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if-you-fan-a-fire · 3 years
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Nathaniel Whitfield The university and the prison both exist as metaphors and metonyms. As part of the Underground Scholars Initiative and the UCLA Prison Education Program, we are entangled within both of them as concepts and institutions to varying degrees and intensities.1 I’ve been thinking about our relationship to, and within, the carceral logics of these institutions as we are embedded in their discursive, social, psychological, material, and embodied effects, and as these are embedded within us.
Alberto Lule I was incarcerated for about fourteen years, and needing to get back into education was probably the number one concern I had when I was released. I started at community college level and then transferred over to UCLA. As I spent time there as an art student, I started wondering why I felt so comfortable walking around the campus after doing fourteen years in prison. Just the fact that campus even had this title of “institution”… I grew up knowing that as the word for prison, as in correctional institutions, before I knew that was also a name for UCLA or any other institution of higher learning. I don’t think that is a coincidence. I grew up in the Santa Barbara area, which is not really known to be like the hood; it’s not really a marginalized or rundown neighborhood. I grew up in a working-class Chicano town called Goleta where there were a lot of police. The whole idea of being confined for me begins in our own neighborhoods. When I would go to the good parts of town, I would automatically be singled out; I would get pulled over or asked questions. If I was in an all-white neighborhood, and if I wasn’t there to trim hedges, they really wanted to know why I was there. They saw me as if I was out of bounds, or out of place. Even on campus I get certain looks, certain questions. On campus, I often get asked I work there. I’m a little bit older; I’m a non-traditional student. But the fact that I get aligned with somebody that works there is because a lot of the maintenance people there are Latino. Why do people just automatically assume that all the brown people are janitors? It’s almost like there are institutions built for people of color, and there are institutions built for white people. In society you’re placed into these categories. Their structures are invisible—they’re not outlined for you—but they confine you. In the place where I was physically confined—the prison—the majority of the people were either black or brown. One of the first things I noticed walking on a campus of higher learning, as compared to walking on the prison yard, was that there are similarities. There are guidelines, there are protocols. The environment controls you.
NW You mention that confinement works here on the level of identity, but the mechanisms of carcerality are still at play. Confinement has expanded from the site of the prison not just into geographical space beyond, but also as a psycho-social space. It also relates the idea of enclosure, and what Marx calls primitive accumulation, that moment of colonial encounter which is shot through with violence and domination. There seems to be a relation between the enclosure of common land, the enclosure of social relations, and the enclosure of knowledge within the university. All of these are structures of confinement in that sense, working in similar yet distinct ways.
Savannah Ramirez I think when we talk about land, it’s important to acknowledge that UCLA is built on stolen land.2 It belongs to the Tongva people. Alberto mentioned how our neighborhoods are hyper-policed. That’s not happening by mistake. At UCLA we have a center designed to research what we call “Million Dollar Hoods.”3 We’re spending more on incarceration than on education. If the state budget is supposed to reflect our values, then why, in the city of LA, does over 54% of its yearly budget go towards policing?4 At the same time, there’s been huge success recently with the passing of measure J, which reallocates an additional portion of LA County budget to community investments and alternatives to incarceration.
NW One of the tasks you seem to be posing is to map genealogies of power. Especially given how public agencies—such as education and healthcare—are increasingly absorbing policing functions, while many institutions of organized violence—such as the police and prisons—are simultaneously absorbing social functions. I’m also thinking of how the prison as a spatial-temporal organization extends beyond the prison as a site of confinement. Part of the work is to locate and think through what fixes subjects to such apparatuses of domination, of discipline, of control. Which is why I suppose, the idea of the university as a white space and the prison is an institution for controlling black and brown bodies that you spoke of Alberto feels like an important framing. One could then question what mechanisms of control the university exerts on bodies and what type of racialized subjectivity it constructs.
AL You can also think of other spaces as well. A lot of black and brown artists would end up in the cultural center rather than the white cube gallery. And a lot of the people making millions of dollars off artwork are not usually people of color. It’s kind of like why even have that space? Why not just create an all-encompassing art space? It all goes back to segregation and Jim Crow laws where you have colored bathrooms and you have white bathrooms. That kind of thing still exists, but has better camouflage; it’s not labeled like that. Those are all things that begin or began in otherness.
Rosie Rios I remember the first time I went to a prison, for one of my classes through the UCLA Prison Education Program. I went to the Barry J. Nidorf Juvenile Detention Facility, and I couldn’t believe how much it looked like my high school. It does something to you, when you can recognize your high school in a prison. There’s also the school to prison pipeline, where overpolicing and zero tolerance policies in underserved communities leads not to higher education, not to careers, but to prison. And then for the few of us that are able to end up in these spaces to not be treated with respect… It reminds me of how during the 2020 #blacklivesmatter uprisings in LA, UCLA offered the Jackie Robinson Stadium to the police. It was basically a prison or a jail; a place to keep people who were arrested, to detain them. And don’t even get me started on the University of California Police Department (UCPD) and how they continue to profile, harass, and arrest students who are accepted and are a part of the UCLA community.
NW That reminds me of the protest banner placed beneath the “Champions are made here” sign that was unveiled during a protest at the Stadium which said “Prisoners Made Here.” This is unfortunately only one of many ways that the university aids and abets state violence, how they are structurally complicit in the creation of prisoners.
AL I’ve had those experiences growing up myself, but now I’m re-experiencing them again as a father of a fourteen-year-old who’s going to junior high. One day we dropped him off at school when they were calling on the PA system, and he was like “Oh, man, there goes that prison megaphone again.” I turned around was like: “What did you just say?” He said it’s like the ones they had when he would visit me. He also said that when he would go to detention they would call the dean of the school the warden because he treats them like they’re prisoners; he gives the students numbers, and they’re made to walk around so that all the kids in recess have to look at them. They’re being paraded, the same thing that happens to people when they go to court, when they come in shackled so that the public can tell who the people that are in trouble are. These are all little things, little performative details that add to the actual physical appearance of the school. Another time he got his headphones taken away because he had them on in class, and the teacher said he can have his headphones back at the end of the day. But then at the end of the day, she just left, so he grabbed his headphones off of her desk and left. The next day they accused him of stealing, of being a thief; that the headphones were school property. When we had our teacher-parent conversation I asked them why they were calling him that, those words, that terminology being used is installing things in him. He’s being labelled and treated as a criminal. When I would go to detention as a young kid, and then later on when I would be detained by police, I already knew the word. I knew that it meant I was going to be there for a little bit, and then they’re going to let me leave, hopefully.
NW I have never experienced anything like that, but you speaking of a body that is positioned within certain arrangements of time, space, and movement, within certain logics of domination which act upon it reminds me of Michel Foucault’s concept of the docile body in Discipline and Punish—which very specifically gestures to all of this. He describes exactly what you have already mentioned: the partitioning of time, the imposition of language, and so forth which constantly coerce the body, act, and exert power upon it. In this sense, power not only subjugates people but also constitutes subjects. In the process they build up a sense of self-knowledge; it constructs their identity from within and without. Confinement is a process; it is being confined to this identity which is imposed upon the self, but also comes from within the self.
AL It’s almost like they’re tailoring people so that when they finally get to the penitentiary they’ll automatically know: “I’ve always been here, this has always been me, this has always been who I am.” When I got out of those spaces and entered the space of higher education, I saw the same kind of system, only now it is not so much a system of discipline, but privilege. The same mechanisms were there, but they were working in reverse. They were there to administer privilege instead of administering discipline.
NW I wonder how this administration of privilege is linked to how the university creates a labor force, which neoliberalism necessitates must serve the state and the market; how privilege and whiteness is bound up with that and how universities mold subjects to operate within those parameters. The explicitness of this is present in how universities sell themselves with how successful students will be based on what kind of job they are going to get afterwards. Universities are literally ranked based on their ability to convert students into workers.
RR When I was an undergrad at UCLA I took a course called “Disrupting the School to Prison Pipeline” taught by Bryonn Bain and Pedro Noguera. It was the first UCLA class to go inside Barry J. Nidorf. During that class we did this workshop called “Dear Teacher,” where we reflected on how interactions at the elementary, middle, and high school levels impact the way you think about yourself and see your future. Working with incarcerated students, the prompt was to write a letter to someone in school—your teacher, counsellor, the school principal even. What would you tell them? A lot of people said things like “I wish you wouldn’t have told me that I couldn’t make it,” or, “I wish you would have been more understanding of what I was going through”; “I wish you knew what was happening at home and that’s why I was struggling and couldn’t concentrate.” We created an anthology with these letters, and our goal was to give it to people working in schools so that they could get a better understanding of their role and how much impact they have on students. When I was in high school, I remember my counselor telling me that I’ll be lucky if by my senior year I’m not pregnant. Those are just words, but they have an impact. I could have just internalized them, but continually being resilient to those things is not only stressful but it’s exhausting.
SR I’m reminded of the term “dropout,” and on the other end, “pushout.” Students often can’t advocate for themselves, because when they do they’re challenging someone who is supposed to have power in the classroom. Educators need understand the needs of their students as well as the needs of their communities, because school is only one part. There’s also what’s happening outside of the school.
RR People can have great intentions but if you don’t have a broader understanding of where the community you’re serving is, of what they’re going through, then you can end up causing more harm than good.
AL A lot of my artwork deals with the issues we’ve spoken about. When we did critiques in class, my work would be met with silence. It was a very bad reality check. I realized that my fellow students who haven't walked in those shoes have no idea what I'm talking about. When they did speak it was more sympathetic than empathetic.
RR The importance of including voices of people who are directly impacted is not just because we should center their voices. We should. But it's important because you never know how these kinds of projects could help incarcerated students as well.
AL I’m wondering where we see exactly this conversation can go?
RR Do we want to provide suggestions for anything? Just so it doesn’t seem like trauma porn.
SR It’s really important for us to highlight labor. Oftentimes, it’s students that have been directly impacted by these oppressive systems who are having these conversations and are willing to put in the work. And on top of being students in these spaces that aren’t built for us, we’re also organizers, uncompensated for our time. Then on the opposite end, someone else’s research looks at us as subjects, and they’re the ones who are benefiting, getting credited, getting compensated.
NW Michelle Brown talks about penal spectatorship, in which the technologies and mediums of research, of analyzing, of looking creates distance, which is violent because carceral logics themselves are bound up in this process of distancing. In this sense the university constitutes us as subjects of intellectual distancing.
RR It’s important to recognize that exposing and talking about what your lived experience is not an easy thing even though we’ve gone through many times I feel a responsibility for myself, my community, and my family to participate and continue to speak out against injustices and these oppressive systems. But at the same time, I feel like we need to provide more. We need to provide access and resources. This is why the work of the Prison Education Program is so important, in organizing their events and discussions where the control and moderation of the narrative is moved away from people who have never experienced these things to people who have. This, in my opinion, is an example of the abolition of the structures and systems where we are no longer just subjects, but the creators and analysts of our own marginalization.
- “The University and the Prison: A Dialogue,” Alberto Lule, Savannah Ramirez, Rosie Rios, and Nathaniel Whitfield.” e-flux (Confinement) February 2021.
Image is Alberto Lule, Am I truly Free? (Sheet A), 2020.
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Somehow overnight hundreds of the most annoying people ever born appeared in my notes.......so next I'll be campaigning for a new app feature that lets you give people smallpox with your mind
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chilapis · 27 days
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Chilapis Nation, I’ll be posting a rather autistic piece of witting in about… 30-40 minutes, you must promise to be polite about it.
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halfyearsqueen · 2 days
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rhaenyra’s contentious relationship with her own bodily autonomy
#like so much of it is the fact so much has been so uncomfortably exposed as topics of conversation for so LONG#like the rumors of her ‘sexual exploits ‘ having been circulating since she was fourteen years old and like she has to cope with that#without having it reflect on her face or result in a change in behavior because her charm is what drew people to her in the first place#and in court weakness is the worst thing you can display to people if you want political power and want to advance and like she’s 14 ? bein#being that young of course it hurts😭 it can’t not hurt#but like it HITS - it does. Like it makes her feel exposed in a way that’s so oddly disjointing because she didn’t DO any of it#like the desirability politics at play take such ? a Slow and steady toll on her#like she can’t really escape the viscious cycle of being so exposed because that’s exactly why people are so open to her being queen#like her body is criticized after she didn’t lose weight after three continuous pregnancies in the span of 2 and a half years#and that’s not even getting into why pregnancy scared her which IS the fact she’s essentially sharing her body with this person and it coul#die or it could kill her or she could die and she could leave it alone which scares her the most#like pregnancy is the one continuous aspect of her life she can’t wholly control and that terrifies her because that makes her feel like sh#cant protect either of them#and like she doesn’t want the possibility of a son to overshadow the fact her life matters too#like the way her appearance is always so carefully curated and after she gets the throne back#her always sitting the throne in her arm and intentionally gripping it until her hands bleed is so#LIKE ITS SO 😭
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getosugurusbangs · 7 months
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i think one of my hotter jjk hot takes is that i don’t think kenjaku is gender-fluid
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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years
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mobblespsycho100 · 10 days
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thinkin abt topaz from an indigenous perspective also is SOOO
RIGHT. RIGHT 😭😭😭 SHE MAKES ME SO... AUGH
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heartual · 3 months
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waaaaghhh
#🍄.txt#i lost so much weight being sick in 2021 and finally got back around to where i used to be earlier last year#except w starting birth control this is now the heaviest i’ve ever been 😭#IMAGINE my struggle with clothes the last three years. omfg#before that too actually when i first got sick in 2018 too 😭#tried on pants i got at the beggining of 2023 that i went a size down in bc my normal size was too baggy#they were borderline trying to unzip on me as i sat down and cut off my circulation GODDBYEEEE#i swear that bc has only stopped my period and made me put on weight more easily#CAN U TREAT THE OTHER PCOS SYMPTOMES TOO PLEASE#i haven’t weighed myself in months PUGHHHH i do not wish to see because it’s going to give me a very very bad complex about my weight again#*w my >#the changes w body in the last few years i am going insane please pick one range please i beg#OUUUGGGHHHHHH#it’s not even the weight anymore like i’ve tried to leave most of the internalized fatphobia in high school#but by god are clothes stressful with significant weight changes#also my mom with an eating disorder she won’t acknowledge or go to therapy for constantly being ‘concerned’ for my wellbeing#i finally don’t want to kill myself but god forbid … some of the medicación makes me gain weighte……#anyway. i yam frustrated a little bit#took advantage of old navy’s 50% off sale and got some shorts and pance in a more comfy size at least#amanda small win 💪#should be here in april 1st which is not giving me high hopes already 😭 but we move!#weight mention#ed mention
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muffingnf · 3 months
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holding my phone makes my index finger go really cold Am i dying
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sysig · 1 year
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“He found it oddly difficult.” (Patreon)
#Doodles#TSP#The Stanley Parable#My old Narrator design is oddly Cecil Palmercore huh#I don't mind it lol ♪ Just Thinking™#These are more redraws - especially the first one but also Sin averting his eyes! I made it a scene!! Fun :)#It was already half a scene it's just a full scene now lol#Being undressed is uncomfortable! But if it makes Stanley even more uncomfortable~ Or even More something else entirely ♪♫ Haha#''Should I be looking at this'' - Stanley probably#Them being able to interact physically is also something that's kinda on the edge of impossible anyway so Doubly so!#The Narrator being visual and physical and present and touchable and there - weird and strange#The Narrator being half-naked?? What do about that???? Lol#This Narra still feels like he's missing something hmm - not having his glasses on his face is definitely Something so maybe?#Sin is rather on the fuzzy side - those sideburns hehe - but maybe Narra could benefit from a bit more facial hair too hmm hm#Oh no more experimentation drawing these two how terrible ♪#I do like how the Narrator is using his literalism - his narration and his control over Stanley's arm - to move the scene how he wants#Stanley does avert his gaze! He puts his blinders up! But there are always elements that the Narrator can override hehe#Being gentle with his controlled arm for a change just gently touching his face and turning his head to face him#The added heat of his own hand can't feel good tho haha - unless maybe he has cold hands? Poor circulation? I could see it#Then it might feel nice#Not that That's what Stanley is particularly focused on lol
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mainfaggot · 5 months
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tw eating disorder talk, pt.2 to the last post in the tags (once again, no mention of numbers that could be triggering, just a heartfelt rant bc I've been so afraid of talking about these things on here, but i really just need to get everything out bc . I feel crazy)
#so basically it was bad. this past summer the relapse was so sugarcoated in the sense that#i was telling myself it was fine. it didn't look the same as it did at my very worst#it didn't even feel the same#but it wasn't fulfilling either. it was stressful. it was exhausting. i was using my anorexia as a way to distract from having depression#i needed to feel a sense of achievement and i got it! but at the cost of my physical health#and my mental health was all over the place like less depressed sure. but way more anxious#it was weird. because even now i have to tell myself it wasn't okay. it wasn't fine. it's not worth it it's not WORTH IT#part of me keeps romanticizing it bc i was so in control and i was still working a little and still functioning in a socially acceptable way#but i know how much anxiety it gave me on a daily basis. only i know how my body ached and how low i felt from my immunity going to shit#only I know what it's like to have horrible circulation and constant weakness#no one else will live my life for me#I'm sure there are people who can live the way i was. im sure there are people who thrive like that#but they only thrive for a short time before it all comes crashing fown#and it's not worth the comparison bc when im suffering theyre not going to help me out!!!!!#when im struggling with the weight of it all. the people that promote tiny little portions and academic excellence with no room for#self compassion#they're not going to nurse me back to health#i won't feel a sustained sense of satisfaction from restricting and studying until i pass out from exhaustion. I've done that before#perfectionism is a parasite and this is a disease. it's a fucking mental illness and it's not even about vanity for me like thats just a#fraction of it#anyway#z.post
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lhrry · 2 years
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#also really hope louis’ team has something up their sleeves to get fan excitement up for the release week because boy is this weak and they#really should do better to ramp it up#post tiktoks with tiny snippets of the songs and having the fans guess what song it is for example#or something to boost fan engagement because ive been through many impending album releases in this fandom and this is not it#the excitement is quite mild#they did a big push for bigger than me and a lot of it seemed to me to be for promo rather than for the single#there was scarcely anything new for out of my system in the sense that the questions are still the same as they were for btm#they are circulating the same old and it’s not interesting for many people to watch and then they manage to sneak in babygate always and in#quite ridiculous senses like him listening the album first and stuff and while i still think there’s a reason for this (and i’ve spoken#about what i think may be happening with that and with the reasons for it before so i’ll not repeat myself)#but it just alienates more and more people and with the promo being repetitive there’s nothing much to outweight it for many people#and unfortunately since louis himself is saying he does not care for charts the fans are not very motivated to stream and do listening#parties as they used to be when getting to number 1 was encouraged and by the boys and desirable#plus imho they messed up the tour announcement and sale which shouldve come after the album comes out because people will know what they’re#buying tickets for#but anyway i wonder whether there’s something up still with sabotage of louis and radios not playing him and stuff#because despite the emphasis on him being free and in control there are so many old patterns recurring that it’s incongruent#im really excited for the album and the music and the direction louis is going to take artistically and creatively#but some things about his promo still seem very off#especially knowing what an astute businessman he is and just how deep an understanding he has#of his fanbase as well as the GP and marketing#also i really do think it’s purposeful they’re building on chicago and danielle associations and ramping up babygate and that E is out#for good
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littlecutiexox · 2 years
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I think I’m gonna call in sick for the rest of the day, I’m having an episode and losing my shit
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sniffanimal · 1 year
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For those of you who have been round a while you might remember I had a story clear back in 2015/16 about a couple of necromancers named Gidge and Damon (the latter of which is undead). Their story's been through a lot of iterations, including a brief attempt at a webcomic, a complete kind of non-canon backstory short comic, and several other random attempts at storytelling but that is no more! For I am nearly done scripting the complete comic! I have 5/6 chapters completely thumbed and scripted and I'm working on the last chapter, then editing, and then this summer I'm going to try and crank out a backlog of pages! I want to get maybe ~40 pages backlogged before I start posting because I know how time management works and I genuinely can't live with just a 2-3 week backlog. And I think once I get 40 pages I'll be deep enough in the workflow to know what it takes for me. So this may still be a year+ out for release but I'm gonna do it I'm gonna tell their story
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kqluckity · 1 year
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Imagine q!Luzu helping qq getting over his fear of water from being trapped by the federation and q helping Luzu with the repercussions of having a rouge ai in his head ;-;
oh man... oh MAN. now i will think about this forever
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scattered-winter · 1 year
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It’s too bad you couldn’t include Vincent Van Gogh in your poll. That might have been entertaining.
every single character in the poll was submitted by someone else and he was never submitted, HOWEVER you're right it would have been fun for sure
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