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#and not from the artery itself which... it's not the /dangerous bad gonna kill you/ type
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#i don't know why but three days later i feel like.. .weird uneasy about my pulmonologist appointment#LIKE i felt so relieved after the appointment wednesday and now i'm second guessing it and being like.. .but am i ok doe???#bc he was like rlly lax about everything and after catscan he's certain that the increased artery pressure in my lungs is from my heart#being a little wonky and pumping back some blood the wrong way#and not from the artery itself which... it's not the /dangerous bad gonna kill you/ type#(which is what my cardio said too)#but with how both my cardiologist and gyno reacted to that echo result im like... uh hhh should i be seeing a different lung doctor#i mean i gotta go back to the lung doctor in 6 months for a repeat of the lung function and stress test to see if results are same#idk?????? like i saw my gyno in passing for a prescription refill and he had 0.0 face about that result#cuz my pulmonary pressure on my echo was 41.........and i was warned by my cardio that that's shanking borderline#and the pulmonary doctor didn't even mention SHANK like did i need to be shanked???#like id rather be shanked if it confirmed that my lungs won't make me throw a clot thank u very much multiple relatives of mine have#had strokes and they SUCK#i see him next wednesday for my 6 months checkup which... im planning to have a long discussion about my pills with him#bc he's SO weirdly protective of me bc he dealt with the fallout of my mom's stroke 30 years ago#and also was the one who sent her out for her cancer referrals (i love my family but holy shit we're cursed)#like i've been seeing him for a decade tho... so i trust him fully..... LOL#so i'll just mention this to him too... cuz also like... heart valve wonk also affects if i wanna have bio kids#(also doctor that deals with babies may know of a different gene place i can go to bc im on waitlists lol)#wow i lik....e.... kermit... this is not fair LOL...#i should just trust the lung doctor... but i will ask my hooha doctor about what the lung doctor said to be safe LOL#personal
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Plain Sight (Part 3)
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A/N: okay okay biggest sorry ever for not posting last month. Started a new position at my job and then had to deal with some miscommunication that made me believe I was gonna lose that position. Thought I had COVID twice (no matter how safe you are you are always in danger) and that threw me through a loop. Then I started college and that was a whole crazy thing, so my August was anxiety filled and very demanding. So sorry, so I will be posting twice this month to finish this part.
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PREVIOUS CHAPTER
We had Detective Martin round up all the other officers to listen to our profile. They all sat, ready with their pens and paper as Gideon began to talk.
“The Unsub brought his weapons with him. Tape, glue, wire. He did not leave them at the scene. He took them when he left. He has a kind of killing kit that he carries.” Gideon informs.
“Organized killers usually have a skilled job, likely technology related, which may involve the use of the hands. The crime scenes are far enough apart that he needs a vehicle. This will be well kept, obsessively clean, as will be his home. He’s diurnal, the attacks occurred during the day, so the vehicle may be related to his work, possibly a company car or truck.” Hotch continues.
“We believe he watches the victims for a time, learns the rhythm of the home, knows his time frame.” Derek adds on.
“You’re not gonna catch him accidentally.” Hotch says.
“He destroys symbols of wealth in the victims’ homes. He harbors envy of and hatred toward people of a higher social class.” Gideon says, walking towards the murder board.
“He feels invisible around them.”
“Class is the theme of the poem which he left at the various crime scenes. At one point in the poem, the woman attempts to bribe death, but he doesn’t accept it. He says this is the one moment when riches mean nothing. When death comes, the poor and the rich are exactly alike.” Spencer explains.
“So he’s poor.” A Detective asks.
“Probably middle class.” I answer.
“A decidedly lower class person would stick out in a highly patrolled neighborhood. This guy appears to belong there. He blends in.” Hotch elaborates.
“Why does he glue the eyes open?” Detective Martin asks.
“The Unsub is an exploitative rapist. Most rape victims close their eyes during the attack, turn their heads. For some rapists, this ruins the fantasy. For this type of rapist, the goal is more related to the victim watching him than the act itself.” Elle explains.
“He wants them to see him, he is often overlooked. The open eyes give him that satisfaction.” I add.
“The verses the staging, the aggressive language, “I am Death,” this is a guy who, while being in control at the crime scene, almost certainly feels inadequate in the rest of his life.” Hotch explains.
“That’s why he couldn’t wait for you to figure out what he’d done, why he needed to make sure all of his crimes were counted. His victims, they represent whatever it is that’s controlling him, and he wants that control back. He is under the thumb of a powerful woman who frightens him. And a final point. He is white.” Gideon clarifies.
“We have witnesses that identify him as a black male.” The same Detective argues.
“The attacker was black. He is not the Tommy Killer.” Gideon tells him.
“Mrs.Gordon’s husband came home at the same time that he always does. The Tommy Killer would’ve known that.” Hotch adds.
“And Mrs.Gordon’s attacker wore a ski mask. The Unsub knows when he walks into a house, he’s going to kill the woman who lives there. If you’re not leaving any witnesses, why wear a ski mask?” Elle asks rhetorically.
“And he wants the victim to see him anyway.” Derek adds.
“The attempted rapist is a garden variety disorganized young man.” Hotch explains.
“As the victim’s age goes up, generally, the attacker’s age goes down. Mrs.Gordon is about 60, which puts her rapist at about 20.” Elle informs.
“And it takes years to develop the level of calm and sophistication that Tommy displays at a crime scene, and the rapist is far too young for that.” Gideon says.
“Mrs.Gordon told me that there’s a young man who delivers groceries to their home. He fits a lot of what we’re describing here.” Elle adds.
“Great. So we’re back to zero on Tommy.” The Detective sighs.
“Not at all.” Hotch objects.
“May I see you in your office for a moment?”
They walk off.
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We had located Marcia’s rapist. Elle, Derek, and I were sent to go arrest him. He was walking back to get something from one of the trucks when Elle and I turned the corner.
“FBI. You’re under arrest.” Elle states, he then tries to run for it but Derek already knew he was gonna run and cut him off.
“You’re under arrest for the attempted rape of Marcia Gordon.” Derek tells him.
“What?!” He questions.
Though this was our rapist, he wasn’t out Tommy but this was the only way we were gonna get Tommy to contact us. We pull up as JJ is giving a press conference, just as planned. Morgan pulls him out while Elle and I follow through the crowd of reporters to get into the police station. Hotch meets us as we walk in and Elle tells him that he had already confessed. Our plan was moving accordingly. One bad guy off the street and so close to the other. We just had to wait. We were just waiting at this point. I was sitting across from Spencer and next to Derek, who had just angryily slammed his phone down.
“Chill, Derek. He will call.” I say calmly.
“I know Little One.” He sighs leaning back.
I knew better than to talk to him, and chose to listen to Elle and Spencer.
“God, I hate waiting like this.” She said.
“Do you think it’s weird that I knew that ballad?” He asks playing with a Rubix Cube.
“I don’t know how it is that you know half the things you know, but I’m glad you do.” She answers.
“Do you think it’s why I can’t get a date?” He asks again and my heart pangs. If only he knew how many women would kill to be with him.
“You ever ask anyone out?” She asks back.
“No.” He replies.
“That’s why you can’t get a date.” She says simply.
“I’m sure there is someone waiting for you to ask them anyway…”she winks.
What does she mean by that. Her? Does Elle like Spencer. No no no, Percy. She does not. Maybe she means JJ. God it is definitely JJ. I mean, they were totally flirting and he was checking her out at his birthday thing and ugh-
The phone rings.
“Detective Martin. Hey,hey” he says grabbing our attention.
“Line 6, Penelope. Line 6.” JJ says.
“You stupid incompetent sons of bitches! I don’t make mistakes! I am Death! You hear me?! I AM DEATH! You’ll see now. Tomorrow. Mark my words, you will see. And while I am taking her, I’m gonna be thinking of you.” Tommy shouts.
JJ asks Penny if she got anything, but sadly she got nothing. Confusion was all around. How could we miss him. We all sigh in defeat. My nerves begin to rise. He was so aggressive and his threat was so terrifying. I couldn’t breathe, luckily Spencer was there. I couldn’t really register it but I knew his hand was in mine. I breathe in and out for a bit, look at Spencer and I am okay.
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It was a very restless night for everyone. Elle and I could barely sleep so we occupied ourselves by watching whatever shitty movie was on the TV. I eventually got an hour or two of shut eye but it was all I really needed.
“We have an undercover car for each of your teams, and the entire damn department out there, too.” The Chief said.
“Remember a truck. Maybe a work truck, in excellent condition.” Gideon says.
“Everyone knows.” The Chief says.
“All right, he might make a mistake today. He’s angry, and he probably hasn’t done the kind of surveillance he’d like.” Hotch informs us. We all nod.
“Yeah, well, neither have we.” Derek adds coming up next to Spencer and I.
“Let’s go Reid, Chase.” We follow him out.
Derek drives us to our lookout spot. It was mostly quiet and I was two seconds away from sleep. I thought those couple hours were enough but the warm air and the birds singing was lulling me to sleep. At least until Derek sighs.
“It’s 10:30 already.” He says.
“All he said was tomorrow. He didn’t specify morning.” Spencer says.
“For all we know, he could strike later in the day.” I add.
“This guy’s gotta spend a lot of time in that house. A lot. He needs it to be morning.” Derek says. Spencer looks around.
“Are we sure this is a good spot?” He asks.
“Three of the victims lived within a block of this street. It’s the main artery through the neighborhood.” Derek answers.
“True, but three victims in the same block could mean he’s done with the area.” Spencer suggests.
“Or that he’s just really familiar with it.” Derek charges back.
“And comfortable in it.” Spencer adds.
“But then, on the other hand, the other victims lived more than a mile in either direction.” Derek continues.
“Right.” Spencer says.
“God,” Derek says, hitting the wheel.
“I hate not having a plan. We’re looking for a needle in a haystack here.”
“Spencer would argue a needle in a pile of needles.” I say, Spencer looks back and smiles at me. I know him so well.
“What?” Derek asks.
“A needle would stand out in a haystack.” Spencer explains making Derek laugh.
“And we’re not looking for someone who stands out?” Derek starts.
“No. We’re looking for a particular needle in a pile of needles.” Spencer further explains grabbing his binoculars.
Derek looks back at me smirking. I roll my eyes and feel my face heat up. I punch him in the arm, lightly of course, as a way to tell him to shut it. He just laughs. I rest my head on Spencer’s seat causing him to look back and smile at me. I couldn’t take my eyes off his face. He did his little smile and went back to looking out. It may very well be a long day but I was with my favorite boys so it didn’t matter.
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i know it's a lot to ask but i'm very sad at the moment and don't know how to handle it - and i have birthday on the 9th august. would it be possible to get a (vampire) one shot from you? it would be so great but i understand if that's too much to ask for. ahh its a dumb thing to ask but it would make me very happy so i wanted to try sorry!!!
    Sasuke was tired.
    Not because of the night classes—no, he was pretty well-suited to those. He’d been nocturnal for as long as he could remember. And what they were doing wasn’t particularly challenging—just some poses, and Sasuke was acquainted well enough with the human body. It was nice to look at, Sasuke thought, and he liked to spend the time to learn all the different shapes that people could be. He liked to spend the time to look at them. There wasn’t much that made him feel motivated, nowadays, and it was hard enough for him to live on the schedule he’d come to have as it was. This was the first hobby he’d managed to have since…well, it was the only one he had now.
    So—no, Sasuke wasn’t tired from class.
    He sighed again, forcing himself to move on for once. He’d spent thirty of the last forty minutes drawing and redrawing the model’s neck, over and over again. He already had a tendency to do that, and he was trying to learn not to. Everyone else had managed a full…
    “Alright, that’s it for today!”
    Crap.
    Sasuke sighed, and packed his things into his small, well-worn bag. He’d quit his job last week—or, well, they’d politely asked him to get the hell out of there once his I.D. had finally fell through. He’d very much appreciated the dim lights of the bar, especially alongside the added bonus of drunk, half-conscious people, but Sasuke had been starting to think the constant alcohol was getting to him. It tasted worse from them. Easier to get, though, and he didn’t have to hurt anyone too badly to get it, but he tended to need…more of it.
    He hadn’t liked that.
    Of course, now, he didn’t have that option as accessible. It was still there. He could still do it—still prowl the streets to look for easy targets and stifle the part of his mind that hated every second of it. It was a last resort, though, which is why he was so…
Tired. 
Tired and hungry and a little bit dizzy, and staring at a naked man’s neck for the past three hours really hadn’t helped. Go figure.
    He put his hood up and slipped through the door, keeping an eye on the ways everyone went—groups of three, four, five, six—one person there? No, a couple. Shit. 
    Sasuke leaned against the wall and pulled out his phone—which he’d naively continued to pay for, with the little money that he had, in spite of having a grand total of zero numbers to call—pretending to scroll his way through some screen or another. There were still a few students left in the class, so with just a bit of luck—
    A body breezed past him, tucking two earbuds in. Good sign. A casual jacket hung off his shoulders, left unzipped—no necklaces to watch out for, either. Sasuke watched as the man walked a few more lazy steps, staring down as his phone as if picking a song, before promptly turning down the alleyway Sasuke had had his eye on for weeks.
    Alright, then. The blond it was.
    Sasuke pushed himself off the wall and imitated his own slow, distracted walk. He turned his phone screen off as he continued to stare down at it, letting his eyes get used to the night again—it took longer when he was tired, when he was like this, and he only had about another two minutes before the two of them would be back in the public eye again—he sped up his pace. He had almost mastered getting to them before they could notice—
    “Wh—hey, the fuck are you—”
    Shit. Sasuke was sloppy and stupid and the man wrenched his shoulder from Sasuke’s grip as soon as he’d felt the heat of his skin at his lips—Sasuke grabbed at him but only caught his jacket—the man spun around with a punch that Sasuke would have dodged if not for the jacket wrenching him in—
    His nose would have bled, if he’d had enough blood left. As it was, he was dizzy and desperate and too far in to—
    The man pinned Sasuke to the wall with his forearm, keys in his other hand. And a swiss army knife? For god’s sake. Of all the—
    “Picked the wrong person to…what the hell?”
    The man flinched back. Whether it was Sasuke’s eyes or his fangs that did the trick, he didn’t know. At least he hadn’t stabbed him, though.
    Still—
    “The hell’s wrong with your eyes?” the man asked, eyes wide, brow furrowed, knife in his hand.
    “Probably the same that’s wrong with your brain, moron,” Sasuke snapped, sliding down the wall. He’d barely had the fight in him for that, and now his nose fucking hurt on top of it all. He felt slow and exhausted and fuck this—
    “Wh—you—I’m the moron?! I just kicked your ass!”
    “And you’re sticking around to find out what happens next?” Sasuke spat, pulling his hood back up. “Get out of here.”
    Sasuke closed his eyes.
    “I’m not going to turn my back so you can get another go, you know. I’m not stupid.”
    “Great,” Sasuke said, tucking his head between his legs. “Stay here forever then.”
    The pain pulsed between Sasuke’s eyes—in time with his consciousness, waving in and out. He’d been spacing out and losing his vision and—
    “Are you…okay?”
    Sasuke looked up, incredulous.
    “Are you serious?”
    “Well I’m not gonna let you die here—I’ll—there’s a hospital near here—”
    “I don’t need a hospital,” Sasuke snapped, “either kill me or leave.”
    There was a pause.
    Sasuke closed his eyes again.
    “What were you going to do to me?”
    Oh, for god’s sake.
    “What do you think, genius?” Sasuke asked, keeping his eyes closed. Maybe if he just fell asleep…
    “You—come on. There’s no way.”
    “You’re right,” Sasuke said. “There’s no way. So you should leave before the unhinged lunatic wakes up again.”
    “…Is the unhinged lunatic going to wake up again if I leave?”
    Sasuke opened his eyes only to glare.
    “Your eyes are back to normal,” said the blond, knife still in his hand.
    “And yet your brain remains firmly rooted in insanity. Leave me alone.”
    “I’m serious,” the blond said, stepping forwards—and Sasuke flinched back, hitting his head to the wall, as the knife moved closer, “I—oh, shit, no, I’m not gonna—I mean I—”
    The man’s mouth opened and closed, as if trying to decide whether to appease Sasuke’s delicate sensibilities, or continue to defend himself from an obvious threat.
    “You know I attacked you, right?”
    The blond continued to watch him.
    “You don’t look too happy about it.”
    Sasuke rolled his eyes.
    “Yes,” he drawled. “It ended rather differently than intended.”
    The man’s head inclined to the side, as if he was scanning Sasuke for something—
    “I would have expected you to run,” he said, “after I—y’know—pulled a knife on you and all that.”
    Sasuke didn’t reply.
    “You can’t run, can you?”
    Sasuke didn’t reply.
    “Can you even stand?”
    “Are you getting off on this?” Sasuke snapped, the wave of anger making him feel even more light-headed than before. “Leave.”
    The man crouched in front of him. Sasuke flinched back.
    “Hey,” he said, reaching out an empty hand. “Make your eyes do the thing again.”
    Sasuke stared at him. The man’s wrist came closer. And he could hear the blood humming under his skin, feel the heat of it, he—
    “You don’t know what you’re doing,” he said quickly, desperately—
    “Hey,” said the guy, “they do glow. Cool.”
    “You’re insane,” Sasuke breathed.
    “I’ve still got a knife and I’m not gonna let you die. I save your life and you won’t turn me into one, yeah?”
    “I have no idea how to even do—are you—” Sasuke stared at him, “are you serious?”
    The man waved his wrist in front of his face—Sasuke snatched it out of the air before he even had another thought.
    “Ooh, fangs too—wh—o-oh…”
    Finally. Finally. Sasuke nearly collapsed with relief—he fell forwards, clutching the wrist to his mouth, groaning into the warmth—god, he’d been so—
    “Okay—that’s—that’s enough. That’s—”
    Sasuke let out a small half-strangled noise as the wrist pulled itself away. As the man pulled his wrist away, fuck, it was like he lost it in moments like this—
    “That’s—I mean, uh, was that enough…?”
    The haze in Sasuke’s mind slowly, slowly cleared.
    “I…” he said, staring up into the blue eyes he hadn’t even noticed before—and the marks, on his cheeks, oh— “oh. You’re the one who’s always in class.” 
    The blond pulled back.
    “Wh—yeah, ‘cause my dad owns the place—that’s the thanks I get for saving your life?”
    The man waved his wrist in the air and stared Sasuke down expectantly. 
    The corner of Sasuke’s lip twitched.
    “…Thanks,” he said finally. 
    “That’s better. S’weird though,” he said, bringing his hand back to him, “it didn’t hurt at all. I barely felt anything.”
    Sasuke let out a breath, feeling the weight in his body slowly, slowly draining out of him. He hadn’t felt that bad since he’d woken up.
    “That’s the general idea,” he said quietly. At least, he thought it was. He hadn’t gotten good enough to pick the arteries from the veins, but he’d at least minimized his impact as much as possible…when he wasn’t entirely desperate. “You should go.”
    “Hm?”
    “You’re going to be light-headed for a while. Go make it home.”
    “Oh—well—yeah, I’ve donated blood before, I know that. Are you gonna be—?”
    Sasuke snorted and shoved himself off the filthy (and wet, ugh, he hadn’t noticed it had been wet) floor.
    “I’m fine,” he said, giving the blond a challenging look. In debt or not, Sasuke was dangerous. Surely the man knew that.
    “Hey—can I see your teeth again?”
    What the hell—
    “You have the self-preservation of an opossum in the middle of a road.”
   The man laughed and moved closer.
   “Yeah, I’m a real dumbass—my friends tell me all the time. Open your mouth—lemmie see.”
   He moved closer, and—
   “Oi—you—” Sasuke said, flinching back, “get your hands out of my mouth—”
   “Ooh, they are kinda sharper, aren’t they? Not as much as when you bit me, but—”
   “They will be in a second if you don’t stop shoving your fingers at them—”
   That did the trick, and Sasuke stared him down with a significantly sharper gaze. Just because he was satiated didn’t mean he was full, and this idiot was waving himself in front of him like a—
   “Oh,” the man said, staring at him as if— “you’re scared you’re actually going to hurt me.”
   “Wave a steak in front of a rabid dog and see how it ends for you.”
   The man’s head tilted to the side, watching him with eyes that seemed too serious for that smile—
   “You don’t seem too rabid to me.”
   “I just,” Sasuke started, speaking slowly as if explaining something to a small child, “drank your blood. As food. With my mouth. I attacked you about two minutes prior to—”
   “And you let me win. You could’ve bit me anywhere—I only punched you once and you backed off.”
   “I wasn’t thinking straight.”
   “Yeah, you were,” the man said, “you were making sure you didn’t hurt me. You didn’t want to do it unless you knew I’d survive.”
   Sasuke glared at him. Fine. Fine, yes, he was utterly terrified one day that he’d completely lose himself, and he’d spent more than a few hours in a night making sure every person he knocked down could get back up again—
   “Fine,” Sasuke said, clenching his teeth together. “You’re right. Are you going to let me go, now?”
   “What am I, holding you hostage? You can go any time.”
   “You had a knife.”
“Still do, actually,” the man said, flicking it into his hand only to fold it away, “so don’t try anything, vampire.”
   Sasuke rolled his eyes.
   “Hey,” said the blond, “wanna help me find the headphones you so rudely ripped out of my ears?”
   He stuck the keychain into his pocket and shot Sasuke a wide, innocent grin. Sasuke sighed, but let his eyes flicker to life again, just for a moment—
   “They’re over there.” Sasuke nodded at them.
   “Aw, fuck that’s cool,” the man said, trotting over to unabashedly grab at the disgusting floor. “What else can you do? You got like—super speed or something? Do you age? Wh—I feel like we would’ve noticed if you had no reflection in class—”
   “That’s only a thing if the mirror is laced with silver, idiot.”
   The man’s mouth made a small ‘o’ shape. Sasuke’s lips twitched again.
   “And, uh, if it is?”
   “I don’t know,” Sasuke said. “I’ve never found one where I know that’s the case.”
   “Huh,” he said, “don’t you guys have like—a coven or some shit to teach you this stuff?”
   Sasuke’s good mood faltered. (He hadn’t known he was in one.)
   “None of your business. I’m leaving.”
   Sasuke turned on his heel, walking back the way he’d come. He’d be fine for at least a few days, now—and he really needed to find a new job before he was kicked back the gym membership he’d called rent—
   “See you next week, vampire!”
   Sasuke flipped him off.
    And he’d have to find a new hobby.
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