#What am I doing out of bed

[haasegawa]

I should win a prize for actually getting up and coming to class today

#I might have had the urge to cry when SHOCK started playing in my car #I was not ready for that #make that two prizes for not actually crying #it's fucking 11°C #WHAT AM I DOING OUT OF BED #I'm cold 🥺

[katabay]

L'APPEL DU VIDE

okay so. jack! jack. what a collection of guys. the overlap between jack and the beanstalk and jack the giant killer, though. that sure is something! sometimes king arthur is there, which always takes me by surprise.

this. specifically. is an idea I've been kicking around. jack and the beanstalk is not a story I've ever enjoyed, as a kid it was probably my least favorite to read. as an adult, I was INTENSELY fascinated by reading j.g. ballard's the drowned giant. I think about it frequently, and somewhere during a re read of it, I ended up revisiting jack.

combining different versions of jack into one character is not a new concept, but it IS a fun one! the version I've been assembling together plays less with the fun elements of a jack story (and adjacent folklore stories), and focuses more on the potential for tragic elements with the addition of the usual grim and jagged narrative edges that I personally enjoy.

jack with the backstory of the devil and the three golden hairs, only jack doesn't find love, he's TIRED, all he wants to do is go home, but there isn't a home to go back to. what is the point of being born lucky if this is what it gets you? jack the giant killer, only he doesn't want to kill giants, jack who saw a body of a giant when he was a small child and cannot bring himself to do as a king commands. jack, who climbs up the beanstalk and stops halfway to look down. etc.

to go back to the drowned giant real quick, both to set the tone about jack seeing the body of a giant as a youth, and also because I've been haunted and obsessed with this excerpt of it ever since I read it:

J. G. Ballard, The Drowned Giant

anyway! this was originally like, a two illustration concept to get out of my system. however. I'm halfway through outlining a narrative. so. maybe it will also be several illustrations and also comic.

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost

#original tag #generic medieval tag #WAHOO. alright. #i dont have any additional commentary in the tags. reading the drowned giant years ago Did Something To Me #and it connected with whatever it was that made me dislike the jack and the beanstalk narrative (i know what it is. its just not really #all that relevant to this post. also im tired. its time for bed) #through the power of Why Not. i will now. turn it into a story???? #i think. its definitely been taking up a lot of space in my mind lately #the only thing stopping me from turning it into my Side Project to do when i need a break from doing Bad Governance edits #is that. ive run out of notebooks???? to start a new story in. and i am Old and i only outline stuff by hand #eventually i'll get to daiso and pick up some new ones and work on this for real. until then. im going to continue to write about it #in my personal journal where i dump all my thoughts and ideas into

[vse-kar-vem]

inspired by the tweet under the cut and whoever came up with the jance nerd x bad boy au here !!! (srry it's 3 am too tired to check)

#SORRRYYY my physical incapibility to draw a jan continues .... #joker out #jan peteh #nace jordan #jance #my art #vee vkv! you ask. i thought you had exams! are you already done? why are you up at three am! #wow! i answer. you remembered! i still have exams. in fact i will be having 4 in a row mon-thurs! i have barely studied! instead i am up #at ungodly hours drawing jo fanart. i will actually have to study tomorrow </3 gonna jump off a cliff #AND IM SICK . so me and kris are kinda twinning rn hehehehahaha #no but seriously im also not allowed to take any sick days off cuz exams #so i should really be in bed rn resting and recovering! gn #this isnt even GOOD what am i doing w my life :sob:

[greatwise]

Eddie is super excited about going on CC’s first tour. They just realised an EP, they have a couple of their favourite covers on the set list and a couple of venues are even sold out closer to home. His bags are packed and in the hallway, guitar securely in its case.

He isn’t excited to leave Hawkins.

Or, more specifically, his bed and the boy who has made a home in it.

The first alarm goes off around 9am. Steve sleeps right through it but Eddie has been in and out of sleep all night. He hits the snooze button and pulls the cover over his head. He’s in no rush, the guys won’t be around until 12pm to set off for Indianapolis.

The second alarm is one Steve set, knowing this would happen. 9:10am. He stirs, stretching out his arm to find Eddies hair to tangle his fingers into. Instead, he finds a mound of duvet moving up and down softly.

“Eds?”

“Hm.” The duvet is pulled up to reveal only Eddies face, a little red and pouty.

“Don’t make me leave, you can’t.” He says looking up into Steve’s eyes. Steve moves himself down, pulling the duvet over his head and soon they are breathing into each others air.

“You’ve been so excited for this since you were, like, 12 what’s giving you cold feet now?” Steve furrows his eyebrows.

“You.”

Steve softened.

#i wrote this as i woke up like a month ago #bc i didn’t want to leave my bed and go on tour #i miss home #however i do not have a steve in my bed so #i also am not a writer in the slightest and it all comes out in one burst and you get what you get #stranger things #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie Drabble #steve x eddie

[nakathemoth]

Football! So cool!

#OH MY GOD SO /plops on bed and wiggles my feet/ im watching blue lock csn you tell #i like the asshole #also what do you mean bachira is cis why tf does he look like that then. #I'm projecting #gamamaru looks like momo don't even argue with #me you know im right #nO NOT THE ONE FROM TWICE #blue lock #gagamaru gin #meguru bachira #wataru kuon #fanart #my art #spoilers out of context #blue lock spoilers #the fact that im from brazil and the only thing capable of making me interested in football ever was an anime is a testament to the kind of #person i am #the tag was too long

[aquared]

fenestrated mirror

#i literally forgot what i was gonna say here #this is canon au material but it probably wont make sens unless i explain it #which i wont be doing #because i am tired #and it is midnight ( woah mc reference ) #and i will hopefully be going to bed after i hit post #also pls reblog (/nf) i am very proud of how this came out #aquared homestuck au where the midnight crew are the kids and there are some other guys too i think #homestuck #homestuck fantroll #homestuck au #crowbar 07 #i will never get the hang of this tagging thing

[kiddokori]

fuck timezones do you know how hard it is to talk to my friends when they have a different sleep schedule than me. i go to bed at 9pm and wake up at 6 to see notifications from my buddy from literally 5 in the morning. thats a one hour overlap of us both sleeping. there is not a time difference between us theres no reason for this shes just sick in the head and im a 75 year old man with a bedtime

#my other friend will be like hey if we’re hanging out tomorrow just call me when youre leaving so i get up #and itll be like. 2 in the afternoon. he’s literally nocturnal #i get a message while im getting all cozy in bed like hey man whats up because i go to bed as hes waking up because its a sick freak. #all my friends are vampires and im an old old man in my nightgown and sleeping cap with my little fuckin candelabra shuffling off to retire #for the evening #we hangout for one (1) hour and i go guys i am so sleepy i cannot do this #and they go nooo olease dont go to bed we miss you stay in the call one more episode pleeease and im already alseep #staying up past midnight is like medieval torture to me. its not ethical its not humane no human being should be forced to face such terrors

[thresholdbb]

I need to add buttons and darts, but I feel like I've done pretty good so far

#2024 past tense Jadzia I'm coming for you #I am SO JAZZED #I feel like I can't even claim I don't know what I'm doing anymore #please excuse poor lumpy I decided I needed to go all Kirk on the dress form #I couldn't find thicker stripes but I got the colors #is it wrong to cannabalize buttons from a work shirt cause I don't really work anymore #make bad art or whatever #cosplay updates #but like really I don't know what I'm doing #I didn't have a pattern on this was drafted #I was in bed last night and jumped out to figure out how they sew collars on #wish me luck in terrified of the vest and jacket

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

[lincolnlogsnfrogs]

i was really tired and stressed today and this bullshit is the result lmao

#iz #invader zim #dib #zim #zadr #zadf #kelso's choices #glad there's no tag for that already i'd be concerned #istg that frog makes me so unreasonably angry #release zim let him kill kelso please #i was about to go to bed when this idea hit and now im gonna feel like shit tomorrow but that's okay #wtf am i doing #what does this mean #lmao #this was really low effort but kinda fun to make lol #anyway peace out imma go sleep #shitpost

[hanzajesthanza]

the headcanon that regis can hang from the ceiling to sleep or rest like a bat is funny on its own, but when i consider geralt and others in the hanza holding conversations with him like this, it’s made better by my understanding of this as just an advanced “neurodivergent sitting” technique

#in an irl au i suppose he could be doing an upside down yoga pose. that would fit irl au regis well. ugh #the better headcanon is angoulême walking in their room. going ‘[head nod up] cahir. where—‘ #and cahir (not looking up) points to the ceiling on the other side of the room. also in total darkness btw no candles lit on that side #i imagine that when someone else walks to their room’s door and knocks. for example let’s say dandelion for instance #dandelion’s hardly a stranger but he did that thing where your friend stops hanging out with you because they’re busy with their gf #he knocks and immediately regis is suddenly sitting in bed like a normal person . and he put his eyeglasses on and pretended to read #oh hi dandelion i didnt recognize your footsteps #my… footsteps? #this is actually kind of bullshit though because the only person more talkative than dandelion at night is regis (angouleme close third) #so if dandelion ever wanted to discuss meaning of life at 2 am i know where he would go #sorry cahir. put a pillow over your ear #the elbow-high diaries #edit: no actually he would bother geralt with this #edit edit: no actually he and geralt were ‘on a break’ (unresolved tension) so he wouldn’t. but he would want to #angoulême goes to their room too often to chill and hang out #milva goes to their room and cahir and regis stand at attention like yes ma’am. what do you need #hi milva how are things ​(your ongoing mental health crisis) #if geralt walks in starts talking with regis. cahir leaves the room. ‘im going to um. check on the horses’ #its 12 am. horses are sleeping. ? answer; he is being a considerate roommate. he had to share bunks before. he knows how It Is

[brown-little-robin]

what is UP everyone I just finished my very first one-shot fic EVER!!

#is my homework done NO #did I go to the studio today NO #but yesterday I got to bed 45 minutes earlier than I have been (oh glorious Sleep highly recommend) and today I was POSSESSED #with the spirit of Shigeo Kageyama's mother #I kid you not: I came up with this fanfic idea at 12:15 last night right as I drifted off to sleep #and I got up ate breakfast and banged this whole fanfic out in 4 hours. what HAPPENED to me man #me???? FINISHING a fic??? in ONE GO???? #MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THINK (APPARENTLY) #my homework will be fine btw #I am using the remaining time in my day (since I'm not going to the studio... sigh... I do feel bad about that actually) #to Clean My Room and get up to speed on my russian fairy tales class #nothing is due tonight anyway and having a clean room will put me in a better headspace to do more schoolwork next week! #MP100 happened to me...... Category 7 MP100 Moment

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[anartificialsatellite]

Rover sent me an article a while back talking about how letting the dog sleep in bed with you is bad for the quality of your sleep, and I have a little health tracker app that includes "dog in the bedroom" as a factor that could be negatively affecting my sleep, and like... Listen, I hear you, but consider this:

he my baby???????????

#sputnikposting #what am i supposed to do #not sleep with my baby cuddled up next to me #kick him out of bed??? make him sleep on the floor?? #and become history's greatest monster?????????

[smalltownfae]

“But just now an intelligent and I must admit, very attractive young woman had just chosen Lord Golden’s companionship over mine.

‘There’s no accounting for tastes,’ I told Whitecap, who was looking after his departing mistress with an aggrieved air.”

*****

“‘Good. And now we must all try to get what rest we can before tomorrow’s hunt. Good night,Tom.’

‘Good night, Lord Golden, huntswoman Laurel.’

After a moment or two of silence, I realized something. I had been expecting Laurel to leave so that I could secure the door behind her. I had wanted to tell the Fool about the basket and the dead rabbit, but Laurel and Lord Golden were waiting for me to leave. She was studying a tapestry on a wall with an intensity it did not merit, while Lord Golden contentedly contemplated the gleaming fall of Laurel’s hair.

I wondered if I should lock the outer door for them, then decided that would be an oafish act. If lord golden wanted it locked, he would do it. ‘Good night,’ I repeated, trying to sound sleepy and not awkward. I took a candle and went to my own chamber, shutting the connecting door gently behind me. I undressed and got into bed, refusing to let my mind wander beyond that closed door. I felt no envy, I told myself, only the sharper bite of my loneliness in contrast to what they might be sharing.”

*******

“I turned and found the Fool regarding me sleepily. He lay on his side in his bed, his chin propped on his fist. He looked weary, but insufferably pleased about something. The effect made him look years younger.

‘I didn’t expect to see you in your bed this morning,’ I greeted him, and then, ‘How did you get in? I latched that door last night.’

‘Did you? Interesting. But you can scarcely be more surprised to see me in my own bed than I am to see you in yours.’

*****

“Was my friend honestly losing his heart to her? I considered her silent profile as she rode alongside me. He could do far worse. She was healthy and young and a good hunter.”

- Fool’s Errand (Tawny Man #1) by Robin Hobb

Presented with no comment

#rote #fitzloved #fool's errand #tawny man trilogy #laurel #did you notice I am clearing my drafts? #what was this even doing in there still? #this is from the first time I read the books haha #I can't get over fitz and the fool being happy to see that the other wasn't out banging someone else in the night #'there's no accounting for taste' he says as if he trully believes he is better looking than the fool and his mind isn't thinking #how hot lord golden is 24/7 #the scene where fitz is waiting for laurel to leave is so funny ahahahah #meanwhile fool and laurel are just like 'ffff go to bed tom'