#a real student would never

[egophiliac]

swipes everything else off of the table to yell about diasomnia flower bookmarks

(I gave Silver one too :D)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #white rabbit festival #me: oh boy i wonder what excitement will happen in this new part #characters: now it is time to buy souvenirs :) #me: oh god #jk jk even when the filler is kind of painful i do enjoy the little character moments #like everyone screaming as loud as they can into silver's watch #deuce busting out his suzy izzard impression #SMASH IT WITH A HAMMER! #and of course silver assigning flowers to the other dias and getting all sappy over lilia. god. delicious. #you don't understand this ten second long scene is everything to me #though we all know the real highlight #the knowledge that 1) deuce used to have an extremely silly edgy badass nickname #2) he almost certainly gave it to himself #3) he harassed epel's extended family to the point that they told horror stories about him and he was briefly epel's personal idol #epel: i heard he once killed three men with but a look #deuce: what no i never...i mean...ha ha sounds weird nothing a model student like me would know about #also deuce: if you fuckers don't apologize to my mom right now i'll fucking kill all of you (sees dilla) uhhh i mean #deuce: i challenge you to a children's game #black bunnies leader: (strapping on his duel disk) i accept #meanwhile silver is running full speed at a group of children screaming to them about donuts #we aren't going to talk about what ortho did with that fantasy-gregg's sausage roll #so glad that we've reached the 'what the heck is even happening' portion of the event #anyway i completely screwed up the resolution of these so here's hoping they don't look terrible! #whoops!

[teddypickerry]

it’s giving “can i speak with you after class?” … yes the fuck you can, sir.

#hot for teacher #would never skip a fucking class #kind of losing it #need it biblically #my pfp but FOR REAL #teach crush #teacher student relationship #jess mariano #milo ventimiglia #teddypickerry #hot professor #teacher crush

[gracie-rosee]

Am I the only person who ages characters up in my mind? Like a character will be 17-20ish and saving the world and that’s cool and all but I’m older than you and don’t even know how to do my taxes. You are no younger than 25-30 MINUMUM. There’s literally no need for you to be a child.

#throne of glass #acotar #like girl if you were in the real world you would be crushed with student debt and wondering what you’re gonna make for dinner #not killing demons ending wars becoming a monarch getting married and having babies all in the span of one year #ya books #ya literature #booklr #the ballad of never after #once upon a broken heart

[redysetdare]

Y'all listen just because you learned something in school doesn't mean everyone else did. idk how y'all got this idea in ur heads that we all learned the same shit when literal book bans are happening in schools across the united states and certain subjects are being banned from ever being talked about. (do not even get me started on the fact different countries have different curriculum too) Like you cannot say "You guys obviously just didn't pay attention in school and are stupid because we all learned this" like you are ignoring like 50 other options as to why people may not have learned this ranging from poorly funded school to disabled kid getting shoved into special ed classes which are often notorious for mistreating their disabled students. I'm begging you all to understand the nuance of why certain skills and abilities aren't as widely spread as you assume they should be.

#text #some of you are creeping a bit to close to ablism and it's getting real ucomfortable #'everyone learned media literacy in school' except in the schools where they just told you what to think. #except in the schools where they didn't want you to learn critical thinking so that they could push an agenda without you questioning it #except in schools where books or subjects that would require this skill got banned and thus it was never learned #unless the school was underfunded and couldn't afford the proper materials to teach it #unless your teacher was bad and didn't bother to properly teach you #unless your teacher and school was ablist and refused to teach you #unless your schooling was disrupted by a sudden pandemic that may of forced you into an environment that made it more difficult to learn #unless literally anything else besides 'you didn't listen and are thus stupid' because i can assure you we were listening #maybe instead of blaming a huge portion of the population of suddenly becoming stupid or not paying attention in class #maybe you could realize that this is a failure on the American school system as a whole #at some point you can't keep blaming the students for failing when it's this many students #at some point you gotta realize it's the system and blaming the individual does nothing #btw i didn't talk about other country curriculum because I'm not knowledgeable enough to know how good other school systems are #but i know more about american school systems and how much they suck and so many of these ppl complaining mean american schools anyways #but i am aware of other countries having wide variety of curriculum and how weird ppl get about that especially with usa centrism online #i just dont feel like i can give a good enough commentary on that that other non-usa ppl haven't already given 10x better than i ever could

[senselessalchemist]

finally have an actual job so maybe I can stop being a hermit and get officially divorced and feel sort of financially stable and possibly try dating again and get a cat ??? is that allowed? no I probably shouldn't unless I get a bigger place and can have two cats to be friends

downside is when the fuck am I supposed to draw dumb comics if I'm working for hours and hours a day? Hell and suffering on earth. maybe i should get an iPad or a whatthefuck ever and draw on the commute so I don't lose even more of my meager art skills

#personal bullshit #i have never had what is traditionally considered a Real Job #this is my first 8 to 4 type job #tbqh if i could have just done teaching assistant work without the whole grad student shit that would have been cool #but i just couldn't anymore #no one there helped me when i needed it #a super huge fuck you to all of the mandatory training i had to do re: intimate partner violence and abuse #well anyway it's fucking done and who cares if i wasted 8ish years of my only life (: #now i get to help people make babies #which is not at all what i thought i would do #but hey at least it feels meaningful #and i get to wear scrubs all the time which is nice because they're kind of shapeless and make me look slightly more masc esp with binding #wonder if i could donate oocytes #im sure as fuck not gonna use them #might be too old tho #give bad eggs #also might have too much testosterone in my system now #0 idea how that works except at some point they expect me to stop menstruating #but my dumb reproductive parts are too strong too powerful will not be stopped by some pitiful exogenous T #anyway i really need to try to sleep #and stfu #but yeah maybe i can think about moving and getting 2 cats

[sometipsygnostalgic]

I dreamt a kid stole my Switch, so i fucking grabbed him, took it back, and smashed his 3ds into pieces.... i was like "haha im an ADULT so you can't just steal my stuff and get away with it now"... tipsy??? Hello??? Am i scared of children??? How do i explain to the psychotherapist that 80% of my dreams this week have involved me being bullied by children, as a child or as an adult?

#some fictional and real life supervillains never get over high school #that guy from stormbreaker who was bullied for being a nerd #so he made an AR device that would MURDER EVERY CHILD WHO PLAYED IT AT LAUNCH #Which. logistically and even by his own logic makes zero sense #oh as for real life supervillains #JK Rowling was definitely bullied at school and NEVER got over it #you can just see the hatred for mean schoolchildren in her school books #so much spite there #goes to explain how i identified strongly with those books as a kid #cos they shared my view on school students #then when i grew up and learnt a bit more human empathy #i went... 'wtf??? why are these books so juvenile towards schoolkids? werent they written by an adult???'

[journey-to-the-attic]

Dragon IK AU:

While im split if Mammon would actually do this, imagine Mammon bringing Ik in her huge dragon form when some witches wanted to ‘talk’ to him about his debt. Basically the “it dont bite” meme

Witch: HEY ABOUT YA-

Dragon! Ik: GRRRRR

Witch: *unholy screech*

Witch: GET YOUR FUCKING DRAGON BITCH

Mammon: it dont bite

Witch: YES IT DO

Ik is just happy to help Mammon while Lucifer is just ready to string him up

(Hmmm wonder if the other brothers would do something similar…)

- 🐧 Anon

ik would love the opportunity to go feral as a dragon so as soon as the idea is suggested she'd be like HECK YEAH LET'S GO

though i think mammon would be more hesitant, so even though ik's about to go all massive claws and impervious scales on the witches, he's still like "if they mess with ya i'll beat them into a pulp!!!"

#answering asks #anon asks #🐧 anon #lucifer would carry her around rad in tiny form and stop misbehaving students #by threatening to unleash her big dragon form on them #(of course he never intends to actually do it but it always works like a charm) #(on some particularly trying days he really does contemplate doing it for real though) #dragon hybrid ik #jtta aus

[change-the-rules]

no offense against baby anthony but riverdale was already being ripped part for it's 'nonsensical' choices that were a feature and not a bug so they should've just ignored vanessa's pregnancy vanessa's a tiny ass lady ya'll had options

just like several episodes of toni just pushing around her motorcycle everywhere she goes with zero explanation

school hallway? motorcycle. vixens practice? coaching from behind the motorcycle. pop's diner? how did you get that motorcycle through the single door. town walkthroughs? the feral dogs avoid me cause i'm a cool cat with.... a motorcycle. town council meeting? in case you forgot i am social working guidance counseling leader of a biker gang -motorcycle *jazz hands* 2bdr apartment with a 3 floor walkup and no elevator? why are you still with the questions m o t o r c y c l e

fangs at some point: yea i don't know how she got it in here either- no i know - it's just yeah no cheryl's still rping sarah winschester-yeah i know -no it's that's her emotional support motorcycle-look it's easier to just not question it

#honestly i dont even think the motorcycle would totally block a pregnant belly from sight vanessa's tiny but not that tiny still #the image amused me and would not leave my brain so it's y'alls problem now #but also outside of my dumb motorcycle jape #riverdale is one of the few shows i would've trusted to do this in the most unhinged way possible [complimentary] #and even without a beloved rivedalian spin #like there are so many in character options for this #not that toni's character being in character was something that was given much consideration throughout the series #but still giant bag not toni's style ok np #we got boxes of student files and alcohol crates both easy to make weigh nothing #we got guidance counselor desks and bar counters friends #hilariously over sized pom poms anyone #giant floral arrangements from her beloved #ooo a giant beehive for her queen of the bees [like the crates not like a natural one] #idfk some literal snakes? will they cover the belly? no will anyone be looking at her belly if toni is draped snakes? #idk i guess some ppl have pregnancy kinks but mostly no cause snakes *makes will smith gesture meme hand motions* #honestly compared to the vast amount of bullshit storylines that have plagued me bc an actress' real life pregnancy was written into a show #i will never complain about giant bags boxes or floral arrangements from runners and writers who are like #yeah ya know what this just isn't right for the character because yea yes thx my undying love and respect #i'm not even saying that toni's pregnancy was bad but i'm chewing through drywall thinking about what we could've had instead #toni topaz #oh riverdale you precious beautiful compulsive piece of trash

[amarrymeinbostonwriter]

Wow. Sometimes I'm very lucky and my bipolar doesn't always affect me much. But no such luck lately. I'm worried that I might have to retake my modern lit course because I was so late with many of my assignments. I've been mentally messed up more or less with a mixed mood episode since last September. I'm currently on the line of passing and not passing the class (granted there are a few ungraded assignments, including my final so it's still possible that I'm overreacting). I'm usually a good student too so it's a point of pride for me. I went from the honor roll to this all due to me fighting with an illness... :/ (It is my fault for not managing things better so I'm not looking for pity here- just talking).

I cannot imagine how horrible this disorder is for people who didn't have the option of medication (I am medicated, believe it or not). I think about that about that a lot since I study history and look into many writer's and artist's biographies in my spare time. I feel very bad for them since they basically had to live with this disorder without the fixes I have simply because I was born late enough for treatments to exist.

Virginia Woolf and Sylvia Plath both haunt me. Other people too. Yes, Lord Byron was extremely shocking but consider- we don't actually know what he would have been like if he could have been treated. He wouldn't have died at 36, I'm almost certain of that. I am highly aware of what this disorder has done to people before me. It doesn't make it better. But I keep looking back any way, to see that many of them did incredible things, in spite of it all.

I just keep thinking that if they could do so much without any treatment- that I should be able to function with treatment??? I know: don't compare yourself to other people but I'm desperate to know that I can be successful even with this illness. That it's not going to force me to leave school (the one thing I have been historically good at) and waste my life toiling away for nothing.

So if it seems as if I have been hitting my head against something lately, you aren't wrong. The fall is not generally my friend, pretty as the leaves are. I have not been having a good time of it but we must go on any way because what other option is there? None, I tell you.

#leaves pretty brain shitty has been my fall for the last few years since 2018 at least... #consistently fall has been bad for my cycle though I like that time of year normally #granted a lot of things kept happening every fall since 2018 too #bipolar disorder #actually bipolar #I probably am a closet perfectionist in some cases #I am exhausted thanks for asking! #and yes for a few semesters I was an honor roll student in my grad school- not any more though LOL #seriously I'm going into debt for this degree and uh that promise to waive our debt never came to light so I'm very fucked rn #I have to finish this degree so I can work off my debt and build a good reputation for myself #I'm honestly afraid my illness might take away my ability to have a career at all; I'm desperate for a living wage! #it's not good #but this could be anxiety talking tbh #for real I'm amazed that like Virginia Woolf and others were able to do as much as they did in their lives #because without my medication I'd probably be useless??? Mania is not fun 10/10 would NOT suggest #I actually pity Lord Byron after reading his biography; he just seems like if mania was a person and um it explains his behavior completely #do you ever look back at other peoples' lives and see pieces of yourself in them and then feel really bad for them? cuz I do all the time #mychatter #I'm stubborn in that I refuse to quit school since I am aware that my family needs to know I can do this #please don't take this personally this is my problem and a pointless rant probably

[happi-tree]

soooooo i don't have much new to post for wipweds this week so i thought i'd grab a little something from my archives! a ton more people were curious about The Raven and The Dove than i expected, so here's a little excerpt from my amphibia school for good and evil au! in which marcy learns a tiny bit of archery and sasha has some Feelings about it 💗💚

#i was so taken by this scene in the movie that it was literally the first thing i wrote for this au. head in my hands gay people real <3 #the sasharcy in this. very self-indulgent very off the charts. the sashanne and marcanne too but that is not the focus here lmao #anyway. hiiiiiii amphibia fandom i am not like. super dead dndads has just had a very sudden and firm grasp on my heart as of late hsbfkahv #also there's a brief glimpse at sasha's backstory here. it really sucks when you're meant to be the paragon of all that is good and pure #and you have the eyes of an entire realm on you at all times. and you keep pushing the envelope of what's proper #i.e. not wearing the frilly dresses all of the time taking up fighting etc. this would already be hard enough if you were a regular student #but you aren't that. everyone is watching you and has Expectations for you and you know what you want but you can't let yourself have it #so you just repress things so hard. cling to whatever you can get away with and try your very best to excel at everything they let you have #and then in come marcy and anne and you've never seen two people less concerned with The Rules. their existence itself flips the script #and you have NO idea what to do about that! other than panic internally ofc <3 #anywho. sorry the sasha bias really came through with this one i just think her pov in this would be so inch resting #okok i'm done now i promise #cartoons #amphibia #sasharcy #happi scribbles #happi rambles #also. if ppl like this please do lmk bc while i doubt i'll finish this i do have a few more disjointed bits i could post up for y'all <3 #tartd au

[headbandsandflats]

just spent an hour on the phone with my best friend talking about my very embarrassing work crush and at this moment i feel like i’m in the eighth grade again in both the best and worst ways

#every time i want to cry about student loans i think about how if i never went to my college i never would have met her& it’s kinda worth it #btw having a crush in your thirties is the MOST EMBARRASSING THING OF ALL TIME I HATE IT #i haven’t had a real life crush in so long i actually forgot i could feel these feelings and guess what they suck #also i don’t really have a media hyper fixation atm so i kind of feel like this crush is my hyper fixation & thats real bad #it’s like having a crush but on crack #ANYWAY #SO EMBARRASSING I COULD DIE #about me #about crushes #about bffs #about eight grade

[bilbao-song]

shoutout to me when i was like eight years old setting my neopets birthdate to some random day in 1989 so it could be a pain in the ass every single time i randomly decided to log in again for the rest of eternity

#neopets #like why did i not at least make the month and day be correct lmao????? #i was so bizarrely paranoid tho and went around telling people i was 15 bc i like #thought it would seem too suspicious if i said i was 13 #like either way it was a lie but it’s just so baffling in hindsight #like? is it too suspicious to be thirteen? thirteen year olds aren’t real so they’ll never believe it if i say im thirteen!!! #an elementary school student pretending to be 15 will be MUCH more believable!!! #and my friends would just flat out be like ‘yeah i’m ten but my birthdate is set to 13.’ #but i was so terrified of having my account frozen that i was just determined to lie to everyone #and then i STILL had to explain to my friends why my birthdate had the wrong age bc 1989 made it even older!!!! #nonsense rambling

[godblooded]

i just gotta say peoples' obsessions with writing toxic relationships just concerns the shit outta me on this hellsite.

#ooc. your local bodega kat. #[everyone: i love complex relationships! what everyone means: couples fighting is normal! so if they're horrendous to each other #sometimes it's normal!! #couples fight like... of course. it's unhealthy NOT to fight. but there's a level where it's....uhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHH and some of what's said #or done that people condone on here is wild. if i had a nickel for every time i saw someone say their character was a wonderful spouse and #then display like 10 reasons why they're covertly emotionally or verbally abusive. the rpc has such a tendency to refer to dv in one #specific term when it comes to ic ships and it's always physical but everything else is 'complex' and man that's worrying. see also: why #i was taught in grad school never to teach streetcar with marlon brando because students excuse him immediately due to his looks and his #bullshit angst. it's alarming as fuck. coming from parents who were sometimes physically abusive (to me and each other) like... this also #needs to be recognized in self-critical media. there's so much shit that needs evaluating. and it's not like i've never written a toxic #ship. i wrote the fucking WORST on at one point because i was too chickenshit to get alana out of it. and it ended in her being DESTROYED. #you know. like those kind of relationships tend to end in. like. my ex-father beat the fuck out of a dude in a bar who hit on my mom and #then when he found out the guy died a day later it was military or jail and he went military. and then my mom took him BACK. this is REAL #LIFE SHIT. writing it is virtually incredibly depressing and writing it without making clear it's fucked up is worse. whether you've been #through it or not. in that case: why even. shit hurts enough when you go through it. why would you want to vicariously go through it #being a fake person if there was no way to turn the outcome through healing and positive growth. sorry for being an optimist basically.] #domestic violence mention / #domestic abuse mention / #abuse mention / #murder mention / #[i'm just thinking back on the most toxic fucking verse i ever had and how glad i am said person and i no longer speak.]

[stardustedknuckles]

I knew updating my information for next year's insurance rates would make me feel ill but boy it made me feel ill. Going from paying $1 a month for insurance I rarely need to paying $142 per month for insurance I will rarely need, when the amount of money I am getting paid only just allows me to break even on bills and such in the first place, is a huge blow. I hate this. I hate it so much. And it's still the better option because if I tried to get insurance through my work it would be $300.

I don't even really get the option of trying to go without insurance because I have a chronic illness and cannot afford to take that risk anymore than I can afford to pay. It's hellish in both directions.

#god I have to go lie down now #I hate it here so much #I always knew that one I was making any real amount of money this would happen #but part of me was starting to think I never would #and 35k a year still isn't really making anything #but it's 15k more than I have ever made #I guess it's still better than last time i lived here #when I was paying nothing for insurance but a combined 500 a month for car and car insurance #geez #if I were otherwise healthy I could just use the sliding scale clinics #and coupons for wellbutrin since it's all I'm taking atm #but I am still on the journey to figuring out what is wrong with me #and that means I have to have insurance #and I need a little time to be fucking angry about the whole raw deal #i bet my student loans are going to start making me pay too #that ain't happening

[wingsandpetals]

so bizarre when you make a choice in a dream that leads to you waking up instantly

#was having some kind of stanley parable ass dream and my narrator was all like this is about to be the final part #so i was running because i was being chased by a bunch of students and teachers (long story) and saw two doors #and he gave me some kind of riddle about how the left door that said oct. 11 showed me what i could be (like an ideal future??) #and the right door said Oct. 3 and the riddle went something like 'you'll be who you were/ (something?) / your own future' and i though #well its weird that this rhyme mentions my future if he means it goes to the past #but i dashed through the oct 3 door and woke up instantly #i think i get it. i 'became who is was' which is me before the dream #the whole dream i had been playing dream characters and it wasn't until a few minutes before i had begun to remember myself #and i guess the part about the future is saying the real life present is both my past (before the dream) and my future (will continue after) #anyway so weird. i miss him and his voice that made me trust and not trust him at the same time #my only regret is i never got to see him like he said i would #maybe i failed the dream? #also i was running hand in hand with a kid (source of the students and teachers chasing us) i wonder what happened #our post comrade. #i think i would have stopped more to ponder the choice if i didn't have the little girl with me

[cheekblush]

just woke up from a horrible dream about my chemistry final tomorrow 😭

#it felt so REAL i woke up with my heart racing bc i was so scared 😭 #immediately checked my phone bc i thought the exam is TODAY but no today is sunday the exam is tomorrow i need to calm down 😩 #i took a break from studying yesterday & just relaxed the whole day & clearly my subconciousnes is now making me feel guilty for it 😞 #i hate when my worst fears creep into my dreams like please let me sleep in peace i'm already anxious enough 😭 #i genuinely was so scared the exam was today & i'm completely unprepared bc there's still so much i need to study 😭😭😭 #in the dream i showed up to the exam & there was a delay bc they didn't print out enough copies but some students already got theirs #so i asked someone if i could look through their exam paper & i was absolutely mortified when i didn't know a single answer #so then i started to feel nauseous & talked to my teacher outside the classroom saying i was feeling unwell & he got PISSED #we always have to sign a paper right before the exam if we feel healthy/fit enough to participate #so i guess dream me thought if i told my teacher about it he would be understanding & let me leave but he got so angry 😭 #he said he saw me flipping through the exam paper (which obviously isn't allowed) & that's the only reason i'm feeling unwell now #then i confessed that i didn't have much time to prepare for chemistry bc of all the other exams which made him even angrier #then he basically humiliated me in front of the entire class telling them i'm retracting my exam participation in a joking manner #he kept saying i have to repeat another year & making fun of me... i was crying so much in front of the entire class 😭 #he wouldn't answer my questions anymore & then another teacher came & told me to leave & that's when i woke up in panic 😫 #usually i never remember my dreams & i'd rather it stays that way instead of having such horrible dreams 😭😭😭 #i hope this isn't a bad sign & that i'll manage the exam tomorrow.. i'm honestly so scared i just want to pass 😔 #the dream was honestly so scary.. i could see my teacher's face SO CLEARLY & all the little mannerisms he always does... #like he always has to turn everything into a joke.... ugh this is so unsettling please please please let me pass this exam 😞 #just a few weeks ago he gave us these really difficult questions for exam preparation & even our chemistry aces were struggling with them #when i asked if the exam will also be so difficult he just laughed 😭😭😭 #he later clarified that the exam won't include such difficult questions but like why use them for exam preparation then???? #everyone was so frustrated & discouraged after those questions #all the other teachers just revised all the study material with us & gave us questions that really prepared us for the exams #i'm seriously terrified of tomorrow now... i'm so scared i'll just be staring at the exam paper & not being able to answer anything 😭 #okay let me calm down.... i wrote a whole essay in the tags 😭😭😭 #☁️