#cause idk if i wanna do the same approach i did for the ozlice one where i pinpoint a specific scene/momentm

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i just think gilbert is a really good character. like he’s got all this trauma and he just. doesn’t know how to deal with it (& he also just straight up doesn’t want to learn) so he represses it and doesn’t really act like he’s totally fine with nothing wrong. but he doesn’t acknowledge how actually not fine he is. and he is also just very soft and he cares about his loved ones so much. all his angry, more “dark” moments are founded on his loved ones being in danger, or getting hurt. and he’s just a very well-written character. he’s also just very well designed. both in a gay manner, but also in general. his coat and his hair are neat, and he looks like a soft dork. which is fitting bc he is. so anyway in this essay i will-

#pandora hearts #gilbert nightray #gil #im sorry i just have critical condition brainrot for him. i also have it for oz/ozlice. but. idk ig it's most intense for gil tonight. #i just wuv him like so much & i wish i appreciated him more when i was younger cause my affection for him has only grown #in the recent years ya know. like within the last.......... 2-3 maybe. #but in my defense the oz/ozlice brainrot was so intense i could not acknowledge any other character/s bc of it. so. #anyway. i wuv my husband he is a good character. he's also very fine. #mine #god im like. so upset that one of my volumes got damaged bc i truly wanna meta abt him SO bad #but i wanna re-read and take notes. & if im re-reading i h a v e to do it w my physical copies bc im unfortunately That kinda person #so. until it's restocked on the thrift website i gotta. rot. hhghgh #i rly also just wanna figure out how im actually gonna go abt it #cause idk if i wanna do the same approach i did for the ozlice one where i pinpoint a specific scene/momentm #& how it impacts the characters going forward. #or if i just wanna. analyze him. #ill probably just analyze him. but that will take me so long to write #how do i analyze him and go through the manga collecting evidence/proof of my analysis #without having to leave bc i got to gay over him :/ it will take me weeks smh #itll be worth it whenever i get around to it though. he deserves to be characterized Correctly <3