#The Cost of the SHIELD

[rusquared]

something something the true personification of twsa isnt hsy or yjh. its the 4th wall. a being that doesn't recall its birth or purpose. it just knows to help one reader survive. the story's only duty is to keep you alive.

#EVEN AT THE COST OF YOUR LOVE AND YOUR REALITY !!!! #IT WILL KEEP YOU SHIELDED AND ALIVE #UNTIL YOU KNOCK ON THAT DOOR !!! YOURSELF #im like insanely caffeinated rn

[senseearly]

I tried drawing young mithrun but ended up with an attempt for a kbms lovechild so uh:

MYRTLE (84)

Half-elf/born in Melini

Assigned female at birth/non-binary

Grew in tallman pace until they suddenly stopped growing at 20 years old

Currently working for their uncle (Kerensil Trading Company) in Melini but wants to be an adventurer

Close with their parents as a child but developed a strained relationship with Mithrun and Mithrun's struggles with rying and finding desires (worsened when Kabru died but they're both all good now)

More stuff under the cut:

Myrtle was actually an 'accident' and Mithrun carried them for 4 years (someone shared a HC that elves have a gestation period of 4-5 years so I'm borrowing that lol)

Myrtle spent most of their childhood in the Golden Kingdom and was visited by his uncle (Mithrun's brother) and Milsilril (who they call Auntie but at one point called her 'Grandma'). They are more familiar with Tallman/Golden Kingdom and Utayan culture, but not acquainted with their elven roots (they actually find Western elves intimidating)

Kabru did his very best sharing what he remembers of his hometown; Mithrun had assimilated into the Golden Kingdom way of life at this point and found some (most) of his elven noble ways too cumbersome

Myrtle was a kind child who grew up doted and loved by his parents and relatives. And they love their family with the same ferocity. But growing up, Myrtle was quickly made aware that his father, Mithrun, was 'not normal' - in most days, he was okay; in others, he struggled to get out of bed. In rare days, Mithrun was completely catatonic, and seeing Mithrun unresponsive, staring at the distance, scared Myrtle so much that he became somewhat of a troublemaker child, so that Mithrun always has to act and respond and not have anytime to be lost in his thoughts.

At some point, Myrtle 'disliked' Mithrun for the way that he is, not understanding his situation at all. Myrtle thinks that Mithrun does not love them enough to be better, feels ashamed that they cannot do anything to help Mithrun be better. But Myrtle's feelings on Mithrun comes from a place of love and ignorance - love because they do genuinely love their Father; and ignorance because they were never told why Mithrun was like that (Myrtle heard of what the dungeons were, but Kabru nor Mithrun never bothered to tell of the demon, Mithrun being the dungeon lord, or the full extent of the destruction of Utaya)

Once Myrtle became aware of their parent's pasts, they understood them a lot better.

Also thinking that a point of friction that Myrtle had with his parents was their dream of becoming an adventurer and fighting monsters (which were still rampant, though weaker) and Kabru insisting that they choose any other dream but that. Myrtle in their teenage years found Kabru too strict, too protective, not that Mithrun wasn't. But Mithrun at least was willing to teach them how to fight; Kabru made it clear Myrtle was not allowed near even a walking mushroom. Learning that Kabru was from Utaya, and what exactly happened in Utaya, made Myrtle understand why.

Eventually though Kabru concedes, knowing that Myrtle is much more capable, and surrounded by their own friends and comrades who will support them. I think in the last years of his life, Kabru made sure to prepare everything that will help Myrtle in his adventuring journey if they chose to embark once he is gone - such as speaking with guilds all over the content, ensuring a diplomatic immunity for Myrtle when they're in ally countries, writing an annotated adventure guide just for them, etc.

They work as a Vice-Manager of the Kerensil Trading Company (Mithrun's brother's merchant empire), but that's just a gloried name for the position of intern. Mithrun technically manages the Kerensil Trading Company branch in Melini, and is being pestered by Mithrun's brother to take over the main branch so that Mithrun will move back to the West. Mithrun is unmoved so Mithrun's brother has plans to declare Myrtle as 'heir' of the Kerensil merchant empire, all for the purpose of having his brother and niece move to the West (Mithrun's brother does not see the point of Mithrun and Myrtle staying at the Golden Kingdom any longer after Kabru's death)

(The beauty mark next to Myrtle's right eye is something that they got from Kabru's mother)

#kabumisu #while i was writing these notes everything just came out #from the floodgates #i have so much ideas for this kbms lovechild but i am not happy with the design just yet #but i do like imagining myrtle (kbms lovechild) as somewhat of a spoiled but also dearly beloved #and because they were beloved they were shielded mostly from the 'bad stuff' at the cost of them being unaware by what they are #so they can be incredibly naive and have a difficult time understanding other people's struggles #including their own parents #i like to imagine that they began being aware of some of the bad stuff when they overhear bad rumors about kabru #or getting questions from their friends as to why mithrun stares into the distance for no purpose #eventually kbms learn that part of parenting is explaining some of the harsh realities of life to their child #when they are capable of understanding them #so they can guide their child properly of what to do or how to prevent it

[outer-edges]

i’ve been returning to my roots lately and watching agents of shield and i cannot believe i forgot about my ORIGINAL comfort found father-daughter duo, daisy and coulson.

#‘she’s not my daughter but she’s as close to family as I’ve got and I’ll save her no matter what the cost’ #‘all of this protocol crap doesn’t matter to me. all that matters to me is coulson’ #‘you’re the closest thing to family I’ve got’ #‘it’s the only home I’ve ever known’ #i’m going INSANE over these two btw #daisy johnson #phil coulson #agents of shield #aos

[zhouxiangs]

north taking a page out of charlie's manual of seduction and throwing himself on top of sonic so he gets hit instead

#MY SONICNORTH #yes north shield him with your body #protect sonic at all costs #pit babe #pit babe the series #sasa watches #sasa watches pit babe #pbep8

[sihtricfedaraaahvicius]

So... now that Lalisa (Blackpink) has been casted in that 3rd White Lotus season... that shit's gonna blow up even more than it already would.

#shield wall our dude and protect him at all costs #so excited for her tho!!!! I love her - but she comes with an army of fans that scare me 🥲 #honorable mention that the first concert I went to alone was a Blackpink show in 2019 and I had the best time despite my anxiety

[heelwrasslin]

YOU DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT WNDING DOES TO ME AS A SHIELD FAN...I AM IN SHAMBLES

#the revenge costed him his reign #he never recovered #roman reigns #seth rollins #the shield #r.txt #wrestlemania

[imkazz]

thinking about. them.

#kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer #kamado tanjiro #kamado nezuko #shinazugawa genya #paralells #this scene #rui kny #aizetsu #demon younger siblings protecting tanjiro from a kizuki #shielding him with their own bodies #because they cannot die to injury #protect him at all costs #darlings #demon slayer corps #twelve kizuki #thinking #swordsmith village arc #mount natagumo arc

[tirfpikachu]

damn son I'm literally a transandrophobia poster and I routinely rail against TIRFism and even I think your takes are wack. "AMAB privilege" GTFO with that man. we can lift up transmasc voices and promote trans unity and talk about radfem ingression into trans spaces without making this another AMAB/AFAB oppression olympics thing - that was the whole problem, we should be doing the opposite. stop taking words like TIRF and pretending to be against radfems when you're eating their talking points for breakfast

tirf means trans inclusive radfem, so tirfs actually are radfems! i am one myself. terfs aren't actually a thing - there are definitely transphobic radfems, but radfeminism includes ALL afab people, transmascs included. i'm still veryyy critical of how many handle trans issues. i reblog as much material as i can for my book, which very often includes not-so-kind terms/phrasing, but i do try to use language as respectful as i can in my own posts so i can have actual conversations with trans folks and trans activists, including saying amab/afab and agab instead of male/female.

i do believe that transfem people face unique oppression on the complicated axis of what ppl call transmisogyny. which imo is mostly a mix of sexism and homophobia if someone knows that person's sex/agab, mixed with conditional misogyny if they pass and live their life as afab. if they're outed as amab, they're seen as a gnc man again and with all the violent sexism that comes with that. it's a very complex form of oppression. i know they go through a lot of unique trauma, i'm not denying it.

but i also believe that afab people are uniquely oppressed as well.

if not, then what do you call this if not unique oppression? forced impregnation, abortion/pregnancy issues, period tax, lack of menstruation/uterus research & resources, afab bodies being under-represented in medicine which causes horrific things to happen, afab babies being aborted or killed at birth for being born with a vagina (afab) bc they're seen as lesser, afab upbringing coming with very unique experiences that amab ppl for better or worse will never understand (it is NOT a fucking privilege fuck you), being born with a body type that is very obviously vulnerable against people with penises sexually due to people with bio dicks feeling genital pleasure when they stick it in something, and god knows they will not give a shit about the person below them (look at fucking nature documentaries!!!). they will take off the condom. they will pressure ppl to do anal or give painful blowjobs. they will be creeps or jerks about pregnancy. they will generally put penises above vaginas and amab rights over afab rights, and this shit is DEEPLY ingrained in society. transfems being able to transition is very new, meaning that although they had many struggles before, they were not treated as female and had that (perhaps painful) privilege for MOST of human history. this meant being allowed to open a bank, go places without a husband, not being forced to be impregnated like cattle, not being forced to be a mother stuck in a kitchen, and having SOOO much more generational wealth at their disposal. afab ppl reading abt historical afab oppression is upsetting in a way that transfems will never fully be able to relate to. afab people have a deep, rich, unique culture and faced trauma for thousands of years and us being afab is not a privilege!! we have the privilege of not understanding transfem issues, sure, like a woman not being a lesbian won't face lesbophobia. but then again male-attracted women face violence from men in a unique way!! it's complex af when you're already marginalized

most ppl have an agab-based sexuality too, cis men included, meaning afab ppl are the ONLY *INTENDED* target of cis men's lust and sexual violence and whatever misogynistic bs they say about women, since most cis men are heterosexual. amab ppl face it, and it fucking sucks for them too, but they also only face it conditionally - the very second the cis guy realizes the person is amab, the usual trope is them throwing up thinking back on how they kissed and wanting to punch the "crossdressing pervert" EVEN if the transfem had every surgery possible and looked totally afab. they lose attraction, usually anyway, and physical violence linked to homophobia and gncphobia is the danger transfems then risk. which ofc is absolutely horrible, it can be life-ruining. but not an afabmisogyny experience. they aren't unconditionally sexualized. they are mistaken for afab due to all the surgeries and hormones they took. it's misdirected afabmisogyny due to ppl assuming they were born with a vagina and went thru afab puberty. and then harming them bc they see afab ppl as sex objects and dumb bitches, they see us being born and raised afab as a weakness. they hate us and want us for our sex/agab. most misogyny is about specifically afab people! and yes transmisogyny sucks, it should be called out too for sure. but when fem transmascs pass as transfem post-transition they always are open about experiencing misdirected transmisogyny and talking abt transfem rights etc etc. why can't transfems do the same with cis women and transmascs?? why can't they talk abt how transmisogyny & misogyny against cis women are both bad in different ways? it's always them being victims vs those evil privileged bitches!!

and not just quickly mention it but ACTUALLY speak up about it, uplift afab voices, and be genuinely good afab allies? where are the posts from transfems calling out transfems' afabmisogyny? why can't transmascs or cis women write posts abt it without being met by death threats and terf accusations? i know you think you can only further transandrophobia discussions by tiptoing around the existence of afab-exclusive misogyny. i know talking abt transmasc-unique issues already leads to insane amounts of bullying from afab & transfem folks. but i'm tired of transfems getting away with shitty behavior. i'm tired of cis women being only seen as oppressors against transfems. something needs to change. i truly believe that radfeminism isn't a lost cause, and in fact there are more and more transmasc radfems, and even transfems who are strong radfem allies. people are finally waking up to the realities of afab oppression!! they're finally embracing nuance!

misogynistic behavior from transfems gets brushed under the rug and them being amab is seen as completely irrelevant, anyone bringing it up is a bigot, while afab folks are more than open to their agab being a factor in conflict... it's unfair. as you've shown, transfems and the ppl speaking for them refuse to have nuanced talks abt afab oppression, they view it as "omg we're all oppressed!! shut the fuck up theyfab go bootlick those privileged cis cunts! no one wants to hear about your issues for longer than a minute, only listen to MINE!! being afab is a PRIVILEGE i didn't get to grow up afab stop rubbing it in my face!!!" what sucks is that transfems and transfem allies used to be soooo much more respectful of cis women and transmasc people's rights too. literally NO ONE used to say that being afab genuinely meant you got benefits in society. no one. like holy fucking shit. the past 20 years has been a fever dream!!!

i'm 100% for transfems living their best lives, transition included, and i've heard many horror stories of transfem-specific experiences i'll never truly understand. but it's not a strict oppressor/oppressed dynamic all the time. just because you're not oppressed on every axis of oppression ever doesn't mean you have no struggles. it's fucking insane that i keep needing to explain that to people, like oh my god do y'all not understand that someone can be both privileged and disprivileged in society in different ways, and might need to both have their voices boosted sometimes and ALSO need to take a back seat other times??? this ain't us cis radfems OR transandrophobia activists just playing oppression olympics. this is an oppressed group talking abt their unique struggles and being mocked to hell and back. and it's sad that it's seen as catty and selfish and bitchy. but as an afab woman i'm not surprised lmao.

and yeah you might speak on transmasc issues, but do you speak on afab rights? do you call out misogynistic bullshit that transfems say about cis women too? do you speak on cis women's oppression as well, about how they're oppressed by amab people too and are oppressed in a different way than transmasc or transfem folks, for being afab and ALSO identifying as women? do you mention how afab people are a uniquely oppressed class of people, or are you too scared of stepping on transfem toes bc they're seen as the top of the oppression pyramid and will harass you off the site?? why is saying that amab people as a class have privilege over afab folks on an oppression axis controversial? what about that feels like an attack?

if you're transfem or otherwise are amab and live perceived as afab, and you aren't afraid to recognize that afab oppression is its own thing and deserves its own voice and its own movement, ily bestie. i see you. i see more and more of you lately and it warms my heart. we aren't enemies, we can learn from eachother. thank you for working thru that initial knee-jerk reaction and learning to be a good ally to afab folks. i wish you the best <3 and if you're transmasc you DESERVE to have your voice heard too. you deserve to speak on afab rights and for transfems to want to be good allies to you too!! ALL afab people have unique voices that need to be heard for once!

#asks #this was long af sorry i went off lol #i understand your pov anon bc i had it even just a few years ago i was overprotective of transfems #i acted like afab ppl had talked enough and should stfu like they were the lowest bar of oppressed in society #that transfems had it worse by default and any talk of afab rights would make them dysphoric esp if transfems weren't centered #but EVEN THEN even when transfems are mentioned in afab-specific issues they STILL get mad #it isn't an amab/afab oppression olympics thing #and it's so childish of you to draw that conclusion #but it makes sense bc it's the current sentiment in trans spaces. any talk of afab-only issues makes ppl uncomfortable #any talk of transfems not only being the oppressed but also the oppressor class on a different axis makes ppl foam at the mouth #meanwhile afab ppl in general are more than happy to recognize they're privileged on another axis of oppression generally #why is that? #i'm tempted to say amab upbringing (and afab upbringing making ppl want to shield others at all costs esp amab ppl) #but i know now that i said it ppl will be even MORE pissed off #idk. i'm so glad i started recognizing my own afab oppression as mattering too. that thing where women are seen as talking so much more #than men even though if they talked the same amount? yeah. that still impacts things like this lol. identity doesn't change that #idk. respect one another and give equal space to all marginalized folks. simple easy and free!! and yet!!! #lay text #my words #radblr

[wolfgirlfloof]

You're about to make it to Floor 6 for the first time with nothing but reserve operators? Impressive! And with such a powerful and highly synergistic set of relics too! And 1hp 40+ shields, that's enough to survive even a boss leaking! It looks like you're on track to win this run!

It would be a shame if your command level leveled up from the fight right before Highmore, giving you +1 hp and deactivating your 50aspd king's lance and lowering your damage output and causing Highmore to leak and obliterate your shield reserves and getting you killed fighting Skadi when you could've won if you had a bit more hp to stall with.

Sure would be a shame.

:)

FUCK

#im actually so pissed i got trolled like that #gonna cry myself to sleep again #i didn't screenshot my 1hp 40+ shields but i pinky prommy that's not a lie. 24 from max difficulty regional commission + king's fellowship #i knew this would be a special run when i got hand of spikes *and* broken wand solving in the first shop #alas. it was not meant to be... #broken wand solving through 70 res relies on a bunch of casters being on field on the same time blasting highmore the moment she comes out #it was over once she survived the killbox. having to reposition my guys means i can't touch her afterwards #due to redeploy dp costs limiting how many i can put down at once causing them to get blasted since i can't set up proper aggro/healing #highmore escaping into the rest of the map also caused another like 10shields worth of leaks from the right side #arknights #is3 #reserve op gaming

[witchofthesouls]

You know that trend with Material Girl by Madonna with people posting their parents' young and hot phase?

That's Sari and her parents.

Dr. Sumduc was definitely a phase, but when he was in his late 20s/early 30s. His dedication to science had prematurely aged him as he constantly forgot to eat, sleep, and hydrate. Plus, he had a hybrid child to raise. Despite his really poor interpersonal skills, he definitely knew he had to keep Sari's existence under wraps because she would never be able to see an experimental laboratory if she was ever discovered. Let alone live a peaceful life. Even his considerable wealth, he knows he has enemies and that he's a (in)famous figure for revolutionizing the modern way of life. Everyone around him is under intense scrutiny. Many will scramble for any paltry scrap of information over the missing mother because anyone who controls the young daughter then controls the future of Sumdac Systems.

This could account why Sari doesn't exist in databases as well as Dr. Sumdac's staunch "no military-hardware" stance. It's a poorly executed way her father tried to cover her since it left Sari incredibly vulnerable as her citizenship and legal identity were non-existent. Dr. Sumdac had only thought of the many organizations and companies that aren't afraid to get their hands dirty to claim the first "Earth-born" techno-organic that it left Sari with absolutely nothing to care for herself should something happen to him. He was so afraid of outside monsters that he didn't realize that he had some already nearby.

Now, Sari can't believe anyone would have the hots for Megatron because he's super picky over his food and drink and he recites corny, yet bloody poems to Optimus as a lullaby, but she came across some ancient propaganda posters of him within the gladiatorial arenas. She needed brain-bleach.

#transformers #transformers tfa #tfa #megatron #issac sumdac #sari sumdac #parental relationship #maccadam #my thoughts #sari received psychic damage because it was Lugnut's stash and he damn well squealed #shes a good sister because she shielded optimus bumblebee and bulkhead at great cost to her eyes

[x-mensirens]

Idk guys, I went into ‘97 thinking we would get some more Dark Phoenix play and political stuff but like….

I think we’re gonna get fascist terrorist cyclops first (head covered uniform type beat)

#X-Men ‘97 #X-Men #personal #guyssssss #like…. when Charles comes back #when he finds out NOT ONLY DID SINISTER #CLONE HIS WIFE #INFECT HIS BABY #BUT GENOCIDED GENOSHA WITH HUMANS IDK #he was already fed up in the interview #cap’s shield in the promo………….. #X-Men vs Avengers?????????? #CAN WE PLEASE HAVE GAMBIT AND MAGNETO BACK PLEASE #ILL BE REALLY GOOD #we got Storm with powers and Nightcrawler in the credits #but it cost us literally everything else

[datadegroove]

youtube shorts are so good. watch a bearded white man with no charisma say the same fucking thing every other wannabe monhun influencer says. the only thing that my monster hunter weapon says about me is that I'm awesome

#here let me give you the list #long swords are weeaboos #great sword spends a lot of time running around not doing anything #hammer are big dumb cavemen #charge blade has to read a lot #switch axe are always trying to get explosion attacks at the cost of their own lives #hunting horns are bros #insect glaive youll never see cause theyre always in the air #sword and shield is a first time player #gunlance doesnt get used by anyone #lance also doesnt get used by anyone but theyre always trying to do a running attack #dual blades are also weeaboos and constantly get wrecked trying to ride the spine #and then they have nothing interesting to say about bow or bowguns

[zellk]

A little sketch I've been meaning to take out of my sketchbook of my main Elden Ring alt (I have so many send help), Cleanrot Blade ! She doesnt have a name yet haha. I haven't gotten her all figured out, but so far I think she's one of the Cleanrot Knights that survived the war in Caelid. While Finlay took charge of transporting Malenia back to the Haligtree, Cleanrot Blade went out in search of information on how to help their Lady with the rot and the blooming etc etc... Out there she learned about the Outer God of Rot and about the Blue Dancer (making the link with Malenia's old blademaster too probably). From there she came back to the Lands Between and has to make her way to the Haligtree (I'm still in the process of it in game).

#elden ring #cleanrot blade #zellk #tarnished #cleanrot knight #elden ring tarnished #elden ring character #cleanrot knight character #supposedly Blade is going to notice that the Halgitree is worse for wear #that Finlay (bless her) succeeded in her impossible feat but at a tragic cost (Blade will def keep her ashes) #and that Miquella is... missing #so off she'll go again to find him !! and well now idk if that will ever be possible in a DLC someday but #In my head she'll find Miquella and bring him Home to his sister and then Blade will try to find a way to help them both :C #i'm playing her double curved sword (blue dancer pendent and garb) with a bit of faith on the side #it's fun but god i miss having a SHIELD #will prob also try to get cleanrot knight gear to be able to do a full cosplay hehe #and i want the miquellan straight sword toooooo #and the blue dancer curved sword but it's so far away in the game still o|-< ALL HER MAIN STUFF IN THE FUCKING SNOW AREA #man #well no actually i got her Millicent's sword for her main hand and it's awesome I love it sm #idk if I want Blade's name to start with an M (millicent malenia etc) or an F (finlay)

[seaofgoldensand]

i feel like i gotta,,, commit and work on this account bc this fucker decided to come home to my STELLE account...

#y did i do this to myself #he drops a fucking dice and coins #i know his shield is fucKING AMAZING TOO #with no cost #fucking kill me #aventurine hsr #hsr #his jp va is muichiro too #INHALES

[paradife-loft]

istg every time I'm trying to wrap my head around legal rules and restrictions based on the concept of "(rights to) private property ownership of land", I feel like the stupidest person alive

#James liveblogs grad school #I can't. tell if this is something about the Concepts not clicking? #or the irl Application of said concepts being so capriciously applied based on kyriarchy logic that they just seem fake? #combination of both?? probably??? #all I know is I'm staring at these lecture notes trying to apply them to the assignment questions and going full mathlady.gif #the procedural stuff is fine! it makes sense even if I disagree with the cost-benefit analysis of a rule! #but this is just. bouncing off my brain like blaster bolts off a droideka shield no matter how many times I try to piece it together #content is for other people

[shallowseeker]

the fundamental thing about jack is

sacrifice and becoming more monster than man is “worth the cost” and

he understands

#do you get it #i know what i’ve done #and i understand #it was worth the cost!!!! #jack learned to value being a shield #winchester heroics