#because i am conflicting. and stupid

[divinelydevoted]

I wonder what sort of yandere I am, I'm so specific about my kind of love

perhaps I'm actually more of a tsundere if anything, in a way. I'll project my love as if I'm not the one in love, they are, and I'll play hard to get because I'm not interested obviously <3

but I'm also a stalker, I'll find out everything I can, I'll personally deliver anonymous love letters to your house

and well, I may not display it, but I'm clingy and want alllll yourrrr attention, all of it, you can spend time with others but I better be at the top in the end 🥰

#mine #yancore #yanderecore #tsundere #yandere thoughts #yandere community #oh my god i can't believe this is how i actually acted towards my last crush (obsession is a better word honestly) #and never thought 'hey why don't you ask her out like a normal person' #but like...NO #i don't want a RELATIONSHIP #i want to lovingly and anonymously stalk someone from afar #while being delusional about the fact that i even like them at all #and even more insane thinking they MUST love me so so so bad and THEY'RE OBSESSED WITH ME #but actually dating...? get real #even if she asked me out I think i'd have actually said no 😭😭 #and then sought out her company anyways #because i am conflicting. and stupid

[ratcandy]

getting into actual angry arguments: awful. terrible. going to be thinking about it for the rest of the day. leaves me seething about what I could have said differently for the rest of my life.

getting into friendly debates: ohhhhhh enrichmennce.. :) mine brain is so full and thinking..........yippie yaaaaaay!!!!!!

#dichotomy of ME!!! love arguing but also i hate arguing. #aka i got into an angry argument today because my normally conflict-avoidant self had her foot metaphorically stomped on too many times #and i decided i was fed up and stood up for myself #like .why bold face lie to me like that i'll kill you. and a lie that directly fucks me over? who do u think i am #Sorry I'm still seething about it clearly SHDGKLJSDHG it was like. 7 hours ago and I'm still ranting to myself about it #anyway. URHGHHH sorry for venting real life stuff on here I try not to do that #but I GOTTA be mad somewhere about this stupid argument it's currently PLAGUING me #self doubt demon in my brain whispering horrid deceptions. Die 1 million deaths. ok i'm done now. #clamtalk

[menstits]

Still thinking about the anon from yesterday and the more i think about it the more mad i get like you're insane for calling kaeya mid i hope you blow up. Bitching in the tags ft arguments my smart sexy boyfriend brought up yesterday while we were talking about this so credit where credit is due

#🗨️ #LIKE. #kaeya-diluc brotherly issues are interesting because kaeya is by far the most interesting character in the game sorry #like. genuinely i wanna know what they meant by the two of them having a “trope that's been handled better by other media” #because their deal is not just ougj brothers fighting #it's specifically about kaeya being adopted and about his conflict with belonging to a nation and a community and a family #and his loyalty to his duty and his birth family vs his loyalty to the city and family who took him #the only thing i could think of that has handled similar themes better is the untamed but that's literally a show based on a novel #so i feel like comparing them is a bit unfair #like ofc i know there's sibling drama out there 🙄 but that's not why kaeya brotherly issues are interesting #there's his dynamic with diluc his dynamic with crepus AND diluc's dynamic with crepus too #other than kaeya' #s whole thing with his birth father #idk. kaeya haters need to die a thousand deaths #i am Not articulate enough rn I'm still dying from back pain but you get me. you agree. if you don't you can fall over snd exlode #like there's a specific power dynamic at play in regards to the adopted child survivor of a fallen nation being rejected for that fact by #his adopted brother. on the night of their father's death. like yes i know diluc is stupid yes i know they still love each other as brother #even if their relationship is tense i know it's set up for eventual reconciliation #but just kaeya's whole deal IS about family. in general. #a bunch of characters' deals are about family in general like i could start listing them and it wouldn't end it's just like kaeyaaaaa #kaeya. is the guy of all time

[aziraphale-protection-squad]

right. so. i'm taking the angel and i'm wrapping him in a soft blanket and i'm telling him that NO ONE has the right to touch him without his consent.

no matter how well they know each other and got along previously.

or how angsty the person feels about possibly never seeing him again.

or how much Aziraphale might even possibly WANT to be intimate with that person on some level, someday, when they're okay again.

there are no ways around this:

if he's not READY for it, or if he's not in the MOOD for a kiss, then NO ONE SHOULD BE KISSING HIM. PERIOD.

#pretty sure this is not a controversial statement but the things i've seen some folks say today has been. um. #disheartening to say the least and alarming at worst. #please fucking tell me i'm not the only one who knows assault when they see it even if they find both characters attractive. #like. holy fuck. i love(d) crowley too but what the fuck. #how is THIS being overlooked while Aziraphale is taking all the blame for how shit went down in the finale. #~ooh they finally kissed!!!!!~ ugh but STUPID ANGLE!!! >:( doesn't he know how sexy and emotional crowley is??? he should ENJOY this!!!! #<- some of y'all's apparent attitude and it Concerns me deeply. #call it what it fucking is even if it sucks. it was a violation. period. it's 2023 we don't tolerate Blurred Lines bullshit here. #goddamnit this was my safe fandom and now i'm like. y'all scare me tbh. #i hate fandom drama but the way the majority have elected to ignore a literal assault so they can UWU Sad Demon Puppy their blorbo is just. #what is this? spn??? #he was my blorbo too but holy fuck i have lines. i have boundaries. and he crossed them when he crossed Aziraphale's. #if u think u know who this is no u don't #i am conflict avoidant leaf me alone lol #i just need to know that i'm not the only person here who um. respects boundaries and consent and all that. because y'all got me Concerned. #like. i wanna rant about this in my fandom friend groups but they're all UWU CROWLEY DESERVED BETTER so um. i no longer feel safe there tbh #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers #go spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers

[musical-chick-13]

Fandom be normal about bi women challenge (impossible. apparently.)

#look. I too am tired of (white) men getting praised for the bare minimum #but you all do realize that sometimes women do genuinely fall in love with men right #that women are capable of making their own decisions about who they date right #this is one of the reasons that I hate the 'genuinely I hate every single individual man' rhetoric #because so many times it goes hand in hand with this infantilization of women who are attracted to men #it's like 'oh these poor girls trapped in their attraction to men' and then like...treating them as if they are incapable of making informe #choices? like they're just inherently doomed to gravitate toward awful men because they Don't Know Any Better and are #Brainwashed By Society??? please tell me you understand why treating women as if they are too stupid to make their own decisions #is just misogyny again. you understand that right. RIGHT. #'why would you CHOOSE to date a man instead of doing the RESPONSIBLE and PROGRESSIVE and REVOLUTIONARY thing and date a woman!' #because sometimes. women fall in love with men. you can't. you can't will love into existence. you can't control who you fall in love with. #and people-if it's feasible-tend to want to commit to someone they have actual feelings for. what's not clicking here. #(and yes obviously this is a niche-queer-spaces-specific problem people don't have discourse about this in this way irl like the #general population isn't telling me I should only ever be attracted to women and date one solely For The Cause they don't want me #to be interested in women at all. that doesn't stop me from being annoyed every time I see said niche-space-specific ''''take'''') #it's especially confusing to me when BISEXUAL PEOPLE are like this about other bisexual people. like you of all people. should know #how maligned we are from multiple conflicting angles #In the Vents #biphobia #like I know I talk SO much about women and how I want to marry one but that genuinely is just because historically I have been more #attracted to women than men. if I meet a man I click with and fall in love with then hell yeah I'm gonna date him and be happy about it. #I'm not opposed to that outcome at all. but heaven forbid I ever say that lmao

[hylianengineer]

I mostly like living with other people but if they don't stop stealing my food I will explode.

The worst part is that no one will admit to it, but there are only so many people who have access to our fridge. We've also had stuff mysteriously appear in there that no one will admit to putting there. I almost wonder if my roommate's friends she invites over sometimes are to blame, because surely she wouldn't lie to me about this? And she doesn't have much of a motive to lie about who the moldy tupperware belongs to, considering we've all made that mistake and no one gets mad about it.

I'd just really like my food to stop disappearing, okay? It's always the good, expensive food too. Regular food thievery is bad enough, but stealing food from someone with food restrictions who A) can't easily get more and B) has to pay three times as much for food as everyone else? Really fucking uncool.

Yes, I know the mature responsible thing to do about this is have an actual conversation with my roommate. But I'm not going to do that, I'm going to continue quietly seething.

#two years ago food was disappearing FROM MY ROOM and I was so fucking baffled #there was a time i wondered if i ate it in my sleep because what the fuck? #but i am rather convinced I did not. tis the food thief. #at least that stopped happening?! still mad though #food tw #i kind of have some food-defensive aggression. like a dog. because my food is hard to get! i can't eat normal things! #leave my allergy friendly food ALONE! #go eat your stupid gluten containing stuff instead. and i better not hear any nonsense about how my food is gross. #if it's gross why is someone fucking stealing it #however my roommate is moving to new york this summer so i guess i only have to tolerate it a couple more months #unless the new roommate (presuming the landlord finds one) is worse #vent post #hylian rambles #look don't be me okay have adult conversations about your problems #but also i cannot hold it against you if you don't cause that shit's hard #i'm a conflict avoidant person and i need to fix that but i don't have spoons for it at the moment #it's finals week! #grrrr

[birdmenmanga]

some kind of moodboard

@birdmenanime @kitsoa

#just thinking thoughts... #sorry. the phrase 'bird mom loves you both' was so fucking evocative #and then once I started drawing it turned out I had a lot of feelings about this #if either of you want me to take this down let me know #yeah so I've been sitting on that edit of the conversation between takayama and karasuma for ages. like 4 months. #but at that time ghost was still on hiatus I think and also we weren't that close. so it didn't feel right to show it. but it existed. #my mental image of ghostpun is actually largely just that chibi takayama actually #but like that would cause confusion. so i used your discord pfp. your goat person is really nice to draw actually #as for kitsoa. it's supposed to be your fox from tumblr. but I also really associate you with sora(?)'s silhouette so. #it's that. and then hair that COULD be fox ears if you so desired. the ponytail is the tail... the shape is more or less the same. #fistfighting on top of a ferris wheel is a reference to detective conan movie 20: darkest nightmare #it's just so stupid and ridiculous it's my go-to for ludicrous conflicts #yeah anyways onto the actual subject. #to ghost: sorry about this. generally when it comes to fandoms I read most text posts and nod my head thoughtfully and sip my drink #but I guess because I have more cohesive and coherent thoughts about this series in particular I'm less good at just nodding my head #I don't think there's been a single time where we've said something that made the other person go 'YEAH' #like it's always '......well...............' #some nights I wonder whether we read the same series or not. and I feel like you probably feel this way sometimes too #sorry for being so pedantic. I am really not trying to pick a fight with you I promise. #yeah I have no clue what I want to say actually #we go to the same church for worship and like what are we gonna do??? stop going??? fuck no #I don't hate you. I respect you. still trying my damnest to like you. we're still working on that last one #like look I want to be besties so bad but I feel like we just have a boatload of ideological differences to work through #so I guess. what I'm trying to say is. here's to being insane together for the next few years. cheers! #(additional apology for the brutal honesty. I'm not good at white lies.) #to kitsoa: uh. sorry about. This. I don't even know if you were aware we had a rivalry (???) going on #Uh I wish I didn't stir up trouble in your house (bm fandom) but I'm stubborn. for better or for worse. sorry... #I am going to be careful to keep discussions respectful etc. etc. so as not to cultivate a toxic workplace or whatever. prommy. #(but you have to admit. this is kind of funny) <- guy addicted to doing things for the bit #yeah that's all. I can't do anything in a normal way but I hope you guys can understand somewhat.

[supercantaloupe]

if i had a nickel for every time i fell in love with a musical drama in large part concerned with the idea that good music can be so powerful it can literally change the world i would have two nickels

#this is about hadestown and die zauberflote #(rent doesn't count because its ending is stupid lmao) #anyway i think thats definitely one reason why i am falling for zauberflote like i am #shock and surprise the music guy likes stories where music is important to resolving the story conflict... #but also like. that's part of What It's About as well as just having really good music in and of itself as a drama #which you Know i love #anyway. should i ever get to writing smth zauberflote related (and. might.) expect that to be the theme i focus on the most lol #i think another fun thing abt zauberflote is. Because it's such a mess you can pull like ten different things from it #as being the Thing It's About. and i do like interpretive freedom! #sasha speaks

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm just sitting here mentally telling myself 'I don't have to like him just because I find him attractive, I don't have to like him just because he's hot, I don't have to like him just because I like the character' over and over until I start to believe it

#every single time I love a character I also start to love the actor. sometimes that sucks. I don't want to. I want to pretend he doesn't #exist #but he's got the same face and the same body and the same voice and I just. how do I not do this. #I don't like him. I don't want to like him. he's at the very least kinda gross about women. which I'm not okay with. so. just. ugggh #it's just that I look at him and my mind shuts off and it's like 😍🥰😍 #rationally I know that's also fine. I'm allowed to like people who aren't perfect (and no one is perfect anyway) #buuut. it makes me feel disgusting. #idk. I guess I just. i dealt with this for so long when I was younger because like. most of the men I thought were hot were also #misogynistic. because the culture at the time was so much worse. and it was just accepted. #and I fucking hated it and I don't want to deal with that anymore #it's just. idk. it feels gross and bad and I don't like it #but. I do find him extremely attractive and I want him so so bad and I don't know what to do with that #ugh I need to just. not be attracted to people. it happens so rarely but when it does it only causes trouble. #or maybe I need to get over these weird morality standards that I have but I don't think that's possible? like how would that work? I don't #get it. #anyway. yes this is about Eliot/CK no I won't elaborate on that and also I hope he's actually a great guy and everything I've seen #that made me think otherwise is just wrong #I will still stare at his face and think about him and listen to his stupid gross music all day. and I will enjoy it. but I will also #feel conflicted about it 😔 #(but damn it he is hot and his arms are big and I am just a human being and I am very very weak 😫 big arms make me fucking stupid)

[sysig]

I really should clean up that KoiBo essay I started, I got like 3k words deep and it was all just mushy rambling about how much I love Souichi

#Koisuru Boukun #I really do love Souichi he's such a fascinating character study #I guess like half of that is also about Morinaga - he's also really interesting but I'm a lot more clinical about him lol #With Morinaga I'm like ''Ah yes his trauma stems from xyz and presents as abc and thus efg happens'' #Whereas with Souichi I'm just like ''Ahhhhhhhhhhh he loves his family so much and he's so stupid but so smart fjdkslafj'' lol #Like there IS analysis in there! I'm particularly fascinated by his perception of nuance in others and himself and how that grows over time #Even just in Challengers - hell /especially/ in Challengers they're already such well fleshed out characters #I consider KoiBo to basically be a soft reboot and some of the decisions are uhhhhhhh questionable #But other than the glaring one they're mostly logically consistent with what Challengers set up and just fjdsklajfldf #They're honestly such interesting characters!! #They're also codependent lol definitely had no impact on my tastes in literature going forward #What's the line I have buried somewhere in the file uhh #If I had a nickel for every time I got fixated on a guy who goes around wearing long coats with lapels has round glasses long hair an... #Interesting personality and whose story centrally focuses on trauma and queer themes in the 90s I'd have two nickels #Which isn't a lot but it's weird that it's happened twice #I am also fully open to more recommendations of that particular niche if anyone has some because lbrh - they are few and far between #JFKlsfd every time I think about KoiBo I'm just like ''I wish this was written this way on purpose'' lol #It can be cracked open into some of the best writing I've seen about learning to love yourself as an ace person! #But it super does not feel like it was written with that intention!! Agh my conflictions lol #Well that's also part of the charm lol I trend towards forgiveness for things that I love that much #I still always feel like I'm making excuses for liking it as much as I do tho lol ahh......the self consciousness of loving something lol

[arthur-r]

tonight is my last night sleeping in my bed. possibly for the rest of my life. and my last time in my room possibly for the rest of my life. and i want to just get a good night’s sleep to be ready for a long day tomorrow but it’s really not working out like that.

#my family is still up in the air maybe selling this house within the next month #in which case i will never be in this room ever again. otherwise i will be back for the holidays so there’s still a month of this bedroom #if we sell the house in the spring instead (only rational option there’s no way we can empty it in time) #especially since i will not be in this house whatsoever until after that sell date. my mom all by herself can’t empty it all #anyway i’m struggling a bit. saying goodbye to my home of 14 years???? #i’ve been through a lot in this place and most of it is bad memories but like. every good memory i have is from here too…. #and everyone i know irl is staying local i’m the only one who’s leaving. one irl friend is going to the same school as me but we had a fight #within the past month and i don’t think we’re ever going to recover because she just kind of never treated me like a person #so i’m starting from scratch and it’s really.. like fuck i want to get out of here but i’m also not at all ready to actually leave #i’m just going to miss all the stupid little things so much. even my online memories are tied to this place #like the woods down the street where my deer friends live and the ditch i fell into back in the day and all the places i’ve gotten lost #and they’ll be right here waiting for me and i’m SO excited for college i am but why does it have to feel so sudden???? #i dont know how anyone does it.. and all my friends are going to colleges in their hometown so i don’t even have anyone to compare with #i found out today that if we keep the house through the winter my mom is planning on using my room as a guest room and office. and of course #that makes sense and everything but now i have the most crushing guilt for not cleaning it up well enough. i thought it would be okay and #i’d just have to deal with it when i come back and i didn’t know she wanted to use it and she’s going to box up all of my things without me #and i feel guilty that i didn’t do that and i feel scared and upset because it’s my things and my room i don’t want it to change #i’m just really anxious and sad and scared and i don’t know what to do. school is going to be good but none of this feels real or normal #and i just feel sick and scared and i don’t know what to do. waking up at 8am and leaving at 9am and moving in at 2pm and that will be it #my mom and sister are staying for a couple days and that will be good i hope. i dont know i feel so conflicted about everything #and i’m tired and sick and angry and overwhelmed and i just want to take a week off and come back alive again #and i guess that’s what i’m about to do.. after i move in there’s eight days before college starts and all i’ll be doing is moving in #(and welcome week activities. and a lot of sleeping. but hopefully i’m gonna get a rollator through a loan program and that will help a lot) #anyway here’s what’s going on. i’m going to maybe try to sleep i guess. but if anyone has advice or encouragement about moving to college.. #now is the time i really need it. it’s just so strange and conflicted and everyone i know has been telling me i just need to get out of here #and myself included i really want to get out of here. but how can i start anew when everyone i’ve loved is shattered. and what have you #think i have to listen to that song for long enough to remember how badly i want to leave…. #i’m just really not feeling well. i’m angry that i never got to have the childhood i deserved #because now i’m leaving and that means it’s officially over…. i’m just really not feeling well. i think i’m running out of tags…. #i hope you all are well. i’ll be around in the morning maybe.. i’m not sure. hope everyone has a good night

[that-guy-morg]

When the fanfiction hits SO HARD that you start making fan content FOR the fanfiction (ft. my little fella Stutters)

Spoilers below for “The Torrid Affiar of Kack Jelly and Kosher Dave From Manhattan” by @waitingformy-fanfiction​

Jack: I can’t believe I cheated on Davey...

Stutters: Uh...

Stutters: Ssss-- Sucks to suck???

#I swear to god Stutters knows how to comfort people #He just thinks the conflict in question is stupid and could have been easily avoided #He feels sympathy for Jack #But also Literally why would you do that??? #Thank god for clip studio assets #Did everyone see me draw that couch because I am NOT doing it again #Sometimes when I read fanfics I think about what my OCs would do in that situation #cause its fun #I would say I am gonna draw more #but that is a stone cold lie #Jack Kelly #Newsies #Livesies #The Torrid Affair of Kack Jelly and Kosher Dave from Manhattan #newsies oc #oc #original character

[depresseddepot]

in today's installment of "I have personal conversations with my parents once a year" I learned that I was a twin and may possibly have chimerism

#lol. lmao even #i am 21 years old and I'm just now hearing about this because I brought up chimera cats to my mom #the twin thing is fucking WILD to me #the medical implications of chimerism make sense honestly given the sort of medical issues i already have but. a TWIN #she said she was bleeding a little so its more likely she just miscarried the other one and not me #but. is it super dramatic of me to say that i feel sort of like ive lost something lol #like. what gender was it. what was its name. it was too early to have those things but. man a fucking TWIN #this is stupid because I HAVE a brother and we would still have been raised in the same household under the same circumstances #so like. its 100% possible they would have grown up into a person I greatly dislike like how I am w my actual sibling #but. shit lol. a fucking twin. #I never in a million years would have thought that #I would have thought chimerism was more likely over a TWIN #what if. do you think if i had kids i would have fucking twins. are you kidding #im very conflicted about this lol it feels like a fun fact but i am in fact on the verge of tears #it almost feels fake. like what do you mean i was a twin #would I still have been the oldest? did i kill it? did i absorb it? #im going to try really hard to not psychoanalyze this because separated/missing twin psychology seems like psuedoscience at best #but im actually kind of upset about this lol #i had such a hard time socializing as a kid and you're telling me i almost had a sibling i could have learned from? #would they have had autism too? would we have understood each other the way only two neurodivergent people can? #its nobody's fault obviously but if i had someone that HAD to like me between the ages of 0-10 i would be such a different person #if i had a twin in high school people would have known who i was. i wouldn't have been the kid who people barely remembered #there were 2 sets of twins in my graduating class and everyone knew their names. you could say ''the twins'' and they knew them #frankly that sounds awful but like. fuck man i would have developed socially so much easier #i dont feel like im missing someone i feel sort of like i AM them. lmao #my mom did say specifically ''you're a chimera! it was twins and then i started bleeding a little and my next ultrasound it was just you'' #so i COULD have chimerism but it also could have just been like vanishing twin syndrome #but i dont think ill be able to tell unless i take a dna test?? fucking christ lol add that to the list of shit i have to do #man. im gonna have to think about this for a long time lmao #miscarriage tw

[blujayonthewing]

the problem with Felix is that he's schrodinger's OC, he's just trapped in this stupid limbo, I COULD develop him out more but I don't want to get carried away outside of canon but is there ever even gonna BE a canon

#I have the same problem with Ambrose who I think is a REALLY interesting character #but he's juuust integrated enough with the dm's homebrew world that I can't like... just go on my own with him #I mean I could but I don't want it to conflict with what may come up because the campaign isn't OFFICIALLY canceled #and Felix... I've played.... three times.... the last of those times was in february....... #I wanna explore him THROUGH roleplay like that's the bit that's fun for me! that's what I'm into ttrpg for!! #me and one of my friends decided our PCs would start already friends #and there's stuff I'd like to explore with their relationship but it's all like-- well I'd prefer to do that organically #in game and in character #but that's feeling increasingly stupid!! what the fuck am I denying myself for at this point!! #I'm sorry I keep reiterating this same rant it's just. so frustrating. trapped in this stasis where I can't enjoy my own OCs #because doing my own thing feels like it might muddle things for a campaign that's probably not even worth holding my breath for #about me #my OCs

[somelazyassartist]

.

#i know I've been venting a lot recently and I'm really sorry but i am. so stressed out with my job right now #for multiple reasons and it sucks so bad #and it just got worse a bit and so I'm conflicted with what I'm supposed to do #because i WANTED to give myself a later deadline so i can take the Etsy stuff slower #because you know!! already stressed about that and tons of other stuff!! #but now i feel like i have to push my deadline up even further than it was before because of some stupid bullshit #pardon my language. it's not anybody's fault. it was two cases of website malfunctions. #I'm not ranting about the people working at either place because they weren't in control of it I'm just kinda mad about the issues itself #cuz i made a bunch of stuff for the Shoppes right?? but it turns out! #there was an issue in the system which meant they couldn't sell anything and nobody thought to tell me until i asked why my stuff wasn't up #and so that's like. 3 cloaks‚ 8 hats‚ and 4 plushies that i could've sold on Etsy a month ago that just never were up for sale #and today at Joann's i had a few issues with mechanical based issues too! #so i went there to get more supplies because if the shop isn't selling i need more stock to sell online to make up for it right? #so i put in half my order for pick-up and was going to get the rest while i was there because i had coupons for both #soooo. the other things i was going to get there were said to be on sale. and then i find out there #that the website hadn't updated right and the sale was cancelled early. so i paid way more than i thought i was going to #and! since the website wasn't updating right! the order i put in for pick up didn't show up in their system until too late in the day! #so i have to go BACK to pick up the half of my order i already paid for and didn't get today #and again since the website didn't update some of the things that it said were in stock sold out in this store so i have to get them online #which is another bit of money I'll have to spend to finish the projects i got fabric for today #i know worrying and stressing isn't going to do me any good #i know that i should probably just sleep this off (if I'm able to) and sort things out tomorrow when I'm feeling better #but it's just kinda upsetting already having a lot of other personal issues i don't want to talk about publicly to deal with #and then having issues with my job and only way of making money on top of it #i know it's a small stupid thing to be upset about #but it's like a needle in a haystack but if the haystack was also all needles #sure i can fix that problem-needle but i hurt myself on every other little problem-needle i have to dig through #it's just so many little things and it all just has been wearing me down. and i know it'll be fine eventually but it still sucks right now #vent #again I'm sorry for venting so much i just kinda have to get this one thing I'm comfortable talking about off my chest

[girderednerve]

i strive at all times to be the most annoying guy in the room & i flatter myself that i succeed

#time to try to hassle my friends into reading 'social conflict & the grain supply' again #this is because i updated my stupid podfic & as far as i can tell it has been Cruelly Ignored (i am being melodramatic) #irredeemable whining