#i applied to the v few i did feel ok abt and havent heard back. its been a month so im p sure i didnt get any of them

[silverislander]

my graduation ceremony is at the end of the month and istg if i still don't have a job/any plan by then i'm going to be unreasonably upset

#i know its normal to not have a job straight out of school. i know that. #but 1. there are No jobs out there rn that will take me that im willing to work. there are none to even apply to #i applied to the v few i did feel ok abt and havent heard back. its been a month so im p sure i didnt get any of them #and 2. i dont want to explain 1 million times that yeah im still looking. no xyz didnt call me back. yeah i know i shouldnt worry etc etc #its humiliating #levi.txt #vent tw #i mean the massive gap between my situation and my little brothers is bad enough #i dont want to also have to explain it to literally every person whos coming over to celebrate #or answer questions abt whether ill go back to working min wage at the grocery store again #'yeah yk how everyone thinks arts degrees are useless? well about that!...' #i would feel like such a failure #also like. on a very basic level. i dont have much money to spend and its summer #id like to be able to go have some fun. go to the movies and the arcade sometimes. go to the ren faire #nothing crazy but like. its 5$ to get into the local pool yk? #i cant justify any of that if i dont have money coming in. im going to miss out on a lot if i cant get work #and i feel like a burden on my parents already #and the days are. so long. i do basically nothing all day. i hate it #the most exciting part of my week is if i get to leave the house for any reason