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#but i wanna take my inhaler. and thats delaying that. and maybe thats distressing me more?
pizzapizzadickz
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#diary
#personal
#mmn. yeah the pain is definitely causing a meltdown or something.
#bc. i was somewhat okay earlier today. but now im like. definitely not.
#and by earlier i mean like an hour ago.
#idk if ill be able to do anything today. like i think ill be able to play splatoon. but beyond that probably not.
#um. just to try and describe this to myself. i feel like basically sobbing. and im holding my breath inadvertently to prevent that lol
#my like chest/diaphragm feels sorta squeezed. but its different from the normal anxiety. it could be the coffee tho.
#and i think it was the pain that caused it. bc i was getting rly distressed by it when i was using the washroom.
#bc i couldnt take painkillers right then
#i wanted to not take painkillers again so ive been holding off. and i think its subsiding. so i probably wont rn.
#but im sorta zoning in and out rn. like i remember doings stuff. but then poof! i remember im here all of a sudden.
#my fave feels tingly. and my headphones on my head too.
#idk. maybe the somg im listening to is making me sad.
#idk. i just wanna hit my shoulder where it hurts. or just my legs.
#or be wrapped rly tight in a blanket. i think ill lay down under my weighted blanket in a bit.
#but i wanna take my inhaler. and thats delaying that. and maybe thats distressing me more?
#idk. all i rly know is i feel bad. and i can tell my thoughts are weird. and i feel like crying and idk why
#and its making me feel distreased
#and i just feel like screaming. but i cant move around and make noises n bring attention to myseld bc i dont like that
#so all i can do is stay as still as i can and get progressivly more distressed bc of it and really just sorta dissociate
#im not sure whats going on. idk why im so... something. everything feels very funky. and i cant explain it
#everything looks weird n fake. i feel so weird. its like im high or something but im sure as shit not.
#my arm hurts a lot i think. idk. when its like this it always feels like i just lost feeling in my arm.
#like. i can feel and know is there but jts also not.
#idk man. im exhausted. im really tired of existing. its such a pain. quite literally.
#idk. i just. everythings bad. idk. idk whats going on anymore. so time to try n play splatoon.
#but i also rly just wanna listen to this one song with my headphones on that block all sound. but. theyre low on charge.
#im never rly sure what to do when im distressed like this. so i usually either ignore it and do what i planned on/feel like.
#...which usually causes me to get progressivly more and more distressed until i blow lmao.
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