreshadowing that i didnt realise. yk. 7 years ago or however long its been since i first watched it #CRAZY #if you are new. to kuroshitsuji. and you havent read the manga. dear god. read the manga #ALSO GRELLE IN THAT ARC IS SO BEAUTIFUL & OTHELLO IS TRANSMASCULINE. OKAY GOODBYE

[superpussyking]

More people should make Jonah Magnus have religious trauma. I've barely read any fics where religion is mentioned any more than in passing when he was probably some flavor of christian/catholic by default and THEN got super into the occult. What made you break babygirl 🤨

#.txt post #theres so much you could do exploring the religious implications #did he get weird with it becasue of religion? #did his fear of death make the idea of any afterlife sound painful enough he wanted to find something else #does he have catholic guilt that bubbles up everynow and then #i like to think every now and then he gets catholic guilt #“oh god if i die right now and i havdnt ended the world im so going to hell” #and then he people watches about it #also hes a fag thats a part of it too #Jonah magnus #i need a custom jonah magnus tag

[matthoopergay]

I feel like my personal reading of Quint is just completely incomprehensible and no longer connected to canon at all but like… what’s more fun. Canon Quint or canon Quint with the backstory of him having been a little twink in his youth who went on to experience severe twink death post-Indianapolis and then blossomed into a very crotchety old queen. I mean there’s nothing in canon that technically directly contradicts that and he DOES have those slaying little boots… He definitely used to do drag I’m sorry but you can’t convince me otherwise. My gay king 5ever.

#i supply so much of the current jaws content sorry you have to put up with nonbinary old queen quint<3 im right tho #i am a queer quint defender FIRST and a person SECOND #quint #jaws 1975 #sorry main tag but you need to experience him the way i do #tbh i am somehow more invested in quint being a little fag than i am with hooper being trans OR GAY even tho hooper is literally me irl #sharkspeak

[onconstellationstreetmp3]

i shoukd start writing more damn!!!

#me.txt #📔 #things i want to write: heat 1995 ending but it gets even more fucked up (murder suicide or more cannibalism #michael centric tgf fic thats about hold up my kitty looks so cute right now. #michael centric tgf fic about his relationship with his family in canon #michael centric tgf fic but its a bit of an au where hes explicitly gay+trans there are some things i can do with it its pretty self indulg #nt. more scarecrow 1973 fic!!!!!!!!!!!! MORE!!! #fix it. lion & max funtimes on the road. i dont know i just need more!!!!! #also some ridiculously indulgent x reader inserts for me & the other fags on this site who cantt find good x male readers

[perilegs]

it's funny that now that i don't really have much about my body to be dysphoric about my brain makes up psychological dysphoria and it's so dumb

#''oohh only people who are attracted to men but are slightly scared of what they deem real men (not you) will be attracted to you'' #''or those people AND chasers AND ppl who just see you as a curiosity to test out'' #like how do i even unpack the bs my brain is throwing at me #yeah maybe some part of me believes that but the logical part of me knows it's not true #i think what's causing this is that i'm still kinda new at being stealth while passing #like yeah ive been going as leevi for the entire duration of uni and living as a man but passing regularly started happening to me after #i started t #now i only get misgendered the same amount as cis men with shoulder length hair #so like. it's happened once after starting t lmao #i think what's causing this (the psychological warfare from my brain) is the combination of stress #and me actually becoming friends with a co worker i'm not out to #listen ive been trying to hint at being trans but he was born a guy and lives as a guy so hes not very tuned out on this stuff #though his partner is nb and ive met them and they think i'm cis too which i think is hilarious bc i feel like #i'm v easy to clock for trans ppl #though idk im fagging it up quite a bit so it makes me pass extra well so #anyways #im a bit conflicted about the situation #im not going to outright tell him i think but i'm not going to hide it if it comes up #which i know i dont have to do but i want to #we'll probably go swimming together this summer so if that doesnt make him realize it hes a lost case and i dont #need to worry about it lmaoo #also i bought shorts that arent sport shorts and they looked normal on me so im literally unstoppable #but yea thank u for listening to me i just needed to ramble #leevi talks

[magentagalaxies]

in an unexpected turn of events i'm having to edit down the content in my aubrey monologues so that i can actually fit all four of them in my final performance for my standup class and on the one hand it sucks bc i really love some of the jokes i have to cut but on the other hand someday i'll be able to write more monologues and possibly expand upon this cut material so i can get a whole monologue on a topic that would've just been an aside

#the actual standups in my class who have only ever done a tight five having to stretch their new material to fit the 20 minute final #vs me‚ an extremely extra fag who's used to writing full-length scripts‚ realizing the 3 monologues i've timed already add up to 20 min #and i'm working on a fourth one that works better as an opener than any of the existing pieces so it has to get in #(it'll be short tho i'm making sure of it. it's just like ''here's some material about aubrey's relationship to zir mom!'') #(then immediate segue into the uncle reg bit) #got the catcalling monologue down to 5 minutes and 30 seconds when the first draft was nine minutes #(tbh i'm fine with most of those cuts i think they were mostly filler) #(there's a bit about androgyny that i liked that i cut but tbh it doesn't work as just one paragraph it needs more nuance) #the uncle reg monologue is having the ''dumped at the pride parade'' thing trimmed down which is funny bc that was the original premise #tbh i could probably stretch my toronto pride material ft. uncle reg to a full 20 minutes bc the first stream of consciousness was so long #i wrote it right after i myself got back from toronto pride and tbh i actually wrote it as the outline for a sitcom episode #so the monologue version is very reduced down bc there were so many details that didn't fit in #and i'm realizing the material about the person who dumped aubrey should be its own monologue that i'll do another time #and maybe even add in the rest of the sitcom-style story at some point bc tbh that's some of my favorite aubrey material i've come up with #and the cishetman monologue is getting the intro part about facetime trimmed a bit bc it meanders #and the ''sugar and spice and everything nice'' joke is being cut even tho i like it bc i actually have a ton more material in my notebook #that's just me riffing on how weird those expressions are. and the material isn't polished but i could make it something later #the song isn't being trimmed bc it has a very specific run time and imo is the strongest. so that's my closer #anyway thank you to everyone reading my aubrey updates i'll be sure to post the final 20-minute-special on youtube #and i hope i get to do more monologues soon so i can put the other ideas mentioned here (as well as some i haven't) out into the world

[wabblebees]

homophobic how science has yet to invent a haircut for me that lets me wear it long+pretty+femme in a fag way sometimes but Also short+easy+masc in a dyke way other times

#im nonbinary + have long-ass hair atm but no one GETS IT. wheres ur vision!! why do u assume it makes me a sTrAiGhT wOmAn!! fuck off!! #if u say ''just cut it and wear wigs'' im gonna shave your eyelashes. i Do Not Have a wig budget NOR do i have wig skills #PLUS. i FINALLy got some nice-ish headshots (free!) so if i shave it all off id need NEW fucking headshots & i don wanna pay for that shit! #also... short hair on me....... attempting the bisexy bob made me look like a goddamn soccer mom. and dont even get me started on what was #SUPPOSED to be a pixie cut.😔😔 ohh poor 15yo me. wanted to be more masc but wound up looking like karen from the homeowners association #and i feel like no one understands that when i toss my hair into a mess with a hairtie attached im doing it in a MAN-BUN WAY. #NOT in a long-brown-hair-blue-orbs-mom-sold-me-to-1d way😤😤 #i want to be able to interchange it!! same as how i wanna be able to pop my tiddies on+off when im feelin dysphoric vs feelin good abt em #also same as how i want to long-ass painted nails in a fag way but short-ass nails in a dyke way😔😤 #the world is cruel and homophobic and mean for not letting me have this all all at once #its RUDE. #bee speaks

[dykeza]

Tag finder ignore thanks

#for example. my spiral into fucked up monster trolls during the homosuck phase #during my homosuck days every time a new hs2 chapter dropped #i don’t want the gay brunette i want the gay blonde. do you understand me #or mercury lol #eret needs some prozac wilbur needs some clozapine etc etc #[sickos] hahaha… yes!! #skeppy phil or the elusive schlatt anon #schlatt anon lesbian huge w for the dykeza community #i don’t wanna be the girlie to say this but those homos need to get out of my driveway #i would hope all of my mutuals know i live somewhere in east texas #9/10. emphasize that wilbur said fag and you’ve got a banger #she calls kisuke to tell him this every week. she then sits on the phone with cat yoruichi for 5 hours #mcr song that had me in a chokehold around the end of my eddsworld phase

[salvation-within-the-void]

Why did I have to find smoking hot?

Im literally a biologist, I know its awful for my lungs and my health but its just so hot. I feel sexy when I have a smoke. Be it ciggies, cigars, or a blunt. Just something so fucking powerful about it.

I hold onto hope that my active lifestyle does a little something to counteract the bad. I do only have like 1 smoke a week.

#I treat them like a drug #it stops me having too many #like I could smoke 3 joints in a day #so I dont smoke 3 fags #i have 1 a week as a little pick me up #or a little treat #or just because #but then I dont feel the need for another #sometimes I wont smoke for a month #some times I'll smoke 3 days in a row #i dont think that counts as addiction #its weird but #it feels like a hobby #i do it when im in the mood #like knitting or reading

[nomaishuttle]

born to be an advisor to an irish king in the 1400s cursed to be a housekeeper in 2023

#i literally today at work i was sitting there like I need to figure out my strategy for conquering england. and just thought about it.. #i didnt get much closer today im afraid.. i lost a lot of territory i gained some etc. i think thats mainly bc brian was having a major fag #event (he was gay (and his education specialty was intrigue (so i made him do the seduction branch))) so he was kind of just thotting it up #going on hunts with the other kings judt 2 have sex with his bf one of his 2 bfs. the other one lived in like turkey(far away from ireland #so they never interacted) #sighhh. ill miss him.. #i will say none of my kings have been as dripped out as murchad was mainly bc i think if i tried to make any of them look like murchad id #just be like Wow this guy looks like murchad. #its okay though ermmm thats everythang #tmrw maybe ill show u guys the dynasty tree so farr ^_^ #theres a branch of them that r like. venecian royalty or something bc murchad was in the crusades and likee. gave his aunt the thang or #whatever. #but so far its been umm. murchad -> brian (for like 2 years LOL he had gout) -> cennétig -> brian (different brian) -> proinsius ^_^ #and assuminf he survives my entire rule itll be carlus ^_^ hes baby rn 3 years old

[cock-holliday]

I’m trying not to be a huge dick about it but I got a “but what about us q-slurs who are traumatized by the bad words?” on my slur reclaimation post and so I’ve made a handy guide

1. You are being called the slur.

A. If it is with malice, I am sorry for this experience, however, this situation is not at all what I was talking about.

B. If it is with affection or as a joke from other LGBTs, and it makes you uncomfortable, ask them to stop. If they don’t, they’re a dick for not respecting your boundaries.

2. You are being “forced” to see other people use the word for a larger community

A. If it bothers you then you are probably not the “fag community” to which they are referring, then. In a post? Block. Blacklist words. Block tags. Walk away. Avert your eyes. You don’t vibe with “queer community” then refer to it as LGBT. You make it sound like a “someone saying Happy Holidays means I can’t say Merry Christmas anymore” situation. You don’t have to use any words you don’t vibe with. Hate to say Dyke March or Dykes on Bikes? Don’t go to the march. Avoid the bikes.

3. You are being “forced” to hear other people use the word for themselves

A. I mean this with love and respect…suck it up. If it is so deeply triggering, remove yourself. Leave the situation. Block. Blacklist words. Block tags.

In a conversation about reclaimation, I am sorry, but you only get to decide how people refer to you, no one else. If someone else’s use upsets you, YOU have to do something about it, not them. You do not, under ANY circumstances, get to ask someone not to use dyke or fag or queer or tranny for themselves. You don’t get to ask someone not to use it/its. You don’t get to tell someone to tuck or bind because it gives you second-hand dysphoria. You do not get to decide how someone else is queer.

If being around them is that debilitating, you need to take steps to insulate yourself.

On the curate your own experience website, you should know how to do just that. There are so many guides out there. And to the complaint that “now” Pride uses all these slurs which has made Pride hostile to you, I’d invite you to crack open a book, but perhaps what you find will be too upsetting

#LJsm

[vaspider]

Pete Buttigieg is just a faggot.

It's very important to me that younger queers understand this: to the people who you're trying to be more respectable for when you say things like neopronouns set the trans movement back or you're why the cishets don't accept us or including [aces/bi people with the 'wrong kind' of partners/non-binary people/kinksters/non-passing trans ppl/furries/polyam people] just hurts us, can't you wait until we get all our rights before we talk about some of yours? -- to those people? Pete Buttigieg is just a fag.

On Sunday at Pride Northwest, some kids -- late teens, early 20s -- asked what our button I survived Reagan for this? meant. All of the queer adults at the tables making up our ad hoc counter looked at each other and sighed a little. Emet and another adult started to explain the way that the Reagan Administration handled -- or didn't handle -- the beginning of the AIDS crisis. How many people died. How much we were ignored. The Ashes Action. The Time Magazine article which explicitly blamed bisexual men for passing the pandemic to the cishet community, playing on all the worst stereotypical bullshit. The way that even when the CDC started paying attention, they were so focused on gay men that they ignored AIDS in the lesbian community, leading to the "women don't get AIDS, they just die from it" poster. And so on.

I finished counting out change and passed the last Bear Pride raised fist pin over to a bear a little older than me, then turned my head and interjected, "they didn't care until it started infecting more than just the fags." I turned my head back and handed him his change. He laughed bitterly and said, "remember when they called it 'gay cancer?'"

That what I need you to understand. The people for whom you are folding yourself into smaller and smaller boxes will never see you as anything but a freak. A queer. A dyke. A tranny. A fag.

Never.

These are people who will stand by and let you wither away and die alone, gasping for breath in a cinderblock room, and not even claim your ashes, and they will say you deserve it, because of your lifestyle. If they speak of you at all it will be by the wrong name, with the pictures you hate the most. They will curse at your lover, throw him out of the home you shared, and steal the gift you gave last Christmas to throw it in the trash just so he can't have it and they'll say Jesus loves you! while they do it. They'll feel good and righteous and blessed and holy and pure for doing it.

And for them, you spit in the eye of your sister. For them, you disavow your sibling. For their sake, you trim away bits of your heart and lace yourself up tight. Never too loud. Never too queer. Never inconvenient or embarrassing, never asking for too much.

Pete Buttigieg is what happens when your Boomer dad turns out gay. Middle America. Parents still married. Suburban-sprouted. Valedictorian. Harvard-educated. Rhodes Scholarship. Military service. More power to him: I hope he and Chasten are very happy together. Genuinely, I do.

You couldn't create a more respectable gay if you grew one in a lab run by concerned voter focus groups.

But Pete Buttigieg? Is just a fag.

That's the part you don't seem to get: when they abandoned us, they abandoned all of us. Rock Hudson was a beloved movie star and even personally friendly with that horrid pair of ambitious jackals. Nancy Reagan refused to help him get into the only place in the world that could treat him at the time, and he died.

It was 1985, 4 years after the CDC first released papers on what would eventually become known as HIV/AIDS and 7 years after the first known death from an infection from HIV-2. Reagan hadn't even said the word AIDS by the time Hudson died.

Pete Buttigieg is just a fag, and so am I. Unless I'm a dyke, which seems to depend on who's yelling what from which window and what day it is.

Yes, there will be people who genuinely love and accept you. Those people are worth all the frustration of the rest, thankfully, and they're the ones who love you in a pup mask or a leather harness and a neon jock like the ones sold by the men up the row from us last weekend. They're the ones who laugh out loud when you tell them you hid the word "dyke" in your company name, the ones who love you in all your messiness and uncertainty and the way you don't fit into neat boxes all scrubbed up and clean.

Most cishets, though... well, they don't actively mean you specifically any harm, at least not when they have to look at you. Not when you're right there in front of them. Maybe they'll be okay with you, personally, especially if you're the kind of gay who makes a good rhetorical device, and as long as you remain a good rhetorical device.

They need people to know that they don't have a problem with the gays, after all, and there you are, being all convenient. You make a nice token, and as long as you do, well. You're useful.

But they call you by your deadname when you're not around, and they put the wrong pronouns in your medical record even though they met you years after you came out, and they won't put themselves out to save you. Not one little bit.

I didn't want to be here again. The year I graduated from high school was the worst year of the AIDS crisis. The world into which I became an adult was a world in which an advisor and friend to Reagan, William F. Buckley, openly advocated for forcibly tattooing the HIV status of HIV+ gay men on their buttocks (and IV drug users on their forearms), and in which my father not only told me that when I was 14 or so, but when was told me that he'd advocated for that tattoo being "over their assholes."

(Buckley wrote that in '86, but he doubled down on it in 2005.

Fucker.)

But yeah. I didn't want to be here again. I wanted my daughter to inherit a better world. I wanted Obergefell and Lawrence v. Texas and Hope & Change to really mean something. I work for it, today and all days. I haven't given up.

I need you to know that, too. This isn't a white flag. I'm not surrendering. This isn't over. To misquote Henry Rollins, this is what Marsha and Sylvia and Stormé and Leslie and Brenda and Auntie Sugar trained us for. This is punk rock time.

But I need you to understand that if Pete Buttigieg is just a fag, if that human embodiment of a Wonder Bread, mayo and Oscar Meyer bologna sandwich is not respectable enough for them -- and he's not -- then the rest of us have absolutely no hope of measuring up. Not even if we trim away every colorful, beautiful piece of our community, not even if the Sisters Of Perpetual Indulgence vanish into the ether, not even if we sacrifice the five elements of vogue on the altar of white supremacist cishet middle-class conformity: we can't trim ourselves down to something they'll accept.

The only other option is radical acceptance of our queer selves. The only other option is solidarity. The only other option is for fats and femme queens and drags and kinksters and queers and zine writers and sex workers and furries and addicts and kids and the ones who can look us in the eye and see all of us to say we're here, we're queer, get used to it just the way we did 30 years ago. It's revolutionary, complete and total acceptance of our entire community, not just the ones the cishets can pretend to be comfortable with as long as we don't challenge them too much, or it's conceding the shoreline inch by inch to the rising waters of fascism until we've got nowhere left to stand and some of us start drowning.

That's it. Either it's all of us or it's none of us, because if we leave the answer up to the Reagans of the world and all the people who enabled him in the name of lower taxes and Democrats who wring their hands, weeping oh I don't agree with it but we'll lose the election if we fight it right now, the answer is none of us.

The brunch gays can come, too, I guess.

#long post #uncensored slurs #slurs #homophobic slurs #ronald reagan's grave is a gender neutral toilet #lgbtq #queer #trans #transgender #fag #dyke #lgbt

[determinedowl23]

gotta love being part in Worlds Shittiest Religion

#Owl hoots #anyways uh lent is a thing and I’m already upsetti spaghetti #It’s mostly fasting. I see no point in fasting. #It’s supppsed to “bring you closer to god” and “let you sympathize with the poor” ok shut up. #why am I encouraged to starve myself #And feeling solidarity with the poor isn’t enough. Not eating a real meal and calling it a day won’t help solve anything #And I don’t feel closer to god. I feel closer to pain. #Yes the point is to resist temptation but it just feels more like #“Oh I’m hungry that means my body needs more nutrients to sustain itself. #haha too bad I can’t satisfy what my body needs to survive because Jesus didn’t or smth :)” #I’m not the second coming of Christ. I’m not going to be a holy saint. I’m not a devout christian #And if this religion is actively having me feel disconnected from its benevolent god then I’m sorry #I don’t want it. #I’ve tried to want to stay catholic but it’s just not doing it for me. #the combination of this and that the other day we spent the entire school day talking about solidarity (I go to a Christian school) #and it made a huge point about standing with minorities #not one. ONCE. did anyone ever mention the lgbtq community #I’d rather they call me a fag and a tranny then just ignore my existencd #anyways uh I’m sorry. This is probably really insensitive #Just ignore this post I just needed to get this off my chest #Vent #tw christianity