#I'm not bitter about it OR ANYTHING

[yet-another-haven-of-dollya]

*Tap mic*

Yes, it is I - your poor little Dollya

As some of you may have known already because of my constant whining and bickering for the past few days, my original blog was flagged and I'm trying to appeal. Things seem to not be on my side, though, so I figured a new blog is a must.

I won't delete the og blog, there are too many things going on over there and I simply can not. All my contributions to the DoL fandom, my AU and asks and stuffs,... have all been hidden away from the tags.

Not gonna lie I was terribly discouraged and couldn't pick up a pen to draw or do anything for several days. Terrible, just simply terrible, to look at the ask box or that stupid default avatar icon... But, well, you know, it is what it is, no point just weeping around so might as well make a new place to post stuffs!

This is a sub-blog with the same email address as the flagged one, I think I would still use the same tags as the original flagged blog: Dollya art, Dollya ask,... and I won't repost my higher interaction posts here either, that's just bitter.

I will post more "community-friendly" kinds of stuff here, so spicier asks or requests oughta go to the original blog' ask box... I don't really know, I guess things will kinda fall into the right places after some time... What do you call it? Settle down?

Anyway, I'll try to be positive. After all, the Pandora box was opened, so if I don't hold onto the tiny hope left behind, I will have nothing.

Let's just hope for the best.

#dollya art #dol pc #robin the orphan #dol robin #dol fanart #degrees of lewdity #dol #You can already tell I'm still very sad :( and I'm gonna be a bitch about it to the day Tumblr un-flagged me that blog is my everything #I didn't spend every last thread of my sanity drawing and answering to be flagged fuck it I haven't even opened any commission slot yet #I won't let that blog go what if my mutuals come back one day and wonder where am I?? Some of them've gone for a while I want to wait #my face is exactly how my icon looks: fucking bitter and can't do anything #Lya the Blossom #Lyah the Emancipated

[thunderboltfire]

I have a lot of complicated feelings when it comes to what Neflix has done with the Witcher, but my probably least favourite is the line of argumentation that originated during shitstorms related to the first and second season that I was unlucky to witness.

It boils down to "Netflix's reinterpretation and vision is valid, because the Witcher books are not written to be slavic. The overwhelming Slavic aestetic is CDPR's interpretation, and the setting in the original books is universally European, as there are references to Arthurian mythos and celtic languages" And I'm not sure where this argument originated and whether it's parroting Sapkowski's own words or a common stance of people who haven't considered the underlying themes of the books series. Because while it's true that there are a lot of western european influences in the Witcher, it's still Central/Eastern European to the bone, and at its core, the lack of understanding of this topic is what makes the Netflix series inauthentic in my eyes.

The slavicness of the Witcher goes deeper than the aestetics, mannerisms, vodka and sour cucumbers. Deeper than Zoltan wrapping his sword with leopard pelt, like he was a hussar. Deeper than the Redanian queen Hedvig and her white eagle on the red field.

What Witcher is actually about? It's a story about destiny, sure. It's a sword-and-sorcery style, antiheroic deconstruction of a fairy tale, too, and it's a weird mix of many culture's influences.

But it's also a story about mundane evil and mundane good. If You think about most dark, gritty problems the world of Witcher faces, it's xenophobia and discrimination, insularism and superstition. Deep-seated fear of the unknown, the powerlessness of common people in the face of danger, war, poverty and hunger. It's what makes people spit over their left shoulder when they see a witcher, it's what makes them distrust their neighbor, clinging to anything they deem safe and known. It's their misfortune and pent-up anger that make them seek scapegoats and be mindlessly, mundanely cruel to the ones weaker than themselves.

There are of course evil wizards, complicated conspiracies and crowned heads, yes. But much of the destruction and depravity is rooted in everyday mundane cycle of violence and misery. The worst monsters in the series are not those killed with a silver sword, but with steel. it's hard to explain but it's the same sort of motiveless, mundane evil that still persist in our poorer regions, born out of generations-long poverty and misery. The behaviour of peasants in Witcher, and the distrust towards authority including kings and monarchs didn't come from nowhere.

On the other hand, among those same, desperately poor people, there is always someone who will share their meal with a traveller, who will risk their safety pulling a wounded stranger off the road into safety. Inconditional kindness among inconditional hate. Most of Geralt's friends try to be decent people in the horrible world. This sort of contrasting mentalities in the recently war-ridden world is intimately familiar to Eastern and Cetral Europe.

But it doesn't end here. Nilfgaard is also a uniquely Central/Eastern European threat. It's a combination of the Third Reich in its aestetics and its sense of superiority and the Stalinist USSR with its personality cult, vast territory and huge army, and as such it's instantly recognisable by anybody whose country was unlucky enough to be caught in-between those two forces. Nilfgaard implements total war and looks upon the northerners with contempt, conscripts the conquered people forcibly, denying them the right of their own identity. It may seem familiar and relevant to many opressed people, but it's in its essence the processing of the trauma of the WW2 and subsequent occupation.

My favourite case are the nonhumans, because their treatment is in a sense a reminder of our worst traits and the worst sins in our history - the regional antisemitism and/or xenophobia, violence, local pogroms. But at the very same time, the dilemma of Scoia'Tael, their impossible choice between maintaining their identity, a small semblance of freedom and their survival, them hiding in the forests, even the fact that they are generally deemed bandits, it all touches the very traumatic parts of specifically Polish history, such as January Uprising, Warsaw Uprising, Ghetto Uprising, the underground resistance in WW2 and the subsequent complicated problem of the Cursed Soldiers all at once. They are the 'other' to the general population, but their underlying struggle is also intimately known to us.

The slavic monsters are an aestetic choice, yes, but I think they are also a reflection of our local, private sins. These are our own, insular boogeymen, fears made flesh. They reproduce due to horrors of the war or they are an unprovoked misfortune that descends from nowhere and whose appearance amplifies the local injustices.

I'm not talking about many, many tiny references that exist in the books, these are just the most blatant examples that come to mind. Anyway, the thing is, whether Sapkowski has intended it or not, Witcher is slavic and it's Polish because it contains social commentary. Many aspects of its worldbuilding reflect our traumas and our national sins. It's not exclusively Polish in its influences and philosophical motifs of course, but it's obvious it doesn't exist in a vacuum.

And it seems to me that the inherently Eastern European aspects of Witcher are what was immediately rewritten in the series. It seems to me that the subtler underlying conflicts were reshaped to be centered around servitude, class and gender disparity, and Nilfgaard is more of a fanatic terrorist state than an imposing, totalitarian empire. A lot of complexity seems to be abandoned in lieu of usual high-fantasy wordbuilding. It's especially weird to me because it was completely unnecessary. The Witcher books didn't need to be adjusted to speak about relevant problems - they already did it! The problem of acceptance and discrimination is a very prevalent theme throughout the story! They are many strong female characters too, and they are well written. Honestly I don't know if I should find it insulting towards their viewers that they thought it won't be understood as it was and has to be somehow reshaped to fit the american perpective, because the current problems are very much discussed in there and Sapkowski is not subtle in showing that genocide and discrimination is evil. Heck, anyone who has read the ending knows how tragic it makes the whole story.

It also seems quite disrespectful, because they've basically taken a well-established piece of our domestic literature and popular culture and decided that the social commentary in it is not relevant. It is as if all it referenced was just not important enough and they decided to use it as an opportunity to talk about the problems they consider important. And don't get me wrong, I'm not forcing anyone to write about Central European problems and traumas, I'm just confused that they've taken the piece of art already containing such a perspective on the popular and relevant problem and they just... disregarded it, because it wasn't their exact perspective on said problem.

And I think this homogenisation, maybe even from a certain point of view you could say it's worldview sanitisation is a problem, because it's really ironic, isn't it? To talk about inclusivity in a story which among other problems is about being different, and in the same time to get rid of motifs, themes and references because they are foreign? Because if something presents a different perspective it suddenly is less desirable?

There was a lot of talking about the showrunners travelling to Poland to understand the Witcher's slavic spirit and how to convey it. I don't think they really meant it beyond the most superficial, paper-thin facade.

#The witcher #Sorry if its convoluted I just got reminded of something and it made me a little angry #and as I had this conversation a lot of times I've decided to put it into written text #sorry about being bitter #but these are some of my favourite books and I'm still upset when I get reminded how badly they were treated in the recent adaptation #I'm not saying you should never change anything #But it's good to have enough background to understand why some things are the way they are in the original #and to understand what the source material is about #we don't talk about particular character's looks or something (altough I feel they could care more about it too) #but central themes tropes and motifs #long post #it may seem like I'm talking from a high horse here #people are welcome to interpret literature however they want #Nobody has a monopol on themes #I just think that in this particular case the cultural context influences the worldbuilding #and if changed it doesn't have the same impact anymore #meta

[bardandbear]

So. Transient media. I'm not looking to start any beef, however the latest change to BG3 has me feeling uneasy, less for the specifics involved and more for what it represents.

For those unaware, some very eagle-eyed players spotted that Larian had rewritten some of Gortash's Act 3 letters. I don't know what prompted them to do this, they're extremely minor codex entries addressed to a NPC. I find it hard to believe that anyone provided feedback about these, and the opinion I've seen from most Gortfans is that they liked them before. They were a little character reward for people who were obsessively scouring the game for information.

What I find troubling is that the change definitely alters characterisation in a way that isn't building on something that already exists, it isn't reworking something in a remaster a decade later, it's literally been months. Lore and character are being retconned months after release in what was supposed to be a (finished) standalone singleplayer game.

When is it done? Bug fixes obviously can and should be applied when something is actively broken, but this isn't a bug fix, nor have the previous 'minor' tweaks to character approvals and voicelines etc. It's also not adding content to the game, it's changing it. It's like seeing a movie re-cut for the streaming release, or a book getting minor deviations introduced every time it gets a print run. By all means, fix errors left in by mistake, fix your typos, make a sequel, but why are we okay with increasingly crowdsourced transient media? What is the point in engaging with something, with forming connection with something, if there's always the chance that what you liked about it in the first place is going to get changed?

#bg3 critical #larian critical #leave the text alone #it's done #it's released #put down the pen #this feeds in not just to artistic expression but the broader trend of how we don't own anything digital anymore #things you paid for #things you liked #can be irrevocably changed and removed #yes i'm still bitter about what happened to overwatch

[laufire]

early 00s comics be like. everyone was SO mean to stephanie for NO reason.

#reading in rapid succession how bruce is blacklisting her and the bop refuse to keep training her #and cass just keeps knocking her unconscious adsñlfkja (which barbara practically cheers on because steph is just soooo annoying apparently #like am i supposed to believe there was anything ''defective'' about her that meant she had to be stopped from vigilantism AT ALL COSTS #(except whenever it was convenient to bruce) #but every other child/teen vigilante is just. fine? like. how is her case different than tim's? #(other than bruce needing a teenaged minder as to not get overly violent and kills someone) #and i'm sure she made mistakes* along the way but lbr batman comics are notoriously hypocritical re: whose mistakes are forgiven #(*this is all before war games but that was another story and straight up character assassination lbr) #talking to the void #my thoughts #dc thoughts #dc #dc comics #stephanie brown #bitter lau tag

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Tumblr is way chiller than Twitter for sure but sometimes I see a post and I'm like. Y'all DO remember this is a block game, right? You're not gonna get legitimately pissy and passive-aggressive over characters doing things in a block game, RIGHT???

#i talk #qsmp talk #Chatter: Jaiden don't do this— twitter will cancel you! #The rest of us in chat: Why should she care about anything Twitter says #People on frickin twitter AND tumblr: *whining about Jaiden* #LIKE BRO YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS LMFAOOOOOO #fandom wank #I'm gonna start unfollowing people #not even just for bad opinions I'm just tired of seeing people being mean and bitter #I'm just here to have fun I don't want to constantly see whining #Critique characters and stuff all you want that's part of the fandom experience but some of y'all are so damn mean for no reason lmao #Touch grass and seek therapy #I know me posting this is part of the ''too many people complaining'' problem but Jaiden's my gal I am a little bit annoyed by that #Again: character critique is fine #but sometimes it's just so passive-aggressive and like. written like the character did a personal attack on YOU #<- the last tag is the most important point here I think

[oifaaa]

Okay got a question for everyone

#Poll #I'm arguing with a friend #Bc I used to work at a cinema #And we used to find money while cleaning screens #Usually between 20p to £20 #And ngl we all just kept it #We were meant to give it to our manager #But like we were all usually bitter about the state the screens were left in #So you know fuck um #-for legal reasons this is a joke I have never done anything like this before ever

[thetrashthatsmilesback]

i watched a compilation of other youtubers complaining about DnP, and when the complaints weren't just "the phandom is annoying," they boiled down to:

DnP are both nice but are aloof/weird/insert other trait that makes talking to them at gatherings difficult.

Phil is nice but Dan's a Bitch who Doesn't Let Phil Talk To Other People (which... Phil is a grown ass man but okay. Maybe he just doesn't want to talk to you but whatever, sure.)

DnP are nice but they queerbait (ig now they're the ultimate queerbaiters since they own a house together lmfao)

DnP are nice but Phil is nicer and Dan is hotter (which,,, I honestly don't know why these clips were included but I'm going to take it as "They're both nice but Dan is more aloof" which is funny because that's a character trait he's said he has for years and as a fellow aloof bitch its very funny to me when people complain about it lmfaooooo)

I'm ngl, the amount of people who were in the compilation just because of the Phandom, or who's complaints boiled down to "DnP are both very nice but very awkward/aloof/stick to themselves" makes me think that they're generally nice and other people just don't understand that not everyone likes talking all the time lmfao

#dnp #phan #this was a pointless post but it is interesting to see people actually dislike dnp #because i feel like 90% of other youtubers say they're incredibly nice #so seeing people say ''phil is nice but dan is a bitch who doesn't let other people talk to phil grrr'' #and seeing that come from people other than charlieskies #is interesting #it does raise the question of ''how much power over phil do these people think dan has'' #because if they genuinely thought dan was ruining phil's friendships and controlling him then they should have actual concern #but instead they just seem bitter that phil doesn't talk to them at meetups and have decided to blame dan for whatever reason #queue #if i'm using queue it just means i hit my post limit #not that i think the post is particularly special or anything #dan and phil #danisnotonfire #amazingphil #danisnotinteresting #lessamazingphil #i saw these comps as a kid but i refused to watch anything that insulted dan or phil so i never watched them #and honestly? having watched them now? they are 99% about the phandom being annoying lmfao #which good for us

[everysongineverykey]

and for my next trick i present... my Grand Tv People Freakout Extravaganza!!! *falls to the floor weeping violently*

#the owl house #toh raeda #raine whispers #eda clawthorne #i swear to god they're going to kill me. they're going to kill me. falls onfloor #you do everything you can to keep your beloved from finding out your secret thinking they will surely hate you but they end up leaving you #for doing just that #and then thirty years later they lie to you about being brainwashed and pretend not to recognize you #to keep you safe so they say #but you look into their eyes and all you see is that younger you staring back at you!!! #the one who loved them so much she forced the feathers and claws back down into her skin to keep them with her and didn't even succeed! #and you think: i thought we were past this. i thought you said i should have known better. #but when it comes down to it you both just want to keep the other safe more than anything. because maybe you still love each other #underneath the years of loneliness and bitterness. and maybe the thought of looking them in the eyes #and just saying 'i'm sorry. i was wrong. i miss you. i love you. can we try again?' #is too frightening for that prideful earnest loving yet cowardly and broken girl inside you. #and the thought of admitting you have made them change their mind is too painful for your beloved #who has resigned themself to always standing there and watching as you go and destroy yourself while cracking a joke. #anyway. heehoo funny owl show

[gailynovelry]

Gently shaking the sort of people who go like "ew why would anyone describe a book using tropes, that doesn't tell me anything about—" honey, it's because it's a convenient shorthand. If you want to know what the story is about in actual detail, then click the link and read the summary. Maybe read a few reviews and learn what the experience was like for other people. Please, I know that you are smart enough to do a little research on your own.

And if you're not interested in the way the author described the book anyway, then why are you wasting time telling them how uninterested you are? Go find something you actually like!

#vent #“describe the themes” #sure. describing themes means the sentence “this book is about my fear of queer genocide” #which if you'll notice is not in fact the aimless fluff you think all books ever described with tropes are #nor is it necessarily fanfiction-esque content #not saying that to diss fanfiction i am saying that because tropes are not exclusive to fanfiction and i am not really a fanfic writer #there are a lot of interesting literary conversations to be had with and about and using tropes #and i am tired of people lashing out at systems of categorization they refuse to use instead of figuring out how to find what they want #i'm blaming passive content consuming habits for this one #“i can't ever find anything that's not XYZ” #okay hear me out #are you actually taking the time to look through your potential possibilities #or are you staring ruefully at whatever the algorithm (or your mutual circle) served you up by happenstance? #you have more queer options than ever. far more than i had growing up (excuse the bitterness). learn how to hunt them down.

[sciderman]

Thiughts on peterflash?

it's kind of not my bag - i don't know, there's little i can say other than it just doesn't resonate with me personally - i'm kind of just not very into the whole bully redemption sort of a thing,, it doesn't tickle my pickle

#sci speaks #different strokes for different folks #it's kind of funny that that's just the one peter ship i'm myeh about #and it's not vehemently or anything #i kind of wish i was more into flash as a character but he's just not a character i'm very invested in.. im so sorry flash #i think the dynamic of flash kind of thinking he and peter are bros in the future and that everything is water under the bridge #but peter actually still being perpetually bitter is Way funnier to me #flash: hey pete. we're friends right. #peter: uh. no. #flash: haha yeah so anyway #flash doesn't get the memo

[lesbiansforboromir]

oh OH hO spicey ohhh having a spicey little tantrum about the boromir tag don't listen to me at all do NOT listen I mean it I mean it this is so petty

#text post #Gonna go ffffucking crazy- people have to bend so far over backwards to make Boromir bad that they just full out ignore his entire characte #and bend even further over backwards to make the elves all better than him too like jesus christ #oh is it BOROMIR who would be bitter about dying in the defense of Rohan??? whose despair is just so self serving and requires legolas to #slap him out of it yes uhuh that seems reasonable seems like BOROMIR would just hate the idea of dying for allies he so clearly loved #when in the full actual canonical scene of his death he dies for two random guys he met five months ago and all he has to say about it is #he failed he is sorry he has paid #BOROMIR definitely doesn't deal well with his own looming death and would definitely snap at other people about it ignoring all the decades #he has been under the looming shadow of death and has been known as not-grim and loved by many and has done his duty almost like #that is literally all his life has been up until this point #and of course of course it's ARAGORN who he's supposed to be fighting for because he's SOO impactful on Boromir's psyche he meant so much t #him apparently ggrsfsfgrrffffggfrgr #everyone wants to hit boromir oh yeah he's so annoying his hopelessness is such a burden and everyone else has to deal with him #if ANY of you go looking for what I'm talking about and do anything about it I'll slaughter you myself these are such inside thoughts the #comic is good #I shouldn't even be angry it's the natural conclusion from a story that tells you Boromir is bad but does not spell out that it's because h #isn't 'faithful' to god #they just tell you he is 'too despairing' and he 'desires power' and he 'doesn't have hope' (hope being a proxy for faith and Boromir not #believing in Aragorn means he doesn't believe in Eru's chosen leaders and his 'grand plan') #despair being a sin because it means you are selfishly giving into your own desires for a good life for you and the people you love #rather than accepting that all is God's plan and this life is only meaningful if you are defending Eru's right to the throne of the world #But that isn't spelled out so for despair to be treated as evil in the story people apply a secular understanding of 'bad despair' #already a TERRIBLE idea btw genuinely awful to percieve hopelessness as a personal moral failing #I suppose thats it actually the major reason it gets to me cus hopelessness and despair is a base aspect of my existence like #I am in despair pretty much constantly and I know a lot of other disabled people with similar sentiments #and the urging from people to 'have hope' is at this point sickening and infuriating and maddening to me it is disconnected from my reality #WHICH is demonstrably why I care about Boromir and Denethor so much no one meets them where they are no one sits in their reality with them #they are deeply relatable in their dealing with dispair namely; they just live and accomplish and strive along with their sarcasm and #black humour through their dark grueling lives and do what duty demands and try to hold onto their crumbling family relationships #and then they each have uniquely cathartic ends to those lives

[sergle]

also I’m glad some other ppl have been feeling it too- but lately I have just so been like. not feelin it, with stuff that is obviously meant to have an Air of sort of body positivity, if you could call it that, but is really just hot garbage when you look closely at it.  I know we have some frighteningly low standards for what we consider praiseworthy in this topic, but I’m tired LMAO I only want actual body positivity, not just meaningless platitudes. tiktoks about how you don’t need to feel bad about your body and victoria’s secret models aren’t realistically proportioned or sized, but all the people dancing in the video or thin. or quotes from a fatphobic dude about how alluring it to go on a date with an (unspokenly thin) person who orders a large meal and finishes it all without seeming self conscious. and it’s like. is this the kind of stuff that I’m supposed to Yass at? 

#I don't know if what I'm saying makes any sense but do you KNOW what I mean #the tiktok song is obviously much more egregious than that antonio bordwayyne post that I complained about earlier #but they remind me of eachother in the sense that I feel similar Irritation abt em #and I'm also not trying to be A Dick bc I only see these things bc occasionally a mutual reblogs smth like this #bc they think it's nice and i'm like. i'm not trying to say you aren't allowed to get anything out of this #but *I* don't bc I'M BITTER #so when i reblog it with an insanely negative take it's obv not aimed at the person i follow who liked it enough to reblog #but ANYWAY i AM absolutely bitter #sergle.txt #I want things of SUBSTANCE i am annoyed and impatient

[icouldbeyourprettygirl]

His wife casually brought up going through his phone (to him) in front of me. I had a feeling he'd either show her the text I sent him or she'd see it anyways, but that seemed like it was aimed at me...

#like she was warning me not to text him because she'll see it? #But also why is she going through his phone?? #Does she suspect something? #She's always so sweet to me but sometimes I feel like she knows I like him #Because she'll look at me weird occasionally #And when she sees us together her voice will get kind of bitter sounding? #Like I get it 100% #I wouldn't be crazy about my husband hanging out with a girl half our age either at 40 #but I don't really think there's anything going on between S and me #like out of context a lot of the stuff could be seen as flirting #but at the end of the day I'm not really sure I believe he is #male teacher crush #teacher and student #teacher crush community #male teacher x female student #teacher crush #teacher x student #male tc #teacher cc #s #teacher confessions #teacher crush confessions #teacher crush blog #tc blog #tc crush #tcc #tc community #tcc feelings #tcc tumblr

[lucent-nargacuga]

looks around awkwardly

I know I loathe valentine's day with every fibre of my being, but,,,

read the tags of the original post for context, but only if you're prepared for a shit ton of awkward embarrassment

#capri rambles #I'm 99% sure this is a weird platonic interest. no I am not proposing. or confessing ''love''. or doing anything stupid like that #I will simply be giving them. a gift. of some sort. as I am only interested in friendship #an appreciation gift perhaps... #it's definitely going to be art. I won't post it publicly right away #I think what I'll do. is make random gift art for other people and post it with them so nobody gets suspicious #yes I am too shy and awkward to let anyone know who it is #mutual I'm pretty sure you'll see this. and you'll Know all this internal turmoil is about you once- I mean- if you get the gift #dearest mutual please know I am a coward and a fool. please don't get mad at me for my shitfucked brain making me feel this way #I'm angry and disappointed with myself already as is. this is so stupid. um anyway #I won't be doing this on the day itself I already have a plan for that and that plan is being bitter about my ex

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Vegetta heard that some members of the server are scared of him and he was like "Why? I'm not even a tryhard, I was the last person to get slime armor" and I'm like... Vegetta people are already scared of you, WHY would you respond to that with "But this isn't even 1% of my true power''

#i talk #qsmp talk #Vegetta be like ''This isn't even my final form'' #Vegetta be like ''well if you're going to be scared of me at least let me give you a good reason for it /pos'' lmao #It's always so baffling to me (as a KarmaIand fan) seeing how Vegetta's depicted in Fool/igetta fanworks #because the way people often depict Foolish as this incredibly powerful demigod (only sometimes incorporating his actual personality / lore #is how people depicted Vegetta (minus the ''we're disregarding his personality'' part that sometimes happens) in Karmaland #Like it's almost a perfect reverse uno in terms of how people depict Vegetta in KarmaIand vs Q.S.M.P #I'm not mad about it or anything I'm just genuinely amused by how people manage to underestimate him and STILL are afraid of him #like oh honey....... whatever Foolish's ties to immortality and godhood are pale in comparison to Vegetta's #(This is nothing against Foolish BTW his lore on the previous server was fun and I'm bitter we never got to see more of it) #(The entire death totem thing was sick and also the concept of totem gods is so interesting) #The way Vegetta is depicted in Karmaland is very strange #he seems like a being (not necessarily a god but definitely something powerful) #who made their world then stepped back so he could be a part of it #So even though he respects the guidance of elders like Merlon #(to some degree) #and talks about the ''gods'' (admins) as higher powers #the world still bows to him #and that includes the QSMP world #realistically we know this is because every single admin adores Vegetta and grew up with him #but we're looking at this through a lore lense #I can get into this more later - I feel like I should elaborate on my thoughts here and add some canon backing to explain myself a bit more #but you get the jist #Me: let's post a silly little thought about the minecraft series I'm watching #Also me: LET ME CITE MY SOURCES - #Listen man you can't unlearn some things #I'm a professional writer it's in my nature

[molochka-koshka]

Oh so I actually dont like being reminded of something that kind of hurt me and ruined a fandom for me in many ways

#dont like one of my ocs anymore because of all of that and I'm a little bitter about it #which sucks because I thought I was over it #but also I'm still taking a break from making anything relating to that fandom anyway so it doesnt matter! #I'm just bummed out #and probably ovulating so I'm extra emotional