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24hlevi · 1 year

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Ahhh that ballerina headcanons with bachira made my heart flutter >.< i do ballet myself and i’ve been feeling down about my performances as i feel like i’m not enough :( may i request for comfort scenario or HCs with Bachira? thank youuu <333

ah im so glad you enjoyed the ballerina hcs i didnt really know much about the dance genre so it was fun to learn about and such :)

thank you for requesting this!

— 𝐈 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮, 𝐒𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲

Bachira Meguru (Blue Lock) X Gn!Reader

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: Comforting hcs + a scenario w/ bachira

if bachira were to ever find you upset in even the slightest, he is immediately by your side to try and cheer you up in every way possible

literally, he would try everything in existence just so you would feel better, even if it made him look stupid because the only thing he wants is for you to always be happy, and he will do anything to keep it that way

he would first buy you food, whatever it is you like that comes from a convenience store and isn't an actual meal and he's got it covered, he doesn't mind spending his money on you, plus he always gets big enough portions of food that you both can eat it

then he would try putting on a movie or tv show that he knows you really like, he somehow remembers which episodes are your favorites so he always puts those on to surprise you, a different show each time

if watching something doesn't help, then bachira would suggest you two just eat and go out somewhere afterward that might make you cheer up somehow

he is a very good listener so if all you want is to talk then he is completely okay with it, he has no problem with it

he will only do whatever you say you're okay with, which he always does, but especially when you're upset in some sort of way

and if nothing else worked he would just lie down with you and just cuddle until you feel better or fall asleep, whichever comes first it doesn't matter much to him

he would constantly be repeating how much he loves you and that nothing will change how he views you even if you were to do something so drastic people would usually hate someone for it because he just loves you so much

he would totally give you his clothes to wear while you're upset, especially his jackets and hoodies, he claims they look better on you than him

the moment bachira found out you were upset about something just by a simple text, he quickly abandoned his practice and rushed over to your house, well, not before getting something to eat for the two of you first, he always had to get food when he went over to your place. he knocked on the front door and immediately smiled brightly when you opened the door, "y/n!" but soon after seeing your expression, the smile dropped from his face, "oh, you're more upset than i thought, then," he mumbled under his breath. "i got food, though!" he said, holding up the two grocery bags he had in his hands that he got from the convenience store down the street from your place.

"thanks," you replied, taking the bags from his hands and opening the door wider, and starting to walk back to your room with bachira quickly following after you, closing the front door behind him. once making it to your bedroom, you sat back down on your bed and took the contents out of the bags and placing the food and drinks beside you but with enough space for bachira to sit down too.

"so," bachira started as he sat down next to you, "do you wanna watch a movie?" he asked, situating who had what food and drink before looking at you.

all you did was shrug in response, not feeling in the mood for watching something. bachira nodded silently, opening his drink and taking a sip from it, and then speaking, "is there anything you want to do, then?"

"i don't know," you answered, "can we just eat for now?"

"yeah, that's totally cool with me," bachira nodded again, starting to eat. after a few minutes of eating quietly, bachira spoke again, "so, do you wanna talk about it?"

"it's nothing really, just school stuff," you responded to him, looking up for a second to see him before back down at your food. "i did really bad on the test for math and it dropped my grade a lot."

bachira looked at you confused for a second, and then his face lit up as he pointed at you, "oh! you mean the one we did last week? you wanna know what i got on it? a 58," he laughed.

a short laugh came from you as well upon hearing his grade results, and you looked at him again, "well i didn't do that bad, at least," you said. "i don't know how you get grades like that."

"well, i don't really study now that i think about it," he said, putting his fingers on his chin as if he were thinking hard about something, "but you know, not everyone is great at every single subject! we all have our different strengths in which we are better in, like english over science or something. one bad grade isn't going to be like, the end of the world! it's just one out of like, i don't know like 50 different assignments and tests! so i think it'll all be perfectly fine!" he grinned at the end.

looking at him long for a few seconds, you then nodded, "yeah, i guess you're right."

bachira's already wide grin somehow grew even wider and he reached over the food and hugged you, "yay! does that mean you're happy again?!"

"yes, i'm happy again," you chuckled, hugging him back.

"good! because i love you! and it hurts me to see you upset in any way, so i'm glad you're happy again!" bachira told you, then proceeding to kiss your cheek.

"i love you too, meguru."

#blue lock #bllk #blue lock x reader #bllk x reader #blue lock scenarios #bllk scenarios #blue lock hc #blue lock headcanons #bllk hc #bllk headcanons #bachira meguru #bachira meguru x reader #bachira x reader #bachira scenarios #bachira hcs #bachira headcanons #request

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sincerely-sofie · 17 days

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still cant get over travailshipping. i remember when you first tested the waters with it (which i believe was some time before the tpiag chapters started coming out?) and at first i thought it was pretty funny. ark slowly but surely falling headfirst for twig, who if she had a tagline it would be "if i could turn my feelings into weapons, mine would be a goddamn nuclear bomb", and her at first just being oblivious to it and thinking that the letters that expressed love and care that were written in cursive in her mailbox were just funny and she wanted to show them to ark with the guy just looking at her with the most "well that backfired in the weirdest way possible". but when tpiag finally ended i finally connected the dots as to why these two are just. augh. i wont go into detail here in your askbox but i wanna know is: HOW DID YOU DO IT. HOW DO YOU KEEP MAKING SUCH GOOD IDEAS FOR THE FUNNY DIGITAL ANIMALS. TELL ME.

(thinking to myself) "Ugh I should stop posting so much travailshipping stuff... It's probably so annoying to everyone who sees it. I feel bad for my poor followers. I'll check my inbox real quick and then commit to shaking up my content by—" *gets obliterated by your niceness*

Oh man. I remember posting that poll where I hesitantly described a possible Darkrai/Twig pairing in the tags while proposing Twig/Kip as an alternative route, despite it not being the direction I wanted to take the characters, because I was so scared of what people’s reactions might be. If I remember right, I posted it a little bit before I had just barely reached 5k words in the first draft of TPiaG.

I've been trying to write up detailed responses to how I come up with good ideas for travailshipping in particular, but there's one rule I use that defines everything after it and speaks for all of them: I have fun with the characters.

That's it. That's the rule. If I don't want to write a subject, I don't. I stick with what I find enjoyable and resonant. Does a joke make me laugh? Does a scene make me cry? Does a villain make me punch a hole in my wall? Does a cute gesture make me squeal? If so, then into the project it goes. I think people can feel when someone is having fun with their work, and that fun radiates out into their own experience consuming that work. It's like laughter— joy is something we're sharing with others as long as we feel it. Fun is contagious.

Also: when you don't force yourself to make things you hate, you attract people who like the same things as you. These people will find your work even more fun— because not only did you have fun making it, they're having double fun consuming it.

An important tangent I'll go off on is that I think that every creative project idea is a good idea. There's so many beloved bizarro ideas in the world, even the ones who try to be cool about how weird their premises are. There's this weird show where the main character works as a service industry worker in an underwater setting that's ruled by a Roman deity— he lives in a piece of fruit, and his pet gastropod makes cat noises. This show sounds like word salad garbage on paper and could be tossed out for its nonsensical nature, and yet SpongeBob SquarePants has made Nickelodeon over $13 billion dollars and is a treasured part of many childhoods. There's also a character who spends his time locked in intellectual and physical combat with a wannabe clown and wears a costume with bat ears while doing it. Batman's been an icon for over 80 years.

All of this is to say:

Ideas are always good ideas by virtue of existing. They don't derive their goodness from external sources. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Make more of what you love. Don't make things you hate making.

If you have fun while making the thing, people will have fun while they consume the thing's content.

I hope this makes sense. I didn't touch on idea generation as much as embracing existing ideas. Fingers crossed that was the right response. I'd just woken up from a nap as I was writing it, so hopefully it's not too meandering and managed to answer the question and—

— Oh shoot. Was that a hypothetical question??? Uh. Sorry if I went off on this rant when you were just trying to voice your niceness. Oops. 🫥

#also: feel free to go into detail in my inbox 👀#i am always happy to hear people's thoughts on my blorbos #creativity tip #creativity advice #writing tip #writing #creativity tips #swear warning #creativity tips with sofie #(kinda)#sofie answers asks

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nalgenewhore · 1 year

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here and now

elide x lorcan, modern au/gym au, NSFW, word count: 2689 an: if u need a visual aid to imagine lorcan, think winston duke. this is dedicated to @sassyhobbits.

Elide woke up slowly, an hour or so after her boyfriend had left for the gym. She stared at the ceiling of their bedroom for a while. Their bed was so comfortable, and Elide felt perfectly content to bask under the covers, her head cradled by soft pillows.

Slowly, she dragged herself out of bed. The cool air hit the bareness of her legs and arms, so Elide grabbed Lorcan’s hoodie where he’d tossed it over the armchair. She donned it while she stumbled out of the room. Today, she decided, would be an easy day. After she’d made breakfast, she’d sit down to finish the next chapter of her book to get it to her editor, Aelin. It was raining outside, and she knew that it was meant to continue all day. Idly, she thought about making something comforting and homey for dinner.

After she set an album to play, Elide moved slowly through her morning routine. She fixed her tea first, then munched on a thick slice of bread slathered in fresh, salty butter. Lorcan would be at his gym for an hour or so more, unless he stayed later to deal with the business aspect of it.

Elide smiled a bit while she got cream and sugar for her tea – today was going to be a good day. She felt it when Lorcan had kissed her good-bye, briefly waking her up.

The music paused abruptly. From their bedroom, Elide heard her phone ringing incessantly. She doubled back, grabbing it from the nightstand. Lorcan’s contact flashed over the screen, and she swiped her thumb over the button. “Hi, baby,” she said.

“Hey,” he replied, sounding tense. “Can you come to the gym and bring me some pants? I had an… accident.”

Her eyes widened, “Oh, shi—” she laughed a bit, covering her mouth with her hand. “I meant, oh no.” Elide heard him scoff. “Do you, um, is it just pants? Not underwear too?”

“Hellas, ‘lide, I did not shit or piss myself,” he said lowly. “Can you please just get over here? Now?”

Elide shoved the rest of her bread in her mouth, her voice muffled, “Yeah, I’ll be there soon, baby.”

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Fifteen minutes later, Elide walked past the front gates. She smiled briefly at Borte, the resident yogi-slash-capoeira instructor who was manning the front desk. Normally, Elide would stop to chat, but she didn’t have any time today. Elide hurried to the back, where Lorcan’s office was. He’d drawn the shades. On the door, there was a sign that indicated he wasn’t to be disturbed, supposedly because he was in a meeting.

She knocked lightly, “Lorcan? I’m here.” She covertly glanced side to side, then continued, “I brought the stuff.”

“Door’s open.”

Elide let herself in, immediately shutting and locking the door behind her.

Lorcan sat behind his desk, sporting a stoney, intimidating expression. It was intimidating to anyone who wasn’t Elide. She arched her brow, “You wanna tell me what happened?”

He rolled his eyes, “It’s embarrassing.”

Elide approached him and rounded the desk to lean against it. Immediately, her eyes dropped to his lap. He wasn’t wearing anything except for his boxers. She eyed him curiously.

Lorcan scrubbed his eyes, “I split my shorts.”

She laughed a bit, “What?”

His eyes shut in resentment. “I was doing squats,” Lorcan said in a clipped voice, “and they- the seams split, Elide. They just broke.” He gestured to a rumpled pile of fabric.

Elide gawked, her eyes falling back to his thick thighs. “So… your thighs are too thick for your shorts? Is that what you’re saying?”

Lorcan worked his jaw. “Yes.”

She gasped a bit, her heart thumping. “Hellas below,” she whispered.

A red blush dusted the tops of his cheeks. “Yeah, I um,” he rubbed the back of his neck, “outgrew ‘em, I guess.”

Elide sucked in her bottom lip. Her heart rate sped up. Holy gods. Obviously, she knew her boyfriend was big, but splitting his shorts because of a couple squats was a whole other level of big. And hot. It was hot. She set her bag down, inching closer to him.

He looked at the bag, completely oblivious to her intrigue. “Are my pants in there?”

“Mm-hmm,” Elide hummed. She moved so she was seated on the desk, her legs dangling on either side of his. Her eyes slowly roved over him, eating him up. She ran her hands up his arms and over his shoulders. Gods, even his t-shirt was straining slightly to contain him. Elide wanted it gone. She wanted to smooth her hands all over his magnificent mass and dig her fingers into the meat of him. “And they’re completely ruined, your shorts?”

Lorcan sighed. His frustration was evident, blinding him to her growing desire. “Yeah. My ass was practically out.”

Elide clicked her tongue. She poured fake sympathy into her honeyed tone, “Oh, big guy, I’m sorry.” She leaned down, kissing the edge of his stubbled jaw.

“I really fuckin’ liked those shorts, they don’t make ‘em anymore!”

She moved her hand to the back of his neck and gently scratched his skin with her long nails. “Anything I can do to make it better?”

“I dunno, I guess buy me a new pair of shorts?”

Elide laughed softly before kissing him gently. “Anything else?”

Lorcan paused. He cupped the side of her head, briefly deepening the kiss. “What d’ya mean ‘anything else’?”

She dragged her hand down his chest, “Mmm, you know…” Elide pressed her lips against his jaw again, marking a path down to the collar of his t-shirt. His breath hitched as she traced her tongue over his collarbone, then nipped at his amber skin. “I wanna make you feel good.”

He grasped the sides of her head and tugged her up to claim her lips. “What’s this for?”

“You,” she breathed, finally breaking and letting herself rest one of her hands on his thick thigh, “broke your shorts.”

“‘m not this upset about it,” Lorcan murmured.

Elide shook her head, leaning her forehead against his and breaking the kiss. “No, you’re- you’re not listening.” She inhaled deeply, “Your thick thighs ruined your shorts, and that is not embarrassing, it’s the hottest thing you’ve ever done.”

Realisation flashed through his eyes, and his full lips curled into a cocky smirk. “Shoulda known you didn’t wanna be here for me in my time of need, you just want my body,” Lorcan teased.

“Shut up,” she breathed just before their lips crashed together. They kissed hungrily, hands beginning to roam. Elide pressed her legs together when she felt heat spread through her centre.

Lorcan lifted her off the desk to place her in his lap, the chair miraculously big enough for the both of them. She wrapped her arms around his head while she sucked his bottom lip into her mouth, caressing it with her tongue before she let go.

Her boyfriend moaned a bit. He angled her head as he licked into her mouth filthily.

Elide slowly ground herself against his thigh. One of Lorcan’s hands moved to her waist, big enough to cover her side and half her back. He aided her into a rhythm to ride the thick muscle. Lorcan dragged his lips over her cheek. “That’s it,” he said in her ear, his teeth teasing her earlobe. “Take what you need.”

She moaned, maybe it was his name. Elide held him tighter, wanting more and more. Her desperation was understood and mirrored as he dragged both of his hands down her back. Lorcan pushed them past the waistband of her leggings to grab her ass. She tilted her head up as she moved her hips, her breath caught in her throat.

Lorcan sucked on her skin, the sounds of his pleasure vibrating through her throat. “C’mon, sweetheart,” he encouraged her.

Her generous breasts pushed against him while she moved, rocking back and forth on his thigh.

“Baby,” she gasped.

He pushed her shirt up, forcing her arms to lift over her head while he rid her of her clothing.

Elide was eternally grateful for her decision to forgo a bra that morning. The cold air of his office made her nipples pebble, and she gasped again when his big, warm hands cupped her breast. Lorcan circled his thumb over the peak. He leaned down, flicking his tongue over her nipple. She bit her bottom lip, muffling her moan. Elide wound her fingers in his hair to keep his head where it was.

She ground against him harder, a wondrous pleasure blossoming at the apex of her thighs.

His other hand gripped her ass momentarily before he cupped her other breast, pushing them up and together. Lorcan looked up at her before he took both nipples in his mouth simultaneously, pulling them with his teeth, flicking his tongue over them as Elide shuddered. She softly cried his name, her head completely tilted up. She rocked against him with added urgency.

Lorcan wanted to be inside her, he wanted to watch her break apart above him.

Her fingers tightened in his hair as she rode him fast, and Lorcan pulled away from her chest to watch her shatter. Fuck, she was beautiful. Elide thought he was magnificent, but she’d clearly never seen herself the way he did.

Her hand migrated to his stomach as she unconsciously leaned away from him and rocked through the remnants of her orgasm.

He followed her, running his hands down her back as he pressed kisses against her shoulder.

Elide hummed, her eyes fluttering open. She looked down at him just as he looked up, and they surged forward, her need for him hardly satiated.

Lorcan gripped her thigh tightly and stood up. He dropped her on the edge of his desk, moving his arm behind her to shove papers and files aside. He didn’t care where they landed.

She grasped the sides of his head, hungrily kissing him as she reclined. Elide reached to the hem of his shirt. They parted only long enough to rid him of his top. She ran her hands over his shoulders, smiling as he bent to kiss her. “You’re amazing,” she murmured.

“You’re perfect,” he replied. He bit her bottom lip, the edge of his teeth triggering a new frenzy.

They tore at the remainder of each other’s clothes. Elide lifted her hips to help Lorcan rid her of her leggings, and he flung them aside. Her panties were gone in moments. He stroked his fingers through her slick, spreading her wetness around.

Elide moaned as his fingers slid over her clit. He grinned against her mouth before curling his fingers inside her cunt. She arched her back, her nails digging into his skin. Lorcan pumped his fingers in and out to drive her to the point of desperation.

It didn’t take long for her to clench around him, her hands clutching at him. “Lor,” Elide whined, “please, baby. I want you.”

“You have me,” Lorcan promised. “You have all of me.”

She smiled briefly, but it faded in the face of her need. Blush crept over her chest and throat; Lorcan loved making her skin flush like that. “You know what I want,” Elide bit out.

“Use your words,” he told her. “Tell me what you want.” He stroked his fingers over that spot inside of her to make her mind fuzzy.

Elide panted, her thighs attempting to shut, but Lorcan pushed them apart. She slid her hands up his neck, pulling him back to kiss him deeply, their tongues slicking together. “I want your cock inside me, right here, right now,” Elide whispered.

Lorcan tugged her up to sit as he pulled his fingers out of her. Her cunt clenched around the absence, and Elide shuddered a bit. She helped him push his boxers down. Elide’s hand wrapped around him, slowly pumping him until pearls of pre-cum leaked from his swollen head.

They kissed, Lorcan’s breathing growing heavier. He pushed her hand away, the line of his jaw locked. “If you don’t stop doing that, this is gonna be a whole lot shorter than we want,” Lorcan warned her.

Her wicked grin drove him crazy. “Go on, then.” He laid her out, stretched across his desk. Elide cocked her brow while she raised her arms above her head to grip the edge of the desk.

Lorcan chuckled darkly. He ran his hand down her body, the touch brazen and possessive. He guided himself between her legs, relishing in the way her breath hitched when he dragged the tip of his dick over her clit. Elide shuddered and tilted her head back, “Oh… baby…”

Unceremoniously, Lorcan sunk into her, cupping her hips to drive her down as well. Elide turned her head and bit her own bicep, her eyes shutting. He thrusted his cock into her, lazily. It felt thick and warm, his pace, like golden honey. She tried to breathe through her nose, her teeth digging into her lip. Elide couldn’t handle it, she wanted him to speed up, anything more than this tortuous pace.

He pulled her legs up, holding them tightly against his sides. Elide’s back bowed, and she cried out. Lorcan covered her mouth with his hand, his eyes holding a little warning that was overwhelmed by the lust and awe. He pushed into her until their pelvises were flush. Elide whimpered as he ground against her clit, her hands clutching his forearm. “That’s it,” Lorcan murmured. “Just let me fuck you.”

Elide wailed against his palm, giving herself over to the feeling. Her eyes squeezed shut as his pace became harder and his thrusts deeper, somehow. Lorcan used the flexibility of her hips to push her legs back, letting him fuck her deeper.

She started to unravel, fluttering around him while the blush travelled lower. Elide bit his hand when her orgasm crashed over her like a wave, dragging her under and tossing her up. She moaned low and loud, and he fucked her through it, prolonging her climax until his hips stuttered.

Lorcan’s teeth sunk into his lip in an attempt to contain himself. The pressure erupted from the base of his spine as he finished deep inside of her, holding her hips tightly against him. He collapsed over her, panting into the skin of her neck, no space between them.

Her hands rubbed circles over his back while they caught their breath. When Lorcan felt some coordination returning to his sluggish body, he eased out of her. Elide stayed where she was while he found a cloth to clean between her legs.

Lorcan offered her his hand after she sat up, rubbing the back of her head. His other hand covered hers, and he kissed her gently. “How’s your head?”

Elide grinned, nipping at his lip. “I’ve never had any complaints.”

He just shook his head at her horrible joke, and they slowly got their clothes. Elide looked at him as he pulled his new, non-ruined pants. She wound her arms around his waist, resting her chin on his sternum. “So,” she sighed, “do I get you for the rest of the day, or do I have to wait till tonight?”

“Mmm, ‘m coming now, all yours.”

She smiled happily. “Good.”

Elide fixed her hair while Lorcan gathered his belongings, including the torn shorts. He joined her and draped his arm across her shoulders. “The sex was nice an’ all, but I’m still out a pair of shorts.”

She pinched his side, laughing, “How ungrateful.” Elide put his shorts in her bag and declared, “If I’m getting you new shorts, I have a request.”

“Lay it on me.”

“I will buy you new shorts every three months, but you have to break a pair for each pair that I buy.”

Lorcan laughed loudly, his head tipped back. His body shook gently, and she poked her tongue in her cheek, chuckling alongside him. “You serious?”

Elide nodded, “That’s the deal.”

He leaned down to kiss her. “It’s a deal, then.”

She grinned, utterly satisfied.

She knew today was going to be a good day.

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an: sooo i lied when i said i wrote my once-a-year sex scene. its a holiday miracle enjoy u filthy animals ! i have finally seen the light n realised that lorcan is a cut man he does not have washboard abs......hes just buff.

tag list (lmk if u want to be added !): @sassyhobbits @empress-ofbloodshed @celestialams @the-regal-warrior @icecream52 @elentiyawhitethorn

#elorcan #elide x lorcan #elide lochan #lorcan salvaterre #nalgenewhore #isa writes #just gonna leave this here.

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brandnewhuman · 8 months

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Hey I was wondering if you could do a slasher match up, it’s cool if not!

I’m a ✨fluffy✨ 5’5 gender-fluid person. I usually wear baby comfy clothes and usually have my hair down. I love to draw both traditional and digital. I love horror even though with my active imagination end up terrifying myself. I am an introvert but I have my extrovert moments. I usually keep to myself, but with people I trust I will spend hours talking or just vibing. I hate when people touch me unless either 1. I initiate touch. Or 2. I tell them that they are allowed to touch me. If anyone touches me that I don’t know or like, I have accidentally broken a few bones. I like to stay in my room most days and spend hours either reading, drawing, watching movies, or resting with mountain of plushies. I like to talk a lot but I have a social battery that when empty I will become aggressive. I am fairly strong due to having to help out on my families farm. I like fall more than the other season and Halloween is my favorite holiday. I also tend to have a people pleaser complex and tend to worry about others, but also somehow speak brutally honest.

I paired you up with...

♡ Rz Michael Myers ♡

♪IT'S CUFFING SEASOOON♪ big boy here is your perfect match, bro is quite literally all you need ARGUE WITH THE WALL

WHY HE'S THE BEST MATCH?:

For starters, i think we can all agree on the massive size kink we all collectively have in the slasher community and this man? BIG, HUGE EVEN. BRO IS BUILT LIKE A MF TREE.

Like you, he opens up only to people he truly loves and trusts so I think he would appreciate this personality trait of yours cause it makes him feel special to know you feel this nice around him, that you open up and start being more yourself when he's with you. Loves the stay at home activities and you can bet he's gonna do DIY projects and artsy stuff with you CAUSE OUR MAN HERE IS WHAT? TALENTED AND CREATIVE, EXACTLY.

Ngl, if he finds out you get a bit scared of horror movies because you overthink about them, he would fuck around and spook you from time to time but just for shits and giggles, never too seriously. Bro doesn't have a single ounce of respect inside his body.

Physical touch is difficult for him too, and because of how you are about it I think he would be perfect for you. He needs someone who won't make him feel guilty if he doesn't feel like being physically affectionate and stuff but at the same time he needs to be able to feel comfortable enough to know he can ask for it and try to be more affectionate without the person taking advantage of him. Weirdly enough, boundaries help him regulate himself on how to express his love for people cause he has never had anyone teaching him these things so he needs to be guided a little bit.

Speaking of social battery thing, his has never been charged lmao THIS MAN IS SO DONE WITH HUMANITY FR. But for you? He's sitting there and listening to every single word you might say. And you may think he's not gonna pay attention and end up forgetting everything BUT YOU'RE WRONG. He proves he listens with small gestures; if you talk about certain food things you like, you'll find them in the house the next day. If you tell him about a movie, he puts it on the TV when you're watching stuff with him the night after. If you talk about someone bothering you, they're gone. Which is a problem cause half of the fucking town will start to disappear since he takes even the smallest thing that might've annoyed you very seriously, BRO IS NOT PLAYING GAMES.. HE WILL KILL BITCHES FOR YOU. and in general too, but that's not the point. Also he loves to just hang out in silence around you if you don't wanna talk, and if you want alone time he's gonna take the opportunity and go do his own thing. This type of freedom and having the choice to finally do whatever he wants without being forced to do anything else is really refreshing for him.

As soon as you say Halloween is your fav Holliday he's gonna be like "you can't handle the uber instincts of my uber autism" AND GOES CRAZY FR FR. He makes you a Halloween mask, he sits with you to watch old horror movies, makes you buy candy or steals it for the both of you. Obviously he's gonna go and do some killz and all that jazz, BUT MOSTLY HE'S GONNA SPEND THE WHOLE DAY WITH YOU.

Overall he matches really well with your creative and chill personality, he feels safer with someone who's not overwhelmingly clingy and loving but still shows affection and stuff.

WELL, THAT'S ALL FOLKS. I HOPE YOU LIKED IT AND I KNOW ITS A BIT SHITTY BUT THATS BC I HAVEN'T DONE THIS IN A WHILE.

Song that matches the vibe:

#slasher fandom #slasher community #slashers #slasher x reader #slasher matchups #rz michael myers #rz halloween #michael myers #horror movies #halloween #halloween movie

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aswho1estuff · 1 year

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How to: lose a guy in 10 ways

4. Chanel #2 like ..perfume

Plot: Since Carmen saw Rodrick he had her full attention, unfortunately for her she wasn’t alone his attention was caught too. Unrequited love to the second power I guess if you can’t beat ‘em join so she did “ I’ll help you”.

Summary: diary entry/ rodrick wants to meet me

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Rodrick pov

“Okay so how we gonna do it” “Michael that was a stupid question” I say picking up a fry “you have no plan I see, well I would talk to someone close to her” mashing my eyebrows “close…you mean her friend?, alright” smiling I hit him.

I throw away my trey trying to catch up with her friend “hey, hey, hey” shit what’s her name “Chanel number ..2?” she turns around scowling “fuck you say”.

Carmen pov

“Something bad is bout to happen to me”

Rodrick? Fuck I fix my expression “please don’t call me that” i reply curtly “oh yeah sorry about that” he rubs his neck cute no Carmen just no “not to be mean but was there anything you wanted” I raise my eyebrow probably my best friend huh“ well can you meet me after school it’s somewhat important please” he practically begs gosh “alright, see you then” turning back I resume walking to class.

“I don’t know it but I feel it coming”

“Okay start on those sketches have fun” the teacher states ending her discussion. Picking up my pencil I contemplated I’ll just fill it with things I like cheese yes, flowers yes, green yes, tails from sonic yea, baseball players and their outfits yes and definitely yes. Top 5 of the most fashionable sports wear.

“…hey can I sit here” a head of blond hair pops into my frame “sure” I nod at him fuck I hope I wasn't talking to myself.

Looking over I see him take glances at my sketch looking at him now I think that’s Mickey he’s totally involved in the school and stuff which is cool he’s quite cute “nice choice to grow it” I think nodding.

“Oh thank you” fuck I said that out loud I turn straight ahead “no problem” I pretend to draw maybe it’ll workout the embarrassment. “Can I ask you something?” I nod.

Mikey pov

“Might be sad”

“Do you play baseball?” I ask smoothing my hair over “oh..I don’t play but I like the sport” she reply’s low looking at me “nice what’s your team?” Pretty brown eyes filled with surprise and …sadness?.

“Might leave my nose running”

“I prefer not to pick sides, you know” bashful is a cute expression on her, it would rival the dwarf. Smiling “yeah I definitely understand, we have a team you should tryout” tryout or just come to see me either is nice “oh thank you I’ll think about it” never been declined so cutely.

“Just hope she don’t wanna leave”

Carmen pov

“Don’t you give me up”

“Hey your here” rodrick reply’s from leaning on the doorway “yes, what did you need?” looking at him “well I’d prefer we talk about business in here shall we” I nod walking into class watching him close the door.

Sitting down he follows suit I stare at him blankly he couldn’t be more obvious “well your friend Chanel I would like to get to know her” “and I’m guessing you want my help” she has liked the look recently who am I to cockblock right.

He could be a contender but “what do I get out of this” ..man I gotta stop thinking out loud “well you scratch my back I scratch yours..I’ll help you with your crush, who is it?”.

“Something bad is bout to happen to me”

“I can’t just tell you things like that gosh” panicked I scramble for words “I wouldn’t snitch promise” rodrick reply’s showing his pinkie I slowly raise mine to meet his ….they’re soft almost like I imagined, so soft I begin to lose my will closing my eyes “I-”.

“I just don’t want her to leave”

The door opens revealing Mikey I pull away from rodrick shocked gripping my chest “ sorry about that yall” Mikey let’s out grabbing his bag waving me and rodrick return it.

“Mister class president nice choice” rodrick throws out “what?” I ask fixing myself “I didn’t know he’d be your type but it’s obvious seeing your reaction”.

“Only you darling only you babe”

why was I so nervous, was it because I like rodrick or because I don’t want anyone to see me like him like this, talking with rodrick only on the basis of Chanel.

“Only you darling”

Love, is it always such a bitter pill to swallow

“Let bad thoughts linger for far too long”

“I’ll help you but don’t think I’m just gonna pimp out my friend alright”

“Alright and I’ll help you”

“…yeah”

Masterlist

<-{3. Chanel ..like …the brand}

{5. Carmen like San Diego ik}->

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loveephia · 10 months

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📍日本

OK,, SO STORYTIME (aka,, 2nd hand anime goods i found today ^^).

i was going to nipponbashi to find the snow miku nendoroid (now knowing the cost is DEADLY), but i looked inside almost eVERY SINGLE SHOP THERE, AND NONE OF THEM HAD HER. EVEN ANIMATE, THE BIGGEST ANIME BRANCH IN JAPAN (which was what my friend told me :p).

but i looked around surugaya shop on ota road, and found HER:

AN ICHIKA NAKANO FIGURE SOLD AT 2.4K YEN WEARING THE PRETTIEST, PASTEL-EST KIMONO E V E R. i literally couldn't believe that she was being sold for THAT price. i saw an itsuki nakano figure wearing the same themed outfit, but ichika just looked cuter in my opinion (plus, itsuki was being sold for 3.1k yen, so no thank you :p).

i don't plan on displaying ichika because one, i don't have anywhere to put her (like a glass case or shelf). and two, i prefer playing with her like little girls do with their barbie dolls. i'm going to make her cups of fake tea, set up a doll house, and buy a pink lambo. HAH !!! i will definitely be careful doing so, though.

next up, i bought:

A YOTSUBA NAKANO PLUSH. (*^▽^)/★*☆♪

there was actually a miku nakano one too right next to her, but yotsuba's cheerful expression won me over (and the fact that i generally just like her hair color more LOL).

m'gonna bring her around the airport and give her some airplane food so that she's well fed. :3

can't forget the smallest plush sold at a severely uNREASONABLE price:

A BABY KITASHIN KEYCHAIN !!!!

i already dangled him onto my bag, and he's going to smile at everyone in japan all the way back to my home country.

extra stuff that i wanna mention:

- the surugaya shop also sold some adorable toge inumaki stuff that i wanted to take home, but i think the three things above are more than enough. ^^

- i was going to get my brother a zoro plush since zoro is one of his favorite all-time characters, but it cost 2K YEN. brother, i love you, i just don't have enough for you. 😞

- like zoro, his other favorite characters are quite popular (ex. sasuke, vegeta, unohana), so their merchandise were pricey too. i asked our father if any character from "demon slayer" (his favorite anime) reminded him of my brother, and he said "the boar" (translation: inosuke). so i laughed while trying to find some inosuke merch. eventually, i found a little plush of him in makeup, and i was so ready to buy it because i had a feeling my brother would've laughed at seeing the thing, but the price was at a wHOPPING 1.5K YEN.

- i got a few gacha capsules for myself since my family and i spotted this little gacha machine pop-up in our train station, and i spent 800 yen on this beauty:

a plastic wedding nino nakano figure !!!! y'know, at first i was a bit irritated with the fact that when i opened the capsule, only the upper half of her torso was there, so i thought that i had to spend another 800 yen for her dress. then i realized her dress was actually the gacha capsule itself, which was really cool and convenient :D!!

bro, i had a BALL going around to shop (thank you dearly, oh mother and father, for the allowance which i wisely spent /hj) because the last time i went to japan, i only got sanrio plushies and not actual anime stuff. fueee. ( ´△｀) . . .

#today was genuinely so fun #even though my feet are aching.#if you were curious #kitashin costed 1.4k yen 🥹#which is so funny #because yotsuba being a lot bigger and more detailed #costed 1.5k yen 😭#to be totally frank #i don't really like quintessential quintuplets that much #but the color scheme of the show is so pleasing to the eye #that i couldn't help myself but get some merch ^^#I DON'T RECOMMEND WATCHING IT THOUGH.#the fanservice is so unneeded 😞

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leatherforhell · 8 months

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Things I Like About Myself, addressed to a Mr. Hobart Brown (@arachstar)

look at my hair isn’t it gorgeous

my eyes are dark brown which is so the best color

I have MULTIPLE ear piercings so I have OPTIONS which means I can have a goth earring a cute earring AND a seasonal earring. all at the same time. I’m a genius

I am so smart actually that should be its own point

I’m also hilarious. no one appreciates my humor enough

speaking of kissing I am an excellent kisser

Have you seen my tattoo?? gorgeous. designed it myself. can you believe

you have never in your life met anybody as good at menial chores as I am

I’m also great with kids. except for the swearing. but other than that I am so good

I have an excellent fashion sense

Actually my fashion sense is so impeccable that I can change styles every day and still look cute. have you ever seen me wearing the same outfit twice?? no you haven’t

I may not be good at cooking but I am good at finding food in a pinch, no one’s ever gonna be hungry around me

I also make the best fast food combos. stuff you’ve never even thought off. back to the genius thing

I do ALL THE JOBS and I do them ALL THE TIME!! construction? that’s me! janitorial? also me!! plumbing, electrical, tech?? damn I’m on a roll

did you know I can make a perfect circle without a stencil

I’m also good at juggling

dogs love me. actually all animals love me but like… dogs though

I might be bad at strategy games but I am a killer at fps

haha. killer. I am also good at puns

I have good taste in friends 🥰 nudge nudge

and also everything else tbh but especially music. hint hint

I’ve never once broken a bone despite all the dangerous Gotham bullshit. do you understand how impressive that is

Oh I didn’t even think about it because I never do my makeup but I’m great at that too. go me

I’m very expressive, which is great, because I live in the gloom capital of the world

I smell nice. or like, my soap smells nice. but I feel like it counts because I’m deliberately trying to smell nice

sometimes I can scare people just by using my I’m Not Mad I’m Just Disappointed face, which is always fun

I’m very good at shenanigans. you wanna do a hijink, I’m there

I have watched the pride and prejudice bbc miniseries in its entirety no less than eight times because I am Good Person and Jason wants to so I do it

I’m friends with some of the rogue gallery even though they are, infamously I would say, hard to get along with

I tip well

I’m bisexual

I’m very high energy

I am an EXCELLENT thief. literally how could anyone do better than ‘just teleport the thing to where I am.’ catwoman has nothin on me

I’m very good under pressure

I fall asleep and then STAY asleep, which is probably not a great one to list but I’m very glad I do it because I would be a monster if I didn’t sleep well

I’m a fast texter. speed demon

as I said I’m not a good cook but I CAN make some mean tortillas. there’s an old lady in one of the apartment buildings I work on that was determined to make me learn how to cook one singular thing and that was the best we got

oh shit I speak so many languages! how did it take this long to mention that! I’m like a god damn universal translator!

I’m very good with names AND faces

automatic designated driver and very good at it. nobody’s getting lost in an alley around me I’m keeping a close eye 👀

I’m a good dancer too! I used to be able to do pointe but I might break an ankle if I tried it now. but I’m still a good dancer in other styles

like did you know I can salsa. so sexy of me fr

I also know how to ice skate

and bowl! I’m so good at bowling!

I was a pretty cute kid, too. I wish I had pictures. I’ve only got one and it’s from a Photo Booth at the mall

my powers are really cool, actually. I can bend metal with my brain. that’s fucking cool

I know the subway and bus schedules by heart

oh and I can teleport! not just stuff but I can teleport ME

I am also the person picking up all those leftover batarangs and whatnot. and putting them in neat and orderly piles. and then returning them to the Batmobile. in case anybody was wondering.

I picked a pretty badass name if I do say so myself

I can do a back flip. fuck you thats 51 I’m so fucking good at this. bite me

#PLEASE GOD LET THE READ MORE WORK I AM BEGGING #IF IT DOESNT WORK IM SO SORRY #also nobody is gonna read this whole thing I’m sure so #tl;dr: despite all the ego clara manages to to mentions her main positive trait which her propensity for kindness #and the way she takes care of and loves the people around her #BC SOMEHOW!!! SHE IS CONVINCED SHE IS NOT A GOOD PERSON #idk why I said ‘somehow’ I know exactly how I literally made her #ooc.#ic.#BOTH???? SOMEHOW #arachstar

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justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms · 6 months

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HIIII I see that u hv a match up goin on and Id like to try! Would u mind doing one for me with Obey Me?

Pronouns : She/they

Sexuality: Im not sure exactly??... still discovering but I know that I like both sexes

Infp 4w5 / Cancer sun Taurus moon n Scorpio rising (I saw some doing not just the sun sign so i think it would be fun if i include all 3 lol)

Appearance: Im South East Asian. Around 5'2. I hv shoulder length black hair, black eyes and olive toned skin. My hairstyle is akin to the jellyfish hair. I rarely wear makeup and would just hv my bare face out due to its sensitivity to breakouts. And my clothing, its mostly modest/covering for academic places or just comfy and quick with any cool baggy tees i hv. Its my current closet, since i dont hv much occasions to go grand and i just wanna blend in with everyone around me lookin like an npc. But id love to wear more self expressing stuff in the future, to my desire. More accessories, colorful makeups and fashions like dark couquette/gyaru or so!

Personality: My personality, id say its two sided. I guess hv an open mind and easy going (to some degree ofc). A dream chaser and a listener. Sometimes (just sometimes), i can get my mind through a problem and stay grounded. Im also empathic? I like consoling with people and I appreciate the smallest details. I feel for people's struggle and I hold hopes in them. However, i can get moody, its so unexpected and intense that even im scared of it. I can be very quiet then, and dissociative. Id just want to be alone by that time to figure out my situation. Ive been said to appear gloomy or hard to approach too :cry: If im pissed, im venomous. And im actually an anxious person, of all sorts of things. Self deprecating too, i almost forgot abt that. But if i feel suitable, i get funky and enjoy myself hehe.

Likes/Dislikes : I like visual novels, rhythm games and those with good storytelling; a variety of music genres that focus on melody, instrument, composing; local asian food; sleeping with plushies; arts n crafts; esoteric things; philosophy study; my friends; solitude and continuation; aesthetic or hidden values and uhhh nice, mannered intriguing people.

I dont like smelly people doe. People who are narrow minded icks me oops. Pls dont tryna barge in on me when im busy unless it helps. I hate the sun... And not getting myself tented after a long day. I dislike my parents as well, yikes. Worst of all, being opressed.

Hobbies : doll, bracelet making; drawing, online shopping, rhythm game arcade, reading philosophy works, uhh getting invested in random medias...

Anyways, thats my submission! If u do reply, tysm for the matchup!!!

Hi Anon! Thank you for the request! I hope you like your matchup!

In Obey Me, I match you with...

Asmo is the best person to hype you up about wearing more self-expressing things. He’s great at putting outfits together and will give you honest and genuine feedback.

Doesn’t mind your personality changes. He knows what mood swings are like so he’s very understanding.

Please go online shopping with him! But set a budget because you’re both liable to get caught up in the energy and spend too much. But online shopping with Asmo would be so much fun.

Not great at giving you alone time but if you say you need some space, he’ll respect your wishes. While you’re enjoying your alone time, he’ll do a spa day or hang out with some of his friends.

Asmo loves your plushies. He thinks they’re really cute and, if you’re okay with it, would love to borrow some of them to sleep with as well. He’ll take good care of them and swaps them out occasionally so you’ve got a constantly rotating roster of plushies in your room.

#writing #fanfic #matchup #matchup request #request #obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me nightbringer #asmodeus

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rimii-iii · 7 months

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perfectionist, not. sae itoshi

chapter three - god's view

i immediately dug myself deep into my luggage, finding something to wear for sleep. i am aware that, i will be sharing a bed with Sae Itoshi.

it's not the fact that we're sleeping together but, it was kinda weird for acquaintances to sleep together, no?

we weren't even friends.

i turned on the shower tap with a movement of my hand, warm water poured down onto my shoulders as relaxation steamed out. with circular actions my hands made with shampoo, my e/c were shut because i did not want the painful, aching shampoo to get into my eyes.

that's hella annoying.

i finished my business and changed into the clothes i picked out, drying my hair and stepping out of the steamy bathroom.

the cool air con slapped my cheeks real fast, i covered my mouth as i yawned and stretched my arms. Sae was just sitting on the edge of the bed, scrolling on his phone.

he seemed bored, "wanna play a game?" i asked, joining him on the side. "what game...?" he quirked an eyebrow, "um... truth or dare!"

the devil's game.

he stayed quiet, eyeing me for some reason. "ok."

"yay!" i exclaimed, laying on my back, staring at the dull ceiling. "so truth or dare?" i took the first question, "truth."

"hmm... do you like someone?" i grimaced, i could see him rolling his eyes at the corner of my eyes. "i'm not interested in relationships now." he coldly replied, placing his phone aside. "awww... that's sad. then you won't have kids! or grandkids!" i kicked my legs, his face was in disgust, thinking about the 'kids'. "ah no! not that." a scowl was on my face, crossing my arms as i sat up.

"you're thinking too far."

"truth or dare?"

"hm... truth!" i chose, crossing my legs. "do you like someone?" he returned to question, i was unexpected for him to say something like this, the same person that wasn't interested in relationships and mushy mushy stuff.

"hmm... not... yet! fictional characters though...!" i squealed in excitement thinking about fictional characters, they're just so hot. "stupid." he muttered, "hey!"

"my turn! truth or dare?"

"dare." he chose this time, "gimme your number!" i smirked, taking my phone from the desk, "fine." luckily he didn't decline down, he handed me his phone as i typed on the phone furiously, "it'll break if you do that." he was exaggerating...

when i handed him the phone back, his eyes squinted when he saw the nickname. 'tsuyu YOUR BELOVED <333!!'

he sighed, biting his inner cheek, why couldn't he stop himself from smiling? "truth or dare?" he shook it off, "dare." his eyebrows fluttered, thinking of a dare.

𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧'𝐬 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞.

perhaps, an evil dare.

"do pole dance with an imaginary pole." his lips curved up in a devilish grin, "oh my god... fucking how?"she sweated, standing up while playing with her nails. "dunno." he gawked at her, watching her every action.

"eh..." she started spinning around in circles, pretending there was a pole in the middle, "that's not it, dumbass." she sniffed, "it's impossible" h/cette cried, as her vision got really dizzy.

"great..." the e/c girl bit my lip, unable to control her balance. her hands gripped onto Sae's shoulders, falling down. "oi-" a vein popped out of his neck, holding the girl's shoulders back.

but that's not a way to stop it, the dizzy female unintentionally fell on him, on the bed with her eyes closed. "oi..." he frowned, but upon seeing her expression, his face light up a bit. her knitted brows with her cherry lips slightly parted, her e/c eyes shut down. "i-i..." she slowly mumbled, opening her e/c eyes.

her hues went round when she realised what position they were in. "oh my fucking god! i'm so sorry!" she pushed herself up, her hands folded on her chest tight. her cheeks burned hard this time.

she glanced at the red haired male who was sitting up now, his cheeks turned light pink, scratching his nape while avoiding eye contact.

god, that view was hot.

#sae #saeitoshi #itoshisae #bllk #bluelock #yn #readerxcharacter

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aleeyenn · 1 year

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hi um . that other person encouraged me to also gush abt ur designs but i also find a lot of myself in ur pin design .... as an also plus sized woman of color i find so much of myself in your design . i love baking and i love indulging in feminine things in the sense of like "yes i am a woman . yes i love to scream to very hard and fast paced songs . yes i have bigender swag ." even tho i do like feel myself as pretty masc aligning (it fluctuates a lot) i love ur design and see so much of myself in it . as well as that other person ive always felt i cant sorta be into alt stuff but recently ive sorta dabbled in it (i got the fingerless gloves ive always wanted so bad like a month ago !!!! and it was so exciting :-))) and just seeing ur pin design made me realize i can do whatever i want and i dont have to conform to my parents or my friends or my school's or anyone's expectations for my presentation of gender identity and femininity . i can wear nice frilly dresses with puffs and ribbons and have those fake vampire teeth and skeleton fingerless gloves and black clunky boots with a bright pastel pink bow in my hair if i so please . so um thank you a lot i love ur pin design and um bye bye have a nice day !!!!!!! also also rq i have to say erm if you have like literally any more gijinkas / humanizations ever pleaaseeee post them .love your art a lot ive been following you for a bit and uh apologies for bizexual ranting im just a little crazy /lh ok bye have a nice day i hope very good things come to you

YOU G UYYSS ARE GONNA MAKE ME CRY😢😢😢😢😢HAPPY TEARS OF COURSE BUTGAAHH HH H I NEVER KNEW MY ART WOULD HAVE SUCH AN IMPACT ON PEOPLE EVEN THO ITS WHAT IVE WANTED FOREVER😢😢😢 im so so so so grateful SO GRATEFUL YOU DONT GRT IT I REALLY TRULY MEAN IT pleasepleaseplease to you anon and the other anon and anyone else who needs to hear it BEEE YOURSELFFFF!!! don’t worry about what any community, family, friends, peers, ANYONE wants you to be because what’s the fun in that? not being able to express yourself the way you want to is so boring and doesn’t allow you to be what you want and not being what you want is neither gratifying or truthful! you don’t have to be true to anyone else besides yourself be TRUE to yourself and let yourself be the person you are!!! i’m sure you wouldn’t wanna hold anyone back so don’t let anyone hold YOU back!!! im gonna embarrass myself here but it’s for the sake of this talk But in elementary—early middle school i was a FREAAAKING wolf kid i wore ears and tails and everything but what stopped me???weird glances or rude comments? Nope! NOTHING!!! because being the person i was at the time felt amazing! and looking back at it sure it’s a bit humiliating but i still love that part of myself because i was so free in being me!!! and i look up to me being that person to this day and i won’t stop being myself! i won’t mask or dress a certain way that people want me to or hide parts of myself that make myself me because that’s who i am!!! and i heavily encourage ALL OF YOU to follow my footsteps and be the person you are!!! trust me if everyone in the world behaved and looked and did whatever the same the world would be sooo boring so be the spark of someone’s day and BE YOURSELF!!! who knows maybe you’ll be the person that breaks someone out of their shell to become what they wanna be too! do what makes you happy and follow your heart, don’t let anyone EVER block you from achieving that, never hold yourself against any standard or forum and do what you need to do to be your best self… so to you anon and everyone who needs it Go get some fishnets go get some cute bows go get lacy dresses go get cool looking belts go get ANYTHING THAT CALLS YOUR NAME! find yourself!!! even if it’s a pair of wolf ears and a tail, go for it! i believe in you!!!💗

#i love you all #so much

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rainbowinbeigeboots · 2 years

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i wanna get sappy here for a hot second so don’t mind me lolol

i don’t talk about it too much here, mainly because tumblr surprisingly doesn’t have a lot to interact with, but i am SUCH a huge fan of tessa violet. like so much so that girlie literally was one of the things that helped pull me put of the depressive episode i was in during 2020 right after a rough breakup and general pandemic. i had been into her stuff when she was meekakitty (fell off a bit as i grew out of the content) and rediscovered her in 2019 and fell in love with her music. jump to the past two years where she follows me on twitter and is aware of my existence thus making saturday one of the best nights of my life…ever. tessa straight up recognized me by my face when she walked into the VIP meet and greet area. she saw me and pointed at me and called me by name. she then went on to say how excited she was to meet everyone and then pointed at me and said “i’m especially excited to meet emiie” and i felt so amazed that she even recognized who i was since i didn’t expect it. when it was my turn to get my photo with her she gave me so many hugs (she lives up the “she looks like she gives good hugs” vibe btw) and talked about how exciting it was to finally see each other irl after online interactions/an online m&g we had last year. i gave her the shirt i made for her (it had “future milf” on it since it’s a running bit) and she looked so happy when i gave it to her 🥺 i forgot to tell her i had made it along with showing the tiny terror hoodie i made/was wearing but i was still trying to process that she knew me and called me out. but when my friend and i went back for a group photo i had forgotten i wanted to give her a kitchen song paper heart (i wasn’t sure if she was collecting them from each city but wanted to make sure she had one) and a photocard of her i had made and I was so grateful my friend and i were able to go back up. but when i handed her the heart and photocard she looked at it and i s2g with the sweetest look on her face, looked into my eyes, and said “emiie, you always make me feel so cool” 🥺😭🤧 i was beaming on the inside from just how happy that made me feel because i kept thinking “nonono ydek how cool you’re making ME feel rn” and during the show i had so much eye contact with her and smiles thrown at me (i did however almost get taken out by her mic when it fel from the micstand) and during crush she held out the microphone for me to sing into and god…it was such a good night 😭😭😭

i don’t think i can even express enough how much her music and just who tessa is as a person helped me SO MUCH at such a rough point in my life mentally and has helped me with my own self confidence/self worth. it’s a combo of just seeing her be really cool, so genuine to who she is as a person, and so willing to engage with being okay acting playful/goofy that rubbed off on me because i saw so much of myself there, who i want to be during this lifetime, and who i am at my core before i had the worst depressive episode of my life and had been working on accepting myself prior to that and post-2020 depressive episode. it also helps when you have a song like yes mom to blast that makes you inadvertently say positive affirmations about yourself LOL

i know tessa will probably never see this (unless she does then…hi lolol) but i just wanted to share how much i just adore/look up to her and how i felt so special and loved the entire night from such simple things she did 🥺💖 here’s to hoping the future milf shirt made it to her after she forgot it on stage and that she wears it during the next livestream i can attend lolol

also signing off with my meet and greet photo because i just love how genuinely happy both her and i look in this photo 🥺💖

#tessa violet #emiie rambles

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patronsaintofmath · 1 year

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y’all

i think my coworker & i are becoming friends? or at least on the path of becoming friends. we haven’t hung out outside of work yet & we haven’t shared anything deep & personal w each other which is kinda part of my criteria for becoming friends w someone. but anyways i was a fool yesterday. she was working the afternoon shift & she told me someone left cupcakes so i should go get some. look, i work the morning shift but she had told me twice about the cupcakes so i was like ok yeah i’ll go BUT THEN I STAYED DURING HER SHIFT JUST SO I CAN TALK TO HER LIKE A LOSER. embarrassing for me frfr. but anyways while i was there, we signed up for a kickboxing class together. but let me get into today’s stuff. today is thursday & thursdays we usually clean the mats in the gym & the weight room. we were just talking for like half an hour instead of cleaning the mats & i told her i wanted to go the state parks & beaches during summer but i didn’t wanna drive so she was like “i’ll drive” ???? she’d want to hang out w me ???? i’m always so surprised when people WANT to hang out w me bc if i find myself repulsive & lame, then others must too. like i would not wanna be my friend if i was someone else. what does that say about me. clearly i gotta practice self love. anyways yeah she said she wants to hang out in the summer & she said i can teach her how to skate 😭. then when we were back at the desk w the boss lady, the boss lady was like talking about how my coworker had never expressed any interest in skateboarding until i came along & now ALL OF A SUDDEN my coworker is into skateboards & she even bought one. that reminds me of my friend in high school who got into tech decks bc i introduced her to them. anyways, yeah my coworker has done her skateboarding research & probably knows more than me now except for the actual skating part. also, i think i’ve mentioned it but she wears like a black sweater & black pants every day. her shirt varies from light gray to regular grey to dark gray & black. but she texted me today like ayo what stores should i shop from. which at the time i didn’t find odd but now that i’m typing about it i’m like hm that varies a lot from person to person bc like our tastes in clothing is different. but i told her about cool stores for the youngins like me. but i just feel like idk. like i don’t wanna get attached to her. IM ECSTATIC SOMEONE WANTS TO HANG OUT W ME & WANTS TO BE MY BUDDY. but then i feel like oh no i’m influencing her too much i don’t wanna get attached cannot get attached to any more people. this is very clearly some issue i have w pushing people away. but i don’t care bc i feel safer this way. anyways, idk i just idk. i wish i was better yknow? like maybe this is just my people pleasing tendencies arising but like idk. OOH ALSO I LEARNED THAT SHE PRACTICED moi tai idk how to spell it but that’s how i pronounce it. it’s like a type of martial arts. so ya that’s cool. my boss lady doesn’t like when we work together bc we mess around a lot. also i found out my coworker doesn’t do any type of drugs. which is cool bc yknow that’s healthy & whatnot but i wanted to ask her if she’d be down to get high w me like i think that would be hilarious bc we are always laughing together anyways. but yeah that’s this week. also you know how i look forward to working w her every week? i think she looks forward to working w me too bc she often asks for my schedule & shes tells me how many hours we’ll get to work together. super cool.

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ladychlo · 1 year

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Hii Chay,

how are you???

my thoughts are a bit muddled so this might not be all that clear. sorry for that. i saw you answering that gender queer anon and gave me a little push to type this out. you've always been really kind and amazing and cool so i felt a little courage to come here and you so nicely wanted to hear if anyone wanted to rant so i guess here goes hehe.

Anyway, i'll come to the point. for months, i've been kinda questioning my gender identity. (wow this is so weird to get it out in the open. lol i feel like squealing.) the thing is i've been questioning do i really feel like a girl? a woman? but what even is it to feel like a girl? i mean there are some days i don't feel girlish/feminine and i like what i see in the mirror when i put my hair in a bun, all pulled back, dressed up in stereotypically masculine clothes, manspreading when i sit and have that stupid strut in my steps and that puff in my chest. and i get so pissed when my mum mentions these are boys clothes or these are girls clothes. and then me and my sister both scoff at her like what is this boy-girl?? clothes are clothes. and she doesn't mean anything by it like she never says we shouldn't wear it or it doesn't look good or smth. we wear what we want. for her, she's just pointing it out coz that's what she knows. and that's when i ask myself, is my annoyance because of this general classification of binaries or is it something i feel personally for myself regarding my own identity. like is it merely because i know there are people who exist outside of these binaries and these classifications are stupid??

and that's what i don't know how to differentiate. like me behaving a certain way or wearing certain clothes is even a classification in the first place due to stupid stereotypes and i am just the way i am as a girl or am i identifying with a different gender identity? and even saying this phrase out loud, 'i am a girl' feels weird sometimes. but what if it is due to my own internalised misogyny that i don't wanna say i'm a girl coz people inherently will assume i'm weak or cannot handle something?? because obviously that has happened even if not outright and i am a fucking overachiever so what if it is that influencing my thinking??

i don't know lol, suffice to say i'm confused. anyway sorry for this utter mess 😭

Hello love 🌼 its not a mess! I'm so glad you guys feel comfortable to share stuff like this with me, always makes happy to help with anything even if just listening!

Anywaaay, you know these whole questions you're asking are absolutely legit and not confusing, its actually good to wonder how we perform our gender bc at a point we dont know if we preform what we feel as our gender or what we just are supposed to preform. And I always remember a saying by Tede Mathews (he was a gay liberation and anti-war movements activist), he said "we are all born naked and anything anyone wears is drag" which is to say, like drag, what you wear can be a performance but also a self-expression. Whatever we wear is an expression of our gender, the materialization of it in real life.

What you wear doesn't determine your gender ofc ik you know this, but it is a way to articulate what we feel as our gender, I for so long identified as a girl but always wore what was considered masculine clothes but then it was like a way to question my gender identity as a whole bc starting with what you wear it helps you understand how you identify and how you express it are two different things but complimentary as well. The possibility of you ''playing'' or creating a fluidity around your gender can actually start from what you wear bc it is as I said a material part of our gender and how we want to be perceived. Also, you can still identify with your assigned gender but you can express it away from the norm or what is your cisness suppose to look like.

the classifications are predictable, bc gender is one of the oldest systems of power, people need these classifications to situate themselves according to these dynamics of power, you can't escape these classifications but you can choose not to abide by them or follow them and they can so strange to you and foreign and they can be your source to be creative with how you express your gender. but yeah no, never limit yourself, and never let these feelings of confusion stop you from exploring how far you can get with your gender. on the contrary, these confusions will give you a sense of yourself and once you go there you can have a sense of control and understanding of who you can be and who you are, I always say that it feels like a none ending process, you can always keep questioning your gender and its totally fine, that can be it, constant self-expression that changes, always, but yeah, you're doing alright! if you wanna talk about it more or a specific thing I'm here, mwaaaah xx

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more-than-a-princess · 1 year

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[ hello, rae! i still have some time left before the new year begins for me, but i just wanna thank you for making my experience in the rpc a fun, uplifting one. ofc, i know i ended up taking a massive hiatus from kensuke and couldn’t even bring myself to write him long term (since i ended up hyperfixating over other characters and trying to get more interactions on him was like pulling teeth), but it still means a lot you welcomed me back with open arms!

like, i can’t express enough how grateful i am you ended up rolling with my obscure muse choices and just being open minded enough to explore different relationship dynamics with them, whether they be romantic or platonic. HONESTLY, i might not always be around anymore (due to the fact i have work 🥲), but you are seriously one of those few friends i made that make being here worth it; in fact, i ended up initially regaining my love and passion for writing because of you, when previously, i had lost all the spark i had in it following the nasty fall out i had with former partners… and was deeply insecure over my own writing, to the point where for the longest time, i didn’t think i would actually reach a point where tumblr rp would be a hobby i could enjoy again; only, i’m glad i ended up sticking with it, because in the end, i got to reconnect with you and other people i would never have met/written with provided i never stayed.

REGARDLESS, YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN NOTHING BUT KIND AND PATIENT TOWARDS ME, so in 2023, i strive to not only be a good rp partner, but a good friend to you as well (even if i do happen to be significantly younger than you). but yeah, here’s to another year of interactions between our muses! HONESTLY, i look forward to seeing what mischief and shenanigans these blorbos get up to. ]

Tell me stuff at the end of 2022 or beginning of 2023 because what is time/time is a social construct - Accepting if still want to. Otherwise it's going to be thread replies, shitposts, and starter memes/possibly call for new muns and muses!

Aww, Livi, you are so kind! Thank you so much for sending this, it brought a smile to my face as I read it. As I've mentioned before: I care far more about roleplaying with you and the joy you have for your muses, no matter who the muses are. Your enthusiasm shines through each and every time (also, each and every time Sonia never fails to pester/be a nuisance to your muses so...that's what you sign up for each time).

And while we all hate work (eff work is a common saying in my house), I hope that no one ever manages to rob you of your passion for writing and roleplaying. I'm so sorry you were hurt by others, but in my opinion, never let anyone else ruin your fun around here. Write because you have stories to tell, because you love to write, because you don't know what you'd do without the creative outlet here.

Let's leave haters behind in 2022! If anything, consider the fact that for all the time muns spend trying to bring you down, they could be writing. Creating dynamics and storylines. Improving their writing skills. Instead of, you know, hating.

You're already a wonderful RP partner and friend, I just suggest keeping it up :D And I'm happy to be the older friend/wine aunt in the RPC. I will forever be telling you to drink water, wear sunscreen, sleep, and life will get better.

Consequently, I will also discuss the good old days if prompted. The days of RP and fandom before tumblr. Before social media. Just make sure I have my comfy chair, my slippers, and a drink. Possibly painkillers: I'm at the age where I can pull something getting out of bed nowadays (though I'm probably just overdue for a new mattress).

tl;dr - dear mutuals, I'm old. I do not tolerate drama or BS in my old age. I do tolerate long-term, feels-packed threads combined with dashcomm shitposting, OOC chatter, and wine/tea/drink whatever you want just stay hydrated please.

And like Sonia: I'm not up to date with popular slang. Or being a cool and hip person. Bear with us, please.

#more-than-a-princess answered #more-than-a-princess musings #unladielike #(I vote in 2023 Sonia keep annoying the heck out of Akira Ryuto and Vivian)#(Kill 'em with kindness. And in Akira's case: physical displays of affection followed by 'I happen to love you pls accept')

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