#why am i rambling

[blacknidstang]

A lot of people say samjohn is not that realistic and compelling to them bc of how sam is john's babyboy and how parental this relationship is and i understand it's like that for some people but that's EXACTLY why samjohn has me on chokehold. It's exactly this bone deep father/son attachment, this massive softness and protectiveness, that at the same time is just, not innocent and pure?? It's a whole fucked up shitshow if you even look closer bc neither of them can ever be honest about their feelings and it's a bottomless well of contradiction and push and pull and it's so so enticing and alluring to me. Sammy is john's sweet must-be-protected-at-all-costs babyboy and john would kill everyone for him but is also plauged by visions of killing him??? Going through his whole life wondering if his precious son would become a monster he has to kill?? Trying to put the distance between the two of them bc he dreads the day sam would no longer be his babyboy? doing all and everything not just for revenge but to stop this from happening? Maybe it is not realistic to YOU, but i see it as one of the most delicious mouth watering insanity inducing dadsons on the world. yes man, the reason samjohn is extremely compelling to me is exactly because of that boundless posssesive, protective, sweet and violent fatherly love that is surrouned by something so so terrible inside the two of them. Something so terrible between the two of them. They are both bound together forever by Azazel's curse and it grows and rots inside them between the sweetness of their love.

#spn #samjohn #why am i rambling #also i never understand why a dadson ship is only called compelling if the child is taken out of the child role #like idk i never see it that way #the child being A CHILD to the parent figure is the literally the appeal of it for me #maybe something's wrong with me but WHO CARES #I had a lot of dadson ships across different fandoms but samjohn simply hits different..

[ereardon]

Probably sounds dumb but conquered a small fear of mine today: eating dinner at a restaurant alone.

I used to travel a lot more for work, but I have never liked eating alone. So I'd either sit at the bar or get food to go and take it to my hotel. Now when I travel it's usually to New York or London and I have friends and coworkers in both places so I don't have much reason to go out alone.

But I did it tonight! My flight got in really late and I was starving. A small moment, but I feel weirdly accomplished.

*I feel the need to specify this is oddly only dinner for me. Breakfast and lunch I feel like there's way less pressure to be in a group

#why am I rambling #random ignore me

[smuttyassholes]

annytime i take a shit i just pretendj its jin giving me rawdog anal

Now why would you make me read that

- asshole 4

#a literal tear formed in my eye from staring at this #my therapist will be hearing about this #i don't know if this works but it worked in my head so i gots to see it through #this is what i get for staying up to see the boys planet stream even though i know we not getting shit #i'm just in it for the content #and maybe i like them #why am i rambling

[nivq87]

:3c

But I would boop five hundred baps And I would boop five hundred more Just to be the cat who booped a thousand Baps to claw up your front door

#why am i rambling #boop

[ryolightswan]

Instead of accepting eng liar is gone im gonna post dumb memes bc the fandom needs em

@girlboyssing im tagging u bc george yazawa is still funny (also u can promo nana and paradise kiss in my mentions i give permission)

#liar uncover the truth #ryolight-san #voltage usa #haruichi mamiya #joe yazawa #this was such a funny scene #george yazawa like #this had to be a paradise kiss reference honestly #the real question is wud haruichi be into paradise kiss #like he doesnt strike me as someone who wud read it unless like joe or azusa introduced hi #him to it or smth #why am i rambling

[louisthiccsexyglitteryass]

nothing shows self-restraint like me seeing a good fanart then thinking bad thought and not saying it

like i just saw smth and my immediate thought was "OMG WHY DID THEY MAKE IT LOOK LIKE PETER CAPALDI"

yeah

#no harm to capaldi but he freaks me out #i feel like he's about to feckin- #feckin? #do something #to me #ig #I DON'T KNOW #he makes me afraid #i just have an irrational fear of peter capaldi #and of willum defoe #is that how you type the name? #both of them #they unnerve me #why am i rambling

[angelicspyder]

hii :3

call me angel, oooo intro posts are so scary and i am trying my best

i am an angel dust fictive !! host yada yada yada things

basics:

19 (bodily too)

any pronouns (no she tho) transmasc nonbinary

autistic + disabled + DID system (traumagenic)

i needed a silly little place to ramble / rant / talk about source things

any sourcemates please interact!!!! any kind!!!! doubles especially!! (i ask very nicely)

blog will handle nsfw \ nsft topics sometimes + a few triggering topics below cut, so no minors please!

more info under cut <3 thank u for reading!

stuff about blog stuff.. ! ! !

few facts abt me: dance is one of my special interests, i like cosplay, kandi, monster high, n i collect LPS! trinkets! i am also aro/ace spec and mlm!

i like to rb a lot, fanart n stuff and pretty things! i made this blog bc the source memories have NOT left me alone LMFAOO so im like damn ok fine ill make one!! so id love for any sourcemates to interact at all.. . .. silly friends in my computer....

that being said though some rambles will have stuff thats triggering, involving: hypersexuality, abuse, s/a, probably anything that is manic related, so on. but it will all always be tagged for the proper thingy! (also some posts will be kink / nsfw / nsft talk but ill keep it down most of the time) (oopsies)

i will also specifically post a lot about either vox, husk, or val. source memories + i just love vox LMFAOO but will always tag as always!

there might also be a few vents but ill be sure to tag n all that stuff!! always feel free 2 ask me if u need me to tag something specific as well!

i think thats it..?? oo that was scary..... thank you for reading this far! take the trinket

#hazbin angel dust #hazbin hotel fictive #hazbin hotel #intro post #aaaa so scary #fictive #introjext #angel dust fictive #angel dust introject #hazbin hotel intoject #i dont know how to tag #hazbin hotel alter #i hope im doing this right sorry socializing is hard LMFAOO i usually just sit w my thoughts in my head #system #did system #HOW DID I FORGET TO TAG THAT THATS LIKE THE ENTIRE POINT #WHY AM I RAMBLING #sorry have a nice day

[blamemma]

um "you're only active on the site when the stuff that interests you has new content" is not the diss you think it is anon. like god, wish that could be me!

there is content that i like, i am just full of bone deep exhaustion at the moment

#had this conversation with two people before #but sometimes it feels like you HAVE to come on here and say something witty or fun or different in the tags #rather than just reblog and go #and u can SO obviously reblog and go its what the site is for #but i feel like a loser just doing that #so then if i cant think of anything fun i just dont say anything??? #why am i rambling #anon #asks

[greaserink]

Guys I'm going to go feral if I keep in this tongue piercing

#i love the look of it #and as a piercee it makes me a very happy boyo #but MAN it's keeping me distracted and thinking about it 24/7 #and my lisp is not going away #halp #i am going to start gnawing on things #i always need ur guys' second opinion #you guys are my picture of michael jackson i keep in my pocket #ihave an abnormally thick tongue so i had to keep my first bar in #tried smaller but WOW i actually have a really thick tongue but it's driving me NUTS #.......but having metal in my body is so cute...... #why am i rambling #guys

[demobatman]

this stranger things tumblr shit is lucrative the stupidest of my posts get numbers. the absolute shit of the crop.

#and i appreciate it. #dont get me wrong.... #cant wait for like a month from now when everyones moved on and im still here #theorizing abt season 5... this is how eddie can still win #i need to make more of thost st meme drawings like the one #yall know #also i Hate my fucking. eddie robin and steve drawing #why am i rambling #oh because thats what i DO #fuckin. moriarty voice #anyways moral is tumblr is crazy and unknowable #ramble #personal #void post

[kindaorangey]

miraculous ladybug is a hotbed of whiplash between extremely hard-hitting show-don't-tell writing and expositing-the-point-directly-into-the-camera writing. like the show is constructed so the basic plot can be understood by 6 year olds but then you'll randomly have a scene during a timeskip that shows adrien's room in a depression-induced mess after he quits modelling and it will never be addressed as such but it will neatly convey the disruption to his mental state that a lack of routine causes him. and u just have to deal with both of those things side by side constantly😭

#ml #thunder rambles #not tagging this as sug@r or s@lt because it is firmly neither. i love the show and i am calling it like i see it #edit: why did this blow up overnight. anyway shut up about zag and astruc in the tags i do not care

[nivq87]

boop

#why am i rambling

[katetorias]

there is something so horrible about destroying churches, or any place of worship. im not even religious. it’s about the fact that people were so devoted, put so much effort into building and decorating and just experiencing this part of their life, that they hold so important. and all that effort is taken away by a fucking bomb

I find religion beautiful, and it’s harrowing to see these things happening in PaIestine and no one cares. suddenly now no one cares about religion or the importance of religious monuments

#religious monuments are important they are beautiful they are symbols of what matters to the people who made it #they are history #rambles #I hate this #I know I’m privileged to even be talking about this from my apartment but that’s why I’m doing it anyway #it’s easy to feel powerless because I mostly am #but I’ll keep sharing every thing I can #free palestine

[lazylittledragon]

hey idk which anxious pre-t babe needs to hear this but i didn't get to when i was younger so. testosterone will not make you ugly. it won't make you a horrible person. it won't 'mutilate' or ruin your body. if you want to go on testosterone then literally all that happens is it makes you really fucking hot and REALLY fucking happy.

#ramble #literally very hot. like very hot #there is so much sweat #'oh you're just trying to paint a pretty picture that it's all fine' yeah i am!!! it's fucking great. i love it #trans people aren't sad clueless little babes who don't know what's going on. if you want to go on hormones you Know what it's going to do #and you WANT THAT WHICH IS WHY YOU'RE DOING IT #i hate hate hate seeing detransitioners like 'it destroyed and mutilated me' #*proceeds to list the normal effects of hormones* #it's all fearmongering and it's SICK #personally i think we should start glorifying transition more. because it's BEAUTIFUL

[cinnatwo]

We have asks!!

I've been wanting to send asks for a while but I thought the asks were off on purpose so u didn't get flooded/you didn't want asks yet so I've been looking like :c wan ask but too shy to message

I am so sorry about that! Here I was thinking nobody was interested in sending asks but it was actually tumblr being dumb or something lol. Feel free to send as many as you want!

#I can totally relate to being shy like that #even though anon causes problems sometimes I think it's a good thing in the end! Never gonna turn it off #unless tumblr turns it off on me in secret again #wanting to contact a blog but they have anons off is always like waaaagh but I get why they do it too it's valid #why am I rambling

[vikingpoteto]

Marcille: You'll feel healing pains because of my spell.

Chilchuck and Senshi, who had concussions, I think???: THIS IS THE WORST PAIN EVER AAARGH

Laios, who just had a fucking limb reattached: oh. it itches a little?

#poteto rambling #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #AM I MISSING SOMETHING #LAIOS WHY ARE YOU SUCH A FREAK #I LOVE YOU SO MUCH