#I'm so deeply satisfied........

[shikai-the-storyteller]

You ever have food so frickin good you can physically feel your stats being buffed

#i talk #food talk #That perfect mix of ''had the right stuff at the right time right before I got too hungry and happened to be exactly right what I wanted'' #Had some leftover kurobuta and beef from hotpot I made for my cousin and Tio earlier this week #and happened to have some udon noodles that were miraculously good #(I'm really picky about noodles but udon noodles are usually hard to mess up) #and I had fried tofu in the freezer #and I had leftover nappa cabbage already cut up #AND I had hotpot base #literally so perfect #AND my rice cooker just went off so I'm finishing it off with a little bowl of rice with furikake #I'm so deeply satisfied........ #there is literally nothing better than kurobuta and beef cooked in hotpot base #paired with a bunch of other things #OH AND I HAVE BLUEBERRIES that rules #gotta hang on to the little happy things #but man that was so frickin satisfying... bruh I love food

[lunarharp]

into the deep end - 30k T orufrey fic, focusing on memory trauma, disability, and romance.

the sweet oblivion of the victim, the poisoned freedom of the other.

for one moment - it had felt like two parts returned - the needed reunion of two disparate halves. no more secrets, no more pain.

the moment you get to give back what you never wanted to take. that moment, under the night-blooming flowers, when they had both let out the same single broken sigh of relief.

but they were never whole to begin with, were they?

qifrey swore he wouldn't say 'sorry' to this man any more if he could help it - sorry is cheap now. he didn't want to be in a position ever again where you only have 'sorry' left. so he just looks down into the threads of his blanket, strains his eye until it hurts, feeling his insides - his throat, heart and head - burn with pain. he expects more, but olly says nothing.

olly says nothing.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #sorry i wanted to make a new post for my fic since the first illustration is new. #*stands in the middle of a desolate field in the pouring rain* Please Read My Tale...Blease..Oh god please..*collapses to the ground* #someone asked if there's spoilers in it. Um...yes. Sorry...it's about everything #maybe i should describe it more? it's about qifrey becoming more and more disabled - as i feel is his canon trajectory #and both of them processing the choices that have been made. it was necessary for me to explore this in order to fully understand orufrey #and for them to have the cathartic conclusion-that's why this is important to me for my witch hat fanwork making life. this connects it all #and having dived into qifrey's mind and lived through oru's feelings i was able to get to a place that is possible for them. #the hit/kudos ratio is so pathetic idek what happened. ppl opening it realising its long and saving it for later or just bailing lmfao #idek any more i hate advertising my writing i hate trying to get more ppl to read my long fics it's so hard 🥲 #i'm so much prouder of this than my art...i was able to sink deeply into the orufrey feelings i had always wanted to fully explore #so. it's there lol.........i reread the date/kiss segment today after trying to forget about it thinking maybe the fic is just BAD lol #and like.....nope! i like it very much and this is what i was trying to get across. and it's always there to be read by anyone who wants to #and i will always remember the bliss i felt while writing when i was just lost in their world and living as them. dear GOD i love them. #i'm grateful to myself that i put in the work and love to make this so that i can always come back to it. i wanna illustrate scenes properly #but i'm never satisfied with drawing things i've written because i just can't capture the vivid experience in my mind. maybe one day.

[moe-broey]

Got inspired to revisit this FEH comic redraw I did when it first dropped! Specifically these panels:

Ended up freestyling that second Xane though LMFAOO he is just so impish to me...

If you wanna get Old Art Jumpscared I'll also include the original sketch under cut!

AAAAAAAAA JUMPSACRE AAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!

In a way though, I'm glad that I dropped it and picked it up again later... like I feel like this isn't even from that long ago (guy who has no sense of the passage of time voice), but the characterization and even design of Moe is so different. The Scrunch and :< face were game changers for it LMFAOOO (also just making it autisticer 👍)

Beyond that I think everyone looks a lot better and closer to how I envision them, esp Loki!

#fire emblem #feh #please do not the moe. it doesn't like it :( #TRIED. to capture that really pretty hair gradient that's in loki's mythic but idk if i got it #i am really satisfied w the little changes i made to xane's pallette though! his halloween alt is just. So Red LMFAO #WHICH. UNDERSTANDABLE. that is his signature color. i feel like just a few changes pull it together more though #which does tempt me to do a full body art of him...... but don't hold me to it LMFAO #ALSO DAMN....... moe interactions with other charas that aren't the askr siblings/unofficial extended family....... #like in universe it probably happens frequently/casually but. it's rare for me to actually draw it LMFAOO #i just.... always have the askr siblings on my mind....... #also i am just deeply in love w alfonse here like. this WAS the initial pose i was imagining when i first drew this #i ended up cropping it so much though. wasn't as skilled in Drawing Really Small yet #also just. i feel like there's more layers here w the updated moe characterization like. he's not just In Too Deep for the summoner #he knows it really doesn't like that (being touched ESP without warning/permission). #like beyond his own feelings he has a reason to be so intensely protective. which i'm also sure #is what he tells himself. #they just have a really funny dynamic. that i hope shines through every now and again! 😅 #fe alfonse #fe xane #fe loki #moe tag #summoner oc #my art #my comics

[oblako]

LOVE to see it <3 would love to see more of it <3

#stand your ground! bite back!! get her ass!!! #i love yoo #x #to be fair.. he only dared to glare at her like that bc he was drunk lmao and at the moment he stands no chance against her #BUT. this is obviously foreshadowing a future (post-timeskip) dynamic where he isn't scared of her anymore #and i'm so ready for it ✨ #mark my worms: nol is gonna be the key to taking yui down #and it'll be sooo deeply satisfying bc by putting him through hell she created the weapon that will destroy her 💃 #and we will be cheering him and the rest of the black team on !

[throttlegainwell]

It's just deeply entertaining writing a very tight 3rd person limited from the POV of someone with an absolutely massive ego and generally unpleasant personality, for some reason. Probably because you can write lines like this and imagine someone thinking it with a totally straight face and meaning every word, as they're taking out their dick:

After all, it was a hell of a beast that emerged.

What a tool! Fun to write, though.

#writing tag #he has a sense of humor it's just mean #he's totally serious about his cock though he's just deeply smug and self-satisfied about it #it's not even special though like it's an average cock okay #in jonathan's pov of the story he's thinking dude your dick is middling at best get over yourself #i'm gonna finish strange is your language man i'm so determined #i started that last april #i just need to write something gross this is my gift to myself

[willosword]

god. steven universe future <3 cannot express how wild it was to witness all that happen live as the world's #1 Steven Understander

#that's hyperbole but. still <3 i love that kid so so sososo much #i was deeply concerned for his mental health all the way since 'the test'. probably earlier but that's the ep where i started Analyzing #every single ep my number 1 concern was witnessing his character development and MY GOD what a satisfying lens to experience the show thru #favorite fictional character ever i love u steven i'm so happy i got to grow up with you <3 #steven universe #willow whispers

[torgawl]

i'm actually obsessed with this line from chapter 6 of trigun maximum. this might be my favourite scene so far!!!

bonus cool vash panel from the same scene because it's so *chef's kiss*:

#i haven't read past it but it's obvious this is such a character rebuilding moment for vash #the way vash 'peace and love' stampede who refuses to kill and wants to be kind to all humans is confronted with a deeply recurrent ethical #question in our society which is : is it ok to kill someone if they have committed an atrocious crime? #he is obligated to ask himself who is he to impose his beliefs on this man that is carrying such a deep wound and hurting with him because #of the person he wants to save in a matter of seconds... #it's him coming to terms that peace and love are good in theory but in practicality morality is so much more a grey area than his - until #now - black and white thinking #if my beliefs are wrong does that make me a bad person? but are my beliefs wrong if my intentions have always been the best? #idk vash being the character he is has always had great potential to be thrown into situations that challenge his morals and deep rooted #beliefs besides the humanity vs plant motif and i'm so glad he is being presented these fille as #dilemas* (pardon) #it's very satisfying and i'm very excited to see the way he will handle all of this and what he will take from it #also excited to see nicholas' stance and progression throughout the manga #trigun has been such a pleasant read :D #all the characters are so good!!!! #i'm also surprised how the story is so different from stampede #i can't wait to know more about knives in the manga #so far i'm enjoying knives in stampede quite a lot (also the fact he named himself post everything and hasn't been knives from the start) #i thought it was a cool detail #anyways that's all #i had to make a post cause i can't find any post with this scene and this made me extremely excited 😂 #trigun spoilers #< gonna tag it for the people reading the manga atm like me i hope this is okay tell me if you want me to tag it differently

[kindnessoverperfection]

I think part of the reason why I struggle to feel close with anyone is like. I really only know how to get my social need filled through judgement and approval and rank-climbing.

It's part of why I keep wanting to involve myself in Greek Life, despite knowing how toxic it is. I'd have people around me always, constant social events, and the expectations would be clear and harsh always. So I'd have clear and easy ways to get supply. If someone's "love" is conditional, then I know when I'm doing the right things, I know when they're approving of me, I know when we're "connecting". I crave it.

But the system's close friends? They'll approve of us no matter what. So like. What then? How do I feel that connection? If I don't have to earn their care, what direction am I supposed to go in? What do I do, what do I talk about, how do I act?

#just spilling thoughts everywhere rn but ugh #im so lonely #saw smthn online that felt like it was calling me out directly lmaooo #about not caring about individuals and only caring about avoiding loneliness #(like i care abt ppl's well-being but i have no personal investment) #it felt like a strength. grey cares so deeply about specific people but also gets cut just as deeply bc of it #meanwhile i could get attention from anyone and be just as satisfied. couldn't care less about who it was or if x or y person randomly #stopped talking to me #(b4 anyone comes at me. again i intellectually care about the well-being of individuals. like i want them to have a good life and a good da #yknow. and im not a jerk. and personally i DO *want* to connect i just dont know how. the emotions and drive aren't there. it's not persona #at all. and it's fine if that's a dealbreaker for ppl but i'm not evil for it and i don't treat people badly bc of it) #my supply-seeking and overworking myself and ED behaviors are all caused by the same underlying need #i don't know how to exist without people. which is so funny bc for so long i've acted like i'm so invulnerable and independent and don't #give a shit about anyone's approval. but i do. so fucking deeply. and since direct interpersonal relationships are terrifying #my brain seeks out the next best thing - societal approval. no names or faces attached. just anyone. something. anything. #when i'm talking one-on-one with someone - yknow what no gonna make this another post and try and work it out separately

[psychotrenny]

Such is life

#I'm at peace now #Things could have gone better but I'm satisfied enough #Although it really goes to show how little she understood me #The one time she helped me feel better was when I practically forced her to do it while she complained how it wasn't going to help #I have some regrets about the way it went down but I'm glad that I did it anyway #I do wish I could have restrained my spite just a bit. But I was deeply hurt so of course I was going to lash out #Still her opinion doesn't matter to me anymore. If she wants to hate me that's her business #I no longer wish her any ill like I did before #I forgive her #It's time to move on

[leatherbookmark]

i think there’s this fandom idea that lxc’s seclusion is All The Time No Matter What (and i too subscribe to this notion) but then he actually attends the banquet and even is active during it and. i understand that no one including himself wants him to turn into his father. i also don’t want to be mean to lwj because i already am, a lot. but

#I AMN JUST. SO SAD #for my own mental safety i'm going to strongly headcanon that one day zewu-jun curled into a ball tucked his leggies in and rolled away #because the thought of him Getting A Grip and forcing himself to lead the sect or even worse: getting married and producing hers -- #is too fucking painful. both in the Mandatory LXC Gets Better For The Sake Of Wgxn Fic way and just in general #and the worst thing is that rolling away would ALSO hurt him because he's The first son born and raised to Do His Duties #PAIN. #(this is also why looking at fanworks from the 'we NEED to be as close to canon as possible!' angle just doesn't work for me. #it's Not Satisfying! i don't Want my faves to die or have a long and deeply miserable life. ooc insanity it is then) #shrimp thoughts

[august--and-everything-after]

I know I've posted about this before but I don't think I'll ever get over how intensely I feel about this ice dance. I have tears in my eyes as I write this 🥲

This is the single most skillful and beautiful ice dance I've ever seen and probably will ever see. They maintain contact with each other for almost the entire skate, they're so synchronized and in tune with each other. Pause the video on any frame of their synchronized turns or spins and they're spot on every single time. The audience can feel the intensity of this connection. They finish the skate and they KNOW they've done it perfectly. There's not a single move to tighten up or moment to improve upon, it's literally a perfect ice dance. I'm so lucky to have seen this live.

#i know i sound dramatic but I'm quite literally moved to tears every time i watch this performance #if i could wish one thing for myself its to have a Great Love that feels this in tune and in sync and connected #no matter the work we have to put in #i long so so deeply for this level of intense connection with someone and i fear i wont be satisfied with less #i cant believe how much this affects me im shaking #if anyone ever asks how i hope love will feel i can just show them this #nothing else could come close to explaining it

[moe-broey]

OOOUGHGUGHHUHHHH I'M SO PROUD OF THEM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💞💗💞💗💞💖💞💞💗💖💞💕💖💞💖💖💞💗💕💓💞💗💞💖💕💖💖💞💖💕💖💕💖💖💞💓💞

#i had all the venti materials at first but i had to wait. for yanfei. #it only felt right that i ascended them both togther 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #my pursuit of power is nearly done now i think. wl 5 is a nice sweet spot. not too hard n everything is available to me now #although i did just remember. my next big Thing. i have enough crowns to triple both of them 👀👀👀 #idc if it's not optimal i'm deeply in love with them. just try to stop me from giving them shiny objects!!!!!!!!! #my heart is so full. #ESPPPP GETTING THOSE FINAL LINES OF DIALOGUE TOO AAUGH 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #EXTREMELY satisfying like i feel like i could just be at peace forever now. i wuv them.......

[philcoulsonismyhero]

I started Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhou yesterday and finished it today, and that was a Very good time, I’m glad I finally got around to it. Loved the giant robots, the worldbuilding was really neat, very much enjoyed cheering on the Extremely angry protagonist, and it was extremely satisfying to pick up on the little hints and figure out the big twist and then get my theory confirmed at the end, Love that shit. An Excellent Time, definitely recommend checking it out if it seems like your thing.

#personal stuff #i haven't read anything new in ages i've just been rereading so it was nice to get to grips with something new #i'm always meh about romance subplots but i did really enjoy how the main trio were set up as characters #some very good narrative foil stuff there #and man was so much of what zetian got up to deeply satisfying to read #brutal in places but something something righteous anger and justified vengeance and all that fun stuff #i engaged in quite a lot of mildly incredulous but also delighted cackling #fun times #and i'm Always here for giant robots and these ones were pretty dang great #iron widow

[traumabuddies]

i think riverdale is rewiring my brain chemistry the more i catch up and honestly i'm not even mad

#honestly. hilarious af #i'm on season 6 episode. 5 or 6 #that AU timeline plotline??? so fucking weird i love it lmaoo #also did NOT think i would ever see madelane and lili kiss but. it was a deeply satisfying kiss to watch #🫡🫡 #anyway. goodnight! #lex says things