#and covid isn't gone

[paradoxesofgalaxies]

✨Fun and quirky New Years Resolution: wearing a mask in public to protect yourself and everyone around you✨

#masks help protect against flu and colds and other viral illness aside from COVID #and even if you think the risks are worth it choosing to not wear a mask endangers everyone around #it may be a new year but covid isn't gone #galactic gab #ok to reblog #antimask/antivax propaganda will be deleted/blocked

[owmyfangirlheart]

Not having a sense of smell is the weirdest thing

Like yeah I'm sure that food does smell good but I don't smell anything. Can't even smell my favorite candle anymore.

I can kinda taste things but not everything

I hope this isn't long term. I never had this last time I had covid.

#fuck you covid #i noticed it was gone yesterday #when i was cooking chicken #in the air fryer #and couldnt smell it burning #bf had to rescue it #and my nose isn't plugged anymore so its not that

[alsaurus-loves-dean]

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#my wife just left on a work trip #she'll be gone for two nights. so that's two nights and two mornings with the kids 🤪 #the baby still wakes up for her multiple times a night. he's NOT going to like this lmaooooo #that's the part that I'm most worried about #i already do most of the getting them ready in the morning so it's just adding bringing the 5yr old to school down the road #and the evenings will just be whatever... surviving lol. I'll clean during the day when i should be working #i can do this. i can do anything for just a couple days! #...and then next week my wife goes on ANOTHER work trip!! hagagaghahaahhahah 🫠 #only one night though #to be clear. when she agreed to this first trip she had no idea that they would both be back to back like this #and travel isn't going to be a THING for her really. just one offs once in a while like this. #this is her first one and she's already been a consultant for like two years #one good thing about the pandemic. as much as the business newspaper articles want to convince you..... #remote work is here to stay. for people in specialized careers anyway. they will NEVER get us back into offices lmao #my wife never wanted to become a consultant because of the travel #if it weren't for covid she would still be doing emergency management and business continuity in-house #(and i would still be driving across LA county 50+ minutes each way lmao) #anyway. traveling to work for clients in person on a regular basis is pretty much over in her industry #thank god #I CAN DO THIS

[chomesuke]

is it even legal for shops to ban wearing masks here

anyway I took this photo and continued wearing a mask bc a literal pandemic is still ongoing

#the handling of the pandemic has gone wayyyy downhill but i still wouldn't expect this to be allowed in this country #the mask ban is probably more to help identify shoplifters than for covid denial reasons but it's still incredibly fucked up #also side note i know there's a bunch of halloween stuff in the photo and I've mentioned before that halloween isn't celebrated here #that's still true. sometimes shops are just hopeful it'll catch on more anyway

[saltedsolenoid]

my breathing has been really fucked up lately

#probably a side effect from catching covid #kinda sucks though. i already have everything else wrong with me. #and my circulation has been out of whack. i think that's exclusively just me #i can't talk for prolonged periods of time anymore. that kinda sucks. i love talking #need to make a defined symptom log that isn't tumblr #anyways moving on #i've been having more trouble standing and walking lately. like. which is surprising considering it was already hard enough #and i haven't stopped shaking for a long time #also. last thing i promise #my hand strength has been like. gone. for the past while #that's why i haven't been drawing nearly enough. i can barely hold that pencil and my hand straight up stops working ten minutes in #writing is also hard #i #eughhh #Anyways end post

[nivq87]

related thoughts:

my butterfly chasing has me tinkering with my tumblr blog page, and it's a wip atm (the html needs a LOT of adjusting atm) and my about and tags pagers are pretty out of date. so, I'll try and work on that over the week I suppose

my complaining tag hasn't been used in a few years. at first I thought I was just trying harder to keep the negativity off my blog (which I also do) but then I was actually reading some of the posts and. oh gosh. those were some Big emotions I was dealing with. Glad to not be That guy anymore. Your 20's really just kinda suck, but since you're out of your teens it feels unfair because you should be Beyond such angst. but. nope. apparently it'll keep going a bit longer. Fascinating collection of posts over the years as a retrospective.

#ftr the complaining tag isn't and won't ever be listed in the tags page #while I'm working on these I might also go back and make them all nonrebloggable too #probably my covid whining could've gone in the complaining tag #but like it sucked but the timing of it was so atrociously bad I kinda also came back around to being funny. #one of those posts that i was looking through from when I was... I guess about 24ish? #idr what the context was but I was apparently mad at my family to the point of being invited to leave #and i elected to sit there visibly and uncomfortably seething so that my upset could be witnessed. #I just DO NOT have that kinda energy anymore lmao? #which is a relief #I don't think I'll ever Like my birthday but maybe now that I don't have the energy for such Big Feelings #about shit that doesn't actually matter. that maybe my birthday introspection can keep this kinda tone going forward. #I don't mind this kind of thing. it's interesting for sure to look back #but so many of my birthdays in my 20's I just was so depressed and those feelings of like #wasting my life away and not doing EVERYTHING #getting another ticker on my age tally right when the calendar really compounded that feeling #so many of those birthdays were spent on crying jags. like. covid. but I didn't cry this year! woo! and I just teared up slightly last year #growth! I hope! #why am i rambling

[izzy-b-hands]

my body needs to get its shit together lmao

#text post #ive always needed rest days after days with a lot of activity but fuck me #i feel like ive got a cold or something with the fatigue and body aches going on like bro #we just did the beach walk then a couple stores then home!! that's nothing come the fuck on!! #but even after resting up yesterday from stuff on sunday (which even with this body stuff I'd do again in a heartbeat. was a good day 🥰) #im still utterly sore and achy and exhausted and it feels utterly ridiculous #im not wheezing like i was yesterday but i just. this isn't right!!! #i feel WORSE than i did when we went to bed but i was just chilling trying to write #and watching secret sleepover society vods like i was literally just sitting there!!! #but i had to resist the urge to skip my shower and just sleep there on my bedroom floor bc #moving is Effort and Ow and i know i gotta keep addressing my internalised ableism #and that accepting when my body needs extra rest is part of it but sometimes i just #everyone told me as long as i kept trying to exercise and eat as best i could (difficult w/all my food shit but i do my best) #that as i got older this stuff would go away #i would acclimate and feel better #instead housemate has helped me confirm our wondering during my trip last year as to if i have asthma #which considering ae does and my symptoms all mirror aer's asthma symptoms to a t i mean. there ya go #add in lingering long covid symptoms and im just not doing as well as i want to be physically and idk how to help it #when a lot of it is stuff that's gone undiagnosed or untreated for years like. the damage to my body is already done #the future i was promised if i tried my best for my body probably never actually existed and like the adults telling me to work harder #had no way to know that technically but also. id be lying if i said im not struggling with and mourning that rn #which feels selfish and silly bc im alive and able enough to get around on my own and i have ppl who care for and help me #but im still sat here like. i want to spend all day walking the beach with a friend and NOT pay for it the next few days damn it

[ujunxverse]

ngl the 2023 writerblr/ficblr climate is so bad....

#ujutxt #lol there's barely a community on here anymore #nobody is also actively reading fics #like there's a reason why so many of your favorite writers from the covid nctblr renaissance era are gone #it's because y'all decided to get lazier and lazier and stop reading fics #no hate to smaus or drabbles they're great #it's just that with the current gen z atmosphere there are too many consumers with the attention span of a worm #that nobody is willing to leave comments/feedback or put effort into consuming quality content #i've complained about this so many times but like for consumers to be so demanding yet do the bare minimum in return #isn't that a little unfair for the creatives who choose to do this all for free #just a food for thought #also with how rampant plagiarism is i get the want to be skeptical #i just hate that content farming has come to this... #all because y'all are so desperate for attention instead of writing for the sake of writing #or becoming a creative to produce art not want niche microcelebrity fame tf... #on god there's something wrong with children these days #it seems that virality is what drives people to do things instead of idk #actual interest in the hobby or topic #in the end i don't really care what you read because it's not like i can control that #people come here for escapism and although i won't judge you for reading filth on this platform just don't expect me to write it #there's just something in me that can't write it because every time i see the word cock i just laugh and can't take my work seriously

[jedi-bird]

Everything in my back, neck, and hips are super tight today and hurting to the point where I kind of low-key just want to end it all (but I don't actually, I just want the pain to stop for five minutes so I can actually eat enough to take the better pain meds). I can't hold anything in my right hand because it's spasming, I can't eat because I'm nauseous, I can't lay down because my muscles are screaming, I can't focus because I'm getting a migraine. At some point the pain will get bad enough that everything will just stop and I'll sleep for an hour and wake up feeling not better but okay enough to try and reset things. Waiting until that moment is the worst though.

#vent post #medical issues #they still can't diagnose what's wrong and since covid hit and no one would see me in person I'm going to have to redo all the tests #which is a pain because i literally had to fight to get them done the first time #i spent so much money on copays and covering what insurance refused to cover and got yelled at because so much money is now gone #having to start again with new doctors and new tests makes me want to cry #getting told it's just in my head and that if i exercise it'll stop hurts #i can't even stand up how am i supposed to go to a gym and work out six times a week? #and the issues isn't not having strong muscles because they are strong and i can lift and move appropriately #it's that even then the pain is so bad all the time that eventually my body stops responding and this happens #all of today is made worse by having to sleep on my back for a month which aggravated my neck and now arm #I'm literally back to where i was when i was working unable to move my right arm and unable to see it my right eye #but it's okay because my family just gets mad at me for being unable to do things when they want it and then won't talk to me #like I'm purposefully not sleeping and dropping things because i can't do anything #like i want to be trapped in my own body all day every day #i really want to live somewhere where health care is better and i can get help when i need it #not having to wait six months and then being told if i can make it to the appointment I'm not actually sick

[an-absolute-nightmare]

how do you stop grieving? how do you stop the weight on your chest dropping randomly over something that's certainly in the past now? how do you stop yesterday from ruining today? i've tried crying about it. but it still comes up in waves and makes me feel like i'm almost back there. idk. haven't i cried about it enough while i was going through it. shouldn't it be over now, now that it's supposedly over. when am i going to get over it

#i'm doing well. but i'm also grieving for the person who i couldn't be because i was too busy trying to survive #idk i feel like i've gone from 'bad things are happening and probably because i deserve it' #to 'bad things happen it's random you're not uniquely responsible for something that isn't even in your control happening' #to 'but whyyy. why did it happen. it should not have happened. please take me back to the past and make it not have happened.' #i was fine until it should not have happened but i seem stuck in the 'take me back and stop it' phase for the past couple months #which is insane because like. #at least 70% of the things that happened to me in the last six years or so were absolutely external #there's no decision i could've made that would've stopped covid happening for example. #none of the terrible things that preceeded that could've been stopped by any decision i made #but i want it not to have happened. #i know i'm grieving but i want to stop. #because how am i supposed to carry about my life when i'm gonna be hit by a burst of wanting to cry three times a day #nothing bad is even happening #but i'm still so. teary.

[l-e-g-i-o-n-losh]

Why do my knees hurt ive barely even STOOD

Are knees just on the list of joints that suck now???

#songs that the hyades shall sing #need a dr -_-; #almost had to get one for covid vax but the insurance systems all fucked so they gave us a workaround at Walgreens instead #but now i still don't have anyone to check on the rest of me #how long have i been using a cane? borrowed dad's a couple times Before like for c2e2 but it was only regular enough #for me to want my own around the beginning of covid and over the years its gone from 'every couple months' to 'every time i go out' #from back to hips now to knees. what is WRONG with me. it isn't even the family bone curse they TESTED it SKIPPED me

[judasvibe]

theres still 'covid conscious' people insisting on masks and pcr tests? what decade is this???

#i am not doing that. i don't got time or money to pay someone to do it before i do literally anything outside my home either. #and no i don't want it to be 'systematic but free' aka paid for by increasing my taxes and healthcare insurance #'covid isn't gone from the earth' that's how viruses work. it never is going to be.

[cherrymoonvol6]

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#i always thought that getting sick w covid would be really embarrassing #well look who's embarrassed now #man. #i meant let it be known that i wasn't the irresponsible one. my mom got me with it #and i find out on the fifth day of my sickness so there isn't really a point to self-isolate further #(i have mostly been sick in my room this week tho. so who cares?) #but yeah. man it's humiliating to have this fucking thingy #to MY credit i haven't gone out this entire week #look at me being a good girl™ #personal

[fogsnatched]

I am.... alive...

#ooc #i'm so sorry for being gone for so long otl #i planned on trying to be active again last week but ended up getting covid; WHOOPS #but nonetheless #i want to try being active here again so here i am! #i can't guarantee i'll be super active since the muse for my dbd muses isn't the strongest but #i will Try My Best haha #<3