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#and its stupid and dumb and i cant fix it overnight. or really ever. and YET
soldier-poet-king · 5 months
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U know when u reach that point of mentally unwell that it's like, u realize it's stupid and dumb and your (mal)adaptive coping mechanisms and inbuilt trauma responses aren't helpful and aren't logical and you're complete aware of this and yet can't eradicate it and it's so frustrating and in some way you're more upset about not being able to force ur brain into being normal and stop being Like That, than you are upset about whatever thing happened in the first place
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Cupid
Note: This is for @afriendlyblackhottie​​ Brat and Birthday challenge. Happy Bday Month 🎉🎈🎊🎂🍰! I chose Cupid by 112. Chris art work by @nix-akimbo​ she is amazing here is the original.
Summery: Ransom likes a bridesmaid.
Warning: Daddy Kink, gag, oral (reader receives), sex
Groomsman Band member Ransom x Black Reader, Knives out Alternative Universe
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Leaning in the archway of the reception hall you sighed watching the newlyweds dance their first dance. You didn't want to be here. Not after all the shit he put Courtney, the bride, through.
But your bestie was the kind of girl that could not function without a man in her life. He had cheated on her five times, that you knew of. You were sure there was more, but she as well as you were tired of the berating.
It was always the same. He cheated, she cried, you picked up the pieces and then when he was ready she would go back. Pathetic.
"Aw don't pout princess your day will come" your eyes rolled at the sound of his voice. You had the misfortune to be linked with Ransom, the cousin of the groom. All the other bridesmaids drooled over him, but you weren't impressed. This rich boy was looking to add to his body count so you only interacted with him only when you needed to.
Their family had paid for this whole affair. You nearly punched one of the grooms relatives when she made a remark on Courtney's color choices. They were all on your shit list.
Just ignore him. Its almost over and you will never have to see him again.
As the song ended everyone applauded while you made your way over to the open bar. Your wrist was snagged as you crossed his path. Snatching it back you looked at him as if he grew another head.
"Look you don't want to be here I don't want to be here. Let's be miserable together." He held up his hands in surrender. You were stuck on this island and you were smart enough not to fall for dumb shit so you gave yourself permission to relax.
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You both took over an empty table in the back of the massive hall. Ransom disappeared for a bit, then returned with two bottles of champagne and two glasses. The bar was an open bar, but you were sure they weren't handing out bottles left and right.
"OK let's play a game to pass the time." Ransom proposed as he approached.
"Game? What kind of game?" You waited curiously. Sitting the glasses and bottles down Ransom proceeded to pop the cork on one of the bottles of Champaign.
"We both take turns pointing out people we think the other would fuck."your mouth fell open with his boldness as he spoke. "If you guess wrong you have to take a sip. Yatta yatta you get it."
"Are you just trying to get me drunk?" You squint at him playfully suspicious.
"Nah, just bored. So come on let's play."
You watched as he poured the glasses to the brim, when he handed you the bubbling glass you thanked him. Ransom moved his chair next to you, sitting shoulder to shoulder so you both were sure to have the same view of the people on the floor.
"Ladies first" he held his glass high. You clinked your glass with his signaling ‘good game’.
"What about her?" You pointed to Courtney's great aunt. The lovely woman was at least eighty-seven, you knew this would be a 'no', but why not start off with a softball.
He gave you a look that made you snort.
"Wow was that a laugh? I seriously didn't think the ice queen was capable. You didn't even smile for the wedding photos. Achievement unlocked." Ransom was full of himself.
"No one is gonna believe I got the frost queen to crack a smile." Ransom boasted.
You took a sip from your glass so you didn't have to reply. There was nothing to smile about. You didn't approve of this wedding so you weren't going to act like you were. Courtney was lucky you even agreed to be a bridesmaid.
"OK my turn." He observed the crowded floor, before finding his mark. "Glasses two o'clock."
You searched out 'Glasses' and scoped him out. Tall, put together nicely. "Yep."
"Really?" He gave you a look, that made it hard to fight back the curl of your lip.
"Yep..I have particular taste." You say casually with a shrug.
"Well all right to each his own I guess."
"My turn" you stopped for a beat then found her. " Oh what about her?" you pointed to a tall slender blonde.
"Ugh no...That's my aunt."
"Oooops....My bad... let me see who else, umm" you looked around the room, but he only looked at you.
"Oh! Oh! Her" you pointed to Stephani, a younger cousin of Courtney's. Thick thighed, uber fit college student.
"You can't go twice. Take your sip."
"What that was your aunt that cant count" you argued back.
"A no is a no" he tutted.
"Fine" you gulped from your glass and waited your turn.
"OK my turn. Hmm...What about him" he pointed to an older man that was chatting up a bridesmaid that was way to young for him.
"Eww nah not my type, but he might have gotten a yes back in the day." You tilted your head with a smirk.
"Oh thank gawd. That's my dad."
"What the fuck? Dude gross" you slapped at his shoulder and laughed. Ransom rubbed it fanning pain.
"Hey you picked my aunt" he chuckled with you.
"Yeah but I didn't know she was your aunt!"
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After finishing the first bottle you started to feel loose. Ransom's arm stretched out along the back of your chair, slyly rubbing circles on your bare arm, while you leaned snuggled into his side as you both continue to people watch.
"So what do you do?" You asked him.
Ransom was silent for a moment. Taking a long swig from the glass before looking over at you and sighing.
"I'm in a band."
"Oh really, is that your little hobby you do before you take over the board seat at your grand-papa's company?" you bit back a laugh. Ransom frowned at you, but you didn't care.
You knew of the older Thrombey, the famous author and owner of a publishing house. Through rehearsal you watched the interactions between the two and you knew that Ransom was the favorite of the acclaimed writer's brood.
"I don't want anything to do with that company believe it or not. I love music always have."
"Must be nice to play in a band bankrolled by a publishing house. What are y'all called 'Blood and Rock'" you laughed at the ridiculousness of it.
"Ha wrong again. We're called 'Coffee and Roses'. And I've been cut of financially ever since I got these bad boys" Ransom shimmed out of his blazer and rolled up his sleeves. His well toned arms were completely covered in ink. When he pulled down his collar you were able to see the massive art work that encompassed his neck, you bit into your bottom lip as he allowed you to ogle him. "This art work was not board approved " he joked. The booze mixed with Ransom's rocker bod was starting to lower your inhibitions and you needed to put a stop to it.
"Your cousin is a piece of shit." You changed the subject before taking a pull from your glass.
"Yeah well he gets that from his dad, he's always been an asshole."
"Apples don't fall far do they?" You snipped. When Ransom didn't respond you looked over, he was looking at his father who had now moved on to another pretty young thing.
"He made a mistake and he is fixing it." Ransom replied, suddenly in defense of his cousin.
The mistake in question was a child, by another woman. That baby you thought would be the final straw to break the camels back.
"Diamonds don't fix problems." You didn't come from money, but you knew that this wedding was a band-aid. And once it got wet you wondered what would be the gift for the next 'mistake'.
The groom had always bought his way out of his binds. The more he fucked up the more money he poured on it. This wedding you couldn't even fathom the cost. The wedding ring alone looked like it could choke a horse. And this destination wedding on his dime made you think on what happened in the interim leading up to this event.
"You're a really good friend. She's lucky that she has someone that cares so much." You both stared into the distance at the couple. They danced and smiled at each other so happy, but you felt sick. Ransom's sweet words made you immediately suspicious of his intent, his cousin had a habit of talking sweet, but he was a fucking snake. You weren't going to end up like Courtney.
"Look don't think that just because we got all chummy that all of a sudden I am gonna want to bang one out." You hit your glass on the table harder than you meant to, it tipped over and spilled out the rest of your drink.
When a little bit of the liquid trickled off the table and hit your dress you pushed away from the table. Just a tiny bit, nothing major to fuss about, but you had hit your limit. You'd done the wedding, you took the pictures and you stuck around for the reception. It was time to go.
You weren't about to be some random rich kids one night stand. So you stormed off. Thankfully the ball room was not far from the adjoining hotel. Marching you fumed and you cursed your friend for being this dumb, yourself for not doing more to stop this and almost falling for Ransom's charm. Mashing the buttons you thought of changing your number, wiping your hands from this friendship and looking into an overnight flight back home.
How much worse would it be now that she was legally married to that douche bag. The thought of them having kids only served to further irked you.
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Before the elevator door could close a hand sliced down the middle, halting the closure.
You stood stunned as Ransom appeared out of breath and in-between the open doors.
**"Baby, I'm so tired of the way you turn my words into deception and lies"**
Ransom consumed the space between you two. Your ass hit the hand rail as the doors closed.
"I am not my father, I am not my cousin. I liked you." His confession made your heart flutter.
Don't be stupid. He is the same as the rest of his family. Don't fall for his game.
His hands rested on the bar on either side of your hips as he stood toe to toe with you. You rolled your eyes and scoffed turning away from him, unable to keep staring into those eyes.
**Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind I'm only saying what's in my heart**
With one finger he brought your focus back to him. You frowned at him, you weren't weak. You weren't falling for him no matter how much your body wanted to throw in the towel.
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**Cupid doesn't lie** He leaned in close and you held your breath as your heart raced.
**But you won't know unless you give it a try** Ransom whispered over your lips before kissing you gently. You broke down allowing him to invade your mouth. His lips felt soft and his firm arms a welcome feeling as they wrapped around you.
The elevator dinged loudly and you pulled back. Your lipstick smeared on his mouth made for a funny sight. Looking at the number it was your floor then back at him.
**Give it a try** Ransom pleaded.
A switch flipped inside you. Angry at yourself you pushed past him and marched to your hotel room.
He is just a spoiled rich kid trying to have fun. Don't fall for it. You try and convince yourself.
He shouted as the doors closed and you tried to ignore him.
**Cupid doesn't lie**
He shouted again. You halted, but refused to look.
"All men lie" You stopped as you replied back at him. There wasn't a woman in your life that wasn't hurt and you didn't want to join that club. You wanted to protect yourself at all cost. You heard the elevator doors close so you let out a sigh of relief.
What if you were wrong. What if he was right? A nagging thought bubbled in your mind. He was fun, you felt at easy around him. Some part of you yearned for him to come back.
You were so lost in your own head that you hadn't heard him rush up behind you. Ransom quickly spun you around, his eyes boring into your soul. The sight of which made it hard to stay angry.
**"Oh baby, true love won't lie...But we won't know unless we give it a try"**
He kissed you again. This time more hungry than before, so much so it took your breath away as he pulled back.
**"Give it a try"** he pleaded yet again.
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It was hard to get the door open with Ransom latched onto your face. Fumbling with the key you tried blindly several times to get the card in the slot with your back pressed hard against the door.
Frustrated Ransom snatched the card and opened the door for you.
"Thanks Daddy" you teased, looking up through your lashes at him.
"Daddy huh?" The grin that grew on his face was devilish indeed. "So that's it...You act all bratty to get Daddy to react. Huh?"
Scooping you off your feet he carried you across the threshold. You were so surprised that he was able to handle your weight with ease, as he walked you over to the bed, before tossing you.
"Keep the dress on and pull your tits out" he command as he furiously unbuttoned his shirt.
You marveled at the fit rocker. He revealed more tats as he opened his shirt. Pushing down your off the shoulder strap you yanked your top down. Your half bra going down with it, allowing your breast to bounce free.
"Stand up."
Without a word you rose to your feet.
"Turn around."
Again you followed his orders. The way he commanded you made your need soak through your panties.
"Gonna come deep in that pretty pussy, show you who you belong to" Ransom taunted into the shell of your ear. "Say ahh."
The neck tie that had long since come undone was now being wrapped around your open mouth, wrapping it  quickly then knotting the fabric.  
Once secure Ransom proceeded to massage your breast from behind. As he tweaked your nipples you felt his cock, hard and stiff pressed into your ass.
You pushed and rubbed against it toying with him, the hum that buzzed from his lips almost sounded primal. "Nothing but a big tease huh? Daddy's going to show you what he thinks about teases."
Pushing you over on the bed you yelped through your gag. Looking over your shoulder you watched as Ransom bunched up the fabric of your dress, tossing it over your hips to expose your ass.
Feeling cocky you twerked your ass before him, the look in his eye showed that he approved of the sight. Ransom palmed your cheeks with both his hands, kneading the soft tissue as he rubbed his erection on you.
One hand moved around your hips and on the outer-lining of your panties.
"Fuck baby girl is that all for me?" Ransom's finger pulled at the elastic that touched your bud. He felt the drenched panties and pulled them back until they snapped back in place.
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"Fuck baby girl" he purred.
Ransom lowered himself onto his hunches, pulling your panties down with them. You felt his tongue lapping gently at your folds. The sensation sending shivers throughout your body.
His tongue separated your lips, you knees wanted to cave at the tantalizing feel of him. Through your gag you moaned, the slow torture of his feasting was bringing you close to the finish line.
Ransom sucked hard on your bare mound adding a finger as he rose to his feet. "You taste so sweet baby." He praised as he curled his fingers inside of you.
"Do you want to come on my cock or my fingers?" He asked as your cunt tensed around his digits. Ransom knew you were getting close and you hoped he would choose the former.
"I cant hear you" he added another digit as you begged through your gag. You wanted to feel him all of him, but there was no way to make your answer clear through the fabric.
"Well, if you are not going to answer I will pick for you."
Ransom knew what you wanted, even with your desperate mumbling. Kicking your legs father apart he then removed his fingers. You whimpered at the lack of touch, but you were also thrilled to finally get what you really wanted.
The sound of his zipper going down made you antsy. You danced on the heels of your feet with anticipation of his next move.
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Ransom took his cock in one hand while he spread one of your cheeks with the other. He rubbed his cock against the deep pink within your folds.
Toying with you as you mumbled through the tie. His pre-cum mixed with your juices as he pressed his tip hard against your opening.
"Are you gonna be a good girl from me?" He teased. You furiously nodded 'yes'.
You felt the pressure of him entering you as drool seeped past your gag. "Do you belong to me?" He halted, the sudden stop drove you crazy. Again you nod and shouted 'yes' through your restraint.
"Good girl."
Ransom filled you to your core, only stopping when you sheathed him completely. You gripped the fabric of the hotel duvet, you hadn't expected him to be so big.
The slapping of flesh on flesh filled the room. His moans mixed with the sounds of your sloppy sex were enough to send you over the edge.
Ransom controlled the pace, his length undeterred by your lack of space to take him in. You cried through your gag as he sent jolts through your body. "You were made for me" he proclaimed as he snapped his hips into you.
Your mewls were muffled by the tie, but you were sure whoever was in the room next to you could still make out what was happening here.
"Fuck" he growled as he fucked you into the bed. "I'm gonna fill you up."
"Gonna make you nice and round" he slapped your ass as he thrusted. You felt your core tighten.
"Fuck Daddy I want to come on your cock!" You finally shouted as the gag finally slipped from your lips.
"Come in me Daddy!" You felt him twitch inside you at your desperate pleading.
"Oh baby girl your tempting me."
"Please!" You panted.
"Fuck" Ransom shouted as he shot his load inside you. You felt him coat you as you milked him dry.
Ransom fell on-top of you and your knees buckled, causing you both to fall forward onto the bed. Ransom moved off you, sweaty and exhausted. "Don't think that I'm done with you yet."
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