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#anyways. i now am trying to eat breakfast. very unsuccessfully bc i am not eating currently.
pizzapizzadickz
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#why was i upset again???
#diary
#personal
#i had like a meltdown last night. and i sorta just sat there sobbing for like an hour. then i went to bed.
#when i woke up i was just like
#anyways. i now am trying to eat breakfast. very unsuccessfully bc i am not eating currently.
#id like porridge. but we dont have the one i like rn. so i have to settle for something else. its taken me 40 mins to decide
#anyways now i have to MAKE the porridge. and im so burnt out from the meltdown its like. not gonna go well :/
#like. ur telling me that while i feel like utter shit i gotta be around people????? and stand at the stove for GOD knows how long????
#im gonna make the quickest porridge i can but still its not my day
#i rly hope i dont have another meltdown today. bc im already like primed and raring to go for another.
#god i hate them so much tho. bc i gotta be quiet i dont want anyone to hear me crying.
#and like. honestly i generally get super agitated and lose my mind for a while. so like. if i was alone id probably be super loud n shit.
#theyre very painful tho. internally that is. probably in part bc of how much i need to be quiet
#cuz like. since i cant cry loudly. i just hold my breath! like!!! i probably sound like im hyperventilating!!!!
#and honestly!!!! i have before!!!!! soley bc i cant breath enough when crying.
#yeah. but you really can only cry for so long. so generally i eventually get tired and fall asleep.
#or my mind sorta blanks out on me and i decide fuck it time to sleep.
#so yeah. idk. meltdowns are very painful. its been a while since ive gotten that bad tbh?
#whats more hilarious is i was perfectly fine until i tried to sleep. well. i wouldnt say perfectly i was stressed n tired
#but nothing to indicate i was gonna meltdown or shutdown. i probably just got so overwhelmed that it sorta broke on me
#and like. before i was in bed i had a task to complete so i had to focus on that and not how im feeling. so yeah.
#idk. ill try to take care of myself today. but theres not much to be done. im gonna feel like shit for a while.
#of course unless i get high or something. id feel a lot better instantly bc it sorta erasses the rough edges on things for me
#so rather than feeling like my skin is pricked up and on edge (like i do now). id probably be just focused on food or vids
#idk. its weird. and im tired. imma go eat.
#drugs tw
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