#but at the same time walking on smooth powdery cement makes me flinch wince and walk on the sides of my feet????

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Something tells me it’s not normal to want to use the top of your hand and your fingers as a chew toy

#And I know I know I have chewelry and ideally I should be using it instead of my hands #But chewelry is not connected to my nervous system #I should get one of those circular wire brush sanding things the next time I go to a hardware store… I always rub my thumb on them #or like a steel wool sponge would be good too I think… something metallic and abrasive #to gently scrub my hands and feet with #or crush in my hand so I can feel the spikiness of it #idk I remember freaking my friends out because I’d play with a pair of folding scissors like Seward and his scalpel #by placing the web of skin between my thumb and forefinger between the blades and gently “sawing” it #It was completely absentminded and I wasn’t stressed out… I’d do it in a relaxed state (if there is such a thing with me) #And I accidentally sliced myself between the fingers (and on the tongue) multiple times before but did that stop me? Absolutely fucking not #because I’m an idiot #I never wear shoes when I have to pull weeds out of the lava rocks in front of the house because I like the feeling of being stabbed #I guess #but at the same time walking on smooth powdery cement makes me flinch wince and walk on the sides of my feet????