#i hate hate hate being in between fandoms because it makes coping with life way harder

[fncreature]

god i miss ethan hunt

#its not like. i miss ethan content or shit or movies or something. a couple months ago i could be sad and write myself half a page #of ethan giving my oc a hug and it would be peace and love on planet earth #i hate hate hate being in between fandoms because it makes coping with life way harder #i miss being so obsessed with kaz brekker that i could reread an old thing i wrote and make myself feel better. #i miss being so head-over-heels for nikolai lantsov that i could write for five minutes about him staring longingly at a painter who looked #like someone i wanted to be that it would make me feel better. i miss wanting lucy carlyle to give me a hug or being so into my own #network of ocs that writing fluff for two of them would brighten my mood. #god. #this is really fucking pathetic #here i am in 2024 wishing to be so obsessed with someone fictional that their thought could cheer me up. im such a fucking loser

[bowl-of-brain-worms]

im so deep in the dungeon meshi sludge man. im having those late night thoughts you should NOT listen to yknow? but im finding more and more parallels between myself and laios and Bro. I Dont Want That.

not because i hate him, i love that guy. hes so sweet and good and silly. but like. real talk. the way fandom treats him drives me insane and i think its BECAUSE of his relatability.

fans treat laios like hes dumb. "he doesnt know what sex is! hes so oblivious to everything around him! hes a drop out! hes a baby!" My Brother In Christ, he is a biologist. hes explicitly talks about the possible mating habits of living armor. the way he tied thistle to his back definitely aint the way you tie a christmas ham if you know what im saying. he dropped out - not because hes stupid - but because he didnt have the correct accomadations and honestly pretty dogshit coping mechanisms.

does he have trouble with recognizing the feelings of people around him? absolutely! but that doesnt make him dumb!! hes constantly shown to be able to think on his feet and come up with clever solutions to the problems he and the party faces. hes impulsive and doesnt think things through all the time, sure (eating raw parasite for example) but it geniunely pisses me off that people immedietly write off all the intelligent decisions he makes beyond that.

being a drop out doesnt make you stupid. being bad at talking doesnt make you stupid. needing help in certain aspects of your life (in laios' case, social skills) does not make you stupid. its something that i have to tell myself too often and seeing the fandom fall into the same unconcious cruelty of believing someone to be stupid against all contrary evidence is. idk. disheartening i guess. but also maddening.

on a lighter note, i dont think laios is a monsterfucker. hes just a furry. i will not be taking questions.

#ryoko kui made a character too realistic and im having a bad time #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #laios touden #is this a vent? #im gonna say its a vent

[chaifootsteps]

You know how i cope with the fact that Helluva Boss is "wasted potential: the show"? By gaslighting myself into tinking thats not an actual cartoon, but a fanfic of one better adult cartoon from another universe:

In some other paralel universe, there is an aclaimed adult Cartoon that aired in adult swim from the early 2000's, called "Helluva Job", wich follows the wacky adventures or 4 demons, all very different in personalities and have a hard time working together, triying to get out of their miserable life as the lowest class of demons in hell by working on killing humans in exchange of money from those who commision them those murders.

Every episode its about them trying to get their new target, a premise thats kinda repetitive but the show manages to make it fresh avaery episode with its creativity.

It had a wacky absurd humor that doesnt take itself seriously, sometimes based on very silly and cartoony things happening to the protagonists, it also had a very, VERY dark humor that would make kinda fucked out jokes about taboo themes (kinda like drawn together), wich made many people belive that the show "didnt age well" despite still being hilarous. It also had some sexual humor, but it was very limited and always with clever jokes that arent just the characters screaming the names of genitals.

Robo-Fizz, The Cherubs and Verosika are some of the recurring villains that where remembered for having neat designs very charismatic personalities. Even the people that never saw the show know them and loves them.

The show was also know for having a lot of criticism of capitalism and rich people hidden behind clever dark humor, that didnt distract from the sillines of its show.

Stolas is just a recurring joke of "that one creepy old man Blitzo sleep with because he is rich and has to do it to keep his job", he never gets more than 4 minutes on screen and its always him being an steriotypical rich asshole who abuses his power and makes gross comments to Blitzo (and he is very classist and racist). Stella is just the woman thats married to him and she tries to be a decent wife, but she is clearly annoyed with him and clearly she just waiting for him to ask divorce.

Stolas also dies in the finale of the show when a metor falls over him, Blitzo celebrates this in the most childish and exagerated (but also extremely funny) way possible.

The art style was like a combination between Clone High and Dexter's laboratory, with the use of exagerated shapes to form its cgaracters. And the animation was just decent, but its praised over the character designs, wich are simple yet efective and creative

The show got 2 seasons and those were enough, it was remembered as one of the darkerst yet funniest cartoons that ever aired on adult swim, and how people still rewatching it years later.

Meanwhile, Vivziepop is some popular artist in the fandom of that show thats know because, for some reason, she got obsessed with Stolas fucking Blitzo, and she insist that their relationship is the most beautiful thing ever, and hates Stella for some headcanons she created about her.

She wrote the know fanfic "Helluva Boss" wich is basically her mischaracterising every character into becoming this really boring, flavourless version of themselves and get reducted to one aspect of their personality. And her trying to gaslight us into thinking that Blitzo and Stola's relationship was some misunderstood tragic wholesome romance, because "Stolas actually loved him!". Almost everyone in the fandom makes fun of this fanfic.

Extremely valid, Anon. To get by in this bitch of a world, sometimes you've just got to gaslight yourself a little.

#Anonymous #helluvs boss mention #actual blog post

[constable-rohza]

I've seen a few posts about the similarities between Frank and Jeff, and on the whole I think they are pretty similar, but one thing I haven't seen explored (probably because there's a total of three people in this fandom) is that Jeff is a young Frank.

I think obviously most actors have a certain vibe, or a certain character type they play often or particularly well, and Jeff and Frank are both the sarcastic straight man of their group, but there's also some traits that definitely read to me as "he still has issues but he's getting better."

(essay below the cut)

I think one of the first things people could notice is that Frank is a silly little guy! Jeff overall (light heartedly) makes fun of the rest of the study group's shenanigans, before sometimes eventually relenting (this happens often in the end credits with Troy and Abed, when he at first rolls his eyes at them before reluctantly joining in and actually having fun). on the other hand, despite Frank's gruff exterior at first, he doesn't hesitate to have fun with his coworkers, and is seen getting very enthusiastic about it- for example, the licence plate game or the animal metaphor game.

obviously both characters' sarcasm and tendencies to use it as a coping mechanism/way of pushing people away. with Jeff it's addressed at times how he's distant, afraid of commitment, afraid of having friends, and other things. however, probably because Animal Control is much shorter, or has a more light-hearted tone, but it's never really addressed seriously by the characters other than in jokes how he's cold or distant.

adding to that, one noticeable difference is how open Frank is about craving intimacy. in the episode with the cats, Victoria makes fun of him for being old and alone, and in the episode with the gardening girl, he mentions that all he wants is to skip to a relationship, and to have someone to sit at home and be domestic with (paraphrasing because I can't be arsed). while Jeff on the other hand is very closed off, putting up a facade of not caring, going on a lot of dates, and generally doing all the parts that Frank hates; casual sex, dating, and shying away the moment it becomes something more serious. to me, this definitely screams character development- Frank gets over his issues with intimacy, probably through therapy or experience or age, and is burnt out from a twenties and thirties full of casual dating, which at heart, was never what he really wanted. this allows him to become far more open about how he truly just wants his person.

another thing on the topic of healing relationships is Jeff and Frank's daddy issues. in Community, it's far more obvious, as there's several episodes centred around Jeff's father and his relationship with him, and it's mentioned enough that it's obvious he still struggles with his dad's leaving as a kid. as opposed to Frank, who never mentions it apart from when actually sees his dad. when Jeff visits his dad, it's an entire episode thing, but when Frank sees his dad, it's at most a five minutes at the end of an episode. this shows Frank's moving on, and managing to focus less of his life around a father that doesn't care.

throughout Community, Jeff struggles with alcohol issues, which are somewhat addressed in the GI Joe episode. he drinks a fair amount and is even referred to as an alcoholic by other characters. in Animal Control, this is again far less severe, and while he is shown drinking several times, and it is joked about by Victoria, it comes across as far more teasing and less concerned. this honestly seems to be a general theme (he says as if this is based off anything at all and not just a coincidence) and it shows with Frank's relationship with food as well. obviously Jeff has some pretty fucked up self hatred and most likely an eating disorder, whereas Frank is shown eating pretty much whatever he wants, to the point where things like him eating Amit's ice cream sandwich or talking about the panini maker become pretty regular.

but also the part in the episode with the gardening girl, when he says he wants to skip to the part where they are "binging shows and gaining weight together" (so real of him) I think summarises his entire arc pretty perfectly, as since Greendale he's not only healed his relationship with food and his body, but he's accepted that what he wants in a partner is pretty much the opposite of what he thought he did before- almost "overcorrecting" to the point where characters no longer make fun of him for his commitment issues and casual dating, but now tease him for his domesticity and pathetic lonely yearning for someone to be his.

so yeah, this was a lot of rambling and projecting and making completely baseless assumptions but it was fun to write :3 I should do more character essays, especially about Jeff because he's so me. hopefully I get my Frank healing arc before I'm in my fifties <3

#community tv show #jeff winger #frank shaw #animal control fox #joel mchale #character essay #silly #long post #nbc community

[nemaliwrites]

i finally got around to reading "Rappaccini's Daughter" by Nathaniel Hawthorne and now i have Dahlia Thoughts™

Rappaccini's Daughter, according to the Ace Attorney wiki, is where the inspiration for Dahlia's last name comes from. I read it with my Fandom Goggles on, and not to get too english class here, but....we're about to get pretty english class

For those of you who haven't read it, it's a gothic short story abt a medical researcher whose experiments with poisonous plants result in his own daughter, Beatrice, becoming poisonous. The man who falls in love with her slowly learns the truth about her nature and struggles to cope with it.

"Am I awake? Have I my senses?" said he to himself. "What is this being? Beautiful shall I call her, or inexpressibly terrible?"

A large portion of our MC's internal narration heavily revolves around the idea of one's appearance vs their nature. He refers to the garden as "an Eden of poisonous flowers". When he shuns Beatrice for what she is, she tells him that even though her exterior is poisonous, her soul is pure.

This is a direct contrast to Dahlia, who Phoenix refers to multiple times as an "angel". And, needless to say, her soul is quite the opposite.

But the one thing the story makes clear about Beatrice is that she is, at the end of the day, a victim of her circumstances - in the same way that Dahlia arguably is as well. The MC's realization of the truth comes like this: he realizes that because Beatrice has been raised in the presence of poison, she has become poisonous herself -> i feel like I don't even need to relate this back to Dahlia at this point, it kind of slaps you in the face.

Beatrice confronts her father, too, and asks why he inflicted this miserable curse on her; but he is adamant that he hasn't done anything wrong.

"Wouldst thou, then, have preferred the condition of a weak woman, exposed to all evil and capable of none?"

He claims it's anything but misery to be as terrible as you are beautiful, to have the power and strength against which no enemy can prevail -> does that not give you big Morgan vibes

At the end, she takes an antidote given to her, believing that it will cure her of her poison - but because she's been so inextricably tied w the poison, there's no curing her anymore.

To Beatrice,--so radically had her earthly part been wrought upon by Rappaccini's skill,--as poison had been life, so the powerful antidote was death

The comparisons to Dahlia are interesting, I think, in that the 'poison' can be used as a metaphor for literally anything else. If we stick with the whole 'you can't escape from your nature and whatever you are raised in the presence of is something you can't separate from yourself anymore', then in a way Dahlia is the exact opposite of Beatrice. One actively fights against and rejects her nature, isolating herself from the entire world, while the other accepts it wholeheartedly. It also can be used to draw further comparisons between Beatrice's father and Morgan: one purposefully molded his daughter to fit his desired image, while the other actively was not involved, but still led to the same end result.

Beatrice's tragedy is that she's aware of her poisonous nature and hates it. She tells Giovanni, her love interest, "I am poisonous! I am deadly! I am like the fatal basilisk that slays with a glance!" She's a prisoner of her father's making, a living weapon who longs for normalcy. Dahlia, on the other hand, embraces her poisonous nature. She uses her charm like a weapon, manipulating everyone around her. There's no longing for normalcy with her; she revels in the chaos she creates.

"Thou hast filled my veins with poison! Thou hast made me as hateful, as ugly, as loathsome and deadly a creature as thyself--a world's wonder of hideous monstrosity!"

And, unwillingly, Beatrice ends up passing on her poisonous nature to Giovanni - and now he's forced to live with this curse. What, then, does that say about Phoenix...?

#ace attorney #ace attorney meta #dahlia hawthorne #phoenix wright #morgan fey #aa3 #trials and tribulations #rappaccini's daughter #nathaniel hawthorne #i mostly did this in preparation for the 'dahlia is literally poison' fic i will write one day hehe #the draft for that fic is literally #“something something morgan feeds dahlia and iris poison so they become poisonous” #“they blame her for it and dahlia starts killing ppl because that feels like the only way she can take that power back” #and like a lot of notes about vishakanyas #especially because in mythology they were usually used as assassins 👀 #dahlia unleashing her poison powers trying to assassinate mia and/or maya? #using her poison powers to kill diego instead of the poison in his coffee? 👀 #also i didn't even add this bc it felt obvious but like....poison being dahlia's main weapon of choice in canon #nemali speaks

[moonagedaydream16]

We need to talk about Ed and Izzy

tw: abuse

I never post on here because it makes me anxious, but I have been lurking for a while now and I keep seeing stuff about Ed (both here and on twitter) that irks me sooo much I feel the need to say something.

The main thing I keep seeing is people saying that they don't trust that Ed wouldn't be abusive with Stede because he was abusive with Izzy and the rest of the crew, or saying that the fact that he is not abusive to Stede is not believable.

First of all, yes Ed was abusive to Izzy, but a lot of people seem to forget that Izzy was also abusive. And I'm not saying Izzy deserved it, of course, he didn't, no one does, but they were abusive TO EACH OTHER. Izzy's abuse was more emotional and I hate that people are so often overlooking it when talking about their relationship because so much emotional abuse gets dismissed in real life as well because you can't physically see it. He saw a man who was grieving, but doing it in a healthy way, believing he had a safe space to share his emotions with the crew and told him that he was not safe and to "watch his fucking step," he "fed his darkness." Ed found himself in a place where he was no longer safe emotionally, so he overcompensated by using violence to feel safe physically, which is where the Blackbeard/Kraken persona has always come from.

Ed becomes violent and abusive when he feels the need to protect himself or hide behind the mask of the Kraken because he doesn't feel safe enough to be Edward. And that's a shitty coping mechanism and Izzy did not deserve to be on the receiving end of it but throughout this season, they are learning to cope better and that's the whole point. PEOPLE CAN CHANGE.

people can break the cycle of violence that makes them abusive toward each other. Izzy is abusive to Ed so Ed is abusive to Izzy and vice versa. But Izzy this season is learning to break that cycle to stop being emotionally abusive to the crew to find a family in them; he is finally in a place where he feels safe enough to do so. We saw it and it was a beautiful arc.

And Ed is trying to do the same. He is trying to break that cycle of violence that started because of his father. He is trying to learn to escape it and cope better. And with Stede, he finally has the space where he is physically and emotionally safe enough to feel like he can let go of the Blackbeard/Kraken persona.

Ed and Izzy were terrible toward each other, and toward other people, but they are learning to break that neverending cycle of violence. They are learning that the person who was abused does not need to become the abuser and that's powerful!!

I love this show and I love this fandom but some of y'all need to develop your media literacy skills because if you don't see the difference between Ed's relationship with Izzy and his relationship with Stede, then you are missing the point and so much of why this show is so good.

This show is about finding where you belong where you can heal from trauma and breaking the kind of cycle of violence that existed between Ed and Izzy (and that really affected the rest of the crew) is part of that.

And just another thing to round off here, this is about a show (about pirates), not real life. Their realities are different than ours and they resort to violence a lot faster because they have to and it's the world they live in. I don't want this to be taken as a direct comparison to a situation of abuse today even if some of what I said can be applied. If you are in an abusive situation, it doesn't matter if that person can break that cycle of violence, it is not your responsibility. Take care of yourself first!!!

Okay, that's it! sorry for the rant, love you all!!

If I ever post on here again it's gonna be a lot more positive than this, I just felt the need to say something.

#our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #izzy hands #ofmd izzy #ed teach #ofmd ed teach #ed x stede #ed x izzy #stede bonnet #ofmd stede #blackbeard

[positivelybeastly]

Is the krakoan era X-Men the most unlikable interation of X-Men?

"I - don't think that's fair to say about them. From what I understand, they put all of their hopes on the establishment of a new country, joined everyone together under one roof, and then . . ."

He'd never seen anything like it. The sheer amount of carnage. He didn't even know most of the people he'd seen being torn apart in the footage, but that hadn't stopped him wanting to throw up when he'd seen them being . . . God, and then, when Bobby . . . he'd dragged his hands down his face and wanted to wail.

Who could do that to Bobby of all people?

The short, glib answer is that Chuck Austen's run of X-Men continues to exist, so by default, no-one can be as unlikable as them.

But the long answer is that the Krakoan X-Men aren't really the X-Men for a lot of that era, and, in their hurry to enjoy the fanfic-esque tropical island paradise setting that Krakoa presents, the fandom forgets just how . . . weird, and culty, the island actually is.

Hey, do you wanna know something semi-embarrassing about me? I only read House of X yesterday. I've only ever read the finer details on other Wiki pages and the occasional plot synopses, never actually read the issues themselves, and . . .

It's fucking creepy, man.

I had an instant negative reaction to the weird shit to do with resurrection, and I just, was not comfortable. The way Cyclops was all creepy about Franklin Richards, acting like they have more claim on him than his actual birth family? I'm sorry, dude, that's fucking whacked out.

Like, I'm sorry, I think that mutant sovereignty is an absolute must and a mutant nation is a narrative necessity, but Krakoa's been fucking creepy and weird and cult-y since moment one.

The weird rituals about resurrection, the whole dying in combat to earn your powers back bullshit, the vilification of Scarlet Witch, everything that went down in LaVelle's Sabretooth books, the Quiet Council and X-Force (full stop, just - in general), the casual sex leading to popping out babies you just LEAVE ON THE FUCKING GROUND?

It's a fucked up society. It's dystopian. You conquered death, and guess what? That never ends well. Suddenly you have to redefine life's meaning, and they chose to make it just fucking around and being weirdos, and, like, sure, that's a mood, but it's also not particularly heroic, and it's very significant that it takes a while for the X-Men to reform as an actual hero team because, well, they decided to give up on protecting a world that hated and fear them for a bit there.

But that's in-universe. Out of universe?

They just aren't putting in the time to service the relationships between the characters properly, and a lot of the time, when those moments do happen, it's become extremely clear that almost everyone on Krakoa is a self-obsessed narcissist with increasingly toxic levels of coping with it.

Think about Kate Pryde just completely fucking flubbing her chance to spot that Piotr Rasputin was under mind control, think about Storm just fucking off to Mars and abandoning everything on Earth, think about what happens to Orphan-Maker at the end of Hellions, think about LITERALLY EVERYTHING to do with X-Force - this is not a healthy society.

And that's a good story.

But it feels like at some point, they just kinda forgot about the fucked up shit and decided nah, this is just paradise, this is great, let's sand off the edges. Like, when Jean tells Firestar to just throw X-Force Beast under the bus to make her cover better during the Hellfire Gala, it's read by so many people as this girlboss OMG SLAAAAAAY moment, but . . . you . . . guys do realise that, like . . . that's fucked up, right? You do realise what that moment means?

"You should invoke Beast's reputation as a butcher of humans and a genocidal maniac and a massive lying piece of shit, WHICH I KNOW ABOUT AND HAVE DONE NOTHING ABOUT, and in fact, I'm going to validate his work because it's useful to me now!"

Like, X-Force Beast would tell Jean that she did EXACTLY the right thing in that moment, would welcome it, compliment her on her cunning, and if that's not a sign that you fucked up, that your moral priorities are completely and utterly fucked, then I don't know what to tell you, man.

#vinial453 #verse: I wait to wake #outofmuffins

[meraki-yao]

20 Questions For Fic Writers ✒️

I have a bit of time between now and my consultation for my essay so I’m finally answering these! Thank you to @luainthewild and @typicalopposite for the tags!!!!

How many works do you have on ao3?

13 right now! I’m a baby fic writer lol I only started in 2022 as a coping mechanism from university fucking me up, but I’m fully in love with it now. It’s so good to get back into writing for myself after writing for school and exams according to a marking scheme for so long.

What's your total ao3 word count? 43,982!

What fandoms do you write for?

浪浪钉 LLD (The collective ship name for the main ship Wenzhou and the rps Junzhe), Shadowhunters (mostly Show canon but I do have book canon fic ideas in my drafts), RWRB

I have a Sanders Sides Hadestown AU in my drafts too but that’s been gathering dust there for a while😅

Top five fics by kudos:

I’d Hang the Moon for It to Shine on Him Sleeping (RWRB)

I Need Comfort (But I Hate Being Comfortable) (RWRB)

Dancing Under Red Skies (Shadowhunters)

Take Me Out and Take Me Home (Shadowhunters)

Achilles Come Down (Shadowhunters)

Do you respond to comments?

Not really, mostly because I have no idea how to handle compliments🫠

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I’d say my first fic? Four Times Love Meant Sacrifice and the One Time It Didn't Need To, because that was literally four ships with a bad ending (or at least endings presented as bad) with one final happy ending ship. But otherwise I mostly stick with happy endings, or at least hopeful endings

But I will say my WIP that I posted on Wednesday is gonna break that record and have the angsiest ending, because it’s about Arthur Fox’s cancer diagnosis and Henry’s emotional journey through that point of his life

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I’d say most of them are fairly happy? But I do think I do hopeful endings more.

Probably Can I Have This Dance? It ends with Alex and Henry dancing around in the Texas family house after the election

Do you get hate on fics?

So far so good, no, and I’m hoping it stays that way 🥹

Do you write smut?

Very, very tame. The most explicit thing I’ve written is The Word of Your Body, which is a RWRB Movie Paris scene fic. It’s very tame, but writing the main event gave me such a crisis

Craziest crossover:

I don’t think I’ve done a crossover? Between fandoms, that is. And I don’t think I’ll ever plan to? Unless you count what I did for Four Times Love Meant Sacrifice and the One Time It Didn't Need To because I was mixing the actor’s characters from different projects and shipping them together (which is a really prominent thing in the LLD/JZ fandom)

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, not that I know of

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but with my growing interest in translation, I am thinking of translating some of my own fics, starting with the LLD (since that’s a dominantly Chinese fandom to began with)

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, not yet!

All time favorite ship?

Aw, you can’t make me choose, that’s impossible!

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have way too many ideas in my RWRB draft box, so there’s a lot of doubt there

But for fics I actually already started, it’s a song fic on “I’ll Cover You” from Rent for Junzhe. I was like 40% done with the draft, but the last time I touched it was in 2022.

It’s supposed to be a sort of exploration on cross-dressing and femineity which started because I was pissed at the government’s “Anti-sissy” declaration, and Zhehan (one part of the ship, but don’t search him online yourself a lot of shit happened and there’s massive misinformation everywhere about him) was really loved and known for his perceived femininity after holding a dominantly masculine image for most of his career. The gender neutrality in his style during and after Word of Honor suited him better, and I wanted to write about that

What are your writing strengths?

Descriptive writing and character studies, which is why most of my fics are either putting visual media into words, or missing scenes, or canon compliant

What are your writing weaknesses?

Dialogue and anything regarding movement and action, so choosing to write a Tangled AU for the RWRB Big Bang is a challenge I set for myself

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

Be careful with it, and be respectful. (and of course, if it’s Chinese, I will be extra critical)

First fandom you wrote in?

Lang Lang Ding/Junzhe! Or if you categorize according to AO3 tags, Word of Honor RPF

Favorite fic you've written?

Eh, I’m pretty happy with most of my fics but I’ll go with I’d Hang the Moon for It to Shine on Him Sleeping, The Word of Your Body and Achilles Come Down

No pressure tagging @o0anapher0o @pippin-katz @lfg1986-2 @noemiettedraw @thinkof-england

#rwrb #red white and royal blue #rwrb movie #firstprince #rwrb fic #junzhe #word of honor #junzhe fic #malec #shadowhunters #malec fic #meraki writes #tag game #ask game #meraki fic

[diabolicalcunt]

I feel the need to pin this cause I’ve always been notorious for people loving me when they first meet me, and then finding out that my political views are not extremely liberal. So here’s all the reasons you will hate me once you get to know me. Or not. I honestly don’t care I’m just sick of the ‘You aren’t who I made you out be in my head!’ conversations.

So my unpopular opinions in no order-

1. They/them is something that’s being encouraged by big brother to see yourself as non or less human.

2. DID isn’t real and you just disassociate a specific way. I look like I’ve been drugged cause I fall down ‘inside’ myself like a well and have no reaction time and can barely speak. I’m like a sloth. You pretend to be a anime character. It’s just coping.

3. The concept of trans genocide is fear mongering by big brother and means to keep boundaries between social groups.

4. To build off 3, the push to medically transition underage children is a move by big pharmaceutical companies to create a permanent customer. Because whether you decide to stay transitioned or de transition, you’re going to be on medication for the rest of your life whether you like it or not. There’s also the whole issue with child exploitation. You’ll be judgmental against Dance Moms, but you won’t say anything about a mom who transitioned her child when they were two years old and made them a social media star.

5. Trans men and women who have been charged with a crime belong in LGBT prison wings. Because we have created a culture where male rapists can put on its dress and be rewarded with a permanent stay in the hen house where they can victimize more women and the system will just cry transphobia and call the victims liars. You got a problem with that? I have never seen a trans man pushing to get put in men’s prison. I wonder why… 😐

6. Blair White is queen.

7. I will fight Henry Cavill on sight. I don’t give a shit how bad you want motorboat him. He’s a fucking pedophile.

8. Same goes for David Bowie. When I get to the afterlife I’m gonna make him wish he could die again. Ask me if you want my full on sight list. 😂

9. I stand with Palestine. Yes I think Islam is a horrible religion that is anti woman. I still don’t think kids should die for the grievances of adults and I think it’s fucked up Israel is doing the same shit Nazis did to them and expect us to nod and smile!

10. Qu**r is just as much of a slur as f*g*t or n*gg*r. I don’t use it and if you do I will block you no questions asked. Say gay! Say lesbian! Say…bisexual! 😱

11. Butch women are valid as fuck and I adore y’all . They aren’t trans men, fuck your lesbian phobia.

12. To build off 11, the new LGBT movement has been infected by woke homophobia and the new trans movement is nothing but conversion therapy in a mask.

13 . Radical feminists are women’s last hope.

14. Marvel movies always sucked, we were just kids and ate up the pretty colors.

15. Dune is a white male savior story.

16. Your fave is not autistic, trans, gay or whatever. You just need validation cause you have no confidence.

17. The Boys should have never cast Jensen Ackles and the Supernatural fandom needs psychological help.

18. Too many of y’all try to primp and posture as the gods of your fandom and yes I say that as someone who did the same and stepped away when I realized how cringe I was. Lording over autistic adults and actual children is pathetic. Get therapy and a real hobby.

19. While gender neutral fanfiction has its place. The trend that all fanfiction needs to be gender neutral is literally killing the creativity and frankly the spice to fanfiction. I hate this trend where piece of media needs to be sterilized so it can be consumed by anyone, even people just passing by. It goes against the concept of creating at its core. Sometimes things are made for specific groups. Sometimes it’s made just for you. The things you create do not need to be sanitized to the point there’s no substance, just a hollow consumption. Think of it this way. Would you rather have a hot pizza of your preference or would you prefer to just drink a bowl of water because someone on the other side of the world might not like pizza?

20. The WWE Divas belt was iconic. I get the whole take women wrestlers seriously movement and I agree! But god damn it, it’s a Bratz belt!!! Gimme!!!!!

21. I fucking HATE koalas. They literally only exist because humans have dumped millions of dollars and keeping them alive. If natural selection were allowed to take his course, they would’ve died off 100 years ago. The food they consume has so little nutrition that they have evolved to have the smallest brain to cranium capacity of any animal to create a built in helmet!! Why? Cause they are so stupid they literally fall out of trees and drop their infants!!! They shit on their young and have permanent diarrhea due to the 0 nutrition thing. They carry chlamydia. They’re so fucking stupid they can’t fuck and have to be artificially inseminated to continue the population. If I couldn’t get laid on my own, the government would not drop millions of dollars into making sure I do!! So why did koalas get it? Literally a waste of resources that could be going to feed thousands of hungry children and instead we’re keeping a fucking retarded (I’m on the spectrum fuck you) animal alive who should have gone extinct hundreds of years ago cause it’s supposedly ‘cute’!! God! I hate koalas!

#get to know me #unpopular opinion

[itchose]

in-depth character headcanon questions for TRAVIS | @inflame asked: what's your muse's biggest fears and what caused them?

i have so many different answers for this for different parts of his life.

pre-crash,  his biggest fear is being perceived.   he’s always been an outsider,   always struggled to make friends / connect with anyone,  but it obviously gets a lot worse after 7th grade when he has his spinal fusion surgery and starts getting bullied more heavily with the addition of the nickname flex and all the other rumors that come with it.   because it’s one thing to be the kid on the outside who people just ignore in a way that’s always made him feel lonely;   it’s another thing to be the kid only noticed because of a rumor being spread and a nickname people can now use to poke fun at him too.  especially because most of the people probably don’t even know what his actual name is.   they just know the nickname that’s clearly very harmful to him.  so now there’s attention on him that makes him even lonelier than not being noticed at all.  he hates the idea of people talking about him or to him in this way,  he hates knowing that there are people spreading this name / these rumors,  he hates knowing that they only see him as this.  

he’d rather not be perceived at all,  which ultimately makes his initial time in the wilderness harder,  because there’s no chance of him fitting in there at all.  he’s the only teenage boy there.  there’s a group of girls who are already on a team together who already know each other in a certain way.  then there’s an adult,  and then his kid brother,  and these people are all outsiders in their own way,   and i think the fandom has a habit of associating travis with ben to claim there’s some similarity there,  but there really isn’t.   he’s still an adult,  travis is still a teenager,  they’re still in very different circumstances.  ben tries to connect with him to be there for him but it’s hard for travis to accept it   ( i think there’s some resonation between them much later on, but that doesn’t mean travis feels like ben is the person to stick around to make him feel less alone,  because he isn’t.  )  

the bullying is just even harder for him to deal with in the wilderness because it’s now impossible to hide,  even worse than it was in the halls at school,   because he is such an easy target.  he is the only teenage boy there and they’ve already got hold of this nickname that makes him feel so much shame and it’s impossible for him to get away from it.  he’s being perceived more than ever,   or at least that’s how it feels,  and it’s terrifying to him,  which is why he lashes out and why he’s mean to everyone around him and especially his brother.  and he handles none of this in the right way but all of his fears and insecurities really hit him at once and the only way he knows how to deal with it is to push outward.

after crashing,  his biggest fear is losing javi.    and that doesn’t mean he’s the best brother to him because of it,  either,  because he’s definitely not.   he never properly processed his feelings about his father’s death.  he didn’t like him,  he routinely wished for him to be gone,  but now that he actually is,  he doesn’t know how to cope with that,  other than realizing that the responsibility to take care of javi is now on him.   and he doesn’t know what he’s doing.  he’s well aware that he’s not been a good brother to him for the past few years,  but now,  he’s his only parental figure out there,   and that’s scary,  because travis has no good reference from their father.   and it’s fucked up because as much as he doesn’t want to be his father,  he ultimately takes his anger out on javi the way his father often did to him,   and he can feel himself doing it and it’s terrifying to him.   he takes steps in the right direction but when he can’t handle something personally,  it backfires.   he literally tries to dig up their dead father’s body just so he can bring javi something to have of a father that travis never liked or trusted anyway,  and when he gives it to him,  he acts like he just had it because he wants to spare javi from knowing the lengths he went and because he doesn’t want some kind of empty praise for something that felt necessary to him anyway.  but he still fights javi afterwards.   he steals food from the girls and refuses to give them a reason,  and when he tries to give it to javi just so he can feed his brother,  he still gets mad at him for the gum.   he’s trying to take care of javi physically but it’s the emotional side that’s really hard for him.   he tries,  just very slowly.

and then he does lose javi.  he’s missing for over 2 months and all travis can think about is that as long as he doesn’t have closure,  then javi is still out there,  but he’s suffering somewhere and he has to get to him.   travis told javi not to come with him on doomcoming and that led to javi’s disappearance and to travis’s assault + almost murder.  all of these things are connected.  if he didn’t go with jackie,  if he didn’t make that choice,  then maybe he wouldn’t be so traumatized,  and more importantly to him,  maybe javi would still be here.  he believes it’s on him for not just being with him.  it was a scary night for everyone and he should’ve been protecting his brother and no,  travis isn’t at fault for what happened to either of them,  but he’s never going to forgive himself for his decisions that night anyway.  and, frankly, it’s easier to hate himself for what happened to javi than to deal with what happened to himself.  because at least finding javi is something he feels like he can actually do,  but actually working through what he experienced that night isn’t something he feels capable of doing.

javi returns and travis promises himself he’s going to do better by him.   because he can’t afford to lose him;   just like with bringing the ring back for him so he can have something,  he has to be able to bring something home to his mother,  too.   it can’t just be him.   he knows he’s not the favorite son,  he knows that his mother is already going to have a hard time processing the fact that her husband is gone,  but she can’t lose her youngest son,  too.   and travis doesn’t feel like he’s any sort of consolation prize either.   he takes a new approach with javi,  he tries to be softer with him,  tries to match his energy when he can’t speak.   he tells him it’s okay if he doesn’t want to talk because he understands that’s not something he’s comfortable with,  but he’s still desperate for information because he’s so afraid of what happened to him out there.   he tries to create a shield between javi and the others, he refuses to push javi when the girl insist he do it,  because he’s trying to protect him.   because that’s all he can do until javi is ready to communicate with him.   but he’s terrified,  because javi is back,  but it doesn’t feel like he is,   like he’s a ghost of his former self,   and travis has already decided that he’s failed to save him.

but then there’s some relief when he doesn’t pull the queen card,  and he doesn’t even consider what his actions afterwards could do.   all he thought about was saving nat’s life,  he never expected it to put javi in danger   (  not that it would have stopped him,  per se.   in that moment all he was thinking about was saving nat.  )   he tells javi to go protect nat because it’s his only move left,  but the last thing he’s expecting is for them to bring javi’s body back.   he sees javi’s dead body and all he can think about is his own failures.    he thinks he could have prevented it,  he thinks it’s his fault;   not just by fighting in the circle but everything that led here.  he can’t see it any other way.   and i’m with the kevin who said that if travis knew what nat did,  what really happened when javi died,  he would never forgive her.  so i don’t think he ever learns what happens out there—  and i don’t think the details are something he’s desperate for, either.    all he knows is that what he was most scared of out there already happened,   and now he doesn’t know how to keep on living.   but he has to,  because that’s why javi died:   so travis could live.

after he loses javi,  for the rest of his time in the wilderness + through his life post rescue,   one of his biggest fears is dying.   it’s not that he thinks his life is worth living or that he’s afraid of death itself;  he’s faced it for so long that it’s impossible for him not to get comfortable with the thought.   what scares him is ever making what happened to javi meaningless.  because van did reach him in that conversation before they ate javi,  even if he wasn’t exactly receptive to it at first.   javi died to he could save their lives,  to save travis’s life,  and if he didn’t eat,   if he didn’t keep fighting to live every single day of his life afterwards,   then what did he die for?   that doesn’t stop him from being reckless with his life,  either—  but he’s so desperate to feel something that he can’t balance safety and survival all at once.   that’s why there’s a suicide pact between him and nat;   because they both know they’re alive because javi is dead.   and they both feel in depth to him for different reasons.  their lives have to be lived,  even when it doesn’t feel worth it.   

outside of himself,  his other biggest fear,  especially post-rescue,  is nat dying.    she’s his only family left.   she’s all he has.   he has a mother who he doesn’t know how to look in the eye anymore / who he can’t properly communicate with.   even when things between him and nat are going horribly,   even when they’re breaking it off / refusing to speak,   she’s still family.   she always will be,   just as javi saw it too,   and he doesn’t want anything bad to happen to her.   sometimes,  that means they have to stay away from each other,  and he understands that too.   he hurts her,   she hurts him,  it’s a cycle that they can’t get out of because no one else understands them the way the other does.    they don’t belong together but how can they possibly belong anywhere else?  they’re horrible together but how can they be with anyone else?   if nat is safer away from him,  then he’ll accept that,  because at least she’ll live,  he thinks.   and that’s all that matters to him.   i think travis would have had a very similar arc to nat’s if it happened in reverse;  it might’ve been the only way for him to ever want to reach out to anyone beyond lot.   

to circle this back around to the beginning,   another fear of his post rescue goes back to being perceived.    it’s just different than it was when he was in high school.   i’m actually surprised it took him so long to finally change his name and go off the grid,   i think it’s something that he considered for many years before he ever finally did it,  because he hates hearing his name,  he hates knowing that people may recognize him from the news.   the good thing about it is that most of the time,  his photo isn’t used in reports at all,   because it’s often focused on the team;   the bad thing is that his name is probably more recognizable because of it,  too.  he wants to try to live his life without his past following him but it’s so scary for him to try,   because he shuts down the moment someone mentions it—  especially if they’re aware that he is the only one who had family with him out there,   and he returned alone.   for everyone else,  their relationships with the ones who passed away are just speculation,  but travis doesn’t get that—-  his father and his brother’s death are something that is certain to anyone who knows about what happened out there.  he can’t escape that.  he’s still being perceived in the worst ways and he still can’t free himself from it.

#study: travis. #meta: travis. #2000 words of me talking nonsense but -

[pbeltarts]

How would you rewrite the ultimate Enemy episode ?

This is a fairly large question because if I'm honest, I don't know that I would even keep it in my rewrite.

If I were to be a showrunner and reboot it as a show, ofc I would, but in the context of the re-telling I want to do online, it makes more sense to me to have it be a bit more contained narratively. In my retelling, the biggest threat is Vlad and he will always be the final enemy of the storyline because of how important his existence is in response to Danny's.

Danny is treated like an anomaly by nearly everyone he meets. A lot of the ghosts are impressed or surprised by him, he's "one of a kind" but he's really not. Vlad has long been a halfa before Danny, Danny isn't as unique as everyone else acts like he is.

We can assume people act this way because Vlad hides his status as being a halfa from ghosts and humans alike, but that doesn't make sense to me either because Most of the ghosts Danny encounters seem to know this upon meeting him. Like there's something Danny gives off that tells him he has life in him still.

That's all to say that Dan is often treated like the big final opponent in fandom spaces, because he is Danny himself gone evil. I get why he is seen this way, but narratively I think it's a little boring. I don't like Danny having to LITERALLY face himself. The idea that Danny instead has to recognize the similarities between him and Vlad and face that is just more interesting to me.

That isn't to say I think that Clockwork isn't important or interesting for a larger narrative. While I don't think Danny should be over-recognized as some amazing thing by ghosts because there's already a halfa in existence, I DO enjoy the idea that Clockwork takes notice of Danny because of the diverging paths he can take. He can be the hero everyone will need in the future, or become the villain.

Given I like the idea of exploring Danny's emotional states and how he copes with his life and trauma throughout the story, the idea that Clockwork is almost monitoring him to see how that coping affects his future is interesting to me. Danny can so easily become bitter and hateful because the world has spit on him so many times. But Danny is a good person, at his core, and he knows right from wrong in the end. THAT is something I find interesting.

So would I keep Dan in my retelling? Probably not, he's not really a focus to me. If I ever did like. Idk a special sequel to my own retelling after the storyline I have then maybe that would be the plotline. Dan just feels like a one off moment, not important in my telling.

#not art #asks #god this is long i'm sorry #dp #read more under the cut

[glade-constellation]

This is kind of just me needing to write out my feelings to understand them better, because we have a lot of mixed feeling about Eclipse’s death right now. Sorry if it doesn’t make much sense.

(This turned out much longer than I thought so I put everything under the cut, but I think everything written down is important. Also, when emotions are mentioned, I’m talking more so about healthy coping mechanisms to cause better emotional outcomes. I didn’t really know how to properly word it until I wrote a lot of this so I didn’t want to have to go back and change it. The post is long enough as it.)

I kind of hate how media portrays that death is the only way to handle “bad” trauma survivors. As a trauma survivor myself, seeing this makes me feel like society hate me. Yes, Eclipse was a terrible person, but was death really the only option? Truly and honestly?

It’s so blatantly obvious to us that Eclipse didn’t know how to use healthy coping mechanisms because he was never taught them. His entire life has been bad thing after bad thing. He quite literally woke up for the first time to learn he had been abandoned and left behind because he was Moon’s unwanted coding. His first feelings he ever truly felt for himself were confusion and hurt. On top of this, he was trapped apart from the real world with his only way out being something that badly burned him. When he finally gets out he’s met with extreme hostility and hate (which I don’t blame anyone for with the way Eclipse introduced himself in the first place). His own creation he made to help get him out of Sun’s headspace (Bloodmoon) turned on him and tried to kill him. Every single person in the entire show either turned their backs on him or used him for their own gain.

Yes, Eclipse was kind of doing this to himself, but people also seem to forget what part of Moon he was made from. He was Moon’s attempt at removing the kill code. A code specifically created to kill and hurt. Moon was at least created with other protocols that counteracted the kill code. He had other emotions and thoughts besides the code made to make him murderous. Eclipse was the code, or at least a part of it. He was made with no other emotions and impulses to pull from. Anything else would have been needed to be learned, which he never got a chance to do.

People might argue that Kill Code, the actual code itself, was able to become a good person where Eclipse hasn’t, but I feel these two scenarios are pretty different. The fandom is really bad and doing the Trauma Olympics with these characters, which is a very bad thing to do. Comparing people’s trauma is disrespectful and just plain rude. Trauma is trauma, it still hurt someone regardless of what it was that caused it. While Eclipse and Kill Code are basically the same thing, they went through two completely separate experiences. Also, Kill Code had access to coping skills that Eclipse never had. Kill Code was still connected in some ways to Moon, where as Eclipse had been completely cut off.

Earth was the only person who ever really tried to help Eclipse, and even then she was biased. The first conversation those two really had was the first therapy episode they had together, in which she blatantly tells him he can’t be fixed before she even hears his side of the story. The only things she’s heard about Eclipse are from Sun and Moon, one who is amnesiac and the other who’s had to deal with the worst of Eclipse’s torture. The way she talks to him in this episode also shows that she thinks he can just choose what emotions he is feeling. Once again, I want to go back to the fact that Eclipse was made from Moon forcefully ripping out his kill code. He doesn’t know how to feel any other emotions. They were never programmed into him and he was never taught. Every meeting after that between those two was just Earth getting more and more fed up with Eclipse until she kind of just gave up.

(I didn’t mention Lunar trying to help Eclipse specifically because Lunar never actually did. He supported Eclipse for a bit, got fed up with the constant stress and trauma, and then became Eclipse’s enemy. There was no therapy attempt like Earth tried.)

I’m not saying Eclipse was a good person. He has only ever killed, maimed, tortured, and abused his entire life. Everyone he met was instantly shown hostility, and they had every right to return that same energy back. He did absolutely terrible things and should be held accountable for them. Being traumatized does not give anyone the right to do any of what Eclipse did.

The thing is, Eclipse did still have a chance at redemption. We’ve already canonically seen several other “bad guy” characters get redemptions. Kill Code was given a redemption arc. Lunar was given a redemption arc. Bloodmoon was killed, but both canonical characters and the fanbase believe they could have been redeemed. There is absolutely no reason that Eclipse could not also be redeemed.

I think something the fanbase doesn’t quite understand is that redemption and forgiveness do not go hand in hand. Some people feel like a step in the process of redemption is being forgiven, which isn’t true. You can be forgiven for your mistakes, but that has nothing to do with your personal growth. That someone else’s emotions entirely. Sometimes, something you did will affect someone so deeply that they will never be able to move on. As long as you are striving to be a better person and doing everything you can to achieve that, then you are redeeming yourself.

Eclipse never really seemed to want to change, but I think that’s also because he was never given the tools to do so. I think his last moments really show that he could have done better had he been given the support he so desperately needed.

Eclipse wasn’t scared of dying. He was scared of being hurt. He literally asked Solar Flare, in a very shaky tone, “Do you think it hurts?” He said himself that he was tired, and I think he was just done with the hurt. He was in a constant state of emotional turmoil and pain and he was just done.

Honestly, maybe Solar Flare summed him up perfectly. Eclipse was not a good person, by any means, but he cared. He always did. Probably too much, about things he really shouldn’t. And in the end it cost him everything.

In the end, I do feel Eclipse could have been redeemed. He may not be forgiven, but I don’t feel like he never could have changed. This is just another example of someone who went through something terrible becoming bad because they didn’t have the resources they needed to be better. It would have been hard for him, but I do feel Eclipse could have done it. Especially with how low he was during his final moments. But that’s just it. He’s dead. You can’t fix things from the grave no matter how much you wanted to.

Death will never been a good replacement over redemption.

#Ten won’t stfu #tsams #sams #the sun and moon show #sun and moon show #tsams spoilers #sams spoilers #tsams eclipse #long post

[persephoneflouwers]

i truly didn’t believe you when you said that harry would not be going anywhere after this tour ended. there was just no way in mind that after over two years of crazy touring, two movies, an album, the worst stunt of his career (imo), being over exposed by the media, and everything else in between that he wouldn’t want to take a break for at least a year. no way that he’d keep going and possibly have another project up his sleeve (tbd for now but looking more and more likely). no way that he enjoyed all of this so much that he wouldn’t rest and instead, just wanted this same cycle to continue… so, i just wanted to say that you were right, and it’s honestly been difficult to cope with that reality because it does change some things that i thought were true about who he is. and that feels harsh saying because at the end of the day, it’s my fault for creating this image in my head of who i thought he was. but there’s also parts of me that feel a bit led on or maybe even lied to (idk??) just certain things that gave me hope or that i justified but can’t anymore. it’s not his management or label and it’s definitely not because of his closet either. it’s him making these decisions for the purpose of his career and influence and money and i just hate that harrystylesTM is blending with the harry in my mind. and making me question how genuine some of the things he’s said and done actually were. you know if it makes him happy then ok, i get it. if he thinks all of this is justified then ok. but i just can’t bare to see him make these choices and then be miserable while stunting or try to gay/larry code or make music videos where we’re supposed to feel sorry for him. i still will tbh because god, i really do think he needs some better friends, a hug, and some help, but you make your bed and you lay in it. it’s his choice, and he chose the direction that even a week ago, i would’ve never predicted. so all in all, just wanted to say you were correct and it’s definitely made me think about things differently…

Ouch this is a difficult ask to respond to because the risk is to sound like an ‘I told you so’ kinda person (which I absolutely am but don’t want to now).

So mh, I think most people fall for the marketing and brand not just in this fandom, it’s about the current publicity and media distribution, when in reality that thing is full of crap, delivered by smart people whose job is literally selling things to you.

In US consumerism, the lesson n1 is ‘make it sensational’. The minimum most average thing becomes giant, incredible, out of this planet. When they put tickets for the last show last year on sale, they didn’t mention the ‘final show’ thing. This was clearly planned for later on, when there were two big zones in campovolo that weren’t sold out yet, they put on the final show label. It was smart because people bought the tickets in the fear of ‘Harry styles not going on tour again for years’ and for a fandom that is used to consume him like I consume tomatoes everyday even when I have tummy ache, this was unimaginable. I personally spoke with people from Brazil, Miami, Minnesota. They made it an event.

The end of an era, fandom called it. And of course, FOMO is real for this generation lmao

But I also speak always about the power of words, right? I think your brain chooses words automatically to convey a state of emotions and that is something that all the media training in your life can’t hold back. I am still pretty sure Harry knows that power too, since writing songs is his job I would expect he knows the nuance that lays in the difference between every word. And there words that have been said in a peculiar timing that made neurons in my head spike like fireworks. I didn’t rewatch what he said that night and I’m not a forensic language expert lol but there were moments where you could feel like you were living the Truman show experience.

I am sorry you feel like this, though. I know it’s harder here (unbearable on twt) because it seems nobody is matching your feelings, but I hope you will make peace with this.

My two cents is to let it go, let him go.

Another album, another tour who cares? They will feed it down your throat, everyone and their mothers will pretend to like it because that’s the easiest thing that gives you 1M views on tiktok and they will made up new achievements purposely crafted ad hoc for the whole picture.

Trust me, when I say I don’t like being overstimulated too, that’s why I don’t engage with his content and the only things I know is what anons tell me in the inbox and that’s okay. I just know that if I close my phone, none of this matters anymore in my life cause it’s soooo far away from what I do daily. It’s comforting in a way.

The ryan air motto “sit back, relax and enjoy your flight” is what life is about. Take care of yourself.

#casella di posta numero 32 #long post #discourse #tw last show

[dykelawlight]

How would a female light, L, and a male misa, sayu, takada, hall, and yuri be in your opinion?

I've talked about female Light and L at LENGTHHH on this blog because they're my Brand™; I think most recently I answered a similar ask here a couple months ago!

That being said, let's discuss the girls as boys. I'm not a big F→M genderswapper most of the time bc I think male characters already hog the majority of pretty much every fandom's attention and I hate to scratch the few female characters we have; however, I love the concept of this thought exercise, so I'm down to play.

Misa

If Light is female she is fucking furious that the second Kira is a GUY, first of all, and I think there's a strong gendered dynamic between Light's controlled, highly thought-out kills and Misa's random acts of violence. She's like OF COURSE this RANDOM DUDE is BLOWING UP MY SPOT WITHOUT THINKING. Furious.

That part aside I think Misa is largely the same except he gets treated more seriously. He also probably catches a little bit of joking homophobia even though he's not gay just because he is still a little on the effeminate side and interested in like male gothic lolita stuff. When he and Light start dating people think they oddly make sense because she's a masculine "straight woman" and he's a feminine straight guy. M!Misa thinks it's true love and talks a lot to Light about marrying her and settling down and having a family until Light tells him to cut the shit or she'll dump him. He's still an idol and he's branded as being kind of #forthegirls but he privately kind of disdains his female fanbase (though he'd never admit this) after Kira hits the scene just because none of them measure up to Light in his eyes. He thinks L is cute and has offered multiple times to teach her about makeup and stuff (he is an expert; he's never offered this to Light because Light is Naturally Perfect™) and L thinks he's kind of inherently a hilarious little person.

Sayu

Sayu gets babied simultaneously more and less as a guy than she does in canon. He's not expected to help cook or do housework but his parents are annoyed that Light helps him with his homework constantly and that he's thoroughly academically outdone by his big sister. They're frequently on his ass about eventually getting a job and supporting a family someday and putting EFFORT into his schoolwork and he's like WHEN AM I GOING TO APPLY THE QUADRATIC FORMULA IN MY DAILY LIFE. Most people expect him to become a cop like his dad but I don't think his family actually does; they've all come to grips with the fact that that's Light's domain and Sayu's not quite cut out for it. I think he's Sachiko's favorite and Light is Soichiro's.

After Mello kidnaps him I think things are much the same. He's unable to hide the fact that he's undergone traumatic shock and has a nervous breakdown that results in Sachiko caring for him for the rest of her life. I think college was a time when he had really started to flourish socially and academically and having him completely collapse after that is hard for Sachiko to cope with.

Takada

Frankly I think everything about Takada would be almost exactly the same but her kidnapping and murder would be less fucking nuts. Like we're not stripping a man naked and wrapping him in a sheet to cover himself. Otherwise everything is played pretty much exactly the same.

I'll be honest and say I don't know enough about Halle and Yuri (especially Yuri, whose appearance is very brief!) to have a lot to say about either of them as dudes. I think they'd be very similar to the way they canonically are bc there's not much there to change.

[princesssszzzz]

If you have any what's your opinion on all the hate daenaera's been getting?

I don’t get how anyone can hate an angel, what did she ever do other than smile and be pretty. I’ve seen comments calling her stupid and saying she shouldn’t exist and it sounds like repackaged Nettles slander lmfao. Literally the same but it’s another character. Right down to the “the story should be altered” and “she’s too young.” But I mean ironically the alterations hotd will make would be aging her up the same way they did everyone else. Really some people get upset when the story doesn’t give them what they want I don’t like canon plot points being changed (Laenor, Aemond, whitewashing, etc.) especially when GRRM writes everything for a reason and anyone wanting a girl to prove or justify her life...the misogyny side eye I have. We start off with a Targaryen & Velaryon wedding and it’ll end off with one to start the next chapter for the Targaryen dynasty. If anything people hating a fictional innocent girl just shows how insane the fandom is.

I haven’t paid attention to hotd fandom discourse for a while tbh so I haven’t seen any post recently. Craziest one I saw months ago was that her children shouldn’t be hers so it’s gone from “I wish this was altered” to “this entire bloodline should be changed.” Just bonkers smh. Anywho I’m excited to see how Daenaera & Aegon cope with being orphans and they’ll have to bring back the Daemon/Vaemond situation I love the drama. The symbolism of marriage bringing together split apart families because Targaryens put the Velaryons through alot throughout the dance so they get solace. They’re both the blood of Old Valyria, and needed repair after the damage and mistrust. I hope Rhaena gives Daenaera a ride on Morning also because the girl likes dragons let her ride a dragon 😭😭 Post-dance with Morning and Aegon getting to marry girl who’s trying to be resilient despite all the death everyone had to endure, it’s obvious that optimism and light at the end of the tunnel is a theme after they lose so much and Daenaera is apart of that. Daenaera being Queen is literally the resolution. “Hope and good feeling reigned over the Red Keep as the new year dawned.” So I just don’t get wanting the conflict to be ongoing or wanting to rebuff House Velaryon. Then we have much needed portrayal of trust between Baela/Rhaena and Aegon iii when the Targaryens just had siblings fighting for the throne. The most important for Daenaera (to me) is the light v dark battle with their personality difference and her love for dragons/him being rumored to kill dragons is just so !!!! Daenaera’s personality is Baela/Rhaena mixture it’s so interesting. It also just lets me know book!Aegon iii is not a pervert, it’s the familiarity and comfort from who he knows won’t hurt him coming from Daenaera that draws him to her nothing sexual. GRRM wants the Targaryen bloodline to be from Targaryen/Velaryon blood so anyone that really hates that is gonna have to write fanfiction 🤷‍♀️

Everyone has narrative punishments btw. Because of Corlys Velaryons suffer nonstop even post dance it’s like a curse on their house, Greens die off, Rhaena loses Morning and Aegon iii loses his innocence but the biggest punishment is that the dynasty falls because of their lack of dragons which they did to themselves

#it’s written great no reason to hate a girl because it doesn’t go another way #grrm gives the throne to unsuspecting king or queen #the next book will end the same way #hotd asks #house of the dragon #asoiaf #daenaera velaryon #aegon iii targaryen #post dance #I have more thoughts on Daenaera her relationship with Aegon and her kids but I think I answered your question 😂 #hotd thoughts #pre asoiaf #fire and blood

[anistarrose]

20 questions for fic writers, tagged by @holdmecloser-gandydancer (thanks reese!) tagging @fexalted @3hobbitsinatrenchcoat @novantinuum and anyone else who wants to!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

86, very soon to be 87!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

397,102. my god.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

The majority (over half) of my total fics on AO3 are Gravity Falls, but my current passion right now is obviously TAZ Balance, which is a pretty close runner-up. TOH is a lot further behind, but I have at least one WIP I want to finish up early next year!

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Some Sunny Day (Gravity Falls), Tulip's Return (Infinity Train), Stan and Ford Vs. The Future (GF), Fateful Detours (GF/IT crossover), Missteps and Miscommunication (GF).

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Usually, and especially when they give me a chance to infodump about the writing process! I just don't necessarily respond quickly lol

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

In recent memory, it might be but the strange lights in the sky were shining (TAZ). I write more happy/bittersweet endings than sad ones, but that one... that one has one of my absolute favorite twists :)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

to eat from a poisoned plate (TAZ) is one that I almost didn't write a happy ending for, but I'm so glad that I did, because I go back and reread that one a lot, admittedly.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Usually no more than annoying but generic "please update" comments, but back in the Gravity Falls fandom, there was this one person that you've probably heard of/encountered if you wrote a lot about Bill Cipher back in the day.

They were a guest account user who'd get so mad if you killed off Bill, to the point of making threats (albeit exaggerated, not really realistic ones), and also one time they told me I should go read a particular MLP fic and take inspiration from it in my own. Which, no shade against MLP, but as someone who's never been in that fandom, that's literally the funniest entitled comment I've received in my life.

9. Do you write smut?

Nope, but I do occasionally write characters being horny. There's a huge difference between those things for me, and that probably has everything to do with where I lie on the ace spectrum lmao

10. Do you write crossovers?

A couple times, though I used to be way more into them than I am now. There was the aforementioned GF/Infinity Train one, and my gateway into writing TAZ fic was actually a very silly "what if the Pines family were the protags of TAZ Balance" fic.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge, and fingers crossed it doesn't happen 🤞

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes, a few times! My buddy @yourbonesarenowmycoat translated several of my Gravity Falls fics into Spanish back in the day, for one thing!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope!

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

This should come as no surprise but it's Blupjeans forever and ever <3

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Oh, god. Probably the one that I wrote like 9 chapters (out of 10 planned ones) to cope with being chronically ill and to convince myself to go to therapy, and then abruptly stopped writing when it was almost done because I figured out how to manage my chronic illness and soon after, started going to therapy. On the one hand, it would be tragic for it to never see the light of day, but on the other hand, it kinda... served its purpose for me already?

16. What are your writing strengths?

Fic as character study! Sometimes I set out with the goal of elucidating a particular theme or character motivation, and sometimes it just happens along the way, but I am a genius with regards to character analysis and my brain is galaxy and I'm not afraid to share it.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Dialogue is one thing for sure, I get a lot of compliments on it but it's also such a challenge for me. Possibly because I, personally, don't talk like a remotely normal human person irl. The other thing is brevity and killing my darlings — I literally can't count the number of times one of my fics exceeded the expected word count by orders of magnitude.

The aforementioned character study thing? Yeah, that's also a weakness, because a lot of my fics (even including some very, very long ones!) exist to explore themes I couldn't figure out how to word in a simple headcanon post. In fact, I'm probably gonna post a fic of that exact variety this weekend, lmao.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Definitely not fluent enough in any language to do it on any larger scale, unless I get serious about learning Spanish again.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Not on AO3, but in general, it was definitely Pokémon! I was writing time travel stories set in Sinnoh before Legends Arceus made it cool.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

As previously mentioned... probably "to eat from a poisoned plate". In the vaguest possible terms, learning to love cooking again in spite of some prior bad experiences has been a struggle for me, too, and I truly think that without having written that fic, I wouldn't be succeeding.

On a related note, I'm about to spend my afternoon making a blueberry pie.

#tag meme