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chillychive · 2 years

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A little Sprolden for y'all

Michael:

"I'm a little bit in love with everyone I meet, but I think that's normal."

She's giving me this look like "that was bullshit but I couldn't care less.", and then contradicts her own look by asking- no, stating "So you're bisexual."

I grin and lean closer. What I said was true. There's a little something to love in everyone. Some people have a little more than others. Victoria was blessed with so many things to love about her. It's truly remarkable that she still manages to hate herself when she looks in the mirror. God, if she could channel that into something other than being a chronic pessimist or trying to decide my sexuality for me- "You love all these words, don't you? Gay, bisexual, attractive, unattractive-

"No, No I hate them."

"Then why label people?"

Victoria tilts her head at me. She looks miffed. Actually, I'm pretty sure her face always looks fairly bored or sad (I think she doesn't realize quite how often she looks like someone killed her puppy, and I'm not going to tell her.), but I think she's started to get annoyed. I'm still leaning across the table, but I'm trying rather hard not to think about how close I am to her. "Because that's life. Without organization, we descend into chaos."

I can't help myself. I chuckle, leaning back. Chaos can be far more fun. "Well if you care so much, what are you?"

"What?"

"What are you? Gay, straight, all-around horny, what?"

"Er, straight?" She says it like this is the default option- like she hadn't ever thought about it until this moment. I'm pretty sure I didn't even come with a default setting. I'm pretty sure the defaults took one look at me and went running. I don't care. I like it better this way anyway.

I decide to push my luck. "And are you sure you're straight? Have you liked a boy before?"

She blinks at me, then looks at the floor. I'm almost worried, but she says "All right, then. I'll let you know if I fall in love with a girl anytime soon."

I smile. I can't help myself. It's truly, truly beautiful that this girl can coax so much happiness out of me. Most people would think I'm always happy, the way I go around smiling and looking like I'm living my best life. But I'm not. I'm angry so much of the time. The world is in shambles and everyone just ignores it. Sometimes you have to put on a normal face and be normal even when you don't feel very normal at all. But she just makes me happy. I don't even have to try. What a funny thing. What a beautiful thing.

"Are you going to remember what you came to tell me?" Victoria asks, interrupting my musing. She says it like she doesn't care, but I know she does. Victoria Spring is the type of person that cares about everything and everyone, but she builds up walls to keep her heart safe. I think she's built so many she's forgotten where in the maze she hid her heart in the first place. But I'll offer her a mental hint: it's not as deep as you think it is...

"Maybe." I say. "Maybe tomorrow. We'll see."

I'm lying, of course. But Lucas Ryan is paying far too much attention to our conversation that truly should not be his business, and I don't feel like telling the boy who obviously has a crush on Victoria (he's as subtle as a blimp with the words "I'm in love with you Victoria Spring" landing in her backyard- it is truly remarkable that she doesn't see it) what I came here to tell her.

I walk her home. I learn two things:

She hates her name. Everyone calls her Tori. I understand that.

She does not understand why I would want to be friends with her. I'm not sure why she can't understand that people could genuinely like her. I'm also not sure I genuinely like her, but I think she has a lot of very likeable qualities- again, truly a miracle she doesn't have more friends.

So many things are truly remarkable about this girl. And remarkable is a truly fascinating word- something worth taking note of again and again. Tori Spring is certainly worth taking note of, again and again and again and as many times as needed to convince her that she truly is remarkable.

Michael:

Tori & I are going to get married some day. Since she's the first one I'd want to be with me in the A&E, and I come 2nd on her list after Charlie, and we can't do that legally unless we're married. Also because we're in love. But that's not much of a reason- we'd still be as in love if we were partners forever- it's mostly just practicality.

I think part of it's also just wanting her grandparents to stop bugging her about 'settling down' and 'finding a nice man' and 'what about that Michael lad?'. I don't blame her. When Tori invited me to Spring Thanksgiving (she was going to flee to my place anyway-her words not mine), her nan kept asking me when the wedding was and her Grandfather kept dropping me not-so-subtle threats of murder if I did anything...unsavory with her. I'm not sure how he feels about kissing on top of a burning building after she nearly jumped to her death, but I somehow don't think he'd approve.

Tori:

Michael grins that ridiculous grin of his as he skates off the ice toward me. He's glowing. I love seeing him like this- riding the post race high. With the cameras still trained on him, he takes me in his arms, and kisses me. His skin is cold from the ice but his breath is hot on my lips.

16 year old me would be fake-gagging at those thoughts. I mentally cringe for her, but I'm laughing a little as Michael pulls away and raises an arm for the cameras, me still tucked under his other arm. I tug on a smile for the cameras, and I pinch him lightly. He squeezes me back.

Then he turns to his bags and pulls out a box. It's small, white, and when he lifts the lid there's an even tinier, blue, box. I gasp, shaking my head at him as subtly as I can manage.

I try to say, not here! with my eyes, but he just grins that stupidly handsome grin that makes me kind of want to punch him and kind of want to kiss him. It's not like we haven't discussed this, I even agreed. But here?? Now??

Michael starts to bend down and before I know it...

Michael Holden is on one knee in the middle of this skating rink, with all the cameras a former Olympian usually garners trained on the little blue box with the tiny bow on top in his outstretched hand and the other hand poised to open it. And who's he doing this for? That's right, Victoria Annabel Spring, also known as me.

"Victoria Spring, Tori. I've loved you since the moment I laid eyes on you." Bullshit- we both know it. But the cameras are eating it up. "Our first kiss was like fire in my soul." No, dear, that was literal fire. "You once dressed up for your best friend's birthday party, and the character you chose was just as wonderful and perfect as you." I am trying so hard not to laugh. "I feel a little bit more like myself when I'm with you, you make me laugh a little harder and smile a little brighter in every moment." I'm blushing now, and it makes me want to vomit a little.

"Tori Spring, will you do me the honor of making me your husband?" He opens the box. And then Michael meets me eyes and his eyes aren't full of all the love in the world like they always say. His eyes aren't gleaming and not a tear is streaming down his face. He's laughing. A little. His eyes are laughing. And I think for a moment that I should be angry at him, but then I'm painfully aware of how long I've let this silence go on.

I fall into him, and at first I think he's surprised but his strong arms are coming up around me and he's standing up. "Yes!" I say, loud enough for the cameras to hear me. "Yes." I whisper again, for his ears only.

"Yes." Michael whispers into my ear.

Yes, I think. Yes.

And then Michael leans into me and whispers, his breath hot on my ear "Tori- the ring is made of cake. We can eat it later, if you like, and then go find ourselves the perfect rings."

I pull away to look at him. I want to be amused but I'm confused and honestly feeling a little high off all of this. I just settle for kissing him.

When we finally pull away, there are cameras and packing up and Michael getting out of that ridiculous skin suit- I swear to God that's going to be in all the photo albums now, that little shit. God, I love him.

And then we're walking along the path to our car, and I lean into him. "Explain to me how the ring-is-cake." I demand.

"I had a guy make a fake wedding ring already in the box out of chocolate. That way we can still have the adorable photos for your family and our own, stress free proposal later. On our terms." Michael isn't looking at me and I think he's worried I'm mad at him. I squeeze his hand and pull him down to look me in the eyes.

"Thank you." I kiss him. How did I end up with a man who would make a fake ring out of cake to fake a proposal in front of cameras so that we had pictures for my relatives? Or- more importantly, how did I end up with someone so wonderfully strange. God, I love him. And I tell him that. And I keep saying it, again and again and again. I'll keep saying it as we pick out our wedding bands and as we promise ourselves to each other till death do we part and I'll keep saying it until the world stops spinning.

"We're both a little broken. We're both a little messy. Who am I kidding- we're both a lot broken and a lot messy. Love won't fix that. A wedding won't fix that. But maybe being together and being broken and messy is easier than being alone and messy." Michael's rambling now and the only thought in my mind is:

God, I love this ridiculous man. Michael.

It's funny because it's true.

#sprolden #michael x tori #tori spring #michael holden #solitaire #alice oseman #solitaire alice oseman #victoria spring #proposal #fake proposal #alternate pov

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mrsfrecklesmarauders · 9 months

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Sirius wasn't surprised that people fancied him. It wasn't that Sirius was cocky. But he was aware of his beauty. He had grown up to be pleasing to look at. All his family was like that. They were blessed with beauty. It was all genes. But that wasn't all that Sirius was. He was more than a pretty face.

He knew people around him wanted him because of what he looked like, what he represented, what he was. But none of them actually knew Sirius. If they really did, they wouldn't like him.

Sirius was a mess. Sirius was annoying, reckless, selfish. He destroyed everything he touched. He didn't think before speaking, before acting. He was difficult to be around. Walburga had said it. And she was right. Who would want him, really want him, with his stupid temper? His beauty wasn't worth all of that.

Sirius had let himself go with his girlfriends. But soon enough he discovered they always wanted something from him. He was beautiful. He was sexy. He was a fine lover. A sex symbol. A piece of meat. A piece of art.

Perhaps they all had loved what Sirius represented. What his parents had made of him. The reputation he had built for himself. Handsome, cool, funny, sexy Sirius. And sure, Sirius was beautiful. But some day he would stop being it. And then, what would it be left?

That was why Sirius hated himself for falling for Remus. It had been easy to flirt with girls, perhaps fool around with them. They didn't mean anything for Sirius so it didn't hurt that perhaps they used him. That perhaps all they saw was a pretty boy.

But loving Remus was different. Remus meant everything for Sirius. He was a special friend for him. They had become so close lately. And Sirius didn't want to lose him.

That Remus kissed him wasn't odd. Sirius knew that if Remus was gay, he would be swooned by his gorgeous looks. But the thing was that Remus would never love Sirius the same way. Not really. Remus deserved better. And soon he would find someone else. And Sirius would be left with a broken heart.

Sirius couldn't take Remus out of his mind. He was bloody scared of how much he cared for Remus. And he was scared of how much his heart beat when he was around, how much he thought about kissing him. How long he stared. How much he wanted Remus to be happy.

Lately, Sirius didn't find anyone else attractive. As much as girls flirted with him, he didn't want anyone else but Remus. And that sucked.

"Hey, gorgeous..."

Megan was very pretty. But one of the girls that saw Sirius as if he was some delicious piece of cake. And he was tired of that.

When he came out for a smoke, he was hoping Remus would follow him. But he didn't. Megan apparently did.

"Hey Meg"

Megan was drunk. Her makeup was all ragged. She held a cup on her hand. And she could barely stand still.

"You're here, Sirius..." she said as she touched his arm "You are... here..."

"Yes..."

Sirius was eyeing to the where the party noises were coming from. He was hoping, begging God or a divine force for some one to come and get her. Didn't she had a friend who was always with her?

She came closer and Sirius took a step back.

"You're like a beautiful painting, you know that?" she said, taking a sip of her drink "I cannot take my eyes off you..."

"Thank you, darling. So do you" he winked.

Sirius was acting cool as always. He gave her a smile. But he was searching for ways to escape.

"I f-f-fancy you..." Megan mumbled, letting out a hiccup.

'You don't know me' Sirius wanted to say. But he didn't.

"You are drunk, Meg" he said instead "Let's get you some water..."

Sirius was being patient. He wanted to take her back to the party but Meg pushed him away.

"No! You don't understand!" she exclaimed, she was swaying dizzily "I... I..." she sighed desperately "I cannot take it anymore. I really want to kiss you" she smiled. And something about that smile was evil for Sirius "Do you want to kiss me?"

In other circumstances, and perhaps if she wasn't this drunk, Sirius would've snogged her for a bit. Just to feel something. Perhaps act like this Casanova in front of James. But Sirius didn't see the point anymore. She wouldn't be worth it. She wouldn't be Remus.

"Sorry Meg but..."

"I think we have amazing chemistry, don't we?" Megan laughed. She sounded insane.

Honestly, Sirius had only been nice with her. That was all.

"Oh God! Just fucking kiss me, you wanker!"

Megan pushed him against the wall. In the meantime, dropping boose on his trousers. Sirius cursed and dropped the finished cigarette on the floor. Megan was all over him.

"No! Meg, please!"

Sirius hated how vulnerable and scared he sounded. Like he was about to cry.

Megan tried to kiss his mouth but Sirius looked away. She had a terrible alcohol breath.

She giggled at that and began kissing his neck instead.

"Oh Sirius..."

"Megan..."

Sirius wanted desperately this to end. He wanted to push her away. But she was drunk and he didn't want to be rude. She was a girl after all.

"Kiss me now!"

Megan stole a kiss from Sirius. Sirius didn't even respond but her lips were everywhere and her tongue moved widely.

Sirius was trying to protest but his mouth was rather busy. This was definitely a nightmare.

But Sirius didn't know how to end it. He just felt a strong knot on his throat. And he was disgusted to the taste of alcohol and Doritos he was experiencing.

"Oh! Sorry to interrupt!"

That voice made Sirius came to his senses. He pulled away from the kiss. And there he saw him. None other than Remus Lupin was there. He looked embarrassed and disappointed. He was looking at Sirius like he always did when Sirius did or said something stupid.

"Moony!"

Sirius felt like he wanted to cry. Remus should be the one he was supposed to kiss. Because Sirius was falling for him. Sirius fancied him. Not fucking Megan.

Megan who was laughing again. And if it wasn't for the fact that she was wrapped around Sirius, she would've fallen to the floor.

Remus smiled slightly.

"Sorry... Carry on"

Then he shook his head at Sirius as if it was a joke. It wasn't. And Remus left. He fucking left! How could Sirius' friend leave him in this uncomfortable situation?

"Ooops"

Megan giggled before attacking Sirius' neck again. But this time Sirius wouldn't take it. He had had enough. He didn't want to be here. He wanted to go after Remus. He wanted to clarify things. And tell Remus he was the one he wanted.

"Fucking stop, Megan!"

And Sirius pushed her so hard that her dizziness dragged her to the floor.

"Leave me alone!!"

Megan didn't look happy anymore. She had tears in her eyes. She looked like a lost puppy. As beautiful as before.

"Meg?"

There she was. Late. Megan's friend. That tiny black girl whose name Sirius didn't remember.

"Chloee!" Megan whined.

Oh right. Chloe. Megan was crying already. And Sirius' heart was still beating fast. He felt disgusted and guilty.

Chloe kneeled down next to her friend.

"Oh Meg, are you alright?" she asked, then she looked at Sirius with hate "What did you do to her?"

This didn't look good. So Sirius was the villain in this scenario. Of course.

Sirius swallowed.

"She was bonkers and drunk..." Sirius tried to defend himself. But it all sounded like bullshit.

"You are a disgusting asshole!" Chloe yelled as Megan cried on her shoulder.

"Who the hell pushes a lady to the floor? You are such a pig! Probably wanted to get advantage of her!"

"Shut up!"

"Bloody wanker!"

Sirius needed to get away fast. The knot on his throat felt stronger and stronger.

"I'm sorry" he whispered as he walked away.

He heard Megan vomiting on the floor. And her friend cursed.

"Don't touch my friend ever again!" she yelled after him.

But Sirius moved faster.

Back at the party, Sirius was desperately searching for Remus. But he couldn't find him. And he desperately wanted to cry.

Sirius even bumped into James at some point.

"Mate!" he smiled until he noticed Sirius' pale expression "Are you okay?"

"Have you seen Remus?" Sirius yelled over the music.

James looked concerned.

"What happened?"

"Have you seen him?" Sirius insisted.

"I think he left to the dorm" James answered carefully "He said he was tired"

Sirius was already moving towards there. He ignored James calling after him. Sirius hoped he wasn't following. He wanted to speak to Remus alone.

When Sirius got to their dorm, he was lucky to find Remus alone. He was just coming out of the loo, wearing pijamas.

"Moony..."

"Oh! Hi, Sirius" Remus smiled.

"Why did you leave?"

Sirius sounded desperate.

Remus shrugged.

"I was tired" he said "McGonagall will come and end it soon anyway..."

"I am sorry..." Sirius wanted to cry. He wanted to cry so badly.

Remus raised an eyebrow.

"About Megan..."

Remus snorted. And Sirius hated that.

"I don't care about who you snog, Sirius..."

"I didn't want to kiss her!" Sirius was yelling now "I didn't want to kiss her Remus!!" then he began sobbing because he couldn't take it anymore "I really didn't want to kiss her, Remus"

Remus' expression softened. He immediately closed the gap between them wrapping his arms around Sirius.

Sirius sobbed a little on Remus' shoulder. He smelled just right. Chocolate and mint. Probably for the toothpaste.

"It's okay, Pads..." Sirius adored the way Remus stroked his hair "It's okay..."

Sirius was restless. He had sobbed. But no tears dropped. And the knot on his throat didn't disappear.

Sirius pushed Remus away.

"You kissed me last term!"

They hadn't talked about it since it happened. It was Sirius' fault for avoiding the subject and pushing Remus away.

"Why?"

Remus looked concerned.

"Because I wanted to"

"Because I am handsome? Because I am beautiful and you are attracted to me because you are gay?"

Remus shook his head carefully.

"I mean you are beautiful but there's more to you than that..."

Sirius desperately pulled him in for a kiss. But Remus immediately pushed him away. And Sirius was grateful. He was disgusted with himself. He had done the same thing that Meg that done with him.

"Sorry..." Sirius cried.

"It's okay" Remus smiled "Perhaps just try to calm down first..."

Sirius kept looking at the floor. Still feeling the need to cry.

"Come on Pads..." Remus said carefully. And his voice made Sirius feel safe "Lay down with me for a second"

Remus sat down in bed waiting for Sirius. Sirius hesitated for a second. But he followed Remus in bed. They laid down staring at each other.

Sirius was calming down, except for his heart that was betraying him and beating fast.

"Are you okay?"

Sirius nodded.

Remus stroked his hair again and Sirius closed his eyes at the touch.

"Moony..."

"Mhmm?"

"Would you like me if I was ugly?"

Remus chuckled.

"What kind of question is that?"

"Would you?"

"Of course! You are my best friend, Pads" Remus said with a smile on his voice "I don't care if you are ugly or not"

Sirius opened his eyes. He couldn't believe Remus' words.

"I am a mess... The reason people like me is because I am pretty and belong to a rich family" Sirius' eyes filled with tears at those words.

"That's not true" Remus answered.

"What else there is about me?"

Remus smiled, still stroking Sirius' hair.

"You are an amazing friend" he said "You are fun, you are smart, you have such a vibrant personality. You fight for what you believe. You are different than your family"

Sirius was overwhelmed by those words. His chest burned. This couldn't be normal.

"You are the one who is amazing, Moony" Sirius said "You shouldn't fancy me"

"Who said I fancy you?"

Remus smiled and Sirius smiled consequently.

There were silent for a while. Remus played with Sirius' hair.

"I fancy you" Sirius swallowed nervously. His heart was going to run out of his chest any minute. It was so intense he had a hard time breathing.

"I fancy you"

Remus scooped closer. Sirius got out of breath for a second.

"I really want to kiss you" Sirius whispered.

"Do it" Remus said looking at Sirius' lips.

Sirius took a deep breath before leaning in and giving Remus the most delicate kiss. Even that made wonders to Sirius' heart.

They kissed more intensely now. And the way Remus' fingers ran through Sirius' hair, and the way he was holding his waist, made him feel loved. Not used. Not used at all.

Sirius and Remus broke apart after a while. They both were smiling like a pair of idiots.

"This is weird" Sirius said after a chuckle.

"Why?"Remus was still smiling.

"Because we are friends..." Sirius answered "And I don't know if I am gay... I don't know what I am..."

"It's okay..." Remus caressed his cheek "You don't have to figure out that now"

"Could we... Could we not tell the others?" Sirius asked carefully "I need some time to figure things out"

Remus smiled. A smile so genuine and pretty. Remus was so gorgeous when he smiled like that.

"Okay, take your time"

Sirius smiled as he placed his head on Remus' chest. He realized Remus' heart was as loud or worse than his. And he loved that.

"Can I lay here with you for a while?"

"What if James or Peter walk in?"

Sirius shrugged.

"I'll pretend to be drunk or something"

He actually couldn't care less right now.

Remus giggled.

"Okay, Padfoot"

Sirius smiled as he felt Remus touching his hair again.

It felt so nice to be taken care of, to feel loved, to feel this comfortable with someone. Sirius didn't only feel beautiful on the outside, sexualized, he also felt pretty on the inside as well. And that was ten times better.

Sirius was falling for Remus hard. And he was afraid to admit it just yet.

#marauders #maraudersera #sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #wolfstar microfic #best friends to lovers

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bimormondisaster · 2 years

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Hi.

Y'know on your bio how you've got that you're a big/little sibling to whoever needs it? I guess I'm asking for that.

I'm just very upset right now because of how much I want to date, marry and spend the rest of my life with someone of the same sex and yet how even thinking about wanting that feels like a blatant disregard of everything the church teaches.

I just want a partner and to be happy and I can't have that. I can't be happy like a straight couple can in this gospel simply because I'm not straight. (And it seems so unfair, so vastly unfair because why do they get to be happy and I can't because I'm queer why--)

I don't know where the line is, if there is a line. Can I date someone of the same sex or would that be outright breaking the law of chastity? Can I kiss them? Can I hold their hand? Is it just the sex part that we can't do? Can I have any part of this at all within the church's hoops to jump through for queers?

Part of me wants to hold out because I want exhalation, but I don't know if the gender of your partner matters getting there in God's perspective. Certainly in certain church leader's, which just makes me want to give up and date someone of the same sex anyway because I'm not going to get the higher blessings regardless of what I do because God already set queer people apart to fail, in Elder Oak's logic.

I don't know. I'm very confused and conflicted and I just wanted to get this off my chest.

Sorry. Hopefully this wasn't annoying. :/

Hey Anon!

You're not bothering me at all! I hope I can give you some hope in my response. I've been where you are, I sometimes still am (although now I am dating a wonderful woman it still comes up) it is an endless uphill climb but I have some stuff that might make it a little easier!

So at the moment, the church has the same stance on queer couples as straight couples before marriage. That is to say, dating, holding hands, kissing, and things like that are allowed. The law of chastity is broken when the couple has sex. So you can date! However, I'll warn you that depending on your ward and area, it might make church life hard for you since it often isn't socially acceptable.

In my experience it's been awkward coming out at church, most members don't know I'm queer let alone that I'm dating a woman but even still I've had to deal with a lot of talking and being outed behind my back. It is messy and really hard so I'd suggest if you're thinking about dating talk it through with Heavenly Father (and Heavenly Mother if you want). Also about marriage, if you end up getting married eventually it doesn't necessarily mean you will be excommunicated (even if you are that doesn't mean you can't continue to attend church meetings) Questions from the Closet had a wonderful podcast episode with two married gay men who are still active. It personally gave me a lot of hope.

Being a queer member is hard. But your Heavenly Family loves you and you have support and allies. The one thing I can recommend is to go at everything, especially when it comes to things like dating, with your Heavenly Father because if you know it and They know it it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

#queerstake #tumblrstake #ask answered #asks

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felikatze · 1 year

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Hi I hate downloading programs and spending money but I’m very interested in your fire emblem guys. Do you have any advice as to how I can best look into more details about them?

You are at the correct address, friend. You say you hate downloading programs but alas it is the best way to not spend money.

In the following you will find a basic summary of FEA, an abridged 3DS emulation guide, and whatever else abt FEA i word vomited.

This got long.

Basic Gist: My Guys (this is the second time someone has called them that, amazing) are Chrom and Robin from Fire Emblem Awakening for the 3DS. If you just want the basics, you can watch a let's play of them, I guess? I used this cutscene compilation to check things for my. fea fanfic. and god bless it is a playthrough where chrom and robin are married because it just makes the story better. it does.

If you don't know shit about FEA: Chrom, prince of the halidom of Ylisse, finds an amnesiac tactician out in a field. They, Robin, join his militia, the Shepherds. The group sets off to combat a new threat of zombies. At the same time, they attempt to solve the mystery of "Marth", a masked person who came through a weird portal together with the zombies.

Listen man you know who "Marth" is. I don't need to tell you.

If you don't know shit about Fire Emblem: FE is an SRPG fantasy series frequently referred to as "anime chess" because it is. It has a permadeath mechanic (if a unit dies, they r gone forever) but newer games, including FEA, also include a non-permanent death mode. The choice is yours.

The writing: certainly questionable sometimes. The Valm Arc™ is kind of famous as filler, because a new character gets to be protagonist for a few chapters. Say'ri, you're neat an' all, but do we need to do this?

Disclaimers: fea is kinda colorist. Which if you know fire emblem is (deep sigh) to be expected. Why are only non-playable Plegian characters brown and all the playable ones white? You know why.

Side characters rely heavily on gimmicks to define them which is either endearing or annoying. Depends on you. Also there is a loli dragon and I've seen THREE separate mods that redesign her. God people hate nowi's design (i'm people)

The game has a marriage mechanic. If two characters reach Support Rank S, they get married (straight married only though there IS a gay mod). Then their time traveling kid from the future shows up. You can have Chrom and Robin get married in-game (if Robin is a girl. I specifically picked F!Robin to do so) but they will REGARDLESS be the sappiest bitches on earth about each other. Even if they are married to other people. It can feel kind of awkward, I'd imagine.

Despite my disclaimers I will say that I was overall engaged with FEA's story on a moment to moment basis; it moves at a brisk pace without dragging, I found the emotional conceit at the heart of it all deeply compelling, and I overall just had a lot of fun.

With a cutscene comp you get the usual drawbacks: no side content. Some of the supports (optional conversations between characters) are fucking hilarious (looking at henry) and you also miss out on paralogues (sidequests) which include the second generation characters besides Lucina (my daughter whom I love).

If it's 3DS emulation you're looking for, Citra is your best friend. It's available for both PC, both Windows and Linux, though I have better experience on the former. It also has an Android App now, and from my scant experience with it, it runs great. Citra is definetly the No. 1 3DS emulator. No competition.

If your PC isn't on the higher end, fiddle with settings until you get to a grade of chugging that you're comfy with. I don't know what i did to get the game run smooth. Set audio to mono though bcuz it cuts out echo from lag.

As for a totally legit copy of Awakening, my usual go to vimm's lair doesn't have it, but the Reddit Roms Megathread does. Reddit is the best piracy help site fr.

Awakening Rom: Here. It's in alphabetical order, so scroll down to F till you find it. Or use the search bar.

Awakening DLC: Here. Same as above, use the search bar. Europe or USA version at your discretion.

If Citra complains that the files are encrypted: use the Batch Cia Decryptor. It's for windows.

DLC can be installed via the handy dandy "Add DLC" button citra has. I recommend dlc solely because the Future Past dlc has soo much Grima characterization that makes me go rabid. Highly recommend. I watched cutscenes of this one because I'm not smart enough to actually beat it.

When playing on Citra, I recommend turning off battle animations, since they're the laggiest part to emulate. Without them, my game ran smooth.

If you specifically want to see Chrobin, you will get more than enough of them in the base game. If you want to see my babygirl grima, you will likely question my choice in blorbos from base game alone.

There's also Fire Emblem Heroes, the mobile game, which has the famous day of devotion Chrobin duo unit, but: not worth it.

On gameplay tips: I'm very bad at strategy games. FEA is toughest early game in my opinion. Use Frederick liberally for his high defense stat until he's trash mid-game. Pair up is busted. If you pair Lon'qu up with someone who gives him + Speed (like Panne <- I am biased toward this pairing) he is basically unhittable.

Chrom and Robin are both very good units who will SHRED. robin's future kid morgan also shreds. #morgansweep. there's like. a whole skill inheritance system and like ideal parent combos for good stats or whatever but I got by fine ignoring it. i benched basically all of the second gen units except morgan and lucina. rip to them.

The base game can be vry easy it's just the dlc that is Very Difficult <- looked dlc up on youtube.

Additional Chrobin content includes, once again FEH, but i mainly just look at the art anyway, Fire Emblem Warriors (solid mid tier game but high tier co-op chaos experience with extremely garbage plot), and most recently the Fire Emblem Engage DLC, where Chrom and Robin get to chill in a bracelet as ghosts together. I don't have engage i just (once again) looked it up on youtube.

If you do decide to play FEA and like it, i will recommend you my favorite chrobin fics in a heartbeat. And, god forbid, you like Grima a smidgen as much as I do, i have. so many thoughts about him. And fic recs. Chrom/Grima ficrecs even. I love chrobin and chrom/grima equally because [if my incessant posting didn't spoil this twist i will be geniuenly suprised.]

TLDR:

watch cutscenes of FEA on youtube or emulate it ig. have fun.

#Feli gets asked #this is very long because i am a very verbose person #long post

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tsuki-sennin · 2 years

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Reviiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice

We're approaching the end of the world. ...for like the... 23rd time in a row. And it falls to us to save it! All on Kamen Rider Revice, Episode 35! ...I uh... heard through the grapevine that there was a bit of an anti-climax, but hopefully it should still be fun! Spoilers, I guess...

-Ah yes, Daiji getting sonned every episode.

-Hikaru-kun! ...you uh... aren't

-Oh, Dad's too tired, huh? Must've been out drinking again.

-"Despair into nothingness! Despair into your tomorrow! Despair into your memories!"

-"You wouldn't hurt your Uncle Hide, would you, Dai-chan~? :3"

-Man, say what you will about Akaishi, but Jun Hashimoto's really giving it his best. Easily one of the best performances in the whole show.

-Oh, I see Akaishi got glowy eyes in the intro. ...they were probably there the whole time but I missed them lmao.

-Y'know man, I'm starting to think Fenix is a lost cause.

-Man, the quietness of these shots... masterpiece, I tell you.

-I'm surprised you can breathe after all that, man.

-I love how Ikki's first bit of dialogue towards Vice makes him think he's in trouble. That's some powerful vulnerability right there.

-"Ooooooh, I wish I could kick those guys asses for you, Sakura."

-"But you know I'm unbeatable, right?"

-Weird to get quality gay stuff right after that intense chat, but...

-Guess we gotta beat them up.

-Keeling over for Gifu is hardly a better alternative to dying at Akaishi and Vail's hands, but considering the Deadmans' reach, I wouldn't be surprised if the vote was swayed in their favor.

-"Hikaru-kuuuuun :D"

-"Go away >:("

-"Oh okay, I'll sit here then, haha :)"

-Man, Tamaki's really doing his best for us all. God bless.

-That's right, Hikaru-kun! Even an ordinary joe schmoe like you can inspire change~!

-"Wow, they don't even think we're annoying, that stings :("

-If they overwhelm us by refusing to play fair, then why should we?

-"I'm worried about you, Daiji. There's"

-So, a side effect of Kagerou's disappearance seems to be that Daiji's unwilling to "cheat" his way to saving everyone. And that's clouding his judgement on what his goals even are.

-"Mmmmmmm, Akaishi juice."

-Wow, Akaishi's really got his deal on lock. He didn't even hesitate to take the stamp off.

-Fuuuuuck, that Gifu suit is scary.

-"Hey uh.... you're not gonna ditch me, right Ikki?"

-He doesn't even wanna do bad things aaaaaaaaah

-Man... taming and ditching the toxic traits you inherit from your cruel father to become a kinder person and follow your dreams... that's a powerful character arc.

-Unwavering in his principles, Daiji Igarashi chooses to fight on as he prepares one more plan.

-Uhhhhhh, Daiji, I know you've been pretty reckless these past few episodes, but this is a bit much, isn't it? I mean, Akaishi's been at this for a long time, I think attacking him on camera is a stupid idea, especially if your plan is just to expose him. This guy's literally bullet proof.

-"Ohhhhh, boy Dai-chan~! I can't wait for you to witness Uncle Hide's super epic livestream~! Eeeeeverybody's gonna tune in~!"

-Oh my god, I was just kidding, what the hell was that Apollo Geist looking-ass motherfucker's walk lol

-Man, those shots...

-oH my god, he's making Daiji protect him on air to make his point.

-Oh my god, the fake panicking.

-"IT'S HIM! IT'S HIIIIIM! HE'S HERE!"

-HE ATE THEM ALL

-INSTANTLY

-"Heeeeey, son~!"

-"FUCK YOU DAD, WE'RE GONNA KICK YOUR ASS!"

-Go for it, everyone!

-Ultimate Raid Boss Gifu-sama.

-"AHHHHHHH-"

-"OHhhhhhh nooooo, I'm dyyyyying~!"

-That was a masterful false flag op, goddamn.

-Oooooooh, they gettin' artifacted!

-Holy shit that looks painful.'

-Aaaand, down goes Skybase!

-Just like that.

-"We... lost... blegh..."

-Ohhhhh, here he comes!

-Kuwagata? Stag Beetle!

-Gattack? :o

-Over Demons.

-Huh... it's Vail's awesome Kabuto Armor put over the Demons undersuit... I saw a lot of people complaining about the design when it was first revealed, but I kinda warmed up to it, actually. I like the contrast of the colors, the way the

-Uh, yeah, Gifu's just here now. With Akemi and Vail too. Surprise~!

-Hikaru got approval from his fake dad :)

-"Fuck it, we're going public. C'mon Weekenders, let's fight for humanity without regrets!" -Masumi Karizaki

-Daiji, c'mon man.

-Aaaaand, Kuwagata. Only three new stamps left.

-Okay, I don't... hate the idea that Hikaru becomes the new Demons, the way a lot of people seem to. Sure, I would've preferred it if Hiromi finally came back, or even if George decided to grapple with his desire to wear the Driver, but Hikaru's not the worst new Rider I can think of. I understand you may be disappointed, but honestly I'm for this. Any development with Hikaru is welcome, since if he's gonna be a fixture of the cast, he at least should be more interesting than he is. The last time I checked his character entry on TV Tropes, he had one trope associated with him. Now, that is by no means an accurate or full assessment of his character, but he could stand to have some dimension beyond "Ohhhh fuuuuuuck, Sakura!"

-Next episode!

-FUCKERS TOOK TAMAKI, CAN'T HAVE SHIT IN DETROIT

-Looks like Gen-chan's back~!

-Ooooooooh, Tamaki-kun transforms! :O

-...at least, I hope this isn't a fakeout.

-Is that the... Buffalo Stamp? That's based on OOO, isn't it? Good taste, man!

-Wait, no, IS THAT A RETOOLED LIBERA DRIVER?! :OOO

-YOOOOO

-Okay, I think that our next Stamp Sheet Mark is, indeed, Buffalo. That just leaves us two left to wonder about.

-I have a few theories about what those may be.

Assuming the new Libera Driver-like belt isn't just for Tamaki, and is part of some mass production plan like the Demons Driver was said to be last episode, I'm willing to bet we get to see Hana be a Rider at some point, with her own Vistamp. Notice how the plastic flame thingy on the driver kinda looks like dripping honey, and Hana used to use the Queen Bee Vistamp... I'd be very down for that, by the way. It might be a KickHopper/PunchHopper kinda deal, or like Haruto's Mage apprentices in Wizard where they're working directly under Sakura and learning from her as they fight alongside her. My question is though... if Hana and Tamaki are indeed both becoming Riders in the coming episodes, is this Driver made specifically for former Giftexes with terminated contracts? Or are there perhaps more adorable marketable inner demons that we can take advantage of? Are we gonna see my man's true hidden buffalo calf spirit? Did he transform his fursona?

Kagerou makes a surprise return! Not in the next episode, obviously, but I do think he, and by extension Evil, will be coming back in some form. Toei has a history of letting badass mechanics go underutilized, but the way Kinoshita's writing Daiji being so singleminded on doing things as morally as possible, I do believe that a return from Evil is indeed likely.

They fill out Hikaru as Over Demons's Genomixes. This is probably the one I'd enjoy the least, considering how many are already available for Hikaru to use, but I think it is also unfortuately very likely. Like I said, I don't hate Hikaru as Demons, but I'd like him to prove himself before he gets any more fancy upgrades.

The Ultimate Revice Stamp (working title). This is pretty self-explanatory, this would be in the final twelve or so episodes, where Ikki and Vice fully affirm their partnership and go Super Saiyan God Super Saiyan Ultra Instinct Ego or whatever. I think this is a certainty, but hey, maybe Toei will surprise me.

Gifu's Personal Vistamp for when he becomes the final boss Rider. I'm not trying to predict the show's endgame or anything like that, but I will say, I do think Akaishi solidifying his contract with Gifu in a way reminiscent of Ikki and Vice would make a really cool finale stretch.

Anyways, enough theories from me, SomecallmeJohnny uploaded a big video of him reviewing a bunch of crappy licensed games sent to him by fans over the years. Sorry, this is way more important to me than the world being destroyed by demons.

#kr revice #revice spoilers #revive the vice: imprinted like stamps and fossils #kamen rider revice #kamen rider

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hamletkin · 4 years

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I was fixing my hair

richie: @beepbeepbarista

eddie: @flora-dox

#richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #Stanley uris #stanley uris cosplay #richie tozier cosplay #eddie kaspbrak cosplay #it 2017 #reddie #i love gay people but you're all so annoying. God bless.

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theyarebothgunshot · 3 years

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I would LOVE you to do this big analysis. Mishdee anon, you're a blessing - tea anon

omg i love you <3 more after the cut

ahh im so glad you weren't offended by me asking you to do more timelines and that other people are into the idea too!! this is exciting lmao. i almost didn't send that ask because i didn't want to like annoy you but now im glad i did! plus i think it will help with the lack of new content rn and it will be helpful for newbies. i love this little community too. we are all so unwell for being so invested in two old celebrity men's relationship but i wouldnt have it any other way truly <3 also im a lesbian (so extra funny that im so invested ajklsg what can i say i love gay love) and i agree that jensen has thee most chaotic bi energy i've ever witnessed i dont understand how some people don't see it tbh. he can be just as loud as misha just in a different way in my opinion - mishdee anon

i am SO happy that you see the bi jensen energy, thank you much for your input bestie sjhfsdh

ROSE! YES WE WANT MORE timelines and cockles analyses! please I will read it 57 times and I WILL cry over it and if you won't mind I will squeal about it in your inbox!! Obviously no pressure, take your time I KNOW it's a lot of work but WE DEFINITELY WANT IT!! Your baby cockles timeline was <33 😍🥰❤️ perfect!

Also: Jensen talking to mish about angels and calling him his irl angel you're killing me again 💕. I'm remembering him singing heaven now... my god that was my first emotional breakdown in your ask box ...good times.. jensen singing just gets me emotional but jensen singing Heaven or Angeles now that makes me feel what some people would call one of the shrimp emotions. also that video you rb-ed of him singing the Weight and being nervous and cute about it he's so CUTE and now think of how Misha once (though kind of absentmindedly/jokingly but STILL) said Jensen sings to him all the time and imagine them being alone, and misha asks him to sing and jensen is kinda insecure about it but it's mish so of course he gets his guitar and sings Angeles to him, because he IS his real life angel, no I am NOT okay, yes I am almost crying rn -🐸

bby i want you to know that i def cried when i saw this vid (it was 'jensen singing through out the years' and it started with ANGELES!!! straight out murder) anyways yes yes yes

YOU KNOW I WONT MIND YOU IN MY INBOX!

please do squeal in my inbox!!!!! god i feel like we’re on the same wavelength when it comes to cockles and that just feels right, ya know? honestly: frog anon if you ever wanna dm me, please do, i promise i’m nice!!! (but if not no hard feelings!!!! i just wanted to put it out there because we click so much sjfhsdjf)

#tea anon #frog anon

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nnq · 5 years

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modern!au k(lance)

they're all in their 20's except for Shiro who's 30 and coran who's 50

first of all. miss me with that 'pining roommate' shit. I love miscommunication and making characters that r sexy bffs with one another

Lance meets Nyma through a Craigslist ad he put up saying he needed a roommate. the moment they met was a tragedy for everyone but them because they're that powerful and beautiful

lance with tousled hair, wearing a half-unbuttoned silk shirt and designer jeans, Michael kors sunglasses pushed up atop his head, arm wrapped around nyma: hi guys this is my roommate, nyma!

nyma, with her blonde 3-ft long box braids down her back, perfectly manicured red nails, bodycon dress and loubitons, hand on lances waist: hey

allura, shaking and on the verge of tears: STOP MAKING US LOOK POOR AND UGLY

Lance is in school for marine biology and Nyma works as a hairdresser and the both of them are small beauty gurus on YouTube that collab with one another

lance: hey guys we're going to be trying out the new anastasia pallete we got today :)!

nyma: and by got we mean shoplifted from sephora

lance: NYMA YOU CAN'T JUST SAY THAT

they're also insta baddies and both gender non-conforming baddies. Nyma is a nonbinary lesbian icon and lance is a nonbinary bicon.... those are like the fucking BEST senses of style

anyone with eyes can see that nyma is into and ONLY into girls but of course... heteronormativity.

rolo: I still don't get why you're dating lance. he's super annoying.

nyma: he doesn't bitch nearly as much as you even when he's got my cock in his ass

they do this thing where when people assume they're a couple they pretend they're some kind of kink couple and freak everyone out

which is why when hunk and pidge meet nyma they're like :eyes: but when nyma flirts with pidge lance doesn't even bat an eye and then lance starts pining about Keith's greasy mullet and his bags under his eyes and nymas got this look on her face that perfectly resembles a man who's lost all sense of normalcy and righteousness in his life and now sits in a bar every night listening to this dumb romance novel type shit and then pidge and hunk are like. oh. no they're just gay.

speaking of keith. he's one of those gays. one of the quirky emo gays that never sleeps and listens to 'coffee and cigarettes' on repeat and has like 3 strings of lights in his room and not only is an art major but ALSO a photographer. and yet somehow he still has the will to wake up at 5 am every morning and go to the gym like some kind of HEATHEN.

Lance knew Keith in high school for 3 years until he got expelled for fighting at the end of his junior year. He was also universally crushed on and was the bad boy jock of the school with a heart of gold so naturally Lance pretended to despise him so he could pine for him in peace

that all goes down the drain when Lance recognizes Keith in one of his classes and goes through the five stages of grief because a) he's hot and b) Lance is openly bi now so he doesn't have an escuse to not tolerate him

(He wasn't gonna do anything about it until he was put in a group with Keith a few weeks into class and he off handedly mentioned he went to Keiths high school, and Keith claimed he didn't remember him, and Lance was just a tad bit upset but was gonna leave it at that except after like 5 days of working together Keith slams his fists into the table and is like 'HOLY FUCK LANCE MCCLAIN?' And Lance is like. w. What.)

turns out Keith does remember lance. very vividly, actually. because he was the guy that everyone kind of had a crush on because he was so nice and charming to everyone he met, and Keith was SO gone for him. he just didn't recognize him tbh, which makes sense, bcuz in high school lance wore blue contacts and had straight hair and now he just wears glasses occasionally and leaves his hair wavy. Keith is gay and stupid don't blame him

keith, bursting into Shiro and Adams apartment at 2 pm: SHIRO HOLY FUCK

adam, bags under his eyes, underneath the covers of him and shiros bed: good fucking god not again

I'm tired of talking about ppl other than Lance and nyma though so I'm gonna talk about them for a bit because im love

as I said Lance has wavy hair and his actual eye color is brown but as he was growing up he was hella insecure about it that's why he wore blue contacts.... nyma caught him once trying to put them on again and put an end to All That Real Quick

nyma has brown eyes too and they're super dark, almost black, and that shits breathtaking bro. she usually has her real hair dyed blonde all the time and permed but she also likes to wear wigs and get braids too because she knows she looks damn good in them. everyone is jealous.

lance has tons of super light freckles. Enough said. nyma has a birthmark on her hip that's kind of shaped like a horse if you look at it from the right way

lance: you were a horse girl as a kid weren't u

nyma: how fucking dare. how fucking dare you say that. I really do have to laugh.......

nyma: obviously I was a warrior cats stan

lance's sense of fashion ranges from 'i went to California for a week once and now I can't stop wearing sweatpants and slides' to 'It's surprising I haven't gotten robbed at this point'. Lance is a scholarship baby so all the money he saved up through countless jobs and the one he already has at a coffee shop almost exclusively goes to clothes and kombucha

Nymas sense of style is definitely more on the eccentric side but since she looks good in EVERYTHING she gets away with it. think dollskill but with more neon colors and designer. she's the kind of person that never wears the same shade of lipstick for a whole month and has a box full of makeup palletes that are almost untouched and everyone who has seen it is both jealous and in wonder FENTYWAYS...

Keith goes over to lance's apartment for a project of sorts and immediately assumes that Lance and Nyma are a thing (they're very platonically affectionate, Nyma will kiss lance's cheek and they cuddle sometimes) which is disappointing but it's not a surprise considering Lance is so Lance and everyone else acts like they are dating so that must be the case, right?

lmao you thought.

nyma: holy shit. holy Fuck. God, allura is so hot. I would probably die if she brushed past me. I would die happily knowing I've been blessed by the touch of an angel.

lance: yeah haha she's really pretty.

keith, struggling to not choke on his coffee hearing All This at 9:31 A.M. in starbucks:

Keith asks if he can take photos of the two of them for his photography insta and they both jump on it so they can flex being sexy and afterwards Lance thanks him with a kiss on the cheek and Keith is sent REELING into gay mayhem.

lance: do you think that was like..... too much.

nyma: i think men are dumb that's what.

I mean u can't really blame Keith because Lance and Nyma are constantly joke-flirting with one another on social media and are in almost every one of the others photos in some way, or at least tagged, so by the time Keith actually works up the nerve to ask about that, it's been WEEKS since Lance kissed him and he's been miserably failing to ignore it

keith: so.... how's nyma doing?

lance: she's good! She's spent all day dying one of her wigs so she went for a coffee run lol. probably will hang with allura and shay later too

keith: and.... that doesn't make you jealous?

lance: LOL no.... they could never compete with me (talking about being Nyma's best friend)

keith: oh.... well, it's good that you trust each other a lot in your relationship.... you seem like a really good boyfriend

lance: wat the fuck did you just say.

as soon as lance explains that nyma is not his gf and they're just bffs Keith is like ohthankgod.jpg and almost accidentally asks lance on a date before he stops himself and is like.... dumb gay bitch calm DOOOWWWNN

after that it becomes very obvious that nyma and lance r just friends at least for Keith mostly through dumb shit they say to one another

lance, sitting with hunk, pidge, and Keith at the library: hey guys wanna see something cool.

pidge: go for it

lance, clearing his throat: she think she bad but I'm better, these bitches tryna play catch up-

nyma, coming out of nowhere: SHUT THE FUCK UP WHEN I'M TALKING LIL BITCH, PUT YO HEAD DOWN WHEN YOU TALK TO A PIMP-

Nyma and Lance have self-care nights every Friday, sometimes Allura or Shay will come, and very RARELY Keith if only to spend time with Lance. also? Allura and Shay are dating, die mad about it.

They do waxing, exfoliation, mud masks, moisturizing treatments, hair masks, painting nails.... need I go on. it's basically whatever they want to do that week and when Keith reluctantly agrees to participate one day Lance goes mental

lance: OK so here's what I'm thinking. it's obvious you haven't really had a self care day for a while, which is like, fine, you do you, but holy shit are your split ends bad. I was thinking maybe I could trim them and then we could do a hair mask? Oh! A face mask would be good as well, even though you've practically got perfect skin. I'd offer to wax but for first timers the pain is a bitch to handle on the face. I'm not sure if you'd be an acrylic kind of guy but I have some black nail polish that I could put on- wow, your hands are really big compared to mine, and they're so soft, haha, isn't that crazy? so what do you think?

keith, still reeling from the fact that lance is going to touch his hair, face, and hands in the next several hours: uh......yeah..... sounds great.

nyma, sitting on lance's bed in nothing but a bra and sweatpants, smoking a blunt and readjusting her sheet mask: *long exhale* christ

Shay got Lance into the whole healthy organic food thing and in turn he got Nyma into it so they're both the bitches who drink nothing but Fiji water and almond milk and will offer you a plate of sliced cucumbers and tomatoes as a snack. we Stan a vegan couple.

keith: these are actually really good.

nyma: we usually put them on our eyes, but go off I guess.

keith:

nyma: nah I'm just fucking with you, we have different cucumbers for that

by the end of the night Keith feels like he's been cleaned by a car wash and he's dizzy from all of lance's thoughtless affection and when lance says he can stay the night because it's already late, Keith mindlessly blurts out 'only if it's with you' and nymas like.... um. Wig.

keith, laying stiff as a board on one side of lance's bed: uh

lance: oh my God you gay bitch get over here and spoon me. also kiss me on the fucking lips bro.

Nyma owns a cat named Beezer that she stole from her old roommate (rolo) but calls her beebo because quote 'beezer is so fucking lame bro i hate men'. Lance owns a Russian blue mix called, you guessed it, Blue, that he found stuck in his apartments basement only a few days after moving in. Nyma and Lance are WEAK

lance: ohhhhh look at my pretty baby sitting on the table all cute and relaxed!!! look at that baby!!! fantastic stuff!

nyma, putting her head on beebos belly: You Are So Soft And So Chubby I Would Die For You

pidge would also die for the both of them

OK I'm tired and uninspired so I'll stop here but I MAY ADD MORE LATER

#klance #voltron #voltron tw #voltron au #lance #keith

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He knew people around him wanted him because of what he looked like, what he represented, what he was. But none of them actually knew Sirius. If they really did, they wouldn't like him.

But loving Remus was different. Remus meant everything for Sirius. He was a special friend for him. They had become so close lately. And Sirius didn't want to lose him.

Lately, Sirius didn't find anyone else attractive. As much as girls flirted with him, he didn't want anyone else but Remus. And that sucked.

"Hey, gorgeous..."

Megan was very pretty. But one of the girls that saw Sirius as if he was some delicious piece of cake. And he was tired of that.

When he came out for a smoke, he was hoping Remus would follow him. But he didn't. Megan apparently did.

"Hey Meg"

Megan was drunk. Her makeup was all ragged. She held a cup on her hand. And she could barely stand still.

"You're here, Sirius..." she said as she touched his arm "You are... here..."

"Yes..."

Sirius was eyeing to the where the party noises were coming from. He was hoping, begging God or a divine force for some one to come and get her. Didn't she had a friend who was always with her?

She came closer and Sirius took a step back.

"You're like a beautiful painting, you know that?" she said, taking a sip of her drink "I cannot take my eyes off you..."

"Thank you, darling. So do you" he winked.

Sirius was acting cool as always. He gave her a smile. But he was searching for ways to escape.

"I f-f-fancy you..." Megan mumbled, letting out a hiccup.

'You don't know me' Sirius wanted to say. But he didn't.

"You are drunk, Meg" he said instead "Let's get you some water..."

Sirius was being patient. He wanted to take her back to the party but Meg pushed him away.

"Sorry Meg but..."

"I think we have amazing chemistry, don't we?" Megan laughed. She sounded insane.

Honestly, Sirius had only been nice with her. That was all.

"Oh God! Just fucking kiss me, you wanker!"

Megan pushed him against the wall. In the meantime, dropping boose on his trousers. Sirius cursed and dropped the finished cigarette on the floor. Megan was all over him.

"No! Meg, please!"

Sirius hated how vulnerable and scared he sounded. Like he was about to cry.

Megan tried to kiss his mouth but Sirius looked away. She had a terrible alcohol breath.

She giggled at that and began kissing his neck instead.

"Oh Sirius..."

"Megan..."

Sirius wanted desperately this to end. He wanted to push her away. But she was drunk and he didn't want to be rude. She was a girl after all.

"Kiss me now!"

Megan stole a kiss from Sirius. Sirius didn't even respond but her lips were everywhere and her tongue moved widely.

Sirius was trying to protest but his mouth was rather busy. This was definitely a nightmare.

But Sirius didn't know how to end it. He just felt a strong knot on his throat. And he was disgusted to the taste of alcohol and Doritos he was experiencing.

"Oh! Sorry to interrupt!"

"Moony!"

Sirius felt like he wanted to cry. Remus should be the one he was supposed to kiss. Because Sirius was falling for him. Sirius fancied him. Not fucking Megan.

Megan who was laughing again. And if it wasn't for the fact that she was wrapped around Sirius, she would've fallen to the floor.

Remus smiled slightly.

"Sorry... Carry on"

Then he shook his head at Sirius as if it was a joke. It wasn't. And Remus left. He fucking left! How could Sirius' friend leave him in this uncomfortable situation?

"Ooops"

"Fucking stop, Megan!"

And Sirius pushed her so hard that her dizziness dragged her to the floor.

"Leave me alone!!"

Megan didn't look happy anymore. She had tears in her eyes. She looked like a lost puppy. As beautiful as before.

"Meg?"

There she was. Late. Megan's friend. That tiny black girl whose name Sirius didn't remember.

"Chloee!" Megan whined.

Oh right. Chloe. Megan was crying already. And Sirius' heart was still beating fast. He felt disgusted and guilty.

Chloe kneeled down next to her friend.

"Oh Meg, are you alright?" she asked, then she looked at Sirius with hate "What did you do to her?"

This didn't look good. So Sirius was the villain in this scenario. Of course.

Sirius swallowed.

"She was bonkers and drunk..." Sirius tried to defend himself. But it all sounded like bullshit.

"You are a disgusting asshole!" Chloe yelled as Megan cried on her shoulder.

"Who the hell pushes a lady to the floor? You are such a pig! Probably wanted to get advantage of her!"

"Shut up!"

"Bloody wanker!"

Sirius needed to get away fast. The knot on his throat felt stronger and stronger.

"I'm sorry" he whispered as he walked away.

He heard Megan vomiting on the floor. And her friend cursed.

"Don't touch my friend ever again!" she yelled after him.

But Sirius moved faster.

Back at the party, Sirius was desperately searching for Remus. But he couldn't find him. And he desperately wanted to cry.

Sirius even bumped into James at some point.

"Mate!" he smiled until he noticed Sirius' pale expression "Are you okay?"

"Have you seen Remus?" Sirius yelled over the music.

James looked concerned.

"What happened?"

"Have you seen him?" Sirius insisted.

"I think he left to the dorm" James answered carefully "He said he was tired"

Sirius was already moving towards there. He ignored James calling after him. Sirius hoped he wasn't following. He wanted to speak to Remus alone.

When Sirius got to their dorm, he was lucky to find Remus alone. He was just coming out of the loo, wearing pijamas.

"Moony..."

"Oh! Hi, Sirius" Remus smiled.

"Why did you leave?"

Sirius sounded desperate.

Remus shrugged.

"I was tired" he said "McGonagall will come and end it soon anyway..."

"I am sorry..." Sirius wanted to cry. He wanted to cry so badly.

Remus raised an eyebrow.

"About Megan..."

Remus snorted. And Sirius hated that.

"I don't care about who you snog, Sirius..."

"I didn't want to kiss her!" Sirius was yelling now "I didn't want to kiss her Remus!!" then he began sobbing because he couldn't take it anymore "I really didn't want to kiss her, Remus"

Remus' expression softened. He immediately closed the gap between them wrapping his arms around Sirius.

Sirius sobbed a little on Remus' shoulder. He smelled just right. Chocolate and mint. Probably for the toothpaste.

"It's okay, Pads..." Sirius adored the way Remus stroked his hair "It's okay..."

Sirius was restless. He had sobbed. But no tears dropped. And the knot on his throat didn't disappear.

Sirius pushed Remus away.

"You kissed me last term!"

They hadn't talked about it since it happened. It was Sirius' fault for avoiding the subject and pushing Remus away.

"Why?"

Remus looked concerned.

"Because I wanted to"

"Because I am handsome? Because I am beautiful and you are attracted to me because you are gay?"

Remus shook his head carefully.

"I mean you are beautiful but there's more to you than that..."

Sirius desperately pulled him in for a kiss. But Remus immediately pushed him away. And Sirius was grateful. He was disgusted with himself. He had done the same thing that Meg that done with him.

"Sorry..." Sirius cried.

"It's okay" Remus smiled "Perhaps just try to calm down first..."

Sirius kept looking at the floor. Still feeling the need to cry.

"Come on Pads..." Remus said carefully. And his voice made Sirius feel safe "Lay down with me for a second"

Remus sat down in bed waiting for Sirius. Sirius hesitated for a second. But he followed Remus in bed. They laid down staring at each other.

Sirius was calming down, except for his heart that was betraying him and beating fast.

"Are you okay?"

Sirius nodded.

Remus stroked his hair again and Sirius closed his eyes at the touch.

"Moony..."

"Mhmm?"

"Would you like me if I was ugly?"

Remus chuckled.

"What kind of question is that?"

"Would you?"

"Of course! You are my best friend, Pads" Remus said with a smile on his voice "I don't care if you are ugly or not"

Sirius opened his eyes. He couldn't believe Remus' words.

"I am a mess... The reason people like me is because I am pretty and belong to a rich family" Sirius' eyes filled with tears at those words.

"That's not true" Remus answered.

"What else there is about me?"

Remus smiled, still stroking Sirius' hair.

"You are an amazing friend" he said "You are fun, you are smart, you have such a vibrant personality. You fight for what you believe. You are different than your family"

Sirius was overwhelmed by those words. His chest burned. This couldn't be normal.

"You are the one who is amazing, Moony" Sirius said "You shouldn't fancy me"

"Who said I fancy you?"

Remus smiled and Sirius smiled consequently.

There were silent for a while. Remus played with Sirius' hair.

"I fancy you" Sirius swallowed nervously. His heart was going to run out of his chest any minute. It was so intense he had a hard time breathing.

"I fancy you"

Remus scooped closer. Sirius got out of breath for a second.

"I really want to kiss you" Sirius whispered.

"Do it" Remus said looking at Sirius' lips.

Sirius took a deep breath before leaning in and giving Remus the most delicate kiss. Even that made wonders to Sirius' heart.

They kissed more intensely now. And the way Remus' fingers ran through Sirius' hair, and the way he was holding his waist, made him feel loved. Not used. Not used at all.

Sirius and Remus broke apart after a while. They both were smiling like a pair of idiots.

"This is weird" Sirius said after a chuckle.

"Why?"Remus was still smiling.

"Because we are friends..." Sirius answered "And I don't know if I am gay... I don't know what I am..."

"It's okay..." Remus caressed his cheek "You don't have to figure out that now"

"Could we... Could we not tell the others?" Sirius asked carefully "I need some time to figure things out"

Remus smiled. A smile so genuine and pretty. Remus was so gorgeous when he smiled like that.

"Okay, take your time"

Sirius smiled as he placed his head on Remus' chest. He realized Remus' heart was as loud or worse than his. And he loved that.

"Can I lay here with you for a while?"

"What if James or Peter walk in?"

Sirius shrugged.

"I'll pretend to be drunk or something"

He actually couldn't care less right now.

Remus giggled.

"Okay, Padfoot"

Sirius smiled as he felt Remus touching his hair again.

Sirius was falling for Remus hard. And he was afraid to admit it just yet.

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