#i hate that i was ever born

[goth-pastoralist]

i really hate my life. so, much. 

#i'm fucking trapped #i cant envision a future where i have anything i want other than the most basic requirements like food and shelter #and even that is more and more doubtful with the way everything is heading in this shithole country #being poor is fucking awful #my life is just a pile of shit growing more and more rancid every day #everything i have worked for has been worthless #i hate that i was ever born #i can't fucking do this if things don't get better by the time i'm 30 #i just fucking can't

[chuckyray]

the walten files fans try not to demonize people with addictions, understand these characters are meant to be complex, and learn to grasp the concept of nuance + remorse + grief and fear causing people to make poor choices challenge: impossible

#every time i open that tag i am faced with the most dogshit media literacy and bad faith interpretation of canon the world has ever seen #felix did not KILL the kids. his irresponsible actions lead to their deaths yes but you people talk about him as if #he broke their necks with his bare hands intentionally. he loved them. he was their uncle hed seen them grow up since they were born. #he was in such shock and grief he couldn't make rational choices. did you people not watch guilty or hear his agonizing screams in bunnyfarm #and to top it off people act like this wasnt an accident. how him being an alcoholic and dui causing this ACCIDENT is justification enough #to act as if he deserves to be treated like a murderer. i believe him living with that grief and suffering and losing everyone he ever had #is punishment enough lol. hes sick. hes mentally ill. and we dont even know anything else regarding how or if hes involved in shit #or how its all impacting him. you people just hate people with addictions. #so called progressive people when a mentally ill sick man makes poor choices because hes mentally ill and sick 😡😡😡😡 #anyway. rant over. #twf #the walten files #felix kranken

[grapejuicegay]

there's a space in my heart that is now permanently occupied by cooking crush and how much it values friendship. the very real pain of feeling left behind by friends getting into relationships and hiding them from you. ten walking in on the friend group reunion ready to ask prem out and quietly and happily walking out because that's not his moment and he respects it. metha and samsee's heart to heart about how relationships and friendships are different and both are important. metha and ten's friendship. actually just metha in general and his relationships with his friends - including samsee now because good god i love their relationship so much. this show loves friendships. this show is my friend. i love you cooking crush

#cooking crush #cooking crush series #i know a lot of people want metha and samsee to be a thing #but i really really like them as friends #i love their love hate dynamic #i love the way metha balances samsee out #and how he seems to have embraced his sort of floating role in his friends' lives through any and all relationships #how much time he seems to spend by himself and how okay he is with it #and i just love samsee making more friends #especially after what he said about prem and dynamite being the only people to ever accept him #he needs more friends #and i like that him and metha sort of accidentally became friendly on the side #mostly unrelated to their friends' relationships #because it's just a natural friendship not borne of (friend of) boyfriend of friend dynamics #just. more friends for samsee. #thanks for coming to my ted talk

[cherries-in-wine]

Oh my god babe your chain smoking ass is so Lana del Rey ultraviolence lipstick stains on cigarettes girl in red charred black tissue lung cancer core 🎀

#now i hate smoking because the smell is nasty and it has taken the lives of the people i love #but the most intimate i ever felt with girl was when she gave me a puff of her cigarette #aditi doesn't know how tags work #this is a girlblog #this is what makes us girls #im just a girl #girlhood #girlblog #girlbloging #female hysteria #just girl thoughts #girl quotes #ultraviolence #girl in red #smoking #cigarettes #lana del rey #lana del rey aesthetic #born to die #desi #desiblr

[eywaseclipse]

Guys the original script for ATWOW is not canon. I repeat it is not canon. The edits and revisions made for the theatrical release happened for a reason. Everything excluded in the final version is because the original script was the original version. Think of it like a rough draft. 🤗

#mine #avatar edits #avatar explore page #avatar for you #new avatar blog #avatar fics #avatar the way of water #avatar 2009 #new avatar writer #new writer #like no baby Neteyam being born out of a chrysalis is not canon #they scrapped that #for a reason #whatever happened during his birth is now kind of up to our artistic interpretation based off what we know biologically about the na’vi #I hate to be that purist sounding person #but yeah #spider isn’t canonically 20 and Jake isn’t his adopted father #and the concept art with spider on the songcord is absolutely not canon #please stop with the delusions #avatar blog #avatar writing #avatar oc #avatar head canons #avatar script #the original script for 2009 had the na’vi able to turn their heads 360 degrees like owls lol #that’s clearly not canon yall #avatar series #I hope this helps writers too #because in no way am I ever going to write a na’vi giving birth opening up a chrysalis to get to her baby lol

[elmleif]

After a good nights rest Saoirse and Cillian brought all of their baby shower gifts up to the spare bedroom to finally set up the nursery. Saoirse has dreamt of this day for so long, and it almost felt surreal to be standing there watching the room come together as Cillian assembled the changing table and bassinet, and arranged all of the wall hangings and toys. With her due date just around the corner the pair both feel so much more at ease and ready for their daughter’s arrival now that her nursery is complete.

#I built FOUR different versions of this god damn nursery I was so indecisive #and then I realized I’ll have to redo it again when she becomes an infant #which if we’re being honest will likely be like an hour after she’s born bc I hate playing with newborns lol #so this room will be ever changing but I’m still v pleased with how this version came out #postcard legacy challenge #postcard legacy #generation 1: the farmer #saoirse murphy #cillian hammond #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #ts4 legacy #ts4 #simblr #simmer

[sciderman]

Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?

actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.

my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.

#sci speaks #i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me. #i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men. #i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring. #also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life. #this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed. #lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??” #“why are you together??????????” #i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror. #i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better. #the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified #but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships. #just an observation. #i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but. #of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does. #it makes a difference. it does. #which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body” #im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me. #i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have. #my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here. #sorry this went off on a tangent. #but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues. #i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous. #i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got. #once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that! #couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.

[ineed-to-sleep]

I'm starting a collection

#she said :p #she's so sillay #frajolina tag #sleep.txt #we're moving in 2 weeks she's gonna be so pissed at me #last time we moved she hid under the bed constantly for a month until she felt comfortable in the new home #tho last time was also the first time she'd ever moved. she spent all her 10+ years in my grandma's house since she was born #so maybe this time around she'll be less stressed out? hopefully #I hate to see her stressed 😔 she gets so scared in unfamiliar places

[eerna]

Is this you

me but switch the trope to "messy, unwilling heir grows as a person and learns their true potential and claims the power offered to them by their birth"

#ugly-lizard-crab-thing #eernask #i HATE real life generational power and being born into a position #but. oh my god in fiction this storyline will never ever ever grow boring for me

[wolf-tail]

you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love you fight hate with love

[fists clenched with uncalculable amount rage]

#i try to fight bigoted hatred by pouring more love into the world for the objects of their hatred #i love you fat people #i love you queer people #i love you disabled people #i love you people of color #i love you women #i love you jewish people #i love you muslims #i love you oppressed and downtrodden people of the world #i love you more than they hate you and i love you forever and ever #my rage is one born of love

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

answer within the next like 2 hours bc I'm making a decision before I go to bed

#basically my dad has a pair of these banger shoes #and my dad has actual literal podiatry issues and he is harder on shoes than anyone I've ever mey #met* #like. buying a new set of sneakers and/or hiking boots nearly annually bc he's worn through them and stuff. he's that hard on shoes #and he has had THE SAME PAIR of these sandals LITERALLY since before my sister was born. so like. OVER 14 years at this point #so like... seems like a worthy investment to me #better than buying a new set of cheap $20 sandals every year yknow?? #I told myself that once I saved up a certain amount of money following my Florida trip I could buy a good set of shoes #I just need backup lol bc I'm gonna have to justify myself to my parents who hate it when I spend ANY money sksksksks #Lu rambles #adulthood woes

[pensymbols]

if u believe that jason grace is lame gtfo this is NOT safe space for you

#everytime someone claims hes a boring character and a blank canvas i losd up a gun and #like jason ISNT a boring character hes actually incredibly interesting #but rick riordian fucking hates his guts and refuses to give him anythin #like genuinely #like first of all jason getting his memory wiped but hes never able to regain them??? #so despite people knowing WHO he was and him having the general feeling of knowing who he is he genuienly cannot remember shit #and those memory problems persist all the way up throughout toa #second of all his general past?? #like the grace siblings had such good backstories in the sense they were intriguing and actually defined everything and every choice they #-make #like jason who was proclaimed as heras/junos since he was born stolen from thalia who was raising him and she cant wver find him again and #-so she assumes shes dead and being reluctant to take in annabeth whos supposed to be around her baby brothers age #that shits peak #and then theres jason who was raised by wolves and then eventually found his way to new rome where he was only ever seen as jupiters son or #junos champion and he was only ever going to be the praetor and no one there truly saw jason for who he is #like thats PEAK #AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE JASON VS PERCY THING BCS A) I THINK ITS DUMB AND B) ITS STUPID #also rick DOES hate jason grace bcz they killed his character long before toa when thwy tried to make jason more like zeus so the rivalry- #-could make more sense #pjo #percy jackson and the heroes of olympus #jason grace #percy jackon and the olympians #heros of olympus #trials of apollo

[queenlucythevaliant]

All I want for Christmas is nothing but my favorite carols in church

#pro: the worship team is doing the first noel (my favorite) this week #con: we are also doing this ccm song i hate with really overcomplicated harmonies that no one has even bothered to write down #pro: we also get come thou long expected jesus #con: a steven curtis chapman song #i like to think I've gotten more tolerant of kinds of worship I don't vibe with as I've matured #but then at Christmas i just have zero patience for anything but the beautiful carols #like. Christmas has some of the richest and most beautiful music ever written for any reason. full stop #seculars and folks of other religions frequently agree on that #and for every generic ccm song we do at church that's a missed opportunity to do a carol #and like. I'm sure the ccm Christmas stuff moves someone #but i have yet to encounter a person who likes Christmas and dislikes the carols #and so so so many people have deep connections to them #idk #it's frustrating #pontifications and creations #unto us a child is born

[kuja-kujaku]

lmao I’m not even 32 yet and someone asked me when I’m going to start coloring my grey hair. never, actually, it’s a condition. it’s called Pretty Boy Disease and it’s terminal. it just gets worse as I get older, I just keep getting more and more grey hairs until I’m so hot people can’t stand to look at me. make sure it’s an open-casket funeral, don’t put me in the ground without getting a good eyeful bc I worked hard for these sultry little grey binches.

#god damn this society hates everything about being human at a base level #I’m not old and grey hairs are just normal #I’ve had a grey patch since I was like 14 #but like shut the fuck up also #throw the entire concept of being old out the window until you’re like fucking. 75+ and then get back to me #30 will be peak if you let it #in fact I feel better now than I ever did before #undo that conditioning that the 20s are the only fun times in your life or that you’re old past 25 #it’s insane to me to see people hating wrinkles or average facial features and calling them old #when we literally are born with wrinkles and some of us have more dramatic creases even in our teens #American media especially just fetishizes this false idea of youthfulness #but anyway fuck everything and everyone who tells you to change yourself bc of your age #aging gracefully has nothing to do with coloring your hair and everything to do with treating yourself with kindness and loving your body #aging gracefully #thirty is not old #real shitposting hours #y’all need to do some introspection #and some self acceptance while you’re at it

[baeshijima]

hsr 2.0 story spoilers utc !!

i fucking hate this game so much

AND THEN OFC [if i can stop one heart from breaking] COMES UP IN THIS SCENE AND I START CRYING BC I DIDNT THINK WE WOULD GET THIS SONG SO EARLY AS A DISK WE CAN PLAY IN THE PARLOR BUT ALSO I CALLED IT WITH HOW THIS SONG WOULD BE USED IN A BITTERSWEET MOMENTKSDF

#may the stars guide you <3 #have i ever told u all i hate it here? bc i do. i really do. #fuck im not ready let me out i dont wanna carry on i cant carry on im weak im no soldier i was born to teehee but am forced to ueueue

[dirtytransmasc]

the chokehold Alicent and Aegon's bond, the level of mommy issues the latter has, and just the raw emotion between the two of them, has on me is wild and I need to be put in some sort of rehab I think.

#its so so so personal #it runs in my veins #I need an intervention #I think about them 24/7 #I think about them when it doesn't make sense #they're rotting my brain #but like? can you blame me? #they're perfect and terrible and they love each other more fhan anyone could ever understand but they hate each other #and they crave to hold into one another cause they're all the other truly has. a mother and her child. a son and his mother. but their touch #burns and their presence makes their chests ache. but they coukd not survive with the other gone. they would/have gone mad over it #they so so so flawed but so perfect #he looks just like her she looks just like him #they share the same face #he came from her captor born to her prison #he suffered because of it #he blames her. he's so sorry for existing. he's ok. he fine with it. it wasnt her fault. #she feels like she failed him #its just too good #alicent hightower #aegon targaryen #aegon ii targaryen #house of the dragon #hotd #pro team green