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atrabiliousse · 6 years

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Cuddlr {3/?}

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T H R E E

It’s only after two weeks into her finals, that she’s finally able to sit down on her couch and not have a mental breakdown into her lap and it’s then that her phone burns in her pocket, the app’s icon throbbing in her head like a migraine due to her now vulnerable and tired state.

And she blames it on exactly those emotions that she opens the app and creates herself a profile, including her area for “buddies in you proximity” and her name.

The profiles then loaded and her head begun to spin. She had some seen some of the people in town maybe once to twice but she didn’t recognize them enough to want them to actually cuddle with her. And the more the girl thought of what she was basically doing, the more she got embarrassed and angry with herself.

But she had hit a low. Her chemistry paper didn’t feel all that great and she had come home to an empty house, her brother having to take Sora back to the city and her mother out on a workshop two hours away.

It was through the scrolling and constant anxiety and questioning, her fingers cane to a halt, a smile staring back at her that she was all too familiar with.

Lee Jeno was a friend, though not very close, but a friend at the least. He was awkward but adorably so and he spoke softly whenever he addressed her, respectful and completely sweet. The surprise however, was finding him on this exact app.

The girl would’ve never expected to find him on the app, much less as a “popular in your area” profile.

But it was because she knew Jeno and his nature and her curiosity that she lingered but then clicked on his profile.

The option to message and schedule a date and time opened on her screen and she felt her chest breathe heavy, because Jeno would see her name and maybe he’d be creeped out and decline her as a.. customer? Client? The girl didn’t know what to call it but either one made her feel uncomfortable.

Still she accepted the option, typing and deleting and retyping her message, very uncertain with what to say or how to act in her current situation. So after countless of sighs and angry mutters, the girl typed out a quick message and sent it before she could start the cycle all over again.

Her phone fell with a thud on the couch next to her, heart beating too loud and hard but a sudden relief and exhilaration filling her as she realized that she finally took the step. A step she wouldn’t tell her best friend about who still had been nagging her (through late night texts and soft whispers as they walked into the exam venue).

And when her phone chimed, she grabbed it, mainly out of panic and realized it was a message from not Jeno but rather Renjun.

You doing okay? You looked a bit stressed walking out :((

The girl smiled, typing out her reply and leaning back, happy to be distracted from her previous thoughts, even if it meant being reminded of her reasons for even opening the app.

I’m okay, thanks Juns, the paper just didn’t go as well I had hoped.

His reply came quicker then.

I know, same here actually. The guys and I are going out for some ice cream, wanna join? Mark is still in town

The panic came like an explosion, starting in her chest and spreading out to her limbs.

If Renjun meant all of his friends, it meant Jeno, and that meant if she accepted the offer, she’d have to actually face him after just messaging him on Cuddlr.

Maybe another time? Just need to have a pity party for now Juns but thank you!

I’ll stop by afterwards if that’s okay?

Yeah sure,,, maybe bring me ice cream?

I’ll get you chocolate.

Thank yooouuuu!!!

She sunk down in her seat, deciding that it would be better to not bother with her phone and instead get herself some hot chocolate and sit down to rewatch another season of Kamisama Kiss.

Her feet dragged her to the kitchen, just getting out the cocoa when your phone went off twice. She paused, hands clutching the container and hesitating. The girl took ten seconds for herself before she shook her head and continued making her cup and taking her time purposefully to just calm her nerves and trying to delay her running back to the couch.

And in the process of getting to the couch, she managed to burn herself twice before she finally got to sit down and hiss, shaking out her hand before she picked up the phone and opened the notification for Cuddlr.

Jeno

Y/N? As in Y/L Y/N?

Jeno

If not, sorry, just have a friend with the same name :)

You

It’s me, yeah, hi,,,

Jeno

Oh wow

Jeno

Not in a bad way!! I’m just surprised is all. Hi Y/N, is this your first time on the app?

She sighed, unsure with where she found herself but glad that even if it would be awkward, at least she knew him and that alone made her feel safer.

You

Yes actually, I’m sorry if this made you awkward, just thought I’d message someone I know instead of a complete stranger.

Jeno

That’s understable haha, so does tomorrow around 3 sound okay with you?

The girl replied, the date and time settled but her nerves spiked, shaky hand reaching for her cup and burning her tongue with the hot liquid and adding another count to the burns she acquired for the day.

She had pressed play, trying to gather herself and indulging into the next three episodes when the doorbell rang, the sun now sinking down in the sky and setting an orange hue in the room and when she opened the door to see Renjun with his chocolate ice cream cone and a small smile welcoming you, shoulders sinking and the door opening wider to welcome the boy in and actually tell him about her new found courage and stupidity.

“I have so much to tell you.”

#nct fluff #nct scenarios #nct dream #lee jeno #huang renjun #nct #nct 2018

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chemicaljacketslut · 2 years

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hiiiiiiiiii hiho beloved :3 how was your day? good i hope <3 tell me all about it dearest 🌼

aaaa it was okay!! i did like. freak out and cry a little bit because i am Physically Unable to handle like any amount of workload with school ever? but i have been having a big workload for like a week? so i’m. stressed. even though everything is planned out and manageable it’s just everything weighing on me yk. but i should be done by the end of this week! unfortunately like every teacher wants to do an end of the year project so i have like 3 projects to do after that plus an essay 💀 but anywayy. i was so nervous today because i have a makeup math quiz tomorrow and half of the content on it i don’t really know?? bc i was absent and there’s no video lesson for it? but i asked my math-y friend to help at lunch and it JUST clicked like a little while ago when i was thinking about it and it makes sense i think!! as long as i don’t have to have the formulas memorized. idk if he’ll let me use my reference sheet… so just in case i will absolutely be cheating by making up some symbols that look enough like doodles but are actually a code for the formulas to write on my hand lol works every time. idk getting a bad grade wouldn’t even be the end of the world it’s just. i really need good grades this year to make up for the failure that was covid year & idk, this is the last of my missing work to catch up on so i really want to finish strong. also if i get an a i don’t have to take the final exam so BLEASE i need at least a 90... i think i can do it it’s just stressful to have it in the back of my mind all the time yk? im gonna have to be in work mode for these next couple of weeks every class is having some kind of wrap-up thing… physics project + final unit, english essay, math review work, choir concert & banquet, facing history project + content. i think history is my only class that doesn’t have something going on lol. it’s gonna be super busy but honestly im kind of excited for the challenge… if i stay organized it will be satisfying and i know i’ll feel so relieved once it’s summer. someone will probably throw a wrench in it (already did- i have an appointment tomorrow i wasn’t told about. girl i had plans… to do nothing) but i just have to adapt and keep going.

but actually even taking into account all that stress it’s been a pretty good day! all my wordle spinoff games went well & i talked to my friends and sang in choir and relaxed after school. it’s a more fun atmosphere at school now (still kinda sucks bc. it’s school. but it’s bearable) bc it’s almost the end of the year. & i watched (i rewatched, they watched) s3e1 of barry w my family :3 & now i think im gonna write a little bit maybe? although not too much probably im tired :/ but yeahh

eeeee i did not intend to rant THAT much but. there was my day. much happening. mwah mwah love youuuu feel free to come message me & tell me abt ur day!! also when is ur birthday i need to know for scientific reasons

#i have a gift like half-planned & i gotta work out timing #ghost rants #asks

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