#he's so scary when he's sick

[loopie-louy]

TW/CW:scopophobia

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"I..." He paused. "I'm aware now." It whispered. "I just didn't really expect it to be this way!" He continued.

Kuhuhuhuhoo! Isn't L's new hairstyle cute‽ Yeah it's short but it's so cute and curly wurly!! I'm sure Julie would love to help style L's hair, especially for events and occasions! Maybe You would like to join in too?

#welcome home #welcome home oc #I'm here #Hello #Ive seen the others #I like some. they're funny #except for that one #he's so scary when he's sick #but I think it's cute when he's frowny! #Red really suits him! #:) #I also thought poppy being brave was cute! #Sally's cute as a moon #they also wore black too #but they were a bit mean #thats okay! #i still love them! #I kinda miss how things used to be though. #digital aritst #Persona #I #am #aware

[thegoblinboy]

inspired by @rogueddie 's post. Right Here.

120 minutes

2 hours they have been standing in front of this stupid claw machine. All because Eddie saw something inside that he was desperate to get. Whatever it was he was refusing to tell Steve who was now pressed up against the wall between the claw machine and some arcade machine. He’s confident that the other has blown at least a hundred dollars trying to get whatever he wanted.

His tongue stuck out in concentration, refusing to let Steve talk to him as it would distract him. Steve doesn’t think much of what the other is doing. The other boy did wacky things all the time. This was one of those times as he waits patiently for the other to finish. Willing to stay all night if that meant he was able to spend time with Eddie.

Five minutes later, when the boy starts hopping up and down and throwing his hands excitedly in the air. Smiling brightly at Steve before he’s turning, bending down, and grabbing whatever he caught from the slot. Pulling it back and putting it behind his back quickly before Steve could see. Moving forward into his space, a smile tugged on the scar on his face. Not leaving any space between them. A look of confusion crossed over Steve’s face trying to figure out what the other was doing.

“So what did you win?” He asks curiously, wondering what the other had spent all that time on. Must’ve been worth it by the smile on his face.

“Oh nothing,” Eddie says tiling his head to the side dramatically. “Just, you know. A bat.” He takes the moment to pull the plushie up holding it by the wing as he dangles it in front of Steve who was starting to think confusion was his default setting.

“Oh?”

“Oh? A man spends two hours winning you a stuffed bat and all you have to say is oh?” Eddie’s teasing is continuous. Constantly wrapping itself around Steve with a soft flush as a result.

Steve begins to stutter over his words as he lifts his hand up, holding the stuffy carefully in both hands. His heart swells up as he realizes Eddie spent all that time for him. As the realization hits a dopey smile grows on Steve’s face, seemingly what Eddie had been searching for as his eyes flicker down to the other's lips. Moving a hand up and carefully setting it on the wall next to Steve’s head. Not caring how close they were. Both of their faces were pink and their hearts beating fast.

“So, watcha gonna name it?” Eddie asks with a smile, one that was reserved for Steve.

“Ozzy.”

“Holy shit, I am just a simple peasant to your royalty. Oh holy one, please grace me with your presence at mine tonight.” Eddie pulls back starting to bow down at the other as Steve laughs at his antics.

“Is that your way of asking me out?” He teases playfully.

“Yes, I guess it is,” Eddie responds, hand aimlessly moving to twirl the bat's wing with his finger as he smiles brightly at the other.

#ok but Ozzy coming over for play dates with strawberry #both of them getting each other stuffed animals that are similar to their personalities is close to my heart #like Steve is a huge teddy bear who is soft and if he was a color it would be pink or yellow #Eddie is like a bat scary when he first comes at you out of nowhere but when you pay close attention you realize hes a softy #Eddie will hyperfixate on making a battle vest for Steves stuffed bat #Meanwhile Steve works on crotcheing a sweater for Eddies bear #they are so in love it makes me sick #also bats are adorable i said it #steddie #stranger things #eddie munson #steve harrington #steve x eddie #bxb #steveharrington #steveddie #eddie stranger things #steve and eddie #them winning stuff animals for each other #yes

[xskyll]

Todoroki: Baggage? This is a topic I can talk about. My friends always stop me when I try to discuss baggage…but they aren’t here. So…

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#skylldraws #it’s the Fourth of July and I’m American so holiday streak is still going! #I’m not planning this i swear #I guess i just have more free time around holidays #this actually would have got done maybe a day or two sooner but I’ve been super super sick the past week #but I’m finally on the mend! #Right now I’m huddled in the basement with my dog #Cause he’s scared of fireworks #He knows the basement is the place to go when scary things are happening #With the tv on you can’t even hear them much #So he’s actually napping right now #Anyway uh #here’s the next page! #Shouto’s oversharing mode may or may not have been activated #We’ll see #tododeku #tddk #todoroki x midoriya #tddk fanart #shouto x izuku #todoizu #todoroki x deku #bnha #tdiz #bnha comic #tddk comic

[cutiecorner]

So you had a bad day, you had a bad day, you had a bad day and you had a bad day - 🎵😿

#(/ref btw) #but.waaaaggh #my brother went to the hospital again he's sick :( #and my dad didn't even tell me #now there's people doing our lawn really loud and i don't know if we hired them or not??? #theres guys outside our house i hate it when theres guys outside my house #so loud :( #scary scary scary scary scary #my tummy hurts.. #negative #ask to tag

[skunkes]

talon's been such a fun oc so far because he's essentially written himself.... thats probably Not Super Great in terms of originality but whatever no idea is original and its been fun to easily piece everything together while getting to know him better ^_^

#talkys #mfw i made him look young and babyfaced even at ''29'' as a reflection of my experience #where ive always looked younger and have had a few instances where people came onto me and actively lamented that i wasnt as young as i #looked. which was scary. since i WAS already young at the time #so there is a reason why talon feels so panicked and sick and dysphoric when he feeds #why he doesn't wear his lipstick and why he wears dirty clothes too big for him #and thats a very Direct. well. trauma does make you feel like a child. and it makes you feel small and weak #what a curse to essentially actually turn into one‚ appearance wise #the disordered eating....etc #*spongebob flying ice cream truck* horrible events happening to ocs and people are not part of the ''fun'' i mentioned in the original post #i feel like it cld come off that way...its not what i meant #oc text #oh i forgot...trauma makes u feel like a child AND it ages u ^_^

[clown-eating-pig]

It’s always so interesting to me to hear everyone talk about which episodes of tma really stuck with them the most. People talking about moments like “the blanket never did anything” or “[EXTENDED SOUNDS OF BRUTAL PIPE MURDER]” or the realization that Jon can suddenly understand other languages. I love learning how many different things affected everyone differently!! :D we are all individuals when it comes to what we fear!!!

I also love that, before I entered the fandom, I 100% expected everyone to have been as uniquely terrified by the giant pig episode as I was and was shocked to realize that that is not the case! 😭

#tma #the magnus archives #tma spoilers #I was genuinely unaffected by everything in this show (fear wise) except for the scene where Jon yells at Martin #and the damn pig episode 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #I was 😐 constantly but then ep 103 rolled up and I was literally rocking in my chair #animals are so scary!!! #the comparison of the farmer killing the pigs that are his ‘friends’ to the pig deciding that the farmer is its friend #and him ultimately deciding to kill it #by just encasing it in concrete #him talking about how if he had fallen drunk into the pig pen #they probably would have eaten him #but when he chooses to die via pig #it doesn’t #ick! ick! ick!! #scary scary!!! #gives me genuine chills just thinking about it #its so sick but so good and it’s so funny to me that everyone else is just like lmao oh yeah the evil pig #BUT THE MORALITY!!!!! #cruelty free my beloved <3

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[thedrotter]

sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it

#re:kinder #not art #so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me #i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on #but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!? #until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE #i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games #and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line #i did not know the context but it was devastating #AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND?? #I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY?? #like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me #I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS #then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art #so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU #personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood #AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭 #its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids #but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy” #AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED #many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough #IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!! #i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize

[sevicia]

I love my grandparents' dogs so much they're literally so cute‼️‼️ the older one's name is Thomas (my cousin named him & she likes gringo names LOL) and the younger one's called Loki (my grandpa named him cause he's very energetic -> loco -> loki).

Thomas is just like a light brown almost blonde (?) doggy and he's VERY jealous 😭 but he's really excited all the time he's just happy to be here‼️‼️‼️

Loki is a black (like you can only see his eyes at night) BIG dog, like bigger than Thomas, and his ears go like. One up one down HE'S SO CUUUTE, like one of them sits "normal" & the other one folds a bit awwww so cutes.... his tail is also really big and curls in on itself‼️

They're both quiltros (mutts??? in english??!) so we have no fucking clue where they came from LOL, my uncle Leo just picked them up off the street I think

#everyone says Loki looks mean/scary when he's actually so so sweet 😭 #I'm a Loki apologist forever. BTW. #one time Loki got sick and we had to feed him meds and my mom was like #''this mfs gonna bite my hand off !!!'' she was so scared LOL #and then I just took the medicine and stuck my hand in his mouth as deep as I could #and then quickly pulled out and held his snout shut #HIS EYES WERE OPEN SO WIDE IT WAS SO FUNNY #he did manage to spit it out a few times =_= #diary

[chaotically-rem]

Just got jumpscared in the dark by my own potted plant jars, my millipedes are alive!!!!! The little gguys!!! I thought they were dead so I just put the jar house aside!!! THESE POOR DUDES!!!

#HES ALIVE #AND HES HUGE #There's only 1 out are they both alive or was there cannibalism??? #WHAT ARE THEY EATING I HAVENT FED THEM IN MONTJS #omg ill out some fruit in tomorrow im so sorry little dudes!!!! #good job rem #im so sick rn and i was wandering arpund with my phone light on when i saw him MOVE #SCARY #BUT CUTE #he deserves fruit IM SORRY BUDDY WHAT ARE YOU EATING #theres MOLD in this jar too I just wuit care 100% assuming they died #ahwhdhdjjdjdkslqkqk #omfg #okay tomorrow i need to recover from physical and mental ailments AND attend classes finally #im on the mend

[thornquillthefiendish]

I’m getting on board with this hawkash shit but. I have some very big differences in how I think they’d function.

Like, I think ashfur would be more so in control of things than hawkfrost, I feel like he’s more of a control freak. The moment he loses control with squirrel he decides “well now your family has to die, sorry fam” I don’t think it’d be different with hawkfrost. Hawkfrost himself I think is presenting himself as an independent individual, but he’s not, he relies largely on Tigerstars influence, while he’s still a manipulative little bastard I think he needs someone to inspire him most of the time. Also - I think I need to note that ashfur manipulated shadowsight extremely early on and also StarClan??? I don’t think that’s a thing he just picked up after he died, I think consistently he’s been a manipulator and good at mind games, I think he’d be able to get into Hawkfrost’s head.

Also just don’t think they’d be great together, ashfurs behaviors wouldn’t go away just because of hawkfrost, and I don’t think hawkfrost as a character would like being chained down by him, he’d likely escalate things. They’re messy, and I enjoy explorations of messier relationships in a realistic way, so maybe I don’t exactly ship them (ew ashfur being happy), but they are an interesting concept writing wise.

Also to note, I hate ashfur with a burning passion and how I envision him is very different to how I think other people see him. I’ve always looked at him more realistically though via my own personal experiences under similar disturbing situations, he just, he makes me feel a weird mix of hatred and like. Anxiety? Anyways, Hawkfrost deserves a better boyfriend/hj

#warrior cats #wc #hawkash #weird little ramble might delete later #also I don’t mean anything against anyone who likes ashfur #I get that he’s interesting #I just feel personally really sick when I see him portrayed cutesily #I also struggled with this when hawkash was getting bigger cause #I like hawk (understatement I think he’s a comfort character to me) #and I think he is gay asf #and I also love toxic gays #but ashfur is #ashfur and I hate him #lowkey why I really like crowhawk crow is somehow is just more workable for me #I mean he sucks but he’s so pathetic it’s funny #ashfur is pathetic yeah but I think he’s also scary in that way of how well he concealed himself in plain sight

[lynxalon]

HOLY SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT THAT CRITROLE EP WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! im SO glad we had the set up of the last one so we could have the big thrills of this!!!!!!!!! this had everything!! it had ira's bad (and good!) decisions! it had sam's out of pocket wacky can shenanigans!! it had deception and sneaking! it had badass plays and some.. eye-catching talents 👀 it had gross shit that's kinda actually sad if u think about it! it had walking (running) away from explosions (NOT a sunglasses moment this was a loserfail) it had .. terrifying parents. it had imodna momence !! :D it even had some unprecedented wins for our typically fighty/flighty adventurers!!! i will ABSOLUTELY be watching that again come monday!!!!!!!!!!

#lynx speaks #cr spoilers #now to expand upon these!!! i am THRILLED that there has been a more overt notice of orym's hex 😏 #thats what i've been excited for for aaaaaaages i adore orym esp when he gets a little more fucked up #what can i say im a bit of an angst fan myself :D #fcg gave ira SUCH a bad time tho like CMON BBYYYYY 1 MINUTE ?!?!?!?!?!! yall r LUCKY yalls r cool af #also tho.... ira actually saving fearne like 👀 i see it!!! i think simply everyone likes fearne and everyone would save her 😎 #and team infiltrate i loooved imogen's use of that damn .. what was it called ? the damn static bomb that was sick as hell!!! #and hey!! both teams got in and out without anyone catching on that it was bells hells helping! #is that a first for bh? cause it sure feels like it TBH like the feywild malleus key stunt did NAWT go this smoothly #even with the bumps they had they did terrific frfr #esp with imogen setting up oryms badass fighter play and launda and chet setting each other up for success #and it does FEEL like imogen is more powerful on ruidus just from the plays she makes like the static spell and how it set Everyone up #to protect them all and keep their enemies in bad positions so that bh had good positions #they barely got hits and orym and chet took the brunt of it #they got out everoa and themselves without too much hassle and i'd say team mcfuckin 'splosion did pretty fucken well too #more damage on their side but. thatssss not their fault thats mainly on ira (and fcg 😂) #gosh. goshhh. what a good fucking episode. and sorrowlord zathuda. and liliana. fuck bro. #zathuda is SCARY #and liliana i meaaaaaaan. hun what did u THINK 🧐 imogen meant when she told u to run?? 🤔 'did she know' u know the answer to that. #i was definitely excited cause. we knew the volition were gonna fail in killing liliana. but i felt in my heart that she was gonna #feel betrayed by imogen. despite creating the scenario in which imogen must 'betray' her. #i LOVE fucked up mothers cant waaaaait to see what happens next !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[creepiefarm]

i hate u ppl who took everything jay ever said about tim as Fact

#u were supposed to See and Figure Out that jay is an unreliable narrator struggling w trust and being made extra paranoid/mistrustful bc of #operator sickness. but instead they took it as confirmation that tim is lying and hiding things for Bad Dangerous Reasons #and not like. yknow. his own safety and primary? cuz jay wasn't actually owed any knowledge of tim's personal medical history? #*privacy not primary #tim was not lying about the things ppl say he was (ie not remembering when masky fronts). the few times he did lie was about things that #only affected his own safety and privacy. n i just (bites u bites u bites u bites u) #no one even said anything today i just saw a quote and it made me think about how many ppl just blindly beliehe jay #AND I GET IT! to an extent. i'm bad at unreliable narrators bc Autism. i spent the first season n a half being like ughhhh #i just don't think alex is up to anything good :/ but jay trusts him so i guess! i have to #but that's why mh has entry 59. that's why it has jessica. to make sure You the Viewer r realizing how jay is acting is Not Goof #by that point ur supposed to realize he has a skewed view of everyone around him #n im not saying jay was all bad or that he had bad intentions bc i think he genuinely wanted to help n make sure alex n jessica were ok #i'm just saying i get pissed off when ppl take what he Said as proof that tim was lying n scary and bleh #help these tags are infinitely longer than my post. anyway i gotta get back to farming #creepie.txt

[borderlinegerard]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

#personal #my posts #so fucking tired oh my god #just yelled at my sister so loud that my throat is sore over a piece of fuciing plastic #sometimes ecerytbinf feels so bad and its like. what do i even do #like ok i relapse and i need a break from someone and they loose their fucking shit on me #taljing about how you always deal with my shit and youre tired of how i see you as the worst in the group #as if i didnt literally repeat to you over and over again that i love you and that i always will even when you kept denying it #all of the times youve left all the servers and the gc and all that and i was there to comfort you #theres a reason im always the person you go to #byt yeah . im neverrrr there for you #like is it just that im not there for you in the Same Way that youre there forme ?? #does it need to be completely equal to be fair #and idk. i know hes struggling too but its so fucking stupid because ive been struggling for months and i dont treat u like tjat #im tired of feeling like i have to do two times more than everyone else ro be worthy of their love #like sorry man but im fucking sick and tired #i know ill be fine without you but like youre so sick right now that i dont know what youll do without all of us #idk im just like. you used to be so kind but now youre writing your name in mu blood #and sometimes i feel bad because i didnt mean evedytbinf i said to you but lets be honest #you didnt mean everyrbinf you said either #and i dont know if you were ever the right person because a lot of the time i think we are just two chemicals that werent meant to mix #but ill always remember you when i hear that one song and im making it sound like this is some kind if goodbye but it Really isnt #but like there was a time when i would tear myself apart for you. mot even because i liked you that much #i guess i just wanted someone that liked me as much as you did??? #and when j say that it isnt even about one soecific oerson. its an amalgamation of ecery person tgat has ever loved me #a little more than they were supposed to #i think i hate ahen people love me Too Much because i dont want to be adored like that it scares me #iknow what thats like and i dont want to be someone fp Its so scary #okay if im being honest i dont know whbat the fuck im saying right mow #byt like. idk. im tired and i think im done. tbh

[devilfruitdyke]

spiraling is so wild first im pissed that my drawing didnt look good now i dont think ill ever forgive my family for their treatment of me

#im sick of being babied because theres a man whos taller than me 🙂 #'ooohfhgf yr so little im sorry about how you dont know anything 🥺🥺' #< talking to a 5'7 person who swims at least twice a week has a 3.97 gpa and calls my grandparents more than my parents do #if i try to make jokes to not just fucking PISS EVERYONE OFF they think ohh so silly woman. never had an opinion 🙂 #nothing i say is ever serious dont even FUCKING worry 👍👍 #its fucking pathetic. at my brothers age i was like i can relate to this scary character haha #cue my mother swooping in to be like noo this isnt you #AND HE FUCKING SENDS SOMEBODY TO THE HOSPITAL IN HOCKEY. BUT ITS FINE BECAUSE HE PLAYS BETTER HOCKEY THAN ME #all you have to do here is be strong. physically not mentally because knowing you have undiagnosed adhd for #a literal third of yr life doesnt count. BUT if yr shoulders are too big for the prom dress that they think you want to wear its also over #and my brother is so butthurt from also growing up in this wack ass situation that he wont let me have ANYTHING. #sorry that you dont think i can read a map or whatever the fuck #sorry that you THINK you make more money than me at yr silly sports job #WHEN IM TRAINED TO HOLD 150 POUNDS TREADING WATER. sorry i got illegally scheduled and it gave me heat cramps #silly me.

[pepprs]

mutuals i got myself into a situation so sticky i don’t even know how to describe it (edit: *describes it* lol). please send thoughts of successful escape my way lol

#purrs #delete later #i SONT understand anything about retirement or insurance whatever and basically imightve signed a contract for smth i didn’t understand #fully and im so scared lol. and i feel so bad bc im stupid and i don’t understand anything and no matter how much peopel #xolain it to me i don’t understand it. i feel like a stupid silly naive little girl rn LOLLLLL i feel so sick #it’s probably fine and not that bad and i didn’t do the wrong step but im freaking out. not just bc of the money situation but also bc they #have to do a. medical exam on me to see how much i would have to pay or whatever 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 wtf #im making it sound like a big bad scary freak thing isigned up for when really it’s not i don’t thin&. it’s just dividend lige insirance but #i don’t understand what any of it means and apparently other stuff is better. idk anything about retirement i only got into this stupid #situation because i had a mandatory retirement selection for work and ididnt understand anything so i scheduled a meeting with a retirement #counselor person to help me figure out which option would be the best for me and he was really nice and helped me a lot but then he started #saying he could help me w additional retirement stuff if i wanted to see what the options were and i was like sure and then he told me abt t #this thing and had me fill out / sign the application in that same meeting to ‘get the process started bc it takes. a long time’ even if i d #decided to pull out later it would be a good thing to get the ball rolling asap if i did end up wanting to do it. but i didn’t understand an #anythi ng and i went along with it anyway and now i might’ve fucked myself over so bad. except i probably didn’t but i feel so bad. bc he wa #was so nice and genuine but maybe he was just trying to sell me a product bc he gets a commission from the insurance company which i he told #me wheni asked him if im getting his help for free. i feel so stupid and guilty omg #and also i signed up for my first credit card but the interest rates are really high which i didn’t realize. and i can’t log into the bank a #account for some reason liek it says my acc doesn’t work. and hr fucked up my pay so i haven’t gotten a time sheet for like 2 pay periods an #and im getting retroactively paid in august but it’s just one more fucking thing and i haven’t gotten the chance to pick new benefits yet #and idk if i can / will bc of my stupid pay situation like i literaly don’t exist in the system rn apparently. i fucking hate all of this i #hate adulting i hate it i hate it i want to explode and hide forever and cry a lot. and my bank account isn’t even my own rn and i don’t und #understand anything about mony or insurance or benefits or credit cards or anything. im so overwhelmed FUCK