#don’t hesitate either :)

[yashley]

Say something true!

#critical role #ygifs #imogearne #imogen x fearne #when you’re taking a picture of the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen and the camera falls back and fucking decks you in the face #fearne going it’s ok you don’t need to confess I know~~ while imogen interrupts to say ‘’you’re a loser’’ they drive me NUTSkljsgdlkjs #also my brain is a little beehive cos these two Started with Fearne being the enabler to darker things while imogen was cautious #to fearne Seeing imogen about to be lost to ruidus and hardveering into panic that the power would never be worth losing her #to imogen hearing fearne hesitate and deny the shard and then telling fearne she should do it anyway #the way these two handle the other's Sways in darkness in such a Knowing way - ‘’Are you sure it wasn’t intentional?’’ #there’s like this ping and before it was encouraging and now fearne is scared and imogen is enabling the risk #and it’s like either imogen is silently ensuring laudna’s safety by fearne taking the shard despite any risk #or imogen honestly believes that fearne is stronger even than the power she would embrace. There is no risk. Fearne will conquer this. #so it’s like is it ulterior motives or is it faith or is it hypocrisy or is it all three at once it's so good #imogen spending her entire life running from her power so isn’t it so much easier to tell fearne she can just do it while imogen couldn’t #or is it just her genuinely encouraging fearne from Knowing the aftermath of pursuing the power #but it's like imogen ...... why would fearne choose you over the possibility for power when she's never done that before #and is this insistence/encouragement going to actually reassure fearne or is it going to be another crack #and when they do the ritual fearne asks imogen to be the one to take her out and imogen tries to comfort her by agreeing #and fearne looks on sadly and nods #remembering when she was asked to be the one to take imogen out and all fearne knew was that she couldn’t #anyway imogen's face when fearne said you're in love with me imogen said NOT NOWDSHKJF

[magicwithered]

I could go on and talk about how Laerryn is not, in the end, motivated by hubris. Though The Age of Arcane is the age of Wizards who believe themselves bigger than gods. Or, or, I could talk about how Laerryn Coramar-Seelie was pushed by grief so deep it doesn’t just come in waves, it never fucking leaves.

How “It’s stupid to try and become a god” because she asked for the gods to save her friend. Pleaded with them to bring them back. That it was hubris that got her friend killed, and Laerryn is not the smartest person in Avalir for nothing. That she crushed it under her heel, but if her best friend, the greatest person she’s ever known had to die for her ambitions than it better well be fucking worth it.

That it is love, and love lost, that motivates her to do the things she does. And the fear of losing love again and again that motivates her to cast blight, despite her having paused for a second to listen.

Pride was her fatal flaw when Evandrian died. But it was not when she helped cause the calamity. It was love and love alone. Because pride is for people who don’t get shit done, pride is for the undeserving. She built a cathedral with her own two hands between working and researching. Between grief and mourning. Of course Laerryn is proud of herself, of course she believes in herself. She’s the goddamn Architect Arcane, she keeps this city afloat, makes discoveries for people to eventually use. She is the heart of the city. But she does not still her hand in pride, but fear, but love.

Love is what causes the Calamity. Love for Loquatious, love for Patia, love for her people. And also deep unsettling grief. Grief for what was lost to her, grief that the gods did not grant Evandrian reprieve. Grief for all the things that she could not save. Why would she waste her time trying to become a god, when she can show the gods that even them, even the mundane, even the mortals that they’ve created can do wonderful things and perform miracles. That they do not need them to grant them wishes, that they can do it themselves instead of waiting for the whims and whimsies of the Primordials to pay them any attention.

Why would the gods give her this power, this intelligence that she’s honed like a finally tuned instrument if not so that she can show them all that Avalir can be? And in the end, how could she learn? Why would she change everything? Change anything. In the end, her point was proven, the things she lost were no longer for naught. How could she ever regret what happened if in the end it was for love?

#exu laerryn #laerryn coramar seelie #avalir #exu calamity #this was inspired by Laerryn’s hesitation when Nydas fucking grappled her #and then seeing the Tree of Names and seeing Quay in danger and IMMEDIATELY casting blight #also aabria said she didn’t learn anything from the calamity and I was like: shit I wouldn’t either lmfao #I kept seeing like: it was only love #or it was only hubris #and I don’t think enough people think about #how close Evandrian and Laerryn were #and how she TOO was grieving #and how grief can fester and infect #how mourning can rot someone from the inside out #if they don’t have the ability to expel it #AND ALSO! #How Laerryn is as a person as such a goal oriented person #she would have to make his death mean something #because if he died and she cannot be successful in the thing that caused his sickness #then she killed him and it was pointless

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF PRIORITY: THE CITADEL (PART 2)

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, and Maj. Kaidan Alenko With: Councilor Donnel Udina, Councilor Tevos, Councilor Laiel Sparatus, Cmdr. Armando-Owen Bailey, and Kai Leng And a Special Guest Appearance by: The Illusive Man But sometimes the way a thing goes down does matter, Sophie. Later- when you have to live with yourself. Knowing that you acted with integrity- then it matters. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #sophie shepard #james vega #EDI #kaidan alenko #shenko #fshenko #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #james’s panicked face as the shuttle goes down you will always be famous to me bc you are so relatable #at this point i just know the normandy crew is not letting shep EDI or james near anything mechanical anymore #(something mechanical explodes around them on literally every mission at this point- cars.. bombs.. ships.. you name it!) :) #the way i didn’t even realize EDI and kaidan were wearing matching armor on this mission until i got to the elevator and i- 🥹 (blue crew!!) #but like- the way when soph gets off the elevator and kaidan has the gun drawn and she tells them to lower their weapons?? #and EDI and james don’t even hesitate? THOSE ARE MY BABIES!!! THATS MY SQUAD RIGHT THERE!! THE LEVEL OF TRUST BETWEEN THESE THREE!! 🥹🥹🥹 #and they don't raise their weapons again?? not until soph raises hers?? like it's the level of trust between her and them for me 🥹 #i will say i talk a lot about how me3 shenko canon doesn’t really follow my own shenko canon (and my canon coup is MUCH DIFFERENT) #but something i noticed about the coup that i really liked? when kaidan has his gun drawn on shep you can see his hands shaking a little #it’s SO SUBTLE (and it’s easier to notice when you’ve got the video slowed down) but like?? the way his hands aren’t steady?? #when he has the gun drawn on someone he loves?? i cried a bit making that gif ngl 🥺 #the soft little ‘you won’t’ from shep after ‘i better not regret this’ makes me 🥺 every time. #there’s a canon reason soph doesn’t take the renegade interrupt but part of it is bc i like kaidan’s convo on the docks better :) #speaking of the docks the intro to the convo is a bit nonchalant but i like kaidan’s speech about integrity/living with your decisions #and the conversation between him/shep about what happened on the landing pad (though i wish it was a tiny bit longer!!) #there’s no ‘i feel like you would have taken me out’ line in the soph™️ canon but we supplemented it with some rewriting bc loose canon™️ #(she never draws a gun on the landing pad either but that’s a story for the actual canon 🙃) #and yes i gif’ed the ass shot. there’s only one valid ass shot in the series and it’s this one! and you can quote me on that! ✨

[buriedinmyownfeelings]

We don’t change ships in this household

And also Non I really hope you are dead cause you kinda suck ngl

#dff the series #dead friend forever #pheejin #dff spoilers #Phee deserved way better in my opinion #like yeah he might be on a beautiful revenge arc #but also #non really cheated on him without hesitation #and then lied #and then did it again #just no #I’m a Non hater and I won’t apologize for it #they could’ve been cute #but I don’t support a cheater #especially with a freaking teacher #Phee is too good for him #and then he screwed him up so now Phee has commitment issues #Jin I’m still undecided on whether he was wronged or if he has done something bad #but either way #I support him #pheejin will save me #i’ll die on this hill #tacopper

[prettyboyredacted]

i am presentin my cunt & waggin my tail btw :3 i’m all wet & open rn if anybody wants to fuck me !!!

#please oh god please sumbody fuck me #og mick.txt #don’t hesitate to send me asks or anythin either :3 #nsft #trans nsft #nsft txt #ftm ns/fw #nsft.txt #t4t nsft #breeding. #mlm nsft #ftm nsft #ftm breeding #ftm puppy #puppy play. #puppy tag!

[rainia]

the fact that Gillion no longer uses Any of his titles anymore really makes me feel some emotions

#he’s not even. champion of the undersea #he’s just Gillion. #and you can hear the slight hesitation #when he introduces himself. as Gillion Tidestider #and nothing more #I don’t even know. whether it’s a good or bad thing either #because on the one hand. perhaps he’s will finally #just be Gill and nothing more and that will be enough #but on the other hand #you can Tell that it’s breaking something inside him #jrwi #rain rambles #anyway the elders can go fukc themselves fr

[crybaby-bkg]

writing a slow burn enemies to lovers fic is. a lot harder. than I had expected.

#it’s why it took me so long to start akdhfkfjf #I’m just not used to writing slow burn!!!! #or enemies to lovers!!! lol #especially since enemies to lovers toes a very thin line #of this being too fast and all at once after a brief makeup #OR they’re too mean in the beginning and it’s like why do u have any attraction to that person at all. #so I’m trying to find the line of hesitant friendship somewhere along the line of that!!!! #even tho I’m only on chap three right now AKDHDKFJFJF #IM SO USED TO RUSHING THIS FEELS SO WEIRD!!!!!! #I’m ready for them to fugg #bc fugg is all I know I fear #but it’s coming along very well and I’m enjoying the writing process so much!!! #only downside is my wrist and back hurting #but trust and believe I’ll be back writing tomorrow ☝🏼 #I’m enjoying this so much it’s so cathartic #I think I’m gonna write about five chapters first before I publish it and then write the rest as I go #I just know I can fall behind bc of school and depression but I’m really liking this so far!!! #also think I might upload on Monday’s or Thursdays??? idk #bc I do school tues/wed and I don’t typically get on my computer on sundays #and I usually go to bed either really late or really early Fridays LOL idk #I’m rambling soooo much I’m just so excited about this!!! OH and j made a banner and I love that too!!!! #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[ashdash2417]

I have my own commission sheet thingy saved in my drafts, and it’s been there for literal months, if not a few years…

Dunno how long it’s gonna stay there. :D

#I’ve been holding off on opening commissions for a while note #*now #for a few reasons… #one of them being that I don’t wanna make drawing feel like a chore #and I feel like that kinda happens the more I draw stuff?? #like… consistently draw I mean #Cause I got work and I only have the weekends to relax #and I don’t wanna be like *guess I should draw this now* #and not look forward to it ya know… #another reason being that I don’t know if only my username would show when someone pays me #or if my PayPal name would show instead #Cause like #that’s kinda why I made a kofi account in the first place #to keep my real name anonymous from social media #(And my real name is on my PayPal account so… and I don’t wanna turn that into a business account either honestly..) #and I’m rambling again… #Ash rambles #shut up ash! #Another nother reason I’m hesitant to open commissions #Is because some (or most) of the drawings shown as examples are kinda oldish… #and I dunno if I should change that to the more recent stuff #(And I don’t even have that much recent stuff honestly) #okay I better shut tf up now pfbtb

[fruit-of-infidelity]

// Really spicy content below:

Richter would be the type of lover to kiss you mid-blowjob (as well as right after) without hesitation.

Ryuuto would cringe at the thought of tasting himself, and make you rinse your mouth out or wait it out.

#(( Real men don’t hesitate to kiss you after you blow them. #(( Makes me wonder about the others boys now 😩 #(( Shuu? Wouldn’t really care #(( Reiji? Either he’s too mature to care or is absolutely against it #(( Ayato? Depending on how ‘in the mood he is’ maybe or maybe not #(( Kanato? ew no he would never #(( Laito? absolutely. pucker up #(( Subaru? begrudgingly lmao. #(( the Mukami’s Tsukinami’s and Kino?? gonna be honest I feel like im an imposter when I do their reactions #(( I feel like I know very little about them in all honesty so idk 😩😩 #admin

[koqabear]

me when I lie

#slasher fic btw #I’m actually getting hesitant to post it and I don’t know why #is it bad? Is it too much? #i guess we’ll see! #gonna edit now it’ll either come out at an ungodly time tonight or tomorrow #editing then answering my lovely asks <3 #god bless the weekend #even though I still need to finish some assignments lmaoo #anyways! #rambles

[pizzaqueen]

Trying to be kinder to myself and remember that, yeah, I can and have written better fic than I’ve been writing, but my health (mental and physical) is meh compared to when I wrote those fics so I’m doing my best for how I feel now

Like, I’m not saying my writing is bad! I’m in a decent mood, so I can look at it and go “yeah, pretty good!” But I know it’s not the best I could do if circumstances were different. But they’re not and I am doing my best for now

#i always hesitate to post this kinda thing because I don’t want to put off anyone who likes my fic #but it’s like your own worst critic kinda thing and I really can do ‘better’ in the sense that I can write stuff that when I read it back… #it’s more appealing to me than my current output #and I also don’t want to look like I’m fishing for compliments #maybe I should just get a private journal for these thoughts 😅 #but yeah I’ve just been super frustrated with my writing and at myself #but that’s not helping either #misc #personal #tbd

[hopeful0romantic]

I’m fixating on Spiderverse so hard rn

#I hesitate to say hyperfixate cuz I don’t wanna misuse #either way I’m fucking obsessed #tryna get my character drawn but my art style doesn’t fit the VIBES #using a free to use base then I’m gonna use that as reference to commission someone to make a reference sheet for them #is Jumper a dumb name for a Spidersona that can jump extremely high/far #like some civilian after being saved was like ‘what’s your name?’ #and they panicked and just said the name of the spider they based their suit off of #which is a Bold Jumping spider so they just fumbled with their words before saying ‘Bold Jumper’ #cuz they hadn’t picked out a name yet #the the people just decided to cut it down to Jumper lmao #but it feels like it may be dumb but idk I’m bad with naming lmao

[ziracona]

TLDR at the bottom, as I know this became very long. My apologies.

I would really like to clarify first that I am not arguing with you or attempting to make you like her and am just attempting to explain my stance since you seemed confused about specifically this: as someone who is very solidly for mage rights in the Dragon Age games and also really likes Vivienne, I do think you overestimate how many fans she has? Which is completely understandable as fandom has cooled a little bit in the last few years, which means there’s less discourse posts floating around, but it used to be that if I found Vivienne content it was vitriolic towards her—she has a canonical Ao3 tag labeled “Vivienne (Dragon Age) Is A Bitch” for example.

We’re not prone to criticizing her character on the regular because she already gets a lot of it, on about the same level as Anders (whom I also am very fond of) and most of it has already been said before.

For examples though, her arguments about mages are genuinely infuriating and make little sense.

She is fantastically racist in the game, which is also very frustrating, though to be fair to her, I’m having trouble thinking of a companion who isn’t at some point or another without ability to correct them (Dorian supporting slavery and his “elven harpy” comment towards, Cole’s “Never trust half an elf” comment which is bad regardless of if they were intending it to be about Michel, Solas and Sera’s everything unfortunately, etc. all come to mind.) Maybe Bull, Leliana, or Josie? I can’t remember them being so off the top of my head.

These things do suck and most Vivienne fans (except for a few, but typically fans who support the fantasy Catholic Church aren’t going to be the type of fans who will bother caring about a Black woman—they’ll usually go for Cullen, the white straight man who is anti-mage and who the narrative actually cares about) are very aware of her flaws, but generally we think it was a very stupid idea to have the first Black companion (that they will actually admit to being Black anyway, unlike Isabela who got whitewashed and Morrigan and Cole, who never really have the fact that they are mixed Black acknowledged or shown in the games) support the oppressive system and use her as a mouthpiece for a conservative agenda.

(Using characters as a mouthpiece for whatever agenda the devs are trying to push with little regard to their actual characters is a very common thing in Inqusition—ex. at one point they have Cole say Cullen was a “good Templar who remembered the mages are people” when Cullen literally has a line in 2 saying “Mages aren’t people like you and me.” which is a direct quote from him, and even though Cole should by all rights be terrified by Cullen. Also, all of Varric’s Inquisition characterization.)

I mean, her companion quest is just there to have you distrust her briefly (the quest is named after a classic villain line and the youth potion paper) before “surprising” the player with the the fact that she… has layers? Cares about someone? Which is so… incredibly stupid on the Dev’s parts for a variety of reasons that if I talk about now I will start getting genuinely angry over.

I also think she has some very redeeming qualities. I personally found that she was very compassionate towards an Inquisitor she was friends with. It doesn’t stop her from being opportunistic, but I don’t think that’s a bad thing necessarily. I think this bit specifically is probably something we won’t agree on however, since we have very different readings on these moments, so I’m going keep it at that.

None of this is meant to convince you to like her at all, but I wanted to explain my perspective in doing so since you seemed confused about it.

TLDR: I, and many other pro-mage Vivienne fans, are aware of her flaws, but we think that was a terrible writing decision and do see several redeemable qualities in her character. None of this is meant to sway you in your dislike of her, but I wanted to explain my perspective since you said you didn’t understand how someone could like Vivienne and be pro-mage.

(P.S. I am very sorry if any of this comes off as condescending or if this was completely unwelcome. I’m autistic and have a hard time with tone, both reading it and delivering it. I’m working on it, but I’m still not good at tone over text.)

I. I understand all of this. I’ve criticized the fact they made the first black companion a huge bitch and a bigot against her own kind from the second it became clear that was her personality? But her being the first black companion also doesn’t innately make her a good character. Being a minority doesn’t make what a character does automatically ok or less bad, and idealization is dehumanization as much as villainizing is. It makes BioWare’s writers and their decisions gross, and their agenda gross, any anyone who uses her sucking as an excuse to be racist or disproportionately hateful to only the black companion horrible, but it at the same time doesn’t just…make her good, or ok.

She’s written stupidly, but the character they made is a bigot given no real character growth who tries to ruin the advances for mage rights even if you put forth the best possible outcomes (Lelianna Divine, allied Mages) and befriended Vivienne. She straight sucks. She does. She is a bad, selfish, emotionally manipulative person with no empathy for those of her kind less privileged than her, and a species traitor. (Or whatever? Can’t think of a better thing to categorize Mages as. Class??) It’s not like I only complain about her. I’ve been just as liberal complaining about Doriana and Sera and every other fucked up choice the Devs made. If you’ve seen anything I posted the past week, you’ve probably seen me having a meltdown over how utterly unsalvagable Inquisition is as a game. As for Viv herself, she’s not devoid of good qualities. She’ll be nice if she’s your friend, you’re right, but you have to be kind of terrible to befriend her at all, and so? So is everyone on the planet. That’s what fair weather friends /are/. But beyond that, yeah. She’s not all evil. She cared about the guy she was mistress to. She’s not a monster. But she high key is a terrible person and sucks. You’re right, the devs making her quest a quote from the Queen from Snow White of all things, to encourage a player to lie to her, is fucked up. So is literally everything they did to her. So is how they treated Bull, and Dorian, and Sera, and all kinds of things. But that doesn’t make the character good.

From your own description, you don’t actually like canon Vivienne. You like the HC version you rewrote in your head. And that’s fair, and it’s a fair way to say fuck you to the devs—I do the same with Solas. But you’ll never see me not absolutely accusing the shit out of canon end game Trespasser Solas—he’s a racial supremacist genocide intellectual dude bro, which is a horrific choice for the devs to make esp considering his preTrespasser characterization, but that’s still what he was. I can ignore that and make my HCs, but I’m not going to pretend canon wasn’t what it is. It was. And I wasn’t complaining I see alternate takes on Vivienne, but that I see people talk about Canon Viv like she’s a girlboss while claiming to be pro mage, and those things just concretely do not and cannot go together. And that complaint absolutely stands. It’s cool and even good to hc and rewrite her as a different person. But that’s not canon Viv anymore then, it’s an OC that should have been in the game.

#ask #anonymous #I’m sick of people wanting to argue with me about dragon age so I’m not tagging this sorry people who filter my blog I usually put you first #but I can’t take it anymore #I am also sick of people arbitrarily liking charcaters who suck because they’re hot or because they’re X and then ignoring or excusing every #terrible thing they do or ignoring it compeltely and it happens all the time in everything and I’m allowed to be annoyed by things that #annoy me. it annoys me I don’t see people complain about Dorian being pro slavery or even hesitate to romance him over it. it annoys me Sera #is a bigot to elves and will try to forcibly convert a lover to Fantasy Catholicism or break up. it annoys me Varric is a massive bitch in #Inquisition in many ways but everyone loves him. it annoys me he refused to speak to my husband ONCE even in the event of my death to tell #him I died. it annoys me he will Stan Iza after the end of Act2 but flips on Anders like a griddle cake. it annoys me he’s a centrist and no #one criticizes that. it annoys me Aveline is a bastard cop in DA2 and I don’t see people criticize that. it annoys me Cassandra won’t tell #Mages how to reverse tranquility and no one I see talks about it. it annoys me they Tommy Gun’d Solas’ charcater from the entire game in #Trespasser and I see people stan him or hate him but no one talk about how fucked up the message the devs flipped on a dime to push with #Trespasser was. and it annoys me Vivienne is a huge bitch and a bigot but i either see people complain only that she’s mean or Stan her as a #girlboss and ignore the fact she’s specist and horribly anti mage and a class/species traitor who doesn’t get better #and it annoys me MUCH MORE than ALL of these things that the fault Leo’s with BioWare eroding it’s ethics to a point of toxicity utterly #*Lies With #unlivable and as little as I see complaints about any of the above I still see them more than people calling to break down doors if that #dumbass white Canadians’ game company and wring their necks for every horrific racist anti-minority-action centrist #fascist religious oligarchy supremacist bullshit take they shoved down every player’s throat in Inquisitiom

[vanivanvanilla]

among us lifesteal au (explodes)

idk if i’ll do anything with this but i really like the idea of it 👍 here’s what i have atm

spoke: imposter (idk if he’d have a specific role yet)

mapicc: imposter & linked with ro

ro: crewmate & linked with mapicc

leo: the executioner

ash: the glitch

cube: the engineer

zam: the detective

clown: the jackal (no sidekick)

jaron: the jester

bacon: the swapper

planet: the shifter (maybe)

rek: crewmate with flash modifier

mid: altruist

clutch: crewmate with button barry modifier

red: crewmate (not sure if he’d have any modifiers)

#van speaks #i really like the thought process for a lot of these #like mapicc & ro have the lovers role (although im hesitant to call it that since i don’t want ppl taking it the wrong way) #but if you’re unfamiliar w modded among us basically they’re linked & if one dies they both die at the same time #so nothing romantic 👍 #leo’s the executioner and his target would be red (s3 ref woghh) #<- also why i made mid altruist; leo gets killed by one of the imposters and mid finds his body & revives him only for leo to go after red #which isn’t exactly what happened in s3 but the imposters r the bad guys yknow #detective zam bc ofc yayyy #clown’s the jackal which is a neutral role but works by themselves #and can kill anyone #u can’t tell me that jaron wouldn’t love being the jester #he’s such a little shit /aff please get this guy in a modded among us lobby and get him to be jester #i think bacon would fit swapper well since he’d want to switch people’s votes around either bc he thinks they’re wrong or j to be silly #rek w the flash modifier helps him escape situations faster #i feel like clutch would try to abuse the shit out of button barry to the point everyone gets pissed and votes him off #red would have to be a crewmate since he’s leo’s target but idk if he’d have a modifier #if anyone has any suggestions 4 this i’d love 2 hear them <3 #or if there’s any questions abt the roles i feel like i know them decently well <- has watched too much among us

[m1d-45]

will there be... other parts... after prime fortune........ i love ur writing sm im aaaaaaaaaaAA

so many people are asking to be added to the taglist as if there’s gonna be but i wasn’t planning on it???

like? the only reason i wrote prime fortune was because i wanted to try and learn more abt cyno’s character and his motives in relation to sagau—that’s why the whole paragraph abt his religious beliefs was shoved in—without actually doing the 3.2 quest(bc school n shit) but…. ????

like if. if people want a 3rd part they’re either gonna have to specify what it’s gonna be or wait until my mind puts out an idea in relation to it. i do like the concept—cyno+tighnari+collei working together to hide you from the akademiya whilst also silently trying to gather more evidence to take down the imposter while also keeping this a secret from you because they don’t want their true god to think they’re incompetent/didn’t know from the start (but you just don’t know what they’re doing nor that you’re god)—and i think it’s really cool… but there was never meant to be a part two to begin with, let alone a third.

like.. TL;DR: im down to write a third part, but i’ll either need time for my mind or ideas sent in, and even then it’s still up in the air. i liked how opportunities arisen ended, and though i liked prime fortune’s ending a little less, it doesn’t change the fact that i don’t know how to continue—

oh, and thanks for the compliment! i’m glad you enjoyed :)

#m1d : [chats] #drop your ideas either here or in the replies/weblogs of prime fortune #i’m so fucjing lost— words can’t describe the confusion i felt when people asked to be added to the taglist #i know i’ve done like 2 trilogys already but man. there wasn’t even meant to be a duology- #if i were to continue i’d.. idk maybe pov: ur alhaitham and the general mahamatra is acting mighty sus while the akademiya is on high alert #? even then it’s hesitant. i don’t know enough abt cyno’s role in the akademiya and man i can’t stress enough how much i did not intend for- #-a part three. seeing people ask to be added to the taglist is so peculiar—

[threebyfours]

I love saying idc but I clearly still do

#personal #anyways hi hello I’m strange and weird and no one stays interested for long either #idc if the guys I’m talking to lose interest. I don’t fucking care anymore but it still makes me emo :/// #like. lol do u still like me orrrrr am I just being annoying everyday? #I hate having crushes on internet mutuals like how stupid but I really thought it could be attainable :/// #I think somethings wrong w me honestly. #like. I want to love I want to move on but also I am terrified of putting all my trust and faith into someone #especially more hesitant if I’m really into them and I’m just like. not reading them as being AS into me as I am into them ya know? #I want to be happy w one person but everyone I’m interested in/interested in me is miles away #just bummed ig #sad but still hopeful. never giving up hope #sorry to rant omg I’m just like. damn dude. I want a bf to love and cherish but my contenders… idk if they want me like that lolz