#i would feel like such a failure

[silverislander]

my graduation ceremony is at the end of the month and istg if i still don't have a job/any plan by then i'm going to be unreasonably upset

#i know its normal to not have a job straight out of school. i know that. #but 1. there are No jobs out there rn that will take me that im willing to work. there are none to even apply to #i applied to the v few i did feel ok abt and havent heard back. its been a month so im p sure i didnt get any of them #and 2. i dont want to explain 1 million times that yeah im still looking. no xyz didnt call me back. yeah i know i shouldnt worry etc etc #its humiliating #levi.txt #vent tw #i mean the massive gap between my situation and my little brothers is bad enough #i dont want to also have to explain it to literally every person whos coming over to celebrate #or answer questions abt whether ill go back to working min wage at the grocery store again #'yeah yk how everyone thinks arts degrees are useless? well about that!...' #i would feel like such a failure #also like. on a very basic level. i dont have much money to spend and its summer #id like to be able to go have some fun. go to the movies and the arcade sometimes. go to the ren faire #nothing crazy but like. its 5$ to get into the local pool yk? #i cant justify any of that if i dont have money coming in. im going to miss out on a lot if i cant get work #and i feel like a burden on my parents already #and the days are. so long. i do basically nothing all day. i hate it #the most exciting part of my week is if i get to leave the house for any reason

[blueskittlesart]

in the nicest and most non-confrontational way possible. i feel like some of you think that anything that isn't directly openly spelled out for you within a story is "missed potential" or "unexplored." like. sometimes there are implied narratives. sometimes the point is that you as the reader are supposed to think and draw your own conclusions and participate in the story. the writers not directly spelling every little detail out for you doesn't mean that the story is poorly written or missed its own plot details somehow. PLEASE.

#if i get one more comment referring to zelda's draconification as wasted potential im going to lose it for real #that's not unexplored potential that is THE ENTIRE STORY. JUST BECAUSE THEY DONT BEAT YOU OVER THE HEAD WITH IT DOESNT MEAN ITS NOT THERE #i get this all the time with just like. link's trauma in general too. #like people will ask me 'do you think they should explore link's trauma more' and im like. they do #that's what the games are about. it's all there. they just don't directly state that that's what they're doing because theyre expecting you #as a reader to ENGAGE WITH THE DAMN TEXT BEYOND SURFACE LEVEL. UGHHHHHHH #WHATEVER. whatever #like i feel like some of you would read the great gatsby and be like #'there was a lot of missed potential to talk about the failure of the american dream' GIRL IT'S RIGHT THERE. JUST THINK A LITTLE #personal #and yeah obviously its not that deep its a video game but like. i am not making shit up when i write my comics and analysis. #I AM ENGAGING WITH THE TEXT. AS IS GENERALLY EXPECTED OF A READER #ugh ok whatever. im done now sorry

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

some erikar doodles

#homestuck #eridan ampora #karkat vantas #erikar #bc of karkat's mixed signals it does not appear to be a normal moirallegiance to the outside #in fact people think they're outright pitch sometimes #top to bottom - #selfie with the babe #reference to Better Off Dead (a romcom i think both eridan and karkat would like) #the extreme funnyness that is the fact that these two both think theyre doing the other person a favor #karkat headbutting for attention like a stinky cat #alive golden ending eridan and karkat 'motivating' dead irrelevant game over karkat after he expresses that he feels like a useless failure

[halfa-failure]

no words just Sunday

#I am so normal about him #him when sparkle: #I feel like he would grimace instead of doing a shocked expression like the meme but I’ll draw it out like in a few days #digital art #meme #hsr #Sunday #sunday hsr #honkai star rail #hoyoverse #penacony puzzles are bomb #self indulgent #my art #ibispaintx #halfa-failure

[user-name-h3re]

i'm posting these mediocre sketches before school kicks my ass again

#camp camp #camp camp fanart #cc preston #god im so pissed my computer never lasts long enoug for me to finish at least ONE drawing #and i dont even have time to go fix it because of exams #cc nikki #cc nurf #AAND i cant download episodes anymore so now i feel like a huge failure #cc gwen #save me cc episode 3 season 5 #cc neil #cc ered #my art #i think preston and nikki would bond over nikki's new found femininity #since they most likely didn't get along very well before because of their differences #nikki could teach him how to fight idk #this episode validated my trans ered headcanon and my camp counselor ered headcanon #tough being right all the time #i really like that ered and nurf are both trying to become better people #i know they wont treat nurf's quote on quote growth seriously but im so happy to see so much focus on ered #i genuinly never thought this would ever happen im over the moon #ered<3333

[omaano]

I wish I had pushed the angle on this one a little more to match what I'd imagined for this scene from the end of chapter 14 of Mand'alor Cabur by @nautilicious but at this point stubborness has kicked in and I've dug in my heals so this is what I'm working with! In other news I've picked my birthday project for this year, and in my post-vacation optimism I see a chance to get this at least to a lines-and-flats (and maybe even some lighting???) stage by the end of next week, which would be very great for me! That is if the green background doesn't completely sabotage me in the process...

#bobadin #boba x din #look at me returning to this ship ayy!! #I love drawing them sitting around each other okay? #and this time Din has some dimensions to his torso ayy! that has been bugging me SO MUCH from that pic where they are chilling on the ranco #I'm getting SLOWLY but surely better at this armor drawing thing. thank you clone armor you hellish plastic nightmare #wip #my art #boba fett #din djarin #star wars fanart #they have their helmets somewhere covered by their bodies. just know that they are there #could I have picked an easier angle for Din's face? yes. would it have felt like failure? absolutely #I wanted to sit on it until I could see how far I would get with it by my birthday but i just felt too warm and happy with this wip #faults (many there are) and all this sketch went suspiciously fast! #serves me right to feel like i forgot how drawing works now that it's done lol

[jumpingtoconclusions]

Leia and Luke are the living proof that attraction in sw is genetical because they’re both into dumb men but they also like them older.

#Padme and Anakin would be both proud and horrified #star wars #dinluke #luke skywalker #sw #han solo #anakin skywalker #padme amidala #anidala #leia organa #din djarin #I feel like this is the real failure of obiwan

[writer-room]

Hey. The Finders have no idea that Bonzle was captured. Fritz and Spitz are still waiting, playing video games in the Monastery, for Cole to bring their sister out of hiding now that the blood moon is over. Geo is still sitting by the window, watching and waiting for a dragon on the horizon to return his kid safe and sound. Cole took a very unsure Bonzle, assured them all everything would be okay, and they'd be back soon. He promised he'd find a way to protect her.

Don't think about how they'll smile when Cole finally trudges back, happy to know he's okay. Especially don't think about the Finders stopping, looking out over the group, and how Cole can't look them in the eyes when they turn to him and ask; where's Bonzle?

#ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago #dragons rising #bonzle #finders #cole #cole brookstone #geo #fritz #spitz #text post #angst #talk #LISTEN TO ME #COLE LOST 2 WHOLE FAMILY MEMBERS DURING THAT BLOOD MOON #HES GOING TO NOT BE OKAY!!!!!!! HES DOING SO BAD #mans is a FATHER and he PROMISED he'd keep his kid safe. he promised it to the OTHERS #and hes going to have to walk back up those steps and admit to being a LIAR and a FAILURE #hes not obviously sht just went sideways but you KNOW he blames himself #geo very worriedly stayed behind w fritz & spitz FULLY TRUSTING that cole would keep bonzle safe & bring her back #he loves him so much (in a gay way. u know it to be true) so he trusts him IMPLICITLY to keep them safe. hes done it before #can you imagine the HORROR when cole comes back and hes...alone. with no one else but the other ninja (minus 1) #geo realizing what happened before the kids. the way everything just freezes and drops. cole curled so tight in on himself #and cole cant say hes sorry because he cant even look at them. he lost family hes had for over a decade & a kid he claimed his own for year #you saw how he was w child wu. you saw how desperate he was to keep bonzle safe. AND KAI IS GONE TOO??? #homeboy is having the literal worst day ever. imagine him trying to tuck fritz & spitz close while on one knee trying to explain it all #and bro jsut feels like hes literally the worst person in the world #something something 'you dont get to stay with the ninja & be happy. i tried to protect you from what hurt me as a kid' #'and instead your right in the thick of it'

[flamemons]

It's alright to scream

I'm screaming too

Why'd you think I do the things I do?

For shadows haunted me like ghosts

So I became what I feared the most

I conduct fear like electricity

A manmade monstrosity

Killer — The Hoosiers

i woke up from a nap with this song stuck in my head and. yea

#kouichi kimura #koichi kimura #digimon frontier #digimon #AGH ok drawing to a song is. a new level of vulnerability for me and im trying to get past the mental block of OH THATS TOO CRINGE #because cringe isnt REAL #((but it sure feels like it)) #i fucked up and accidentally made a kouichi playlist and so many of my favorite edgy songs ended up applying to him #and i was like....hmm ok.....this kid is suddenly very interesting #...not that he isnt already very interesting like. he is but hes still sort of hard to grasp since he never had time to really be himself #....anyway #i have. so many thoughts about songs i associate with takuya but. i cant draw that #because i would go through organ failure #like i would literally explode and die #oh the struggle of admitting i have human emotions

[shower-phantom-ideas]

You guys just don’t understand

You can’t even begin to grasp the amount of pranks Danny could pull on super heros (is that one words? Superheros?)

Added a read more because I hate long posts

Danny as a ghost is so powerful. Like our boy can walk through walls, disappear, and fly! Do you even grasp how much more unique he is than the others guys??

Jokes aside just imagine if you will. Danny could leave batburger cups next to Batman all the time (he comes back later to toss em out of Big ol B doesn’t)

Like hell we talk about Danny just showing up basically stalking the heros but ok hear me out. He didn’t mean to figure out Batmans identity ok but he was in the right place at the right time and over heard some stuff. Now he follows Bruce Wayne around instead. Always spitting out if a batburger cup. Maybe Bruce makes eye contact with him and one time Danny just leans his drink out to as one does to offer a sip xD the man is horrified.

For the ?Robins? The other bats maybe he leaves gifts of sorts. Stuff they would like made from his ice or something. He can understand becoming a hero young and most (if not all) of them did that. He plays favourites with the younger Heros for sure. But hes still making them have there “God?? Is that you” moments like everyone else.

Hell he could follow Superman around and always make his cape flow against the wind and the Hero wouldn’t know wtf is going on. Maybe Superman hears a very slight snickering maybe but the prank is harmless enough so why worry too much. I mean it’s probably bad someone can do this without getting detected till they give themselves away by laughing but nothing harmful yet. (Yet would emphasise Batman)

I don’t know anything about GreenArrow but I assume he uses a bow and arrow so I could imagine Danny grabbing his arrows and making them fly in crazy wild paths before hitting their mark.

Idk honestly how he would fuck with GreenLatern besides like using his ghost powers to try and one up his ring. Like Lantern makes a shield? Danny makes a better one next to it or in front of it. Tbh it’s actually helping Danny get better at his powers so he does this a lot rip Hal (I did not know he was played by Ryan Reynolds maybe ill watch the newer movie)

He refuses to mess with Wonder Woman because the Phandom has told me she is his fav thus he refuses to prank her. He respects her too much and is a huge enough fan that hes too nervous to even approach. Thus she thinks she is this pranksters least favourite since she is never bothered.

Aqua-man (thx for the correction siri) is pretty fun to prank because Danny can follow the man underwater. Idk anything about science of it but imagine Danny like making a space he can talk in with his ice powers (making a bubble of sorts) to make spooky noises at ?Arthur? (R we seriously going with Arthur in this one?) like I assume without actual fish related powers, or with them I havent seen any thing aquaman, you can’t talk underwater. But also if Danny figures out his real name hes 100% gonna be playing the Hey Arthur theme at this man all the time.

He just lowkey overshadows cyborg. Not in a controlling way but just along for the ride kinda way. He was gonna make remarks about his tech but ended up being stunned by how good it is. “Fam I aint gonna lie. I came here to follow you around and make comments like a streamer but your tech is crazy cool. I mean you could have saved a little room with a more compact cooling unit but I mean this is probably some of the best stuff I have seen outside my family!” Or something idk. Maybe he goes full on antman in coldwar

As for the Flash thats pretty simple. He doesn’t let the Flash run from him. I don’t think Danny could keep up with the Flash at all. Like man cants have everyones powers (can’t he tho) but he just hangs on and pretends to have followed. I mean hes invisible the whole time so not like anyone can see lmao though if (idk who the flash is? So ill use Barry cause thats why google say) if Barry goes too fast he might get Danny to give up the game cause boy is on the side vomiting. Barry is pretty smug about probably being the first to throw the prankster for a loop but Danny is just on the side like “how can you go that fast and not be sick dude”

Like tbh I was gonna just make a list of pranks he pulls on Batman but yall seem to enjoy the Justice League so here go off I guess.

Honestly I had to charge my phone so I forget a lot of the post rip this kne

#danny phantom #dp x dc #dpxdc #why is this happening you ask? #well Amity Park got destroyed by GIW and Danny can’t go back to the Zone because Vlad destroyed his whole place and moved to avoid the GIW #so Danny is doing anything to keep his mind off it #not the healthiest of mechanisms but hes like 14 or 16 so whats he know #jazz would know but shes dead (I hate killing off jazz tbh) #following around these Heros is all he has to do to keep himself distracted #plus it helps feel his protective obbsession because he can help a little here and there #I know I make the danny follows the heros around posts a lot but theres a reason for it #danny feels like such a failure so he wants to learn from them #he needs to learn from them #he has to do better he has to get better so he wont loose everything again #oop hope yall don’t read my tags it’s a mess in here

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

I think Shiro is bad at cooking in a “overcooks everything out of paranoia about raw food and giving someone food poisoning” combined with “I’m busy and need food cooked fast so we’re putting the stove burner on 7 instead of 5” way so everything he makes is a little charred and a little tough and dry and over cooked and he’ll eat it but no one wants him cooking for them ever. I think he does better when recipes have very specific descriptors of how you know it’s done. “Turn off when bubbles form” type things. He’s okay at baking when it has specific directions, or when it’s “when a toothpick comes out clean” but if it’s “golden brown around edges” he will second guess if it’s golden brown or not and burn the cookies. I think he loves appliances like instapot or rice cookers where you dump ingredients in and push settings and it comes out done. Don’t make him make decisions about if food is done he will overthink it and err on the side of caution and burn it.

#Voltron #shiro #holly v*ltron tag #listen I think he is bad at cooking but he is an adult like he can feed himself to an extent #he is just bad at it #listen I think it is funny that he is bad at cooking but he needs to be bad at cooking in a way that makes sense with his character #Shiro’s strategy is you can’t give your teenager salmonella if the chicken is over cooked and a little charred #meanwhile Keith is fully capable of digesting raw meat #I think kind of failure at cooking would make Hunk feel even worse bc when Shiro helps in the kitchen he is trying so hard but it is #difficult to convince him that sometimes food finishes cooking in the pan out of the oven

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #man yosuke really? more scared than when your own life was in danger in the tv world when your shadow was lashing out? #when you didnt have a persona and you didnt think anyone would do anything to help you? #(i believe it. it's just like yosuke to be like that.) #chewing glass at how invested hes become in nanako and in yu's family I'm honestly just #of course everyone wss terrified for nanako but yosuke describing it as the most terrified hes ever been is really just #also man i wonder what he was going to say when he started trailing off #i bet he was going to say something about how devastated yu was but thought better of it #and im #I feel like for yosuke in that moment when nanako was missing and his partner was emotionally distraught #he must have felt so helpless too #throughout the entire year yosuke took each kidnapping really personally he kept seeing it as a personal failure on his part #when he said he wasnt smart enough or good enough to prevent it even when he knew it was coming #and then to have it happen to someone close #i think yosuke definitely felt all of yu's pain #but he also felt the pain of not being able to do anything more for yu while yu was emotionally falling apart #like hes not just let nanako down but also his best friend too and IM JUST #ok im shutting up now bye #he's good with his queue

[vvienne]

The thing about wen ning is that his character would only truly be satisfying for me if he got truly pissed at wei wuxian JUST ONCE. Like he does in fact have the right to be I think!!!! This is just my own preferences but WHERE IS THE CATHARSIS. Wen ning clearly has soooo much rage ( see his reaction to jc lol ) but it’s so carefully not pointed towards wei wuxian it’s almost telling to me. I want to pull that thread. I like to imagine that in post canon shenanigans they will hash all that unspoken history out bc ningxian is so profoundly Not Wholesome to me in so many ways….

#maybe in a post canon wei wuxian pulls some bullshit and lan sizhui gets mad at him on wen nings behalf #like idec if wen ning doesn’t feel it at first but plsss justice for this shit. maybe that plants the seed that wwx isn’t — infallible? #or always correct? #i don’t mean to sound like I’m just shitting on wwxs character I love him deeply but his flaws and arrogance and failures #feel so important to the narrative #that a ningxian rship in which wen ning never interrogates feelings more complex than loyalty and puppy love for wwx would not be as fun

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

Okay challenge mode. You are a therapist and Eridan Ampora from Homestuck has just walked right out of his intro page into your office. How do you fix him?

put him and karkat in a room with a pile of stuff and tell them they can't leave until they've jumped into it and talked about their feelings

#realtalk therapy doesnt work unless the person getting the therapy puts in the effort to make it work #eridan starts the comic in complete and utter denial that he's in need of help #so there's really nothing i nor any stranger could do about that #HOWEVER he does talk to karkat often about his feelings (and vice versa) and #the reason they didnt hang out during the game seems to be #1) they were on separate teams and didnt realize the teams were the same team until later on #2) by then it was too late and eridan had aggro'd all his angels #3) gamzee was deliberately keeping eridan away from karkat and vice versa (likely bc gamzee had a palecrush on kk) #4) karkat was too busy falling victim to his own insecurities abt being a leader to pay attention to his actual friendships #4a) eg. it shouldve been the time player doing the frog hunt with kanaya & not the blood player #like im not saying moirallegiance with karkat would have fixed all of eridans problems but i am saying #what eridan really needed was a friend who took his problems seriously and could see past his bullshitting #and karkat already WAS that friend - they just never hung out #so by the time the meteor rolls around eridan has spent WEEKS feeling abandoned anxious and alone on his death planet #and karkat has gotten used to not thinking about eridan too much #so karkat - who is basically eridans only actual friend at that point - isnt able to get through to him & eridan snaps #like the thing about sburb/homestuck is that it really stresses the importance of friendship and working together #letting each other help with each others' problems #thats why the smallest viable game is still two people by necessity #so when we see things like gamzee snapping or eridan snapping or vriska snapping #as much as these are the 'fault' of the person snapping they also need to be viewed as comprehensive team failures #the people who should have spent the game together didnt and the people who shouldnt have spent the game together did #vriska was allowed to bully tf outta tavros and nobody intervened #eridan was left all alone and nobody tried to help him #and everybody was mean to gamzee and nobody tried to connect with him #and you know whose job it is to make sure the right people are hanging out together? the blood player #and unfortunately our blood player was so insecure that he was doing jobs that werent his to do #im not saying pale erikar would fix homestuck but i am saying pale erikar is a symptom of things being fixed in homestuck

[floof-writes]

Kristen is only 17 years old. Her parents abandoned her. She is looking for certainty and is only finding doubt. She's hurting and struggling and her brain feels like mush.

Cassandra is only 5 months old. Her creator is abandoning her, but won't actually let go. She is looking for love and is only finding doubt. She won't abandon her back. She's hurting and struggling and her chest feels like it's fracturing.

Kristen made her bed. And it's not a bed it's a person. And she has a responsibility to either hang on or let go. She can't do both. Executive dysfunction explains but does not excuse. Get her help.

#look #Kristen's situation is far more analogous to a teen mom situation than a child hero/eldest daughter syndrome situation #Kristen chose this and she has the right to let it go #she has the right to let go of the responsibility and help Cassandra go to a place (summer court) where she won't be in danger #but then what? #she feels like a failure #and she's so scared of that #(and god if Cassandra left of her own accord what a mess Kristen would become) #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #cassandra #i love them both #don't pretend like either is in a powerful position here

[astrangertomykin]

I wonder how Halsin feels about Arabella being at camp. That man must be feeling so many different levels of guilt it is unreal.

#halsin #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #arabella #halsin silverbough #like okay he would have known arabella and her parents before he left for the camp #and then he leaves and korga tries to seal the Grove so Arabella tries to steal the idol #and then Korga threatens her #Arabella ends up with powers from that okay not overly bad #but then her and her parents leave for the shadowlands #which he feels responsible for #and they die and Arabella is left alone in those lands with new fledging powers she hasn't learnt to manage yet #like she's just another reminder of failures to him #like personally i don't think he did but to him he failed her and her parents more than once #like no wonder you are all the way on the other side of camp hiding from Withers #fml really fucked up spelling of kagha awh well