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yizuos · 7 months

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I will always cherish you in every universe we meet.

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ꕥ author note ⋮ oldie i found my draft so i thought why not post it? excuse him being occ i don't trust myself doing his accent. Also this Reupload bc spelled tags wrong last time LMAO

♡ prompt: this idea inspired by an reel post by brujo_ari_ of oc characters when i saw it thought "never made her have siblings better yet Amari should invite hobie met her siblings.."

ꕥ word count ⋮ 694

♡ contents ⋮ fluff blk spidersona x hobie

Amari invited Hobie to meet her younger brothers, Henri and Étienne. Already happy to hear that their older sister had brought her partner over, Amari would give them rules: not to tell him any embarrassing stories about her.

However, they ended up telling him how Amari would go on for hours talking about him to Lia, her friend. After being embarrassed by this, she ordered them back to their rooms until he said, "They can stay with us after all. It wasn't that bad."

Amari wanted to playfully punch him, but she stayed calm and agreed. Henri and Étienne asked him about his punk style and little brother's interests and talked for half an hour until Amari told the brother's it was their bedtime.

Henri and Étienne expressed sadness about having to go, but they were happy to meet Hobie. As they went to their bedroom, Amari and Hobie bid them goodnight, and they both replied with a "goodnight."

Amari gave her partner an embarrassed look and said, "Don't ask, I know what you're going to say. 'Cutest British accent?'" He chuckled and replied, "It's a bit funny. I'm yours but you're still a bit shy of dating me. It's a cute look, and thank you for saying that. I could say the same for you."

Amari started to feel flustered and mumbled a thank you to Hobie. They stayed together talking for hours until he said, "Ah, shit. I forgot I had plans with my band. I gotta get going before they get on my ass for being late, but I'll see you later?"

Waiting for her reply, Amari, who looked shocked but a bit sad in her eyes, said, "Yeah." Amari sighed to herself before making her way to the door to say goodbye to him.

Until an idea popped into her head before he could leave. "Ah, I forgot to give you this last time. Let me go find it." Amari rushed to her room to find the gift she forgot to give him. Once she found it, she sped to the door. After getting to the door, she said, "Here, I made this kitty plushie with the same style as you. I took a bit to finish, so hop-"

He interrupted her, saying, "I love it! It looks great. Thank you, Amari," with a happy tone. Amari looked at him in disbelief at what she heard, but she regained her thoughts and told him it was no problem.

"I'm going now. It was really great meeting your brothers. It was fun. Next time when your brothers come over, we should have a sleepover or could be us," he said.

Amari replied, "Yeah, that would be great!" She was also happy but deep down a bit nervous. This was her first relationship, and nobody had ever pitched the idea of having a sleepover, aside from her friend Lia and her family.

After they both said their goodbyes, Amari closed the door and sighed. She sensed someone was watching her and turned around to see her brothers, Henri and Étienne. "You're so getting it," she exclaimed, furious at them for embarrassing her in front of Hobie.

Her brothers playfully screamed and started to run away from their older sister, Amari, catching up to them and grabbing them. "You guys are getting tickled for embarrassing me in front of Hobie," Amari said. The brothers protested while laughing, and Amari started tickling them.

"Amari, plea-" Henri couldn't finish his sentence without laughing, while Étienne mumbled for her to stop. Seeing her siblings' joy, she started to laugh along with them and eventually stopped tickling them.

"Okay, that's enough now, boys. You've learned your lesson. Go back to bed or I'll tell Mother you stayed up," she said.

Her brothers proceeded to go back to their rooms without any questions or stalling. Amari smiled as she saw them off back to bed and then went to her room. She closed her eyes for a bit to relax her mind, changed into her night clothes, and flopped onto her bed. "Maybe I will cherish him in every universe we meet..." she whispered to herself before drifting into slumber.

©yizous do not plagiarize, repost, translate

#atsv hobie #hobie brown #atsv fluff #atsv fanfiction #spider punk

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squish--squash · 2 years

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YEAHAHA TELL ABOUT TGCF GO OFF I'LL PROBABLY READ IT NO MATTER WHAT <3!!

OKAY RAMBLE UNDER CUT IT'S LONG

I stumbled upon the donghua on netflix randomly two weeks ago because I was trying to check netflix for a movie and saw a preview of it at the top of the page. It was the scene where Xie Lian sees a wraith buttefly for the first time before Ling Wen tells him two deputy gods have arrived to help him; I thought the animation was so pretty and Xie Lian's voice sounded so soft and gentle and immediately wanted to give it a try after I found and watched the movie I wanted to see. During that time I also read the little summary netflix gives you, and thought it was interesting (and also a little fruity alsdgh, if only I knew!)

So after watching the movie (I found it on another website), I returned to netflix and started watching the first episode. Ngl, I was a little confused at first because I was trying to get the characters and plot down and had completely forgotten the summary, and kept watching.

And then I reach the end of episode two and get punched in the face with the most homoromantic scene I've ever seen in an animated show. I was still confused because I didn't know who the fuck this new person is or why there were suddenly flashbacks but holy shit it was so tender and romantic, I was losing my mind with it. Especially because I thought the fruitiness wasn't intentional!

Eventually I remember the netflix summary mentioned something about Xie Lian joining forces with a demon or something and figured out that's who he met in that scene, and tried to brush it off so I wouldn't go insane.

Yeah no bilibili didn't have mercy on me and the fruity moments kept coming adglasldgkh. It wasn't until episode 5 that I found out why though.

It was pretty early in that episode and it was the scene where Xie Lian learns Hua Cheng's name from Ling Wen, and when he compliments it so calm and softly (I lost my mind again at that) the camera suddenly cuts to Ling Wen looking like she's about to have a heart attack and I thought it was so funny I wanted to take a screenshot. HOWEVER, netflix doesn't let people do that, so I googled Heaven Official's Blessing (english for tian guan ci fu/tgcf) to see if it was playing on any other streaming sites.

As I skimmed the information panel to see if showed anything useful, my eyes glanced at the reviews and immediately caught on one word: "LGBT". I was like "OH WAIT, WHAT?" and immediately clicked on the review, and read the first three. When all of them mentioned it was a bl and amazing and I confirmed the fact with another google search I actually lost my mind that time because WHAT???? IT'S GAY AS FUCK?! ON PURPOSE?!

That's also when I realized all those moments were actually intentionally fruity lasdkgh

I binged the rest of the donghua that night, it was great. I loved it so much. I also learned there was a manhua, and easily found it, so I binged all the available chapters that Saturday.

IT WAS SO GOOD- it had a lot more explicitly romantic scenes because it wasn't under a censorship watch and the art style holy SHIT!!

I'd also learned sometime between watching the donghua and reading the manhua that the original source for them is a novel series, and so of course at that point since I was obsessed with tgcf I wanted to read them. So when I searched for any online translations after preording the first novel that Sunday and saw a couple of them available, I immediately started to read it lmao

AND OH MY FUCKING GOD THE NOVELS, THE FUCKING NOVELS KILLED ME!!! Such tender moments. Such heart-shattering moments. Amazing characters. I actually cried a little bit when I finished the last novel exactly a week after I started reading it, and it's officially my favorite thing ever rn lmao, even though I'm still unsteady with some of the names alsdk

I could keep screaming if you'd let me honestly, like all the tender, sweet moments or how I hate Qi Rong so fucking much but he's so funny at the same time, or just about so much other things

#tgcf #heaven official's blessing

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snapdragon-mina · 4 years

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Sunflowers and Snakes

Pairing: Dabi x Reader x Hawks

A/n: Written for the Bnha spring time event. Hi @amaamajiki , I'm your anon! I really hope you like this lmao.

Word Count: 2.25k

Warnings: Sorta spoilers for bnha, swearing, blood mention, Suggestive themes(Very very minor)

For the first time in about a month, You could go home on time. The restaurant you worked in constantly asked for you to work overtime. The only reason you continuously agreed was for that sweet sweet paycheck. Fortunately, everyone else was at work and did their jobs, so you were free to go home and cuddle the shit out of your dog.

When you got home, all you could hear was the sound of paws on wood before your life flashed before your eyes. Seems your dog missed you a little too much because he pounced, knocking you off balance, and eagerly started licking your face.

"Okay! Okay! Hey let's make a deal. If you get off of me, I'll give you a surprise?" You held your dog away from your face with one arm, while wiping off the sheer amount of dog slobber that was on your face with the other. The dog paused as if he were thinking before moving off of you and sitting down with a sharp bark.

"That's a good boy." You smiled at him before turning on the TV for background noise. You walked into the kitchen to fix your dog's food. After pouring the food into the bowl, you stuck a lil treat in there. Boom! Recipe for a happy Schnauzer. The moment you sat the bowl down, he shot forwards and barely gave you back out of the way.

Shaking your head, you walked back into your living room and sat on the couch. Moments of complete peace were hard to come by. After the fall of All Might, nobody was really safe. I mean, Endeavor doesn't give a shit about his fans, so why should you trust him to protect you?

From what you gathered, the number two hero, Hawks has actually started searching for his soulmate. When asked to show off his tattoo, he refused. Something about "The thrill of the hunt".

Tattoos are typically two of a kind. Only two people would have the same tattoo. Speaking of soulmate tattoos, Yours was a Snake winding around a single sunflower. It was actually huge, since it covered your entire left arm. It was a really cool design when you think about it.

A small whine managed to shake you out of your thoughts. You got up, grabbed the yellow leash, and hooked it to the matching yellow collar your dog wore. "Come on pretty pup, it's been awhile since I've had time to go on a walk, huh?"

He barked in response as his stubby little tail wagged rapidly. You opened the door and locked it behind you before letting yourself be led by your dog. Around five minutes into the walk, you felt your arm grow warm. Apparently your soulmate was close. It was like a game of hot and cold until you bumped into a guy with a black trenchcoat. Your arm felt extremely hot, so you looked at him.

"You gonna apologize? You were the one that bumped into me." He had a relatively bored tone of voice. He was eerily calm for someone to be in this scenario. It felt like his eyes were staring deeply into your soul.

"Yeah uh, sorry… But-" You couldn't even finish your sentence, because he walked off with a dismissive wave. You wanted to follow after him, but your dear dog had decided he wanted to shit right then and there. You were forced to wait on him to finish.

After cleaning up and disposing of the waste, you just decided to go back home to get some much deserved rest.

•••

Two weeks later, you had a day off and it was really nice outside, so why not go for a walk through the forest? You went through your typical morning routine and got dressed. You fed your dog and took him out for a bit. "Alright pup, I'll be back soon, okay?" You blew a lil air kiss and left the house.

After roughly 15 minutes, you reached a clearing in the forest. It was peaceful and nothing seemed to be out of place. There was a river a few steps away from you, and all sorts of flowers blooming. The trees actually provided very nice shade. You wouldn't mind living out here or at least somewhere just as peaceful as it was out here.

You took a deep breath and sat on a nearby stump, just taking in nature. You didn't get to enjoy the peace for long, due to the sudden burn on your left arm. Your soulmate was quickly approaching your location. You glanced around, but didn't see anyone. Yet your arm was getting warmer and warmer.

Suddenly, a voice spoke out. "You're the person from that night, right?"

You recognized that voice. You focused on where the sound came from and fixated on where he was standing. He was leaning against a tree with his arms crossed. "Yeah, I am. Hey can I-"

"I'm not your soulmate." He interjected. You shot him a confused look. There was no way you were wrong about this. "Don't believe me? I don't even have a tattoo." He held up both of his scarred arms.

This only served to confuse you more. "Yeah no, I'm right. There's no fucking way I'm wrong." You shot back. He raised an eyebrow at you.

"Are you sure about that? People are born without soulmates, y'know." He said.

"Let's say you aren't my soulmate. Why the hell did you follow me here?" You sighed, already annoyed that he ruined your perfectly peaceful moment.

"Because I know who is."

"Why would you help me? You don't seem like the type to help someone just out of the kindness of your heart." You narrowed your eyes and he laughed. He laughed at you.

"Oh trust me, I'll be getting a pretty little payment for this," His eyes shone with amusement. "Follow me."

He walked off. Bold of him to assume you were gonna follow him. You stayed put for a moment before ultimately realizing it was useless. You had to speed walk to catch up to him. He walked out of the forest and towards a building that was pretty much hidden from view.

Your arm was still extremely warm, due to you being close to the strange man. Hold on. You don't even know his name and yet you followed him to some secluded building where he's probably gonna-

"Dabi."

The statement broke you out of your train of thought. That was… weirdly coincidental. He suddenly announced his name just as your mind began to wander. "Yeah… I'm Y/l/n Y/n…"

He just hummed in response, as he continued to lead you through the strange building. Eventually the two of you came to a stop. The both of you stood in front of a door that had been painted red. He didn't even bother knocking and simply opened the door, revealing none other than the number two hero.

Hawks' head perked up at the sound of the door opening and grinned lazily. "Hey, thanks again for bringing her." He had a glint in his eyes. Like he knew something you didn't.

"Mhm. I'm expecting my… you piece of shit." Dabi trailed off before there was suddenly emotion in his voice. It definitely wasn't a good one. Had something happened between the two of them? Should you leave? Yeah… you definitely should. Dabi seemed extremely hostile and you were getting bad vibes. You went to take a step back but paused when you felt a hand tightly grip your wrist.

"Huh?"

"You aren't going anywhere" His eyes were still focused on Hawks. Nobody moved for a moment before suddenly, the hostility drained from the air. Dabi let go of your wrist and walked out of the room.

"Hawks-"

"Call me Keigo."

"Okay, Keigo… can you explain to me why I'm here?" The past like 5 minutes was a trip from start to finish and you really wanted answers. Keigo patted the spot next to him, so you took a seat and waited for him to start.

"Your arm still feels really warm despite Dabi no longer being in the room, right?" His feathers ruffled slightly as a breeze drifted through the window. You nodded, unsure of what to think before it hit you. His grin got wider and he removed his jacket. "Well, Y/n, we're soulmates." He held out his left arm for you to see. Low and behold, The exact same tattoo was covering it.

You felt extremely happy that you'd found your soulmate, but still extremely confused. How did your tattoo still burn in Dabi's presence if Hawks was your soulmate? It didn't make sense.

"I should probably explain Dabi since he won't do it himself, and you're probably hella confused. Dabi is also our soulmate."

That… that actually makes sense. You nod as Hawks explains everything and suddenly he gets to a topic that you'd been curious about for a while now.

"Because of his scarring, he no longer has the tattoo. But nature had him covered because he developed a telepathic connection to both of us. Aka, he can very easily read our minds."

That made even more sense. But that doesn't explain why he refused you as a soulmate. You shook off that thought and decided to get to know Hawks a little better. Eventually the two of you came to an agreement. Since you liked to cook, and he liked eating, sometime this month, you'd bake or fry chicken for him.

It was starting to get dark and your dog probably missed you, so you decided to try to find Dabi.

Dabi did not want to be found. It took you 30 minutes to finally get to him, and when you did he ignored any small talk you tried to initiate. Eventually he grew tired of your shit. "Look, I'm not your soulmate. Leave me alone."

"Yeah? Bullshit. Hawks explained everything to me. Why are you brushing me off?"

"I don't fucking need a soulmate. Certainly not someone like you or Hawks." He snarled, turning on his heels to walk away.

"I don't care about what you think you need. You need us, you can't deny that!" You argued back. You were really starting to get sick of this.

"I can and I will."

And with that, he walked away. You balled your hands into fists tightly. You would've stayed, but your dog needed someone to take care of him.

•••

Almost a month had gone by since that argument, between you and Dabi and you hadn't heard from him since. Hawks moved in and actively bothered the hell out of your dog. He would complain about him biting his feathers, but you would often catch him sleeping with y/d/n curled up at his side.

You were in the middle of baking cookies when a crash could be heard from within the house. You grabbed a kitchen knife and went to investigate the sound. It couldn't have been the dog, he was asleep when the crash was heard. Silently walking into the room the sound was heard from, you were kinda shocked to see him.

He had numerous cuts in various sizes on his body. All of them were bleeding. "I just need somewhere to lay low for a bit, I'll be gone by morning."

"Dabi…" Your heart ached at the sight of him, but you refused to be someone he could walk all over. "Get out."

It seemed like he was too preoccupied to listen to your thoughts, because your words shocked him. "...Out? Y/n, it's me."

"I know. But you said you didn't need us, yet here you are." You stood your ground and he stared up at you for a moment. He was analyzing you, seeming like he was studying you for a weakness he could exploit.

He let out a sigh and spoke under his breath. You raised an eyebrow at this and he cleared his throat before speaking up. "...I'm sorry. I just… don't want the two of you dragged down with me."

"Elaborate." You demanded and he nodded.

"I'm a villain, you're a civilian, and Hawks is the number two hero. Being associated with me is like killing your chances to actually do something with your life." He hissed out. Seemed like the pain from his wounds was getting to him.

You helped him up and led him into the bathroom. There, you cleaned up and bandaged his wounds. He studied your face carefully and you worked. "No hard feelings?"

"No hard feelings. But Keigo should be getting home soon, so you're gonna have to relay your little speech again." You snorted as you finished up. He stood up and walked out of the bathroom with you trailing behind him.

The two of you walked into the kitchen. You pulled the cookies out of the oven and offered one up as a peace treaty. He rolled his eyes and pecked you on your lips as a peace treaty.

A minute or so later, Hawks walked in. He noticed Dabi sitting on the counter with a chamomile flower crown on his head. How you managed to get him to wear that is unknown to humanity.

"Yeah, I'm gonna live here from now on. And no, you won't be topping."

Hawks rolled his eyes as you laughed. "At least you're not being a pussy about soulmates anymore."

"Fuck you too."

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just-like-playing-tag · 4 years

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A totally self indulgent compilation of my favorite works on this blog of the year June 13, 2019 - June 13, 2020

I wanted to do this for the blog's first anniversary but then completely forgot about it lol.

The following lists are all in chronological order according to the date each post was first published.

Top 10 panel edits:

#1: Don and Gilda - Chapter 138: Demon serch (1)

Date: Jun 14th, 2019

Time: ~ 1:30 h

My very first redraw from my very first edit posted here, so it deserves an honorable mention. Back then I was young and inexperienced, I didn't even apply a gray filter (lmao I was so unskilled I even unintentionally scratched the picture, I hadn't realized until today). I'm actually very happy my first redraw was of Don, boy deserves all the love.

#2: Emma and Ray - Chapter 140: I’m Here!

Date: Jun 28th, 2019

Time: ~ 1 h

Back then this looked like so much work to me!!! And to this day, I think it turned out pretty well. I'm particularly proud of how the bow turned out. This is one I was really proud of right after having finished it; it gave me the confidence to try redrawing bigger areas. Also, the edit were I first applied the opacity of layer / opacity of brush for the gray filter that would have stuck with me.

#3: Krone's birthday edit

Date: Jul 15th, 2019

Time: 15 mins

I don't know I just really like how Krone's hair vanish to a more sketch-like style here– and consequently, how I managed to replicate such effect. I think Krone's beautiful.

#4: Emma, Norman and Ray - Chapter 153: Coward

Date: Oct 4th, 2019

Time: 4:07 h (and 67 layers lmao)

Probably the single panel redraw I'm the most proud of. That Norman panel was beautiful and very poignant at the end of a chapter I adored, so I believe it deserved all the time I've spent working on it. It's far from being perfect - the back of his head is too plain, and the difference between my brushes and the original brushes is pretty visible - but I still like it very much and am extremely attached to it. The horn looks kinda big but I honestly believe it to be more of an issue with the original than with what I had redrawn lol. Funny enough, the whole picture didn't make it to the final edit and had to be trimmed.

#5: Full Score Trio - Chapter 154: A Breakthrough

Date: Oct 11th, 2019

Time: 29 mins

I don't have a particular reason for this I just think Emma's hair turned out amazing. It took just half an hour and I didn't even use references like. Wow. @Redrawing skills where did you go please come back

#6: Mujika and Queen Legravalima - Chapter 158: The Reason I Was Born

Date: Nov 17th, 2019

Time: 2:09 h

Sis I love this so freaking much. The shift from redrawing almost exclusively people and clothes to redrawing this mess was so fun and refreshing. Even though it's a mess I think it turned out very clean and overall it looks beautiful? I remember after finishing this I felt so powerful, like now that I had redrawn this thing I would have been able to redraw anything I set my mind on lol.

#7: Emma - Chapter 161: Never Be Alone

Date: Dec 13th, 2019

Time: 57 mins

Again no particular reason except this is a very cute Emma and I think the redraw turned out pretty well. There's this big lock on the left that doesn't make a lot of sense but overall I really like it. Cute Emma is cute, and I love her determination.

#8: Emma - Chapter 166: Going Back Home

Date: Mar 9th, 2020

Time: 3:45 h

I'M SO FREAKING PROUD OF THAT RIFFLE I have not the slightlest idea why this took so damn long BUT I'M SO PROUD OF IT

#9: Norman's birthday edit

Date: Mar 21st, 2020

Time: 1:04 h

This is cool! I didn't know I could manage to draw this, but I did it! The feathers were particularly hard to clean but I think they turned out fine.

#10: Full Score Trio - Chapter 174: A New World (part 1)

Date: Apr 6th, 2020

Time: 2:11 h

I just think they're very pretty? I can't understand if I like Ray's face a lot, or not at all, but I think overall there was a lot to redraw and it turned out pretty cute! Sorry Gillian.

(Also insert pretty much every panel from the chapter 177 Isabella edit– I've spent so many hours on basically every panel there's no way I could choose only one).

Top 5 edits as whole:

#1: Emma and Ray - Chapter 140: I’m Here!

Date: Jun 29th, 2019

Complessive time: 2:57+ h

The very first edit I'm actually proud of; I'm really attached to it. It's the first edit I had put all of my effort into, and I remember feeling anxious people would have left it without notes. It kinda feels weird to think about it now, because I really don't care about notes anymore; yet, it somehow makes me happy to think that past-me wasn't let down. Thank you @neverlandstrio for your support, you may not remember but it really meant a lot to me back then! And it still makes me smile. You're the best!!!!!!

#2: Mujika and Queen Legravalima - Chapter 158: The Reason I Was Born

Date: Nov 20th, 2019

Complessive time: 7:12+ hours

This whole edit was an hella wild ride. It's midnight before a school day, when I think: "Mh, it's been a while since I last made an edit, why not make one about Musica and the queen from the last chapter?" And seven hours after this was born. I'm particularly proud of the queen's redraws on the 3rd, 7th and 9th picture (ofc), the areas which have been redrawn are pretty huge yet I think the difference with the original is almost impossible to notice?? @Redrawing skills where did you go please come back (part 2)

#3: Emma - Chapter 174: A New World (part 1)

Date: Apr 12th, 2020

Complessive time: 6:53+ h

I think the panels that were selected work very well together, especially considering the close-up / full body alternation. I love Emma, and I've always been kinda sad noticing that edits that focus one her take the less notes... She deserves all the love. Also, fun fact: for the last but one panel, I had redrawn Emma's whole left ear before remembering she doesn't have one, so I had to redraw the panel from the start. Besides from the error with the ear, the reason why this (and all the others after) took so long is because official panel take way longer to clean.

#4: Isabella and her children - Chapter 177: Mother

Date: May 22nd, 2020

Complessive time: 13:41+ h (ahah.)

Lmao tbh I can't understand how this has so few notes it's like. Technically speaking, probably the best edit I've ever done. I don't even like Isabella that much, I haven't got the slightlest idea why I decided to spend so many hours on this. Anyway, I find the composition (full body on the left / headshots on the right) really good looking in this as well! And I think the redraws turned out fine, especially Isabella's.

#5: The Promised Neverland manga ending countdown→ 1/7 chapters: chapter 1 - Grace Field House

Date: Jun 9th, 2020

Complessive time: 1:59+ h

I don't know how I came up with that idea for the composition but I find it really beautiful??? I think it does a pretty good job conveying the sudden, terrific shift of atmosphere from the first chapter, and I think that sharp bridge is very nice. I'm very, very proud of this.

Honorable mention #1: Full Score Trio - Chapter 154: A Breakthrough

Date: Oct 13th, 2019

Complessive time: 3:44+ h (+ 1:13 h of working on a panel that ultimately didn't make it to the final edit)

A very good chapter, and the edit turned out surprisingly amazing??? All the redraws look great and make it almost impossible to distinguish them from the original; honestly I feel like I'll never be able to redraw so neatly again lol.

Honorable mention #2: Don and Gilda (+ Norman) - Chapter 160: Shackles

Date: Dec 11th, 2019

Complessive time: 3:14+ h

That one is really one of my favorite scenes; I'm telling you peoples, Gilda and Don are a blessing to the earth. I think I've never mentioned it, but Gilda's hair is a nightmare to redraw??? More specifically, it takes me h o u r s to fill the texture without making it look too weird, it's the worst.

Honorable mention #3: Norman and Ray - Chapter 179: Compensation

Date: Jun 6th, 2020

Complessive time: 4:16+ h

I was so glad to finally be able to make a Norman / Ray edit, and it turned out it was just in time before the series' finale. I like how it turned out and I'm pretty satisfied with the redraws (even though my sister helped me with the lineart of some panels - it was exams time and I really couldn't afford to spend more time on it), too bad we didn't have more chapters that focused on the boys. Ray sweetie one day I'll fix your ear it's just today's not that day.

Btw, I justed realized I have never done an Emma / Norman centered edit? I'll have to make one eventually. I remember considering focusing on them alone for the chapter 154 one, but then I thought "even if the manga is gonna ignore Ray, I will chose to do not" lol.

Top 5 long posts:

#1: Reconstruction of how the Grace Field children were settled in the three bedrooms

Date: Aug 28th, 2019

I just had really a lot of fun doing it. I love putting all the little things to their own place, it's so calming to do and that's why I love making this kind of things. Also, loved how @temporoom contributed to the post! It was so nice of them to add what they had noticed to come up with more exact conclusions, that's one of the things I love the most about the internet.

#2: A study of how many times the characters of The Promised Neverland call each other through the first season of the anime

Date: Sep 10th, 2019

I REALLY LOVE IT! I mean it *was* kinda stressing to note everything, but it was very also very satisfying to see everything methodically divided and organized! And it's not just that– it's also the fact that it looks good. That's one post I have fun rereading because it's actually pretty! Also, even though it can be very stressing to learn to use new programs and sites, it's always very satisfying to look at the final result. Again, I really adore compiling these tiny little details! I would love to make more posts of that kind if i had the time.

#3: The Promised Neverland musicals headcanons

Date: Oct 27th, 2019

I mean it's literally. Putting my two favorite fandoms together how could I not love it. This is another one I really enjoy rereading, I find all the musical / character associations so fitting! I really want to make a second part, I hope to find some time to do it.

#4: Considerations on the reward / eventual series' finales (and Emma's sacrifice)

Date: May 7th, 2020

It's always nice to put down all your thoughts regarding a particular matter. It can take a lot of time (at least for me it does because... I need time to think about things), but it's so satisfying to see all of them there once you're done. Bonus points when, like in this case, it was something asked by someone else because “Wow! Somebody wants to hear my opinion on this subject! I'm flattered (◍•ᴗ•◍)”

#5: Some other considerations on the series' finale and Emma sacrificing herself

Date: Jun 13th, 2020

Pretty much the same as above. It's like some kind of clarity when the post is done and signed. Another fun fact, I had to censore the post a lot; the first version was extremely sharp and harsh, but I believe it's right to express your opinions calmly and politely.

Bonus: A thread of what the tpn characters would wear at the Oscars

Date: Feb 9th, 2020

Imagining all the children in those pretty dresses makes me so incredibly happy (╥﹏╥) I go back to look at that post a lot. I really love red carpets, I love looking at pretty dresses!!!!!

Lmao it's so funny how the post of mine I like the most are also the ones with the less notes

Anyway this was just a personal report! You don't have to read it all (or any of it actually). But it was indeed fun making it! Here's to many more months in the fandom!!!

#This was supposed to be posted on July 13th as one year and one month since I made the blog #but Tumblr decided to be a jerk and deleted all of it 😊#So here we are #tpn #tpn manga spoilers #long post #Again this is just a personal report don't stress over reading all of it #But it was fun to make!#To the people I tagged: sorry for tagging you in this long post but also it would have felt weird not to do so? I hope you don't mind #It felt like... Giving credits foe something you've done y'know

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mimis-mm · 7 years

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Hi!! Good luck with your blog, it's always nice to see new headcanon blogs! So I guess I'll start with a bit of angst haha. How do you think the rfa + the minor trio (if you write for them of course) would react if they found out that the MC was really depressed in the past and attempted to kill herself?

Thank you so much!! What a joyfull first ask you got there lmao

I didn’t know if I should do it in a scenario-like style with how they learned about it or just do how they would react, so I did the scenario style. Also I learned that I’m a slow writer, so this post will only be the RFA (minor V). The minor trio is coming, promised!

Edit: Minor trio part is out, go right here x

Warning: Suicide mention

The RFA learning that the MC has been depressed and attempted suicide in the past

Yoosung

You were having your family at your place and Yoosung was there too. It was quite nice time discussing about various things until the subject was about general health.

Since you told your parents about Rika’s death they felt the need to say something about this.

“We’re really sorry about your cousin, Yoosung. We can imagine how this must feel like to lose someone to suicide.” Started one of them.

“You probably know by now that [Y/N] went through the same thing of your cousin.” Finished the other.

Big silence

He was looking at you with big eyes and a shocked expression. Your parents soon understood they Fucked Up™ and excused themselves, but Yoosung stopped them.

“No, no. [Y/N] and I need to talk, so we’ll be the ones to go elsewhere.”

He made you a soft smile and took your hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. You were still a little unsure what to think do so you just followed him in your room.

There, he closed the door and lead you to the bed. He sat on it and told you to do the same, which you did.

“Why didn’t you tell me about his, [Y/N]?” his voice was soft but a little shaky.

It wasn’t like him to be calm, especially about something this big.

You told your reason and he listen without interrupting you and nodded from time to time.

He would squeeze you hand quite a lot bit when you start crying. When you finished he hugged you tightly and rubbed your back.

Also, the boy was crying too. what a cinnamon roll

He remembered all the time you listened to him talking about Rika late at night and how you always seemed to understand his feelings despite how badly he could word it sometimes. He understood why you never tried to rush him to get over Rika’s suicide.

It was all because you’ve been there.

But most importantly, he hated himself for not realizing that he might have hurt you because he was too centered on his own feelings.

“I’m so sorry for everything, sweetie” he whispered.

You hugged him back and buried your face in the crook of his neck.

“It’s ok, Yoosung, really. You couldn’t know, and it happened way before I even joined the RFA.”

Still, it was a shock for him to learn that his lover has tried to end her life, even if it was way before you met.

You clung to each other for a few minutes, treasuring the moment.

You both went back in the dining room hand in hand with puffy eyes from crying. Your parents apologized again, but you reassured them that everything was sorted out.

You kissed his left cheek, right under a scar left from the wound he had from a few months ago. “We have each other, now. Right?”

His face turned red and he smiled at you with loving eyes. “Right.”

Jaehee

You were having a break at the cafe, was reading the newspaper and an article caught your attention. It was about a man who ended his life, and while you were reading, you realized what drove him to suicide was similar to your struggle in the past.

You were engrossed in the story and didn’t heard Jaehee call your name until she patted on your shoulder, startling you.

“[Y/N], can you help me with a command please?”

“Oh, hum, yes I’m coming.” You got up and followed her.

She quickly noticed how you seemed to space out more than usually but didn’t mind it that much, supposing you were probably just concentrated on something else.

After that, she picked up the newspaper you left on the table and got curious about it. She didn’t jump on conclusion right away, but she still made a note in the back of her mind that you were spacey after reading the article.

Such a Mom™

The more the day went by, the more she noticed how you weren’t your usual self, especially you making a lot of mistakes.

So, at home in the evening, she called you in the living room. When you arrived, two cups of herbal tea and a blanket were waiting. You cuddled up to her, wrapping both of you in the cozy blanket.

“Is there a new musical Zen was in?” you smelled your cup of herbal tea. Mmh, this one was perfect after a rough day at the café.

She shook her head and took out the article of her pocket.

Oh, you knew what was coming.

“I was a little worried. You were acting off after your break and I this was what I found.” she was slightly agitated, but her concerned eyes were locked with yours. “Is there a specific reason, like you knowing that man or anything happened to you with the subject of… you know, suicide, or I am making false assumptions?”

You took a deep breath and proceeded to tell her everything. From what made you hit rock bottom to how you recovered after the last attempt. You also told her that sometimes hearing situations about people who killed themselves was still a little heavy for you.

Jaehee placed an arm around your shoulder and pecked your cheek, pulling you closer.

“You’re so strong, love. Having to put up with the whole group talking about Rika must have been hard, wasn’t it?”

A tear rolled down of your eye and you were only able to make a whimper in response. She embraced you and caressed your hair, soothing you slowly.

“So, want to lighten the mood with a movie or something?”

She chuckled and laid her head on yours. “How about we cuddle that sadness to death?”

You nuzzled against her neck and whispered a faint “sounds good”

You spent the evening cuddling and drinking the herbal tea together. You eventually fell asleep on her, but it didn’t take much time for her to follow you.

Zen / Hyun

You were both sitting on the sofa, him reading the script of an upcoming movie, and you on your phone in the chatroom. You knew the movie he was in was a romantic drama, but nothing more, since he only got the role during the day. However, you were too curious not to know.

“Can I read it, Zenny?” you asked, poking him with your foot.

“I can’t let you, babe, sorry. But I can tell you what the story’s about” he gave you a playful wink. “But you didn’t hear it from me, alright?”

Now he was talking

You smiled, closed the app and crawled up to him, cuddling comfortably against his chest. He kissed your head and played with your hair while narrating the big picture of the movie.

But boy, he didn’t see your expression darkens. It was one of those sappy movies with Depressed Girl meeting Popular Handsome Boy and with his help and love, her depression was cured.

The worst was that not only did Zen approved of the concept, but he also called it romantic. You felt sick.

You quickly stood up, spitting a disgusted “ugh” then went right to the bedroom. Zen only looked at you with a dumbfounded expression, not even knowing what made you irritated. He tried to follow you but the door was closed before he could enter.

He gently knocked.

“Babe? Princess? What’s wrong?”

You paced in the room, your whole body tensed up “I-… Just… please leave me alone for now.” The sound of footsteps came to you, and a heavy sigh left your mouth.

You knew you shouldn’t be lashing out on him. After all, he was simply uninformed on the subject. Knowing him, it was obvious that he would’ve stand 10 miles away from the role if he was aware of how unhealthy the whole thing was. However, you couldn’t just ignore nor tame the rage you felt.

It took you about ten minutes to calm down, so you made your way back to the living room. A faint recognizable smell was in the air, and it made you heart clench. Was he really…

Zen was cooking on the stove, humming slowly, his back facing you.

“Are you preparing my favourite dish?”

He jumped and looked over his shoulder, gazing at you with surprised red eyes. “I… I don’t know what I did to upset you, honey. But I want to apologize so… you know.” He scratched the back of his head.

“No, Zen. I should be the one apologizing.” You looked away. “You weren’t aware that it’s something I’m sensitive about.”

He gave you a questioned look, so you decided to continue.

“I need to take it off my chest, Hyun. Can we sit for a moment, please?”

You didn’t need to ask a second time, since he quickly stopped the fire of the stove. You sat at the table, while he took the seat on front of you.

You explained your point of view on the movie plot, and before he could say anything you quickly said it. “I was once that girl, Zen. I- she was alone, even if people tried to help. She tried to end everything but it didn’t work out.” Your vision became blurry. “It was so horrible, you have no idea.”

You were shaking and sobbing, but something felt lighter. However, Zen got up and went away.

“Z-Zen? What ar-are you doing?” the hiccups made it harder to talk.

Your eyes followed him through the living room. He picked up the script and gave you a gentle smile. “Want to go on the rooftop, Superwoman?”

Well, that nickname was new.

You followed him, taking his warm hand in yours. It was dark outside, with only the buildings’ and moon’s light to illuminate the surroundings.

Zen took a lighter out of his pocket and handed it along with the script to you. “Enjoy yourself, babe.”

You took them but gave him a suspicious look. “Don’t worry, I’m not accepting any role that gives a bad example, and l stay 10 miles away from those that make my girlfriend mad.”

You smiled and lighted up the corner of the papers, enjoying the sight. Zen hugged you from behind and looked at the flames dancing.

“By the way, why did you called me Superwoman?”

He chuckled and gave you a peck on the head. “You went through hell and could have mind your own business like a normal person would. Yet, you’re trying to save the whole damn RFA. Only a hero would do that.”

You rolled your eyes at how cheesy he was.

Jumin

Jumin has been invited to a charity event held by the community organizations of the city, and unlike most of the time, you were quite interested by the cause. They were raising funds to help organisms with the problematic of suicide.

He was amused by how you were more at ease with the social workers present than with the guests. Usually, you were following him, never leaving his side and rarely talked. But right now, you were almost dragging him to learn about each and every organization.

Sometimes, he was even taken aback by your knowledge on the matter.

You were currently talking with a woman working in an organization helping teenagers. After some time, he leaned on to your ear and whispered “Just saw an associate. It won’t be long.”

You gave him a quick peck on the lips and he smiled at you as he left in a sort of hurry.

Oh, did Mr. Han felt like a third wheel by any chance?

He still had an eye on you while discussing business. Because you know, it’s Jumin Han. Your back was turned as you were facing the woman.

Her expression darken with a concerned look. He saw her speak, then a gentle smile appeared on her lips and she placed a hand on your shoulder. Jumin was soon asked to introduce you to his associate, since he heard you were an interesting woman.

He came to pick you and gave his arm. You both made your way to the man who seemed to be in the late fifty with some grey hair on the side of his head. The introductions went smoothly, then Jumin and him talked about the charity event.

However, it quickly went south. The businessman strongly believed that people with mental illnesses shouldn’t be tolerated in work places, since they could be dangerous and can’t be at their full potential for the company.

You and Jumin glanced at each other. His expression said to stay calm, but the stiffness in his jaw said murder otherwise.

He tried to talk him out subtly, but the man didn’t want to hear reason.

“Why did you come to this event, then, sir?” You tried not to sound too harsh.

“It seems to be the trend for companies to adopt some sort of forward thinking policies only to avoid controversies. Also, attending events like this is a good publicity.” You clenched your fist. “To be honest, people who commit suicide are only cowards. They run from their problems instead of solving them.“

You were burning with rage. How could someone who’s responsible of thousands of people’s wealth could be this ignorant? The lack of reaction from your fiancé only made you even more mad, to the point that you had to excuse yourself from the conversation.

You rushed out of the hall, looking at the floor and avoiding eye contacts with others. Once you found a calm hallway, you sat on a bench and took off those damned high heels. Jumin was clearly annoyed by his insolence, so why didn’t he say anything?

You rubbed your face, smearing your makeup in the process. Shit. You wanted to punch something, but you also knew it wasn’t the best place to do anything funny.

The sound of steps and your name being called echoed in the corridor. You sighed when you saw the figure of Jumin coming your way.

”[Y/N], what are you-“ he saw your face and stopped. "What’s wrong, doll?"

He kneeled before you and took your hands in his. You felt a tingling sensation at your eyes as your vision became blurry. God, you hated when that happened. You looked at your linked hands and bit your bottom lip in an attempt to stop your chin from trembling.

"Are you sad?” You shook your head slightly. “Angry?” You nod. “Is this because of what he said?” You nod again, more vigorously this time.

There was a moment of silence, then he put a hand on your cheek, making you look at him. He looked calm, as usual. But seeing you in this state was hard.

“You tried to commit suicide in the past, didn’t you?"

Your eyes widen and your muscles tensed up, which made him understand that he was right. He wanted to know everything that happened to you, but he also knew you weren’t in the state to talk about it, nor was it the place to.

"H-how… Did you k-know?” You asked, hiccupping at the same time.

He smiled sweetly and rubbed your cheek with his thumb. “I also have subjects that make me lose control.” His eyes looked sad. “I won’t force you to tell me everything now, love.”

You sighed and leaned on his hand, feeling way calmer than before. “Thanks.”

“Want to go back home?”

“Won’t you be missed, though?”

He got up, took you shoes and kissed your forehead. “Don’t worry, I’m not needed here more than anyone else. They won’t miss us.” Well, that was a lie but you didn’t need to know that. All he wanted for now was to ease your pain.

You accepted and he gave your heels back before calling driver Kim. You both made your way outside and got into the car. Once seated, Jumin wrapped his arm around your waist and dialed a number on his phone. You furrowed your brows at him.

He only gave you a smirk accompanied with a wink.

What were you planning, Jumin Han?

“Hello, Seven? I need your help with something.”

“ Jumin, no!” You tried to take the cell phone, but he held you in place effortlessly.

“Junseo Tokko. Give any incriminating information you find about him to the press.” Then he hung up.

You pouted at him, but deep down you were happy that this man would reap what he sowed. Jumin chuckled and pecked your head.

No one messed with his fiancée and got out of it unhurt.

Seven / Saeyoung

He knew you had an history with depression and has been in the hospital in the background check. If you saw a therapist or a psychologist in the past would also be written, but no details would be available for him to hack. So he assumed you tried to kill yourself, but never thought it would be a good idea to bring that up.

If you made jokes or innuendos about it in the chatroom, he would be the first to scold you about it. After all, this asshole wouldn’t mind being killed, so he just knows the feeling.

But one night, while you were still stuck in the apartment, Seven was again making overtime. At one point, his eyes were burning, so he decided to take a pause and check on you, just to be sure you were ok.

When he didn’t see you asleep, he felt his heart making a whole flip in his chest. Oh God, did the hacker kidnapped you while he was busy?

He quickly went through the other cameras, and calmed down when he saw you in the kitchen. Good, he won’t have to call Vanderwood for backup.

You were cooking something in the microwave. It made him chuckle. How cute, you were having a sneaky midnight snack at 2 am.

Your phone vibrated and you checked on it, seeing a text from Saeyoung.

“Can’t sleep? (~￣▽￣)~”

You looked around, trying to spot the security camera. It was in a corner just above a cabinet, so it took some time to find it. You waved at it, making a silly face at the same time.

His heart melt. He couldn’t help gushing over your cuteness and found himself calling you. You answered right away with a chuckle.

“I thought you were supposed to be working, agent 707? “ you said in a teasing tone. He made a high pitched whimper and sank into his chair.

“You sound like someone I know.” He whined.

The microwave rang and you hurried to take your food out. Mmh, ramens are always a to go during the night. You sat down to eat and switched you phone on speaker to be able to talk with Saeyoung.

The more you spoke together, the less both of your guards were up, leading the subject of your conversation to a more personal tone.

“Say, can I ask you something?” You voice was hesitant.

“Hum yeah, shoot.”

“You always make jokes that are quite self-hatred. So, I was kinda worried that maybe you were suicidal.” Wow, that was direct.

He tried to avoid answering with a joke, but your silence made him understand that you were dead serious. He grunted and rubbed his eyes under his glasses.

“No, I’m not. It’s just… complicated. I…” he tried to find the words.

“- wouldn’t mind having a car rolling over you?”

“Yeah, exactly.” He was relieved that you were able to understand what he was trying to say. There was a silence, which was broken by him. “My turn to ask you something.”

“Sure, why not?” You finished eating and rinsed your dishes, then went back to your room and laid down on the bed.

He switched the camera. “In your files, it’s written that you spent some time in the hospital and had a history with depression.” You fucking knew it. “Did you try to…” The last two words were stuck in his throat.

You sighed heavily and ran your hand through your hair. “Did you really need to look that up?”

“Sorry, background check. Just made sure you would be able to support the organization.”

“I understand. But yeah, I did try.” You wrapped yourself in the blanket and closed your eyes. “Want to know more?”

“You… don’t mind talking about it?”

“If it’s you, no.” It took him some time to process the information. Did you really trust him that much? Or was it the lack of sleep?

You spent the next minutes telling him what you lived and how you were able to over come your depression. He listen the whole time and tried to comfort you when you began to be emotional, but he wasn’t the best at it. His clumsiness made you laugh a bit and it eased your mind.

However, your eyes were closing themselves after some time and you weren’t able to follow the conversation with Seven. He called your name and you answered with a sleepy moan.

“If you need to sleep, just do it.” He was now whispering.

You scoffed at him, saying that you wanted to talk more with him. Ugh, you really needed to stop being so cute.

With that being said, you were out the next minute. Saeyoung felt his heart melt at the sight of your dormant form in the blanket and he chuckled softly.

“I wish I was strong like you, [Y/N].” then he hung up

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