#thunder rambles

[kindaorangey]

farcille jennifer's body au where they run off together in the end anyone.....

#dunmeshi #farcille #thunder rambles

[hebuiltfive]

This is brought up all the time but it never fails to amuse me.

The Great Jeff Tracy (if we're taking his b'day as the late noughties) would have been a Gen Z kid. He'd have been on TikTok. He'd have been around in the heyday of all these influencers. He'd be fifteen years young currently.

Jeff Tracy was a Gen Z kid.

This will never not baffle me.

#i think its more shocking to think about tos jeff tbh #obviously in the 60s they had no idea about what the future would actually be like #but that makes it all the more fun #five rambles #thunder rambles #jeff tracy #thunderbirds

[kaltsektion]

I watched True Detective S4 and actually liked it a lot!!! I mean S1 is a masterpiece that should have never been continued, but as a separate entity it's a very very nice mystery/crime show and the actors were just UHHHH amazing, Jodie I love you

#thunder rambles

[togetherasone]

I was tagged by @adinferix! Thank you :))))

RULES: When you get this you have to put 5 songs you actually listen to, then tag 10 people!

Well, let's do this!

Monstrance Clock . Ghost Corcovado (Quiet Nights Of Quiet Stars) . Stan Getz, João Gilberto, Astrud Gilberto & Antônio Carlos Jobim Living In A Haze . Milky Chance Paper Machete . Queens of the Stone Age Rock the Casbah . The Clash

TAGGING: @ghu-leh, @popiaswife, @parva-atra-aetas, @mac-and-thefox, @gravehags, @imyourrockbaby, @conjuring-ghouls, @writingjourney, @da-rulah (you can absolutely ignore this, don't feel pressured to do it, and if you don't like to be tagged in these, just let me know!)

#thunder rambles #tag game #text

[thunder-of-dragons]

It's been a while since I sat down and wrote anything about what's going on in my life. So I figured I should do that. Anyways, here's life updates from Thunder:

I moved!

Yes, again. Back in January-ish. Still in Colorado. Still loving the view of the mountains, though I do miss being surrounded by mountains no matter where I looked. I'm enjoying having easier access to modern privileges and necessities, though, now that I live and work in what could be considered to be cities.

I started a new job!

Yes, again. I'm no longer teaching, and I have to say that I really enjoy being able to leave work at work and not worry about it at home (unless I'm working from home, which I have the flexibility to do). Though sales has its problems, I sell insurance, and it's nice that I get to sell something that legitimately helps people stay on their feet during hard times. I have a boss who actually cares about my well-being as a person, and I have a coworker who's great to work and chat with. I don't dread doing my job anymore.

I started therapy!

Yes, again. I think I'll actually make some progress on all of the trauma I've been trying to face with this one (if I can afford to continue to see her). It's been kind of an eye-opening experience into what therapy should be. We set goals for my progress (and I'm sort of making progress on them, but life emergencies keep getting in the way), and they have timelines and smaller goals and... yeah. She holds me accountable for my bullshit and also makes sure I recognize when it's actually not my fault that my life is falling apart. It's been really hard, but I can see that in the long run (and sometimes in the now) that it's good for me. Learning how to set and maintain boundaries is proving to be a very, very difficult skill for me to learn, and apparently I'm doing a fucking amazing job! But apparently my spouse and his partners don't appreciate that, so...

I'm getting a divorce!

My spouse asked for us to separate for a year back at the end of March. Literally 6 days after my birthday. He said we both had stuff we needed to work on. I agreed. I was very much over him acting like I should be eternally grateful for the few scraps of attention he'd give me when he wasn't overly focusing on his girlfriend and her kids. He needed to figure his shit out and learn how to manage his time better and actually appreciate the person he re-proposed to back in December. (Me. I'm the person he re-proposed to.) And I'd been basically bending over backwards and not practicing any self-care to take care of all of them while also working full-time. I was exhausted and unappreciated and not getting anything out of it.

I'm working on my shit and trying to be the free-spirited me that I want to be. I'm guessing when my spouse said I needed to figure out who I am, he didn't mean that I should stop bending over backwards for him and his new family while we were separated. I'd been trying to reach out to catch up and meet 1:1 with him. His only responses to trying to meet up were either that he'd forgotten or that he wanted to hang out with me at his girlfriend's house with her and her kids and his boyfriend and get drunk and high. No thanks. I set boundaries. I won't go to her house anymore. I deserve to reserve my time for people who actually want to put in the effort and spend time with me.

So according to my spouse, I've abandoned my spouse's girlfriend's kids, and apparently that's completely inexcusable. (I don't understand how I've done that. I'm confused. I don't think it'll ever make sense.) My spouse also claims I haven't made any attempts to talk him (until he was going into acute treatment for his mental health stuff, which he's blaming me for). He would like a divorce because apparently I clearly don't care about him at all. I would like a divorce because I'm realizing I've been with an abusive asshole for over 8 years.

I am struggling. Emotionally. Mentally. Physically. Financially.

Realizing how seriously I've been abused by my family is hard, even if I was already somewhat aware and already cut off contact with them.

Realizing that my partner of over 8 years has been abusing and controlling me (without my consent) has been really, really hard to come to terms with.

Getting injured in a hit and run that totaled the car I'd been driving to work every day... was devastating. I'm glad I had a few good people around, but my spouse has placed all of the blame for it on me. It was "his" car that got totaled (because we'd agreed that that was the car I should be driving to work every day because it got better gas mileage). We had to go car shopping together while separated. We found a new used car that we agreed I should be in possession of to drive to work because it got way better gas mileage. As of this past weekend, my spouse decided he needed the new car and stopped responding to any of my messages, so I'm stuck driving a horribly giant and inefficient truck for an hour and a half every day with no working A/C. (It hit 100 degrees here today).

My spouse has been taking shared property to his girlfriend's house, and none of it has been coming back to the townhouse we're officially living at. I don't have access to pretty much anything that I've accumulated in my life now. (I mean, I have clothes. I have my yarn arts stuff. But anything else is pretty much gone.)

I've been trying to pay all of the bills on my own since my spouse was laid off at the beginning of May (a week after the hit and run) and has decided he's not looking for a new job. No, it's not fair for me to be paying all of the bills, but I also can't take the hit on my credit score if stuff doesn't get paid... My spouse's boyfriend who lives with us isn't looking for a job (and hasn't worked since November). I've been able to stay afloat because of a couple of really awesome people who are letting me live with them (and carpool with them for an entire month when I didn't have a vehicle at all). But I've only been able to do that because there was leftover claim money from the hit and run. I think my best budgeting efforts will be for naught by the end of this month, and I'm trying to figure out what to do (and how to pay a lawyer because I apparently make too much to qualify for assistance). I might see about opening commissions or something, though I'm not sure what I could offer...

But I'm here. I'm existing. I'm surviving. The awesome @gameofdrarry mods totally understand my need for a break from modding at the moment. Fandom is still providing a great community (and escapism), and I couldn't be more grateful.

#abuse cw #thunder rambles #adventuresofadragon

[lumossity]

i can hear rain & thunder outside my window, and all i want is someone i can make tea for and cuddle under a pile of blankets while we watch old movies and listen to the storm

#gay ramblings #personal #lgbtq #thunder rambles #rainyday

[kindaorangey]

the fact that jeremy is aware that jean is attracted to him is so crazy to me cuz it means the actual obstacles preventing them from getting together are jean's trauma and the power imbalance between him and jeremy😭

#tsc spoilers #aftg tsc #jerejean #when jeremy decided to confront jean about his sexuality. which he had figured out because jean likes to stare at him a lot. i was shocked #flabbergasted even #but yea theyre kindof at an impasse until jeremy isn't captain anymore and until jean gets into a much healthier place with his trauma #because otherwise theres no way jean would ever make a move on jeremy (because he sees it as shameful/not his place) #and theres no way jeremy would make a move on jean for fear of jean saying yes *because* he feels obligated to #by virtue of jeremy being jean's captain and his emotional/mental stand-in for riko #very interesting. i do wonder if theyre gonna get together at all #i think itd be cool if they talked about their mutual feelings for each other and then it didnt change their relationship at all #but then again nora did say service top jeremy for a reason #thunder rambles

[kindaorangey]

relationships should be 50/50 i pine for you openly and you don't do anything about it out of respect for my past trauma

#jerejean #tsc spoilers #aftg tsc #thunder rambles

[kindaorangey]

#the sunshine court #the sunshine court spoilers #tsc spoilers #aftg tsc #jean moreau #jean yves moreau #zane reacher #aftg #all for the game #thunder rambles #poll #polls

[kindaorangey]

miraculous ladybug is a hotbed of whiplash between extremely hard-hitting show-don't-tell writing and expositing-the-point-directly-into-the-camera writing. like the show is constructed so the basic plot can be understood by 6 year olds but then you'll randomly have a scene during a timeskip that shows adrien's room in a depression-induced mess after he quits modelling and it will never be addressed as such but it will neatly convey the disruption to his mental state that a lack of routine causes him. and u just have to deal with both of those things side by side constantly😭

#ml #thunder rambles #not tagging this as sug@r or s@lt because it is firmly neither. i love the show and i am calling it like i see it #edit: why did this blow up overnight. anyway shut up about zag and astruc in the tags i do not care

[kindaorangey]

miles literally chose to pursue physics instead of art even though in itsv he clearly enjoys art more because he wanted to have a chance of seeing gwen and peter again so badly only to find out they had the ability to visit him the whole time and chose not to.

#across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #miles morales #like the betrayal exists on so many levels im. its not just that they could have seen him and chose not to #its that he was busting his ass to get even a glimmer of a chance to see them. and they had the chance to see him and didnt take it. #god #thunder rambles #em is waiting for her spider bite #atsv

[kindaorangey]

im so fucking serious about this. spot trying to "fill the holes with more holes" is symbolic of gwen (and miguel, and probably a lot of other spider people) trying to solve the isolation that comes with having a secret identity by becoming more isolated.

#thunder rambles #hes like an. uh. extremely slap dash manifestation of the thing gwen needs to overcome. and that miles is trying to avoid. #and in that way he is a perfect antagonist. <3 #atsv #across the spiderverse spoilers #across the spiderverse #atsv spoilers #em is waiting for her spider bite

[kindaorangey]

yeah prowler!miles is going down a dark path but at least he speaks spanish fluently

#miles morales #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #em is waiting for her spider bite #thunder rambles #atsv

[kindaorangey]

i loooooove how over the garden wall being a children's show is absolutely baked into its core. it's a lot like coraline in that the spookiness comes from how little the characters and, by extension, you, truly know or understand about the world the story is set in.

wirt and especially greg are always trying to act in the approximate way they think adults act, but get it wrong (which is never NOT charming), meanwhile the adult characters are so eccentric and melodramatic that neither the main characters nor the audience pay much attention to what they're saying. none of the adults are as all-knowing as we'd like them to be and none of the main characters are as all-knowing as they pretend to be. even in cases where the adult character's dialogue is laying out the real rules of the forest and what the boys truly need to focus on (see: the woodsman in episode 1 telling them not to succumb to hopelessness and telling wirt he needs to take responsibility for greg), the characters are too preoccupied with their own fear and discomfort to focus on anything but getting away.

like it's even reflected in the voice acting. so many of the adult characters have plummy accents or gravelly voices that make it hard for young children to understand what they're saying, and signals to older viewers "this is a silly character" so they write off their importance, even without really realising it. it's all constructed to reinforce just how little the audience can take for granted at any given time, to see the story through a child's eyes, through greg and wirt's eyes, regardless of age. it's brilliant.

#otgw #over the garden wall #thunder rambles

[kindaorangey]

old gay men fans when they finally kiss and it's chaste and awkward

#good omens #our flag means death #/pos btw. i consider myself in this group #good omens spoilers #good omens s2 spoilers #ofmd #thunder rambles #described

[kindaorangey]

can we edit clips of across the spiderverse to make it look like the plot is about coming out

#i can do BOTH #i know you know ive been keeping secrets... #mom im.... (BI?❌ SPIDERMAN?❌) so sorry for being late!✅ #i enjoyed it i really did #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #em is waiting for her spider bite #thunder rambles #atsv