#i couldnt even do that in english

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

Sitting here wishing my ADHD was more severe just so people could realise I actually have a problem-

#adhd #probably adhd #undiagnosed neurodivergent #undiagnosed adhd #stuff like this makes me doubt if i have adhd at all #i tried to explain how when i was doing my gcse preparations i would take a day to do an essay #“oh it takes us a whole week” #NO THATS NOT WHAT I MEAN #I HAD A WEEK TO DO IT BUT I LEFT IT TO THE LAST DAY #ON THE LAST DAY I COULDNT PROCESS THE QUESTION #I KNEW WHAT IT WANTED. I KNEW WHAT I SHOULD WRITE. BUT I ALSO DIDNT #i love english. both language and literature #but it would take me hours to even work out what i was supposed to write unless it was under timed exam conditions #when it was timed the panic would put me into hyperdrive #but i only realised last night that maybe taking a full day to work out what to write on a simple essay might not be normal #but then people point out that this kinda thing is normal and i just. dont know. #do i have adhd or am i just giving myself excuses for being slow #or do i expect others to be so much faster and see myself as slow in comparison #im so sure i have adhd but i dont know either

[silenthillbunni]

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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time #so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T #but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity?? #im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol #but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance #so he fixed what he could fix #i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly #but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks #he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious #nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww #it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!! #so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that #but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved #he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time #im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss.... #and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o #oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized #your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat #my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious #he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this #well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to #hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further #if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not #but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it

[kimmkitsuragi]

look this will be extremely 2016-core of me to say but. 16 year old me would genuinely cry if she saw dan and phil announcing their gaming channel is back with a video featuring jacksepticeye

#i know their gaming channel was still active in 2016 BUT DO U GET MY POINT???? #im ngl i do not keep up with these guys anymore the last time i actually try to keep up was when they came out #and then i started to not enjoy their recent videos :( so i stopped #hopefully i have enough cringe living inside of me so that i can still watch their gaming videos :3 #once again im ngl even if i dont keep up w these guys anymore they still mean so much to me tbh like....... #it's s hard to explain #above all else; they literally taught me english!!! 😭😭 not even kidding!!!!! #i remember i started watching their videos while i still couldnt really understand english that much sdhfbdfh especially not spoken english #WITH accents mind u #and im 100% serious the moment i realized 'HOLY SHIT i can actually understand spoken english to a good extent rn????' #i was literally watching a dnp video at that exact moment #so yeah dnp literally taught me english. this is only one of the reasons why i care abt them deeply still #let's not get into the more emotional reasons #anyway another thing is sean was THE reason i got into gaming im not even kidding 😭 #i just realized i was so fucking real in middle school. a non-english speaker whose fave youtubers are #3 english-speaking dudes with Hard Accents. hell yeah #i need this exact energy with german rn #anywayyyyy i was also gonna say something else sbhsdbfdbfs im sorry for rambling but #everytime i open up sims 4 my thoughts are always related to dnp gaming channel fr #🗒 #sorry to be cringe or whatever btw #dnp

[helianskies]

feeling a bit miffed and frustrated.. just had a simultaneous spanish interpreting class and we had to go into the booths and just. sim interpret from spanish to english. but i have not used the booths before, nor have i done any kind of simultaneous practice. i feel like my classmates have all done like english speech shadowing in lesson to practice. but i haven't done that. my sim lessons have been sight translation and memory exercises. so of course i fucked most of it up where others didn't. and i just kind of feel like an idiot who is onthe wrong fucking course. basically.

#helia rants #helia's ma adventure #i dont want to be all woe is me but i just. everyone is being taught different things across their languahes at different ti.e #evidently french and german - bc they share a teacher - have done skills that i have not come across #as the only student not doing french or german #but when they assure you in induction you focus on english -> english interpreting for the first couple of weeks #i wasnt exactly ready to go ahead and interpret from spanish SIMULTANEOUSLY #like i couldnt even use the booth equipment and i feel like that shouldve been a fucking hint #she's given me advice on how to practice for sim going forward #but boy. boy. #i am not in the best mood now

[grapecaseschoices]

Lloyd Duarte

He has a name! And a board. I like having aesthetics and qoutes, because it helps me feel out the character. It also answers the buzzy in my brain to CREATE without taking [much] effort.

#oc: lloyd duarte #character building #aest: lloyd duarte #the dropout #dropout mc #grapes chars #i am still figuring out his job because i saw the list and that he couldn't do arts #my logic was that maybe he was so good he could get away with it -- but with someone who couldnt even get away with an english major izzy #makes a point qwerer #it is very unlikely that the first gen would get away with music as a major wqe3rew #i dont knw where to put hiim tho #thinking of making this white boy an infp #maybe he can be my semi self insert #just threw out a career to make people happy #then again do i want to do that to myself? #might keep him an infp and make him a cliche #i havent had a dreamy art boy thats introverted #ori isnt introverted and mason wasnt that dreamy -- at all werew

[constant-and-immovable]

[Wakes up] IS THE CROCODILE A REFERENCE TO PUNCH AND JUDY?????

#it was still popular and is the only other English-language sourced #work that i can think of that features a croc seen by the audience but not his prey to both comic and fearful effect #peter pan #ive never seen a whole punch and judy just a few min of one i walked past in a park #idk if it was st james? #idr it wasnt Kensington or regents #not even kidding im in bed and couldnt sleep and was thinking about #gaiman & mckean's punch comic bc i was thinking about how instead of doing what i needed to i went #to the bookstore and found the last volume needed of one of the only manga series i followed #and thought huh i should read that next vol of sailor moon too #but forgot i still didnt finish the comics from my last pilgrimage to the comicbook store #where i also finally found copy of punch #and then thought about the corocdile and wondered how long that character was a feature and then?!?!?!?!!? #i

[fiendishartist2]

guys what if i want to make my own apollo justice game.

#i need to write a prequel to aa4 pls pls pls pls pls #okay get this: so phoenix isnt disbarred yet and he doesnt have trucy. hes still taking and winning cases #one day he gets a call from edgeworth and hes all like ''wright i need your assistance'' and hes like what for and edgeworth goes #''ive been given the most ridiculous case and i think youre the only man in law who can take care of it'' #so phoenix bikes his ass to the detention center and boom. child behind bars #and phoenix is like ??? hey kid what are doing here. and this kid is the most surly mfer on the planet like you couldnt get- #-a word out of him if you tried. hes kinda giving phoenix the stink eye too but hes just the littlest guy on earth #and phoenix feels bad for him so he tries to get a rundown of the case (maybe edgeworth gave him an autopsy report or smth beforehand) #but get this. the kid still wont speak. he hasnt even moved a muscle. and after some prodding you find out this little dude- #-doesnt speak english (i dont love aa6 but i think apollos tragic backstory can be interesting so we're going w that but taking it seriousl #anyways so maya is like omg this kid is speaking khurainese but hers is kinda broken bc shes not from the mainland and only knows it- #-from like prayers #so you only get bits and pieces of the kids testimony. plus he still doesnt wanna talk bc ''dhurk told me not to talk to you'' #so you start following the new lead but you ask too many questions and apollos like oh shit i said too much and wont talk to you anymore #but now you have two leads: khur'ain and a man named ''dhurk'' plus the fact that this is kid might be new to america since- #-he cant speak english but is smack dab in the middle of california. its all v curious and phoenix wants to get to the bottom of it #for the rest of the case i feel like it would go in the direction of ''we dont know exactly whats up w this dhurk guy or where this kid- #-came from but we do get him acquitted and phoenix is able to save him from the dark path he was heading towards'' thus steering apollo- #-in the direction of law and giving him a wayyyy better reason than aa6 gave him <3 #i kind of like the interlinked nature of ace attorney's storytelling. like everything leads into smth else and everyone is impacted- #-by another person before they even become properly entangled w each other's lives #like how mia faced dahlia years before she met phoenix but dahlia was the one to connect them #or how trucy gave phoenix the diary paper but she's also the one who ropes apollo into the waa. even before they know they're siblings #or how lamoire left apollo and trucy as children and when they reunite as adults they cant recognise each other but they all find each- #-other anyways #i could go on but i think this could be cool yknow esp bc i think the most interesting thing about apollo's aa6 backstory is his life- #-post dhurk. like where did he stay? was he a foster kid? was he put into the system? how did that affect him? what kind of ppl took him in #i just wanna know how that whole thing would have effected him bc like when yiu think about it how did he even get to america?? his dad's #-considered a terrorist. idk man i think its interesting and apollo and dhurks interactions are one of the only good parts of aa6

[4arconinoma]

I need to be autistic about Diamond is Unbreakable again its been too long Did you know that i love Jojos biarre adventure part four diamond is unbreakable did you know that about me did you know that

#I need to be autistic about all my passions in general again The entire month of october and november i couldnt do jackshit #I was too caught up with my school/college attempt things i neeed to start thinking about my stuff againw because Im free now #Like im so fucking repressed right now I need to get back into my swing of things hopefully even stronger than before Im so thrown off stil #Anyways i never did finish that DiU essay I was going to do and I wont blame myself for it because Its actually a bit hard to essay about #media because i havent really done that before. Ill have to pay attention to how video essayists do it #Not only that but im not used to essaying in English i havent figured out how to structure it properly that way yet #But still I hope to do it sometime. If not i dont care though. Im satisfied rambling about it #I need to rewatch it again soon I remember every second but I still need to do it #txt #jjba

[serenuum]

having SO many mike warren thoughts i want to share but THEYRE ALL IN MY NATIVE LANGUAGE AND ITS TOO ENERGY CONSUMING TO ACTUALLY TRANSLATE ANY OF THEm like what the FCUKK

anyway its once again going insane over special agent mike warren hours happy going insane over special agent mike warren hours to everyone who celebrates < 3333

#YOU DONT GET TO TALK TO ME #because youre not sentimental mike #yes i am #i would be like 10x times more active here IF ONLY i could like. immediately straight up write down all my thoughts in english #i mean i can and i do occasionally but like. fucking UGH #anyway. thinking about literally EVERYTHING #mikecharlie and mikejohnny bromances. mikes death. adhd mike. . #mike who tries his best and forgives people who hurt (MORE LIKE LITERALLY MURDERED < 33) him and who just wants to be loved #tender and caring and supportive mike emotionally vulnerable mike mike who cries and needs help mike who does everything he can #he wants a friend he wants someone to trust w whom he can be himself and not be afraid of being used n manipulated he wants someone to love #hes so tired of everyones shit hes been dragged through literally EVERYTHING hes seen murders hes seen tortures a person committed suicide #right in front of him hes literally been dead hes been abused hes been addicted hes been shot two times and at second time he couldnt even #go to a hospital he was lying injured and shot in some fucking garage on the cold floor and was alone should i go on with the list #he didnt deserve any of that shit AND IM GOING TO FUCKIGN PROTECT HIM WITG MY LIFE #because youre not sentimental mike yes i am. he cares. he cares so much you cant even imagine #hes been through so much and he still holds love and hope in his heart. this shit is insane and im going to kill someone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Sunflower, lavender and lilac :>

:> hewwo

Sunflower: what is something you are looking forward to?

This summer i am going to budapest with my dad! Its gonna be a lot of fun and we will be able to look at all the beautiful art and architecture! Oh its going to be great!!! I really missed going on little adventures troughout europe with my dad

Lavender: if you could eat one inedible thing with no consequences what would it be?

Oh another one of those! I will just keep answering ne next thing after pebbles

So i would just start eating wood planks sorry but that stuff looks tasty and noone can change my mind just gnawing on some furniture

Lilac: whats something new you want to try?

I really want to print some of my art on clothing or other stuff not really for merch reasons but just for myself and my friends & family. Maybe make a little booklet of the comic or something like that, that would be fun

#i ramble #ask #flower ask game #lovely moot💕 #i used to go on so many trips with my dad it on a really small budget that was like all the money he put aside by only buying food on sales #he wanted to teach me that you can always get along even with small money and broken english #well that was when i was smaller and couldnt understand english and neither could he but the last few times he always asked me to translate #also furniture is great to chew on actually used to do that as a kid

[lyriakisser]

just realized i do know english now

#like. wah. #i do understand what this song says now #i couldnt even establish a conversation in english before fifth grade and look at me now #im so cool

[iheartmyipod]

dont understandhow people are able to get into 50000 things at once.my brain can only think of one single thing for 7-13 months and then i get so sad because it becomes like hot cheetos that you eat every day and its gross and weird now.....(dont eat exclusively hot cheetos for months btw.yu will never know peace in your.organs.) and then and only then does my brain decide to latch onto something else and the cycle continues...what will be my next victim...

#the last process was sonic > original characters who were largely made so i could stop messing up sonic in my head. it worked btw #dont know if i used the words process or largely correctly.<failing high school english #and with ocs its like am i ever going to escape this. there are infinite possibilities how will i ever get bored. they are my everythings #anyway this post is about how badly i want to get into splatoon and my little pony and kingdom hearts and a billion other things... bleh #i love mlp but lately i have such a hard time finishing shows for some reason #when i got into sonic i spent literally all my free time watching 7+ hour long videos of gameplay cus i couldnt play the games #myself . and now i cant even sit still long enough to watch 10 minute videos i think i need stim toys or something #the only times i really sit still and watch something is when i am snacking .... but even then sometimes i cant because my chewing is too lo #ud to hear wats going on LOL #the stars need to align perfectly for me to do anything ever at all. the only thing i like spending hours on is figuring out ipod stuff #IPOD STUFF IS SO FUN THO CUS IT REQUIRES ME TO GO ALL OVER THE PLACE TO UNDERSTAND WAT TO DO. I LOVE IPOD #other then that i spend my days playing solitaire and listening to emo music... sigh. I NEED FRIENDS. #hi tumblr btw hiiiiiiii

[lzrdprsn]

It's really weird when you know someone in a context different from how everybody else knows them so you look at them and you still kind of see that person they used to be

#this post is about the boy i dated my senior year who was so incredibly sweet tbh wouldnt be the person i am today if i hadnt met him #but he was so fucked up he had so many issues it was really hard so it didnt work out but i loved him and i think he loved me too #but hes in a moderately successful band now which i just found out about do i looked them up and theyre good #but its so weird because its like i know that when you were 17 you wanted to be an underwater welder #i helped you clean your room at your grandmas house because you were so sad you couldnt do it yourself #i ditched 5th period AP English to sit on the steps behind the auditorium and listen to you talk about whatever #you pushed me on the swings and we took the bus to the movie theater and you liked cherry wraps and you played me my favorite songs #i havent REALLY thought about that guy in years and we were only together MAYBE 6 months but its so weird what you remember about people #and especially how you remember how they made you feel because he made me feel so good like i was in control #all my previous relationships was me trying to desperately please someone who wouldnt do the same for me #and honestly a lot of my relationships since have been the same especially in college and with the one girl who honestly if she called me #today i would drop everything and go be with her again no questions because i cant get her out of my head #but stuff witj him was never ever like that it was so easy it was like breathing even though it ended messy i have 0 regrets #and its nice to know that things are going well for him because honestly he changed my life a little bit #the way i dont give a fuck now is something i learned from him #ill probably delete this later but you know

[alligaytorswamp]

ermmm something happened to my hand and now it like feels uncomfy and 2 of my fingers don't work properly ahhahahaha (im panicking)

#i mean i had issues with it for agessss #if i did smth too tough (like picked up smth heavy) or drew/wrote for too long it would hurt #like my palm and wrist and even till elbow #and recently it like suddenly started hurting on my ring finger #idk english like that but the part where it connects to the palm BUT closer to the pinky #it would hurt every time i would like move my hand and ring finger was involved #couple days later it stopped hurting?? all seemed well yet my hand now felt a bit off as if i overworked it but i could actually do stuff w #w/o pain #last night i noticed that my pinky and ring finger like.. don;t work right?? #idk how to explain but like when i bend them instead of slowly bending like they should they kinda snap into final position? #it;s doesnt hurt just feels very Wrong #and on top of that #i can like straighten them #u know how u can put ur hand into a fist and then straighten each finger separately? i cannot do that w my pinky and ring finger #fun fact my pinky couldnt straighten for year but ring finger was ok. rn my pinky is WORSE? like it's just not moving unless entire hand do #um very fun for me AHAHHA #and idk today the entire muscle/nerve/who knows hurts from my palm to my elbow - which isnt too uncommon for me but i didnt do shit to caus #it. i have been doing nothing pretty much and it still feels OFF.. :'( #anyways i will be getting some shots in case it's um an inflammation of the joint and then we will see if i get better #dont even have a doc near me im in a VILLAGE (throwing up and dying) #someone pray that my hand gets better #adry.txt

[junonreactor]

every time pmoon puts out a notice i am prepared to feel deep disdain but lol. lmao. holy fuck.

#the accusation of political motivation on the user group but not the fucking incels. the conflicting statements regarding the dismissal. #the fact that they put up en/jp translations of their notice from TWO MONTHS AGO immediately afterward so it looks even more #like they're doubling down on a deeply fucked decision. the threat of legal action Again. #all that just to fail hilariously at brushing this away before tgs. incredible. kim jihoon spontaneously combust challenge #ein babbles #yes i uninstalled the game yes i do keep up with official updates because im invested in seeing where this shit #ESPECIALLY if anything actually happens in regards to like. legal ramifications on any side #they're so stupid and they think we are even stupider. incredible to watch. #HFDGJKAHFGD THEY TWEETED AGAIN. #'stop being mean to us for real we WILL sue you' yeah ok. 'we're trying to protect our employees' ok. like the translators? translator. #if they could they would have had cancel culture buzzwords everywhere in that english notice. #they reuploaded the draft letter that the union said they wouldn't be publishing. what are you Doing over there... #like. all of this and not a single word about how the tweets that started this mess were deleted and couldnt possibly be reasonably counted #against vellmori re:company policy. and no action is apparently being taken against the dcinsider losers who went to the company. #their targets for legal retaliation make it very clear what their priorities are it's so. lmao.

[kirishwima]

if theres one piece of advice i want to give the younger generation, its this;

if you value your sleep; your sanity; your work-life balance; your health

do NOT

DO NOT

Become doctors

#it is 6.30am and i am only just getting into bed #and i cant even sleep bc im waiting to be paged for a translation #that i spent a solid hour trying to plan #bc my ER colleagues couldnt be assed to tell me my patient doesnt speak greek or english #HOW DO I DO A PSYCH EVAL THEN???? WITH NO TRANSLATOR? #AT 5AM IN THE MORNING?! #:) im exhausted #and i gotta wait till 8am in case the next shift has to manage this to let them know #dont become doctors kids fr you will NEVER achieve work life balance #now i gotta ditch my brunch plans i had w my sister bc im exhausted #burrito talks #delete later