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yesmissnyx · 7 months

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just something to note from your last poll… personally as a binary trans person i find it uncomfortable to be grouped with nonbinary people as opposed to cis people. because to me as a binary trans man i am a man the same way a cis man is, but not necessarily in the same way a nb man is. idk how others feel about it but to me it just feels othering, saying that we’re any different gender-wise. it would probably just be safer to have two more options, just an fyi :) also not meant to be any hate towards the nb options!! sorry if this is worded weird lol its late

Okay so. As a disclaimer, this might come off as condescending or snappish, but as a queer (vagueness intentional) in my 30s who's seen all kinds of identity discourse rise and fall since the 00s...I have a lot of feelings about orthodox terminology.

So. Forgive me if I'm being needlessly spicy.

It's going behind a cut, since this isn't the kind of energy I want on this blog, and I'm likely going to delete this later because I don't need T//er/fs and Tr//usc//um crawling around here if they find it 😤

This might be controversial, but I meant the slash as an and/or.

Because for me, and a lot of others, transness (and nonbinariness) IS inextricable from our binary gender experience.

I've known (and know) multiple people who identify as trans, nonbinary, AND male/female. (Myself included, depending on the day, weather, how the stars are aligning, etc. FYI.)

And...I think it's important to remember that something like a simple, quick-and-dirty poll like the one I ran...just plain isn't going to encompass the tapestry of how everyone experiences gender. And like? I think that's fine.

Expecting everyone (trans or cis or otherwise) to always express Gender Stuff in a way that fits OUR personal needs is, IMO, unproductive at best. And invalidating/hurtful at worst.

Not to mention, it's impossible. I'm not saying we can't try to be nice and accommodating toward others, but there is no simple set of rules that everyone has agreed on.

We can make requests and enforce our own boundaries, but the uncomfortable fact is that we all have our own needs, and those needs often compete.

Something that causes euphoria in one person is going to cause dysphoria in another. We all experience our transness differently, especially including the words we use to describe our experiences.

I certainly don't think the added "trans" in front of man/woman makes someone less of a man/woman. The same way I don't think lumping oneself in with nonbinary men/women does either.

Like...if you ID as a man/woman, you're a man/woman. If you ID as trans...you're trans. I separated out an individual NB option specifically because it excludes the male/female aspect, rather than includes it. (And that's not to say it even includes all the myriad nonbinary options out there, as well as people who don't use NB as an umbrella, etc.)

It's complicated. Intersectionality is complicated. Far more complicated than I'm qualified to get into, save for citing my own experiences and the experiences that have been shared with it.

Aaaand, that's all I'm going to say! Because this is something I can get really heated about, and I'm not about to go off in my happy feel-good horny time space any more than I already have!

#ask nyx #tbd #Blech. I don't want to get too serious here as a habit. I have other spaces for that!#But yeah! I dunno! I sure hope I don't regret posting this!#I just feel like kink education and queer education are perhaps not sisters but cousins.#And alas! I am but a filthy inclusionist whenever possible.#(Maturing just so assholes can't report me for being Gender on tumblr 😘)

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iceslushii · 8 months

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fyi. this is not me asking you to put a label on me

so i see myself as a demigirl since i do identify with being a woman more or less but i also don't see myself as a woman/man/trans etc. like i see myself as simply human most of the time and i was just thinking about that and i've never heard of a identity that fits in with just seeing yourself as a human so i searched it up and 90% of what came up was agender but i'm just a little confused, does it mean what i just said about seeing yourself as a human or what does it mean? also does agender fit into demigirl?

i'm sorry for the long ask, i'm just confused.. and like i said this isn't me asking you to put a label on me, i know one doesn't have to have a label but it's just easier for me to have one so i know who i am (i'm neurodivirgent and my brain works best if i have labels on everything)

dont worry about the long ask ! its okay :]

i guess i can see why agender is mostly what you could find because it is basically just having no gender (although that doesn't really answer your question). if you want you can interpret it as just identifying/seeing yourself as a human because i also dont know of any identities that specifically talk about that.

anyway, i looked up your "does agender fit into demigirl" question to find input from other people. there are things, including whoever added stuff to the gender wiki, that do say that some demigirls feel like theyre partially outside the binary, the wiki listing "non-binary umbrella like agender, genderqueer, or xenogenders" as gender identities that you can use as well as identifying as a demigirl. in summary, i would say that yeah, i think that agender can fit into demigirl as well as both being used as labels simultaneously.

im not sure if this helps your confusion or if it makes sense, but here you go 🦀 if you have any other questions feel free to ask me and i'll try and respond to them !

also if anyone has any input of their own, feel free to add it in a reblog or the comments or anything !

#me 🤝 you; brains working best when we have labels for everything #slushiianswersasks

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starbright-cobweb · 2 years

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I'm thinking a lot at the moment about the term "genderqueer", and about genderqueer/nonbinary terminology splits.

When I was coming out the first time (~2010) both terms were around, but GQ was the more popular. NB has definitely won out, quite comprehensively, and my sense is that this is because nonbinary is more of depoliticised term, but also more of an open space. you know what the fuck you're about with genderqueer: tits OUT, glitter beard ON, cock HUGE, skirt GORGEOUS. it's never not confrontational. But nonbinary is a better umbrella term, a better community term that can contain so many things within it - including, at times, overtly political and confrontational genders (permanent and temporary, preferred or unavoidable), but feeling like a broader space too for other ways of being. "Non" is right there in the title: a term that's clearer about what it's not than what it is. Which means, in practice, it can be anything, and that is its power to bring-together.

I was lucky(ish) to come out into a trans community, but in practice this meant meeting no men, and no one on testosterone, for the first six years: experiencing a transmasculinity that had no space or interest in people like me. Consequently, I've never felt like either NB or GQ were concepts that included me: as labels, they tend to be flags for environments, theory, or media that are hostile to parts of who I am, typically without intending or recognising that this is the case.

I think a lot about these terms as 'chosen' categories rather than 'lived' categories. I'm still ruminating about a hookup message I got last month, from someone who was interested in me - but had 'afab' and NO MEN blazoned very loudly all over their profile. I followed up and they clarified "I'm sorry I thought you were queer or non-binary". This, in a nutshell, is why I have so little faith in Queer as a project. It's just rude: messages from fellow trans people which are contemporary twists on "i saw you and thought you were a woman", whose self identification is "between genders but fyi definitely not a tranny". What about me is not queer? We're all on a queer dating app after all. Everyone here is queer. Nonetheless, clarifying that I am a man is enough to elicit "I thought you were queer, but now know you are not". What about me is binary? Is there any conception of a "binary trans person" that makes political sense in a cissexist world?

This person has a mental image about what these categories require and contain; it's just the most recent occurrence, but feels fairly typical. If there's a purpose of trans scenes or trans4trans dating culture, this violates them: having your gender taken seriously, being around people who understand gender in complex ways, and being desirable despite-or-because you are a gender weirdo. The majority of messages I get from cis men meet a higher standard of respect. What, then, is the value of connecting over supposedly shared gendered-queerness?

It's on my mind because as I transition, I have increasing need for the political space genderqueer promises to create (but in reality, does not) - that is, the steely-earth of living like this, or finding ways to talk about your pelvis bone that honours yourself and uplifts others - but is honest as well. My hips doesn't lie, and neither should I about what that means for me.

There's ongoing community tensions about how fun it is to be trans - people frame it in different ways, as binary/nonbinary; transitioning/nontransitioning; transmed/truscum; euphoria-centric/dysphoria-centric; and none of those are useful or accurate, but a split exists all the same. Some parts of trans life include kinds of gender incongruity which the subject has chosen, enjoys, curates, or has found a way to love. Other parts include incongruities the subject cannot love, did not choose, is valiantly working around, is not their ideal. These things are not in tension and the temperature of these conversations would come down a lot if people would ask "are we talking about different experiences here?" more often.

But for all that I reject these experiences/discourse should be split in two groups, I am going to thingmake that split again: it certainly feels true that a lot of outside-the-binary theory and community is more naturally welcoming to, and therefore formed and dominated by, people who are loving their incongruities over those who are surviving them. I read a lot of anthologies, and rarely find parts that speak to me; a lot more nonbinary as preferred strategy than genderqueer as lived experience.

Maybe it'll come in time. I don't bind, for health reasons, and eventually began experiencing this as a male chest regardless. I have so much newfound confidence about how I look that I'm dressing up more, taking photos from a place of pride to show off, and then my hip width just kills me. I just need to sit with the idea that that is the incongruity which is most valuable; that's my visibility as a trans person that counts politically; it feels like my facial hair and my packing because those are the parts I love, the parts I've chosen; but the genderqueer-that-matters is where it gets hard - the sense of difficulty is a clue to its importance. I just need to keep taking photos, pray for wisdom, keep writing and making art that's honest but doesn't replicate or pass-on unhappiness and shame; make a genderqueer with the answers.

#hark! a gender!

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honexjams · 3 years

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just was watching an ftm tiktok compilation that featured kalvin garrah and it got me heated, i have a LOT to say about him and his influence but i will condense it to this:

all trans people have an era of discovery and experimentation, for some that includes experimenting with pronouns online to see what theyre comfortable with. the rise in people IDing with they/them or they/she or they/he is infinitely more to do with more trans kids feeling comfortable to experiment than it is with unconcerned cis people wanting clout. (i know some cis people do ID as lgbt for attention, i grew up in a very depressed/depressing and drug-laden small town where its not unheard of for people, especially young people, to go to strange lengths for relief, comfort, and entertainment. this small amount does not tend to go through the worst of the treatment i had as a young, binary trans person in this parish, which alone will garuntee those folks didnt ID this way 'for funzies' very long)

writing off all of these young people as simply wanting attention is harmful to both nonbinary people directly and binary trans people who are young and trying to figure out what theyre comfortable with.

i can say for myself personally, that i am very sensitive so if the trans online sphere was as critical in 2012 as it is today, it probably wouldve thrown a wrench in my personal process of understanding my feelings and realizing the transphobic responses i got from coming out were just that and not the absolute truth. which wouldve in turn left me IDing as non-binary or nothing at all online for a longer time because i wouldve been more concerned with my fear of seeming like i wanted attention online than actually trying to nut up and come out at school or do anything i needed to do irl for my comfort.

i first listed my pronouns on a writing site thats mostly barren last i checked, and what i put was "he/him/they/them" because i was at a place where i was caught between what i felt was true about myself, and having just come out to my mother as an 11-year-old and her not believing me.

demonizing non binary pronouns and identities will 100% effect this generation of trans kids because for those with no support, they will turn to the internet. when both their real life and the online spaces they go to are highly critical and unaccepting of nonbinary identities, any kid less than 100% sure theyre a binary trans person will suffer at the very least an extended period of confusion and denial, and at worst never fully come to grips with who they are.

ive always felt really strongly about this but i feel as i hit the 10 year mark of knowing i was trans (and still being pretty young at 20yo) its a good time to express these feelings a little more formally than i tend to. especially because i fit into the like, Ideal Trans Experience of knowing i was a boy at a young age (i mentioned finding trans people at 11 but i have Very early memories of telling other kids on the playground that 'i was born a boy who looked like a girl so my parents raised me as a girl' which is dummy accurate to a trans experience often shown in media yk).

(this next paragraph is all personal anecdotes which are important to my point but if you dont care feel free to skip over it)

I do very much believe and accept nonbinary people as truth because i can understand how someone can feel like something that isnt understandable to the society they grew up in because that was my experience as an lgbt person in the deep south. I remember hearing my mom at a local parade (a Very Community-Focused thing where i grew up), see two teen girls holding hands walking down the street and saying "theyre a little young for that, huh?" to a friend, I remember asking her what 'gay' meant as a kid bc ofc i heard it at school and just wanted padding for if i ever said it out loud because as i knew it, wasnt a curse word but it was Bad Word (bc i knew from hearing it around school that it was a Bad Word)i wanted to know what it meant, she said "some boys date boys, its not really a Good lifestyle, but sometimes they do it". Ive heard many transmedicalists say 'how can you have dysphoria for nothing?' as in how can someone be agender. I am a binary trans man in a committed relationship with another man and I am frankly bewildered as to how a binary trans person can believe such a thing as 'the only genders that exist are ones i know about, even after discovering my own queerness' because I can perfectly understand the correlation between binary and nonbinary trans people. For me, growing up as a teenager in the south in the 2010s, gays were vaguely accepted but still ostrisized, and in school i had a classmate who i knew is a binary trans man because i still know him now, and I, my insecure, weak, self concious self emailed my teachers about my pronouns and name while he was still being called his birthname in class and my cousin, who sat in front of me next to him (thats how small a fown this is) was the only person who called him his chosen name, which was how i figured he was like me.

I personally dont want bottom surgery even tho i Fully identify as a binary male, I simply came to the understanding that a 'cis penis' is not something I will ever have so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ may aswell get used to the things i can tolerate, unlike my chest and 'feminine' features that T has changed.

Long story short if You are a binary trans person who doesn't get what the whole nonbinary thing is all about, simply try describing your own trans experience as if you were really not a boy or girl. As if you really, through your deepest soul-searching, came up with the fact that you simply dont identify with neither male nor female.

Back to the original point of binary trans people in a self descovery phase, if You are a binary trans person? try to remember the first time you felt really invalidated in a way that truly struck you as like, a direct attack on how you feel (like how those depressing 'relatable posts' do), did you ever feel like if that was something you experienced in a crucial part of your discovery period that it wouldve hurt a lot? maybe even to the point where it surpressed how you felt about yourself? All i want from the trans community is to not let anyone else feel that way. I truly do fear for young trans people and how this exclusive environment stunts them.

#talkin.555 #trans #ftm #if anybody has anything to say about anything i brought up lmk id be happy to address it fr #and also fyi i am a binary trans man #i Found trans people and was like woah wtf thats a thing 👀👀👀 when i was 11 in 2012 for context of what im tallembout when i say the trans #spaces online have gotten more critical since ive been involved #this prolly #isnt thst comprehensible because i started trxting my dad for the first time in a year partway thru #im #bout to jusy #b scrolling degular now because that was a lot but i just want the brst for #other trans kids #whomped tags

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callsignbaphomet · 4 years

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So I’m just gonna get right to the point. I love playing Skyrim, I love playing as my OCs in Skyrim. I especially love modding the living heck out of this game while playing as my OCs and pretty much living vicariously through them.

However, as much as I love this game IT IS SEVERELY LACKING IN LGBTQ+ CONTENT AND THE OPTION TO MARRY SOME CHARACTERS OF THE SAME GENDER AND ONE INSTANCE OF AN MLM COUPLE THROUGH A LETTER BECAUSE THEY’RE BOTH DEAD AF IN THE DRAGONBORN DLC IS NOT ENOUGH FOR MY QUEER ASS!

So what to do? Mods! It’s 2020 and a lot more people are openly accepting and open-minded, right? So finding LGBTQ+ mods should be a lot easier, right? Eh.........no. I’ve spent several days trying to find mods to make my Skyrim playthrough as queer as I possibly can make it, specifically for my High Elf OC who is trans (FtM), very effeminate, has a none muscular body and build and very gay. I think now, after several days of research, tutorials, testing and an endless amount of headaches I think I have the mods to make my play through true to how I imagine and have written this character as.

Bare with me for a few seconds, I promise I’ll get to the point and this is worth reading. I’m trying to get as much information in this as possible.

Disclaimer:

This mod list is only for the PC version of the game. Look, I’m super, super sorry but basically over 95% of all these mods are exclusively found online and even if they ARE on beth.net they aren’t used at full capacity from what I understand. Believe me, as a mainly console player, it breaks my heart that I can’t include the consoles for this list.

I won’t be linking to just Nexus. I’ve found a bunch of mods outside of the Nexus that are reliable.

I’ll only be working with the Special Edition version of the game. It’s the one I have and am playing on.

I will NOT be covering female body replacers. At freakin’ all. There are literal dozens of mods covering this. There will only be ONE and it is for very specific reasons only.

In my little venture into finding these mods I came across a lot of homophobic, transphobic and downright disgusting comments within the Nexus. I also found out a lot of queer mod authors were driven out of the Nexus because of said homophobic people. This is what happened to Vector and also why SavrenX refuses to upload anything other than weapon, item retextures to the Nexus. Nexus users and community overall is very homophobic and toxic so I’m very sorry if you see or read something upsetting. I advice you avoid the comments (known as posts on Nexus) tab as to avoid seeing some vile shit. Ignore them and don’t engage them ffs, they just want a reaction out of you. There’s no correcting these assholes much less educating them. They ain’t worth your time. Just report and move on.

The majority of the mods linked in this post have been tried by me, if I haven’t tried them out I’ll say so. Again, I’m learning as I go along and believe me this hasn’t been an easy task to find all of these working mods.

No, I won’t be searching or uploading any ports, texture, mesh or mod edits I myself have done. I ain’t confident in how well I may have or not have edited the mods and more importantly that’s as bad as uploading art that wasn’t done by you. Sadly, you’ll have to do these changes yourself. I’ll try my best to link tutorials. Also don’t go and harass the authors for a port or an update ffs.

I’ll most likely be editing this list as I learn more.

Yes, I will leave links from adult sites. A lot of these sites pretty much force you to sign up in order for you to download their content. It’s fine, just make some random account and you’ll instantly gain access to the mods. Just know there’ll be nsfw images, gifs and videos everywhere in these sites.

While I will be referring to male characters a lot of these if not all can also cater to non-binary characters too!

No, I will not be covering sex mods. I have no intention of adding them to any of my load orders and I really don’t care to. You’re on your own for that category. Try Lover’s Lab.

*Body Mods/Replacers/Races:

Schlongs of Skyrim (aka SOS). Not the only choice out there but the most current and fully working one. Pretty much mandatory for a bunch of mods so might as well have it, ya know?

Tempered Skins for Males. Was known as Better Males; pairs up beautifully with SOS. Super amazing work if you ask me.

Shape Atlas for Men (aka SAM). This is literally the god king of all male body replacers. Want a twunk? This mod will do it. Want a regular Joe? This can do it. Want a bear of a man running around in Skyrim? Yeah, girl, this can do it. Ever since I discovered it I have been obsessed with it! HOWEVER, the full working mod is only available for Old Skyrim, maybe for Legendary Edition but I’m not sure. Vector said he had plans to port the full working mod to Special Edition but confessed he was having issues with the scripts. Also afaik Vector’s last updates on working on the mod were back in late 2016 so I think it’s safe to say this beautiful mod will never be seen running on SSE. Sadly Vector just up and left the modding scene somewhere in 2018. It none of our business but from what I read he faced a lot of homophobic harassment from people not liking his body mod or giving him shit because he didn’t want to make a female body mod. He even faced harassment from our very own community.

Not all’s lost though. Some of the amazing modders in Vector’s site have made a working version for SSE.

SAM Light, SAM Morphs for RaceMenu, SAM SE Vanilla Armor Refit, SAM High Poly Conversion, SAM Light Texture Add-on, High Poly Head

The Ultra Femme. Title should be super self-explanatory. Super good if your character is really femme or non-binary or trans. I haven’t tried out this body myself and I’m not entirely sure whether this is compatible with SE or not. RefurbMadness has a lot of mods hosted in her site and still has some in Nexus that are being hosted by the site’s Care Taker. I’m actually gonna link a few later. I honestly suggest going through her site and reading up everything. She’s pretty clear when it comes to instructions, the only problem is she’s not exactly clear on whether her mods are compatible with SE or not. Maybe it’s written somewhere in there, I’m still new to modding and need very clear descriptions (you kinda gotta talk to me like I’m 5 when it comes to mods). I need to check more of her content and test a bunch of things. She also has armor and clothing mods.

Milkdrinker Male Texture and Slim Male Body for SoS (<3<3<3). Both by the same mod author. Sadly only available for Old Skyrim but the only reason why I linked it is because both mods are super easy to convert to use for SSE. Sweetie, if I managed to do it, you can do it too. Watch this, or this or this or try to Google it and see what comes up. Personally I tried the Slim Male Body and it was pretty good. Unfortunately you’d have to refit all the armors to fit either body yourself.

Transgender Race and NPCS SSE. Like I said before I wasn’t going to link or talk about any female body replacers except for one. This one! Look, there are a few out there but they’re extremely transmisogynistic and fetishistic and use a lot of outdated and transphobic language plus they’re mostly sex mods so I will abso-freaking-lutely NOT be linking them. Anyway, the people behind this port are back to working on this mod and have plans for adding transgender men. As of now the mod only has transgender women. They can’t add more genders due to the engine limitations and FYI they used “race” in the title because this isn’t a body mod, it’s actually a race. This is one of the few mods that won’t play well with SoS.

There IS one more body or better said, race, I tried but I really didn’t like it. Mod worked as it was advertised but--well, whatever, it’s for personal reasons that I didn’t like it and it depended way too much on a lot of more mods and it bloated up my LO something fierce so for that reason I ain’t gonna link it. Mod’s called Femboy if you wanna give it a try yourself.

*Extras (edits, armors, clothes and more):

Enhanced Character Edit SE. Tl;dr this is like RaceMenu but on steroids. It offers way more sliders and because of this it has fantastic potential to mold your character’s body to your personal liking. I used this instead of RM for my High Elf I mentioned earlier. He has a more “delicate” frame and is much thinner than my other OCs and this mod did exactly what I’ve been trying to achieve for a very long time now. Works like a charm.

SSE Luscious Locks for All - Unisex KS Hair. Makes it so that male characters can use all the hair options that comes with KS Hairdos SSE. Guys with long hair! Yummy! <3

Oooooooorrrrrrr you can just install ApachiiSkyHair SSE which has a bunch of long hair options for men to look fabulously yummy! This is the one I’m using.

Femfeet Redesigned SSE Port For Everyone. Look, it’s a foot texture mod, that’s it. Works with Better Males aka Tempered Skins and SoS, so yes, your guys will have pretty feet. Load this AFTER you body mod of choice.

Apachii Divine Elegance Store. This store has so much to offer. Really beautiful clothes and armors, exceptional jewelry, wonderful accessories aaaaaand your male character can also use the nails that are offered by the mod. So if you want your male character to have some stunning and colorful manicures done this mod offers it. They also offer actual claws that also comes in different colors so you can have both styles. Look, imo this is a must for femme male and enby characters. Your guys are going to look beautiful!

Immersive Jewelry - Earring for Male Characters. This enables Immersive Jewelry earrings to be wearable and visible on male characters.

Light Elven Armor for Men, Light Glass Armor for Men, Light Daedric Armor for Men. Tired of women being the only ones to get skimpy outfits? Ja, me too! Here’s some of the armor mods RefurbMadness ported to SSE before she left Nexus. There’s more available for Old Skyrim but you’ll need to convert them over to SSE yourself.

Slof’s Lair. Slof has a collection of skimpy armors, some accessories and even modern clothes (if that’s your thing). They have a link to their Nexus profile on their page but instead of adding all the links I just figured to leave the link to their site so you can check everything they have to offer. I haven’t tried any of Slof’s mods myself though I’m super interested in the Just For Men collection of mods and the Goth Shop (chill, it’s mostly Tera armors without the need to download that massive Tera mod).

Tera Armors Collection - Special Edition. And here’s that massive mod I previously mentioned but it’s actually a really good one. I’ve tested this out on both pc and Xbox One and it looks gorgeous on both!

The Well Dressed Mage. Not exactly skimpy but kind of revealing. Idk, these look lovely af and I wanna try them on my Altmer. Maybe someone else will want to try these too.

Modular Bandoliers and Pauldrons for Males. Pretty simple and to the point. Haven’t tried it since it wouldn’t go with my elf’s more refined bitchy tastes.

Bad Dog’s Skimpy Clothes SE. Some skimpy outfits for guys that were converted over to SE apparently not too long ago.

Bodyslide and Outfit Studio. So none of the stuff listed above is to your liking. That’s where this comes in. Thing is you actually CAN convert female armors and clothes for male use. So download the armors and clothes you wanna use and throw them and the body meshes you use into Outfit Studio. I myself am still learning how to go about doing this and the tutorials out there are kinda hard to come by. Try this video. I followed it and managed to convert a female outfit to fit on a male body I was using. Still need a lot of practice though but am working on it.

As far as makeup goes you can edit the colors of your character’s eyeshadow, eyeliner, cheeks and lips but with ECE or RaceMenu you can edit the colors further. May need to do some extra hard tweaking some choices though, not gonna lie. If I find a much better option I’ll post it.

I’m currently trying to find how the heck to get male characters to wear heels or if there’s a mod that has it. Like, that’s the last thing I need to make clothes complete. I’ll get back to this when I find it.

*Animations:

FNIS PCEA2 - Player Exclusive Animations (Dynamic) SE. So you got your character, you’ve dressed them and done up their hair and all that and to this point it’s all come together perfectly...until your femme male/enby character or your butch female/enby character starts walking and standing idly by and the poses and animations are completely and utterly wrong. Why is he walking like an angry gorilla? Why is she walking like a Victoria’s Secret model down the walkway? Can you switch their animations?

YES!!!

PCEA2--and yes, you will need FNIS to get this working--allows you to make animation changes to only your character. You can even add and/or remove which animation packs you want your character to use! I’ve just barely begun testing this mod as well as adding some specific packs for my Altmer and the pretty female idles works like a charm for him. I downloaded FNIS Sexy Move SE to try this out on him and see if it works but according to Fore it should work as long as you installed everything correctly and ticked the appropriate box to activate the animation pack you want. I’m not entirely sure if you can customize the choices given by each animation pack, probably something as simple as deleting the animations you don’t want and leaving the one you do want. I’ll have to test this further.

*Gameplay and Voices:

Simply Gay Letters. Simple and sweet little mod that adds some letters in certain places all over Skyrim tying certain NPCs to other NPCs. The hinted at couples are all the mod author’s headcanons so if that bothers you I suggest moving on.

Queering Skyrim - Blueflower Necklace. Basically it stops female NPCs from showing interest in your male character when wearing an amulet of Mara. Queering Skyrim - Lavender Menace Necklace does the exact same thing but for female characters.

Same Sex Perks - A Lover’s Insight - Agent of Dibella - Allure. Y’all remember Confirmed Bachelor from New Vegas? Remember how no Beth game has put it in their games again but are totally adding some lazy attempts to include us LGBTQ+ folks? The author has a pretty clear and easy to understand description of the mod in the page. There’s also Gay Insight - A Lover’s Insight Tweak which does the same as the other one but much simpler. I guess it’s up to you and your tastes when it comes to which one to use. I myself am using Same Sex Perks since it adds other perks.

Player Voicesets for SSE - Custom Voice Version. I downloaded this but I haven’t installed it yet. If I understood correctly this lets you change your character’s voice to any of the in game voices. My advice? Go into the page and read everything.

PC Head Tracking and Voice Type SE. The reason I haven’t installed the previous mod is because I have THIS one installed because of the head tracking but it also comes with an added voice feature so this might clash with the other one. I still need to test whether they do the same thing or not.

Skyrim - Player Re-Voiced Series. CaseyTheVA was kind enough to make a bunch of voices for your character. Just your character. I’ve tested these on Xbox and they are legit really freakin’ good! They seem to have added a lot more since the last time I checked. Unfortunately these are only available on beth.net or for Old Skyrim on the Nexus. You could just download them from the game’s mod page and remove the files and upload them back into the game using whatever mod manager you use. I did this with Cheat Room. Or you can port them yourself from Nexus. Honestly the quality alone is worth all the trouble.

#skyrim #skyrim mods #modded skyrim #queer mods

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2ptalia-imagines · 6 years

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Then you’re purposely misusing the word then. You seem to just be using that word to base on your personality, you’re probably just a tomboy/ regular girl with a short hair cut. I think you’re probably contributing to the discrimination of intersex/ hermaphrodites as you are using that word fully knowing you are female just because you “feel that way”. That’s like a straight man identifying as a lesbian even when he isn’t even trans because he thinks it sounds cool.

An apology to those seeing this, as this answer gets a bit lengthy and is a bit of a rant.

First, why would I misuse an LGBT identity when I don’t even have anything to gain from that. Secondly, your gender identity has nothing to do with your personality. It’s like saying you’re a guy because you’re more aggressive than other girls. Third, you must have no idea how sex and gender work, which is why you’re harrassing people online. So here, have some definitions since you clearly need them:

Sex: either of the two main categories (male and female) into which humans and many other living things are divided on the basis of their reproductive functions.Gender: the behavioral, cultural, or psychological traits typically associated with one sexIntersex: term for a combination of chromosomes, gonads, hormones, internal sex organs, and genitals that differs from the two expected patterns of male or female. Formerly known as hermaphrodite (or hermaphroditic), but these terms are now outdated and derogatory.Gender identity: the internal perception of an one’s gender, and how they label themselves, based on how much they align or don’t align with what they understand their options for gender to be. Common identity labels include man, woman, genderqueer, trans, and more. Often confused with biological sex, or sex assigned at birth.

Fourth, I may have been born with a female body, but the sex I was born with does not match up with my gender. The only time I identify as a female is for hospitalization so doctors don’t fuck shit up. Fifth, that is a very poor comparison that only someone with no, or very little, LGBT education would make. A person’s sexuality has to do with their attraction to someone. And FYI, a cismale would never even consider identify as a lesbian, or a woman, because he knows who he is. And lastly, it hs nothing with wanting to be cool. That would mean a man or a woman would just wake up and say “I feel like the opposite gender today”. No, it’s nothing like that. It’s about being comfortable in your own skin and being able to express yourself. Getting an idea of your gender identity takes years of figuring out. I was questioning for 4 to 5 years before I knew.

Believe me, I really wish I was able to change my body to anywhere on the gender spectrum until I was completely comfortable; sometimes I even wish I was born with both sexes, or that I had no breasts. But since I can’t do that, the only thing I can do is accomodate and wear things that don’t make me dysphoric.

I would also like to give another example. My older cousin, who was born a female and is attracted to girls, and is happily married btw, now identifies as non-binary because they don’t feel comfortable being female. I mean they do have a buzzcut, but they also take testosterone and got top surgery. And as far as I know, their wife is ok with it. While I wouldn’t go that far, there are times when I feel dysphoric because of my upper body, so I just bind and that’s good enough for me.

Clearly, the only difference between you and me is I know who I am and actually know my shit. I’ve tried being nice, or at least civil with you, but your petty, anti-LGBT argument to disprove how I identify myself simply because of my anatomy and not how I view myself has gotten on my nerves. Even my dad, who doesn’t understand my gender identity, tries to understand because he knows that I know who I am. My sex is female, but my gender is non-binary. Hope that cleared things up for you, unless you want to complain that sex and gender are the same without even looking up what they are and doing your own damn research.

So please, attack me or anyone like me because we apparently aren’t non-binary enough for you. I look forward to deleting or reporting anything you send me regarding this matter. Once you’re done, find a more productive way to spend your time, like actually educating yourself to save other people and their brain cells from reading whatever you put on the Internet.

#not related #might delete later

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einsteinapproved · 4 years

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Long live the car-crash hearts

So I’m probably influenced by the fact I finished the show less than an hour ago, but: I’d do an I Am Not Okay With This thing, I think.

But um,,, I sort of realized that while there would be a lot of character introspection, I’d also probably end up changing like the last half of season 1 the show soooo

Continued below a cut

The first thing you need to know is that it would probably be a polyamorous thing because Sydney and Dina are amazing but my boy Stanley deserves love too. Also because that’s my go-to solution for love triangles, but shhh.

(FYI, in my had, Syd is demiromantic pansexual, Dina’s an alloromantic bisexual, and Stan’s allo and hetero --- although now I’m thinking about having him be a trans man or non-binary and ngl I Like This.)

The scene we’re starting with is The Kiss. You know, the kiss, in the bed, at the party. The sapphic one. It would begin the same: Syd initiates, Dina is shocked and sits up and then Syd runs (as she always does, because she’s a big ball of fear and anxiety and abandonment issues which is never great but especially Not Great when you’ve just started figuring out you’ve got superpowers).

But the thing is in this universe? Dina follows her.

So yeah, Syd runs away from the party and Stan almost hits her with her car. Right after that, Syd still yells “fuck” and destroys a bunch of trees.

Just like in canon, Stan sees everything.

Unlike canon, so does Dina.

Which Changes Things and not just in the fact that Dina is better at figuring out her emotions in this one. Because while I have no idea how the conversation right after goes (yet), I do know that the next day would be different.

Because Dina now knows about the superpowers, which changes things when Syd runs out during Biology. Like yeah, sure, Dina follows her out anyway and tries to help. But this time, she knows about the powers and so she asks if that is it. Cue a sarcastic comment from Syd, which is just Dina’s humor as we know.

So Dina calms her down because, sure, she also has no idea how any of this superpower stuff actually works, but she figures that being calm and having Things Move is better than having a panic attack and having Things Move.

And that is only helpful with the training/attempting to figure things out at the Bowling Alley later that day.

The Day after that has the test and detention and all that happens there.

The Fuck, Marry, Kill thing? Definitely from Dina’s POV and she Realizes Things there (would she rather fuck or marry Syd? Well, marriage kind of implies getting to fuck her more than once doesn’t it? And while she still barely/technically has a boyfriend, Dina’s pretty sure that she would not mind that at all).

But Jenny still makes her comment about Syd being “unfuckable” or however she phrased it IDC. Both Stan and Dina disagree with that in canon and, obviously, I’m keeping that. Similarly, I’m keeping Syd running to the library again and what happens there. I’m undecided if Dina would also follow her this time or if she and Stan exchange a Look and decide that Syd needs a moment to herself. Or maybe they’re too busy arguing with Jenny. I don’t know and I know I won’t know until I actually write the scene.

Either way, the library gets destroyed and they need the tape. Unlike canon, however, this time Dina knows what’s going on (which, again, she honestly deserved the entire time). This prevents some conflict later on but otherwise doesn’t change that much, honestly. But I’d try to bring in a Stan & Dina friendship moment or two more.

Quite obviously, Syd still tells Dina that Brad cheated.

But at lunch the next day, it’s Stan, Syd, and Dina all sitting at one table. They’ve decided that there’s no way Dina’s going to the dance alone (was it Homecoming? I’m not even remotely American enough to care or even know if this one is special/what makes that one different). Syd says she’ll go with her but Dina insists that that can’t happen, because what about Stan?

It’s Stan who proposes the idea of just going all three of them, because why not?

And, indeed, why not, Dina thinks.

(and then there’s the whole mess at the end of the dance. but that’s a different story altogether)

#I am not okay with this fandom #fanfic #title ask thing

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