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stellaeviventem · 9 months

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looking forward to the document. i looked up to 🍉 since the pastel asriel days and im negl the truth is fucked up 💀😭 i literally feel bad for the ppl that she has affected :( i feel bad for believing she was completely innocent too uh 😭…

idk if this is a bad idea, but if i may share smth as witness, i remember in one of her recent streams, abt a month ago i think, there was this older man who started chatting in the chat section and showing interest in her, as well as putting his discord tag in the chat for other ppl to add him and stuff, and i know damn well a handful of her fanbase is minors

and the creep offered mel discord nitro or smth (idk i don’t use disc too much but im assuming it’s nitro) and yk what she did? she accepted his offer and actually expected to get it from him. the entire thing felt off, bc mel, who is almost an adult, should instead be rushing to protect the minors in her fanbase instead of just fuckin around. 💀‼️ the fact that she chose nitro over protecting minors says smth in my personal opinion but idk. like you can get nitro somewhere else girlie be so fr, remove the guy from your stream and ignore what he has to say… protect the damn minors dude. 😰

THANKFULLY it supposedly ended up being a troll, but even still, the entire thing just felt off, risky, and immature. i get that her streams are like a hang out thing where she chills with her fans n stuff so in her eyes it was prob just shits n giggles while trying to get discord nitro from a supposed older creep, but yeaa it’s a no for me. like i was on her side at that time thinking she was innocent and that STILL felt wrong 😭 thing is, there were like 2 other ppl there who thought it was wrong too, making me feel like “yea i’m not tripping this is kinda weird, the majority of ppl watching are prob teens or even younger (?) and you’re just gonna allow a creep to be here for a bit bc you want nitro???”

SO YEA, idk if this is exaggerated or if i am overreacting BUT i felt that every single thing might count. like, it’s good that the supposed creep was supposedly just a troll, but, like, still, no…

but one last small thing before i leave this for u, i admire that you and other people are speaking up about this. it’s wonderful that you’re standing up for other ppl who are being harassed by mel’s fans too (from what i’ve seen i think) so yea i think it’s very strong and courageous of you and the others. i wish you the best of luck /gen bc um yea, i think we all know by now how her and her fanbase can be… 💀😓

i appreciate you telling your story, anon <3 that's super creepy and i'm sorry that you had to witness that

your praise means the world to me :) i've heard that she's been shittalking me in her streams which is extremely funny to me. they've been off to me for a while now but since i was a fan for so long (like you), i didn't say anything because i didn't want anything bad to happen like me getting doxxed or something. her raging 100k+ fanbase of 12 year olds is highly amusing to me personally, but that doesn't mean that what they say can't hurt (pekoepeach.)

also, the fact that these 12 year olds STILL haven't come into my askbox tells me so much. they know i'm right, atp, they're just too scared to admit it.

to anyone who's struggled with feeling like you're going to get attacked by mel's fanbase, i see you. i know how it feels to be scared like that, and you don't deserve that. if you'd like to reach out anonymously, please, feel free! i am an open book and you are safe here unlike w mel <3

#asked and answered #anon #🍉#long post

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mandalhoerian · 10 months

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u’ve def succeeded at making her multidimensional!!! vera’s relationship with marvin was so fun and i enjoyed it sm, which tbh going in i wasn’t expecting. it feels like u put a lot into their dynamic and their feelings towards each other and the way they react (also i’m such a sucker for the way vera criticises marvin for behaviour she also does. i think it’s such a fun detail) to each other and. how much they care. ik it’s a leon fic but i love the fact vera has other important relationships and plot points (like with the recording thing) outside of the overarching romance. and don’t even get me started on the plot there’s a reason i’m sending this ask lmao

ngl i have so many thoughts about nttd. as i said it’s something i’ve really enjoyed reading so yk. ty for putting up with me sending these asks in ! i get v nervous abt interacting with ppl online so sorry if these are a lil disjointed

ABSOLUTELY CRYING !!!!!! THANK YOU FOR COMING BACK AND SENDING THIS! YOU SAY "PUTTING UP" BUT IM RICOCHETING OFF THE WALLS IN MY ROOM READING THIS PLEASE NEVER THINK THAT I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!! (and dont worry about being disjointed or not and please write the way you want to! i get the nervousness!!! and please dont hesitate to write me again if you want to share your other thoughts because i WANT TO HEAR THEM 😭)

marvin and vera make me BAWL he is so special to her and has done so much for her, there's layers upon layers to their relationship that im so frustrated that i'm not able to portray right -- like, he was so essential for her to become who she is from a frightened, introverted, traumatized child yearning for a family to belong to a loud-spoken, outgoing and cheerful young woman secure in herself.

and like. vera is a people pleaser seeking validation at heart and mirrors what her caretaker would want from her and/or what the person she's attached to is like unconsciously. when she was a child she was in the image of irons and umbrella; and when marvin took her in -- even when she doesn't know it, she chased his path in life and became a detective of some sorts --- and finally!!!! when she met leon and claire she also mirrored them and embraced their core values, which are just in nature when it's clashing with the guilt she carries and they rise her up from the cowardly nature she has at the beginning of the fic. sorry im rambling but i want to say that i really wanted to go beyond romance and explore other themes and such, im so happy to hear it worked out!

and like YOU'RE SO RIGHT on her displaying the behavior she criticizes from marvin, it's an overarching theme in the fic and i think, makes her human. she makes sense to herself in her head but marvin doesn't. hypocritical, really, but it is what it is HAHA

Vera having her own objectives and her story (her own "mechanics" as a "video game character") was very important to me because like. what's the point of writing an OC if otherwise? they have to have their plot!!!!!! SO HAPPY YOU'RE ENJOYING THAT

#an ask for shai #me shaking with the nervous energy with the strength of a thousand suns of a chihuahua as i write this

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baekhvuns · 11 months

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THOSE TWT LINKS AREN'T OPENING 😭😭😭

You mean ghatak or whtv the name of the movie was but the first part was superior alr idek why they decided to make a second part. Bruh it was painful to watch i just hope this one is much much muchhh better.

Nahh ur right, i was at first shocked when I saw Vicky x Sara but ..ig she fit the role. I hope her acting has improved. And as of Varun, he is a good actor but sometimes ykkkk...things just don't work. His recent movie bedhiya...i never watched it. I want to but I'm afraid I'll get disappointed 😭

Yess, during soty, i immediately became a sid girl BCZ HE WAS TALL, HE WAS BETTER, HE WAS THAT GUY!! and yet PPL fell for Varun *smh* but I'm glad everyone is realising what they hv to.

What is tht movie poster? Never heard of it but I'm pretty sure it'll be better thn adipurash BCZ WHAT EVEN IS THT MOVIE??? they literally took 6 months off to 'improve' and 'correct' their mistakes WHAT DID THEY DOO?? They made it worse 😭😭. And plus if they don't know how to use VFX in an appropriate amount why do they even bother??? And saif Ali Khan as the Ravan 😭😭 look i hv no complaints abt the actor and actresses chosen BUT THEY RUINED RAMAYANA! growing up, I've watched many animated spiritual movies based on ramayan or any other lore like lord Krishna, Mahabharata but adipurash......uh-uh. first they said it was based on ramayana then they literally changed their words saying it has taken 'inspiration' frm ramayana.

What's disappointing it came from the same director who directed Tanhaji. Can u believe it? AND WHAT EVEN IS KRITI DOING HERE?? 😭😭😭 Did not expect this from her but ig every actor has a bad movie.

But ykw I'll still watch it..obv after it's been released just for laughing out loud don't judge me.

But i rewatched 10 things i hate abt you....and I've fallen in love again with heath ledger 😭😭 THE ACCENT, THE DEEP VOICE AUGHHH and tht damn promposal. It'd forever be on my wishlist bcz....Indian schools don't hv proms :') in short Indian schools don't hv fun things....they r uptight and all abt studying.

Yeah I've heard abt tht movie, but...we gotta wait YK, idek what to expect now!! BUT I'm not raising my standards again. Always expect the unexpected. "Rocky aur Rani ki Prem kahani" .... Kind of like "ajab Prem ki gazab kahani"

😭😭😭😭 i cn never escape tht movie. But what was ur first movie like what would u say was the first movie tht made a huge impact on u? Mine was...ajab Prem ki kahani :') i was obsessed. And three. My father bought like 2-3 dvds just so tht i could watch it on repeat. No wonder I became hopeless romantic in the future 😭 AND I used to say I'm going to marry Ranbir when I grow up LORDDDD my family members still tease me💀💀💀 imagine....a Punjabi family teasin u...it's hell.

And tht is why I like soft boys. Although my parents did tell me the first movie they took me to watch was "malamaal weekly" ..... Rlly? I was an infant!!! But I think my subconscious picked up on the genre...i like comedy ALOT!

NOOOO ill put them under the bar 😭😭

and this

yeah the one! the first part was superior 90’s but the second part…he should stay away from movies and also the politics <3 the acting is overacting so i guess it fits her 😭😭😭 hoping she gets a role like geet from jab we met and hopefully she acts well for it <3

eh that recent movie of his is okay, funny at some aspects but i watched it bc it was in the stree universe but it was decent, like i get the vision, very twilight…but eh it’s alright id watch it again! arijit’s song saved imo 🤚🏻

SID WAS AND IS SUPERIOR!!!! from soty, ek villain, that one movie w pari, kapoor and sons + shershaah i like the way he chooses his projects but that omg movie w ajay devgan was not it 😭😭😭 i hope he goes into some action movies,,, like romcom actions, a mathew mcoughey style,,, like a mr and mrs smith movie w katrina or deepika (honestly want srk to do that movie remake w aishwariya so bad like imagine it being called mr and mrs khan 😭😭😭😭😭 A NEED A DESPERATE NEED !!!!)

that movie poster is the hanuman movie??? it looks nice from the poster, NO BC WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT MOVIE???? I FIRST THOUGHT ITS NOT THAT BAD BUT THEN I HEARD THE DIALOGUES ON REELS AND JUST ???? NO MF WAY THEY MADE HIM SAY TERE BAP KA???? EXCUSE ME??? THE DISRESPECT??? i got so pissed just from those lines like wtf u mean saif is ravaan??? honestly speaking saif can be the ravaan IF the vfx and his character was written nicely bc saif can deliver! “inspiration from ramanya” bro this a bhojpuri movie disguised as a bollywood one???

FROM TANHAJI???? damn,,, i didn’t like that movie 😭😭😭😭 so no wonder fbsndbskjclxhk

HEATH !!!! HEATH UR SO RIGHT HES SO 😭😭😭🤚🏻 I WISH TO SEE MORE OF HIS TALENT BUT ITS TOO LATE,,, THAT scene where he plays w the fire in the science room is forever engraved in my head,, don’t uni’s have formals?? then reels be lying to me then 🔫 damn my school didn’t have proms but they did have annual day,, considered it my prom <3

YEAH im not putting my expectations very high,,, their paring seems to lack the chemistry just from that song release for me,,, like no emotion in the eyes that says love me,, no srk eyes 😭😭 and ranveer for don?? 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️ ngl he suits villain roles but srk??? how u gonna do don without the don????

the first movie that made an impact on me was jab we met, ive watched that movie over 50 times now, it started my hopeless romanticness,,, something about the simplicity of meeting on a train, two complete opposite people finding themselves entangled w each others life??? yEAAAAAAH

LMFAOOOO SO EVERYONE HAD THE RANBIR PHASE SEE HE IS CHARMING AS FUCK BUT HES A PLAYBOY AND IM NEVER RHWNDBAK him w anushka >> LMFAOO IF UR FUTURE SPOUSE ISNT A RANBIR LOOKALIKE WE DONT WANT IT

omg??? that movie i totally forgot about,, coincidentally my first movie was ranbir’s debut film 😭😭😭 slept thru the entirety <: but ur so right, comedy is >>>>> but also those movies like znmd with that poetry 😩😩

#✉️ : ask #[ rosesapphiremysticalrose ]

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orreanintrepidness · 1 year

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I'm boutta headcanon dump so forgive me, brain is just overactive at 3:30AM yk. I'll put it under a read more just for the sake of ppls dashboards

Alistair, rather than throwing his pokeballs in battle, has taken to throwing them up, and then straight up KICKING them onto the field. It's just his style of doing things.

Ali, as much as he's "Oh look at me, tough Mr Orre", is very adverse to snow. He cannot stand it, at all. He's not adverse to the cold, as shown by the fact he literally has a Frosslass in his party, but snow really does just make him want to leave, immediately. Just instant "Fuck this, time to go."

I've always been vague about who his aunt is, mostly because I worry people will take it as me saying "You have to acknowledge him as being related to your canon character". But his Aunt is in fact Clair. Meaning he is in fact, a relative of the Blackthorn dragon clan. No, I don't expect this to be accepted, during interactions, but it'd be nice. Means he gets to be Clair's little disappointment because he lied so fuckin' much

Ali very, very much wants to establish a league in Orre, one with him as it's champion, because as far as he is concerned, he's the strongest Orrean trainer that didn't leave the region (Wes is ruled out, because man just up and vanished after Colosseum.) Mostly fuelled by his own ego, but also because he wants better for his home region.

He's absolutely sick of having to show people on maps where Orre is, and then sit there and explain what Orre is to people that don't know about it.

When he makes it to Unova, he's more than disappointed by the fact that the city he ends up in (Virbank) is so, so similar to home. Industrial cities are full of crime, he comes from Pyrite, Virbank is an industrial city, go figure.

He's likely the most well travelled Orrean to exist, Alistair has been to every major region barring Johto at least once, he avoids Johto for likely obvious reasons (His aunt, gotta keep the charade up.)

He suffers from immense paranoia at times, firstly out of concern that through some divine miracle, Team Snagem will find him, or Team plasma will come looking for him given he spent a short period in their employ as well.

He's extremely selfish, do not expect him to give you anything. He comes from a place where people just take, unfortunately, that mindset stuck even after he got away and turned him into a stingy asshole

While the knife he carries at all times is mostly for personal protection, he also uses it for what he calls "art". Mostly inane scribblings carved right into any large metal surface in places he's been. Always marked with a nice, bold A.H in the corner next to them.

The shift in his lifestyle from when he lived in Orre to when he began to travel is immense, he went from being a broke shithead, to being a moderately well off shithead, as such, he is terrible with money and wastes it on some of the most absurd things known to man, especially jackets.

A lot of his pokeballs are no longer red and white, rather, they are grey and white and covered in huge amounts of personal engravings that Alistair put on them himself. Each and every one is unique, some still have tinges of red, some do not, but all have been engraved.

#ooc: rye speaking #headcanons (orreanintrepidness)

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1d1195 · 24 days

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🎀-anon

So, how was your pedicure? What color did you choose? (If you did ask for manicure too)

You deserve all the cute stuff in the world😭🎀 I got up from a very long nap. My head is hurting, but that's fine. I'll take some painkillers, but anyway, so..oh! Yes! I have a lot of exams rn uni is very stressful and I'm only a sophomore😭 but I do care about every class cause I have a lot of dreams and I will hopefully achieve them one day. Btw I'm studying English literature and translation (Arabic - English). I'm an Arab!

Yk, sometimes I feel like I'm the mom in my group of friends, too but getting to know more people i learned that my bff is the mom shes always telling ppl off when they are being rude go me like the other day a colleague of ours was like twlling me that "i dont know anything about Hamlet" like literally 5 minutes before the exam (was she expecting me to help her cheat?)😭😭 so my friend was like oh and what should we do? She's so awesome.🎀

So my exams today went well, pretty well. I don't know why I stress sm when I do well, but I'm thankful. I STILL HAVE 3 OTHER 😭 I literally hate this lifestyle but I'm just a girl yk?

So my ex friend.. well she was toxic from the beginning but I don't know why I kept her I just think she wasn't as bad? Like well she is a bit of a pick me (I'm not trying to talk bad about her I swear I just can't find a suitable description other than that) so when the doctors started acknowledging me in classes she came up to me and started making conversations. So I noticed that she was toxic when she was convincing me to give her answers and when she took my notes without even asking and always, always turning the tables. I swear to God it took me a year and a half to make the decision of cutting her off. Even the prof who I was doing the presentation for and stopped her from ruining it noticed and she talked to me asking me what happened and that she always saw us together, but I didn't want to talk bad about her I just said that I think we're better now and that I don't want to get back to that state again (overthinking if I am the one who's being a lot and not respecting the other person's feelings) but to be honest the breaking point was when she said that I'm trying to show myself off in the presentations we did together I was deeply hurt and the next week she and her circle (one of them being the first girl I knew in campus) but they all sent me looks without talking to me I was with my other group of friends like usual and when I talked to my other friend, mutual friend, she said that the ex friend talked about me with all of them and told them that "I changed and I don't hang out with them anymore and that I am a lot of other stuff" so I decided to stand for myself and now I don't even care about her she's just being rude for no reason (idk why my haters are increasing by time😭 they're just being rude but when I don't act as kind as I did back as a freshman they just hate on me but I don't care that's how we should be right?)

So yeah.. that's the whole story💕💕💕

I STILL HAVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT THIS GUY WHO ACTS LIKE THE WICKED STEP MOTHER😭😭😭 HE'S AN ASSHOLE ALWAYS TRYING TO HARASS ME AND SOMETIMES MY FRIENDS I HATE HIM OHHH THATS GONNA BE A LONG ONE TELL ME IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT?😭

My pedicure was good! I picked like this light blue sparkly color. I'm a little bummed it smudged a little (I did a regular pedicure not gel).

I'm sorry about the headache I hope it's gone away since you messaged! As always, I'm so in awe of anyone that can speak two languages. I can barely speak English and it's the only language I know 😭 It sounds like your bff is the best! I love that for you! THREE MORE EXAMS?! You are a trooper.

As for your toxic ex-friend: the very first thing you said? You're not sure why you kept her around? I don't want to put words in your mouth (nor compare yourself to me, I know we're still getting to know each other). I for one have kept a lot of people in my life who I probably shouldn't have for much longer than they needed to be. I tend to naively see the best in everyone even if it's harmful to myself. Unfortunately, I'm wrong a lot. But on some level they WERE your friend, right? Like you did things together, had stuff in common, for better or for worse there was a connection and I don't think that's something that just happens and it's hard to just ignore that connection past it's prime if you will.

I'm glad you stood up for yourself, that's something I definitely DO NOT do. I'm glad you have a good friend group to support you and that you're pulling away from your ex-friend. It's natural to grow apart from friends that no longer help you be the best version of yourself so I'm glad you have a group of friends that are kind and lovely towards you 💕

You can tell me all the tea of whoever you want! Bring on the wicked step mother! 😈

xoxo

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castle-dominion · 1 year

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4x3 headcase idk, I don't have time for this why am I here doing this hhh

universal studios? Weird intro, v cgi

RC: Her? Yes. You? ehh MR: eee A mister Stan Ford She's faking it, she's going to play them & then boom she's going to say "psych I got in!" ... Or not

dissintegrated? What would lanie do here? No body for her... Ryan looks fancy today Ah the wedding. Poor ryan. (called it) 6:40 were the gunshots & then 7.00 is a long time later

Wow called him detective ryan, that's fun usually we just hear ryan. Men. At least u'r 50% down... He's term limited! I like gates (here only as watching the show for the funnies tho) Like that time y'all got the body stolen

What good timing, three vans & you have the info u need on all of them; & then YOU come in saying which one it is (if you only had this info you would have had like a million vans like that in new york to think abt)

I like it when they are still wearing their clothes but not quite, like ryan took off his coat vest & tie & let out the buttons of his shirt, espt is wearing a tshirt, they all look so different with their police vests on.

Sci-fi! In murdoch mysteries they had a non-canon halloween episode where aliens were real, then later it turned out to be george's book that he wrote Master Chief? Maybe don't wipe stuff around & let ppl know ur presence Ryan's eyes are so so bright here

is it 10o'clock for everyone? they are kind of spread out

KR: think they can put me under until the wedding? RC in s3 after freezing to death with kate: Don't let anyone sell you on cryogenics

ah, 6.55. KB's right, he's dead, his brain is dead. (Actually death is a social construct. Medically you cannot pinpoint the time of death because different types of death happen at different times, they can happen at different times for different people, they can be reversed, someone can be dead in some ways & still survive for a long time in other ways, & by a long time I don't mean minutes I mean hours to years in theory but never in practice.)

at least now they know their vic. not ok to say castle I mean, as long as he has the contract... I don't think u can sue her & the nypd into oblivion as you put it but if you do can u please obliterate the rest of the police? thanks.

btw I'm sad that the transcript is not available for this. (update: no livejournal transcript by the person I had,but I found transcripts on dustjackets) explain it to gates starting from the beginning? No sir my mother was a lawyer. (& your dad right?)

At least the technicians had info on the crime scene since they were there so fast...? Poor ryan, he looks so afraid coming in & knocking

wife did it he said one lifetime wasn't enough maybe she thought one lifetime was too much-- or "so do I" so scratch that theory Ambrosia? RC & me: food of the gods pharmaceutical implants? Like that one t4t firefly fanfic I read? No, telomeres telomeres telomeres Big pharma would stop it probs... yk, all u need to do is make it to 2029 supposedly a porn mogul what???? (I like how beau randolph becomes a recurring character)

RC: Wha- I can't even get a carry permit, how did he get one? So rick HAS tried to get a carry permit. I've been saying this for a while now, I'm glad we have the facts on the show now KR: The hard way. Several guys saw their girlfriends in his videos &, beat the hell out of him. : ) RC: no longer jealous. (could clip) Yk giving a gun to someone who has been beaten up & now has enemies might not be a good idea, I feel like it's an easy way to bring up murder rates...

RC: would u get the implants? KB, lookin at her tits: I don't think I need em, huh? (meh not clipping either of these) she's so right isn't that how you'll be anyway? When did you become so judgemental about naked women? When my daughter hit college age.

The one thing internet porn taught me: you don't get rich by giving (life extending research) away Not a phrase I was expecting to hear (won't clip)

Ah human testing! Yeah reminds me of when homeless people kept getting covid vaccines, like a lot of them, so that rich ppl could get around with vaccination cards pigeons??? really??? "Yeah that's what I'm going with" he did it.

She's so hot. She didn't become an IA detective for looking pretty, she's smart & strong. The doctor dude: we only need the brain uwu KB: *this man is insane if he thinks he can revive this fellow by freezing his brain*

It's going to be frozen tho

She meant what she said! Man doesn't have a head this is so weird Maybe one of his test subjects killed him, like randolph said. Find his clinic, find his killer. So she DID get that scooter? KB: I can manage without u for a few hours RC: don't look so happy abt it

KR: Hey JE: Yo, ryan what's up man where've u been? KR, going to sit by espt's desk: College. listen to this-- KR: *stops* KR: *face falls* KR: KR: *looks down hard* KR: KR: KR: *points down with his hand all the way up at his chin* KR: What the hell is this? (dead (pigeon)dove (do not eat) is in an evidence bag on espt's desk) JE: That, my friend, is Beau Randolph's alibi KR: He really did commit murder JE: Writing him up for animal cruelty right now KR: maybe there's still time to cryonically freeze the little guy. (no. there is not.) JE: KR: : ( JE: hamilton's office? (clipping absolutely)

KR: First of all, WOW I know what we'll be doing once we're fried & don't care anymore, at least they bagged the evidence That might be more like little pharma.

I love this kid his voice cracking like that. JE: ... Excuse me? This kid is amazing I love him

Clerk: I figured he had a blow up doll collection or smth. *door opens to some horror movie type room* Clerk: I am not cleaning this up. KR: Please stay back ma'am? Clerk: Twist my arm /s JE: *holds open plastic door like a gentleman* KR: Dude there had better not be any body parts in there JE, who is a homicide detective Along With Ryan: Just [go in] At least they have guns (meh won't clip)

Lidocaine. I thought they moved from lidocaine to nocovaine... or maybe they are both used but for different purposes or it was the other way around. (reminds me of my autosurgery) Um, his human test subjects probably?? The lighting is... interesting.

Uh, homeless poor people. MR: I'd give (getting an operation in a hotel) a try. Though I'd need five stars. girl??

Carry her up to bed, first time in years <3 <3 Lol good old participation trophies girl bouncing off your head & not knowing u scored a goal is not going to make her feel better Poor alexis. I'm starting to feel glad that I was ALWAYS a failure so I don't have to deal with being a prodigy & then crashing like alexis.

I always love how castle goes to beckett with teenage girl problems

hamilton's hotel of horrors I like ryan's jacket, it has a pattern. & then he walks away the way he does. What is wrong(/neu) with him tho? does he have hip problems? why does he walk like that? I'm not complaining I just... noticed (Me: *watched 8x5 through 8x7 today* heheh physicality)

Lanie could this have been a text? Ah & they have his DNA in the system now bc of the start of the episode Or HE was doing procedures on HIMSELF. Lanie is talking y'all Stop doing that thing you do for one second! (won't clip) brain matter & they don't have the head. ugh. Could they maybe talk to hamilton's doctor?

Oh. No. Why is there fog on the floor? Ever heard of phineas gauge? Lanie's going to be fine no IT'S GONE? SERIOUSLY? FREAKING W???

Mrs Hamilton, v stressed: I DON'T UNDERSTAND, HOW COULD YOU LOSE MY HUSBAND'S HEAD? KR, as softly & respectfully as possible: That's what we're trying to figure out, mrs hamilton [...] Ham: SHFJHSD KR: *looking around trying to escape* Ham: FBSDFJ KR: *trying to be calm when this lady is all up in his face but gosh this poor man*

becks, you don't put "either" in an &/or. it is EITHER either/or, OR and/or. This was an either/or. You can only have one of them. Espt, that is one ugly shirt.

the tech is neat, apparently the tech ppl on the show make props for them that actually work & it's rly cool

Open up boyd! *glass shatters* I don't think he's opening up

He went out the window to the fire escape! Yeah, ya think??? Who wrote this episode XD He's got the head! I can see that!! ooh sexy music, & really funny vertical chase scene. Yk, one thing I learned from doing roofing, you can walk forwards down a ladder & it is much faster. (clipping) *comically drops the head* Castle *jumps from the fire escape into a dumpster to get the head* *shakes it* "I think it's ok" BRO

random cryo employee in scrubs: he's going to be fine. *shakes head* why would anyone steal a head? idk what this scene brought to the episode but I'm glad it was there

What did you miss him?

inoperable & untreatable beckett, duh! Aw, this poor man... this is honestly sad Where did u do MRIs? Why didn't Lanie see this in his med files?

Alexis? <3 big sad He framed his first manuscript rejection <3 wasn't a tolkein book or Dune published by a car company or smth? Markiplier vibes. my failures drive me. rejection CAN BE failure. You failed at getting into this college. So what? Failure is something you do, not something you are, & it is ok to fail. I'd say it's ok to fail as long as you learn from it but you don't need to learn necessarily. Sometimes you just fail. Giving up is failure to try. & giving up is ok sometimes! Sunk cost fallacy! Sometimes you just need to try something else! I gave up drawing when I was like five, I don't care. (hm, won't clip)

Girl you have a semester left of school still, try reapplying & apply to other places too. I took an extra year of high school, no biggie.

KB: is she ok? RC: were any of us at that age? My mom & me: *look at my little bro* (won't clip)

what abt that missing briefcase? 99 times out of 100 u catch someone with a guy's head, he killed the guy. Reminds me of the mask of zorro. Castle *makes a joke abt how it's lucky he died* Beckett: he would be....... I WAS RIGHT IN THE FIRST PLACE & that's why she was so reluctant to let them have the body & the cops only got it from the doctor & lawyer!!

Ah, contract termination this is kinda sad. At least she got rid of the gun. Why not the briefcase tho? it ws special? really?

in love or in-sane Yeah it's going to be the wife cyanide capsule in her teeth or smth.

Pretty pic of her with her man tho. Cyanide starves the cells of oxygen idk if future medicine is going to save you after you died like that... How long do the effects of cyanide last before you get rid of the cyanide? idk bc it usually kills u. I mean theoretically u could survive but the research paper I skimmed (but didn't read) was all hypothetical. Imagine cryonically waking up & your wife killed you. how mad would you be? u wake up & she wakes up too & she says "the only reason u'r alive is bc I killed you" how messed up would that be at least the man asked for permission this time lol

aww from "i don't believe in magic" to "anything's possible" so cute

I would like it if this cryonics place comes back in a future episode. Or someone from one of these cases. Like how sammy keyes in the last book,,, you know... (Looks like u got your wish Dom)

So yeah that was fun (But I read the transcript alongside my liveblog so I didn't note down all the places I needed to clip)

#castle 4x3 #castle 4x3 quote #castle 4x3 spoilers #the cryonics episode #still must be clipped

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sk3tch404 · 2 years

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I gotchu fam, us Ren'py users must stick together after all, even when our code doesn't wanna cooperate with us and throw the computer equivalent of a temper tantrum, just because we forgot a line break or a : 😔✊

As for the aforementioned OC, uhhhh

https://imgur.com/a/6Fz9hff

Full credits to my friend for the drawing, cause she's also the co-creator of our boy 🙏

Infodumping time: he's basically part of a whole batch of animal hybrid OCs for a hypothetical game and yk what I'm just gonna copy paste a discord essay I wrote about him on "why he can't be a yandere in my eyes" <- literally what I wrote last year

Mosquitö

Haha, look at this lil chuunibyou motherfucker, also has a case of weak twink syndrome who doesn't and refuses to work out, he claims that gaining muscles would make him look less like an evil seductive vampire, but everyone knows that it's actually because the dude can't even lift the lightest of weights at the gym and was too embarrassed to return to the gym for a second time because of said incident. Would also be too intimidated by you after your first encounter because he genuinely just doesn't rlly talk to anyone for more than 30secs, and that's with the old ladies in his neighbourhood if anything he just gets excited that ur not put off by his behaviour and already treasures the fact that u still put up with him and don't just straight up leave after the first encounter like most other ppl he's met.

I think my friend also has a doc w his general character info but I don't have it at hand rn so 🤷‍♀️

Hope ya enjoy!

-Ren'py anon

god

HE"S HOT?!?!?!?!?

tbh I was expecting a hacker nonny situation.

YOUR FRIEND IS SO TALENTED

FUCK HE"S SUCH A VAMPIRE ANIME BOY I LOVE IT

IDC IF HE"S A MOSQUITO HYBRID HE CAN SUCK MY BLOOD ANY DAY AND THROW ME AWAY

I love this little character summary! It's way different than from the whole, 'hot 18th century vampire that looks down on mortals'. He actually has issues and has a effective comedic effect on him.

And it's kind of sweet that he only talks to the old ladies lol

He's so anxious that he's even scared of talking to the elderly people around :o that's so me

Wow both of our vampire OC's don't go to the gym 😍😍😍 I just blame my OC's muscle on vampire genetics, but yours is way more fun.

We can literally overpower him if we have some sort of constant past physical activity, so i guess that means he's more of a nice and docile yandere? Or maybe he has a short temper now that he's a itty bitty obsessed 😫

The OC's route I'm working on is kind of like yours! He's anxious, doesn't talk much unless player heavily starts the convo, and gets obsessed because player is one of the only people who was REALLY nice to him.

They should hang out tbh.

Yandere playdate!!! 🥺🥺🥺 Awww they're so quiet and akward... Oh wait. Oh shit they're conspiring together.

AW FUCK DON'T BUST OUT THE ROPE-

Please hand the character info over if you can! I would love to draw my OC and yours together sometime!

#renpy anon #renpy anon ocs #he looks and sounds #soo #so #CUTE #I wonder if you're working on that game in your free time?#if not then that's okay!#I just think it's fun that we whip out random OCs #just for these funky little games #I literally just made these guys #because I didn't want to work on the idv one anymore #bc of gameplay complications #I love love love these guys #now I understand why people #post about their OCs so much

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Hey, since you’ve been in this fandom for wayyy longer than I, I wanted to ask you something. To me, the only undeniable anti proof is the one where Louis’ grandpa and sisters called out larries and posted a pic of him and El. To me, this could mean multiple things:

1. Louis has the worst luck in the world and Larry is not real. But like…there’s SO SO many elounor plot holes and what abt matching tattoos and serenading and just- fuck ton of proof alright. Just things I don’t think any conspiracy theory would be able to take this far w/o actual evidence. That’s not me saying I’m a no stunts- cus honestly I just don’t buy some no stunts arguments but, I digress.

2. Larries on twt are disrespectful af and the family was clapping back bc maybe back then THOSE larries kinda made it worse for everyone? Like the way they talked to Stan was borderline immature, and I’m pretty sure if my family/friend were closeted and forced to extensively stunt I’d do anything to keep the secret so less ppl believe. Also if u think abt it- if ppl didn’t make EVERYTHING abt Larry/ make fake proof back then- the fam/friends would have no reason to be angry bc larry prob wouldn’t have to bury this secret so hard- yk? Bc whenever the families have clapped back its been to tweets talking about the proofs that over reach. Or just @ing larries bc like I said, you gotta bury the secret somehow so your homie won’t have to.

3. Management/ label/ PR team asking them to do it/ taking one for the team. I think management having control of stans or lotties or anyone’s account is too far fetched tbh. I also don’t think it’s the label because I mean- it was denied after the 1D hiatus by Lous ppl, lou who didn’t have an album out until 2020. The label also has better things to do- Hollywood leaders are too busy hiding sex offenders crimes to care abt some ‘conspiracy’. I do think maybe they do it so Louis(bc Gemma only denied it in the 1D days when Harry was actively bearding just to hide Larry rather than in PR relationships for PR and profit) doesn’t have to do anything other than hang out w Eleanor here and there. That’s my understanding of it anyways. I think I’ve done my research enough to conclude this.

Do you think any of my reasons could be right? I wanna know your train of thought. Or do larries have another explanation for why the families deny it on socials? Lmk <3

Thankss

Hey dear, how are you?

I think there are a lot of misconceptions going on here. A lot to unpack. And it's pretty ironic how the answer to your question is already on the question itself. This is obviously just my opinion, I'm not personally attacking you or anything, and feel free to disagree and do your own thing.

So. First of all, there's no such thing as blaming larries for the denials, or for making "everything about larry". Larry is making everything about larry, we're just reacting accordingly for the past decade. Yes there's a part of this fandom that is extremely annoying and doesn't seem to understand the concept of closeting, doesn't seem to understand how fucked up it is to go bother their families and friends with this. It's like people are expecting them to out Harry and Louis when they're asked about it. Which, again, is a ridiculous concept considering they're so severely closeted. So, no, larries don't have the power to make stuff about larry or to ruin solid friendships or make denials happen. The idea of larries being the ones to be blamed is absolutely ridiculous... and it's also the key point of the denials, you just hit the nail in the head by mentioning this!

There's this popular strategy used for changing people's minds or trying to shut down a particular idea, that consists in basically putting people against each other. It happens in politics, marketing and a number of other scenarios. And that’s what 1DHQ did since it was decided that larry rumours needed to be shut down. So instead of only using denials and beards, it was being pushed down everyone’s throats that believing larry was wrong, absurd, disrespectful. They started to promote larries as “not real fans”. So whenever a larrie would stand up and be vocal about it, we would be instantly silenced by other people in the fandom and called *delulu*. “Larry is a load of bullshit” “conspiracy theories” “disrespectful”. They were basically dividing the fandom by doing these kinds of denials, they created doubts in people’s minds and they wouldn’t need to rely on denials coming from H&L every single time, that way they had part of the fanbase already doing the dirty job for them by oppressing any kind of ideas about larry. Now, for something to be effective, everyone needs to play the game. If friends and family are going to out them, there’s no reason for the closeting to be happening in the first place. And we always talk about how people close to them have a massive part in pushing narratives and stunts. It sounds organic, it sounds more believable. So, naturally, they would need to play the “larries are crazy” game too. And it is what it is, that’s how things need to go. That’s why these kinds of denials happen and it will keep happening as long as they’re closeted.

Lastly, I would just like to add something else. You mentioned “undeniable anti proof” and elounor plot holes… and I think you’re trying to make sense of things from the original narrative point of view when I personally think it should be the other way around. Elounor doesn’t need to have plot holes, and antis don’t need “proofs”. This is not what makes larry real, what makes larry real is the consistency. Week after week, month after month. Patterns were created and then reinforced over and over. Consistency and context are much stronger than words and denials and stunts, and that’s what they keep showing us. Please check out this post for more about it and also my denials tag for more about the denials

#ask #denials #for beginners #larry and larries #larries #long post #1dhq

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venusiangguk · 3 years

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BUDGETING

dont know if everyone will still want to know on budgeting lol

I don't want to sound like a bitch yk

BUT

I think the most important thing for me was learning to give yourself the freedom to enjoy things like little by little

I used to do this thing where I was uptight for a super long time and then I wpukd splurge huge amounts and for nothing.

I'm not religious either but I truly believe that setting out a little each month/week for charity is great bc it's always comes back in a form that's greater you know.

Pay rise, new job opportunities, idk good things.

Ik it sounds cringe and gross but I think it's worth it !

THE STEPS LMAO

Okay so I always but in 40%-45% like in the bag already savings I mean (this can obvs be adjusted to fit your own needs but if say keeping over 30% is key!)

And work around everything else in the steps below !!!

If I was brave enough I would send pictures of my last year budgeting plan and how I managed to save !! But I'm not 😭😭😭

the first step for me would be to list your monthly income !

Monthly is way easier to work with and easier to adjust in the long run !

Second would be list out things that have to be paid always. So fixed expenses.

I.e rent, MOT, bills, food ( for this I would highly recommend just having a monthly shopping of like say £20-25 - seems un do able but isnt !!! Frozen veggies are your best friend:)) gym membership, spotify, prime all of that.

Third which is super important for me at least would be to set out a like reward bonus for yourself.

( in cash preferably- like so once it's gone it's gone you know- like monthly rewards for yourself - sometimes you use it and sometimes you dont!! )

Fourth - ALWAYS SET AN EXTRA LIL FUND FOR THE UNEXPECTED THINGS!!! ( car crashes, dentist, medicine if your toaster breaks if your fridge breaks !! all of that lovely stuffs 😃)

So when you look at all that infront you- really just scrutinise it.

Like -

How much of that do you really need to spend?

Is there anything you can cut out on ?

This is super important at least to me bc then I see that yh shit - that is crazy I'm spending useless money )

I think that also keeping student loans separate is SUUUUPER SUUUUPER bc it just. Idk if anyone else is like this but seeing how much they expected from me to be able to learn always depressed me so I made a separate folder for that- made it pretty so it didnt look sooo bad lmao ) but I think the biggest part was getting to grips that I had all that to pay back!!!

Then like random things :

Concerts, events, holidays.

Like make sure you have them planned in advance and make separate funds for all of them.

To cater to what they need! Like for a concert- hotel and food money and merch buying and army bomb and a NEW OUTFITTTT lmao)

And yh - I think setting up a teeny amount for charity or to help ppl is always great aswell bc well idk you feel good and it does always come to find you- doesnt have to be a large amount. Maybe even a food box every month or smn cute and sweet like that !!

This is how I did it : ( kind of irrelevant and just abt silly me lmao but maybe itll help(?))

So i used to work night shifts at this horrible packing place ( it was freezing too but the pay was so good! It was £15-18 an hr ( sometimes even more )and I used to work from 11pm-4am 7 days a week like I didnt take a day off until I quit and i did it for 2 years ! That was like 50k but I had a lot of things to pay off and my parents wanted nearly all of it back off of me 😃)

This is also the NOT the job I wanted yk? Like I used to work with a bunch of stinky ass men and it sucked but I had to do it bc well my parents kicked me out bc I was non religious looool.

I was never enough and I just got kicked out yk? ( oh no not my sob story but just to put it into perspective sort of like I was fucking depressed my money was going like wildfire )

So I had to kind of take everything/every opportunity. They expected a lot back from me too in that way like alot of my learning was going to them :/)

From 5-7

I worked at a bakery ! Cooking and baking and having fun! That was the best job I had the pay wasnt all that but it was something and I needed everything I could get ! It wasnt everyday either but so and so.

I also am bilingual so that way I was able to get a job as a teacher in a daytime school teaching which I did voluntarily! For the first year !

( I had this routine for 2 years!!)

So like I was getting an okay amount from these jobs but god heavens I was spending so unnecessary.

Like a high price for a shit apartment where I would have to pay for things to get fixed to and that was really expensive.

My parents also took alot first year earnings and that's when I was like well shit I have nothing I really need to like get my shit together yk?

There was student loan (- I dont want to like envoke sympathy bc of all this I just wanna like say that my money was kind of slipping away yk I feel like I'm being annoying 😭😭😭 ) - and just a whole lot of wasting on food ( my biggest expenditure- at the time I was struggling with binge eating and bulimia so 🙃🙃 yh )

Dumb shit off amazon, and like just crap you know

Also car petrol and mot and car stuff. and bus and train fares just money can go so easily.

It was just super super tiring to have juggle all these balls at once but when I got the hang of it like doing all those steps I felt more free and more aware of myself and I was able to enjoy while still getting yk the most out of what I do.

I work as a translater/teacher now so the pay is good and like using these steps is how I got the most out of myself

Uh idk If this even makes sense anymore and I'm sorry if come off as bitch too

I don't mean to or come with a sob story

I just think its important to like realise that no matter what and who in your life demands things from you - you always have to choose to look after yourself first- how you choose too look after yourself is ultimately how you choose to look after others too ! Take good care of yourself - give yourself a clearer mind and you'll be able to see a bigger picture- outside of the one built for you !!

If your struggling with other issues - mental health too it can help bring clarity to that too ! Bc it's some sort of semblance.

Gosh I feel gross what if you have to read all of this 😭😭😭

I hope it helps you ♡♡

Budgeting is really important bc we need to buy houses!!

Need property!!!

Start our own businesses !!

Become our own bosses !

It's just super important to know your expenses you can know yourself better too !

And you can be more mature and more self aware

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Gosh I really ate your ear off with this one

for everyone wondering about our bestie w 50k savings: this is her story !!

#u did a good job getting through all that and doing well for urself <3 #ask #anon #stellanswers <3

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djservo · 2 years

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what did you think of milk fed ! killing for your literary analysis tbh. also happy new year lol

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ur so sweet, ty for asking 🥲❤️‍🔥 i'm putting it under the cut so i dont clog the dash (fr don’t click ‘keep reading’ unless u wanna unleash never-ending paragraphs) & for ppl who haven’t read the book, there will be spoilers and **TW** for eating disorders, body dysmorphia, sex, fatphobia

ok i’ll tell u right off the bat i thought it was a flop and the more i think about it, the more i hate it!! i should’ve expected this bc most of my problems with these buzzy contemporary fictions lie in how they feel like they were written with a twitter audience in mind, ykwim? & seeing as melissa broder’s first release ‘so sad today’ (haven’t read) started from her sadgirl prose twitter account under the same name (1 million followers & counting), she’s clearly well-immersed in that corner of the internet and therefore very in on what’ll trend/shock/etc, which is not to say people who are OnlineTM can’t come from a genuine place or that there’s something Bad about being informed by online trends—which are inescapable at this point—but i personally feel unmoved/bored when it’s This transparent in the writing style, yk? like i might as well just follow your twitter at this point but ANYWAY

this article about ‘the millennial/unlikeable woman’ in pop culture sums up my main problems about these kinds of lauded #Feminist works way more eloquently than i could, but there’s a specific phrase “glossy, politically toothless world of high literary society” that i feel this book falls under with how it touches on all these controversial subjects without fully developing any of them. like a revolving door of mommy issues, eating disorders gratuitous sexual fantasies, religion, and even dances around the IDF / israeli occupation of palestine and you’re like ‘WOW this book is GOING THERE!!’ but actually no it’s not bc none of the above are fully committed-to or realized by the end (which was so rushed / unearned btw) so it feels hollow and more like a ‘look what i can do!’ moment rather than anything substantial or subversive

another issue i had was miriam’s characterization, but it’s like What characterization dfkasd bc miriam was hardly a character but instead a projection of rachel’s fear and lust, her body weaponized as a grotesque consequence to rachel’s binging, but also idealized as this dreamy utopia of what she can’t have/be and soooo sexualized to the point where i was like... am i reading fucking bukoswki or what!! manic pixie dream girl, but rated R!! and i Get that this is meant to reflect rachel’s own dysmorphia (all the golem allusions and whatnot) but after reading interviews with broder and seeing that rachel is Very much tangled up with herself, i can’t help but feel like 🤨 what are u Really trying to say 🤨 but actually u don’t even have to dig deep to find the connection with her views bc half the interviews i read included this excerpt from so sad today:

“I really love a zaftig female body. The women I am most sexually attracted to are considered obese by today’s (and yesterday’s) standards. I don’t watch a lot of porn, but a typical search term for me is “fat lesbians.” That is a beautiful fantasy. To be accepted and embraced and adored as your biggest self, the most you. That, to me, is freedom. The ultimate letting go. It’s sexy as fuck. It really turns me on.”

like?! idk she’s mentioned her past eating disorder in interviews so i have no place judging how she deals with body image in present day, but when it bleeds into her fiction in the way of a fat character being endlessly objectified as this symbol of sexuality and indulging and “letting go” of all structure and care, it’s leaves a bad taste in my mouth. like, is it empowering to be fetishized/put on this pedestal u never asked to be on? to have these gratuitous sexual fantasies written about your stomach rolls and your tongue being compared to fat liver or your nipples compared to clits and generally just the most garish metaphors ever UGH which brings me to the ‘erotic’ aspect 🥴 for a book so acclaimed for its eroticism, the sex scenes and descriptors were sooo embarrassingly unsexy to me like when she describes the vagina smelling like a basement, the hand-holding thing where her fingers were supposed to be a dick, “frankencock”... just uncomfortable to read like trying to be grotesque and bizarre but missing the marks entirely BUT ANYWAY!!

all this to say i didn’t like it but can understand how/why people would like it or find it cathartic But also will likely not be reading her other books <3

#sry im late i decided to completely rearrange my room yesterday hashtag new year new look new paige #u said 'literary analysis' + i said 'u got it professor 🤓' LMAO #ew this is kind of emabrrassing actually pls don't let me write this much on here ever again RIP #c speak #asks

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hungry-hyena · 3 years

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yk the more i think abt it the more i realise ghost wars is actually terrible. like wtf. the main character is ostracized for having a mother who was a psychic or whatever and in one of the first few episodes he gets his own fricken lynch mob, even after the way he was treated he's just expected to go out of his way to help everyone who's ever treated him badly, this character who they got a biracial actor to play with most of the rest of the cast who play the characters who treat him badly being white, not to mention the fact his name is literally Roman. I think at some point they call his mother the g**** slur a couple times too. plus the whole running her put of town thing too and being responsible for her death. I feel like theres something to be said here about how what message they're trying to send abt the marginalised and the way they're treated but it's all pretty fucked up. I'm like 90% sure Roman and his Mother are meant to be some fucked up stereotype abt Romani ppl. and at the end even after all he's done most of the people he helped go back to hating him now that they don't need him to survive. it's like,,, I've got all the pieces but I'm not sure how to put them together. all I know is the final product is Not Good. idk y'all I'm just struggling to put in words why this bothers me so much. I mean, they could've used the whole "outcast psychic" trope without singling out the Romani ppl and being racist, it's been done before. just look at ParaNorman. it just.... it's fucked up bro and the writing is bad too. there's literally so much stuff on this show I Do Not Like. I didn't notice it the first time watching it which makes sense considering where I was the day I did but when I tried to do a re-watch today it all hit me. this show has so much fucking gross shit in it and the writing fucking sucks. way to take a cool concept and absolutely completely fuck it up.

#ghost wars #i feel bad for roman tho #racism #implied racism #tw racism #my opinion #sad sigh

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kyunsies · 2 years

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ahh mädch ajjsd i’m so so nervous 😖 today i’m starting my course and ah i’m nervous. starting new schools is so…ugh 😭 there’s only 2 more hours until the class starts and i’m just dreading it :( and what makes it worse is that it’s not just kids like me who’s doing the course but also adults wjmsd and i feel so nervous and inexperienced compared to them. also the dreaded “tell us about yourself” question 😭 i can just picture it and i’m already dying inside. it’s at this time i wish we had physical school :( doing online school gives me so much anxiety which is weird bec normally you’d think that being there pysically would be way more nerve wracking but idk :( i’m not that tech savvy and i don’t have any of my friends in this class that yk i can text and they’d give me reassurance like they did before. ah becoming an adult and doing things by yourself is starting to dawn on me :( feels like i’m being thrusted into everything all at once and i haven’t even began to process myself that i’m an adult myself either. the pandemic started and i was still 16/17 and now i’m just here about 2 years later and i feel like i hadn’t even gotten to live my time at that age and now i’m an adult and expected to do all these things and i feel so inexperienced and disadvantaged :( all i can think about it “i want to go home” even tho i’m already home. and it sounds so silly 😭 bec it’s not even that big of a thing i don’t know why i’m feeling this way…

but enough about me i feel like i just sprung that up fast on you :( i’m sorry. how are you mädch? i hope you’ve had a great day today!!! and i just wanted to say again that i’m really proud of you. i’ve been here since the time you were about to starting nursing school and how excited and nervous you were and here you are!! the drives and moving into your new place, the studying and all the hard work you’ve put in, i’ve seen you come sigh a long way and here you are!! you’re going to be a nurse!!! 🥺 youve come so far and your hard work has paid off!!! you deserve it all love. congratulations again ❤️❤️ - 🐺

hello bub <3 i'm late to this and i'm sorry i wasn't about to give you reassurance about this situation ;_____; but !!!!!! i hope it went better than what you thought and i'm here now to give you sisterly advice lskfjsd okay?

so !!!!!!! this new class !!!!!! it's always uncomfortable starting something new okay? you're not alone in feeling this way bc we like routine (most of us at least lol i do) and we often don't like being in situations that we aren't familiar with (ie. knowing ppl, being with friends),,,,, however hun it's these situations than make us more experienced and i know that sounds really cringe but it's true !!! we spend all this time working ourselves sick about it in our own heads, but when we come out of it in the end you can always look back and be like "omg idk how i did that but i did !!!!" as for some adults being in the class, thats actually quite normal angel !!! and lots of adults come back to school to get a degree they've always wanted or just to further their education, and to be completely honest bub sometimes they might be even more nervous than you, because the younger students outnumber the older ones most of the time ! no one is going to judge you for it, okay? i know it seems odd but this is actually normal and ppl are too focused on what they are doing to even consider making the experience awkward for you! and about not being able to text friends during the course of the class, i understand how that is very discouraging :( i can't tell you how many times i've been on a clinical rotation and have been with ppl who aren't my friends and i feel alone all the time !!!! but this is actually the best opportunity to build up your self; you will rely on yourself to remember the dates of things and when to turn in assignments, its a lot to think about but you become sooooo much more responsible and i promise you actually might find it nice that you don't have to "rely" on other ppl for help bc you'll be able to do it all by yourself !!! i know everything is so scary right now, i think you still have some years to go to really be stressing about adult stuff LOL bc youre still so young to me ;_____; but you will be faced with a lot of things that you have to do on your own and its overwhelming for sure !!! but these things shape you into a more independent person, and the more you become independent the more you have self confidence in doing the adult things okay? it gets better, so much better! you really have to be patient with yourself and the whole process is definitely a growing pain, but you'll come out of this a stronger person <3

so !!!! DONT BE SORRY !!!! i'm glad you feel comfortable coming here and telling me what is on your mind <3 i'm always happy to help bc i completely understand what youre going thru !!! i go to uni 8 hours away from home and i've had to deal with things all by myself, but i promise everything will come together <3 as for my exams LDKFJ thank you so so much bub !!!! you've been with me for a long time !!!! i think like, starting sophomore year of nursing school? and now after this i only have one more semester left !!!! thank you for being here and sharing this journey with me <3 it feels like we've grown so much together :( but angel i love you so much okay !!!!! don't be so hard on yourself bc all of this is new but you just have to be patient with yourself and sometimes you have to put yourself in uncomfortable situations but it makes you more confident okay? i am always here if you need to talk about this stuff !!!! love you !!!!!!!

#asks #🐺 anon

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lovelovex · 3 years

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so........... we're doing it i guess?

basically everyone knows what this is about but i'm still saying it. whatever

somewhere around 2018 my friends started asking me to sing them smth in a voice message before they'd go to bed, sort of like a lullaby, but eventually i started doing that for diff reasons.

somewhere around 2019 we decided to make a project out of it but it lived for ages in the drafts folder and even longer in my head, rent free.

bc this is both the easiest and the hardest thing we've ever done – easy for me bc this project required zero time in the recording booth, hard for my creative team bc extracting the voice messages without ruining the already horrible quality is not fun. hard for me to overcome my fear of scrutiny, to stop being so protective of the side of me only a tiny circle of ppl usu see, easy for those ppl to give me the time and space to get around it.

i should get to the details already but just a moment of gratitude:

S, from the bottom of my heart – fuck you for putting ideas in my head that keep me up all night. i love you to bits and pieces and none of this would've happened (even i wouldn't have happened) without your galaxy brain.

D, the person who's always been on my side, the one and only, the sweetest lullabies were all yours honestly love that for you.

E, look at you doing smth besides getting my friends knocked up!!! thank you for managing the whole thing and handling me at my worst, you're a hero and i love you.

N, everything i feel for you is so hard to describe w words, this is why i'm always singing the cheesiest love songs to you on a daily basis. love is not even the word but you already know that.

O, you were the first (and only) person from outside of the circle who listened to every lullaby, that's bc i trust you to be honest w me. look how wonderful you are wow i'm v lucky.

now to every person who will be following this project: this is not what you're probably expecting. this is not me singing after weeks of practice and a proper warmup, this is just me. w tired vocal chords, hoarse voice, no breath control, not even the right key!!! i personally hate how every lullaby sounds but i've made my peace w that bc this is just me. this is how the ppl who love me the most hear my voice most of the time and they love it, so i should probably too (also they think its healthy for me to sing horribly from time to time yk, put down the crown for a sec)

now to the details: we literally do not have any schedule in mind. sorry but we tried to think of diff scenarios on how i'd want to share it and the only thing i know is that i don't want to release the whole compilation at once (also bc we're still adding some) so this is how we'll go – i'll be posting them one by one, not in any particular order but the lullabies are numbered. there will be some alterations to this most probably so this is just for now.

apart from the lullabies, we'll be posting some extras that just didn't make the cut, some of them were lullabies, some of them were recorded by my friends and they wanted to add them too and i don't know how to say no to these ppl.

now to the v important details: i know i won't have any control over this bc none of you have tumblrs and i won't be able to block everyone interacting w the posts but please don't share the links w anyone, don't reblog or repost them, if you see them here that means you're special :) and everyone else is not.

i'd like to keep this as private as possible, all things considered.

! we are not making any profit from this project ! this is a noncommercial thing so feel free to download/save to your own drive if you want to (again, for your own listening)

the songs are not mine, the voice is mine, the covers are the pictures i took, the background noise courtesy of our wonderful nature and the damn cars (and my damn friends).

ok bye for now ♡

#lullabies

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