#i wanna get surgery on them

[luuxxart]

sometimes all you need in life is a little cheese sampler and a sudoku

#persona 5 #goro akechi #akira kurusu #shuake #akeshu #old man shuake #tumblr nuked this post somehow #anyway #i was dying to make more old man shuake after one day #bc I couldn’t really post old man shuake before it stopped production #it would’ve felt spoilery I guess?? #but yeah I kinda adajima’d them #but they’re really more Adachi and Zenkichi more than Adachi and Dojima #AND WHY DOES NO ONE EVER GIVE AKIRA LONG HAIR #WE ONLY EVER SEE LONG HAIR AKECHI . OK WHAT ABOUT SCRUFFMUFFIN AKIRA #THAT MAN GETS A MANE HELLLOOOOOOOOO #I also hc Akira does T but doesn’t get top surgery while akechi gets top surgery but not T #anywayyyyyy #I will also post my secret Santa stuff later but that’s on my Twitter #if u wanna see it now that is #tw scars

[foxgirlmusk]

Affini will be like "oh no I can't possibly take a floret my desires are too MESSED UP and TWISTED I'll BREAK them if I let loose" and then their desires turn out to be light pain play and an intox fetish.

#hdg #affini #i get that you gotta write a reason why they dont wanna take on a floret but #if youre gonna call their desires messed up at least make them actually messed up #fuckin whip them bloody #use your advanced medical tech to do awake surgery and poke around their guts like a parasite #condition them to piss themselves everytine someone hugs them #i dunno do something that isnt *injects class A and touches with vines* #human domestication guide

[imaveryevilenby]

alright hold on hold on hold on we're doing 3am gender thinking again

so the initial idea of my views on gender that occurred to me at 5am last time in what was probably a manic episode is fuck gender I can't fit the boxes expected of me so I'll dismantle the whole system and do my own thing

so problem is I can't do that, I can't dismantle the whole system and go my own way because I am entirely dependent on the sex and gender systems we have in place and how other people view sex and gender

additionally the idea that gender itself is the outdated stereotypical system is flawed, gender is the way a person feels and we've made categories and boxes to describe incredibly complex feelings

the problem is the more specific a gender gets, the smaller that box gets, the more people are excluded from that box so the solution is another box that fits better or make their own like with neogenders

the solution is a line of gender boxes like hermit crabs...

the fun part about thinking of gender and stuff is that I personally believe that every single person on earth experiences gender and life differently from every other person, even if only slightly

so theoretically if every person on earth were to describe their gender outlook and gender experiences and form a gender identity from that, then there could theoretically be 8 billion god damn genders

the solution is more genders

the solution is running Doom (1993) on my fucking gender

#does any of this make sense? no #do i give a fuck? #also no #go fuck yourself #society in it's entirety is all smoke and mirrors and we're all puppets on strings with masks that we switch out depending on the audience #WE LIVE IN A FUCKING SOCIETY IS THE POINT OF THIS POST I GUESS #FUCK #I JOKERED MYSELF #MY GENDER IS JOKER I FUCKING GUESS #this sucks i just wanna take hrt #oh yeah i didn't talk abt this the actual point of this post was me having the thought that I should lie to my therapist #when i get one and say I'm just trans in order to get hrt and surgery and shit #cause it'll be easier than explaining that I think there's feasibly 8 billion genders #and I'm none of them but I have to be one because we need a way to describe that shit #schrodinger's gender lookin ass

[songmingisthighs]

stupid is twtiny convincing people that ateez ABSOLUTELY HATES KQ using wooyoung being a little shit by pronouncing brand names on wanteez as "proof"

#even the bitch who said ateez copied skz by using red and black in the comeback schedule isn't as stupid #like #maybe just don't stan ateez #if you're so against kq #bc omg #use your head ?? #just think about it #ateez is ateez bc of kq #no matter what #like despite them making songs themselves #ateez exist because of kq #and ngl #you can say whatever #i will defend kq #kq is one of the best companies in terms of their treatment towards their idols #like would you rather ateez gets pressured to do plastic surgery ??? #go on EXTREMELY unhealthy diets ???? #be stressed and depressed when they just wanna be idols but they can't bc they're mismanaged ???? #like fuck you and your stupidity #tell me you don't understand how a company function without telling me you don't understand how a company function #🖕🖕🖕🖕 #logic where #smt tmi

[emdotcom]

In this hypothetical, the prosthetics are detachable, able to easily be modified or repaired, even customized for visual or fucntional preferences.

Getting them is about as safe as any other major surgery; certain amount of risk, yadda yadda. There's more details that would sway an answer, if this were something currently going on -- like the cost, can you sub out these prosthetics if they ever halt production, do you need medication to retain them, blah blah-- but, here? This is wish fulfillment. If you have something that hurts, or you wish you could just fix or swap out, you get to have it, just this once.

#em.txt #poll #polls #honestly i run a lot of polls & sometimes am like 'oh i hope this one gets even 15 notes' no i hope this one gets big. 16 notes at least #because this is interesting to me. #idk. it's probably a sign I'm not as able bodied as i may think bc i constantly am thinking like. #i wish i could pull out my spine & get the crick out of it. i wish i could replace my ears. #they can't hear very well & they always hurt & i always hear tinnitus. if i could swap them out i imagine some of that going away #i get people that might object to this -- your ears aren't killing you/you can get hearing aids/pain meds/ignore it #but I've been living with this my whole life & it has only gotten worse. I'd like a way to make it not get worse #otherwise next option for me is spine. option after that is probably prosthetic top surgery i wanna be able to take them thangs off #& put 'em back on when i feel like it. i want them thangs to be see through plastic with wiring & lights inside ya feel me #like i got a dualshock controller for oubitties

[thottybrucewayne]

No, real question. How you a transmed and nonbinary?

#thotty speaks #They said 'oh people don't take you tenderqueer nbs seriously cause yall won't get on hrt/get surgery to show us youre serious #Look I want to get on t. I wanna do a lot of things to make me feel more at home in my body that I'm not sure about yet #Safety wise etc and it just...as a Black person for you to not understand other Black trans people being hesitant abt jumping into surgery #or worrying about pricing and post surgery care and being under medicated etcetc #Not to mention that I shouldn't have to do these things at YOUR pace to prove that I'm trans like... #You got top surgery money? You tryin to nurse me back to health when I take days to try to heal? #I just hate this argument cause you can ask any nb who medically transitioned if people 'take them seriously' and usually the answer is #A resounding no! Most people see nbs who medically transition as 'just trans with extra prns' and 'still about clothing' #idk I just hate the idea that I have to 'earn' legitimacy by rushing into something I haven't even found a proper safety net for #I feel like if you doin all this yappin but you not going out of your way to look out for people just starting hrt or need help post op #just shut the fuck up #idk it just find it funny like you do not benefit from that transmed shit at all but do you ig

[cowboycunt]

someone give me quick easy no stress answer to all of life’s problems

#debating telling work that during my two weeks off i will be getting top surgery #this could backfire because well. i live in the uk. #however i’m wondering if i will actually just be able to get away with not saying anything #i am expected to lift things at work #tbh i think i wouldn’t mind doing some work during week 2 of recovery because i imagine i’ll be bored out of my mind and i could just - #- draw some maps #and then i also technically need an extra two days off in addition to the two weeks which i was gonna play hookey for but. idk. #i am getting stressed #and like idk i work with liberal people. and wouldn’t ask for things to change because we work with volunteers #and i don’t wanna spend every week explaining they/them pronouns to a new batch of volunteers #so like. idk #i wish i were able to do this while i was still in college. would make my life so much easier. #but oh well #fish.txt

[obsob]

fanart for a cat i saw in the cattery 

#mine #she. she was so large. so large and so empty head #i cannot stress enough how big her eyes were #there was nothing behind them #ough this took me a while!! black and white pencil takes me nothin but digital...whoof #im so achy......achy neck achy shoulders i havent done yoga in like 2 weeks im falling apart #i alsoj sdfds dkjbdsks i have a hospital appt TOMORROW #for top surgery. like the inital hello i am going to be cutting u open face to face meeting #i god called today like hello we have a cancellation...wanna come :) #im excited but i am like. sweating. im so anxious i hate late minute changes sm!!!! #autism momence........im so cretrsjf dgs dbjhdbsjg #its a long drive as well n its like. the hospital looks like a small city im like not fully convinced we r gna find the palce #mv d sd gmsdg....it iwll..dg..it will be fine.... #the nice phone lady gave me a phone number to call if we get lost which is nice but also. not reassuring djgbdkgdfkjg

[delusionalftmgirly]

i have a headache but i had a consultation appointment for top surgery today. you should totally send me punishments for trying to cut my tits off

#also i won’t have them forever this is a limited time item #if u wanna see them i suggest you dm me and maybe i’ll consider it #but also if you wanna send me nice stuff too i’d appreciate that #cause in all reality this is kink and i’m super excited to finally be getting top surgery #detrans kink #detransition kink #misgenderingkink #detrans nsft #nsft #ftm detrans kink #ftm misgendering kink #detrans me #ftmtf kink

[eclaire-went-bam]

i'm THIS close to just making my pronouns he/it, or just it/its, bcs istg ppl see "prefers it/it but also ok with he/they" & think it's a good excuse to not call me by my "weird" pronouns

people hardly ever use "he" either, bcs i don't pass

like. it/it's my preferred pronouns. he/they is tolerable but over time i'm just going to get annoyed. wait till they hear abt my super secret neopronouns

#a lot of my close friends/ep do refer to be as he/it with more of an emphasis on “it” so that's nice #but a lot of my more casual relationships just stick with they/them. even if they're also lgbtqia+ or genderqueer #at first i was fine with they/them but now its wayyy too ;; eugh #basically everyone 40+ i meet irl will be disgusted if i wanna be called an it or just stick to they/them #istg they/them are the standard nb pronouns that make *some* allies be more comfortable with nbs. if it's anyth other than th #**they/them they get uncomfortable #every time #the number of people i've had lecture me abt why wanting to be called an “it” is bad should be illegal #once someone referenced a book abt child abuse as the reason they won't call me it #cw child abuse mention #once someone compared it to the treatment of the victims of the holocaust #cw genocide mention #LIKE WHAT #eughhh #they/them is highkey starting to make me dysphoric bcs i know the ppl who exclus call me that #just view me as some vaguely nb-identifying girl #i can't wait to get top surgery !!! #lgbtqia #lgbtqia+ #transgender #trans #nonbinary #agender #genderless #genderfree #it/its #he/it #neopronouns

[iero]

Had a panic attack that literally woke me up in the middle of the night last night and lasted until the early morning and let me tell you, that shit is TERRIFYING. Needless to say, I think I'm ready to go back to work.

#personal #Am I still in pain? Yes. Is it controllable when painkillers are taken though? Also yes. Somewhat. #Breaking news! #Girlie who doesn't have their mental health under control feels 100x worse being holed up in the place they live alone under for FOUR days #I literally have not left my house since my surgery on Wednesday morning... #And then I'm wondering why my anxiety/panic attacks have been God awful these four days... Gee I wonder why! #Like I don't wanna go back to work because capitalism but I need to for like... A distraction. #My thoughts have been racing and I'm just begging for people to talk to me in my personal life to calm my anxiety down. #It feels debilitating at this point. It's literally taken over my life. #And I have my anxiety meds but I only just got them so I have to wait that 1-3 weeks for them to actually 'kick in.' #I really should have asked my new GP for the tiniest amount of benzos to get me through this recovery. #And I don't even have a follow-up appt. for my recovery but I am gonna call them on Mon. and ask for one for my own peace of mind. #I've called this office three times now over the course of three days to make sure what I'm feeling is 'normal.' #Anyway!!!

[goodmorningnona]

ya know, i feel real bad for gideon for thinking her girlfriend was breaking up w her but like babe. you jumped on a fucking fence. i dont care if you "meant it romantically", was she supposed to like that????

#this poor girl is so repressed #she has spent her whole life with harrow wanting her dead (or at least thinking she did and that goes for the both of them) #and her undyingly loyal abused ass said one flesh one end huh.. #what is the ultimate romantic gesture.. #how can we save ourselves kill a lyctor and give harrow everything she's ever wanted #except WHAT SHE WANTS IS YOU IDIOT. WHO THE FUCK KILLS THEMSELVES FOR LOVE WHAT DID DULCINEA TELL YOU #you RAT im so mad at you let me brush your hair and tell you it's okay #AND MISS HARROW???? GIRL???? 'oh lemme give myself at home brain surgery so i can preserve your soul' AS A ROMANTIC GESTURE????? #WHY DONT YOU TWO JUST FUCKING. TALK TO EACH OTHER. ASK EACH OTHER THINGS. LEARN TO COMMUNICATE WITH THE OTHER HALF OF YOU #holy FUCK #THEY ARE SUCH TRAUMATIZED TEENAGERS I WANNA EAT THEM FOR BREAKFAST IM [frothing at the mouth] #the locked tomb #tlt #tlt spoilers #the locked tomb spoilers #fucking IDIOTS #GOD #AND YOU KNOW WHAT #ALSO. THE FACT THAT THEY BOTH GET WHAT THEY WANT BY THE END OF NONA AND REALIZE THEY FUCKING HATE IT HERE BECAUSE IT DOESNT HAVE THEIR #OTHER HALF. LITERALLY ALL THEY NEED IS EACH OTHER #AND ALL I NEED IN MY LIFE IS CODEPENDENT LESBIANS. FUUUUUUCKKKKKK #gtn #gideon the ninth #htn #harrow the ninth #ntn spoilers #in the tags #nona the ninth spoilers

[bunnihearted]

😳🤕💊

#bruhhh it's so scary bc im looking kinda yellow :// #which means jaundice which is very bad related to gallstones. that means my liver is in trouble..... #ha ha ha.... i dont wanna be sick anymore T-T #i think i'll call my health care center in the morning tmrw nd tell them that i think im yellow nd that im in lots of pain #hopefully they'll give me an emergency appointment so i can get checked #brooo brooo i want this to be over im so fkn anxious nd stressed out #this is why it's so fkn annoying to have to wait for surgery sooo long #bc the thing is the less intense your gallbladder disease is the easier your surgery + recovery will go #but if i start getting liver issues nd stuff it's gonna be worse :((

[heartbeetz]

Related to prev post: I'm a "belly sticks out past my tits" kinda guy and it's awesome and also has done more for my (thankfully relatively minimal I think) dysphoria over the years than pretty much anything else. Barely have to worry about people noticing my boobs bc they're mostly flush with my stomach when I've got a shirt on anyway 👍 Also men with fat tits are so swag 👍

#saving thousands of dollars on top surgery bc I wanna get fatter anyway #I do picture my human s/is with top surgery bc I looooveee scars I love scars so much forever ♡♡♡ and also I like them being visibly trans #but maybe jazz won't get them bc I like having jazz be ''ideal me in 25 years'' #which might mean no top surgery bc I can just Get Fatter 👍👍👍👍 #roz posts

[rabbiteclair]

actually forget my post from a while back on the topic. I've decided if I ever get a cat (unlikely) then I will name them Leucotome and I can verbally abbreviate it to roughly 'Luke', and people will be like 'oh haha you must have named your cat after Luke Skywalker huh' and they'll be completely unprepared when I spear my cat through their skull and into their frontal lobe

#i mean if you wanna get technical #if my cat is named leucotome #i should start off by trepanning them and then shove my cat in through the resulting hole #(that's right i used one of my yearly quota of trepanation mentions on this) #but if i am using the same instrument (cat) to both pierce the skull and sever portions of the frontal lobe i argue it's still a leucotome #just a really efficient leucotome #walter freeman wishes he had what I've got in my theoretical brain surgery cat #yeah go in through the eye socket loser #who's gonna name their cat Orbitoclast #what would you even call them for short? Orby? #get real asshole

[wereh0gz]

Is my discomfort with my boobs gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, or just a general discomfort with the sensations of having a human body that comes with possible neurodivergency

#ramblings #it's probably all three tbh #it's not severe. like i can live with this. it's fine #but also i generally wish i had a flatter chest #every time i imagine myself in my head i see myself with a flatter chest #but like do i wanna go through the trouble of getting rid of them entirely #or should i just try getting a binder or something #or should i just. leave things as they are #idfk #i don't think top surgery would be an option bc money and. i'm scared of surgery honestly #and the recovery looks painful as shit #and like what if i regret it? what if i was wrong and that wasn't the best option for me? #i think i should just try to get a binder or something. just see how that works for me #and contemplate surgery when i'm older and can support myself and am more sure of whether that's right for me or not #also i'm. hesitant to call it anything bc again it's not really that severe #it's like. a thought that occassionally crosses my mind. at least once a day.. and doesn't leave for a while.... #hm yeah no maybe it's not as mild as i thought it was actually. wonderful realization to come to in the middle of writing a post #anyways. idk if anyone has any binder recs or anything i'll take 'em #also maybe tips on how to approach my mom abt this?? idk if feels like something i should talk abt with her but idk how to even bring it up