#IM NORMAL ABOUT THUS

[hanzajesthanza]

geralt "i will NEVER deadname my best friend" of rivia

"he will ALWAYS be dandelion to ME"

#also 'including milva in male costume' goes SOOO HARDDD #everyone say thank you regis for citing a dozen precedents to pull that off. the effect of knowing your herstory <3 #c: geralt #s: i want to be by your side #geralt is like the reverse situation of a transphobe who 'has known you for 20 years so he can't call you something else now' #it's that he has known dandelion for so long that he can't call him anything else but his STAGE / CHOSEN NAME :') #the 'viscount dandelion' is so funny to me #i can accept that he's a viscount but I DRAW THE LINE at calling him by his birth name #milva: 'you can accept that he's a viscount??' #also it's lost in english but that his stage name and birth name begin with the same letter & thus sound. jaskier... julian... #not the 'chosen name starts with the same letter as the birth name' stereotype. and swag #the witcher books #book: lady of the lake #excerpt #one thousand million years ago in posada: #dandelion: 'don't you want to know my name' | geralt: 'but i already know your name. it's dandelion' #dandelion: 'but it's not my real name. don't you want to know my real and famous name' | geralt: 'not particularly' #geralt has the same relationship to dandelion's birth name and viscount status as dandelion has to kaer morhen 💀 #geralt and dandelion are like i don't care who you were back then i cannot comprehend your sad backstory all i care is about who you are no #i think this kind of friendship helped them both slightly detach from their exaggerated levels of perceived self-importance #geralt from his 'woe is me i will never be seen as a normal man' and dandelion from 'im the most interesting man in this tavern' #only SLIGHTLY detach. when they're around each other they temper expectations. but when they're apart it grows back

[july-19th-club]

house md wildest show on earth. a main character outright assassinates a known dictator, a moment that would be the very beginning or the mid-series crisis in any other show - an act which creates a power vacuum in a foreign nation already filled with child soldiers and genocide, and it's literally only brought up again throughout the season because that guy's wife divorces him over it. and occasionally to explore his relationship with who he is as a person and a catholic after having deliberately taken a life for what he calculates as the greater good, but mostly it's about his divorce

#i no longer think wilson is the most divorced guy ever #sure he's been divorced more TIMES than chase #but the things he's been divorced OVER are way more normal #it is so nuts like . chase. bobbie. rob. bobert. what happened next. in the country i mean #like the president is dead. does his regime crack down extra hard on the ethnic cleansing? #does the power vacuum give the opposition a chance to step in? #how much of what the president said about the people he's wiping out having been in a similar dictatorship in the past is true? #does the nation descend into civil war? is the president's death the excuse the us or england or whoever is waiting for to step in #and assume ad hoc governance thus destabilizing the region even more? #all because one guy in one hospital decided the math was in favor of his killing a guy if that guy was going to order more killings? #absolutely NEVER explored. yeah do no harm and the morals we share with our partners are important #but christ alive. the aftermath of the assassination could be a whole show in and of itself and im pretty sure it just never comes up #house is a show #house md #q

[averlym]

the one who pulls the strings (click for better resolution!)

from adamandi by @melliotwrites,, consider this my pitch to get you all to watch it

#beatrix valeria campbell #adamandi #this image was originally too big to save. but like im so tempted to print out the og as a poster to hide somewhere in my bedroom #anyway!!!! adamandi. im so obsessed. i have particular soft spots for vincent and bea they are my comfort characters i love when they appea #especially together. ''keep your deflections rehearsed''... aaah #shoutout to me being very normal (/sarc) about this in studio and showing it to my friends who were very indulgent with me #and also vastly entertained that i have yet again found another musical to obsess over!! shoutout also to my friend who saw bea and instant #instantly did The Face where its like. disbelieving smile. and then went #'' idk if i love her or if i want to be her'' #they're so gender. also on another note the whole asian roots things called out to me with lin!! like #the cutting fruit part in the ambrose entry had me screaming internally. oh my god cut fruit. oh my god ambrose Not Getting It. #anyway vincent's so real for all the biology references. science my beloved (<- i no longer takes bio and thus remember it fondly) #also the way they all only care about specific people-ish. i identify with that selfishness tbh. like it's good all my loved ones are stabl #bc vincent's ''this was all a gift for you''? in a darker universe probably me fr #anyways!!! stunning music and lyrics and bg and plot and costumes and acting!!! i cannot give a more glowing review akjdfhdsjk #so much of this lives rent free in my head. i have snippets of the songs memorised. #also shoutout to the shadows on the official adamandi poster.. the stained glass shadows for quincy and blood for vincent.. insane #now tag ramble about this one! highlights include i have been wanting to paint this for a Week and today i gave myself a Rest Day and got i #like this pose. went insane over it. help. the lighting. the pose. the strings #bea is such. lowkey manipulative girlboss i have so many thoughts. #trying to Not have spoilers here but! i like how the tips of the white strings in this little fanart of mine are a slight bit tinted :33 #also i moved the layout of the eye-boards a bit and added in strings of them hanging away. i realise in the original they are on stands. #but call this artistic liberties!! speaking of. for the textures it's photoshop noise filter + old paper + literally to my delight #one of the google images for. and i quote. ''old newspaper 1930 usa student'' that i then blurred out. and it looked so good!!! #journalist bea so beloved. i think i messed up the gloves a bit though :OO but nothing's perfect. #discovered this show on a 2am tumblr scroll and watched it thrice the next day as i did studio #the core message of. ''word to the wise- there's a whole world outside'' i am grasping so tight this exam season

[elkkiel]

I AM FUCKING SCRWAMING IVYYYYYYYY I AM CHEWING OFF YOUR ARMS AND LEGS OH MY BOY MY LITTLE ROCKSTAR!!!!!!!!! HES SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENT THAN YESTERDAY MY BABY BOY HES FUCKING KILLITN RHE STAGE RAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHGH

#IVY MY SCREAMY LITTLE KITTEN IV #I WILL NEVWR SHUT THE FUCK UP ABKUT HIM NOR CALM THE FUCK DOWN #IM NKT EVEN GONNA PRETEND TO BE NORMAL ABOUT HIM I AM SK FUCKING MENTAY UNWELL DUDE THUS US AWESOME #sleep token #sleep token iv

[thermodynamic-comedian]

doll, i am inventing new tma rarepairs everyday. its a hobby of mine

#mostly jm ships because im putting her in SITUATIONS. #thus far my correctest inventions are: #michael/melanie/helen #jane/jonah #daisy/elias #stranger!jonah/sarah baldwin #agnes/gertrude/manuela #jude/jonah #why am i calling my followers ''doll''? dont even worry about it man i am having a normal time tonight. #happy new yuri #tma #tma ships #the magnus archives #feel free to ask for elaborations on any of those ships btw

[oscill4te]

i feel bad for women with vaginismus/vulvodynia who date men bc in my experience men always see the vaginismus as not a real concern and act like its something you'll overcome and are so pushy about PIV. they get all mopey and sad bc "i just want to have rl intimacy with you :((" and they keep bringing it up to you, even if you decided you never want to have PIV sex

like theres soooo many ways to have sex and all u can think about is PIV and making your partner feel bad for something that legit hurts like hell, feels like glass and carpet burn and not remotely enjoyable at all??? why do you even still date them if its such a dealbreaker. The formation of vaginismus is rooted in trauma for many people as well so theres also an emotional component to it for many women who struggle with the disorder. if ur partner has vulvodynia/vaginismus and you keep pushing PIV as an end goal, maybe go uhhh jump off a cliff plz thank you

#txt #just thinking about past life experiences and feeling angry thus this rant #vaginismis #vulvodynia #piv critical #and yeah yea im aware some ppl want to heal their vaginismus thats normal.. #but pushing ur partner into is is shitty thats a choice someone makes for themselves #you dont need to work past it if you dont want too bc... its idk.. not necessary #its definitely hard when you go to the gyno but you dont need piv sex or tampons so idk if you NEED to overcome it.. #its a personal choice that you choose for yourself tho don't let ppl pressure you if you arent ready or fear u may never be #private post

[acaciapines]

rotating noelle around in my brain. i need the dess raises kris au to be real RIGHT NOW.

please talk to me about the dess raises kris au i think im gonna explode. also start writing it this summer maybe :3333

#chatter #drkau #posts that need context. basically despite being called 'dess raises kris' neither dess nor kris show up for the first arc of the story lol #it would cover dark worlds 1 + 2 + 3 which i would make up #and its about noelle susie and ralsei being the three closing dark worlds and becoming besties #BUT ALSO so ive always worried id never be as excited about noelle as kris #n thus do her poorly when shes literally like one of the main protagonists #BUT NO. IM GOOD NOW. I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT IM GONNA DO WITH HER #what do you do when your entire family has been defined by a grief you dont feel. by the death of a sister and friend you dont remember #what do you do when their grief shapes the form of your life and you keep bucking against it #because now youre the baby of the family and everything is On You #and you finally FINALLY find somewhere where you can maybe be someone #only to find out that that world never wanted you either. that world wasnt ever supposed to exist for you #what the fuck are you supposed to do #ANYWAYS NOELLE HOLIDAY-DREEMURR....NOELLE HOLIDAY-DREEMURR I LOVE YOU..... #(ps yes she gets a hyphenated name i wonder what might lead to this....) #(pps no i dont know what kris's last name is in this au skull emoji #chara would take dess's when they get married but dess wouldnt keep holiday (or let kris keep dreemurr) #cause she did. technically. kidnap them oops) #ANYWAYS IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS AU LITERALLY SHAKING IT AROUND LIKE A DOG WITH A CHEW TOY

[sodrippy]

trying to explain to my parents how my childhood affected me while also lying that it wasnt their fault is so. what a waste of fucking time. i should be at the club getting railed instead fuck this shit

#this is so insane i would pay $50000 to be anywhere else #i need to be anywhere else. actually no they need to go away. fuck this!!!!!! #i feel like shit no matter what like ok either i lie and they feel ok but i feel dogshit for taking blame i shouldnt #or im honest and have to endure the resulting guilt trip and thus feel even worse #like. cool. why dont i just kill myself in front of you oh wait that'll compound the fucking guilt trip innit! #anyway. so maybe ill never get over the parental issues. fucking lol. #gripping onto sanity w my fucking teeth rn i need to think about. morse code for three hours to become a little bit normal again. #jesus fucking christ. #every time i think oh ive matured ive mellowed im better now #maybe its just a sign that the things that fucked me up as a kid Were real after all......hm

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

On one hand I firmly believe Hero should get a daddy magic memory with Lark but also I know that Anthony hates nothing more than talking to himself as kojima cutscene so I feel like we're probably not going to actually get it lol

#Anthony ur so good at talking to urself tho bby pls #ALSO IF WE DONT GET CANON HERO IS SHORT FOR HEROICALLY IM GONNA FIGHT WILL MYSELF #we might still get it #i think it'd be a good way to get backstory about Hero and her life #the way the twins is like tangibly relevant to the plot and it really has to be addressed somewhere #and i think Henry seeing how Hero was raised would be great #ESPECIALLY considering Will specifically wanted Hero to parallel Henry and not Normal #i think Hero would have to be integril to Henry and the Twins relationship #but also that's putting a lot legwork on the npcs and daddy hates that #Anthony being anxious about his writing but also not wanting to put any effort into it #thus anxious is the most relatable thing about him #dungeons and daddies #dungeons and daddies s2 #dnddads #dnddads s2 #hero oak

[realititrip]

a glitch in time changed my brain chemistry i will never be the same

#danny phantom a glitch in time #spoilers ahead🫡 #i annoyed me SO MUCH when fandom made dan just focused on danny and forgot vald was also a part of him #so glad the comic reminded everyone about this #teared up at the scene with danny deciding he's gonna be the bridge between worlds go babyboy GO #when clockwork showed danny the 2 options i started laughing my ass off #honestly i love how much more depth thus comic added to everything #up till now most of the things that happened were just hc #i also love that dannys life will be a lot harder #yas make him suffer #theres a completely new dynamic in amity rn and im so not gonna be normal about it #imagine giw being competent in this timeline or other rivaling unknown hunters coming in #like i know it was already explored in the fandom but now its a real possibility to happen in canon too #ALSO ALSO valerie remembering everything......... and val in general tbh #“i always knew you were a monster” #SO MANY THINGS TO UNPACK HERE AAAAAAAAA #she sees danny more as phantom than fenton and its so NEW and refreshing my god #btw big fan of vlad and dan ending #you could say both got what they wanted :3 #i loved vald in this in general #the pathetic old man bullied by a bunch of children #and FUCK phantom planet

[apple-bread]

#EXCYSE ME #IMSK NORMAL ABOUT THUS #IF THIS AINT REAL LOVE I DONT KNOW #I WOULD DO THAY #I WANT TO SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR YOU AND THIS IS A SMALL THING TO SHOW IT #if i dont destroy myself for love im not actually in love #love is when looking at urself alone becomes painful bc youre not beside me #love is getting flashbacks of your hand in mine so vivid and painful #love is hating myself for being a human bc humans arent perfect and i wish i was perfect for u #love is loving myself every next day because you said you said you loved the soup i made you #love is judging myself and questioning my excistence when you tell me One thing but being my happiest self whan you say Another thing #my love is messy and strong large and hard but its real and its here even if yoh dont feel her presence #i hope u feel her presence when i look into your eyes and see everything when in some people i see nothinf #you make me feel everything i could ever feel and this makes it a rollercoaster #i hope u love a mess bc its sure i am one #poetry

[toxifoxx]

#sorry to every recent follower who's seen my nonsense thus far #anyways this time its going in the tags so. vent warning #mfw i will never fit in with any circle im in and dont match their energy in the right way #i like what they like but not in the right way #dont communicate in the right way. dont interact in the right way #dont enjoy certain things they all seem to like #incapable of doing anything right. incapable of connecting to anybody. one such reason why i need to be taken out back and shot #end my pitiful life now because i will never fucking be able to interact with other people normally #i am convinced there is nothing that can be done about it #i need to be put out of my misery #i cant reach out cant talk to them cant ask to be included. ill annoy them. then i wont have anyone in my circle at all. #sure i might seem fun but im only good in small doses. no one would want to be around me too long. #i get boring. i get annoying. my jokes all fall flat #im only good when im being as likeable and funny and entertaining as i can be #i dont belong in any conversation. if i talk im just an interruption. if i talk about what im up to then im just being annoying #annoying people get blocked right? its only a matter of time till they figure out you're one of those. #im not fun to be around its just that simple. thats why no one wants to talk to me. no one seeks me out. not that i blame them #why would they i havent given anyone a reason to #i might as well not be here. its just like school was. i dont exist to anybody. there is plexiglass between me and the world #ok i need to stop now #its my fault anyways

[lemon-wedges]

...

#kojima be normal about women challange (impossible) #so caught up im the euphoria of The Boss i almost forgot she was mommy coded and thus wasnt fuckable #no other women is granted this safety #anyways #rewritting that little scene mentioning mei ling in my head #so when otacon mentions shes into older men he can add on a 'shes not the only one 😏' #and get a little happy hrrnnnggg from snake

[textualviolence]

screenshotting this tag because i’m not trying to start a fight but. with all due respect i could not disagree more

#Nieyao fucking makes whatever psychosexual issues they have going on so much worse #because its so profoundly unethical and actively dirties the respectability of the bond they had previously #they can never have good sex its always profoundly psychologically destructive for the both of them #since they're both so invested in this idea of nie mingjue as a Good Man(tm) #the moment Nie Mingjue has sex with his subordinate it automatically drags him down to the level of a JGS (meng yao's actual real FATHER) #and thus tranforms a normal healthy socially well regarded though hierarchical relationship #into a disgraceful abuse of power that casts an ugly and revelatory light on the hierarchy they occupy #it's no longer possible to pretend NMJ's position of authority and Meng Yao's subordination isn't inherently identical to #the authority and subordination that facilitates JGS's abuse of vulnerable girls #was there ever anything other than sex underneath their bond? they both need to think so and they'll both be unable to convince themselves #they'll fuck once and try never to do it again but its too late because the fact that they did reveals the nature of their relationship #fundamentally its always about fucking. always about power. and it was from the beginning #its not about mentorship or fostering talent #for both of them i think their whole worldview would collapse and they would no longer be able to see their society as just and fair #if they don't fuck they can go on thinking they're normal people!!!!why waste this opportunity!!! #if you want people who shouldn't fuck look at wangxian #book got boring once they fucked im sorry ill say it

[seilon]

you know im realizing now. with the exception of a few resident psychiatrists, ive had like. no good experiences with mental health professionals

#most recent occurance is eating my brain alive right now because I feel just so. degraded and offended by how she chose to evaluate me #I won’t get into it because it will make me spiral even more and get angrier and more overwhelmed but tldr she didn’t acknowledge #anything I said about my symptoms both out loud and via written test. chose to ignore or dismiss anything that came from me #as if I couldn’t be trusted to recount my own experiences and feelings. also did not take into account that I am an adult and thus have Had #to learn to mask and shit so while she brushed off So Much Shit because i seemed (in the three hours she met/saw me) #functional Enough. that’s only becuaee I put in a Lot of effort every day to do so. and that effort does not last forever #and of course because. like I said I’m an adult. I’ve been yelled at I’ve been punished I’ve been put through courses and #through the ringer of Society in general to the point where I mimic Normal Person Behavior at least somewhat decently when im prepared to do #so. she treated me like a child and didn’t acknowledge most of my major issues. ignored me when I said I don’t avoid social situations out #of fear/anxiety I avoid them because it takes a lot of energy for me to mask and try and read people and act accordingly #and in her report suggested generalized anxiety. part of the reason I was there is because anxiety HASNT ever properly described my #avoidant behavior. #and just. yeah I said I wouldn’t get into it but here we are. this always happens #it’s just eating at me because I keep realizing more and more things she just fucking disregarded. literally wrote that I ‘listed many #relevant symptoms’ and kept it at that. did not actually give those symptoms any validity. basically just implied I was listing things #just. becuase? #some shit was just blatantly wrong like claiming that I have a variety of interests when I told her outright that I can only be interested #in one specific interest at a time- example being the entirety of last year being only interested in One (1) video game. and this is to such #an extent that it’s difficult to make and maintain friendships because I have no interest in anything else but that One Thing for however #long and won’t care about other things people try to get me into in order to have something in common with me or whatever or just. yeah. #issues. #she didn’t acknowledge the issues I have with low empathy or overstimulation. didn’t acknowledge my history of taking things literally to #such an extent that it has caused problems with people. didn’t acknowledge anything that was self-reported and not being displayed in that #moment right in front of her eyes. it’s just. really really disappointing and. yeah degrading honestly #especially because it took months upon MONTHS to get this fucking appointment #and to just be not listened to and dismissed. #anyway. yeah I’ve also just only ever had really shallow relationships with therapists (at best) #and have never felt helped by them or like they ever put in much effort to try to Get to me so to speak. only my psychiatrists have #been open minded and Listened to me. but they were always residents so they’d leave in a year or so. I don’t have one at this point. #kibumblabs

[glitta-killa]

Holy shit that nintendo direct. Metroid prime remastered, the xenoblade chronicles 3 side story, the zelda trailer.

AND PROFESSOR LAYTON

MY MAN, PROFESSOR LAYTON

#nintendo #nintendo direct #i shed a tear when i saw professor layton #im so normal about thus #professor layton #layton #zelda #xenoblade #metroid