#however it also fucking sucks

[dice-boy]

traumatized people shouldn't be able to get sick

#koi talks #us the traumatized people is us #we have enough to fucking deal with #N occasionally yearns for sickness (cozy + you get to sleep + comfort food & drink) #however it also fucking sucks #he has a read through for his play on Monday we CANNOT be doing this shit #(we have been given parental permission to go for the read through and then immediately go home again LMAO)

[ghostlygunk]

sometimes i remember that ib fan twitter user tht was diehard insisting abt how mary did nothing wrong in the story and how garry was apparently in the wrong

#ib spoilers #SCRYBE.txt #i understand their angle though #mary is just a child and i do feel for her. her entire thing is very sad and i wish there was a way to bring her into the real world #without having to let garry die as well. #however with everything ib and garry have seen throughout the fabricated world #of COURSE garry's going to assume the worst when he finds out mary is also a painting. almost every living painting/art piece/etc. that-- #him and ib have encountered have wanted to harm them. fuck's sake the first time you see garry in the fabricated world is him-- #on the verge of death BECAUSE of one of those living paintings. of COURSE he is going to immediately assume 'oh shit she wants to hurt ib' #which she does indeed attempt to do when she finds out garry knows tht she's a painting #like it SUCKS. and i wish there was a better way but at that point she does actively want to hurt the two and actively tries to #in my ideal world there's an ending where you can save them both :( #i really wanna play the remake

[op3ra]

rusty roundup (pls pls pls click for quality)

design credits, left to right:

@honey-dont / @commander-spaceboy /@tabooiart / me! / @animatronathon / @nauticaltrainofthe80s / @green-planets

two more rusties + a starlight rusty under the cut! check them out!

design credits, left to right:

@captainmvf / @savs-avvy / me!

#i'm v sorry if your rusty ended up under the cut it's cuz the full layout looked really rough no matter how i arranged or cropped it :I #too many tiny faces on too big a canvas etc etc made them really tiny and indiscernible #thank you to everyone who allowed me to draw their designssss #this was such a fun project #rusty the steam engine #it took mmmmm maybe 8-10 hours to color total on top of however many hours of sketching and then lining #maybe 15-20 in total #but it was fun and very relaxing actually! i really enjoy working on other people's designs #if you zoom in and check out the actual details i will love you forever and ever #starlight express #stex #stex fanart #starlight express fanart #stex rusty #rusty stex #starex #starex fanart #art or whatever #i'm never drawing this many men again in a row #also i'm fucking sorry if this is the second time i ping you for this post. it's because tumblr sucks ass

[brother-emperors]

you're SO right, how is it that the best portrayal of many italian renaissance figures comes from a bad videogame from the 2010s

wheezing I’m torn between going truly this is the best portrayal of Leonardo da Vinci we may ever get, and defending AC2 even though I’m a full time Ezio Saga Hater

#I’m a Desmond Era + Origins fan in a ride or die kind of way but the Ezio games suck ass compared to 1 and 3 #however AC2 is miles above the European Era games and Odyssey butchers the use of Ezio’s theme so bad I will never forgive them #also Odyssey is legitimately bad. AC2’s biggest problem is that the story is narratively weak and holds it’s punches #I mostly hate the Ezio saga because the fandom was really fucking racist (still is!) and it could’ve been good!!! #but I have a deep seated fondness for the parts of it that were good. the game after all is still asking you to live even when it’s hard #the opening and the music are unparalleled and legendary. I just wish it kept that up throughout the story instead of #trying for a wider appeal but the story fucks up it’s own themes and bc the simplicity of it’s assassin/templar line up is baffling #there is also an AC2 that exists in my head that takes place in Venice lmao but that’s much more spy thriller #also did anyone here read the novelizations. Ezio and Machiavelli are so fucking married. 10/10 no notes #Ascanio is also mentioned in the brotherhood novelization iirc so. we stay winning!!

[thebestestbat]

there is something about the way that dick approaches damian in Batman and Robin (2009) and the way bruce approaches damian in Batman and Robin (2011). where it's very similar: both are not exactly prepared for this, are frustrated with damian, doubt their own abilities to be what he needs but feel responsible anyway.

but it's different...in 2009, the responsibility is on dick to change, to gain damian's respect--which is how it should be, because dick is the adult and damian is the child (10 years old. that's a fourth grader) who is in his care. vs in 2011, the responsibility is more so on damian (the fourth grader) to change, to gain bruce's respect.

Batman and Robin (2009) #2

Dick: Who's gonna save him if we don't?

vs

Batman and Robin (2011) #2

Bruce: I'm afraid of what Damian could become without me around.

and

Batman and Robin (2009) #1

Damian: You can have my respect if you earn it, that's all I'm saying. You're not my father.

vs

Batman and Robin (2011) #4

Bruce: If you don't respect me, you won't ever respect yourself.

Damian: Do you respect me?

Bruce: If I can't trust you, I can't respect you.

screaming and dying and screaming forever

#two more notes. 1. i think this makes sense with bruce's parenting style. this is in character to the extreme #and its not his worst parenting and it's pretty realistic. However makes me insane when ppl talk about his good 2011 parenting ff #2. it also makes sense with damian's ultimate storyline being the racist 'wayne good vs al ghul bad' thing. ugh #makes sense ie i understand why its written that way and it sucks shit. fuck dc #damian al ghul #dick and damian #anti bruce wayne

[dying-suffering-french-stalkers]

there is truly nothing i hate more on this earth than being asked to provide a cover letter and references

#well okay. interviewing also sucks #i can deal with the cover letters to a degree but references?? fuck directly off. this is what interviewing is for. #if you want to make sure i'm not a freak (however you define that) then just talk to me. #this is not a specialized position where you need to know that i'm like...not a fraud of a marine biologist or something. #please i just want to get out of my current job and shelve some books and help some patrons #not be the director #none of the positions i applied to yesterday played this game. come on #annoying post for ts #personal #edit: fucked up and provided a (distant) family member as a reference 🤡😔

[oozeandgoo-art]

had an odd dream that i was reading a comic book. sketched a couple of the pages i could remember.

#i might adapt this into an actual story because i am SO SO SO mad that it isn't a thing i can go back to reading #oc #im definitely keeping the concept of save-bot i fucking love save-bot he's just doing his best. i love a robot who wants to help people #im not equipped to be writing about underground rebellions with any sense of real tact though #besides its in a superhero universe/story so you know it would just be so sucks lol #sketch #god the colors were so interesting. the teal parts were all very precisely crosshatched and the fire was this gorgeous brush pen looking #colored inks that just seemed like they were MOVING #and i mean some of that was because i was dreaming but god even in my halfhearted copy you can see some of the movement #it was a bad scene but a really really REALLY fun dream. i love when a book can *get* to me so i was really enjoying it #put it aside so i could take a break and woke up. instant fury at the universe for not having it be a real book instead #ill reblog with details if anyone's curious. i can explain this scene but i dont feel like it #the green people are in a secret basement though. hiding from the government. blue jacket guy is a speedster robot named save-bot who does #rescue stuff with every fire department so fire suppression technology is not very good because save-bot "can just save you'' #however they're badly over their legal occupancy and the secret basement has One (1) exit so everyone is like really fucked here. #includinig save-bot who is going to do his job until he dies because he is an ai without any sense of self preservation and he cares #which i didn't even CATCH until i woke up and started tryin to frantically note everything down #and then i was like wait. the glitter on that last page before i realized i needed a glass of water to keep reading... what WAS that... #(it was tears suspended in midair because save-bot goes so fast and also knows he's so fucked LOL) #seriously i'm so mad someone else didn't make this.

[ratcandy]

identifying moths to family more like. help me

#I have a moth in my brain she should be helping me. She should be making this so easy. That's most certainly how that works. #but instead she's like Lol. Lmao even #while I'm staring at wing venation on moths like Hhrhhhhh hrhngh aaaaaaaaggggg #the nefarious lasiocampidae. fuck you #clamtalk #bugposting #i'm studying for my classifications final and having a hell of a time . hemipterans I've got down pat Hymenopterans are a little meaner but #they're fine. Diptera also kinda sucks but I can get past it. #Lepidoptera however? Well fuck me. It's so many little brown moths

[essektheylyss]

honestly though, what I've learned this quarter is thank fuck I did not go to grad school at 23. I am astoundingly on top of my shit. there is absolutely no way I would've been managing this well at 23. under no fucking circumstances.

#the real reason people hate grad school cuz most people do it at 23 and being 23 is the worst #this is absolutely a joke grad school can and does suck for other reasons. i am enjoying it but I acknowledge this is not the norm. #but for real if you're like 'should i take a couple years in between or should i go straight to grad school' this is your sign. #HOWEVER do not fucking lose track of your rec letter professors. that's really the trick. #you have to learn to be a person AND stay in touch with at least one but preferably 2-3 professors. #also disclaimer i cannot comment on phds. this is about masters programs phds are a different beast.

[drizzledrawings]

the fnaf movie is backed by a bigot

Okay but it’s fnaf

#I am aware that Scott sucks and has donated to Donald trump however I am also gay and like fnaf so #everything is backed by a bigot #every single movie every single video game every single thing #if I want to enjoy a stupid fucking movie I’m gonna enjoy it

[i3utterflyeffect]

stick!noogai is probably so homesick, he's just a kid and now he is in a completely different world and might not ever get to go back

oh absolutely, he ends up really hating the classic windows background because of it. honestly at the point where they go into the outernet c!alan is so relieved to see anything else that he probably doesn't even care that it's not the real world at that point

#tommy's foolery #also imagine how much it must suck to not be able to eat actual food for however long he was stuck in the computer #i honestly don't know if hollowheads even need food but any version of stick!alan is a fucked up edge case so. #tommy's aus #tommy's stickmen tag #stick!noogai #tommy's stick!alan

[transcicle]

who up getting autistic over a podcast theyve never seen

more under cut idk if theyll format or not... beware

some of these i just did some of these are old

some of these are the drawing style thing i did sooo.... in order... : FIRST THROUGH FOURTH IMAGE peter drew those :-) FIFTH rumi drew that one :-) SIXTH exandroth drew those :-) SEVENTH peter drew that one :-) self portait EIGHTH rumi [bad at art edition] both NINE and TEN i dont remember if they were ment to be peter or just me goofin... so picjk ur poison LOL ELEVEN thats peter LAST THREEEE meeeeee :3 9-10 and 12-14 are the older ones everything else i did last night / this mornin'

#jrwi #jrwi apotheosis #angelstone #sqlumi #................i prefer sqlumi.... why did name it angel stone thats like exandroth + peter not rumi + peter its confusing to me #im sorry i watched the angelstone cut like half a year ago #IM SOOO AUTISTIC ABOUT THEM YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA MAN YOU HAVE NO CLUE SOSHAKSHLSXHLDHDJDJKRKFKF #i cant contain it anymorw im going to post my cringe #quite a few of these ones are from my little handwriting drawing things where i make up their handwriting and art style tee hee #i think rumi either SUCKS ASS at drawing or can decently draw in an anime esque style #i imagine peter has a lil bit of artistic abilities... he did paint a ton of mug paintings if i remember right???? #he aint the best but he can do it #thanatos has 0 skill because he has never drawn anything ever until this hypothetical situation where theyre drawing and writing this all #exandroth adapts peters skill to an extent #peter tries to follow the rules taught to him about writing as a child to a T soooo he has generally neat handwriting if hes thinking abt i #but if hes tired or just out of it idk #you cant get one word man that shit is just complete chicken scratch even he cant figure it out sometimes LOOLLLL #rumi also has very neat handwriting HOWEVER i love the idea that she hams it up to be really swirly like that one girl in elementary #thanatos is very stiff and neat might as well just be font... #exandroth is either writing in full caps or alternating between whatever ver of a letter he wants to write at any time #VERY heavy handed and goes over every line like 3 times #when writing his name EVERYTIME he writes exandroth archangel of retribution everytime #if you guys wanna see what i have so far.... you can ask.... hehe #theyre my ocs at this point man i havent seen the damn campaign #i would just make them my ocs but my brain immediately loses interest whenever i do that uuuuggghhhhg #i mean i have a beast moomin furry thing peter and an object oc peter bur #*but like idk #btw i have like waaayyy more to say but i reached tag limit <////333 tumblr hates autistic people real #ill just retype it all in the next post ^.^* #archive

[feywhimsy]

thinking about halsin and his relation to trauma. how he was able to heal from the terrible thing that happened to him, how it doesn't control him, how he can acknowledge it but he doesn't hurt how he used to. how it doesn't consume his every waking thought. it's incredibly healing to be able to see a character who has immense grief and trauma still able to be hopeful, still able to make a change, and be able to interact with the things that hurt him in the first place.

#i'm lowkey sick so i'm sorry if this post doesn't make sense #the brain fog is real today #but do you get it?? do you see what i'm saying? #once i'm feeling better i'm gonna write more about everything i love about halsin bc there is a LOT #i saw some people saying in the poll that halsin lovers are just like “him Good :)” which i DO do #but it's mostly because i'm fucking exhausted from work literally all the time #and it's not worth trying to change the minds of people who are always going to disagree with me no matter what i say #however. halsin love blast #i swear it seems like some of these people are purposefully ignoring things that are clearly stated in the text #halsin #moxie.txt #btw i'm not saying that halsin isn't without flaws! literally the entire point of bg3 is that everyone has flaws! #but the blatant disregard for what's in the text sucks :) #also no hate to the orin lovers i respect you #it's the halsin haters that bother me! <3

[mycological-mariner]

One thing I find deeply frustrating is whenever you go “This piece of medía looks really good and like something I would enjoy however when I tried to get into it, I found it contains a great deal of things that I find extremely triggering which sucks because it otherwise sounds like something I’d really enjoy” and someone goes “Oh that sucks, I’m sorry you’re missing out it is REALLY GOOD and you WOULD love it!”

#like. more power to people who don’t have those specific barriers #I’m glad this piece of media is being enjoyed and cherished by people! #but ffs #I KNOW I’d love it and I WANT to read it #I however CANNOT #so why then go ‘sucks for you because you’re Missing Out! <33’ #a bit tone deaf #and this isn’t a ‘every piece of media should be made with ME in mind and cater to ME specifically’ post #fuck that I think there needs to be screwed up shit out there and it’s just not always for everyone #I just think it’s people’s RESPONSES that suck #do you not think I already feel shitty for not being able to read something? do you HAVE to add that?? #and I also understand it comes from a good place #but it’s a bit thoughtless #its the literary equivalent of when I (epileptic) express being kinda upset I can’t go to queer clubs bc I’m photosensitive #and then someone who CAN go the club says ‘oh that sucks it’s so much fun you’d have loved it!’ #???? #why?? is that necessary???

[lastoneout]

Didn't wanna add this to that last post cuz it was very positive and I'm being rather negative, but like god the real tragedy of smart home tech is that the majority of it is so incredibly useful for disabled people that it's life-changing, but it's all made by the devil himself, programmed to harvest your data and sell it to anyone who asks before breaking and forcing you to buy a new one, and so easy to exploit that some of it is actively dangerous, so a lot of us are forced to choose between having something that makes our lives WAY easier and keeping our data and private lives safe from corporations, the cops, and any asshole with an internet connection who feels like causing problems on purpose.

Being able to make sure my doors are locked from anywhere using an app on my phone would do wonders for my anxiety, as would having cameras around my house so I can check on things without being home/getting out of bed. I have friends with ADHD who rely on their Google Home or Amazon Alexa to function, and that's not even mentioning how useful hands-free stuff is for people with mobility issues or folks who are visually impaired. AirTags sound like they'd be a great way to deal with losing things bcs of my memory issues. A fridge with a door that lets you see inside would help with my ADHD issues too, not being able to see what food I have means I forget about it and stuff goes bad which wastes money and so on.

So yeah, as much as I rag on the security and safety issues with these sorts of products I cannot deny how useful they are for people like me and my loved ones, and I think honestly if using them changes your life for the better you should absolutely use them and not feel bad. I just also wish using them didn't come with so much goddamn capitalist surveillance state baggage. Disabled people NEED these technologies, but it's a deal with the devil every time and that fucking sucks.

#I do however also think it's important to like #know the risks and how these work so you can mitigate them #or at least like be careful if you have an alexa or smthn bcs that shit is always listening to you #but like god IT SUCKS THAT YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL LIKE THAT #this stuff is SO useful for the disabled #it's so fucked #actually disabled

[vulpinesaint]

mkay not to be like. a little insane or anything. but god i've been going crazy over religion (catholicism) and blood lately. did anyone else drink blood as worship every week since they were seven. was anyone else inundated with images of open wounds as holy. is anyone else consumed by the thought of holding onto a crucifix tightly enough for the edges of it to draw blood. i turned in a poem about drowning in communion wine in an empty church while bleeding from crucifix-inflicted hand wounds and trying to talk to god and my creative writing professor gave me extremely normal critiques i feel like i'm losing my mind

#is ANYONE ELSE here. #also i made my poetry insta and i was gonna backpost but i think i might just sit and stare at it until april sfkghsd #it's me and my few hundred tumblr followers on my poetry acc. and the five thousand pornbots on this one ig #life is so. like. #i CONSTANTLY think that being raised catholic didn't do that much to me but obviously it did SOMETHING #you know what. yeah. cause i didn't end up with guilt over being queer but i did end up having my whole world view torn away from me #cause when god is the fundamental building block to everything... #my parents were extremely reasonable about things all things considered #but losing trust and faith in god is like having the bottom block pulled out of your little tower #and since i was fifteen i feel like i've been trying to either get it out fully without letting it all crumble #or trying to push it back without causing more damage #and the tower's never gonna be the same no matter what. you know. #i suck at self reflection so i never actually think about this stuff but dear god does it consume me #like no i did not end up with catholic guilt really. however being asked to examine yourself as a sinner at 7 will do things to you #HATE myself why am i still awake. so fucking upset i need to be up so early tomorrow skdjfgh #screaming and crying. anyway anyone else up thinking about catholicism and blood??? #valentine notes #catholic tag