#i just know theres a reason i dont like it and i cant really put a finger on it

[kroosluvr]

sorry i feel bad for ranting on """Main"" i guess though i kinda keep this more of apersonal blog than a very polished art blog thing. under the cut

things wld be easier if i was just an oc-centric artist (which i kinda am but only to myself in my head) but it Is how it is at this point (i want to draw my ocs more but they never turn out the way i want) and theres just so much i want to draw for the silly little media franchises that happen to capture my stupid little heart and etc.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh ifeel stupid for loving too much or whatever. i dont want to throw a pity party over this either because in the end its just "who cares LOVE WHAT U LOVE DRAW WHAT U WANT" right but in the moment i feel stupid and it sucks and i hate it actually!!!!!!! and i WILL in fact keep drawing hwat i want and what makes me happy but like idkidkdidkgkhw

sometimes i cant help thinking if i was a better artist.,, like more artistically skilled........ would people really say the things they do about the things i draw

^ (Authors note: no one has been mean about the stuff i draw just. side comments i guess lol. from my friends though and not random people . so its harder to just brush off i guess)

like maybe im just not good enough yet. which is fine. spite is actually a really good drawing proponent. but its also just like . when will it be enough to be worth it? will it be worth being my friend now if im a good artist? if i draw what you want? ...........................

its obviously not discounting the people who really enjoy my art style adn what i draw regardless (which im soooo so grateful for bc i never like expect anyone to stick around sicne my fixations change like the wind) but its like... these r the people i spend the most time with . and it sucks. i have to. second guess what i say and what i type and just. ok like i know its not that serious either but i hate it i really dont like it (<- im also just socially anxious if u cant tell)

and its also like i cant just extract myself from my friend group for a while to kinda cool off (read: muster the courage to be an idiot in front of them again) bc ummmmm um i dont have many friends . they are kind of all i got. (which is nice i like small circles(?) im not good at opening up to people.) and i do admire and like them very much but then i just feel like i get bit in the ass all the time (This past month) with shit like this i guess

and honestly like. well half the reason i keep switching fixations is BECAUSE of stuff like this where i feel self conscious of """"Being obsessed"""" over One thing so much so i just immediately switch tracks so fast but its just a cycle (Which i dont see as a bad thing tbh? it keeps my art moving and things fresh so like.)

And honestly i dont really try to . be too vocal about. fandom? stuff? when im with my friends? unless they bring it up first? i got burnt so many times with my vtuber interests so like lol ive Learned. but maybe it slips out too much? bruh. my bad i guess

i have to stop thinking abt this man.., why has this happened to me so many times this past month lol its kind of ridiculous

(Im sure they dont like. mean it. right? ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, if they actually meant it and want me to shut up then they should just actually say so right.,

i just want to draw . its not going to stop me from drawing but damn does it really like rain on my parade or put a dent in my fender or whatever other sayings that i cant think of right now

in the end i really REALLY appreciate frm the very very bottom of my heart everyone that even remotely likes/appreciates my art (especially the persona stuff nowadays bc thats what im mainly pouring all my mental and physical and emotional into) like i really really mean it. because this stuff like my silly comics and stuff is really stuff i make for purely my own heart and just what i want to see kinda. and so it just makes me feel really warm that people also want to see it and keep seeing it and love it and everything like that. and, with all this kind of negative stuff going on i just go back and reread tags and comments and stuff and i feel encouraged to keep going and draw more and everything like that. so like really, truly, thank you. i really never thought so many people would like the stuff i make. even if its not really artistically good, or really deeply interesting, im really happy it could be something special to people out there

#cele talks #sorry for . waves hands . this

[natjennie]

i dont have this as a coherent argument but there's something about bbc ghosts that is just so much more. genuine? than the american one. and I only watched like 2 episodes of the cbs one but still. to me i think it suffered from that marvel-ification "he's behind me isnt he?" wink wonk cheesy like. exaggeration in a way that wasnt purposeful or sincere. the whole everyone is beautiful and no one is horny situation. whereas in bbc ghosts the whole show is a little bit rough around the edges and ugly and imperfect in a way that makes it infinitely more endearing. I'd rather watch a theater production where someone occasionally misses a cue but the people care and have something to say, rather than a perfectly airbrushed and photoshopped one that talks a lot and says nothing. yknow?

#idk there's just a different vibe entirely #when mary walks through someone they smell burning because she was burned at the stake #and alison says 'i think your toast is burning' #but when whoever walks through whats her name. sam. #they're like 'WHOA did you FART' *90s sound effect* #like its just. so much less. anything. #less meaningful less funny less real. less. #anyway #you can watch the american one i dont care. #i just know theres a reason i dont like it and i cant really put a finger on it #but this is a big part of it #bbc ghosts #im not gonna tag the cbs one no hate

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[passumstars]

words fail me

#my art #emeto tw #sorta #who needs sleep after your catbwakes you upmat 3am to hurl after a fairly fucken bad day not fuvken me #i cant be bothered w the typos #like how tdo people say words #they just tell people things...?......???????????????? #wah wah i had a bad day and couldnt sleep and had a panic attack #when i put it ike that indont look smart #im starving also #idk why #have to get up then #the words just lodge in my stupid throat and i cant fucking spit them up without a reason and no telling people is not a reason #apparently art is a reason #i have more words secretly. its likely healthiest to putnthem here #i feel like crying whenever mom and sibling have a productive convo cause thatb means i didnt waste months of my life working with himonstuf #getting in the boat stuff. theres still problems i dont know where thr balance is. betther to clean the kitchen to show yoh care or better t #o trust people to understand the limits of others? who knows but be sure to yell at me in a panic because you suddenly want my help with it #i think it was a legit panic attack with hyperventilation and everything and it was the middle of the night and i had to be the one that tal #ks myselfnthrough it not that id really trust anyone to have that skill but its still fuckend up #im tired #im really very tired

[arsenicflame]

ok really struggling to find balance i think i might log off again till thursday, you know the drill, queue keeps ticking you probably wont even notice im gone

#if you notice anything its probably just oh thank god theyve shut up lmao #nyxtalks #im sorry to keep vagueing about my mental health all the time #i cant let myself talk about it properly because i become a monster when i start #theres a reason i have no proper friends #theres a reason i have exactly one person who talks to me from before i started this account (and its someone i didn't talk to at the time) #i cant talk about it but at the same time i cant keep it entirely in #or i can but only under complete isolation #i cant explain that but i feel out of control. i need to let it out somewhere or it festers #i don't know why it matters i struggle to perceive people as real #do you really exist? #jesus. i should really go harass the nhs for mental health support #i want to be better #i dont want to put in the work. i dont think im worth it #if you read this #i am so sorry. why am i like this

[snekdood]

Quite honestly, i think people just dont like to acknowledge how many times i have been victimized bc it doesnt work for their narrative of the Scary Bad Trans Guy With No Regard For Others And Likes To Kick Puppies And Doesnt Know Real Pain Or Trauma

#bc otherwise yall would have to feel bad about putting me through way more additional unnecessary trauma on here #and i swear its yall who believe everything my abuser says about me. you need to tell yourself its true that i did the shit they accuse me #of and theyre just this pure uwu innocent pewson who doews no wongg umu #yall dont wanna except ive been through hell bc then you gotta accept youve put me through additional unnecessary hell that only warped my #perception worse of a community i thought i was fuckin part of and accepted in but apparently tf not #like you only have yourselves to blame for that shit. for why i hate online queer spaces now. #man it would just suck so so hard for your narrative if i was actually abused as much as i say and my abusive x was actually lying about me #bc otherwise how will you pretend trans men never ever experience any issues ever? #like i dont need to look. ik im one of the main blogs yall like to target and put on blast for transandrophobia stuff bc im super fuckin #outspoken about my shit (nevermind that yall never directly confront me). i already know thats how it is bc theres ppl on here who have a #apparently deep interest in constantly hating me and trying to find reasons im wrong. so when i say something is bad they habe to act like #its good actually somehow. and ik it all roots back to my abuser. there is literally no other reason i can think of that would mame ppl #that invested in hating me unless they believe everything my ex says. so undoubtedly theres ppl in my exs spaces who believe #transandrophobia is fake men arent oppressed ever etc etc. i digress. but ik its yall who've propped this whole shit up #ik its yall who put me on blast for this first and triwled to spread it that i was one of the Big Bad Names in the transandrophobia spaces #so ik yall use me as an example. ik you tell people i lie about everything. ik you tell people i exaggerate. ik you tell people im crazy #ik you tell ppl they cant trust me or rely on me and spread all the bs my ex says about me and even spreads their abuse toward me further #by even doing that shit. yall NEED to keep believing that im the Big Bad Trans Guy that you think i am bc otherwise your whole worldview #falls tf apart. everything you've been standing on online about how trans mascs who believe in transandrophobia are bad would fall apart. #if i am really as fuckin abused and victimized as i say. suddenly you dont get to use me as the example for Bad Transandrophobia Believer #and I KNOW thats the only reason yall choose not to listen or believe us. its LITERALLY just because you're choosing a side in a personal #relationship situation. ik it has nothing to do with politics for plenty of you. you're taking a side and shitting out reasons for why you #did after the fact. #if you really care about politics n shit you should listen to ALL THE OTHER TRANS MEN TALKING ABOUT THIS #besides using one person as your example for why you shouldnt believe people who believe this is a thing. #i mean. even aside the fucking fact that its all bs. if yall dont wanna believe me. whatever. you can get traumatized by them if you want #idefc at this point. if you actually care about politics as much as you say you gotta engage w people in good faith and uh maybe try n #listen to the SWATHES of other trans guys who also talk about this shit and thinks its real.

[gibbearish]

> be me

> never send asks bc im scared ill mess something up

> type up lots of asks but never end up sending them

> finally type up an ask i feel like i can send

> check over it a dozen times to make sure im not missing anything

> send

> didn't actually read urls right

> sent ask to wrong person entirely

> mfw

#ik theres supposed to be a picture if they put mfw just use ur imagination #maybe that one meme of the guy in the blue shirt smoking looking super resigned #its good its fun like its a small thing so im not upset upset but it is def frustrating that this kinda thing always happens to me #i already know i check and recheck things excessively its one of the reasons im like 99% sure i have ocd #but i still. always miss something big and obvious #not specifically with asks just in general things i spend forever going over to make sure theyre perfect always end #up having something glaringly wrong with it that i just somehow didn't process at all #it gets frustrating cause it starts to feel like no matter how hard i check itll never be enough but also that can't be true #because i almost never see this kinda thing happening to everyone else‚ people just Send Asks without having to spend an hour agonizing #over it and nothing ends up being wrong with it. so clearly they're doing /something/ to be able to notice that stuff and im just. #not doing that thing. but i dont know what else i could do it's always something i never even thought to consider #it's like the whole 'expect the unexpected' thing‚ something truly unexpected will be something i. cant think of #so how am is supposed to think it ahead of time #so yeah its. hard #im tryin to stay positive esp bc i know this really was a minor funny one not an actual Problem i caused but #s just a little hard sometimes when it feels like my brain wont cooperate with my no matter how hard i try to think

[homosexualmorelikehomiesexual]

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#i love how the one supportive cis family member i have got me a fucking h*rry p*tter shirt #and now i feel like a dick bc i dont want to be the asshole thats picky about presents but oh my god i hate getting presents from cishets #and like i know im gonn have to say something to her about it but idk how #esp bc i havent talked to her in a while and last time she texted me it was bc my dad was using her to guilt trip me into texting him back #when the whole fucing reason im not talking to him is because hes a fucking creep who tried to groom my my whole adolescence #but i cant exactly say that!! out loud!!! to my sister!!!! without putting her in a Position!!! #not to mention he literally. Has a sex offender charge so my famils whole personality is defending his innocence #and shell side with me to a point but. i dont want to push it and open up old wounds of How Dare You Put Dear Old Dad Through This #and just. fucking. the wizard nazi merch. on top of all of this. really #like theres only so much negative things i can say in a phone call before itll ruin the whole vibe #and on christmas no less #its gonna be hard enough talking about this i dont need another thing to make me sound like an asshole #finnposting #personal #vent

[surrender-souls]

maybe i shouldve told someone other than the gossip besties that the art teacher when talking about her friends autistic kid and then promptly finding out im autistic and took offense with how she talked about them basically said ”not like that though”

#theres a difference between recognizing a persons need to be taken care of and completely disrespecting them. #she crossed that line. like i mentioned me being autistic and saying how low functioning isnt really used by us #and then she proceeded to explain how much this person cant do. i dont even know their name why would you tell #your whole art class that? its a total breach of privacy #i have never met them they had never given me permission to know that! i doubt they want you going around telling us that! #and she said it in a way that was definitely demeaning. i doubt she has this person as an actual person in her mind #and i dont think this was even a kid! like iirc theyre around our age! like fucking hell #this is one of many stupid bullshit things she has done that make me despise her. sad because art is my biggest passion #and to have a teacher who is a total… i dont know? would bigot fit? also her husband is a cop. #and she has a blue lives matter patch on her apron. i want to mention that half or more of our class were poc #shes also a huge harry potter fan. instant red flag she doesnt shut UP! about it. #she also said that in older art women were naked a lot because “their bodies were worshipped” #which is blatantly untrue and also confirms that she just. does not think of trans people. #which if she werent an hp fan i would take as just another stupid cis person moment but the deeper vibes are there #oh she also constantly points out how one of us always draws darker things while completely disregarding the reason she draws what she does #not all dark things are edgy im sure you know and talk to her enough to know the trauma she puts in this #i definitely have stuff on her that at the very least would get her in trouble. but i dont wanna go talking to departments #its hard for me i dont like talking to teachers and people i dont know… but maybe i could say something anonymously #my parents are fed up with her too for different reasons #i speak

[yelloworangesoda]

the worst part about my incredibly low pain tolerance is when people literally don’t believe you. why would i lie

#its not like. that interesting #it just makes me look that much more weak and pathetic #yes that literally!!! hurts!!! that hurt when you did that. apologize? #dont just go ‘that didnt hurt’ well. it did. so :/ #its like sensory issues other people don’t experience them so they assume im lying #volume is a big one for me you cant. yell thats my thing. yelling hurts my ears but its not important enough for anyone to #even notice they do it and apologize i have to go ‘hey dont’. i try to be on top of my tone bc i understand thats important to people and i #don’t always do it right (its not like. actively choosing a tone but it’s more often accidentally having a more. um annoyed or bored or #angry sounding one). and bc i know i dont get it right i go ‘whoops sorry i meant it like this’ but people yell and scream and grab and all #and dont even bother going ‘oh im sorry simon i know that hurts you #i know you dislike that for one reason or another i will continue my effort to not do it again’. and like theres an understanding i try to #put across that i know volume control doesnt come easy for everyone and yelling is often an instinctual reaction god knows i do it. but #like acknowledge. please that you hurt me #i hate my shitty pain tolerance it makes things legitimately harder for me. i have a lamp that hurts to turn off and a hairdryer that hurts #to turn on and off. i like being moved around my boyfriend but it hurts 100% of the time. when he picks me up. thing i enjoy. it will hurt #theres no way around it. it sucks really bad is all. i wouldnt lie about this :/ #simons spouting #vent :(

[vaugarde]

im gonna go out on a limb here and say that like. i get the frustration with how the world championship plot was handled overall, but at the same time i can’t quiiite blame the writers for struggling with these early bits especially considering ash is plopped right in the beginner class when he’s supposed to be a regional champion, so its hard to write episodes that are meant to build tension and have ash struggle to the top when he should probably be in the hyper class right away and have the audience naturally believe that it wont be anything but a cakewalk at this point

#and like yeahhh i get they couldve just. put him in hyper class. but i do get why they decided to go for all the ranks #bc then it shows off the world more and have ash connect with some more people #i think they just wrote themselves into a corner cause like its really awkward to have ash start at the bottom for narrative reasons #and they cant quite address the alolan elephant in the room #also ngl i dont think they knew what they wanted to do with ash in this season. which makes sense bc its the first season after #after winning a championship #that was always gonna be an awkward season to write bc right away you have to ask: what now? we cant just have ash lose the league again #and thats why i think goh is an equal protag to him and he tends to have a few more centric episodes this year #bc theres just more you can do with him bc hes so early in his journey #where with ash…. yknow. whats he gonna so. struggle against milo for a two parter and have us take that seriously? #echoed voice #jn lb #idk its just a hard thing to do and i think theres also some mandates involved and all that #we already know the jn production was an absolute mess in that last year so i wouldnt be shocked if it wasnt so smooth earlier as well

[urostakako]

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#i really cant do this anymore i dont know what to do #i just want someone to listen to me i want someone to understand but i cant make anyone listen to me or understand #im a selfish person but everything ive done is for them. i did everything to go against my nature i did everything to not want anything #i dont care about anyone or anything i dont even care about myself. everything for them. and its not enough #ive been good i think. i havent been selfish. all i wanted was for them to be happy and have a good life and maybe if im lucky mine #will get cut short so i dont have to drag myself through all of this but its not enough apparently to do everything i can for them #its not enough to get the best grades and never go out and never talk about my problems and never ask for anything #i have to want something for my future too? how is that fair. everything for you and you say it was all worthless and wasteful #and everything i did is for fucking nothing and im stupid and telling me shit i already know #you dont have to tell me my hobbies and my likes are for nothing i already know. i asked you for your opinion because everything is for you #my life is for you and i asked you if my choices were okay because your opinion matters over everything #didnt you think there was a reason why i always ask you what you want and what you like? but i was being selfish? #theres no point trying to make you understand you just never will. theres no point talking to you #i can put myself in a position where im begging for help from you and you wont understand. you wont listen to me. you never have #youve never understood me when it mattered. you only ever loved me in the ways you know how and i never complained #i already gave my future to taking care of you because theres nothing else i can do. but somehow i make u feel bad for it. im being selfish #so i dont understand what you want me to do. ive always done everything you said. you tell me to shut up and i do. you tell me not to go out #and i dont. you want me to smile and do all these things i dont give a shit about and i do #and then you want me not to do any of these things? think about myself? make up your mind already #im so tired trying and trying to be a person you wont be disappointed by and i keep failing. nothing i do is good #and i cant talk to you about it or my brother or my cousins because they dont understand it. they never listen when it matters #fucking whatever #vent post #delete later #aricouldyounot

[sk3l3t0n444]

i left my room to piss and get a drink and im am shaking like im being hunted for sport wtf

#why is my anxiety at an all time high??? #i would like to be normal please! #my anxiety is so bad that i wont even let myself eat at all because im scared that someone poisoned the food...thats not logical at all ik #hell even getting some ginger ale was so hard for me...i have to keep reminding myself that theres nobody who is trying to brainwash me #i saw my door cracked open so i know someone was in my room...and im trying to be reasonable but its so hard when my anxiety is so bad... #as in i am trying to tell myself that nobody put razorblades in your bed and nobody poisoned your drink and nobody is trying to control you #nobody put cameras around your room nobody filled the house with gas and is going to set it on fire nobody put a tracking device on you... #im so paranoid for no reason...well there is a reason...but i honestly dont want to talk about it...and ill talk about anything... #so me saying i dont wanna talk about it is a huge indicator that its not very good...at all... #as in i cant talk about it with anybody...not even my closest friend knows...nobody knows...its just my secret that ill die with #there are a few secrets about my past that ill take to my grave...and thats saying something cuz i use humor to cope and i cant even joke... #im just a kid...and ive been to hell and back and i just want a fucking break... #idfk i just want to be normal... #sorry for venting so much im just kinda a mess...shits been really hard recently cuz of a ton of shit that i still dont wanna talk about #idfk sorry

[astranauticus]

once my brain (and my schedule) (and my wrist) lets me draw again uh. VR-LA and MR-SN as Ratoo's song from cult of the lamb anyone

"I have been sitting here for so many years, even her face has faded from my mind, yet I keep searching. Always searching."

#asto speaks #dont worry about my wrist btw thats mostly a joke #the carpal tunnel is probably coming but it hasnt struck yet #i know i mentioned this on the discord im just putting this here so i dont forget #i dont think i can run cotl on my laptop anymore but god i loved this guy when i was actually playing the game #his vibe is so wild. like cw gore but go look up ratoo's room in the game its. ??!?!?! #anyway something something MR-SN brought VR-LA's heart to the sea when he took him onto the per aspera and the astral sea #and thats where VR-LA has stayed ever since like thats just his home now because of MR-SN #but that's also where his heart stays because of MR-SN's death because he cant move on #something something the very good reason hes not looking for a relationship right now of it all #somewhat related note theres a fall out boy lyric ive been spinning in my head a bit #'if home is where the heart is then we're all just fucked; i cant remember; i cant remember' from 27 #VR-LA energy but im not sure what to do with it yet. we'll see #i just really love that song like 'i got lots of friends who are stars but some are just black holes'? banger #1 sentence summary of my high school experience

[kittykatinabag]

While I greatly enjoy the subject of place making in urban design, I utterly hate the amount of pandering to capital holders a lot (if not most) of current "place making professionals" do in their work.

#also really hate some of the current trends of 'pop up events' that run for maybe a month and then never again #'its to get peoples imaginations going kristen!' until you realize that you dont actually leave any reliable framework when its done #and theres an inherent bias against creating those frameworks because that requires decentralization of your knowledge #which makes you and your work finacially threatened and even as a nonprofit you still need to make a living #idk im just pondering webs of power and the paradoxes of creating a better world using capitalism instead of dismantling it #also avoiding doing the newest academia bs and trying to avoid any fucking grades talk with the people i know here #because i havent told them that i havent turned anything in yet because depressions been kicking my ass #and they dont get the executive dysfunction part of it because their anxiety is so out of control that it still forces them to do things #and their reward circuits in their brains still work while mine dont anymore #and while they might have sympathy all theyre going to do is suggest solutions which is not what i need rn #also the solutions they will probably give probably wont work because ive tried pretty much off of them except cocaine #and im trying to avoid doing that for obvious reasons #i already know what i need is to 1- live alone; 2- live in a place with more amenities nearby; and 3- have an understanding support system #the problem is money. and circumstances. and having a support system. but mostly money and circumstances #the thing i cant figure out quite yet is why im avoiding telling them instead of just laying it out there #maybe cause it would seem like im putting part of this burden on them? #maybe something in my instincts and years of social observation is telling me that if i tell them their view of me will drastically change? #and then there goes whatever scraps of a support system i have out here #idk its probably just trauma leaking again #late night ramblings

[snekdood]

i feel like so much anti theism is a trauma response from being subjected to oppressive (mostly christian, since thats the pov i hear from the most) religious institutions. it reminds me of when radfems are like “men are bad so we need to kill them/wall them off from us/they serve no purpose and should be ignored/ostracized/exiled, etc.” and we all know they’re only saying that bc of trauma.

#you really gotta be able to like. put your trauma aside in these kinds of conversations- especially conversations over who deserves to be #listened to or supported or.. welcomed in society and not shamed for literally just existing as they are #because if you use your trauma to inform all of your opinions you're not gonna know what to do when theres like. *the perfect guy* who #proves your trauma informed belief wrong. like if ur traumatized by dudes and all of ur arguments are based off of ur trauma with dudes- #what do you do when a genuinely good guy comes along? do you just pretend theres something wrong with him by virtue of being a dude? #that seems incredibly unfair. #i think you'll find theres not many good or moral ways to argue for ppls ostracization. #i really just think like. ppl feel uncomfortable with ppl of the same demographic as their abusers supporting the same causes they do #like i understand you feel uncomfortable and maybe triggered by the person who says 'god is within us and moving us to revolution' #but thats. like.... not a good enough reason to act like they're not on your side or dont deserve to be. #just. avoid those ppl. stop trying to find reasons they're against you. your enemy cant be neatly fit in boxes anyways. #bc surprise surprise theres actually cishet white men who Aren't entirely toxic and (like some of yall apparently believe) irredeemable. #this is why people talk about bringing facts into these debates bc your experiences arent universal and cant be applied everywhere. #and the Fact is that you cant claim to have any humanist positions if you're arguing for why some humans shouldnt be treated equally