#consuming my life fr

[roses-fallen]

don't talk to the man with silver butterflies they said

#tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #is this anythihng because hualian are my anything and everything now #i finally bought the first book due to friend trying to drag me in #it worked #BUT ITS SO GOODDDDDDDDD UGHHHHH #consuming my life fr #drifting colors

[putridcowboy]

the most important step in the hero’s journey is the gay sex

#mine #i was. higher than i thought i was last night #nooo post dont go out of my immediate circle u r so sexy #someone just tagged this as naruto wrote this. no he didnt i did #update now sherlock rp blogs are commenting on this. girl it is 2022 what are you doing #leave im going to attack you with wasps #fr if another person comments on this post itself again and it isnt funny im sending the bees after u #never in my life have i felt that one post that is like some of yall are so annoying god bless #more than i do now #this isnt about anything but if it was it would just be about gilgamesh #the more yall add to this post the more obvious it is that some of yall straight up dont know what the heroes journey is #yall need to stop assuming the hero is the protagonist of the stories yall read/watch/consume or whatever the fuck

[nessberry]

reo is a much better person than me bc if nagi said even one of the 2000 fucked up things he's said to him to me I'd have killed myself right in front of him just to change his life forever

#everyone in blue lock needs pills bc why the fuck yall acting like that #i hate blue lock #i also love blue lock #mostly i love reo and ness tho #consumed so much media in my life and i swear ive never seen characters say so much deranged evil fucked up shit before #reo deserves better idc #love nagi but what the fuck wrong with him fr #i thought isagi was bad #jfc nagi #mikage reo #nagi seishiro #nagireo #blue lock #tw sui ideation

[orgasming-caterpillar]

Hate when people base my character's entire personality off of a single aspect. You think that just cuz he's the son of the High King means he should be the top? Just cuz he's the crown prince means he cant be a bottom??? What is this, fucking 14th century? Well I mean yeah it is but that doesn't mean there aren't kinky little faggots who like being mistreated

#im so mad #MERE characters ke baare me MERI insights pe doubt kar raha hai #this is why i only show the nov draft to people i really trust #they get me fr #if you have the ljnk to the document you're like one of the top 10 peoples i trust in my life #he's never read a book he's never consumed literature he's fucking STRAIGHT #my brother in christ why are you even readjng it if you dont relate to or understand the characters at all #straight cis male teenagers infuriate me #dancing on your heartstrings #www.doyh.com/rambles #ranveer x raghav

[nyan-koii]

ive lots of ideas i cant concentrate on which one should i give more attention to and start first so please vote guyss 🙏

i. its the one that i mention ! this one will have dubcon, loss of virginity, hate sex and just mark being so fucking mean to seb he couldnt stop crying

ii. Bmw seb with ferrari michael where seb is stuck in a hole he found and michael took advantage of the situation. Noncon, loss of virginity with a twist at the end

iii. Based on this image. Probably alternate universe too where seb is in abusive relationship with mark and jense wants to help him out but seb is confused so so confused he doesnt know if he should risk the losing the love of his life for someone who loved him

iv. Seb pining on michael and begging the older to take away his virginity. Very possessive and hero worshipping. Sebs a stalker in here too and is very clingy and michael tries to avoid him

Im still going to publish all three of it so dont worryy !

#sebschumi #sebmark #sebmarkson #sebson #fic polll !! #im done with my exams so im technically free #but i cant organize all my thoughts so im in dire need of help #and yes loss of virginity is my kink #dont kinkshame please #seb #seb my beloved #2024 goals is to destroy seb's hole !!! #and also to spread my sebschumi agenda #which is why theres two of it in the poll #can people see that sebschumi is so superior please #i need a fellow sebschumi enjoyer in my life fr #also i think almost all of it going to be dead dove lol #i cant consume things normally sorry guyss (no)

[clonehighconfessionss]

this is a weird ass confession, but i gotta tell SOMEONE this: i think ivan the terrible (that incel in the s2 pilot) is SOO FINE. i need to be put in a mental institution over this man. idk what it is, but i’m pretty sure it’s a mix of my preference for touch-starved weirdos, russians, and just, like, when cartoon characters have down-turned semicircle eyes. AND THE EYEBAGS OH MY GODDD. i need this man on his knees and whimpering. i couldn’t fix him, but i could make him worse. to paraphrase the show fleabag (2016): “i’m a bad feminist.”

im simping for an incel cartoon clone of ivan the terrible WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE HELP ME

I WISH I COULD HELP YOU! BUT YOU’RE CONFESSING TO SOMEONE WHO IS SIMPING OVER THE SPOT (I blame him for not being active on here)

I can relate to you so much! The heart wants what the heart wants?

#just like me fr #you guys don’t understand how much The Spot has consumed my life #I crave his spots #clone high #clone high season 2 #clone high ivan the terrible #clone high s2 #abe clone high #clone high cleo #clone high jfk #jfk clone high #clone high scudworth #clone high joan of arc #clone high van gogh #clone high ghandi #clone high frida kahlo #clone high frida #clone high harriet tubman #clone high confucius #confucius clone high #clone high topher bus #clone high confessions #clone headcanons

[simsaugust]

chasity aged into an adult so i spent a bunch of time in cas with her!

#ts4 #ts4 lookbook #the sims 4 #simblr #create a sim #nsb #simsaugust #trying to use the trait poses revealed a busted mod that took me a long ass time to figure out... it was chingyus 100 base game traits #even tho their spreadsheet said it was updated #so chasity lost a few of her custom traits... i just completely removed all the custom traits from my game #chasitys whole life has been basically completely consumed by the twins but hopefully once theyre kids i can play w her more fr #maxis match #maxis match cc #wcif open

[quatregats]

Hornblower's arc as a character is so fascinating to me because everything he does is a performance to get to the top, and now that he's (ostensibly) gotten there, he has no idea what to do with himself. He has no idea who he's supposed to be, and the man that he's constantly performing isn't him, but he's gotten so caught up in a certain ideal of success that he can't imagine any way out. It's so interesting to see him at the beginning of this book trying to grapple with having "made it" because he's reached a point where he can't perform any further, where he's supposed to be genuine, but he can't because he's genuinely not happy. I think that this quote, in particular, is quite telling (even though I'm not sure if even CS Forester intended it to be)—for a moment he actually starts to get on the right track and realize that he doesn't want to be here, but he falls back immediately into his old performative persona of the Successful Naval Officer because it's been so long since he knew what he wanted that all he can do is perform. Who is he? How would he even be happy? At this point in the narrative I think he's so far gone that I'm not sure there are answers to those questions anymore, and it's fascinating.

#he's a tragic character. to me <3 #he doesn't know what he wants and he's consumed by his own ambition #and honestly i don't know if he could ever be happy #like he could certainly be happier than this but idk man #he's also just like me fr and so working through him has also got me thinking about my own life and self a lot #wait no this sounds like i'm using hornblower as self-help sdfhsdfhkjdf #just like i think he's an interesting way to reflect on systems of power and how they influence people #but also how people can play into them as well #and reckoning with that and trying to find a way around that #or is it just inevitable that you fall into it #i'm obsessed with this quote though. cs forester what were you doing #perce rambles #percy yells at cecil scott #<- in a good way though. i think #i mean i don't know to what degree this is what he meant to go on but it was at least to some degree

[ruvigapo]

Honestly like... im kinda at a point where i want to stop emulating other artists???

Life is too short to try to be someone else

Just be you, ya kno??

#ruvi has art thoughts again #like okay fr ofc its hard to not look at other artist and want to be like them #and honestly that was a motivator for most of my life #i still dk if this is a good desition or not i dont draw enough to know just yet #i need to sort out some things irl before i can go back to drawing properly i think #and even then i feel like itöl take years to really see if this was the right course of action #ive stoped calling things art goals #i try to look at art for its own merrit not for how i can use it #bc i realize im part of the problem by then #i want to consume art without being an artist again #and i eould like to draw things bc i like drawing them not bc im trying to fill a niche #idk if anyone needs to hear it today but like #if i were to die tomorrow i would want to have been happy with what i had not striving to be something else every moment if every day #my room is messy and ive debilitating adhd and ptsd and im burnt out and theres more to life than trying to perfect one craft #at the expense of never looking at the sun never going on walks never valuing my friends and family #bc im too preoccupied w achieving my goals #this has been introspective hour w ruvi #i need to head to work now #muffin rambles #personal

[sovereignant]

Can’t believe Amphibia just did a whole realistic subversion of madoka ending. I’m in love with this show….

#amphibia #amphibia spoilers #amphibia finale #reign barks #this show has consumed my whole life #shoutout to josh fr

[star-shard]

A new obsessive level interest, that’s fantastic, a really good thing for my mental health. I can devote all my time of it, make it apart of my lifestyle. Then, I’ll make a bunch of content for it, let it be the difference between happiness and depression AAAAND its gone

#south park meme :-l #but fr i HATE THIS #i feel so lost and stuck unless im obsessed with something #but i legit turn into Andy with that 'i don't wanna play with you anymore' type deal #its not like i suddenly hate that interest #i'll just go from 100 to like 12 on the scale of how it consumes my life #superman and DC comics were a mid level obsession and now im in between interests and ready to DIE ya know what i mean? #is it an ADHD thing or what lmao

[an1malcannibal]

Guys I don’t think my anxiety ever went away I think that it just moved itself and got worse.

#uh oh #when the social anxiety morphes from social to regular anxiety 💀 #to be fair #I was diagnosed w generalized anxiety but we always focused on the social aspects in therapy #miss Brooke was really a gem she helped me realize that yeah not everyone is talking about you #she told me “this is going to sound harsh but it works. you are not important enough to consume everyone else’s thoughts #‘‘not everything is about you. nobody is spending the time and energy being your friend and then secretly hating everything you do’’ #are she was RIGHT!!!!! #I still have so many social anxiety issues but I’ve improved drastically #genuinely life changing. it’s very grounding it really does help #except w my dad usually he is upset at me abt something #but sometimes he isn’t and that’s nice #I have a coil of anxious horrible buzzing anxiety in my chest when I get home usually #and when everything is cool and everyone is nice to me and glad I’m home #I just deflate but in a good way! #I can feel the anxiety melting away and it’s great I’m able to actually relax a bit #makes me happy when that happens #like today! #everyone was happy to see me :) #shock and awe fr fr

[pixiefms]

“but what gansey said to adam was so out of pocket-“ WAH WAH WAH just like every single time adam let his anger out on gansey and projected his sense on inferiority on the one person who would quiet literally rearrange the planets on their axis for adam yeah okay

#like yeah it was out of pocket even gansey knew that the second he said it bro but y’all can’t keep holding tht shit against gansey #and then forgive every single thing adam did can’t see can’t hear style #like WHAT PART OF THEY ARE ALL FLAWED STUPID TEENAGERS THAT ARE STRUGGLING WITH SO MUCH #WHAT PART OF THAT ARE WE NOT GETTING #NOT ONE PERSON IS BLAMELESS #except noah he’s never done anything wrong ever in his entire life that’s my baby fr #trc #trc adam #trc gansey #these are layered complex characters i am going to actually need all of you to get some reading comprehension #and stop blindly consuming media thanks #oPEN YOUR EYES AND READ WITH YOUR EYES OPEN THANKS #and i stand by what i said idc idc idc

[astrxealis]

milgram is so interesting to me. but also i have mixed/conflicted/confused feelings too

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #<- likes to consume media critically but to a certain extent for my mental health as well #i don't want to say anything is true except for things that are explicitly confirmed and very obvious #aaa i really should read and watch all the stuff asap fr !! also really looking forward to everything in the 2nd trials #tbh i just hope they do things right and in a way that isn't actually. harmful to real life representation and whatnot? #all characters are really interesting to me tho fr ......... and all songs slay so hard fr <3 like what they did that got em into jail #HAHA jk. sorry i couldn't help but make the joke

[aria0fgold]

My brain just beamed me thoughts of my childhood anime and the realization that the moment I noticed how much I like Inuyasha's dynamic with Sango a lot more, they would've turned out to be my very first rarepair but alas... It instead became the catalyst of me finally losing my hyperfixation of 10 years on it.

#aria rants #it was like a wake up call of ''what are you even hyperfixating on it anymore?'' #also like thats a fr thing cuz young me didnt know there were things called fandom back then #i didnt know there were things like fanart and fanfics so yaknow what she been consuming content of? #official content and amvs. i didnt even know inuyasha had a manga i was wholly convinced #it only had an anime. i milked that anime (dub vers too cuz it was the one i grew up on) soooo much #i practically memorized Every Dialogue on All its episodes and movies. i even memorized #What happens in What episode (there are like 100+ eps bro) and i could even identify #a screencap of an episode. i was that unhinged. it was my life goal to keep that up #i even memorized Which opening and ending song a set of episodes will have like gurl wtf #also my music taste back then was sooo wack. cuz id click on any amv as long #as it was about inuyasha. then id loop that video and wtv song it has is added to my playlist #now i dont even remember much bout it other than how crazy hyperfixated i was on inuyasha

[death-by-landmine]

lolllllllu that one twt nct sasaeng is looking sooooo relatable rn !! >.<

#jiraiblogging #jirai kei #地雷系 #landmine girl #地雷女 #pien kei #ぴえん #ok fr i couldnt bcs im a. broke and b. have so much anxiety its ruined my handshake events #but like #the devotion #the obsession #the total and all consuming love #押しピ、天使ちゃんはあなたこの愛を抱いています♡ #sry btw from straying from my usual awfulness and boyfie vents my oshi has my whole life right now <3