#I'm only on episode 32 so I don't know how this is going to turn out

[brooklynishere]

I have a lot of feelings about Tian Zhixie okay

#chong zi #The Journey of Chong Zi #Tian Zhixie #I'd tag other things but they're spoilers #so I won't #but i love him your honour #he's so dedicated #my heart #I can't even #I'm only on episode 32 so I don't know how this is going to turn out #but he's a precious cinammon roll and must be protected at all costs #yes even if he is evil #(also he's going in the list of 'characters that remind me of SVSSS') #because lbr he's Zhuzhi Lang

[wasyago]

okay um

riptide spoilers for the recent episodes!!!

I dont usually write theories and stuff but i haven't really seen anyone talk about it (maybe i just missed it), and i need to get these thoughts written down because my mind is going a million miles per hour and its driving me crazy.

(Also i guess, disclaimer, im not a patron so the last ep i saw was 108, and i don't know any of the information shared in rolled.)

So. This team of strong pirates, Captain Widow, they're turning the Dread Queen into a lich, right? Like, that's the only logical solution i can think of. They're talking about the Dread Queen obtaining power over life and death, which is like the main lich thing - immortality and the ability to be both dead and alive at the same time. They're performing a long complicated ritual, which is also necessary to become a lich, and that ritual requires a lot of sacrifices and feeding energy and nutrients to the Dread Queen. (And, i apologize, all my knowledge about liches comes from Pointy Hat's videos, but i think they're pretty good to base a theory on).

From what i can recall and what i relistened to: no one knows anything about the Dread Queen, Shadowbeard has never talked about her, in the newspaper about the Lords she was just a silhouette, in the memory Jay got from the Black Sea all they said is that they needed to find her corpse in order to make someone a pirate lord (which clarifies nothing), Drey thought she and all the rest of the Pirate Lords were dead. From what we know about the Lords, Rose dissappeared in the hole in the sea accident. According to Lizzie's words, a couple years ago two more of the Pirate Lords went missing, which are the Dread Queen and our boy Hendrix (which we know is hiding in his pocket dimension). And then Shadowbeard was murdered by Ava in the Shadow Scull Masacre.

As we know from Zamia, the Dread Queen's crew didn't disappear but instead came to the black sea and took over an island. And because there's no contact with the outside world from the black sea, and because Navy freely allows pirates passage there, its fair that the world thought the Dread Queen was dead. And this lack of contact and no Navy activity is probably why the Dread Queen chose the Black Sea as a place for her lich ritual. No one will know about it and no one will interfere, no one will stop them from taking over an entire island and killing it's emperor and doing whatever dark magics they want.

Im not sure why they picked this island specifically. Whether its because of the Great Tree (tm) that is "the way of life and connects every corner of the island and gives it life" and probably has a lot of nutrients for the ritual in it. Or for any other reason, maybe it was just the first island they saw, maybe they just wanted a cool castle, maybe because it's the capital, i don't know but I'm sure there's a smart reason.

Gardeck The Scull Crusher aka the minotaur guy did say that their captain is blessed, and its the reason why death is temporary to them, which is one of the details that confuses me. Because first, who is he referring to, the Dread Queen or Captain Widow, both are technically captains. And second, if he is talking about Widow, then uhhh, how? If he's talking about the Dread Queen and if she is undergoing a lich ritual, (and becoming a lich would grant her the power to freely revive people), then how is she able to cast spells while in a cocoon and probably unconscious and probably not yet a lich?

Uhhh don't know how to end these things but that's all i got for now. Also HUGE respect to Grizzly for coming up with all this and connecting so many things and parallels. Because some of the information comes from as far back as episode 32, and its still relevant and accurate and comes up in the plot now, and oh my god.

#jrwi riptide #jrwi spoilers #jrwi riptide spoilers #riptide spoilers #i think im gonna start actually writing these text posts with all the theories and questions i have #because its quite hard to only ask it under art posts. i can't draw stuff relevant to all the questions i have #umm yeah. so. more text posts incoming i guess #also if you wanna talk about it or tell me something or share your theories that'd be fun!! #and its likely that patrons are sitting there having watched the next ep already and laughing at my silly theory #but who cares man im having fun. relistened to a bucnh of episodes trying to find all the info about the dread queen and it was super cool #yagotalk

[inktheduck]

Ah don’t mind me, just another lil rant about the silly lil podcast show…

[an excerpt from a message I sent over discord]

You know I’ve been thinking. The Magnus Archives. The “fears” and “entities”.

I’m unsure why or how these entities [exist] but my theory is that they are manifested over time/intensity. With enough people [feeling] afraid, this sorta,,, energy manifests into its own being. Almost like a god of our own creation.

[A cage we build ourselves in?]

However that being said, why only fears?

[Why are only the fears being manifested into dangerous forces?]

"Newton’s third law for every action (force) in nature there is an equal and opposite reaction."

If there is fear made manifest then there should also be hope manifested. A way to counteract the negative with the warmth of positive. Like I get it, this is a horror podcast taking place in London. This is the least optimistic setting ever.

But am I really stupid for holding out hope? Pointing out a way to counteract these destructive forces?

For example, the opposite to Distortion is Clarity. The opposite to Lonely is Community. Even if there aren’t entities of positivity, we can make it up inside ourselves, methinks.

The fears seem relentless. Extremely unforgiving. And I understand that the entities are indifferent at best. But I just hrnrmejdmm.

I feel silly being so stubborn against [the idea that] disparity is the only thing available.

[May I have some reassurance?]

Additional thoughts...

If anti-entities exists, then they go unnoticed. Love is quiet and undemanding. It goes unnoticed until it is gone. Until we notice something is wrong, that is when fear comes in. Fear is a very very powerful thing. It is also very very hard to overcome. Especially in these instances where people are at the mercy of merciless beings. It's heartbreaking to realize there can be no way out of a terrible situation. You just gotta,, accept it all. Accept that perhaps you're wrong, perhaps you're going to die, perhaps the things you face in life can (and will) change you forever. Tragedy is inevitable but what you do with it next is what matters. Methinks.

Humanity is filled with fear, love, but most importantly resilience.

These three things are built into the core of all living beings. To focus only on what is terrible is an insult to all the good that goes around.

(This deffo can go the other way around too. I mean, when you got a monster chasing you, you can't just turn around and go,

"Awh man how abwout we all wuv eachothwer? QwQ."

You're gonna fricken die if you do that...most likely.....Just,,, don't risk it.)

So yeah, perhaps I am going to die. But I'm going to go out of this world the same way I came in: Kicking and screaming.

The fears are relentless. The fears are resilient. And guess what? So are we. After all, the entities did (theoretically?) come from us. It's only natural the supernatural is an exaggerated reflection of reality.

Sometimes you gotta fight back with the power of friendship...and blunt force damage. And guns. Or arson...

I might be getting off track. Haha.

Points brought up and tied together...

"I’m unsure why or how these entities [exist] but my theory is that they are manifested over time/intensity."

"Love is quiet and undemanding."

"Fear is a very very powerful thing."

People are naturally going to pay attention to the negative. Tis a survival response! The reason these entities may be prevalent is because humanity as a whole focuses on the negative.

The Magnus Institute is where people go to have their negative (and straight up weird experiences) to be collected. So if the victims of the entities are coming to the institute, then the entities and avatars themselves are bound to come to the institute too! It's like Mentos in a coke bottle of bad vibes. It's gonna explode. (Omg if this turns out to be a literal explosion happening in the archive I am going to flip my lid.) ((Context the last episode I’ve listened to is uhhhh episode 32???)) The bad things recorded seem to be the only things happening because that is where our attention is focused on. There isn't much reason to collect information from people who have had good times and miracles happening. (From a listener standpoint, not exactly the most entertaining or spooky thing to listen to. If I want to hear that then I'd go to church or talk to Facebook moms.) OKOK THE POINT!!!

The reason why "anti-entities" may or may not exist is either because:

The cumulative love of humanity isn't enough to manifest as strong as an entity derived from fear.

OR

The (potential/theoretical) entities here to help people go unnoticed due to not being focused on. It doesn't go out of its way recruiting people to do their bidding because that's just not how they function. Edit: I have part 2 of my think thoughts [HERE]. I wanted to let you know in case people are wanting to know more about my good ol thinky inky thoughts.

#tma #the magnus archives #tma podcast #ink in the archives #the magnus institute #tma spoilers #jonathan sims #tma theory

[respectthepetty]

I’m late. But obsessed with EarthMix and ONLY just finished Moonlight chicken and look, I will believe anything from these shows. Anything! A body swap, yea I’m game, time travel? Sure thing I’ll buy that.

But at no point. At any point, can they try and convince me that Earth is a 40 year old man. Like. Hunny no.

BUT they can convince me that if you show Mix’s Forehead. His Duality reaches another level.

Thank you for allowing me to ramble on your ask, with not an ask but more of a statement of feelings.

🙃

Anon, fair warning this is going to turn into a

Mama Gogo & Jojo Appreciation Post

I've written it plenty of times, but as a person who is always late, it doesn't matter that you're late as long as you show up. And obviously, you show up for the good stuff!

(I'm unsure about the comment about Mix's forehead. I don't understand it. It is very much my reading comprehension, not you, so I'm gonna moonwalk around it. Sorry.)

EarthMix did give us body swapping in Cupid's Last Wish and Magic of Zero: Zero Supporter, which I think is funny that their Cupid's Last Wish characters basically got a sponsored Our Skyy episode before A Tale of Thousand Stars did.

And I believed them as heartbroken best friends, Batman & Robin, in the New Jiew video.

So if their A Tale of Thousand Stars installment has time travel where the chief isn't playing someone already in his 30s, I would be delighted, but I know we can't get that on top of them looking adorable. We can only be so lucky!

But, like you stated, GMMTV trying to convince me that Earth is 40 when he JUST turned 29?! The audacity!

Especially when these children are older than him!

Off (32), Gun (turning 30 this year), Tul (30), and Max (turning 29 in a month).

That's the magic of film, but @dribs-and-drabbles had an entire post about how we want stories about older queers with older people acting in them! And you know what's shocking?!

THIS IS 40!!!!!!

Nat aka Chopper's dad from Never Let Me Go is 40. If he was good enough to play Chopper's daddy, then he is good enough to play a daddy, you feel me?!

First, I need everyone to watch Mama Gogo where that scene came from because it served nothing but looks every single episode, and it was written AND directed by the Jojo, who also put Nat in Never Let Me Go which he also directed.

If you like Earth, Jojo gave us treats. If you like Mike and Drake, Jojo had you. If you like 40-year-old daddies, Jojo fed you! GO LOOK AT THE POSTER!

And for the ladies who like ladies, THIS IS 42!

Once again, we have Jojo to thank for Sine looking fine in 3 Will Be Free.

So what I'm trying to say is as much as I love director Aof, who is beautiful and amazing, he stays aging up these boys, while Jojo appreciates the variety of actors' ages. Aof had First looking like a divorced dad of two with a mortgage and alimony due, when we all know that 24-year old is a precious baby boy who needs to stay hydrated because he cries so much.

Jojo would never do that! He is giving First a baseball bat and the rest of these 20-year old boys their slut era in Only Friends!

So if you want to see Earth be a 20-year old himbo, Jojo is the answer.

Jojo is always the answer.

#earthmix #jojo tichakorn #I trust Jojo! #mama gogo #only friends #aof is amazing and beautiful #this isn't a competition #but if it were - jojo

[doberbutts]

Okay well I watched the first episode of Blood Origin and honestly my thoughts are:

I just don't understand why people are so resistant to changes/new plotlines/some lore breaking of *recent* franchises but gobble it up when it's older. People telling an untold portion of a common tale is well established in storytelling culture. The first example that springs to mind is Lancelot, who straight up does not exist in original Authorian legend and was a FRENCH invention when the myth spread. Nowadays, most casual enjoyers of King Author stuff don't bat an eye to Lancelot's presence. Lancelot, who comes to mind, because Sapkowski writes said Lancelot to be in love with Ciri, and we're totally cool with *that* but not with changes to Sapkowski's work.

It's really telling that there's such a bigoted negative reaction to this because honestly? The black people so far have been BLACK black, darker than me, darker than even my black family sometimes. I'm enjoying seeing melanin in fantasy don't mind me. And the hair on the sisters is excellent, I'm liking the costuming, and I *really* like Eile.

The accents are kind of all over the place. Both as individual characters but also as the actors themselves. Sometimes Fjall goes from generic American accent to some form of fake Irish to ????european???? and back and it's distracting and weird. HOWEVER I do like the Irish and Welsh accents in high born kingdoms, because too often those accents are for commoners and poverty only, and this sort of turns the trope on its head.

I'm not sure how much I like the pan-Asian vibe I'm getting from some of the props and architecture. Some things look vaguely Chinese while others solidly Arabic while others a weird fusion of Indian and Korean and it's just odd to me. At first I thought it was because of clan structures but then I saw that it's just sort of everywhere. I have 0% Asian in me so I'm not really a good authority to speak on it but it's a weird vibe, a little Orientalist to my eyes. I'll freely admit that I like the aesthetic since I was raised pretty pan-African but I recognize that most continentally grouped cultures don't love that and it's mainly the black diaspora that's embraced it because we don't really have much of a choice.

I STILL feel that doing away with this short-season "but the episodes are an hour long!" nonsense would help pacing so much. Literally every time I thought the episode was going to come to an end, it's been roughly at the 20-25 min mark, which a standard TV episode would have been ANYWAY. So there's not really much point to having this be 4 hour-long episodes when it could be done better as 12-15 20 minute episodes... which would be the eqivilant of a short season while 24-32 is a more "standard" season (instead of 8 hour-long episodes). It gives you more time to flesh the characters and plotlines out while also allowing you the chance to trim some of the long-and-boring content people get tired of watching.

I really do feel bitter that the witcher tags continue to be people making racist and misogynistic memes instead of a fandom happily discussing a pretty strong first episode that introduced a billion fantasy characters of color. It really sucks that black people in fantasy is received so poorly when my inner 10 year old is happy to see people who look more like me having fun with the genre. I long for the day when I can exist in a fandom space and happily discuss my favorite black characters without having to justify their existence every 2 seconds.

Oof that CGI is pretty rough though. Which surprises me because the S2 CGI was not this rough so idk what happened here. That monster in the first episode is, uh, bad. And the background in the weird magicky place is also pretty, uh, bad.

I don't understand why the first witcher being an elf would piss Geralt off except maybe because that means Jaskier knows more about witchers than Geralt does? All of Geralt's iterations- the books, the games, the show, the comics- are pretty chill with elves as long as they're pretty chill with him. He only pursues certain elves and elf-blooded mixed race people when they pose a direct threat to him or his loved ones. Same as humans. So I don't really get that line at all unless, as said, it was more a "wow Geralt's gunna be pissed that I know this story and he doesn't"

[crossguild]

uuuugh having kepler thots again

information from his official profile & backstory episodes: - captain in goddard intelligence by ~32 and stayed there - has 'worked in practically every department of the conglomerate' - a 'very large part of that time' was spent under cutter's direct supervision

conclusions we can draw from this: dude started at goddard YOUNG. a tech conglomerate has dozens of departments; to have worked through them all by his early 30s and qualify as a 'long-time' employee, you could easily interpret that he started in. idk. straight out of high school? earlier?

other general facts we can glean from the canon: - goddard futuristics has a pattern of scooping up people who have estranged/no families - cutter has a pattern of offering people deals that sound almost too good to be true, only to manipulate them and bend them to his objectives

conclusions: we saw how badly things turned out for eiffel after 15 minutes with cutter, and how messed up pryce is after spending decades with him. it's not hard to conclude that cutter's influence on kepler goes pretty deep, especially considering how he's actively modeled himself after cutter in many ways. i'm always wondering like. did cutter teach him how to dress? how to act? how to eat good food and enjoy balvenie? i mean. shit. probably.

interesting stuff from his playlist: - don't stop me now (i'm having a good time!) - fire and rain (i've seen fire, and i've seen rain) - tombstone blues (momma's in the factory, she ain't got no shoes; daddy's in the alley, looking for food) - blue monday (how does it feel, to treat me like you do?)

conclusions: this dude came from some hard times. how much of his devotion to goddard is predicated on how the company helped him out of a bad situation and the belief that it would do the same for others? there's a lot of lines in tombstone blues that really speak to what he is in the current day, like, u know, continued references to a 'commander-in-chief' that's hard to interpret as anyone but cutter.

'hey, if you show emotion or weakness, you deserve to die, also i'm going to feed you a lie and you have no choice but to swallow it'

and the quick blurb from gabriel urbina himself about how 'don't stop me now' is kepler's mvp track, and even in that paragraph he says that the choices kepler has made, the ways that he has chosen to present himself and move forward, could very well be an act that even he's not aware he's putting on. there are so many layers of self-delusion on this dude but u can kinda see where it comes from.

and. it's more tragic than anything, but he's not a character who ever asks for forgiveness or makes excuses about how he ended up where he did, nor will he ever tell you anything about himself on any real level. like how do you sustain a traumatic enough brain injury when you're 10 to lose memory of a whole year? haha well, long story short...

#there's so much more from tombstone blues that im insane about but ill save that for another day #wolf 359 #warren kepler

[goldenrose101]

Critical Role: Final Words

Updated as of 9/15/2022, spoilers up to C3E34.

So given RECENT EVENTS, I thought it would be interesting to make a record of the "last words" of each Critical Role PC before their respective deaths, regardless of whether or not they were rezzed later on.

Obviously your mileage may vary here, since it can be hard to parse out what's said in and out of character, and it's possible I missed things as I was reading through the transcripts.

I'm only focusing on the main game here, as a note, so no Calamity.

Big thanks to https://kryogenix.org/crsearch/ for making searches a lot easier.

If there are words in brackets, that means those could also be final words, but I'm not sure if they count.

So let's get started! (Spoilers below!)

Grog's Death, C1E11, 3:33:33: Scanlan: Grog are you okay? Grog: Yeah. (scoffs) But a tickle. [No one told me he had a lightsaber.]

Vex's Death, C1E44, 4:21:10: Vex: I'm trying to-- Brother, I'm going to go look at the stuff that they're finding, okay? Be safe!

[Later on, she also said "All good, Kima!"]

Grog's Death, C1E50, 28:36: Grog: Yeah, I would not turn down some delicious boar.

Percy's Death, C1E68, 3:52:20: Percy: No matter what today, I forgive you, but I cannot let you leave.

Vex's Death, C1E80, 1:46:45: Vex: You don't got no wings anymore. Vax: She dead? Vex: No.

Scanlan's Death, C1E80, 1:54:22: Pike: Oh, sorry, Scanlan, I didn't see you there. Scanlan: Well, I'm behind a dragon, honey, it's okay.

Scanlan's Death, C1E83, 2:11:00: Scanlan: You so dumb, when thieves stole your horse, you chased them down and said, "You forgot the saddle!"

Percy's Death, C1E83, 1:27:19: Percy: She's down and vulnerable! Raishan: Not as down and not as vulnerable as you think. Percy: Oh, shit.

Vax's Death, C1E88, 4:22:00: Vax: [to Vex after she frees him from a Kraken tentacle] Love you!

Keyleth's Death, C1E97, 14:59: Keyleth: We're gods! [Marisha may have said this out of character, but Vex then said she heard Keyleth say this at 28:35, so it's canon now.]

Vex's Death, C1E102, 2:28:15: Vecna: Come, and be the next sacrifice for the new age. Vex: You're a dipshit!

Vax's Death, C1E102, 2:19:23: Vax: No one walks away. [Alternatively: Vex: *rolls a nat 20 on a con save* Vax: *unintelligible yells*]

Vax's Death, C1E112, 3:44:23: Vax: All right, fucknut, let's do this.

Vax's Death, C1E115, 1:40:12: Vax: How lucky I have been to have had all of you. How lucky, indeed. Thank you.

Vex's Death, C1 "Dalen's Closet," 2:03:50: Sylas: I've been thinking about this moment for so long, I planned so many elaborate ways to torture you and tear you apart and-- Vex: Tell us about them.

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Molly's Death, C2E26, 3:57:23: Molly: [to Keg about an enemy] You got that one? [Alternatively: Molly: *spitting with blood*]

Caduceus's Death, C2E55, 58:30: Caduceus: Are we moving? [Unsure about this one since Tal doesn't RP talk a ton during combat, so this is from even BEFORE the break.]

Nott's Death, C2E83, 3:11:39: Nott: Teach me how to read and write. Just kidding, I'm very smart.

Fjord's Death, C2E98, 3:13:10: Fjord: Intruders!

Yasha's Death, C1E30, 4:03:00: Yasha: I am your champion. [This actually occurred in the episode BEFORE her death, which was episode 131. We're counting this since it was said before she failed her last death save, even though she was technically still up and moving.]

Jester's Death, C2E140, 2:22:55: Jester: Arty!

Caleb's Death, C2E140, 2:37:57: Caleb: You're killing her, you're killing her, you love her, you're killing her!

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Bertrand's Death, C3E3, 4:08:02: Bertrand: Lieve'tel...

Orym's Death, C3E33, 3:14:45: Otohan: We've met before. Orym: Yeah.

Fearne's Death, C3E33, 3:32:15: Fearne: Boy... that was a hell of a run.

Laudna’s Death, C3E33, 3:29:19:

Laudna: We’ve seen the leylines. I know where they’re converging.

[Another instance of last words spoken the episode BEFORE she actually died.]

#currently this is up to C3E33 #which could update as time goes on who knows #critical role #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #vox machina #the mighty nein #mighty nein #bells hells #bell's hells #cr campaign 3 #cr campaign three #critical role campaign 3 #critical role campaign three #cr campaign 1 #cr campaign one #critical role campaign 1 #critical role campaign one #cr campaign 2 #cr campaign two #critical role campaign 2 #critical role campaign two

[clay-cuttlefish]

Forging ahead with 52. #19 to #38. It's so much.

#19

The Evil Skeets plot is great. According to the omnibus it was a very late change away from a generic broken-time story, and I can kinda see that with how some of the earlier evil Skeets behavior doesn't seem super purposeful, but it all works for me.

#20

Mostly spaceguy plot that I don't care much about. The fight's cool at least.

I have no idea what fan speculation was like at the time but the idea of Supernova Jason Todd conspiracy theories is extremely funny so I support the intentional red herrings here.

#21

I keep changing my mind on which storylines I like more as I go. How could I not love Natasha?

#22

Dr. Magnus is back! I wish him being bipolar was handled more sensitively, the whole "oh the medicine keeps me from going ~crazy~" thing is :/, but I'm willing to read it charitably as his own perspective because I like him. He's a psychotic DC character who's heroic and not spooky or magical, just a guy who really doesn't want to have another depersonalization episode and has some internalized sanism about it, it could be so much worse.

#23

I like that Vic's more jaded to the horrors he can't stop than Renee is. He's had a lot of time to get used to the idea he can't save everyone - back in his own book he would've thrown himself in harm's way just like she wants to, but he's gotten better at not starting fights he can't win.

Hate to give Geoff Johns credit for anything but "What the hell are you doing?" "Seeing if it's contagious." is really good.

#24

"We were both guilty of ignoring Ted" Pretty sure Booster nearly died because he dropped everything to help but okay.

Osiris is just a kid...

Introducing a First Nations hero just to kill him off and give his stuff to a white dude sucks.

#25

Alan's out of the spaceguy zone and doing his own thing.

Almost halfway and the threads are still only starting to link up.

#26

I cannot get enough of Vic and Renee being friends with the Black Marvels. It's very sweet!

Tot my friend Tot :)

This is just a nice moment for them.

#27

I'm very into how Evil Skeets is drawn. He manages to be expressive despite having no moving features, it's a good trick.

Ohhh no it's now. I thought I had another issue, but no, this is the turning point.

#28

THE QUESTIONS!!! Love how they're heckling Kate together.

Kate is so cool.

Oh right, the spaceguys are still here.

#29

The way the mad science island handles mental illness generally sucks, but it's almost hitting at something interesting with Will being forced off his medication for the sake of "creativity".

#30

Get out of here Bruce.

I am going to cry!

#31

I don't even dislike the spaceguys really, but cmon, more of Ralph or Nat would've been better.

Ralph's still a detective even at his lowest! Strong foreshadowing.

#32

Uh oh, Ralph.

#33

Ohhh Charlie.

Him hallucinating Myra? Only able to admit he loved her at the very end?? It takes me out!

Almost all of his dialogue is straight from the O'Neil run. Rucka describes rereading the entire run just to write this issue because he had to get this right, and it shows.

There's a reason I consider O'Neil and Rucka the essential Question writers, and all the other takes to be interesting sidenotes.

#34

The kids aren't doing so well.

aaaaaaaa

#35

Hands you a picture of Nat. Hands you a picture of Nat. Hands you a picture of Nat.

Lex is the best villain in 52 and it isn't even close to a competition.

#36

AAAAAAA

Fuck dude! Nothing coherent to say here! Look at them!

#37

Wild emotional roller coaster for me as I go from Renee agony to cheering about Booster. My first read of this was a Time.

It's such a fun mystery. I can confirm it works if you know nothing about comics and are just along for the ride, and it comes together so well on the reread.

Mayor Ollie!

#38

AAAAAAA

"I'm afraid of who I'll become without you..." How am I meant to be normal about this!

I had to read this in two pieces because it made me need to get up and pace. It has done this every time I have read it. I am physically incapable of being normal about this.

Head in my hands. Comics are good and worth reading actually.

#clayposts #clayreads #the question #vic sage #renee montoya

[wilderavyn]

Watch Laws of Attraction Ep 3 with me.

Spoilers Ahead!

4:25 Well no wonder he's an absolute asshole now.

5:10 Another body? Did that kid actually murder someone? Like on purpose. Did the kid see it or did they really just get hit on accident.

6:53 Well no we know which doll is so important but why?

8:22 I like her.

9:00 She can already tell you have a crush Charn.

9:14 You're most definitely going to lose to Tinn.

10:55 This fool rent an icecream truck just to ask the kids a question about a doll? This man is too much.

11:52 Good job kid! lol

12:29 If he talked to grandma about the dolls why hasn't she said anything about the doll she gave Ploy?

14:02 So just small versions of you then? As in you clearly never grew up dude.

14:36 Totally has a crush on him.

17:27 Omg a man that actually says it wasn't her fault for being harassed no matter her background. This is progress happening on a show.

18:45 Already showing support to him. I like it.

20:13 Well played Charn.

21:22 You think an apology is going to work on this petty man? He wants to humiliate you.

21:31 Solve problems with violence. He probably has killed someone then, or has had someone else do it for him. And you the father taught him this obviously you bastard.

22:37 "Did you know that people who can only threaten other do that because they themselves live in fear?" What a chilling quote.

22:36 Friends? With this petty bastard? Not a chance. He's going to roast you alive. and I say that with all the affection in the world.

24:34 Damn charn is a shark.

25:15 Damn. I wish he wanted his son to turn himself in because it's the right thing to do and not just because he sees his son as an inconvenience to him.

26:15 I have such mixed feelings for this kid. He's clearly bad news and deserves to be punished but also he's a victim in this horrible house he was raised in.

30:05 A dog? Really? Damn this show is harsh. How is my heart supposed to handle this?

31:20 How cute. Charn is concerned about you and maybe realizing his actions have consequences...for other people? This feels like progress.

32:47 Oh look at him going soft on Charn

33:40 And there goes all my sympathy for the kid right down the drain.

34:04 There's definitely tension between the kid and the bodyguard right? I'm not imagining that? I just haven't wanted to admit it because I don't know the age difference, and the kid is still a minor right? Please tell the bodyguard is within a reasonable age of him.

34:52 Grandma is not stupid.

36:10 WTF! This is too much.

37:58 WTF is going on. Why are you there? That's super suspicious.

39.20 Well doesn't he look pleased with himself.

41:37 Actually nervous for the kid right now.

43:01 Ok this is definitely too much. I feel like I'm saying that a lot with this show.

45:09 He totally suspects Charn doesn't he?

49:21 Damn. I knew he played dirty but damn.

49:50 Oh Charn looks deeply hurt that Tin doesn't think he actually cares and only wants revenge.

Yet another disturbing episode! Why am I still watching when I know how fragile my heart is?

#bl drama #thai bl series #laws of attraction #tinn x charn #jamfilm #thai bl

[mlobsters]

supernatural s12e14 somewhere between heaven and hell (w. davy perez)

something to be said that they've managed to make me dislike the british mol plotline in new and exciting ways

SAM Yeah. Dude, why don’t you take a shower and change your clothes. You’ve been wearing the same pair of boxers for four days. DEAN Okay, one, weird that you know how much underwear I packed. SAM That’s what’s weird about this? DEAN And B, it’s two and two. Doesn’t count if you flip ‘em inside out.

okay, gross, dean-o. but also, sam, he's got you there, that is in fact weird.

goddamnit davy. i was willing to let it die that i couldn't figure out what paul reiser uses in mad about you (1->B or A->2) because even after literally watching several full episodes and handfuls of clips i couldn't find an instance of it but now i'm gonna end up doing it again. reminded me though i had forgotten about the occasional crossovers with friends it had, via phoebe/ursula (mostly). and also i love helen hunt

SAM Same as the others. I-I made a computer algorithm that scrapes data from police scanners, emergency calls, uh, local news sites, and then it puts everything through a h--

[Dean stares at Sam] SAM The computer told me. DEAN Computers. Monsters, porn. Is there anything they can't do?

i'm staring at sam for different reasons -_- stupid lies, stupid bmol

DEAN I'm using that fancy shampoo you keep hidden from me.

should make a tag for all the things that i thought were fanon but turn out to be canon

cas with the tabloid giving the goofy xfiles vibes, following up with the manager and the reptilian alien theory

HERB Most sheeple can't handle the truth. But not me. I'm woke. It's why I don't use, uh, new tech. Anything past '96, it's a trap. You know…Palm Pilot. It's more like Tracking Device. Am I right?

made me laugh out loud. another blast from the past. i tried to use an old first generation palm pilot but i just couldn't get the swing of putting shit down anywhere because i didn't use an organizer on paper either. wasn't until my memory went to (even more) shit and i could put things in my calendar and have my phone scream at me about it did i really appreciate it

they've been giving them better fitted suits lately, both lookin sharp

DEAN Tell her what? No, seriously, Sam, what are you gonna say? “Hi, my name is Sam Winchester. This is my much handsomer brother Dean. We hunt monsters. Oh, and that guy you were banging? We're pretty sure he made a deal with a demon, so a hellhound came and dragged his soul to Hell. But you? You're cool. And since there's nothing around for us to kill, peace out.”

much handsomer :p

it's funny how i have zero faith in crowley's ability to keep lucifer locked up. maybe that's the point. but it's kind of sad :p i like how clever and wily crowley can be, but they've done a good job building up lucifer (to me, and i basically ignore what he did jumping around meatsuits recently 🤪)

they're sure doing a thing with these two

did this hellhound get out and go rogue because crowley's too busy playing with lucifer?

ah funny, this angel kelvin is in the boys too - 32 episodes! as black noir

CROWLEY Right after God said, “Let there be light,” he -- he made a whole bunch of things -- posies, koalas, hellhounds. He wanted The Creator's best friend, but the hounds were too vicious. So he planned on having them all put down, until along came our favorite fallen angel. He rescued one of the hounds -- a pregnant bitch named Ramsey. DEAN Why don't you just tell her to heel? CROWLEY I can't control her. No one can. She's loyal only to Lucifer.

the snort of derision i just made. so ridiculous

DEAN Great. So we have a hellhound who's gunning for revenge, and it's personal. Ah. Just when I thought this gig couldn't get any weirder… CROWLEY Oh. It can always get weirder.

-_-

DEAN You tend to ride the brakes. SAM Dean, I know how to drive. DEAN I'm just saying. Okay, just imagine she's a… a beautiful woman. SAM Oh, come on. Get out of here. DEAN A beautiful, beautiful woman. SAM I'm done. DEAN Sam… CROWLEY Ew.

somewhere someone surely has kept track of how many times sam has driven baby because it's been a decent amount :p like leaning into a fandom trope

CASTIEL Joshua. I thought he stepped aside. KELVIN He did. But like I said, all hands on deck situation. Imagine it, Castiel -- free to come and go as you please, part of your family, your true family, again. Look… the Gardener's got a plan. All we ask is that you hear us, hear him out. For the greater good.

(another person who says castiel how i expected it to be said, CASStiel as opposed to castiEL) ok more heavenly politics i'll forget but i like this guy more at least and cas being healthily and visibly skeptical helps. joshua, gardener, ok. like the dude they talked to in heaven in s5? 🥴

DEAN Yeah, well, I guess we've all changed. I got predictable. You got soft. I mean, a few years ago, who'd have thought you'd be helping us save the girl of the week? CROWLEY I don't care about her. DEAN Yeah, well, maybe we rubbed off on you. CROWLEY Don't flatter yourself. DEAN You saved Cas.

took an absurd amount of scraping through memories to figure out what that was. i was like oh when crowley gave him the grace that he was dying from lack of? no that was a long time ago, surely there's something more recent. oh right, snapping the .... lance of michael? to stop cas from rotting all of *checks notes* 3 episodes ago in 12x12

CROWLEY Just to spare myself the Winchester Manpain-- you lot moping about like a bunch of schoolgirls. DEAN Well, I just wanna say thank you. CROWLEY Or…a few years ago, who would've thought you'd be working with the King of Hell? Maybe you've rubbed off on me. Maybe I've rubbed off all over you.

deflect from being called out on doing something good by being gross, of course :p also a move in dean's repertoire

GWEN I… I don't think I even know what “okay” means anymore. Marcus… going camping was my idea. I took him out there even though I knew. I knew it was over. I liked Marcus. He was sweet and kind. And he loved me. More than I ever loved him. More than… If I'd just told him… If I… Why couldn't I just tell him the truth? SAM Gwen… GWEN Yeah, but I didn't. [Voice breaking] I lied. I lied to make things easier. I… I'm sorry. I… We should go.

not sure what the point of that was other than an excuse to have them pulled over and not moving, give her another emotional scene

hopefully pretty girl of the week will feel less guilty since she saved sam from the hellhound long enough that he could kill it

CROWLEY You make me your dog, I'll make you my slave. That chain around your neck? Was nothing. A stylish accessory. This vessel… That's your true prison. It's been warded with runes and spellwork from the Cage, carved into every molecule. In there? I own you.

CASTIEL She’s with Dagon, Prince of Hell.

answers my princess question

are you making good choices, castiel? 🧐 going to heaven without telling sam and dean what's going on doesn't seem like the best choice but what do i know

DEAN Mm, is that your computer talking to you again? SAM Uh… No. Um… It's, uh… Mick Davies. DEAN What? SAM Dean… I don't have a computer program feeding me cases. I-I, uh… Gwen? Every job we've worked in the last two weeks? They've come from the British Men of Letters. DEAN Really? SAM Yeah. I didn't tell you 'cause I know how much you hate them. DEAN No, we hate them. Us. Together.

have heard the we/us thing

SAM I-I get that. Yeah, I do. But -- but… Dean, because of Mick and his guys, the Alpha Vampire is dead. They get results. I don't like them either, but-- but if-- if we can save people, then it… Either way, I-I shouldn't have lied to you. And… I'm sorry, man. I-I… DEAN Well, okay. SAM Okay? DEAN What do you want me to say? Do I like it? No. Do I trust them? Hell, no. But you're right. We work with people we don't trust all the time. I mean, hell, I just Liam Neeson'd it up with Crowley. So if you wanna give this a shot, then… [ Scoffs ] Fine. But the minute-- and I mean the second-- something feels off, we bail. SAM Yeah. Of course. Deal.

look at them, they're so mature now! talking things out almost right away, apologizing for the lying, dean being reasonable in listening to sam's argument and agreeing with him despite the strong feelings. so proud

#supernatural #spnwatch #spn 12x15 #davy perez #mad about you #spn canon not fanon

[wgc-productions]

Finding Pattersby Chapter 1 Part 2 Liveblog

Hey hey. Because two episodes of @patterspod were released yesterday, I'm doing two live blog reactions today. Funny how that works. So, here's the episode

And you can follow along below the cut. Also, you should listen to and make your own because i am nosy and want to know what people think of a show I also like.

00:32- A fork has two parts. The parts that hurt and the parts that don't.

01:08- He's joking but I would like to see some finger puppets mostly because I think puppets are like salt flakes. They make things taste better (metaphorically. Eating a puppet would be like cannibalism (they're just like us)).

02:03- Is Sacramento called The Big Tomato? As someone from a place called The Big Guava I can't judge, but also yes, I definitely can.

05:13- His love of 50-60 year old actresses continue! What Would Queen Latifah Do is the sort of t-shirt ready phrase we can all live by.

07:04- Oh, that popcorn ceiling call out left me feeling attacked.

08:45- Of course he slaps you, you insulted him! You fiend!

09:45- This is such a goofy show. I'm cheesing so bad. I love the camp. Love it.

10:08- "I can see it in your dumb eyes" is now my new favorite line. All his other insults were so elaborate, this one just caught me off guard with it's mean simplicity.

10:38- Oh good. I'm not the only one sensing the scintillating sexual tensions.

11:36- He keeps saying "your generation" but I'm getting 40-vibes at most from this man.

12:11- Where do the birds go when it's not their time?

12:25- I want to know about Jeanne's life. She sounds terrible but I think...I love her?

14:07- Where's that Michael Jordan meme when you need it.

15:26- This is exactly the kind of queer middle-aged uncle that we all deserve to avoid at dinner parties.

16:06- Masquerade orgy? Where's Stanley Kubrick and Tom Cruise when you need them?

16:35- To be frank, I feel like if you're going to a Masquerade Orgy you're probably wearing a nice light robe before and after the proceedings. Can't imagine a bunch of naked people walking around what I can only imagine is a nice room in a former mansion turned Air BnB, in bare feet, bedazzled masks, and nothing else. Not very stylish.

19:47 And thus the plot thickens. Actually I think it's congealing. More like a cold gravy or perhaps a jelly with a particularly robust body.

#finding pattersby #fiction podcast #audio drama #audio fiction #wgc liveblog #liveblog #podcast recommendations #Spotify

[fountainpenguin]

"Frankly I feel insane, but you say you feel the same... and suddenly it's like 'HEY! I'm not crazy!'"

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Well, this one's been a long time in coming! Scrapped it several times over the years, but... this is the right time for this piece and the right way to share this painful, prickly part of the story arc.

New 130 Reasons Why I’m Fairy Trash update today!

Fairly OddParents || One-Shot - “Looking Back”

Read on FFN || Read on AO3

Find more Devil's Train Purple Train story arc HERE

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Denzel Crocker and Happy Peppy Gary - Fairy World's most wanted miscreants - have been summoned for community service at Spellementary School. Crocker has bid farewell to Dimmsdale Elementary and Gary..... has already said his good-byes.

Don't expect any record scratches or straight answers about how they got here, though. As our title suggests, we're skipping to the END of the arc as Gary and Denzel think about the past... and how awful it is to grieve in a world where time was frozen for 50 years.

—

Also, throwback to the OG preview image from 4 years back:

(First 1,000 words under the cut)

A/N - Content warning for nightmare and yoo-doo doll.

Opening scene is a trauma-induced flashback nightmare. It shows the aftereffects of someone who was injured via yoo-doo doll. All damage people take (including the yoo-doo doll) is canon-typical violence shown on-screen in show, but the main target is a human, so the situation is darker than it would be with a fairy.

There's no blood, but the nightmare might be upsetting. If you're sensitive, you may want to skip the italicized opening section-- in other words, you'd want to NOT read what's below, and just go straight to the FFN or AO3 links and skip the italics. Enjoy(?)!

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32. Looking Back (End of Season 10 - "Dimmsdale Daze" is the only canon episode left afterwards, plus "Beast of Friends" crossover)

Friday June 25th, 2004

Year of Fire, Autumn of the Thawed Calendar

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Buxaplenty's fairy is dying and Cabrera is screaming. Denzel didn't see what the buff, soul-crushing, and almost certainly SKULL-crushing Head Fairy did to him. Only that the hallway lights are blazing in and out of focus, humming with the threat of a power overload, and Gary is screaming above the crackled lightning. As Denzel sprints away, those screams turn to pleading sobs.

"No, no! Please, no! Don't put me in there!"

And then his cries melt into nothing at all.

Gary Cabrera is dead. Or if he's not dead back there, he got totally wrecked. May as well have attended the Dimmsdale Demolition Derby. Think of it! Fairy World's most wanted before they even knew he wanted them! Out like a snuffed candle! It's both gruesome and poetic. Horrifically cruel and terribly effective.

Denzel doesn't stop running. Oh, CENSORED nope.

"Wake up, you paycheck-booster!" he demands of the unconscious fairy in his arms, but even lightly slapping the muscular fairy's cheek isn't enough to rouse him. He's not dead. Can't be. Fairies… don't… die.

But Magnifico's head lolls to one side, his eyes - once filled with hope and starlight - lie open. Staring at nothing. Denzel skids around the next corner, fairy clamped to his chest with one hand and a lifted butterfly net in the other. No one stops him within those first two seconds. Gary stays silent down the hall, the lights no longer flickering overhead. The silence scrapes like a rusty razor down his skin.

Fairies and cherubs are in a crisis at the end of the hall. He only needs to make it halfway there, then veer left into the control room. He can make it. There's no other choice. Denzel inhales and plows forward. His shoes smack against the floor. Someone - far away - shouts in a high-pitched cloudland accent, like they've been sanity-deprived for far too long and have to let somebody know. Denzel lashes his butterfly net. He's not anywhere near them. It's just a threat.

"Magnifico, up and at 'em! Or I'll give you an F for FAILURE OF A FAIRY!"

The fairy's black hair streams against his arm. It tore loose from its ponytail long ago. Denzel suspects it must have been magic, not a hair tie, that kept those strands in place. What was it Gary said about blue magic? It's classified as "correction magic," though also associated with reluctance, irritation, rashness, and stress.

Here's the important part- items, spells, and hexes created out of blue will always shut down when a fairy falls asleep. Evidently, passing out counts as sleep just as well.

Purple magic undoes itself upon a fairy's death. It's emotion that picks the color of magic, not mere desire… So what did Magnifico use on his hair? He doesn't feel dead, but he isn't breathing. Not uncommon for creatures who soak in magic instead of oxygen to survive… but still.

How did this happen? Buxaplenty was watching the cameras! Everyone is at the Fairy World Games! No one knew they were coming, no one should have found them here… Denzel glances up at the lights as they buzz and snarl again. He puffs his cheeks like a gerbil and scampers like a mouse. Ooh, this is not as fun as he thought it would be when dancing a compass across his blueprints. His lungs might just give out on him right here and now. He's kept in decent shape as he's grown older, never taking any risk that a fairy might outrun him someday, but that doesn't mean he's not exhausted. The weight of it all is dragging down his eyelids. And his hunch.

There! Fairy World Archives' not-so-secret security room! It's even labeled that way! Metal nameplate on the door! Only one small guard has rushed fast enough to make it. Denzel smashes the butterfly net down on his head to take him out of commission. The fairy SCREAMS! Unimportant. Pathetic, really- it's good fun to be so feared.

Half the buildings in Fairy World don't even have proper doors, but this one does. Denzel kicks it open as hard as he can. Ka-BAM! Double scream. The door's wood is magical, but crumples like a napkin in the face of a furious human heel. He broke it like a beetle shell.

Is Buxaplenty here? Still breathing? It feels so wrong to save the immortal fairy and leave the human child behind to die, isn't it? Not only that, but he badly wants to know if Buxaplenty totally went and stabbed them in the back. Is he sitting at the cameras with the fairy cops and-?

… Oh.

The sound of the door bashing against the wall echoes down the hallway. It isn't returned by a shriek of alarm as Buxaplenty whips around in his swivel chair. In fact, Buxaplenty doesn't say anything. He lies slumped over at the control panel. Not moving. His green eyes are pinned open, like his fairy's, but they're unseeing. His breaths hiss short and fast.

He doesn't react to the door.

He doesn't react to Denzel or to the frozen fairy in his arms.

He… he looks like he's in shock. Total, utter shock, and suddenly Magnifico passing out makes a lot more sense. Their appendixes are still linked. The fairy can feel his godchild's pain. Denzel feels a twitch in the back of his neck. He jumps his eyes from the slumped-over Buxaplenty to the yoo-doo doll on the floor.

It's there and undeniable. The battered yoo-doo doll - blond and broken - stares at the ceiling with the same frozen expression now stitched across the boy's face. Buxaplenty is twisted at the desk, clutching his shoulder. He's shaking.

The doll on the floor does not have an arm. Yeah, that would do it, wouldn't it? Who wrecked him like this? Denzel stands there by the kicked-in door, gawking, as icy fingers creep across his skin. Oh… He might know now why Harrington's communicator cut off when she screamed. His heart lurches in his chest, swinging like a pendulum. His grandfather would have done swell with a ticker like that inside his clock.

"B… Buxaplenty?"

Ding-dong!

"I am not!" Denzel screams, bolting up in bed. Hhh- hhh- He scrambles for his glasses. His hand bangs the nightstand and bends with a twist. He knocks his water glass to the floor with a crash. Hhh- hhh…

… Hhh…

[Cnt'd on FFN / AO3 - Links at top]

#I drew this ages ago and it's dumb and I'm glad I can share #FAIRIES! #130 Prompts #ridwriting #Purple hippie dragonfly #Big Crock #Gary and Betty #Remy Buxaplenty #Nerdy blue bat son #tw nightmare #tw dismemberment #tw derealization #tw unreality #(Yoo-doo doll; this seemed like the right tag) #fic announcement

[riverstardis]

series 32 episode 44:

finale time!!!

alicia going to the police🥺

ah jonathan barling, i forgot this was this episode

aliciaaa :(((

"things had just gone wrong with a guy i really cared about" :(

"you do believe me don't you?" "yes. why would you put yourself through all this if it wasn't true?"

isn't this room the exact same room as the counsellor's room in the sexual assault clinic? maybe it's meant to be idk i just assumed they were still at the police station but maybe they are in the clinic

eddie being arrested :)

alicia calls bea in for support🥺

the cctv :( they were really quite brave with this storyline, having them have consensual sex earlier. they could've gone the easier route of having eddie be obviously violent or manipulative from the start, and while i'm sure it would still have been a great storyline if they'd done it that way, i'm glad they did it this way!

the police asking eddie if alicia said no at any point and he says "only in play" WTF MAN🤬🤬🤬

alicia goes in to speak to connie but gets roped into resus before she can

eddie going "my boss knows the difference between an accusation and a charge, i'll have her full support" connie? HA sureee you will mate

yup she tells him he's suspended and if he doesn't get charged he'll be transferred elsewhere

alicia saying bye to bea :( IT WAS SO QUICK WHEN IS SHE COMING BACK!!! i still don't understand how this was meant to be her actual exit from the show and not just her leaving for a few months

eddie turning up to alicia's😠😠😠 LEAVE HER ALONE

huh there was a weird cut there. i bet that was a cut for content that can't be aired before the watershed rather than time because it's kinda odd to cut out the middle of a scene like that where it's a really obvious jump cut? and i know there's the bit where alicia says she could see it in eddie's face that he knew what he was doing that's missing, i don't remember what else she said that's missing but perhaps it was too graphic a description for daytime? oh actually i think there's a flashback missing i bet that's what they couldn't show

he throws her through the french doors >:(

eddie telling iain "she fell, she hit the window" and then "we were arguing" and then "it was an accident" right even ignoring the fact that you're breaking your bail, CLEARLY nobody's gonna believe you if you can't even get your own story straight

alicia :(((

the ambulance crashing😬

#classic casualty #S32E44 #here ends s32 #feels like it went really quick but thats probs cause i skipped over loads of it lmao

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

For the book ask - 18, 33, 36 (yes I'm gonna make you total all the book purchases no you don't have to include gifted books 🤣)

thanks for the ask, referencing this post, even though you are ABSOLUTELY Coming For Me With A Knife, Here:

18. Least favourite books of the year 

unfortunately i nerfed myself by not lowball rating ANYthing, this year. on the one hand, that’s good, because it means i didn’t read anything TOO shitty, but on the other hand: yikes what didn’t i like lol.

i was most disappointed in A MASTER OF DJINN, because i love love love his shorter work, and his first Novel Length Thing didn’t quite deliver for me :/ the worldbuilding in that was still cool, though, so i think Least Favorite has to go to HE MELE A HILO: A HILO SONG by Ryka Aoki (yes, that same Aoki, of LIGHT FROM UNCOMMON STARS), because it was Very Disjointed, Very Many POV, and Very Episodic. and i know it’s bad when i think something is too episodic...i was ensaddened by that, too, because the premise seemed very cool, and it also didn’t deliver for me.

33. Did you DNF anything? 

i did not!! unless you count the AFRICA: A BIOGRAPHY book that’s still languishing on my goodreads Currently Reading (i swear i’ll finish it someday, it’s just. today is Not That Day), or my ongoing HARROW reread, because i’m on page 294, currently. i am planning on remedying the HARROW DNF by tomorrow, though, so that probably doesn’t count either XD it also probably doesn’t count because i’m love harrow and the only reason my reread’s not finished yet is because of Time lol

i don’t, in general, DNF things, because even if they’re not sparking joy for me, i turn it into a Well Why? exercise and activate the writerly hat instead. i also read fast enough once i get going that it doesn’t feel like a time waste, and i thrive on a good cathartic Spite Read.

36. How many books did you buy?

oh coming for me with a KNIFE i see okay let’s go~~

criteria: books purchased this year (so i’m not counting preorders that were Delivered This Year), not gifted or as gifts (i tallied digitally-purchased gifts separately anyway, i had to, although in my defense i did do a lot more Knitting Gifts than Book Gifts this year so that number won’t be as high as it could be, and it’s mostly Bot by Volume), caveat criteria: i only actually tallied things i bought online, and i know i bought At Least Two Books IRL--two can probably be rounded up to five, but i didn’t actually enter too many bookstores and walk out with things this year because i know that’s Dangerous for my wallet.

method: i checked All The Websites i frequent for my book procuring needs. these are: 1. downbound, 2. barnes and noble, 3. bookshop, 4. prologue, and 5. HPB (also 6. brilliant books, but i didn’t buy anything from them this year). i tallied books as either purchases For Me, or Gifts.

results: look, i made a list:

prologue - 1 for me, 0 gifts

hpb - 0 for me, 1 boxed set (4 books) gift

bookshop - 3 for me, 0 gifts

b&n - 8 for me, 1 gift

downbound - 15 for me, 3 gifts

walking into physical bookstores, probably, conservatively: 5 for me, ?? gifts

bringing our grand total to: 32 for me, either 5 or 8 as gifts, depending on how you count the boxed set (all but 1 of the gift books was murderbot, btw)

that five (5) is Definitely Conservative, so probably truly i bought between 35 and 40 books this year, is my best guess, WHICH MEANS, i did, in fact, read more books than i purchased!! muahaha!! (we’re ignoring books i Was Gifted, also, because ahahaha yikes if we count those the books acquired to books consumed ratio is no longer weighted in the correct direction for knocking down my tbr)

thanks, friend, this was fun, DESPITE you coming for me with a naked blade XD !!!

#text #book games #books #ask games #answered #gaywinemommarianhawke #IT'S REALLY ACTUALLY NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE HONESTLY #i got three books for christmas from parents and two from friend!! #i absolutely do not remember how many i got for my birthday XD

[trashlie]

Hi! Don't worry I know it's hard working full time... I'm in the same boat as you 🥲

It was a super intense chapter and I still can't believe it's real. I'm still shocked and I don't even know what will happen next?? Will the witch appear? Will Shin ae and the others find out about what happened that same night?? I can't wait!

I think, SO MUCH, about how much more I'd be able to do if I only worked 32 hours a week, if we could just survive without having to spend this much time working, aaahhhhh ;______; I've been trying to balance my life, get some exercise going, cook more, study Korean a little more intensely, and it turns out there is NOT enough time in a week for all of this, but I'm trying lmao. I wish I could just transfer my thoughts into posts (I once debated if I thought I could do a podcast just dedicated to talking about the episodes and my 800 million thoughts but idk if I could actually bring myself to do it LMAOOOOO)

Anyway YESSSSS god it was SO intense and I feel like I'm still reeling from it? It feels like so much happened in that episode, because of how much it gave us. I can't get over how emotional it was?

I'm gonna place a little read more here, so I can get into some of my spoiler-y thoughts!

I am, frankly, horrified by the idea of Yui appearing and I hope she doesn't, but also I feel like if Rand took off to bring clothes to Kousuke, she might not be far behind, right? Something I forgot to mention in the big thought dump post I just posted is Kousuke's reaction to reading that letter from Nessa in the Bible - and how dark his expression looked. It's rough enough that he's facing one of his fears - disappointing Rand, again lol - and Rand's out here calling "my son" to Nol and pulling out all the paternal care that he's never shown Kousuke before, but god that letter from Nessa is full of so much warmth and love. Reading that will absolutely bring awareness to him that Nol wasn't so much a mistake, that Nessa wasn't the result of skirt-chasing as much as someone Rand loved, and cared about, and showed that love to, something Kousuke has never seen from Rand towards himself or even Yui. I think he's spent his whole life thinking that Nessa destroyed the sense of family, but for him to find out that Rand had kept that this whole time, that it had, at some point, been passed to Nol? How does he recover from that? How does he deal with the realization that it was true: that Rand was far too busy for his own family, but still found time to start another family, with someone he truly loved.

How do you deal with that?!

Genuinely, honestly cannot even predict if Shinae and everyone will find out about this. Maybe Kousuke will storm back to the house to get Hansuke, Yujing, and Meg and get the fuck out of there? Maybe someone will come outside to check on them? Maybe they'll go back to the party to get a phone? Or, well, Rand probably has his on him and there's the car, anyway, so maybe he'll take Nol and rush off to a hospital, but I can imagine Kousuke getting left behind, or not wanting to go because, well? Would you? lmao that would be the most awkward car ride and chances are Rand is furious and anguished.

It would be really interesting to see how everyone else will react, though. Shinae is so good at trying to remain neutral and see things from both sides, and considering she was there to witness Nol egging Kousuke into punching him, she knows HOW things went down, but would her opinion change if she knew that Nol was more injured than he let on? Or would she focus more on herself and blame herself for letting him leave and not insisting he stay and get looked over? I know this could be a pivotal event that changes her thoughts on Kousuke, but again, because she was actually there and bore witness to how it played out, does that give her more room to see him in a different light than Rand might?

More than any of that, I think they'd probably all feel a lot of horror - and maybe, again, guilt for not insisting he stay, but also, isn't that complicated? Because they already know who Nol is, what he's like, it's not the first time he peaced out on them like this, so how much could they have actually changed his mind?

One thing is for sure, that was NOT a good first impression on Minhyuk lmaooooooooo

I do think a part of me wants to with or hope that somehow Nol's friends could go see him in the hospital - because he's clearly going to have to be treated before he serves his time, he's going to have to heal before that - and maybe let it be a last demonstration at "you don't have to do this alone you have friends and we care about you even if you're stupid and reckless and too selfless for your own good" so that he can get sent off with that warmth but idk if that's just TOO hopeful for what we're playing at.

I think we are right on the cusp of the first timeskip, though. I don't know if I think it will be this episode - I think there's a lot of loose ends that need to tie up, first, right? - or within a few episodes, but I feel like this has really set the stage for the bigger timeskip when we get there. I think the part that remains the biggest mystery to me right now is: how is all of this going to affect Kousuke? Will he retreat further into his fabricated reality, or will this be one of the first threads snipped to free him?

SO excited to see tonight's episode, aaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!

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Gonna ramble a little bit, cuz I listened to 4hours of Distractible today, cuz this is the only thing that helps me to get through the backpain, cuz I literally am distracted enough to forget about it... And listening to the 3 dudes ramble, kinda made me wanna say something now too lol

Basically, they talked about life expectations and how it actually turned out for them, like... They tried so many different jobs and all 3 of em are 32 year old, when the episode was recorded and they still don't really know, what they wanna do with the rest of their life- which was very calming to hear, as well as that they think, that it's bullshit to ask a kid what it wants to be, when it grows up cuz- it's a kid. How would it know... same with teenagers ect... And while listening to them chat about it, I was like "hhhh yea, I also still have no clue what I want in life cuz... Becoming a shop assistant is probably the easiest thing to archive, but it's not really what I would want for the rest for my life... But what else could I do..." and felt a little dejected...

Until they brought up the scenario of "If we were in the middle of a zombie apocalypse... What would our roles be there" And at first I was like "huh... Idk... I wouldn't be good enough for anything..." But then it made klick again and I was like- "No hold on, I know what I'd love to do. My perfect role would be to take care of the group/village/whatever. Stabbing zombies down or alarming people... Basically just taking care of them like a security guard...

And this is also true for the- not zombie apocalypse life. I really think, that this is the thing, I wanna do. I won't archive this within the next years, that's obvious. But I can slowly but surely try to work myself up there in my free time. Cuz for now, I can't work more than 3 hours a day anyway. And now, I'm doing some physiotherapy to fix what I ruined over the last 5 years. And then at some point, I can go to the gym, when I earn enough money and try to find my way in some sort of martial arts...

That not impossible- technically. I mean, no one knows how life moves on... Maybe we all won't even make it to 2030 or whatever... And to be honest, even though I'm always good mooded and try to stay positive, my brain still is like "this is all unnecessary, what do I have from it, when I archive that goal when I'm 35 cuz then I have maybe 30 years more and then I'll be too old for anything anyway" and I hate that mindset that's only caused by my ADD brain, cuz time moves incredibly fast for me, so that it tricks me into thinking, that 30 years will pass within a second. So yea, while I try to encourage myself, my brain instantly does the exact opposite 🗿👍🏼 Oh well... life moves on anyway... It never stops... and I keep moving along... I'll see where it gets me... But I'm glad that I've found an actual goal, that would make it worth it for me to reach... That's better than to have nothing.

#rambling