#hhhhhh im sick

[qrevo]

6eybr. hdhbnkel. hjnnnn . 2hnbfsyru

#qrevo.txt #hhhhhh im sick #i was already expecting it since everyone in my family was sick a few days ago. still shitty tho #and i cant stand this heat anymoreee i need an ac #30°?? with thermal sensation of hell-sent THRITY SEVEN FUCKING DEGREES??? #if things don't get better i will *remembers self harm jokes are not funny* become a pinecone and bury myself in the earth #anyways we balling we thriving <- I'm lyting everything hurts helpp

[actualbird]

//CN SERVER SPOILERS, MARIUS BDAY3 CARD HAS GIANN FACE REVEAL

#OF ALL DAYS FOR GIANN FACE REVEAL TO HAPPEN IT HAD TO HAPPEN WHEN IM ON SICK LEAVE AILING IN BED LMAO #I FEEL LIKE I WOKE UP FROM A HOSPITAL BED COMA AND HES LOOKING DOWN AT ME FROM THE BEDSIDE #HES PURPLE-R!!! AND GENTLER LOOKING TOOO HHHHHH #tot spoilers #giann von hagen #tot giann #tears of themis

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

LIVES WERE RUINED

#MUFFLED SCREAMING #ISJIFBDIBDKCBGKBCKXNFK #I CRIED #HIS EXPRESISON ???? MEGUMOMS VOICE ????????? they did this scene SO much justice. #THIS EPISODE ….. 😭😭😭😭😭 mappa animators i owe u all my life #GOD . GOD #he looks so so relieved T_T toji is genuinely such a heartfelt and wellwritten character i will DIE on this hill . #he spent BOTH his final moments thinking of his wife and son. like. he LOVED them. he loved them so wholeheartedly im gonna be sick #i love him sm mwah mwah . ill miss u my silly depressed middle aged man </3 #hhhhhh im just . WOW. sukuna vs jogo was also so mindblowingly amazing . ill never be normal abt this ep i fear #AND TOJIS VA .... oh he KILLED it that final yokatta ne was so SOFT #grrrrr my mind is spinning rn. i loved this ep so so so much !!! #jjk spoilers #<- just in case !

[messybouquetoflilies]

i gotta be locked in a cage as someone's pet so i don't have to think or make the stupid decisions i make. i just have to make them happyyy

#i want simple #murrr #im so fucking sick of dating #im so sick of the talking stage #im so sick of being scared to open up #im so sick of ppl disappearing when i do #i just want simple n safe #maybe im still a lil too broken to try for that.. idk #hhhhhh im sad pls ignore me

[rosykims]

hi so im thinking about ashara and cillian in the fade. the fear demon revealing to everybody that anders is alive and the resulting conversation <3 and cass is pissed obviously but instead of ashara being pissed at him she ends up defending him to everyones shock. and then she begrudgingly tells him and the group about her blood mage mother. and how everybody thought she was beyond saving, but that never made sense to ashara because she'd watched her mother live with control and discipline for like 14 years prior to her one unfortunate slip up. and she tells cillian that her mother may not have won her battles in the end but she believes that anders must be very strong to have held on so long and she believes that there is always hope for him to get better. bye

#oc: ashara #oc: cillian #im sorely regretting my decision to have cillian stay in the fade but :/ its what she would do smh #but i hc after adamant she organizes all the resources she can spare #into a secret unit working towards getting him out. she doesnt tell varric because she doesnt want to give him false hope #but i like to think she maybe... gets leli to intercept one of varric's letters to anders #and she lets anders Specifically know that theyre working on it. and offering him amnesty if he wants to help #hhhhhh. god i just. #i feel like the outcome of adamant was bioware's way of retiring whichever character stays but leaving it open ended to players #but i dont WANT open ended i want CLOSURE! and also cillian to come back from the fade with sick magic and freak out bc hes a rogue lol

[indigodawns]

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#my irl friends knowing yday was like. a Big Day at work and knowing i was nervous about it and also yknow. sick #and them not even asking how it went hhhhhh good practice for me to just say shit myself #and obviously it was like. the day before xmas they have their own stuff #just felt like a letdown #me since i work there: wow christmas is apparently wild bc it's so fucking busy like we start super early and everything #me talking about how busy it was vs everyone: oh wow??? it was that busy??? #im also being a petulant baby bc im sick and now properly sick since i got to stop and lie down #but im also allowing myself to just go 😤😤😤 while also knowing!!! they do love me very much and care about me #and just bc they were sending pics and talking about their christmasses for hours without asking after me [sweats] does NOT mean #that they hate me!!! or that ive been too much about work #just feel like i missed some aftercare yk 😔😔 damn is my worksona also a subsona? problematic #ah well! this helped! hope everyone is having a good/acceptable/as peaceful as possible day ❤️❤️❤️ love you!!!

[toastsnaffler]

I love valentines day theoretically like I love what it's abt + the aesthetic is gorg + the buildup where I get to make cards is so fun + yummy sweets + also valentine is a sick ass name it's all round a pretty awesome holiday even if the commercialisation is annoying..... but also the day itself is nailbitingly stressful for me bc im so wildly insecure and rejection sensitive I find it really really hard to accept cards or even nice sentiment from other ppl. sorry im such a broken ass person that being told im loved makes me want to bash my fucking head in with a steel beam 🙂

#i feel so fucking bad abt it bc I did get rly nice cards from a few of my friends and i love them so much its so sweet of them but hhhhhh #and also it makes me rly self conscious like the urge to compare myself to other ppl is overwhelming. the only way i get thru it- #is by telling myself other ppl are lying to be nice. and also even if they did mean it its irrelevant bc i dont deserve it + im inadequate #next to the other ppl in their lives who are far more capable of giving and recieving love and also just better ppl. problem solved #its just easier to think like that out of defence. if i completely shatter my own self esteem then no one else can hurt or reject me ever #birthdays are difficult for the same kinda reasons tbh #i would kill myself before telling them this tho i hope they know im grateful and leave it at that #anyway. sick of being at work its so hot in the lab today bc the incubators on im sweating so much my goggles keep fogging up #i just wanna be miserable at home in bed plsss. sighs #oh well. i should go do more training #.diaries #.vent #sorry to be a bummer on valentines day lol i do genuinely like so much of it but. i always have to take this hit. it balances out ig #ill be fine tonight or maybe tomorrow we'll see how bad it is #its like a physically illness or allergy. emotionally im sweating blood and throwing up battling this out

[piplupod]

keep feeling like i might be getting sick but i think it might just be the sleep deprivation. keep feeling super dizzy like im about to black out and my vision goes all wonky for a bit until i sit/lie down for long enough for it to fix itself :'''')))

#and it doesnt feel like the usual POTS symptoms so ??? #freaking me out though fsdjkl i do not like this #i dont want to leave the house today but i have to go get prescription refill and probably go to a group hhhhhh #idk perhaps i should skip the group in case i am getting sick?? #also i have to do a family dinner tonight again and im just. so tired. #mother keeps tromping around the house at 5am waking me up and im so tired fdjkl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[thesingingrevolution]

i cant bro, i keep watching the video and watching him smile im going to be sick iactually cant do this i dont have the strength it gets better with every watch i miss him so bad it hasnt even been a week i cant believe i wont see him for a month this is illegal i need excuses to talk to him i cant do this .

#we last met on monday btw that was when he complimented my hat #he is like the highlight of my week whenever i get to see him i write his name on my calendar with hearts and everything. it’s so sick #for this old man….. sorry im obsessed l #he is funny and nice and cute…….. i like him he is so great to me #i might be more serious than i thought 🧍🏻‍♀️ #idk that video made me insane ive been feeling different for a while but this video…… CRAZY!!!!!!!!! #hes the best #hhhhhh

[shimp-heaven]

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#hhhhhh im starving #we had bills and gas come up #and i got sick so that took a chunk out our budget #now im looking at a ad for pizza and crying LOL #we have ramen but im so freaking tired of it #plus libbys not willing to cook and i have issues cooking so maybe ill just eat it dry #sorry for the vent this time of year just sucks for me #too many people died #the anniversary of my ummm yeah #its hard not to relapse #i think im close and i think starving isnt helping it #we cant go to the food bank cause its only open when lib has work #and her shitty boss wont give her time off #and its too far to walk and if we had money for an uber i wouldn't be in this situation #sorry #ill shut up now

[nikkashidashipper]

man whyd they kill him off. just like that. jesus fucking christ

#and the had ghost go over to him first. im not even that invested anymore but my god #well. wasnt invested. #cod mw3 #cod mw3 spoilers #? #theyre sick for that actually #and the scene after that?? even worse. criminal #i mean obviously it had to / was supposed to happen but this way? hhhhhh

[4giorno]

WAAAAAAAAAAH opening the game first thing in the morning is rlly something to get you energized today ;_____;💖 the previews have me crying tbh

#1. bc shu just came back from paris and is like smh its so disorganized here hfjfjdjfkkf #and 2. bc hhhhhh mika bby pls dont stress too much 😭😭😭😭 i hope everything turns out well 💖💖💖 #seeing him in distress hurts me ⚰️ #and i was right!!! it starts tomorrow aka saturday. normally its at 20 but bc of the clock turning stuff #its now at 19 #i have 4 green 5 stars and one of them is a lvl65 mika so i should get pretty okay points #from the event song ^.^ #better than the last event at least 💀 #hhhhhhhh i wonder how many dia ill have to spend..... arashis fs is on december 5th 😬 #but like ive said lichrally anything for shu #also i just found out that i actually passed my course and got a 3 somehow LMAO #even tho i took the complete wrong notes for the exam essay thing 😬 good thing i apparently #remembered a good bit of ancient greek temples meanings and functions somehow 🤨 #so all in all its just a rlly good morning. esp bc im going home today 💖 #the thought of getting to see our pets again makes me tear up even tho it hasnt even been a week hdjfjdjfjfj #our older dog looks so gigantic nowadays bc our new dog is so much smaller than were used to 😭♡ #anyway what a mess of a post LMAO getting into 8 days of non stop grinding this rhythm game #after just being sick is gonna be tough but im so excited bc its valk 💖

[candyradium]

[looks up from my computer]

[makes eye contact with the almost-finished drawing]

[hurriedly looks away]

#candy posts #listen. LISTEN. i am so fucking tired. dunno why #i have. one tiny section of fabric + the ropes left to do. and some ground shadow. and Thats It #but im SO FUCKING TIRED #also i dont wannaaaa. do the ropes. too much detail. it scares me #but if i finish the FABRIC then i gotta DO THE ROPES. H #but also!!! i really wanna get this done 2day!!! cause its been over a fucking week!!!!! and im sick of it!!!!!!! #hhhhhh im gonna. eat some chocolate and chill out for a bit longer. and then do the fabric. i think

[oakpear]

:( dysphoria rant in tags lmao

#i never should have been born a boy i fucking hate it i hate having to pretend to be masculine im so tired of having to conform to this #like! this absolute bullshit that i never asked for and i shouldn't have even ever been im just so fucking sick of being seen as a man #as a boy! as! whatever!! #im fucking SICK of being seen as 'one of the boys' at my work im sick of being lumped in w this group i have so little in common with im!! #HHHHHH its hitting hard today and im just! SO DONE WITH IT I DON'T WANT TO BE THIS WAY AND I HATE IT #i move away to Toronto in a few days and ive said forever - but esp these past few months that i plan on finally presenting fem #and starting to transition and all of that but like! all of it is just so real now! school #GENDER all of it! Im so scared of trying to juggle this absolute mountain of a thing while also trying to get through school while ALSO #feeling like im so behind and ill never fogure out how to actually successfully present femme. ill never understand how to do my makeup or #and i just! fucking hate it!! ive never wanted this I can count the number of close cis male friends ive had on!! ONE FINGER SNGFSJGJFJDJF #i just!! i know this is defeatist and unhealthy but i sometimes just sit and think abt how much better off I'd be if i WAS born a girl #all my closest friends throughout life and my closest friend groups have been women but ALL MY LIFE in every relationship ive had #ive felt like im on the outside looking in! like im at an arms length! like im not really IN said friend group im just some auxillary #bc im their guy friend!! ive just always felt like the OTHER and im so sick of it i should have been a girl I'm just so tired #of being seen as a boy

[dark-nautica-2]

... i wanna draw benny and my courier smooching but i have no access to paper or my tablet

not to mention privacy lmao

#hhhhhh and THEN ill have night shifts at my old new job #im literally so in love woth him its sick #benny #fnv #text

[neteyamsilly]

if ur wondering what the fuck is taking so long (why i keep shitposting frantically) i am absolutely stuck on the, uh, torture scene. AND keeping jake in character. I had a whole entire scene written out but deleted it at the end because it didn't feel right. cant have him too sarcastic and enthusiastic, or just, plain ice cold professional. dude believes his kid is dead and has the perpetrator under his thumb and im trying to get how a father would act in that situation right HHHHHH so thats the update on the chapter. am sick of myself. sorry everyone

#irma mirmirs