#but my bf is job hunting and he's gotten so many interviews and he's doing so well but these damn places keep looking past him

[madmadmilk]

feeling an unsettling bout of despair and jarringly out of sync this evening, all while the sun shines and clouds pour rain outside my window. at least the sky is pink.

#i'm like happy with life in general but when i start to think too far ahead i'm like frustrated and stressed hahahahha #i'm whispering this so don't tell anyone ok??? #but my bf is job hunting and he's gotten so many interviews and he's doing so well but these damn places keep looking past him #and our apartment lease is ending soon so i'm like what if we bought a house ha ha #but also what if we got married and had a wedding #but wait i want him to propose to me #but also wait we don't have money saved up how do people save up money #and it's just a cycle that i know will come in time because we work hard and love each other and want this together but i'm also just stres #that it's not happening like tomorrow lol #so anyway i'm just spiralling but nothing is dire #but also we need to find someone to dogsit for us for like 5 days next weekend and htne like 2 days the next #i'm tired lol but at least my covid symptoms are gone #cheers lol good luck to everyone and i hope all your dreams come true #personal #madmadmilk #in the tags #poetry