#i just miss that fic sm :(((((

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

what if . i made a jjk uquiz. as a treat

#which jjk chara would date you (except it’s only my favs)……… #smth like that :3 #wahhhhh i miss making uquizzes sm T_T!! #might make one this weekend instead of a fic!!!!!!! i rlly wanna …. just need to force my brain into agreeing……… #need to hunt down some good book quotes to force ppl to choose between too >:3 #im excited hehe #ari noises ✩

[enden-k]

i hope some people dont forget kaveh is canonically around his 30s and haitham is younger by a few years

#“but youn isnt this obvious to everyone who played kavehs hangout? why mention it-” #well you see i just stopped reading a hkvh fic not even the half in bc kaveh kept getting referred to as a boy and haitham as a young man #and it confused me so much as in why #i scrolled back up to reread tags bc i thought i missed them tagging an age swap or making them in their early 20s or smth #but none of that so idk if its just the same old stupid ass twinkifying your bottoms sm they turn into little boys #or what #but it confused me sm i kept wondering why this choice of word whenever they called him boy but haitham man #that i stopped reading even tho the rest was quite interesting #it just bothered me too much ajksbck #idk mweh #babbles #tbd #btw its not like i think theres a prob w that like. i often refer to them or myself as boy in a memey way like aye heres the boy n stuff yk #its just the whole #genuinely call kaveh boy but haitham man bc i immediately think like oh? is there an age swap and gap??? am i reading smth i #dont wanna read???? #idk if u get what i mean

[appleciders]

Warrior Nun (any characters) and "Stop. You're going to hurt yourself."

"Camila, stop." Beatrice grabs her by the arm, twists it behind her back. "Stop. You're going to hurt yourself."

"Let go," Camila yells, furious. She bucks and struggles, kicking and biting, and Beatrice barely manages to restrain her.

"No," Beatrice says, firm.

"Bea, let go! Let me go!"

Grim, Beatrice keeps her grip.

"Get off me!" Camila hisses, guttural, her throat tearing. "I need to get it out! Why don't you fucking understand that?"

"I do," Beatrice murmurs.

"No!" Camila bucks again, the back of her head smacking Beatrice in the jaw. Beatrice bites iron, sees yellow-black spots.

Still, she holds.

"Get it out," Camila demands, raw. "Get it out," and now the phrase burns with sobs, "get it out, get it out."

"We will," Beatrice swears. "Camila, we will."

"Now!" She lunges her weight forward, to where the knife had clattered to the floor. Her body is sweaty against Beatrice's, her curls mussed. Snot and saliva make a mess of her face as Beatrice rolls her into her chest. She beats a fist against Beatrice's shoulder. "Let me go."

"Listen to me," Beatrice says, tightening her arms around Camila's torso. "If you cut open your neck, you will die." With a bluntness terrible to her own ears, she repeats, "You will die."

"I want him out," Camila gasps.

"I want him dead," says Beatrice.

The vicious honesty slackens Camila, for a moment.

"I want him dead, Camila." She braces her sagging weight. "Not you."

#thank you sm bro this prompt made my brain go brrrr so hard it ended up with two before i left work!! #it was so fun i'd missed no editing just vibes!!! #warrior nun #sister beatrice #sister camila #my fic

[vilsoo]

yall i found my old wattpad covers from 2021 and omg my dark red aesthetic ??? ��😭

#this is what made poiseuns poiseuns #spending several hours on picsart and prequel and other editing apps to make these shits and change them a lot 😭😭😭 #also holy shit #the tokyo rush fanfic was supposed to be a multifandom street racing au fic 😭 #it had characters from csm jjk and my other fave animes #but yea i gave up on that shit i just loved the concept #my obsession w street racing and the dark red aesthetic was crazy #i miss this era sm ngl #when i was actually good at gfx

[spooscribbles]

What to do when a child (half sea dragon and apparently son of your brother’s dead acquaintance) falls into your cave and you know you have to send him back but he’s so small and cute so you accidentally on purpose adopt him into your pod and awaken his sea dragon side and now you have to raise a half human half sea dragon child while hiding him from your brother

#I love bingqiu but i am a fucking sucker for older brother/ father figure Shen yuan because I think he deserves getting a new bunch of #siblings (sj yqy lbh NYY mf etc) that he can take care of and take care of him in return because he would absolutely miss his siblings from #his first life and then lbh goes on to fall in love with mf or nyy or sm while sy gets to live out my aroace dream as a merman who has the #entire ocean wanting him sooooooo bad but he has no idea and everyone knows he has no idea + prolly isn’t interested so they’re just happy w #his kindness and affection and it’s great and everyone is happy and content and alive #except sxy but she gets revived later #if it isn’t obvious this is a fic idea that’s been floating around in my head for a while lmao #svsss #spoosart #mxtx #mxtx fanart #mxtx svsss #scum villain self saving system #scum villain #ren zha fanpai zijiu xitong #svsss fanart #mermay #shen yuan #svsss shen yuan #shen yuan fanart #svsss shen yuan fanart #svsss luo binghe #luo binghe #luo binghe fanart #svsss au #platonic #scum villain fanart #scum villain self saving system fanart

[ajaystillblue]

going in the polydads tag just to feel something

#I MISS THEM SM wAHHH #I say this like i'm not literally writing a fic rn #I just love em :'I #dndads

[xianyoon]

i miss 2021 genshinblr sm im ngl 😞😞😞

#the vibes were like no other actually AHJAHJJHAHJA #ik that it was like that because of the pandemic but there was really that sense of closeness in the community that you couldnt #get anywhere else. #and 2021blr was where i met most of my besties who (some) eventually bcame my irl friends!!!! #and all the character anons rp blogs events tag games everything #was quite lovely! i loved talking to people sm back then #people interacted with each other despite being part of different cliques and you'll see ppl reblogging from others and it felt #like a crossover episode of a multiverse sometimes LOL #and i remember cranking out fics every single day that was crazy i was truly in my writer period #but i just remember having fun. literally just having fun and not caring that my works were “not good” at all #because i was writing every single day out of the love for it. #and that's what matters the most #and also the theme changes every single week dude that shit was crazy #if anyone is here and remembers the ol syrup discourse of genshinblr 21 teheee #it was such a cute community though. loved it to bits and i love it to bits #genshinblr 22-24 is great but idk i feel like once the pandemic kind of settled down there was that detachment #maybe i miss being chronically online and not having to deal with anything HJAAJHJHEJHA #2021 was the year before my national exams and i remember attending online lectures and studying with my friends and idk i rmb so much ac #AHH AND ALSO dalgona and bbt at home omg #and everyone started learning guitar.. #im going insane over this HJAJEJHJAEHAHJEHJEA to q k a a k c e s t j g b l y p s l t you know who u are #im grateful every day that you guys are still here and thriving #and i love u all sm hehe #― ying talks. #thoughts over AHAHAHA ty for dealing with me

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ARI PLEASE CAN I JUST SAY THIS AND DIE PEACEFULLY??

imagine being classmates with satoru and not seeing him after graduating, causing the unspoken romantic feelings to be left like that, only to accidentally meet him after 10 years and have him say this, instead of greetings:

“married?”

you shake your head, “no.”

“boyfriend? girlfriend?”

“neither.”

“great. i’m glad.”

and i just KNOW he’d say it with a satisfied smirk on his face, just leaving after that. and you’re like, still standing there confused, not knowing what the hell is going on.

this is it i’m going crazy help i miss my man

GEM,………. the way i can literally hear his VOICE 😭😭😭 u get him so well he WOULD do this. little weirdo!!! “i’m glad.” and the SMIRK…… i can see this soooo clearly w blindfolded gojo LMAO he just has the Smirk. he’s so smug about it and you’re just like. Um. good to see you too?? (he goes home to giggle + kick his feet + write in his journal w a glitter pen bc he never got over you <333)

ohhhhh but gem… i’m so so weak for the unspoken feelings / reunion trope…. if u have any more thoughts plspls let me know 👀👀

#i lovelovelove the idea of satoru falling in love w someone and just. never moving on #its canon to me!!! #i dont see him as a playboy at alllll i think he’s a little loser who gets a crush in hs and stays in love w that person until he dies #I MISS HIM SOO MUCH TOO it’s been horrific these last few days :’3 i miss him sm it hurts #ALSO GEM WHILE UR HERE pls know that ur gojo fic is in my tbr 🙏🙏🙏 #uni is beating my ass but i have so many great fics to read once i get more time hehe #ask tag ✩ #gem !! ✩

[bakatenshii]

Hiya! I love your writing and ive been following your blog for a couple of years now (2-3 I think) and I just wanted to say how much I appreciate and adore your writing! Thank you so much for all you’ve written! Ive not been on tumblr much the past few months, and I’ve found that many of my favourite writers are leaving and deactivating their accounts, which is such a pity although completely understandable! Tumblr can be a pretty sucky platform for writers unfortunately :/ anyways I just wanted to thank you for your writing, it’s absolutely gorgeous and your style inspirational! I hope you keep writing, on or off tumblr, as you truly have a gorgeous and unique style! Thank you so much for all your contributions and I hope you’re having a lovely day!!

NONNIEEEEE oh my god oh my god hi hello I am going to sob first and foremost so im gonna get all snotty all over this ask wozooqjzlaozo but thank you so much? genuinely genuinely this means more than u can imagine and I aaAAAAA (being off tumblr and on and off writing ((mostly off oop)) really shows via my decline of the eng language clearly HAHAHA I can’t even articulate properly)

THANK U FOR BEING HERE FOR SO LONG?? AND REMEMBERING ME?? AND JUST. IT FEELS LIKE COMING HOME AND THEN SEEING ALL MY OLD FRIENDS AND THE NOSTALGIA IS A LIL NUCLEAR AND IM JUST SO EMOTIONAAAAAAL AAAAAA

Thank YOUUU for being on here and reading and being so so so lovely to me AND ALSO. im gonna go hide in the tags actually but I owe u my life I am kissing all ur fingers nd toes and maybe lips I’m infinitely happy that ur still here after all this time on this platform, I hope u are having the best day (and the best past few years whilst I’ve been mia <333)

#urusai! baka #OH MYGUAIZIAOZOAKZPIAOAOAO #U DONT UNDERSTAND HOW THIS MADE MY DAY MADE MY WEEK MADE MY ??? MONTH #ILYSM GENUINELY SO SO #I CAME TO CRY ABOUT UR LOVELY COMPLIMENTS IN MY TAGS #BECAUSE I COULDNT DO IT OUT IN THE MAIN POST IM #KICKING MY FEET BLUSHING RUNNING LAPS IN MY BEDROOM AND TAKING COLD SHOWERS #thank u so much for just. ur #idek i never know what to say when someone compliments my writing because im simultaneously combusting at the praise and being seen and just #its so !!!!! thank u for recognizing (??? not the right woed for this but) it and im so happy u like it!!!! #I am working on a fic!! 3k in!! it was going strong and then i got distracted by irl axooaz but its a partner fic with rae rae and SHES #BASICALLY DONE HERS SO IM GONNA QORK HARD TO GET BACK INTO MINE #I love writing sm i just waterboard myself with wips a lil hehe #but hopefully i am praying i xan finish smth for once (again finally) #also re: writers leaving— its so sad and i get itttt and I MISS EVEDYONE ON HERE AND TOSAY I ACC JUAT GOT A TIKTOK FROM 2020 HQ AND IT MADE #ME WANT TO CLAW MY FLESH OFF MY BONES AND FEED IT TO A TIME MACHINE SO I CAN LIKE #PERMANENTLY LIVE IN THAT TIMEEEW AAAA ok ok anyways #i love u pls stay and this msg made my heart explode like a supernova #u r near nd dear to my heart everyone from that time is automatically i am latching onto u all #kissing u loving u hoping the past fww yeass have been amazing for u <33333

[ifievertoldyou]

"Empty Page" by The Crane Wives is a tHAW!Q-coded song

i have always said that many of the crane wives' songs have vivid thaw!quackity energy.

but this one song of theirs has such strong thaw!q energy in particular that it would feel out place to me if it went on my thaw!quackity playlist. so i thought i'd share my ideas about it here, since it's not going to be on the big playlist analysis ^_^

(click under the cut to see a lyrical breakdown explaining how it applies to early thaw!q)

"I'm just a ten-cent copy/ Of people far more advanced than me/ Every thought that I've ever had/ Could be ripped from a magazine"

in my mind, this song is q comparing himself to quackity. after all, they are the same person, even if they were pretty different from each other in the beginning. but as q started to share the same worldviews as quackity, he started seeing himself less as his own person and more as just a weaker version of quackity.

i mean, he said it himself in chapter 35, "His ‘character’, that he couldn’t really see as much of a character anymore, in fact he saw him as his own person, so different from himself that he couldn’t even fathom how the other thought they were the same person. If anything at times Q felt less like he was his own person than the opposite, maybe because he had had to be ‘Quackity’s past-self’, maybe because of what had almost happened , maybe because Q himself did not know who exactly he was anymore."

q has lost his own sense of identity in this world, instead beginning take on that of quackity's.

and the fact that he's having basically the exact same pivotal moments (even if in slightly different ways), as well as making the same mistakes, as quackity. that does not help that notion of him no longer feeling like he has his own identity.

"Cut me a path, and I will follow it"

this could probably also be seen as him with quackity, but i can't help but see it as him with the sky gods. even if he doesn't mean to, q is following the path that the sky gods have planned for him very well.

"Draw me a line, and I'll avoid it/ I'm nothing if not obedient/ You have my word/ You have my word"

near the beginning of their relationship, this was definitely how q was around quackity. how he tried to avoid doing anything to bring his other-self's ire back upon him. and quackity even made some remarks about how obedient q was to him too, interpretting it as a thing q learned from manberg.

on the topic, that 'i'm nothing if not obedient' line has a double meaning, with how much the ram drilled that idea into quackity's head during manberg

"I am an empty page/ A muddled shade of paint/ I am a light that's burning out/ I am a light that's burning out"

q used to be so bright and idealistic and happy, but as the world continues to beat him down more, he becomes less so. the person that he was slowly fading like the dying light of a candle, as he loses that brightness and hope that used to be so prominent within him.

as for the first two lines, i've already touched on that theme quite a bit. especially during the beginning of the story, q's identity is torn up between who he used to be and who he is becoming. he is no longer himself, but he is not on quackity's level yet either; he's somewhere in between, a muddled color between these two versions of himself.

"I have hands that shake/ When there are cuts to make/ You’ll do it better, show me how/ You'll do it better, show me how"

q wasn't always inclined to violence. he hesitated to kill when faced with the burgundy cosmos ram, even with the bad feeling he immediately gave him, something that quackity would never have done after learning to trust his gut instinct. and q knows this too. that quackity wouldn't have made his same mistakes.

q really does seem to believe that quackity is better, stronger, than him. even in recent chapters that thought has still been present for q, albeit different Kinds of strength than it was before.

ever since the burgundy cosmos, q has no longer been afraid of quackity, instead he begins to strive to be like him.

"Tie me up by my callow belief/ Someday I'll make something out of me"

"Years of imitating mastery/ Only made me a better thief"

q was definitely more callow, more inexperienced when he first ended up in this different world. back when he never saw himself as ever being a murderer nor a cannibal, and back when he was willing to go vegetarian to uphold his moral values. but the sky gods had other plans for him, and his idealistic morals ended up either backfiring and hurting him more or else being impossible to uphold.

ok so it hasn't been Years. but. the point still stands. q started out just faking it until he makes it, and having unrelated behaviors be misinterpreted as something else, but now he's at the point where that identity is more real for him than his previous one is.

vv here's the song btw vv

as always, you can read thaw here, do it./th(/SILLY)

#thaw nation #thaw #thaw analysis #thaw!q #long post #the house always wins #Spotify #this is basically the format that the thawquackity playlist analysis is in btw #the house always wins fic #im sure i could probably find a way to connect this song to quackity too but i just associate it w q sm that it'd still feel weird if i did #also not necessarily saying that some of these things are true. just that they are true in q's mind yk #tw cannibalism mention #tw murder mention #this is certainly not my most in-depth analysis post. #mostly bc i wrote this in less than a day. i cant let myself do more bc im busy w midterms and i wanted to post this soon #so sorry if it sucks or anything lol #ive missed doing analyses

[wheeboo]

im doing a lil catnaps part 2 fuck it

#this is my brain speaking for me #so theres the small chance i twont happen #maybe its just me having the WORST WONU BRAINROT RN #like im being serious fr #i thought of an idea that moment my brain said a potential part 2 #i just miss that fic sm :((((( #rania rambles

[hella1975]

i love when you make your environment absolutely perfect to Get Shit Done like i had a nap i ate food and made coffee i put the big light on i got in comfy clothes i made sure i was warm enough i got all my stuff out. and then executive dysfunction goes 'watch this!' and you get nothing done forever and ever

#sincerely a girlie who has a microeconomics exam TOMORROW and was supposed to start studying an hour ago #and i hear your 'most revision the night before is just reassurance bc if u dont know it by now you wont! you'll be fine!' #but im TELLING YOU i will not be fine #i have 50 flashcards to memorise #i have not started #and i dont even mind memorising flashcards bc as dull as it is im really fucking good at bulk memorising shit #like i can memorise 300 flashcards in a night for an exam the next day (<- tried and tested) #(i did all my gcse geography revision the night before by doing this and i was three marks off a grade 9 ur girl can MEMORISE) #and i get into a real groove of it so like. WHAT IS THE ISSUE HERE #JUST DO YOUR FLASHCARDS BITCH WHY ARE U READING FIC #im so burnt out and exams havent even started pray for me please #might shower and see if that wakes me up #my flat has like an actual power shower i have MISSED HER my home shower is this shitty electric one that feels more like light rain #oh yeah im back at uni btw! i missed my bed sm i forgot how comfy she was #hella goes to uni

[duckduckngoose]

Hhhhhhh brainrot hitting so hard. I low-key wanna revive all my Taz grad wipes again from the dead

#the duck quacks #unfortunately i didnt have a lot of writing from my taz era bc i was very insecure about my writing at the time but GODS i have pilesofideas #...post canon (or just mid canon #thundermen roadtrip au. where would they get a car? idk. can one of them even legally drive? probably not #hmm also had a sickfic with fitzroy going on where his magic just made things so much worse #also haf a 5 + 1 fic or Fitzroy bonding with snippers bht i only figured out 1 out of 5 and the + 1 oops #i also havr been wanting to write something with the whole old changeling Fitzroy theory going around. idk what but i rll wanna for funsies #i also had written a little bit about the tribunal going wrong i think? irk where i was going with that but it would fun to expand on that #also like always wanted to write a classic Fitzroy tapping mote and more into chaos and shit goes erongTM fic #lots of these are fitzroy centered whoops fjjfjf. hes very blorbo #also just relistening to just the curse and tribunal eps makes me want yo write even more #i wanna give the thundermen a small break after Out of Order to judt talk to eachother. i wanna write an argo POV of him worryinh abott #Fitzroy during that episode. I WANNA WTITE SM WUGHHHHHDHSBFNDBSSBZNNNFJJF #also wanna write fitzroy complaining about having to share rooms at the start of grad only to realize that when hr gets his own room its #suddenly harder to sleep anf he kinda misses the others #BC THATS ONE OF MY FAVORITR TROPES FRFR. almost all of these are just tropes i like and i wanna do with the Thundermen/do my own twist on #soooo msny ideas i can barely sit still and decide what to write kdkfkfkf

[leggomyayygo]

Uh hi? 🙈

#AHSJSKSKDKD I FEEL SO AWKWARD BECAUSE I JUST WENT LIKE MIA WITH NO WARNING AT ALL #anyway I'm back!! ish. #Imma be real: the fandom just became a lot for me to deal with due to the hostility of a certain subset of it #3 guesses who lmao #but well don't get your hopes too high #I don't think I'm ready to fully dive back into the ST/Mileven fandom just yet but I would like to become more active on my main #but of course I would still love to consume any art/fics/all around positive fan content of my mutuals so feel free to tag or send me posts #Ily guys sm and I've missed interacting with ya'll #It's just hard to enjoy this fandom when there's also so much hate 🙃 #leggomyayygo #ayygo blogs! #mileven

[stevethehairington]

tbt when i could post a fic and it would get like. 300+ kudos within a day 😩 i miss that

#idk if its just a case of people not reading as much steddie anymore #or if its just that i havent posted in so long that people have forgotten about me fjdjsj #or if im just delusional and this fic actually sucked #but. yeah. i miss it #absolutely incredibly grateful for those who have read and kudoses and commented though!!!!! #yall are so appreciated ily all sm thank you thank you #mack rambles