#does this post make me sound crazy?

[thefugitivesaint]

'Omnibot 2000', ''Omni'', #12, Dec. 1985

We use to be a proper country that understood the craft of good Japanese merchandise. Sure, there was also a wave of xenophobic and racist reactionary politics aimed at the Japanese (see 'Gung-Ho' from 1986 for a mild example of this kind of "cultural anxiety"). When is America NOT racist? I mean, have you MET America? It's a pretty confused country. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to digress here, I just wanted to show you a 25'' toy robot that you could once own. It was also relatively useless if the remote for it broke (or got lost). It ran on two AA batteries. It probably didn't run that long. But robots right? We once lived with the promise of robots in our homes. Now the taste of that promise is bitter on our tongue, the memory of that promise sour. We live in the echo of its lie. We live under the dictatorship of the algorithm.

#omni #omni magazine #omnibot #omnibot 2000 #Tomy Company #takara tomy #robots #does this post make me sound crazy? #I'm not crazy #All I wanted was a pepsi

[derpinette]

girls being nice to me gets me higher than ecstasy ever could

#SORRY for the corny post but this is how i truly feel not waxing poetic here like literally it does #i just met the cool girl i keep talking about & IT WAS SÅ FREAKEING ÅSUM ^_^_^_^_^_^ YAY #HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPPY JOY #OK sorry for screaming But i really am very excited... #turns out she is autistic & we discussed our neuroses while eating & ugh she is just as cool as i thought she was #always tell people you think have Swag that you noticed it on them see how it worked for me #i was so scared of spilling my spaghettis but turns out that was exactly what i needed to do to be friends ^_^ YAY #we went to a lot of different libraries together & i got a small old eyeless bunny plush from the event we went to caus i felt bad for it #i even showed her my pony art & i told her about my cringe interest (that music event i like...♯RealOnesKnow ) #& she thought it was COOL.& i felt like it was really genuine & she talked about reading BL LOL we discussed fujos together #we even talked about finding moids ugly #it was so awesome she was so cool & Nice To Me... i feel like i am on CUMULONIMBUS ( cloud 9 ) ^_^_^_^_^_^ #talking to her in person was so much better than online OMG now i wish i really was friends with you muties IRL #i wish you a Girl Friend experience just like this to those who post about wanting them i really do #also the reason why i even like my Music Event so much is because the first time i watched it was with a bunch of women #& i had so much fun & they were so nice to me i keep returning & now that Event means so much to me & I LOVE IT sorry (NOT) #i know this sounds like tumblrina fiction i would not believe it either IDK what to say to make it sound legitimate 0_0 like it is so crazy #to me as well IDK i can barely get over it & IDK if i really want to so um well YAY ^_^ AIMU SO HEPI :DDD

[aturnoftheearth]

i need everyone to understand how badly i need to both never shut up about lord huron and also gatekeep them forever

#it’s like . someone tells me they started listening to them i’m crying and holding their hand and jumping up and down #but if they drop a new album this year i need them to stay off the tiktok radar #does this make sense . i like my $50 tickets i like my 20 note posts i like my good quality merch that’s not extremely overpriced etc #like i don’t think they’ll ever have some crazy rocket to stardom the way someone like noah kahan had just bc they do Not have a social #media presence but i just saw someone say they feel like this is the year they’ll get really big and wough it made me spiral #how do u say ‘they’re at the perfect level of popularity’ without sounding rude .

[horseshoemybeloved]

i just realized you don't really draw sp patrick lol he looks soooo different

i have SOOOOO many thoughts and feelings about soul punk and it makes me go crazyyy and i have tried so many times to capture how i feel about it via art and AAA like. like its so. That whole era is like,,, vibrantly sad to me. Like we all viewed him as this dazzling eccentric confident guy but like, man i feel like he was really sad :(. And I think soul punks music reflects that aswell. Like if you do a light listen it’s fun and loud and upbeat music, but the lyrics are all so… hopeless and hurt and SAD ( to me ). Like with run dry, its a fun very danceable song. but if you listen like,,, its kinda sad and about someone struggling with alcoholism ( ik he doesnt write about himself and it could be some meta commentary on like the glamorization of alcohol in media/music but still it is SAD to ME!) I feel like that era was him really masking his pain. Coverin him in dazzling neon yellows to distract from those cold lonely blues That came across kinda negative Soul Punk is like my fav album ever the sounds in it make me stim like CRAYZEE i am in my room like dis

#im not really like #a sound stimmer #like sounds dont do too much but i have exeptions #certain bits in songs make me go crazy and like all of soul punk does that 4 me lol #was also stimmin like crazy yesterday cus #cus i #i got #i got chocolate cake LMAO #i have a spotify playlist of songs with bits that i LOVE tee hee #maybe ill post a comp of good sounds idk #anon

[obihoe]

sdfdfdgfds anyway i got to the "u can feel the lust to kill in ur flesh" mistranslation of madara's reaction to the rinne tensei resurrection last night. its so funny. german translators are madara sadist truthers 👍

#for the german girlies he also says 'wenn ihr den tod sucht seid ihr bei mir richtig .. ihr dreckigen mistviecher!' #to the bijuus #as he faces them ASFGSFS #'dreckige mistviecher' is like. smth u'd say to a rat. or some kind of just dirty disgusting little animal that u hate #idk how to translate it really but it does sound MUCH more offensive i think than ... 'beasts' #or whatever he says in english #he's like 'if youre seeking to die u are right coming to me .. dirty little shit rats' like ASDSFSFGS it is sooooo funny #they just make him unHINGED #which IS good for him #he deserves to go crazy #he needs his enrichment! #madara #posts

[daydadahlias]

Have you seen that insta live from like 2017/2018 from ash where he is singing wicked game, that ashton makes me go😩😵‍💫😻

UHM DO YOU MEAN ONE OF MY FAVORITE VIDEOS OF ALL TIME??

#pigeon #anon #UGHHHHH this one #mmm #nnnnnnnnnmmmmmm #so when i first became a 5sos fan (this was pre superbloom) the only ashton singing content we had was insta lives like this #and i watched this one like once a day swtg #he looks so pretty he sounds so pretty he does a lil GIGGLE at the end #chin dimple #it's the short bangs for me personally #ashton with bangs makes me crazy #homie is so hot sigh #homeboy's gonna like... get it - bella hadid #LOL thinking abt the first time i ever publicly declared i liked ashton irwin. i posted on my snapchat #'i dont care abt 5sos and i refuse to become a fan but their drummer?? mans can get it' #and here i am 3 years later yknow #also my friend texted 'jess ur ace. what is he going to get' and i was like uhm my love and affection <3 #and THREE YEARS LATER ! he still has it!

[swamp-gremlin]

My Old Nick hc's, interpretation, analysis, and other odd bits PT.1

Part 2

This is long overdue but I feel I oughta get something out of the way. I've had a incredibly aggressive special interest in him for like 3-5ish years and at some point in writing hc's I just started making shit up(I mean isn't that just hc's are?) because I really just took a guy with a whopping 14 lines of dialogue and just started sprinting.

I'm choosing to actually leave a few things out as I wish to explore those ideas more in This isn't over Jack, Ill probably swing back around to this after I wrap that up. In the mean time if you wanna swap ideas I'm down(please please please pleaseplea)

Turns out I hit text limit with this oh my lord, ill post pt2 tomorrow, i'm sorry

Can't think of anything particularly triggering in this but i'll warn it gets just kinda bleak

Human turned Fae- I will not elaborate, this will be explained later...

would actually break your legs if you called him a fairy

I've never actually pinned down any specific powers for him for some reason? like i just cant think of like any that i could write/ illustrate that wouldn't feel too gauche... So I just kinda nebulously imaged so weird fae-fuckery type of magic- though I think the most compelling interpretation of his powers was in Scouts Australian Christmas (pls go read it, its a really good fic)

Gay, but I cant imagine he's like particularly out about it; like its a iykyk sorta think because I definitely feel there probably some shame or internalized homophobia there (smth smth homophobic senator caught in a gay bar joke)

Autistic, but most definitely not diagnosed- he would become absolute incensed if you suggested it, like "There is nothing wrong with me, I am normal" but you can tell that he knows there's something "wrong with him" but he has no idea what and is incredibly afraid of even attempting to confront that

Can't imagine there's a moment where he's not masking, he doesn't understand his own limits and will keep doing things until he quite literally can't anymore

Probably has some ~effeminate~ interest he's deeply embarrassed by, but like in all reality its very normal and even if it was thats not a bad thing, he just makes it a big deal for no reason

STRADDLING the line between infodumping and mansplaining

Could be genuinely into a topic but he's just so condescending about it

High functioning alcoholic, kinda in that 50s/ rich way but it's very obvious he has a problem but everyone always brushes it off as "thats just how he is/ things are"

Nick could honestly just be summed up in his impact as a *a systematic bad thing happens again and again* "thats just how things are, get over it" sorta thing or a "Heart warming: student raises funds to prevent orphans from being sent to orphan grinder" and then no-one questions why the orphan grinder exists in the first place

He has been meticulously constructing his public image/ brand as "Old Nick"/ "The Spirit of Australian Christmas"

He is a liar, but he's a very good liar

His accent is fake, his laugh is fake, his public lore is fake and he's not even Australian he's British! (Which is arguably worst thing he has done)

He's basically been voice training to keep up a modern australian accent for years now, but his real accent is more of that 1700s british (which actually sounds different from modern a modern britsh accent) but sometimes he's has moments and his accent slips (mostly when he's yelling)

Has practiced his evil villain laugh so hard, like its a good villain laugh but if you listen hard you can tell its not real

Genuinely so fucking embarrassed by his actual laugh which i can only describe as if a goose that has been smoking a pack a day was being strangled to death

I kinda go back an forth on Nicks upbringing sometimes, because I kinda feel I went the kinda overplayed sorta tragic backstory; but also growing up in 1700s England was probably not fun if you weren't rich and also have you ever met a miserable boomer who does the whole "kids these days are too damn soft back when I was a kid *recounts an incredibly traumatizing event*!" Thing? Yeah he probably does that a lot and it makes everyone kinda uncomfortable

Maybe orphaned? Probably had brothers because he has strong younger brother "your oppressing me by giving me a task" energy (btw this relates to a super stupid hc that im not gonna share because its incredibly dumb)

Expressed a lot of attention seeking behavior from a young age, would purposefully get into trouble so someone would notice him

This behavior followed him into adult life and it would just keep getting worst and worst, like getting into bar fights that he would definitely lose and petty crime

Eventually he just kept ramping up the severity of his crimes till he actually had a warrant/ bounty placed for his arrest

To avoid getting arrested he became a sailor in his late 20s and jumped between ships and trades up until his 50s/60s

Eventually he was arrested and then get shipped off to Australia

After a few months he stuck there he was like "actually, fuck this" and started plotting an escape

He stole a boat and with his previous knowledge from being a sailor he was so full of himself he thought he did single-handedly sail and navigate back Britain or a British sympathetic colony and then lay low for the rest of his life

Of course he didn't happen and due to the fact he is stupid he got stranded in antarctic and the rest is history

If you wanna know how we got from "random crusty criminal" to "Spirit of Australian Christmas" you have to stick around for my shit ass comic and videos fucker

anyway where was i, Nick proceeded to twists that into "Yeah i totally meant to do discover antarctic, even though i was a 1780s peasant who would have not have even known that antarctic was even thing" he kinda sorta dropped the rest of it and made up more shit Homelander style

I don't believe that Nick was like well off in anyway when he was still mortal, and despite being just bludgeoned over the head with the effects of classism and a nightmare capitalist hell society he developed this horrible idolization of the rich and developed this almost "by your bootstraps" mentality but with like the brutality rich bushiness owners would treat there workers, where he though if he became horrible and ruthless he could trample and climb on the backs of his fellow men till he made it to that oh so coveted high society life.

probably doesn't help he would do absolutely anything for money either

and the thing is he made it, he's just unfathomably rich(that is till all those gambling debts catch up to him...) he got what he wanted, he got he's gotten all the money and attention he could have wanted... and yet he's miserable, nothing will ever be enough for him.

Throw back motif that's still my favorite- "decaying luxury". Nick is like obviously rich as fuck and yet just refuses to fix anything, like his sweater has so many little holes in it he just stopped bothering to fix, he's patched his pants so many times, stairs worn down to the point the rug is thread bear and the wood is dented, intricate arsenic and lead laced wallpaper that's now water damaged and peeling, his favorite chair's seams are ripped, and the stuffing and springs are just compressed and flat to the point its not even comfortable to sit in anymore. Like he can fix it, he has the money, and yet he just won't for some reason.

Oh speaking of arsenic and lead- mans is just absolutely FULL of lead, arsenic, asbestos, any other harmful thing the Victorians where just absolutely HUFFING

tangent on a tangent, i really associate him with the Victorian era despite him being born in the 1700s, maybe its the child labor, maybe its the stupid chops, he just looks like he should be in super tall neck-line and doing coke for a headache

Nick is just both incredibly self absorbed but also so fucking insecure, like very big insecure man makes his problems everyone else's problem and take his out on other people to feel better about himself energy

He's just so vain too, like i image he's just obsessed with himself and his image, probably doesn't help he's quite literately has been decomposing for like the last two centuries (IT WILL BE EXPLAINED WHY LATER I PROMMY) so he just has this like incredibly extensive Patrick Bateman ass self-care routine so he doesn't get moldy

#hey have you ever wanted to listen to the ramblings of a fucking mad man? here you go bc god does writing this out make me sound crazy #i did not expect to hit char limit with this dear god... #and for a guy that hasn't been relevant since 2011 #im genuinely so nervous to post this bc this is just so much but this is what its like in my head 24/7 i have to live like this #tf2 #tf2 headcanons #tf2 old nick #from the mouth of madness #old nick tf2

[juniperhillpatient]

to be honest I really like writing super fucked up horror stuff maybe if scream au ultimately gets a positive reaction I’ll write Yellowjackets au after all

#the other one I’m considering is IT au #that one would ultimately be less fucked up given IT is ultimately a power of friendship story #Yellowjackets au. I could go crazy with that #but so far no that many people seem to be reading scream au #which is totally fine it’s a self indulgent project I really wanted to make #but like. I write for myself I post for attention #so it’ll ultimately depend what the reception upon the story’s completion has been #if I want to write more similarly dark content #or go back to lighthearted silliness #I know that sounds bad or whatever but if you post stuff be honest with yourself #it does matter what the overall reception is lol #like it affects what you want to do next #but anyway yeah. if you guys like this type of writing from me. there might be more. I have ideas for Yellowjackets au…. #but we’ll see!!!! #I was just looking at the Yellowjackets tag thinking how much I love seriously fucked up horror #& well. I’m thinking out loud on the dash again #rose.txt

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

most of the examples i see of this are in a vacuum harmless but i do find it concerning how often i witness an exchange on the internet that’s like:

some complete fucking rando on social media, potentially a self-branded expert of some kind but probably not even that, like literally just a person with internet access: did you know that actually [information that may or may not be factually accurate, because it’s literally just some person saying stuff on twitter]?

other people: wow this is so helpful, thanks so much for telling me, i had no idea

like even when the thing the person is saying is true i find this concerning. because like, Some Person On Twitter should not be an automatically accepted source on…… anything. like it’s fine to read something like that and be like “oh interesting i’d never heard of this” and then do some more digging. or i mean if it’s not serious it’s also fine to be like “oh huh cool if true” lol. but it stresses me out how many people are wandering around with their default reaction to certain kinds of alleged information, regardless of its provenance, being “thank you for enlightening me, o kind stranger,” and not, “hm, i wonder if there is literally any basis for believing this other than that someone said it was true?”

#you think someone would do that? just go on the internet and lie? #i thought about this bc i remembered the p*yt*n b**chd**th louisa may alcott thread lol #and how the replies on twitter were so like…. #like it wasn’t even ‘i’d never considered this but now that you mention it you make a good point’ #(which like. He Did Not. but whatever) #like the tone of it was very ‘thank you so much for enlightening me with your expertise’ #with a side of ‘it’s crazy how this objective historical fact was only brought to light by Some Guy On Twitter With A Podcast’ #like there was no awareness of it even *as* an argument being put forth #that’s the element of this that i find a concerning behavior pattern even though in this case it reallt #does not matter that much #like it wasn’t people agreeing with this bad argument. that’s annoying. but it’s different #than people taking something as like empirical fact literally just because the person saying it said that it was #anyway but i was also sort of thinking about this phenomenon re: a mutual’s post on the twitter definition of intrusive thoughts #because i feel like i see this a LOT with psych stuff #where someone will be like ‘hey did you know that [behavior or feeling] is ACTUALLY [term for a symptom]? #and people will be like ‘wow thanks so much for educating me kind stranger’ #like you should really aim to build into your thought process some degree of #‘this sounds interesting but back up. do i have other reasons to believe that it is actually true?’ #nobody’s perfect and i let stuff slide without noticing i’m sure #but many people really seem to think ‘uncritically accepting what someone who seems cool says’ is like the correct approach #it is not!!!! #don’t take my word for it :) use your brain to decide if i am right (i am)

[todayisafridaynight]

my only crime in finding jingu hot is that his voice is fuckin grating i may be deranged but im not delusional

#snap chats #PLEASE give him a different voice i cant yumi i know you coulda done better #oh yeah im playing rggo and i pulled him hi #i also pulled baby kiryu and im crying he sounds so cute 😭😭 #like i listen to him and i go Damn That Do Be Kiryu As A Teenager #LIKE JUST IMAGINE KURODA TALKING IN A HIGH VOICE AND THATS WHAT YOU GET #its so cute im obsessed #i also got inoue and saigo :]] makes me laugh cause saigo's leadership ability increases inoue's attack and Brother Needs It 💀 #i have kiryu as my leader tho since his ability increases everyones attack by 15% but still thats so funny #inoue has terrible attack all things considered but i like his heat ability so #jingu's heat is actually great it's only like. 4-5 bars but not only does it does damage to one target it also heals the party #inoue boosts the highest attacking unit (which is safigo for my party) and heals everyone and saigo just heals #I DONT MEAN TO PUT SO MUCH HEALING but jingu was a crazy nice deal when everyone else's heats are like level 7 #saigo will prob just be a straight attacker but it sucks that his heat isn't an attacking ability. BIG waste smh #rggo keeps giving me ryujis btw. i have so many ryujis i can make a team of ryuji at this point #like two were free im p sure but i just keep geting more 💀 #rgg loves ryuji and it shows #ok im going back to playing bye #fuckin tricked you into reading a post about RGGO instead of just my insane bullshit about finding jingu hot #literally the lamest antagonist ever but if his voice was better he could get it

[lulu2992]

imagine joseph falling in love and trying to flirt/show interest in his future wife. my goddddd XD absolute disaster. he was so shy and stutter-y before he became the father.

I’ve personally always seen Joseph as an eloquent person, someone who is contemplative and “inhabited” but not afraid to talk to other people… except maybe to the girl he had feelings for and who would become his wife. In this case, maybe he was flustered and awkward, haha.

By the way, I think it’s sad that Far Cry 5 doesn’t tell us more about Joseph’s wife because, clearly, he loved (and probably still loves) her deeply and she was one of the most important people in his life. At the time, he hadn’t seen his brothers, his only family, for years and had no idea where they were. He was alone until he found her and she became his new anchor, but the game treats her and their daughter more like a plot device than actual people with a name and a personality (unlike Ishwari and Lakshmana in Far Cry 4, for example). I would have loved to have more details about who she was, how they met, and what their time together was like…

#far cry 5 #joseph seed #does anyone else think younger joseph sounded too different in collapse’s post-credits ‘scene’? #hearing him call his wife ‘baby’ felt weird to me #don’t get me wrong it was cute but he barely sounded like himself #they really treated her death like it’s what made him ‘crazy’ #but he’s always been kind of strange #which is why I prefer the young joseph from rite of passage #but DH and DH were involved in the making of the comic (not the dlc) so I guess that explains a lot #far cry 5 spoilers #far cry 4 spoilers

[latinokaeya-moving]

actually one of the less important things that i’m actually kinda mad abt w kaeya in genshin is the fact that it’s canonically said varka took all the horses on the expedition with him and “left the cavalry captain without a cavalry” as if that isn’t an insane thing to do like ur fr telling me n expecting me to believe he took every single last working horse in mondstadt POSSIBLY including kaeyas own personal horse? and for WHAT like don’t make me fucking mad i refuse to believe this bc genshin is a terrible terrible game all i know is that his horse is lovingly being doted on and taken care of by kaeya In Mondstadt everyday thank you very much like how dare you imply otherwise

#x #gi posting #i don’t believe it it sounds so stupid kaeya STILL has knights working under him and he’s the leader of the cavalry company what in the #godamn hell r they meant to do if they don’t have their horses #better yet WHAT does varka need w all those horses that meant he Didnt need their riders???? why didn’t he just take the entire cavalry #company then???? #this makes me SO heated for no reason at all like it’s so irrelevant n does not matter but idc. kaeya HAS his personal horse that he didn’t #let varka take bc he’s not crazy n she’s a temperamental terror of a mare that’s absolutely gorgeous and kaeya keeps her in the Loveliest #condition Ever and tries to ride her at least once a day n feeds her as many treats as he lets himself get away with and that has turned #that beast into the most terrifying thing ever. she tries to bite and kick ANYONE that gets too touchy i know it i see it in my mind #she only lets kaeya que la quichiquea bc he basically raised her ok #i haven’t settled on a name on her yet but just know. Just Know he definitely affectionately refers to her as darling or smth #i’m sorry i’m just obsessed w horse girl kaeya and i won’t stand by the idea that he just Let Varka take his own horse w him…. like that’s #not my king. he would NEVER

[divortion]

Like. As a screenwriter I just can’t wrap my head around how ppl think a Roman death could possibly be written this season in any way that works. Violent death/being murdered wouldn’t happen/would be corny if it did/would spark a whole other plot thing that couldn’t be resolved this late in the game. Pill overdose wouldn’t happen bc people are sort of misreading the whole pill thing anyway and again it would be very sudden & OOC & corny. Any sort of suicide would be uncharacteristic for Roman too because he’d see that as a ‘failure’. Even if none of this was the case & there was a pathway for a good Roman death & a narrative reason for it (neither of which currently exist) it would also be an awkward repeating of the extremely recent emotional beat of grief from episode 3 — and probably would lack impact/feel weird as a result. What are they gonna do, Connor’s wedding the sequel? In the same season? Sorry there is just no scenario where I see a Roman death working or being narratively satisfying or making sense on any level and when I see ppl talking about it I think “what are you on about”

#the ONLY post that ever made a Roman death sound interesting to me was one that said it would make him a Rose figure #making Kendall the logan (and I guess Shiv sort of the ewan??). but still. i don’t see it working or being necessary or anything #i did just recently remember jesse armstrong saying ep 8 is the most shocking though which does make me expect something crazy #bc what could be more shocking than connor’s wedding?! i can’t imagine

[seokwoosmole]

Mark Tuan's solo career does interesting things to my mind cause every now and then I remember that the same man that gets me in my feels balling my eyes out with his soft low voice and heartbreaking lyrics is the same one who said "YoU aRe ApArt of ME. youandme...we are...ONE" And then I think about other idols in groups whose full talent isn't properly showcased the way it should be like huh...it's a brain cruncher

#im not saying that mark is a bad rapper at all or that his sang badly in got7 songs #you calling me name is a one off and very bad example of a song that would best showcase mark's talent as an artist #and I am also a newer aghase than most and haven't listened to EVERY single got7 song just yet #but mark tuan the solo artist & mark tuan the member of got7 are two very different people to me (at least musically/artistically speaking) #like mark has some really good raps in got7 but none that stick to me & leave w/ a lasting impression of WOW...what an amazing rap #idk what position he intended on having initially but I think he's an infinitely more fantastic soft pop singer than he is a rapper #but yeah other idols that come to mind that are similar are... #sf9's chani cuz like yeah he raps fine & his deep voice makes for great adlibs but his talent is excellent & the place #its best showcased isn't even in sf9 songs but in the osts he does for dramas which most of the time are like soft pop & ballad songs?!?! #I swear I had more examples but im drawing a blank for whatever reason #ok on the flipside the rappers being main vocalist memes are really funny but my boy hongjoong has such a good singing voice #the ateez vocal line is not lacking whatsoever & him and Mingi are such a solid rap line so there's rlly no potential being wasted but also #everytime he posts covers on YouTube they're so good!!! numb?? purple rain?? black and white?? all EXCELLENT #call me crazy but if hj had higher range & more breath control he would sound like Jongho and no I cant be proved wrong #idk what my point was with this just idk man #set positions in groups is great for structure and formula but it seems kinda trapping sometimes too #mark #got7 #got7 mark #mark tuan #kpop

[oetscop]

developing an emotional attachment with a character and promptly hitting them with my beam that givesthem schizophrenia

#tongue #yes im rainerposting again get over it !!!!!!!!!!! #this post is only funny to me i feel like someones gonna take this the wrong way lmao #im working on ghe fic again i still. dont know if ill wven end up posting it #i keep making myself sad with it like unmm #rainer trying to get in the house because anna wont just listen to him and he doesnt understand why #shes scared and i mean somewhat rightfully so considering shes pretty small and rainers tall and Does Things when hes irrationally angry #and she wont just listen to him about care being lina reborn #this is the third time hes done this #leaning against the door sobbing just asking for a picture of care because really all of this was to keep her safe #mikes been gone and now cares gone too and she was the last thing that kinda reminded him of mike #and he looked after her when anna was just leaving her alone in a big dark scary house by herself #he convinced himself hes the only one who really ever cared about her #and its like she died too and really she did in a way. care A is long gone #and she wont just give him a photo. its like everything hes ever cared about is 6ft under #and all anna can see is someone whos more than willing to cause harm and is too terrified to listen to him #she just thinks he sounds fucking crazy #then within a few days hes gone again and the next time anyone sees him is christmmas eve

[no-one-hears-me]

random story idk why I feel like telling this. anyways. so like a month ago I was taking a good thorough shower like full shave and exfoliating my scalp type shower yk. so as I was exfoliating the inside of my belly button I was thinking to myself about how no man deserves to even LOOK at me etc etc. that type of shower. then later that night a man asked me to hang out and it was like 1am so we all know what kind of hang out session this would be. and obviously like noooooo wtf at least offer to take me to applebees first but at the same time I was like well. maybe I shouldn't let all my hard work go to waste

#i genuinely love applebees btw and half off apps after 9pm? 1 dollar marg night? crazy #but it was too late so it would have to be taco bell which i also love dearly. or maybe mcdonalds #everywhere else is closed ig #but he's asking me to hang out at 1am he's obviously not enough of a gentleman to buy me a quesadilla first #actually he's nice he prob would #everything i post makes me sound like i hate men soooo much and i actually love men btw that's the problem #i just hate certain ones and a lot of behaviors that men commonly display #like why is it acceptable to ask someone to hang out in the backseat of your car at night #still haven't answered or even opened one dude's text from last night bc what does he want from me smh #wish i wasn't so hot and funny and desirable #hope you enjoyed this story btw. this is my longest post in years #Sera