#erm u have an A so u dont have to do it.

[thegreatestheaver]

planning courses for the next semester is not for the weak

#WHY IS EVERY SINGLE CLASS GOING ON AT THE SAME TIME. #WHY DO WE ALL START AT 9AM AND NOT GO PAST 11AM. PLEASE #please just strart at 1pmplease plase palseasee #i dont wanna take only 3 classes next semester but like erm. #mostly because im a little picky abt my professors. less so for electives but classes im worried about (SPEECH) #ive been pushing speech off for the longest time because i have crippling social anxiety 99% of the time. so i made sure i got a good prof #uhgghg #theres this one prof who does a lot of erm i think sociology classes yeah #she is so chill and nice and uses my prefurred name and pronouns (i really need to get my name chaged in the system uhghgh) but she did uh #the reverse grading and i hated it. everyone did. she was so nice and understanding.. #one time i went 2 talk to her about my missing work (chronic pain and fatigue had me bed bound for days on end) and she literally just said #erm u have an A so u dont have to do it. #>@>>@>/1/1/?!?!? #live saver. i had a breakdwon in her office i was literally sobbing telling her about my health issues. it was really hard because i never- #-really talk about it. i didnt realize how hard it would be when i finally did #anywasy what was i saying. yeah i love her so much but not her grading and teaching system. but idk maybe ill try it again she has a gender #-and sexuality class i kinda wanna take because im a professional faggot

[cathalbravecog]

So I gave in and done it - Drew my Minecraft sona / skin, Larimar with Cathal since the two have some design similarities both being CRT TV inspired TV head robots... Let's just say yeah, there's perhaps a few reasons why I got so attached to Cathal like this, yeah?

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #minecraft #oc art #cathalposting #multislacker #guz art #doodles #u know ive gotten confident when i post even my goofy stuff on the main tag.... lets hope that doesnt get to my head now before i force #myself back into hidey hide again. but hey means im generally having a good time here but i miss my hidden feel a bit . i gotta be less #normaler #mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i ame having secound thoughts but eh screw it.. main tag it is #rips fur out #RAH ! #'coz my art been getting quite a bit of traction lately and i rlly dont want it gettin into my head bc its not been stressing me out for #once but with this other problems can arise whoops i mean . ... flashbacks to my bugsnax era #ERM YEAH THAT #GGrrh.... ive been so proud of the art ive been doing lately so i wanna main tag it but i just kinda..... #wish to keep it low again......... have da same feelie feel yknow #i have an interesting way of talking here i just realized. its ok it adds to my swag . ok ramble over *drops mic* *struts out* *stumbles #over and falls on my face* *dies on impact* #i maye remove hte tags later but who Knows

[quortknee]

some of my durges heehee some of my tavs: [part 1] [part 2]

#HIII dont read the tags if you dislike talks of extreme violence OR murder OR torture OR cannibalism OR just general bhaalist activities lol #if u do read the tags though llol hiiiii sorry for the ramble but erm. enjoy ig #something ive done with all my durge playthroughs is have orin take a trophy from each of their bodies in some way. #in this case; casimir's horns and carrion's right eye #she took casimir's horns and capped them in gold as a slight #before da lobotomy cas said the way shed kill herself after murdering the world was to forge herself a crown of gold from her own horns #cas wanted to be king of the murdered world in the name of her father. therefore crown. yeag #“crown” as in she would pour molten gold over her horns and let it drip down and boil her alive before she joined murder dad in death #so thats exactly what orin took from her #she made her horns into a golden crown then took it from her by cutting them off #in my head orin made the crown of horns wearable and would wear it during their duel #carrion's trophy situation is different from casimir's #carrion's name pre-orin lobotomy is still unknown to her #carrion was just the first thing she remembered when she woke back up after everything #all because orin called her that while torturing her #orin picked at her body like it was carrion and she was a vulture. she plucked out her eye and cut her open and ate her flesh and innards. #and when carrion finally remembered this she decided to keep the name and wear it with pride #as she would the the world's final piece of carrion #made to be the final rotten meal for her father to supp on after the world dies by her hand #she would be the carcass that houses the world. a true gift of flesh and murder only for her father #ALSO orin kept carrion's eye in a jar on her desk to look at fondly while doing her creative writing or whatever idk. #after carrion killed orin and found her eye she ate it lmfao #ok that’s all bye :3 #my art #my durges #bg3 #bg3 art #artists on tumblr #baldurs gate 3 #dark urge

[nonbinaryaubrey]

five nights at ginos

#i need to draw it more.. (i do have another doodle but it kind of sucks so ERM) #anyways. dont u hate it when the spirit of one of ur childhood friends crunches ur (boy)friend's skull #five nights at ginos au #aubrey.png

[cheatingtime]

wow somehow got to 100 follows here...hi..... hi guys..... i think asks r open if anyone has little drawing reqs.... or actual asks idk u_u

#i wanted to run a poll a while ago actually abt thoughts on how to describe jimmys hair colour #amongst other things... #like i personally subscribe to the copper hair thing. but apparently some people think blonde #strawberry blonde maybe but blonde? no way.... that santa guy calls him orange at one point doesnt he #it is strange that with different hairstyles like. copper is the closest u get to ginger...like... why.... #anyway. hope u enjoy my dumb doodle blog... i have wips im working on so ill post them at some point i guess... #i also tried to do more of that thing i posted with the bullies recently but erm i will probably not do every clique like that LOL #so if u wanted to see specific charas u can ask. there are only a few charas i dont like enough to draw and theyre the usual suspects #LOL. bye

[batz]

realizing its almost been 6 months since top surgery:)

#frank.txt #despite all the complications i had w healing im rlly happy w how my chest looks:) #ALTHOUGH. ONE BIG COMPLAINT #i used to use my bras as an extra pocket for my phone or lighter or whatever. but now i dont wear bras and therefore have no extra pocket #:( u win some u lose some :( #anyway all shirts look awesome on me now AND i can wear t shirts w funny text or image ans ppl wont feel awkward reading it:) #also the scars r fading rlly well! they almost blend in w my skin completely! (keyword almost. theyr still visible atp) #the way the scars r shaped is interesting bc theyre like a U shape. but bc of that when i inevitably build my pectoral muscles #the scars should blend into the shadow caused by thr muscle. i also dont have a Completrly flat chest bc im fat:0 #tbh my surgeon did rlly well . i have a lot of problems with him bc hes kind of a dick but from like. idk an artistic standpoint hes good #but the doctor standpoint hes Uhm. well i lost a nipple and had severe infection due to denied antibiotics and lack of aftercare #BUT. the lost nipple isnt visible and it looks normal now somehow AND. i didn't die from the infection so. I mean #i just had to spend christmas with a fever of 103 LMAO #HONESTLY THO i would do it again EVEN if i knew i would go thru hell bc this surgery fuckn saved my life holy shit #i didnt realize just how much i dissociated from my own body bc of dysphoria. now i feel more in touch with it and happy!:) #also now i can Eventually get that chest tattoo i wanted for like 7 years lmao #erm yippee:)

[joculatrixster]

ppl will have the most unhiunded tonedeaf take sin the world and the rbs n notes will all be like "Omg i never considered this ebfore...but ur so right!" and i jsut have to chant in my head "block and move on block and move on block and move on-"

#2020 me woulda never #character growth baby #but also a known homopbe literally was like #'erm friendly remidner creators r just entertainment if ur fav does something wrong ur an IDOIT for beign hurt' #not in a 'its not about u support the victim way' #but dead ass in the 'it doesnt matter what they do its jsut entertainment! watch what u want! have no attachment to the ppl u idot!" #IT WAS SO FUCKING STUPID #NO DONT STILL WATCH PPL WHO GROOM AND ABUSE OTHERS #WHAT THE FUCK MAN #rose rambles #rant

[lumalalu]

man fuck it im gonna start doin wip wednesdays here

Summer is sweet and endless and she has nothing to do but look at me. She's looking at me now, through the sun's glare on her mirror. She shadows the shapes of my mouth, but doesn't put her voice to my words.

My parents are worried about Grace. They think something's wrong with her - I know what it is. Grace knows, too, looking at me, looking through the glare in the mirror. Everything about her is wrong. I could fix her, if she would let me.

Solid, measured knocks. "Gracie?"

"Yeah?" She pulls her braids back to look at her shoulders uncovered. The angle of her jaw. She is trying to see how it matches up to mine.

"Your mother and I are going to go to the mall. Do you want to come?"

I've never been a fan of the sweltering heat of a cracked-asphalt parking lot, nor the chill on my skin in a Macy's. Grace says, "Okay." But she only said that so that she can look away from me. She is a fool. I can be found in anything that can reflect. I watch her in the windows, in silver lockets, in the mirrors she models new boots in. She parades about like a wind-up toy, a ballerina in a music box. Her mother hands her new skirts for the new school year, button-up blouses, low-cut but not whorish, and modest stockings.

The dressing rooms are hidden in the corner, neatly separated by two icons of triangles - one upside and one downside. I follow her to the wrong one, the wrong stall. It's cramped and ill-fitting, somewhat like a body. Grace tries her best to avoid me still. It's a valiant effort, I'll give her that much. But at some point, in a few minutes, maybe, she'll have to turn around and face me.

Grace takes off her tanktop like the accused pushing off concrete slabs. She hisses with impatience at the clasp of her bra and its stubborn claws in her skin, throws it on the bench with more violence than is necessary. Branded into her back it remains, aching, smoking. Cramped and ill-fitting. She itches at it like the fabric is stuck in her, like it still remains subcutaneously and she could pull it away finally, permanently, if she also removed the skin. Her nails are well cared for, and so, won't do the job. I smile at the sound of her bent elbows.

Her pants go too, her keys squeezing free of the claustrophobic pockets and diving with raucous applause to the floor. Her phone is in her purse, because the back pockets are only decorative. Grace doesn't curse. Her words are never ugly. Instead, her lips bend into the shape of: "shit", and then she bends and picks up the keyring. It is unadorned. Why should it be anything else? A key only has one purpose.

For a moment we stand there together, Grace's back to me, my back not quite to hers. She is hesitating, stretching out the moment between one set of clothes and the next. The blouse is slippery and coarse in texture, sends spider legs running over her back. The skirt is of good quality, but takes up in the back, so she is afraid to bend. No pockets.

I ask her if I can see it. She stares at the off-white wall in silence, and then she turns.

"Oh, no, Gracie. That won't do at all." I tell her. "That thing isn't even fit to be a tablecloth. It's see-through, it's itchy on my ribs. It's pushing my skin too close to my bones, the points of my ribs poking at my lungs. It's like a coffin leaking air, sighing its way into the ground." 

Her breath hitches. "I don't know what's wrong with me." She's saying to herself, to the mirror, to me. I make a sound - in my mouth it is sympathetic, but in hers it is animal, pained, cornered.

#the erm #well i already have all of my future changes planned out but might as well talk about it here #the introduction to this scene needs to be a bit more involved or like. #ren calls it cinematic lol #wip wednesday #UHHH #writeblr #writeblogging #the next part that im working on today will be the reflection giving her different clothes to try on #i dont know whether to lean harder into the dysphoria in like a 'i just look like a girl in mens clothes' or into a euphoric way #i can probably figure out a way to do both? #like... if grace is like I hate this and the reflection goes But look #here is potential for something else #the more i write it the more im confident its like #clear enough so as not to be confusing #like even if u dont get the intended meaning youd probably come away with Something #i havent had many people read any of this yet tho #since im not in a creative writing group anymore i dont have a lot of people To show #maybe theres something like that that meets up at my library #or maybe i could start something? #idk how youd even like. advertise for that... #i dont actually think this is long enough to warrant a readmore but i thought it would be polite still #i guess technically this is transgender but its not like #its prose lol #oh this is a short story im intending to submit to a lit magazine when its finished #id liketo find specifically a queer one #ive been trying to make a lil personal website on neocities to host my original stuff too so ill probably put this there when its done #sniffs #🕷❣ #TRYING NOT TO BE NEGATIVE I CAN WRITE! THIS IS A SECOND PASS BUT ITS STILL GOOD AND WORTH SHARING

[unwellwoman]

im literally always giving my younger sisters advice even i dont take 😔😔

#one time my youngest sister was watching i forgot if it was a tv series or reality show but the woman wanted the guy to pay for her meal #and she was complaining like why is she being so mengada like pay for it yourself etc #and im like no! if a guy take u out on a date and doesnt want to pay hes a waste of time #but i literally almost never let my person pay for me 🤡 #yesterday another sister called and asked if she could call this guy when theyve stopped talking for a while #because she just really wanna talk to the guy and she hasnt found anyone else who she enjoys talking to so much #BUT he was an ass like who tf does he think he is to treat my sister like that #so i said to her like yeah this is hard etc but dont contact him. this is just smth u have to go thru #or whatever #and she will meet other people who will make her feel good who won't treat her like that #but erm anyway EYE could too but i cant let go etc etc #but she should move on from him but like take some time. tho i couldnt do that lol

[tillman]

hi would you ever consider posting about your art process?? your style is so cool!!!!

oh sure ! its pretty simple.. ive streamlined a lot of what i dont like about art so i dont have to do it LOL.

heres like. a super average sketch for me. i really enjoy sketching... i like focusing a lot on the shapes and values of the image while im working so most often theyre two tone little things like this. sometimes ill be lazier and theyll just be scribbles but if i know im going to color something having this helps a lot. i tend to ignore the undo button and focus on just erasing or drawing over stuff. i tend to just do this with csp's default mapping pen. i like that pen.

linings pretty straight forward. i use the milli pen almost exclusively for this bit. its lining.

next i kinda just slap any base colors i feel are Fine Enough on. literally just a layer underneath i fill bucket and then throw bases on really fast. i like working with limited palettes so i tend to just color pick and reuse colors as much as i can here. i dont get a lot out of coloring in all the areas so i just kinda dont a lot. you can tell theres some images i just filled it all in with one color and skipped to the next step LOL

rendering! my other favorite part. i combine whatever layers i have into one and just draw on top. i shade here too, mostly cus shading the normal way is boring to me. all details are saved for this step cus i prefer having them interact with the linework. couldnt tell you how i pick colors all thats from years of overusing overlay layers LOL.

ermmm. hope this helps !

#i use mostly default brusghes slightly edited for pressure and stuff LMAO lemme know if u ever want those #i also have 0 fucking stabilization i hate that shit. #^ #my tip for straight lines is go fast. long big strokes. #but yeha uhh. i hate the undo tool. i hate a lot of normal things about art. so i dont do them. #lemme know if u want specifics or something .. erm …. im not cery good at tutorials.

[volfoss]

if i can get thru most of act 2 (its only 5 main quests) today thatll be really good for the me community that is so scared and terrified. but also i really think i will def surpass 130 pages today w how long each mission gets story content wise. i stay brave tho ok i promise

#twist rambles #♟ #rly contemplating having a silly let me assign u a beast from this game ask game. look at my creatures boy. or something. i wanna try and #get 2-3 story missions done. you might say that doesnt seem like a lot but it is when u have to pretty much go line by line. and sometimes #the plot sections go on for FOREVER. which is agonizing i think. for me. esp when i know the erm. well the horrors incoming #thankfully chris is taking the worst route bc he loves and cares me and so then i dont have to well. be the one doing the evil and mean #actions. i just have to watch him do them and type it up. which is a lot easier. but anywyas. grind time today.

[cosmicdenro]

thsc fans made me a kinder person wowie

#was talking with my gf some days ago and i have gotten less violent in my head HELPDGF #no bc personal rambles if ur not interested idm but #last year fucked me up so bad everyday i used to get strikes on insta for my private posts to vent it out #its the funniest shit to look back on tbh Help but i genuinely look back on some posts and go wow this motherfucker rly made me a violent- #person and he acted like all that happened to me was my fault #i seriously do not want another message from that fuck on ny birthday again i will make his life living fucking hell #this december will be full of copperright and thsc . i have not felt so emotionally vulnerable in so long LMAO #thanks to these little fucks i want to throw them around i love yhem #it took some silly gentle people of this fandom for me to realize perhaps i should tone down the violent humor #bc a friend in another friend group lately also opened up that hayy i think im. not ok with playful bullying anymore and i felt bad even #though i dont talk much there Fuck you timezones #i will admit the excessive usage of tone indicators in sticktwt seems too much to me but not a huge issue overall #i am but a reserved fucked up aunt of the thsc fandom that ppl seem to rly enjoy the reactions of when they post copperrifht HSGSSGD #i commissioned 5 people to draw copperright i think that's enough to tell the damage done to me by thsc #coping mechanism for when ur sick for a literal month without a day's break 👍 #anyway erm maybe i love u guys what are u gonna do about it #i cannot for the life of me talk in dms without being anxious but tumblr and discord servers are what save my life #i am here but hiding behind a pole cartoon style #gootbye

[penisliker-moved]

if stampede wasnts Trigun it couldve been a solidly mid anime. but bc it is it makes me so irrationally angry

#og #vash could be cute. if he wasnt meant to be vash.. he is not vash At all to me saury #i get animation limitations they had to change his hair or whatever but also erm.. did it need to be 3d animated lmaos out loud #Controversial but i find most* 3d animation incredibly ugly ESPECIALLY 3d anime styles #ik im not everybody on earth but likee. idk. why did it have to be 3d. #asnd ikikik it doesnt have to be a carbon copy of the mange 98 def wasnt. it doesnt need to be acarbon copy of 98 bc welll girl i cn just #watch 98. but UGHHH it literally feels like they got ridof the entire space western part. which #sry girlie. thats literally the point of trigun is that its a space western sry. the characters r literally specifically made t be in a #space western. WHTEVER! and overall while the vash design is cute or whatever straight up its just so generic to me. it doesnt say anything #abt him or the setting or anyfing at all. sry;. and it doesnt even fuck heavy #like hes cute but hes cute in like a. idek... #i think vash is meant to have thicklines and stampede vash has like none and thats the main problem. u see #AND i just dont think trigun needs tol be adapted again boom sound effect. #but also i havent even finished the manga so what do i nose #sry.. sry

[thewickerking]

OK SO. EPIC WIN! SOUND HAS CEASED!! its on and off and idk if ill hear it again tonight (please i hope not) but it is GONE i am COMFY in BED. my phone DIED but thats ok shes at 3$ now and plugged in so shes going up :)

#updates on my last posts tags: i dont like actually see spiders i just see movement out of the corner of my eye that isnt there and then my #brain always categorizes it as spiders and its nearly never spiders but it makes me rlly on edge and scared 4 no reason #itll just like be a little black blur out of focus (when theres genuinely nothing there other than like. my white sink or bathtub) and my #brain is like 'ah oh no spider' and my pulse quickens and i get scared and think its gonna kill me cause im sooo normal btw #i joke abt being scared of spiders n stuff but theres genuinely terrifying to me and have given me super bad panic attacls : #anyways. #erm abt the last thing abt Bad Sounds ik its probably a symptom of something but i havent heard of anything that sounds right except maybe #overstimulation but very rarely feel overstimulated im usually very understimulated and its not that theres too many sounds its just theres #one really bad one that sets me off like weird random things like snoring and certain dripping faucets and breathing and like. certain ways #people brush their hands together when they have something on them but they do it for too long and the sound is horrible but subtle #and also certain times people are tapping against fabric like. stuff that ppl overlook and u can barely hear but it drives me off the walls #like idk what common thread they have other than NORMAL EXISTING HUMAN SOUNDS but like. idk if pain is the right word to describe it but #its genuinely something physically pain adjacent like. tension. like when u pull a rubber band super far apart and it cant fucking #stay like that like cmon it hurts it needs to snap please let it out. but letting it out is like. erm. not good and if the sound doesnt end #after u let it out like it didnt do anything it just goes back. ough idk idk idk. i used to not tell anyone this stuff cause i mostly did l #it at night and i think ppl will say im exaggerating and faking cause they dont witness it and my mother doesnt do it i think so its not an #acceptable form of mental illness /s but like genuinely i dont feel like im allowed to mention it but whatever!!! #anyways this is rlly long if u read it. hi. i love u. i hope u have a good day/ #night also hmu if u know what whatever this is called i wanna talk about it in therapy and i think my words dont feel professional enough #ik u shouldnt have to act professional in therapy bur erm. i feel like i need to in some ways its complicated #.ares

[kn11ves]

i entirely agree that humans should depend on each other more and that we should try to approach people with open minds and not believe that they are out to get us, on that note, shaming and chastising people for not feeling comfortable to depend on other people and telling them that they need to fix it or they're actually MORE of a bother and a burden is probably not the best way to go about it

#10000 millionth post where some tumblr users' opinion breaches containment and i must comment on it vaguely #listen it is sort of upsetting how it really is true that the majority of those call-out-y posts on peoples' behaviours can be really #damaging for people with ocd. like you re just going to send us on a spiral because now we arent even sure if the thing we were trying to d #as to not cause other people pain is actually causing more pain and oh dear god we're really terrible people ohh fack ive known all along #i think the first step to making people feel more comfortable to take your help and hospitality is probably approaching them kindly? #at least instead of saying we must ''learn to accept it'' #plus the mention of individualism and comunialism-- i agree individualism has hurt a lot of people and it is very bad #although to some degree i dont think it is entirely wrong you cannot fully depend on everyone 100% of the time for your own safety #we are as a society not there yet where that is possible. etc etc also learned helplessness #but anyways if youre going to talk about individualism then you have to actually acknowledge that a lot of collectivist societies have cult #cultures in which REFUSING THE HOSPITALITY IS PART OF THE CULTURE!!!! where youre meant to say no many times as a show of respect and as th #host continues to offer it. as well many many many MANY people born from immigrant parents or who are immigrants themselves have a shared #experience of being raised to be as completely clean and polite and small as possible when in someone elses' home #it just really rubbed me the wrong way the entire post... #i just dont think you should get so upset someone doesnt accept your hospitality consider everything is not erm about you and maybe they #arent comfortable enough with you or are having a bad day ? #''i can always tell when they are only saying it because they dont want to be a bother'' no u litearlly cannot #anyways it was a very american post that i did not like. #do help each other and take the help when you need it though we need that.

[nomaishuttle]

ive got a hyoooooge grocery order in my cart just waiting 4 my next check

#likee almost 200 dollars.. irs 164.83 which ive just realixed my current allowed spending money is 171.83 💀💀💀 #but. some of this stuff is essentials sooo if i go a bit over my budget itll be ok.. esp since my next check is gonna be dummy as hell #with all the overtime PLUS itll all be mine ^_^ bc i dont owe anybody anythang anymore :DD AND its not a rent check bc i always pay rent #with the check i get on the 22nd of the month... so basically youre jealous #bc normallyyy well wuhoh wait i did forget abt insurance kicking in so itll be an extra like. idr like 120 or something like bghst #bc i likee messed up my insurance paper work 😭 i uhmm. basicslly it was like Sooo how much do u wanna have for blah blah #and i was like ermm this many and then it was like okayyy so divide that by how many payperiods there are in a year (24) and it ended up #being 40 dollars per check which seemed awwsome 2 me #but then the insurance ppl were like ermmm but theres only like 8 pay periods left in the year lol... soo you have to instead pay the full #amt you decided on but within the next 8 pay periods..... so its $120 dollars per check #but next year itll just be 40 per check. so its ok idm #tbh i probably shouldve done more research on insurance stuff bc idek what flex spending is LOL but it sounded like something i should have #right... idk... not my wisest move but iits ok. and HOPEFULLY i can get myyyy erm. what the scallop... what was i. OH yeas hopefully i can #find a pcp reaaaally quicklike and get all my meds sorted #i mihjht just go straight 2 planned parenthood for my t .. idk how much like.. idk if they take insurance #i just need 2 gett on my t ASAP!!! lest the devil. #i am being very proactive tho just in case The devil i put pads on the grocery order.. Ideally i wont need them but. just in case the devil #sooooo yeah.