#i might wake up soon

[coridallasmultipass]

Shit Post venting hour let's go:

Trans Bro/Trans Dirk has endometriosis (*enBROmetriosis, because people are shitty and don't get that guys have it, too), even AFTER getting a hysterectomy, because, unfortunately, sometimes our bodies are just transphobic like that. (True story, bro...) He doesn't get symptoms regularly post-op, but when they hit, they hit like a plane-wreck - it's a huge disaster for one, and it also becomes everyone else's business.

Trans Dave doesn't have endo, but still goes through a lot of pain relievers for normal cramps. He forgot to tell Bro they were out of medicine last time.

Cue Bro stuck hugging the toilet, sick from how much pain he's in as soon as he wakes up, and Dave doesn't hear him call out for healing.

As soon as Dave hears Bro talking about Advil, he immediately remembers his mistake and realizes why Bro's been extra volatile lately (PMS/PMDD/etc).

#i know it's cringe dude but im living it and i know theres nothing more cringe than not being able to breathe bc it hurts too much to move #or waking up from not sleeping all night only to vomit as soon as you get up bc it hurts too fucking much and you didnt get meds yet #endo is a special hell my body has made for me to punish me for being too trans #ditched the uterus so my body downloaded a trojan uterus to replace it except now its all over my insides... #...even tho im on medicine thats supposed to suppress endo growth #im having a whole mental breakdown over it and saw someone talkin shit on trans dirk so this is for them specifically (blocked) #fffffuuuuuckk these cramps holy shit im dying literally any pressure on my abdomen is too tight even just my sweater resting on it #homestuck #bro strider #dirk strider #bro #dirk #trans bro strider #trans dirk strider #trans dirk #trans bro #striders #endometriosis #trans man #hoooly fk im tryn not to die rn jfc i might need to puke again #emetophobia mention #endo #enbrometriosis #art #vent #ShitPost.exe #Cori.exe #Image.exe #Create.exe #i had to stop typing tags to go puke bc the pain is so bad lollllll

[arttsuka]

Me today

#help #i might delete this #also I'll be going to sleep soon #when i wake up this feature will be gone probably #sad #boop #meme #not art

[jeromesmith]

Can't sleep. Maybe I should make myself a cup of coffee.....

#I could also use this time to work on that assignment... #Only for no longer than 30 minutes. #I'll go to bed soon #I hope Magnus doesn't wake up. #It's late and he might get mad at me for being awake at this time. #just role(play) with it #jerome jrwi #jrwi jerome #jrwi rp #jrwi the suckening #in character #jrwi suckening #the suckening

[laniemae]

hey so uh I’m back

kinda

I don’t know how to word this. But my break is over I guess. I ended up leaving for longer as I didn’t know how to handle returning and I wanted to do it on a better day, and I’m sorry if I made you worried.

Although with all of this it feels nothing has changed yet again. It feels like forever since I’ve been here and my break consisted of highs and lows where I felt I could do nothing and desperately needed to go back to tumblr, or I feel relaxed and it was a good idea.

it’s very hard. I’m considering actually leaving for good because of how my break affected me. But I’m going to try to intergrate myself back here, but I think it’s going to be very hard.

I’m still scared staying here and I feel like I’m stuck in a narrow space with no exit no matter what I do, I just hate everything I hate myself I just want help but there’s no one to get help from I have no idea what to do I feel exhausted yet I haven’t done anything I just don’t know where this is all going and I’m scared for the future

#I really don’t know if I should leave or not #ive been saying this a lot but this might be the actual time I’m truly considering it as I had some experience of that #Whatever that means #i feel like it’ll be relief either that or I’ll be even more stressed #I can’t tell because i experienced both emotions simultaneously during the leave #There’s also so much I want to share with everyone #I ended up ripping apart the Milgramblr tree #I didn’t feel anything not happiness not sadness but nothing #I just don’t know if I can take it anymore but I don’t even know the true source of what’s bothering me #I probably won’t continue my archives for a while because of this #And I need to vent here #FOR WHATVER FUCKING REWSON AS SOON AS I CAME BACK ALL OF THE PHOTOS GOT SHUFFLED AGAIN #AGAINNNNNN #AND I SPENT SO MUCH TIME REOGANISING THEM EHEN IT HAPPENED LAST WEEK #AND I ADDED SO MUCH NEE STUFF #Hehhhh it’s just some annoying it issue #But I guess this has been a bad start to everything #I just wanna sleep forever and not wake up

[xdinaryheroes]

xdinaryheroes logging on for the first time in 2 months who thissss

#x #first of all happy birthday jiseok<3 #second of all i cant see myself coming back here giffing any time soon #and i think im finally giving up on lqxh #im the busiest ive ever been and i honestly have no motivation to do anything rn #i cant even keep up with xh😭 #but hey we need to wake up and rearrange our priorities sometimes #and i think giffing and being heavily engaged in kpop is something ill leave in my teens #i need to sort my life out lol #but trust ill be back here every now and again #might even churn out a gif or two if im feeling funky but we'll seee #for now im just gonna linger here #and even if im not that active pls remember i will alwaysss be the no.1 hyeongjun lover #kisses

[georgecunt]

I FEEL SO SAD I SENT U THE ASK AND THEN IMMEDIATLY PASSED OUT hope youre restinggggggg

dw i answered and then immediately passed out aswell LMAO

#how are youu? #i think you might wake up soon

[pulsefelt]

going through one of my "so much about kariya makes me feel bananas" phases

his name sharing a kanji with shibuya itself. kubo trying and failing to kill him twice. him and uzuki having parallel hair/inverted eye colors to neku and shiki. him knowing more than he should about taboo noise in the first game. the implication of him knowing what hanekoma is and trying to contact him in the second.

i think about kariya and i literally feel something in my chest, so strong are my feelings about him

#》 ooc. ✗ #ok. might not be here today. debating on sleeping as soon as i get home to wake up for tga. we shall see. #now i gotta drive home tho latersssss #gonna blast his playlist!

[katyspersonal]

I really hoped that I'll finally have real Christmas this year. In my country it is on Jan 7th instead of Dec 25th, and also I've never quite... vibed with it? It is different, and very underwhelming. I've first felt the spirit of Christmas exactly in foreign internets, like... That whole bright, kind, fun thing about sharing and happiness and appreciating what you've got and good will. I've been writing very heartfelt posts in Christmas spirit for years, and drawing art for the occasion. It just always surprised me how much a holiday could've been inspiring even despite me not even being affiliated with the religion.

But I really always wanted someone to celebrate it with. Like... to actually have a real person with me in the same house, to decorate together and to cook meals together and share the celebration. Additionally, with Halloween too, because it is definitely not a thing in my country - another holiday I am "celebrating online". When he crawled back to me, spilling his bad deluded lies about how he could not live without me and how badly he wanted to share everything there was in life with me, it felt so... apparent that we could meet this Christmas together, and maybe go trick-or-treating together. I just really want to dial back to enjoying imitations of holidays like I always have for many years, and forget those foolish hopes. The one time in my life I had not only hope for the better, but a faith that things would certainly get better, the bastard just took all his words and feelings back in like, two weeks. Because he "was not thinking straight in his despair" and "made a wrong decision". And could tell that sharing life with me was "a bad idea".

I should just never let my 'hope' become 'faith'. In a way, I am used to having my hopes crashed, it is just the story of my whole life, really. But crashed faith is something that can't be recovered.

#/vent #sorry for negativity recently #it is just so hard to hold back #my friends are also just too busy/distant/aren't online at the same time to vent in private #but i was specifically instructed by one of them to 'just let it all out' instead of withdrawing and doing something bad to myself #with alcohol or whatnot #i'll just go to bed crying and wake up my usual shitposty nerdy self okay? #and hopefully i'll enjoy illusions of holidays shared online with people that celebrate them this year too #and year after that and year after that and forever more... #until my stupid joke of a country cuts away access to civilized internet altogether lol #that or the world ends because with all the disasters it might be soon enough #it feels like a curse that all people that hurt me get good lives and happy ending #but i already said previously that it is just my role in this world #i am a videogame enemy you slay to level up.

[todayisafridaynight]

daiboobs flavors 1 and 2

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 3 #ryu ga gotoku 4 #ryu ga gotoku 5 #yakuza series #yakuza 3 #yakuza 4 #yakuza 5 #daigo dojima #snap sketches #i feel like ive been drawin him shirtless a lot lately.. tryna not make that a habit #its just cause i never draw anyone shirtless comparatively and i dont wanna forget how to draw muscles anytime soon #ok bye bye i might draw hijikata next but im kinda drowsy so i might go for a run to wake myself up #for now please enjoy heres to hoping i give him a shirt next time

[bypatia]

.🌊.

#literally going through one of the worst bouts of low self worth and self esteem in more than a year #i don’t think i’ll survive this one girlies #i thought it was gone that i was fine now #tough luck huh #felt sexy might delete later #also who tf wakes up at 7 am on a sunday #i should be out swimming and partying and getting tanned #instead i just wanna take my blanket over my head and draw the curtains and lie down on my bed and never get up #i just want to sleep for a long long time at least #or i want to call someone and cry #but everyone who loves me is far away in space and time #and i don’t have a time machine #to go back to 2019 #this loneliness will kill me soon enough #save me joan didion self worth essay

[mementoasts]

i've acquired a problem

#ok the bottom 2 aren't new but i found them and put them on xD #i've given UP on drawing. my new passions are friendship bracelets and waking up in the middle of the night to write 700 words of a new-- #--fic and never ever touching it again #the void given form #((i might post nicer pics of all of these bc they're all themed and i think i did pretty good with the beads i own hehehe)) #((i'll need to do that soon because the letters will be rubbed off of these things within a week lole....))

[delzinrowe]

I wnana take a nap...

#but idk if I should #I might not wake up soon #by which I mean I might make it a full blown nights sleep #who knows #i know my cats miss the naps

[suddencolds]

the way I just binge read all of your yvescent fics and all I can think of is WHY DIDN'T I DO IT SOONER?!!!! like...omg. hear me out, I am usually more into fandom content, OCs don't really draw my attention that much BUT that thought's definitely change thanks to yours. Idk, everything about them felt so well-built and their personalities are just captivating they just make you wanna get to know them more (yes, now I am attached and do not regret it one bit). Anyways, what I am trying to say with all that is that thank you for creating them, I think they're awesome and that I admire your blog :))) I came for all the g/enshin fics (which I think are one of the best out there) and found gold by discovering your Yves and Vincent.

ps: didn't get the chance to vote on the poll, but the option that won.... let me just say that I am living for it

Anon!!! Thank you for reading and leaving such nice thoughts!!! 😭😭❤️ It means a lot to me that you were able to enjoy my original content even though you followed me for Genshin - I definitely feel like it can be harder to overcome the initial hurdle of not knowing the characters when it comes to original content.

Thank you for giving them a chance regardless!! And I am so happy to hear that you like them!! 💖 It's actually been a year since I started the series as of... last Monday, haha. (I also apologize for any waiting you'll have to do in the future 😭) Hearing that others look forward to reading more brings me so much joy!!

(Also, to your P.S. - that option was a winner from since right after I posted the poll and hasn't changed since 👀 I feel like the people who voted for it are split between like... allergy enthusiasts and the Vincent suffering enthusiasts haha (or maybe both at once?) Rest assured, I've taken note of it... ✍️)

#ask #THANK YOU AGAIN 🥹 this was such a sweet thing to wake up to #i'm typing this at 5am because i can't sleep (very unfortunately bc this keeps happening and i have like a 10 hour work day ahead) D: #would like to get back into writing soon (and replying 😭) when i have the bandwidth #side note - i really love that you used their ship name to refer to them 🥹 #also a mini update: #pt 4 of TWT is currently in the works! (and i am #still debating whether it's acceptable to end it on a scene that is... very far from conclusive haha. #might post it before next week if it is... or sit on it for another month if it isn't)

[theheadlessgroom]

@beatingheart-bride

Randall could understand why; in the past, he had given some thought to what his future home or apartment might look like, and he (perhaps wishfully) envisioned it as a sprawling place he could really stretch out in, and decorate to his heart's content. He could have all of his monster kits on the shelves, some posters he didn't have room for in his room, a good place for him to work on his art and designs...

...but at the same time, he couldn't help but feel melancholy whenever he revisited this particular daydream. As small and sometimes cramped as his childhood home with his folks could feel at times, it felt like a home, thanks to the presence of his parents, a cozy nook that was much quieter than the hustle and bustle of the city. Therefore, it was a little hard to imagine being on his own, being in such a big place like this, with no one else around. Again, it seemed as lonely as it did freeing.

"Were you, uh...nervous, living on your own for the first time?" he then ventured to ask her curiously-it had to be both exciting and frightening, he felt, being alone for the first time. When he was younger and came home from school alone (having been a bit of a latchkey kid), he was excited to have the house to himself, but also unsettled, as it suddenly felt so much bigger and far more empty without his folks around. He had to imagine the early days of living on ones' own were similar, in their own way.

#((i have a feeling the dreams are gonna be surfacing soon! considering the strong sense of deja vu)) #((that randall has around emily already; that nagging sense that he knows her already)) #((that they've met before; i have a good feeling that it won't be long for the dreams to start!)) #((they might start off slow; something he hardly remembers when he wakes up)) #((only little snippets here and there; but over time perhaps they grow more and more vivid)) #((and therefore all the more bewildering to randall! he may not even mention the early dreams to emily)) #((and only bring them up once they get really vivid and more memorable for him!)) #((as we've said he'll tell her about these weird dreams expecting to give her a laugh and she'll just be FLOORED!)) #outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Dark Shadows

[girl-bateman]

my doctor said the nightmares might be a consequence of me being TOO relaxed and happy 😩😩 girl help

#ive had reoccurring (literally every single night) nightmares where i wake up with my heart hoing crazy #and its been going on ever since after i took my bachelors and started writing every day #which isnt necessary chill but its for sure not stressful or anxiety inducing like a job or school might be #and he said maybe thats the problem #bc some ppl get sick as soon as they stop stressing (cough cough my mom) and that might be whats causing the sleep disturbance #but like... thats so sick actually why would u do that to me... 😩😩 #diagnosed workaholic by the nightmare realm

[aoarcturus]

being drunk is honestly such a fucking fever dream. i am meeting people from Highschool and it’s honestly so funn but I don’t even fucking know what is happleing. It is a vibe. I have also dropped my phone 3 times and I wanna cry :)

#like what the fuck does alcohol do to a person. this apparently. I can also hear people sing help by Adele #yeha this is so strange #anyway #might delete this as a soon as I wake up sober #lolllll anyway I guess enjoy???? #nothing that I am saying makes fucking sense soooo #omfg I mean hello by Adele. what the fuckkk…