#here i am in 2024 wishing to be so obsessed with someone fictional that their thought could cheer me up. im such a fucking loser

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god i miss ethan hunt

#its not like. i miss ethan content or shit or movies or something. a couple months ago i could be sad and write myself half a page #of ethan giving my oc a hug and it would be peace and love on planet earth #i hate hate hate being in between fandoms because it makes coping with life way harder #i miss being so obsessed with kaz brekker that i could reread an old thing i wrote and make myself feel better. #i miss being so head-over-heels for nikolai lantsov that i could write for five minutes about him staring longingly at a painter who looked #like someone i wanted to be that it would make me feel better. i miss wanting lucy carlyle to give me a hug or being so into my own #network of ocs that writing fluff for two of them would brighten my mood. #god. #this is really fucking pathetic #here i am in 2024 wishing to be so obsessed with someone fictional that their thought could cheer me up. im such a fucking loser