#and looking forward to every interaction

[very-small-giant]

the two pretty best friends

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #lycion #fleki #lycion dungeon meshi #fleki dungeon meshi #i started off like haha thats great theyre together so often in frames #and ended up kinda obsessed with them #and looking forward to every interaction

[le-trash-prince]

Things that make my brain go brrr: The fact that Kim and Babe both drive GTRs. It's so rival-coded of them. And you know Tony probably did it on purpose to get under Babe's skin, unfortunately, you know, Kim doesn't care what Tony wants.

#pit babe #pit babe the series #babe pit babe #kim pit babe #every single one of kim and babe's interactions makes me insane actually #sorry i spent too much of my life watching sports anime to be normal about rivals that look forward to competing against each other #em post

[lokisprettygirl]

The ten of you that are reading Close ties and especially the ones commenting on every chapter like the darlings that you are ..thank you .you have no idea how much I appreciate that

#it keeps me motivated #i look forward to every interaction

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

Last year I knit a teddy bear for my baby cousin for his first Christmas and he loves it so much his parents have (very kindly) asked for me to please make a second one Just In Case something happens to the first.

Which I've been putting off for a while. But the power of adhd, restlessness, and sleep deprivation combined got me here to today! The original bear took 70 grams of yarn, and the remaining 30 was almost perfect for knitting all the limbs/little bits. I have less than 5 grams left of that original skein which isn't even enough for a leg. Now I get to break into a brand new skein for the last fun parts of this bear (the knitting) before I get to the Evil (so. much. seaming. and face shaping. the face shaping is like four times as bad as the seaming.)

#knitting #knitblr #wip #for some reason this yarn REALLY hurts my hands #not even like. i have to work it a super tight gauge or anything. like i do but it's not more painful than expected #for some reason this yarn like. burns?? i'm having a dry skin problem rn and it's probably interacting poorly with it #also i have to use metal dpns for this and they set off my sensory issues with metal real bad #so like. i was Not looking forward to redoing this project. even if it was way more enjoyable than the alpaca. #but sleep deprivation really does defeat every enemy i have (and create like twelve new ones each minute) #today i have worked on. no joke. 7 different projects. i just keep jumping between them. #at least i'm being productive? somewhat?

[subbyp]

back on my xmfc bullshit a bit (never left) and longing for fics with the very specific Erik dynamic that I have never seen anyone do but that is the only way I can imagine timelines with no beach divorce, a dynamic I can only describe by means of an Onion-type headline: “Area Mutant Saved By True Love, Absolutely Furious About It”

#xmfc #x men: first class #cherik #erik lehnsherr #‘’I had really looked forward to wasting my life on a futile one-man war against the specters of my own trauma’’ #’’but now I can barely summon the will to assume the worst in every interaction let alone alienate everyone who cares about me’’

[leapdayowo]

from @silverskye13 fanfic Monsters Splitting Hairs

it’s really enticing and well written and I highly recommend more people checking it out :D

arm

#hermitcraft #hermitcraft art #hermitcraft fanfic #rendog #rendog fanart #docm77 #docm77 fanart #geminitay #geminitay fanart #seriously I look forward to every update and the newest conflict is really intriguing #great world building and clearly lots of thought and care has been put into the story #they characters are well written and I love the different interactions and banter we’ve been given #really cool #plus the characters have been fun to design :)) #watercolor #monsters splitting hairs

[majikdog]

Ghost is so cool and has so much content, it’s nice to be in an active and thriving fandom

#it’s like my little brain puzzle for the day every day it’s healthy #I’ve been in so many dead fandoms that this is a very nice change #I don’t think a lot of people realize how active the band is #and a lot of the stuff we get to keep things going are from the fans actively digging #it’s great!!! #it can be frustrating as all hell but for the most part it’s fun here I like it :)) #everyone I interact with on here are so indulgent and grateful #it’s a nice positive thing to look forward to after the rough day #My Mummy Dust #Ghost

[non-un-topo]

Spending hours trying to figure out why I feel so irritable and sensitive today and I’m only realizing now it might have something to do w being invited to a birthday party full of an entire family I’ve never met and like seven very small children and the person inviting me assuming I would love that. I want to support her bc I like her and she’s family now, but I cannot---I will not---go to another family event and be pushed into the kitchen doing dishes with the women or cooing over someone’s baby who just stares at me and whines when I try to mask and say hello.

#my period ended so it ain't that. #maybe i'm a horrible person. i just want to be left alone for seven solid days. and i certainly do not want to be forced- #-to interact with children. they scare me. real bad. #maybe this also has something to do with my readings for this week and the fact that we're going to be discussing 'womanhood'. #like the subject is 'what IS a woman to you?' and i am not really looking forward to listening to 15 cis girls tell me- #-how awful it is and how much pain they themselves endured while entirely not acknowledging the existence of trans women #or gnc women. #why am i so irritable jfc. #every time i talk like this to my partner they give me that look lol. the look that's like 'uh huh. i know a trans person when i see one.' #and i'm like shhhhhhh. no. don't say that. shhhh. i don't want to be. i hate myself okay and my family scared me out of it. #wish i could fucking shapeshift. wish i was just fucking born with a dick and a flat chest. actually i wish i was two people. #so i could decide from day-to-day and not have to worry about irreversible changes. #how much of my alleged transness is just internalized misogyny? <- this is a question i ask very very quietly to myself #because i think it's what my mother thinks. and most of the world. #how do i learn to be comfortable AS a masculine woman? i have no one to look up to who can teach me or show me it's okay. #i have transmasc friends who are elated to go on T. i'm scared that they will make me want to do it again. why tf am i scared of that... #irreversible changes. society. literally everything. fucking hell............ #no one talks about this particular experience of gender. no one talks about the in-between and the immense fear. at least no one to me. #why am i even taking gender studies in university if every class is full of cis women who don't even know the terminology of transness #or of gender-expansiveness... #i think i've become a very sour person in the last few years. #need to vent through writing or something. like through fanfiction.

[the-bi-fangirl-biatch]

i cant believe i was invested in an rpf bandom ship bracket poll in the year 2023 but I'm not gonna lie, it's the most alive I've felt in a while

#bandom ship bracket #im not kidding #this little joke thing gave me something to look forward to every day #it gave me a purpose LMAO #and it's always been about this. the community #the fun we all get from interacting with one another #also as a multi shipper it was very entertaining #but yeah im not prominent in the bandom side of tumblr but thanks yall #bandoms #peterick #frerard #fobposting #mcr #fall out boy #my chemical romance #rfp #tag talk

[hyaciiintho]

🌸｡*ﾟ+. Sorry to everyone I owe things to. It’s been extremely hard trying to get myself to start working on any replies and remaining starters. Been losing focus and zoning out more frequently these work shifts, so it’s been difficult to do much of anything ;; ;; I’m hoping soon I can kick myself back into gear, but right now my brain is just not having a good time.

Sending good vibes to everyone and well wishes. Hopefully the creative drive keeps strong with y’all ♡

#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ #Still having a rough time processing things. I’ll be okay for like an hour and then suddenly just— #not be okay jfsijdbd This is gonna be one hell of a year to get through… #but hopefully I can kick my butt into gear and get that momentum going again with stuff on here. #That’ll help keep my brain focused on other things and just give some more good times to look forward to ;; ;; #I still have the art stuff too so I’m looking forward to working on those… just… again ;;; ;;; trying to get started first. #The starting is the hardest part for me but I’ll keep trying in the meantime. #Just know I’m not shoving anything aside. I’m actively trying every night at work during my shifts. I just end up staring at my screen #for the whole 10 hour shift ;;; ;;; so… sorry for the wait on replies and stuff ckdjxbebc #I rambled in the tags again— what else is new??? LOL anyways yeah big hugs to all. Might try another inbox call maybe #to keep giving people interaction stuff. Or do like a… perma-inbox thing?? So I know who to bother randomly when I wanna reach out #and not add to anyone’s plate who doesn’t want additional stuff to answer. I KEEP RAMBLING OKAY BYE KISSIES AND HUGS—!!!!!

[el-im]

personally it's hard to feel excited for snw when it just feels so hollow? im not sure if it's the pacing or what but it feels ungenuine? and beyond that people's characters feel rushed? like i know hemmer had to be replaced but like we could've spent way more time on his character! he was interesting! (i might be biased bc i love the andorians) and not even touching whatevers going on with spock. or chapel. this is the least of my grievances but when they put that black undershirt on pikes green wraparound...hate crime.

yeah, I mean. whatever. I watched it in a single sitting when I was sick and it beat laying in bed looking up at the whitewashed ceiling.

I agree the exposition of characters seem very rushed. It kind of violated the “show, don’t tell” rule, particularly w la’an, who was kind of put in a position that needed her to air her dirty laundry in front of the whole crew. I wish they’d had time to create narratives around past experiences, kind of like they did with Kirk/Tarsus in TOS, in which his participation in a historical event was made relevant by whatever was going on in the ep. (This was kind of(?) done in the Jurassic Park Knockoff Ep they did but not super successfully). I do believe it’s a pacing issue.

That said, I will say that I appreciate it being (more, at least, than the other new treks I’ve seen… which is… only Picard) episodic. I love that they’ve got some new task to handle, some new planet to explore in each ep. In that sense, it’s much more similar to TOS than I could have hoped for, general relationship arcs aside. (But wrt pacing, sometimes I think this works against them bc of how the show is written. They could do a self contained so w a lot of backstory in TOS, but bc of how this show is written, it’s more difficult to accomplish all that in a single ep. Like M’Benga’s daughter? In that specific instance I wish they’d shown him talking about her in previous episodes, and people asking if she was back on earth w his partner or… and him going quiet. Or Hemmer trying to fix the medical transporter in an earlier ep and him freaking out, but not having that immediately resolved… the same goes for discovering Una is… whatever species she is. Would have LOVED to see some xenophobia first—the crew making jokes when they come across some anomaly that it must have been caused by them, or something, and her looking uncomfortable/chastising them/whatever. Or the demonstrated persecution of them broadcast from some federation planet… if we had more context for these stories, if their roots were better established, they’d land harder. But they don’t). So sometimes that episodic formula kind of works against them, but ! like I said. whatever.

frankly, I was ambivalent abt the whole enterprise (la de da) to begin with, so wasn’t expecting much and was pleasantly surprised by it, on the whole. A friend of mine has seen Disco and didn’t think I’d enjoy it, so I haven’t seen that, and I’m not inclined toward watching animation if I can help it so haven’t seen LWD or prodigy, the second of which is literally made for babies but. Yanno. I liked SNW. I didn’t love it, I don’t agree with a lot of decisions they made, but I can see their intentions/where they’re coming from. I LOVE this spock, though think you have to see him as separate from the Spock we see in TOS (like in AOS, you kind of have to appreciate their differences as characters, and learn to love them not as the same person, but as branching extensions from a stem). I also LOVE Pike. I had a lot of hopes about him going into it because I thought the original storyline for him in TOS was done so well in that two part ep that included the original footage from “The Cage”, and I think they did an excellent job tailoring Mount’s Pike to the character laid out there, all the while fleshing him out into a fully fledged captain.

further, I’ve gotta say, I love the antics/shenanigans, and how much everyone seems to like each other. I don’t get the point of rough and tumble, cynical sci fi 24/7. (I do—it has its place, but it shouldn’t be in Star Trek). Even DS9, which as we all know tackled huge narratives abt power dynamics and prejudice and genocide… had episodes where they played baseball. And fishing mini games. Picard, which I’m comparing it to bc, again, it’s the only other trek I’ve seen that’s been produced since AOS (I think), seems similarly jam-packed with shit. Ohh the Borg and here and so are the romulans and Deanna’s son died somehow and the Android suppression as a weird metaphor for ?? Revolution? Workers rights? Idfk? And there’s time travel and fascism and section 31 and corruption at the highest levels of Starfleet which only peepaw and his dog, tintin, can root out. And there’s his mother, for some fucking reason, and-

And it’s all horrible. Everyone’s cynical and mean and/or gratingly stupid/infantile (AGNES!!!!!!). It was refreshing to see something that… wasn’t… that.

#I didn’t care abt hemmer at all though so I can’t really speak on that point #I think conceptually it would have been neat to have an aenar onboard but frankly I think ent did more w the aenar in their last terrible #season by establishing them culturally than snw did by having an individual #who had maybe like 4 lines ?? before dying? I just didn’t care #I liked his relationship w Spock and their little carrot scene but that’s the only memorable interaction he had to me #asks #trek #am surprised by the Spock/chapel thing cause I think how it was presented in TOS was excellent. #her loving him and never saying anything. he feeling respect and affinity for her but not having/being willing to express anything beyond #perfectly done. and they both have to take that in stride because they’re professionals and have bigger fish to fry yanno #so I dislike that this is coming up as something so soon in their lives #when I think it’s something chapel should have been aware of then but let it steep and simmer #because the way we see it in TOS. It’s like resignation. #knowing she’s kind of. condemned to feeling that way. #but. #I’ll say again #I think comparing it to TOS isn’t the way to go and it’s got to be something in its own right #I’m excited for the second season! again. not touched by every character but didn’t really hate anyone #looking forward to cherry picking what is canon to ME #and throwing the rest away

[books4evermorr]

I think right now (before starting) I am most looking forward to

1) Oliver’s arc because oml the CHANGE (can’t wait to issue my own apology to him)

2) The popcorn scene that destroyed lives and changed how so many will look at popcorn forever

3) Who is [redacted] that everyone is talking about!?? If it is one person at all that is. It might just be everyone referring to different people and not be too spoiler-y about who they are referring to and hence using [redacted]

But I feel like it is one person… is it jiemin?? 🤨

Taking a WILD guess here. Or is it lourens??? I feel like it’s one of them cause I have not seen any vague posts mentioning either but i don’t think either are not imp to the story, so maybe I am right? 🧐

#other than these #obviously I am dying to see all the characters interact #and alisa my dearest #i look forward to her getting a gun 🥰 #and oml the priest reveal scene #and every single philas crumb #and alsooo looking forward to the only decent parents — Silas parents #actually tbh I just need all of it #all the characters all the interactions #my blog is gonna be overtaken by fhh #i apologise(not really) #chloe gong #fhh #foul heart huntsman #oliver hong #celia lang #my fhh reaction #rosalind lang #orion hong #alisa montagova #roma montagov #juliette cai #silas wu #phoebe hong

[paisley-print]

Writing is Lonely

I love writing, but holy crap is it a lonely existence. You read books alone to develop your skill, you write a first draft alone, you edit alone, you submit your work alone. 

Other storytelling mediums ( RPG, Theater, Film / TV ) you are rarely ever alone. You constantly have creative input that fills your tank and keeps you chugging along.

I think that’s why I love fan-fiction so much, because (when) you actually get that interaction it creates a loop that literally allows you to create more frequent and better content. 

I think that’s why so many writers are leaving the practice. Why should they waste their time and talent doing all of this work for a like or kudos?

It is much easier to daydream about my WIPS then it is to write them down. It is much easier justifying hours spent alone for the possibility of payoff from an original work down the line.

Fan-fiction was always the exception to this rule, you never had to be lonely because you had people to share your experience with. Recently however, whole culture of fan-faction has taken a crazy turn. 

This shit right here,

Is genuinely spirit killing, and I’ll say at least 40% of those reblogs are me responding to nice comments someone left. 

It’s not about the quantity of the interaction its about the quality. 

Fan-fiction is not Hulu, Netflix, Youtube, Tiktok, Instagram. We are not faceless people in a writers room of ten getting paid to pump out content. We are everyday people with lives and jobs and families. Interactions matter! Interactions like reblogs, asks, and @s are literally the currency on which this medium can survive on. 

#AND TO ALL OF YOU WHO INTERACT WITH THE WORK #THANK YOU #i remember each and every one of you #I look forward to seeing your reactions to the new chapters MORE then you like reading them #Sometimes your replies and commentary on the work will literally change the future of the story #Thank you for showing up for me #I really appreciate you all

[gilliebee]

fondly remembering 2019 when I was miserable and lonely and overwhelmed by living alone for the first time in my life so I signed up for a linear algebra course at the local community college and that was the single healthiest way I've ever coped with anything in my life

#it worked too I had a great time!!! #I was working remotely and didn't even go to the stores often so it was really nice looking forward to interacting w people every week #2019 was truly my hot girl summer season SIGH #I also did a ton of not so healthy things to cope hbjkgsfdhg but nobody needs to be knowing all that

[weaselishmcdiesel]

RRAR

#guess whos unlucky ass got classes with the single person from this semester who i didnt like. again. for next semester #not a bad person. not a bad person no not at all. in fact they are very kind and friendly and inclusive. #i. do not like being included. in fact i like when people respect that i like being left alone. i love when people respect that #THIS ONE DOES NOT RESPECT THAT #remember that post i made? about how being a fujoshi is a bad thing? i made that post. because this person. used that term. at me. #i am. a gay PERON. yes i STILL LOOK VERY FEMALE YES I GET THAT NO I DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHY IM NOT A FUJOSHI OR EVEN A WOMAN #nearly every time this person interacts with me (none of them initiated by yours truly) something fucking uncomfortable happens. #and i know. i know in my heart of hearts. that theyre trying their best. but i get so tired of overly nice people i know thats my own issue #another thing i hate is fake compliments. i really hate them. i never give shallow compliments to peoples work like a LOOKS GOOD not even #i ALWAYS take the time to consume the work and think about it before i give MEANINGFUL compliments. always #many MANY TIMES this person has like passed by my computer or whatever and WITHIN SECONDS said ‟woah that looks really good!‟ #wh. n. you #you looked at it for nary a minute. id rather you said nothing at all #again. i KNOW im being dramatic you should know that i know this. i know theyre being polite and im being a baby #but. another. fucking semester. with this person #i really fucking cant #i was looking forward to the next semester because there would be new people since i didnt vibe with my class from this semester #lo and FUCKING behold. the worst person from this semester is going to be my classmate AGAIN #fuck fuck fuck i am so whiny i know i know i know i am. but FUCK dude college is stressful enough. #(... it helps that their art... doesnt look good aksjdhf but you didnt hear me say that) #weasel speaks #asks!

[makerscockandballs]

this should not be so exhausting. i should not have to act every reaction to gifts and interaction i should not have to be constantly on guard and super fun or risk a fight. family should not be this exhausting.

#havent smoked in a while but today it took a long walk and two cigs to feel like i'm real again #every year we get worse. i looked forward to this now i want it to be over #resentment seeps through in every interaction and i cannot be the only one who notices #is this just getting older or is this a family breaking apart at the fucking seams #my mother went shopping earlier without telling us beforehand. part of me expected to find her dead by suicide in her room instead. #this is not normal why am i pretending this is normal. i want to scream #tw suicide #i want my friends. i want to be alone. i want to get the fuck out of here but all of me seems tethered to this place #gonna stay up a while just to breathe #basil yells at cloud