#i was in a bad place during that time

[i-never-grew-up]

That bridge needed to burn

I was a manipulative leech

I was hurting him

I should've let the bridge burn sooner

I didn't want to let him go

But sometimes, what we need to happen isn't what we want to happen

#apollo talks #ex friend #personal growth #i was hurting him #we needed to part ways #i was in a bad place during that time

[transkaito]

I love how much he hates cops

#my posts #professor layton #i mean the cops beat him up and left him to die so bad he was in a coma for 3 months and they raided his place during that time #allat just bc the prime minister tried to cover up the death of his girlfriend bc it would tarnish his electoral campaign #lost future is such a good game…..

[witherbythesword]

if the theory of sam reich being replaced by .. evil wizard dalton reich (and i cant believe i am partaking in this discurse) is true..

i've seen some people asking the question about what those childhood tapes mean. Well i am one of the ancient ones that owned vhs tapes and you know you could replace whats stored on those tapes with overwriting it with new material but it would slowly degrade the quality as the magnetic tape the information is stored on isn't necessarly made to be re-recorded on indefinetly which would also explain the degrading quality of the gamechanger episode.

So my theory is that dalton reich wants to erase sam from history and to do this he is slowly erasing any proof that could hint on sam and dalton being two different people. One thing he appearantly needed to do is overwrite these old vhs tapes of sams childhood.

#game changer #dropout tv #Sam Reich #having worked in an archive i think depending on quality of the tape and what generation it is #you can record and re-record on it 5-10 times #which would fit the loops on the episode kinda #listen i wanted to be cool but i love time loops OKAY #I am actually in disbelieve that no one tackled sam to the ground #like brennan did during the dance thing in the “second place” episode #and screamed “DANCING IS A SIN” #to keep Sam from kicking the god damn camera #i also feel like i've been hexed with the wenis curse #you see all those text about it and think.. well... how bad can it be? truely? #and the answer is simple #EVERYBODY DO THE WENIS #THE WENIS IS A DANCE #EVERBYODY IS A GENIUS #WHO KNOWS IS IN ADV (gunshoots.. sirens blaring in the background.. and a wet thud sounds right next to you) #also.. not to be like alu head levels of conspiracy but by now the nimber of accounts #saying the dropout cast should be hunting down sam as the final game changer episode of the season #is suspicious to me #like... if that turn out to be a fixitman situation of people being IN on something #am just going full balls to the wall riz gukgak tatooing night yorb on his chest levels of insane by now 👍 #also the sfx needed thing #reminds me about how jacob always does his own buzzer sound #because clearly the normal buzzer sound was always there #also.. the red shining buzzer reflecting in the prompt screen..that wasn't always that way right?

[stuckinapril]

the neurologist i shadow is so funny bc she has a valley girl accent and yet she's the smartest person in the room. this woman was casually doing case consenus ab a man w frontotemporal dementia in the highest girliest voice imaginable. i want to be her i think

#case consensus is basically where several neurologists/doctors meet to decide what the patient's case actually is #im genuinely not sure why this medical center does it this way but they write down data on paper THEN input it into the digital system #which i have qualms w bc i feel like it wastes so much time #but literally my whole role at this internship is inputting this data into the system so i should probably be grateful they do it this way #but in that one meeting everyone was all over the place so this at the ending of the meeting this woman goes #“that... was frantic.” #in the most valley girl accent known to man #and ever since ive integrated this as my response to everything #youre right. that WAS frantic #she also was like “sorry im unfocused. need lunch rly bad” at one point during the meeting #this neurologist is just like the rest of us fr

[rubydubydoo122]

I think the funniest thing about how the Fandom perceives Tim (especially obnoxious Tim fans) is that he is was deeply hurt by the actions Jason, Damian, and Dick have done to him, but lowkey that’s just the fandom projecting

Tim lowkey did not give a fuck. Maybe a little at first, but he definitely does not hold a grudge against any of them.

#Tim Drake #unhinged tim drake #like will Tim eternally hate you if you take a sip from his Soda? yes #but attempted murder… he can get over that #Damian and Jason were just having a really bad time #(looks at that one panel where Tim forgives Jason for being an asshole supreme) #and he can admit that Dick was under a lot of stress during the time Bruce was lost in the time stream #angst is fun though #so I don’t BLAME Tim fans for it #just sometimes it’s annoying because Dick is a really good older brother and doesn’t deserve the hate for handing off a mantle he created #and Damian was a child who only grew up knowing that violence was the only way you can earn your place #and it’s shown in multiple panels that Tim understands that #Tim was literally snarking while Jason beat him up at Titans Tower #(honestly that was most accurate sibling portrayal in media… so…) #I say that as a younger sibling who has had so many injuries from my sister beating the crap outa me #and my younger brother emotionally decimates me on a daily basis #really #certain Tim fans just make him a wimp

[fujii-draws]

I have something to admit that might add another tally to the “Fuji being mean to her pmd2 team again”. but.

….was anyone else anticipating a fight/altercation to break out between hero and partner during the future arc…

#LIKE. PARTNER’S ‘Why didn’t you use your dimensional scream’ VS #HERO’S ‘Why did you get us involved with Dusknoir in the first place/give him all of my information.’ #I SWEAAAR I LOVE RIBBONS AND AIMILIOS. MY MIND WAS JUST SO FRAZZLED DURING THAT ENTIRE ARC. #SO MANY BAD THINGS WERE HAPPENING… I WAS HONESTLY ASSUMING ALL OF THOSE MOMENTS CARING/LOOKING OUT FOR EACHOTHER WAS LEADING UP TO #-SOMETHING REALLY FUCKED UP #there probably wouldn’t have been time for it or to make a satisfying conclusion with all of the other plot happening but AUGH #I JUST LOVE CONFLICT OKAY.

[apple-grass-and-smiles]

Very cool and not heartbreaking at all for the PJO show to emphasize that Percy is an outsider not only because he's new to the whole demigod thing, but also because he doesn't know the rules of being a traumatized kid with all the daddy/mommy issues possible

#Percy all the time: wait I treated them with kindness and didn't do anything bad #why am I not being treated kindly in return #absolutely everyone else: why on earth would you be entitled to basic human decency? #(and for the kids it's 1000% down to trauma and how they've been raised #so many of the foster kiddos I work with do the same thing #they either have to be so good and perfect (Clarisse and annabeth) that they can't be ignored which works until the parent moves #the goalpost and they're left in the dust with a perfect report card that doesn't get them a second glance #or they have to be so bad that their parents have to intervene (Luke) because #and say it with me folks #bad attention is the same as good attention if it's the only kind you ever get!! #watching this and revisiting TLT specifically has been crazy because they're kids who have been removed from home at their core #that's what our main cast of demigods are #all the year-round kids are removed from home and Percy's ability to go back home and love it just as much as he loves camp is something #that separates him throughout the series #he has a safe place to land during the TLO summer and he's using it and no one else seems to have that #Percy has a stupidly hard life but he has a home base to go to and most of those kids can't even comprehend that as an option #Percy's home is his greatest strength and it'll also forever be something that sets him apart from his peers #I just have thoughts on pjo and foster kids guys #silence emily #percy jackson #pjo tv #I'm arguing this isn't even a spoiler because it's been a running theme. fight me

[majestyjun]

sorry this is so random or whatever but really, thank u for reading my shitty writing and even if u don’t leave feedback or anything, just knowing someone took time to read something i wrote is so crazy

so thank u for reading smth i put time into haha

#idk my life is a mess and so knowing that i can write and that someone actually wanted to read is so crazy #especially since i hate what im studying so i can at least have one hobby #esp bc i feel awful a lot of the time bc of mental health problems #and so this place is both bad and good but it’s good in a sense that i can control something in my life a little #so yeah thank u for being a part of a funny place called majestyjun that i started on a whim #during a depressive episode haha #delete later but um yeah needed to get it out

[thwackk]

i need a sitcom styled cartoon abt these two so bad, i’ll make all the title cards for every episode for free idc, i want it so bad

#dc #barda free #scott free #mister miracle #big barda #AAAAAUUGGGHHHHGGGGGHHH #I NEED ITSO BAD!!!! #GERRRRRGRRRGG TH SHAKING THEM AROUND #this is like. taking place during a time when they were not very accustomed to earth things #my art lol #barda should be a self defense instructor im just sayin

[chrisbangs]

hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi... #i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭 #i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh... #uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂 #i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say... #i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media / #without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ???? #i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀 #i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭 #who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

[snowangeled]

i;m literally so fucking done i've been trying to get a job for over a year like i've been looking nearly every day and applying everywhere i fucking can but i still haven't gotten one. i am extremely lucky to still live with my parents and not have to worry about rent or groceries but i have literally zero experience and savings i literally have 25 dollars right now and no one will hire me anf the older i get the less likely i am to find a job and im so stressed please nowhere wants me i fucking hate everything how am i ever going to be able to live on my own if i cant have any money im stressed as fuck please someone hire me

#and the only times peope have reached out to me they've then fuckingh ghosted me i cant do this anymore #sorry i didnt wqork during the pandemic because i didnt want to kill my mother sorry thats such a bad thing apparently #literally what's so wrong with me that i can't even get a low paying position. what i have i done so wrong that places that require no expe #experience still shut me out. genuinely im convinced ill never get a job and i shoukd just kill myself because no one seems to give enough #of a fuck about me anyway

[cisthoughtcrime]

.

#no really on Sunday i had the best sex I've ever had #like i lost count of how many times i came #i always thought i was pretty quiet during sex but i like couldn't keep it in #we fucked in every room in the place we fucked in the shower we fucked on the kitchen table #not an inch of me left unlicked or unkissed i feel like a new person #like are brits just bad at sex?? this was the first American I've slept with since high school and just wow #holding myself back from texting but i want it again #except this time I've learned my lesson and would hydrate and stretch beforehand 🥵

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Ngl youtube videos suddenly got me slowly turning into a Justin Russo hater.

#like mainly later seasons him #early seasons him is fine #but like i guess plot wise you could argue he becomes more iffy because you know the competition will be soon #and justin does want to become the family wizard #as for some reason this show still never fully tackled the fucked up shit of the idea that wizard siblings have to grow up studying magic #only for one or two or whatever number siblings to lose it to one sibling in a competition #like stevie was the closest we got to that #but like it still dont make it less bad with how justin was #like the worst example i can name is him literally refusing to save alex whose his sister btw and shes always dropped shit to save him #because he wants to project onto her that she purposely fucked up his chances to get back into the competition via #pushing the students to take the test only for them to be failed because bad guy being bad guy in reality #and basically blames her for the failure and such as a result and acts like its all an act when she is mad on the students behalf and shit #and his students have to drag him kicking and screaming just to save her from the bad guy's shit #and there's also the competition itself where harper and zeke get grabbed by a creature during it #but alex has to convince her brothers to save the two and thats just cold already on justins end with zeke #but cause they took too long they all lose the competition and magic #and both brothers especially justin proceed to treat alex like shit even during work hours meaning #fucking over family business just to get at alex #and when the dad ultimately almost sells the place justin STILL blames alex #like she was the only one working fully max was being max and justin was being a little bitch to her #aka the infamous refusing to make her orders only max's and when he does he throws the sandwich at her #and cause she was holding drinks at the time and didnt see it coming the drinks went on a customer #and also throwing table trash into her already full bin shes carrying around while cleaning tables #and therefore messing it up for her like #and alex's logo...well from sounds of shit thats just justin again being a hateful bitch to his sister with zero consquiences #even one commenter pointing how he sadistically smiled while telling her all her friends hate her #like dear god if the show was doing this to make everyone root for alex its working i hate later season justin #gonna be interesting if hes matured or not as an adult

[oflgtfol]

i was talking to my therapist last week about how i'm kinda excited but also equally apprehensive about starting grad school this fall because yes, i so so desperately needed a gap year otherwise i think i literally would have killed myself and/or had a breakdown big enough to land me in the hospital, and even beyond that i just needed to figure out a more concrete plan of what i'm going to do with my life in general -- while all of that is true, and i'm glad i took the gap year for it, i'm also apprehensive because i genuinely feel like an entirely different person than i was even at this exact point in time last year, nevermind anything earlier than that. it's only been a single year of me being out of school but my life has changed so dramatically, mostly for the better, and my whole personality has flipped on its head, it's just going to be so fucking weird going back to the same school, the same campus, potentially seeing my old friends around. augh

#sorry i was trying to find a post in my music tag in my archive and i scrolled so far back i got all the way to april 2023 #where i referenced sitting in a dining hall #and its like. DINING HALL ?!?!?! #im going to be sitting in the fucking dining hall again in just like four months. UGH #brot posts #it's almost similar to the separation between high school and college. where i feel like hs me was completely different than college me #and now only a mere year later i feel like. post-undergrad me is completely different than undergrad me #although now that separation is exacerbated by how short a time it was and just HOW drastic a change it was #like . a bitch goes on antidepressants suddenly theyre a whole new person. #like im lowkey excited to see my old classmates and friends again #but i also am dreading it bc like hi. hey. i have the same name and face as the person you knew but i'm someone else now. sorry #and also just the persistent fear that i'm going to regress or at least even just /feel/ like im regressing #just by being back in that environment again? #even if i'll be on meds this time and actually going to therapy and overall having so much more support than i did in the past #so as nostalgic as i am to be on campus again it's also like. hard to separate the present from the past #like despite it all. this bathroom was still the very same place i went to have a mental breakdown weekly #this bench outdoors was the place i sat by myself to eat lunch in the blistering cold bc i couldnt eat indoors during covid 2020-2021 #this bench indoors was where my friends had an intervention with me and forced me to call the on-campus mental health services #just . idk. feeling a strange mix of nostalgia and also being haunted by bad memories #oh the woes of going to grad school at the same place you got your undergrad. While mentally ill #but alas i need to save money by commuting and having instate tuition

[doodlebloo]

What's the quote that's like "And the worst part is even if I could go back I wouldn't belong there anymore" because that's how I feel about the dsmp

#like i dont have any time to watch streams anymore.. #i am so unbelievably lucky that the stars aligned and during the two years i had nothing to do and was in a bad place this #brilliant media came along and brought me constant escapism. #if the dsmp was still going on id just be suffering constant fomo from being at work or in class all the time #doodle.txt

[bunnihearted]

☃️

#out of nowhere i just got reminded of how in 9th grade during a break i was sitting w my friend group nd studying #me nd one of my friends got into just a silly argument bc she was always trying to cause friction lol #then she suddenly got rlly mad nd it resulted in her throwing a book in my face #and saying that i should just go kill myself and make the world a better place #and all our other friends just silently started packing up their things nd then just left #she left too #so i fled to the bathrooms nd cried for a long time not wanting to go to class #i ended up being a bit late to class nd walking into the classroom w all of my 'friends' in there was so weird #i also told our teacher but she didnt believe me nd just said that she (the friend) would never say or do smth like that #if just one of those friends would've stayed and comforted me..... #idk i am oversensitive so even small things hurt me lol but this was such an unpleasant nd bad moment for me #i felt so alone.... nd like none of them would care if i did kill myself. bc none of the protested when she said that skskksks #anyway.. i rlly dont wanna think abt my school time at all but sometimes i have dreams abt them nd i wake up remembering :((((