#i'm having feels about this stuff today

[thatndginger]

you guys wanna hear about one of my earliest attempts at writing a cohesive story? Well, you're gonna get it because I'm having a Moment with the adhd meds uncovering memories.

To se the scene: Imagine a 14 year old K. Skinny, painfully shy, lonely, and completely obsessed with books. While raiding her elder relatives' shelves for more material, she stumbles upon a set of books.

[Y'ALL I JUST FINALLY FOUND THE NAME OF THIS BOOK AFTER LIKE 5 YEARS OF SEARCHING!!!! I'M FUCKING LIVING. My plans for the next few days are gonna be reading these books for the first time in over a decade. I gotta temper my expectations tho, 14 year old K liked some questionable things :/]

Witch Season, combined with the Mortal Instruments series, made baby K want to do one thing, and one thing only: create her own story where a 'normal' girl discovers that she is now part of a hidden, magical world and learns to navigate this world and the power she wields in it. So, with all the optimism and enthusiasm she could muster, baby K set out to create.

Y'all, this story had everything a 14-year-old in the early 2010's could ever want. It had a badass female protagonist, it had a love triangle, it had Kingdoms of witches ruled by royal families. My favorite part still has to be the witch kingdoms. There were the typical ones - Earth, Air, Water, Fire - as well as Light and Dark. My protagonist, one Mia [don't remember her last name], was a Dark witch, but she didn't know it. Her neighbor and best friend Nate was a Light witch and the crown prince of the Light Kingdom. Why did he live in a random apartment in New York City instead of the castle in the secret witch realm that his family resided in? Because baby K said so, that's why.

The plot kicked off with Mia getting attacked in an alleyway and discovering her latent witch powers, having a panic attack about it, her bff Nate comforts her and reveals that he is a witch. But because he's a Light witch and Mia's a Dark witch, he can't help her. Some real Romeo and Juliet shit. Why couldn't he help her? Because 'opposing' kingdoms are naturally hostile to each other and as the crown prince of the Light Kingdom, Nate would be in so much trouble if he was caught with her. So Nate takes her to the Dark Kingdom, to the king and queen of the Dark Kingdom, where Mia meets the crown prince Jon. Nate and Jon form a rivalry for Mia's affections. Jon personally takes over parts of Mia's tutelage, Nate visits way too often, Mia is torn between the two (spoiler: she chooses Jon).

I was so into this story guys. I convinced my very conservative, cautious mother to let me commission an artist to make me art of Mia, Nate, and Jon. I still cherish those pieces to this day. Like, look at it! (coloring by me, lines by Palnk on deviantart)

You'd think that I'd have some writing or something to further immortalize this story, but... I don't. At 14 baby K was just starting to deal with severe depression and had a terrible habit of deleting all her stuff when the depression got too bad (Adult K is much better about saving all their shit and keeping copies). There is possibly some remnant saved on an old hard drive that I cannot crack, but for now there is nothing but my own memories and two pieces of art. And, after high school got hard and the depression really set in, baby K forgot all about her magical, angsty world and Mia, Nate, and Jon.

Now, for the keen eyed, you may have noticed that the names in baby K's magnum opus are eerily similar to War Witch's trio of protagonists. And to that I say, yeah, they're the same names :3. There's a reason behind that. After I got on my meds for the first time and really started to get better, I remembered all about baby K's passion for writing and creating fantasy worlds, and especially her witches. HOWEVER, 21 year old K was not nearly as angsty and into 'typical' fantasy worldbuilding, so I changed.... a lot. For a while, I was running with the idea of Mia and Nate being witch soldiers in an alternate-history WWI scenario where magic was real and trench warfare was so much more horrific because of it. Jon was a soldier on the opposing side, and outside of some really cool scenes I didn't have a plot.

Eventually, the more I poked at it, the more I changed; Mia became Mari, Nate reverted back to being a silver-spoon noble, Jon stayed a soldier but now he was on the same side, and I made an entirely new world for them to live in. No reasonable human could see the strings connecting baby K's witch story to current K's War Witch just looking at the two. But the names are my homage to my younger self, a thanks to her passion and enthusiasm. The characters and plot and world are entirely changed, but the names are (mostly) the same.

And maybe that's enough.

#k's storytime #i'm having feels about this stuff today

[spearxwind]

Ough tomorrow if ppl are interested i can talk abt my new oc ideas from today bc Im actually really excited about them 👉👈

#thunderclap #i know I can't draw as fast or as much anymore but hopefully i can show stuff soon even if its from my sketchbook #which ive taken up again at least for a little bit #i have plans for HR that I mentioned earlier today and i also have plans for CD that Im really hyped about including a bunch of design #tweaks and i also started working on a new map for it too! which im really excited about bc I'm putting more thought into it #and im gonna change graves' hairstyle too and im rly excited for that as well #and also back to HR im really hyped to be putting the other ocs in it and having everyone fight and interact it really fit so well instantly #its actually making me crazy like if this works im gonna feel like such a huge genius fr

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

I've been reading Exodus lately and I've just gotten to the portions where God gives the first commands to the people via Moses (twice), and then goes on to give detailed instructions about the tabernacle and how it should be built, and I'm just... we think art is unimportant?? we think things only mean as much as their functionality?? we so easily fall into the trap of believing that beauty means nothing, that it's cheap and only worth whatever mindless distraction it brings, that it's barely more than a cheap sensual thrill, that buildings should just be practical and plain and cheap, that everything should be functional but ultimately disposable, that paintings and dresses and mugs and curtains and carpets are just pretty but have no real value, that beauty is fleeting and vain and therefore shouldn't be thought about too much, if even looked for at all... we fall into these traps so easily, and we forget that there are chapters upon chapters of painstakingly detailed plans to build one portable worship tent, and those plans have been handed down through thousands of years of human history, because beauty and art and skill in craft is important

#I have to go get ready for work now but I will come back to this #and don't even get me started on the parts about God calling specific craftsmen *by name* #he called them!! by name!!! he said 'this man is good at his job. he creates beautiful work. he will build my temple and make it beautiful' #and even more--God inspired him!!!! it was a calling of GOD for him to create beautiful carvings and tapestries and candlesticks!!! #look even if you're not jewish or christian or religious at all you have GOT to see what it means that all these incredibly detailed plans #for building this tent-temple are extremely important #because even if you don't believe in God and don't think that this is all significant bc he personally gave the instructions #and then helped preserve this record of them so we could still read them today #you do have to see how important they were to the people of that time who first wrote them down #and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail #AND the fact that it's been preserved for so long and we can still read all the care that was put into creating this incredible piece #of artwork and worship they made #gurt says stuff #I just. gahhfhhfj. I'm feeling emotional about chapters of the Bible that I can't even fully force myself to pay attention to #bc there's so MUCH and I'm bad at visualizing this stuff and I tend to zone out while listening to it #but the fact that it IS that much!!! that there SO MUCH DETAIL and it goes on for SO LONG that I even struggle to pay attention!!! #that this was THAT IMPORTANT to the people who wrote it and to God!!! as an artist and someone who has always cared about art #this means so much to me ok #christianity #bible verse #bible thoughts #exodus #art #theology

[lunarharp]

being attached to that moment qifrey held a baby one time and my ideas for the future :)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #brief small post before i return to Real and Emotional things again...but tbh...this makes me feel real emotions too #i think the manga will end up with a epilogue chapter showcasing little things in the girls' future and orufrey holding hands or kissing... #to like Indicate things. if it doesn't happen beforehand. #But. Who. Knows. also then i suddenly started thinking about them raising a baby for ages today because of how narratively poignant it'd be #for things to end that way after having raised almost-daughters all those years. and how healing it could be for qifrey and etc. #thing i said on twt: girls visit so often that the kid's first words are Professor Olly #“deja vu.. i'm not your professor kid - i'm your father!” #sorry but they are literally a gay couple where one truly is like The Mom and one truly is The Dad. to me #i think a housewifey homemaker type lifestyle would make qifrey happy. be harder now that he's disabled - well that's why he has his man. #i dont normally care about stuff like fankids or whatever..characters becoming parents for real..but like..Come on #This is the couple to think about this with.....they already ARE parents..i want them to be happy for eternity #once all the horrors are over we have to make it there.....children are so precious families are so precious.... #i have bad relationship with parents personally and haven't interacted with children in years. And yet i still know that. #the fact that orufrey fight for children to be safe and educated and happy...qif wants to help coustas too.. #aaaanyway today was a pretty weird and difficult day so i deserved to think about happy futures for a bit. i hear it's possible #btw i'm most sure about tetia becoming the princess of zozah. i think that will happen. and riche should have the ribbon tassel.

[a-s-levynn]

About those new masks..

So i saw this take a few times already and i have some thoughts. Obviously it's paraphrasing but you'll see these a lot similar to this if you scroll in ST spaces since yesterday:

"These new masks have too much personality, they said the people behind the music is uniportant but they now have this new personalized look instead of the uniform sleek minimalist one and it is the direct opposite of what they are saying. These new looks do not fit Sleep Token"

Let me preface this: I'm not going to explore specific reasons why people might hate on the masks because... No i refuse to go there, but i will talk about the issues i have around this a bit.

No.

If you are hating on the new masks so much so as to cry about that "this is not what they supposed to be about" you are missing your own point. You are in fact shooting the opposite direction. You are no longer in it for "just the music" but you are very much caught upon the "everything else beside the music." You got distracted. You putting the blame on them instead on yourself for loosing your own point.

There is no moral highground in this whole ordeal. Please respect yourself enought to try not to look utterly stupid if you frothing about something you visibly misunderstood. Do not hide behind excuses. Do not put this on the artists. Own up to the fact that you simple don't like it.

Admit that it's your opinion purely; because ultimately the artist creating their own art will understand creative choices behind their creations more than you ever will. No matter how far you try to bend backwards.

The masks fit Sleep Token because it is Sleep Token who decided to have them. End of story. You can hate it all you want but it is still part of the shabang now. And don't try to mask your distaste over visuals with shouting about the artist not understanding their own ideology.

If you are so hung up on how they look like, more than what the music still is, than stop and think for a second please.. You have it backwards. If you really truly only care about the music, what it is about, what it gives you, than you are not going to give a shit what they are wearing on stage.

Maybe in a passing few sentences but otherwise you are not going to be worked up about it to the point you sent hatecomments to the artist who made them.. It is shameful.

Besides i hate to break it to people but they already had their personalities with their outfits just not this strongly. III had the random whacky shit. IV had the hint's of this comfy leisurly punk-ish techwear whatever going on besides the fancy stuff the past a months since the summer. II had a slightly sleeker but maybe sort of tech-ish look which is now reflected (in my opinion) much more strongly with this new look (which sorta reminds me of a stylized oni or something tbh and that is extremely in line with their older far-east inspired thematics visually, just saying).

They are not handing you the "we are unimportant" part anymore. They are not spoonfeeding it to you. Not in the way they had before at least. They presume you are mature and smart enough at this point to get it. To get to the conclusion that it is unimportant what they look like. And allow them to still have fun with it.

Or just they are being cheeky and went for something that would shake up the people. I don't know, i don't know them or anyone close to them. I don't have answers. But they are trying something new an it is perfectly fine.

Also which would have come off so much differently if Vessel is 100% btw. Be honest, if they would have been able to perform to their fullest abilities, far less people would be so loud over this.. This was just an unfortunate turn of events and when shit hits the fan it usually never just one dose. And my heart breaks for the boys for all this.

Besides, people were so loud about hating that "they looked the same" and "so hard to distinguish" and "easy to replace because of this" ... now they have personalized masks and looks and the same people cry about the exact opposite they did before..

Also it just occured to me that this is basically the same as the lightshow upgrade. It gives you something to look at at the rituals. The new looks are visually interesting, and with the lighting setup they have now they are gonna look like some seriously fun nightmare creatures btw. I love that already.

So all in all i don't know, i don't really have a point here i guess, but the boys are in such a no win situation right now and i hate the fact that people are shitting on them just because they don't fit their idea of "an anonymous collective" anymore. Which is reddiculous and sad because nothign has changed.

It never was about being a blank page. It was about being human. It flies over so many peoples head but the anonymity part isn't about not being a person under there. It is being about that person not having a name. It doesn't matter if the person has a personality or not. What matter there is that no name.

There is no definitiveness. It gives an open invitation for anyone to step into that person but first you need to recognise that there is a person there. And there is no doing that if there are no traces of personality. Or humanity if you will because personalities makes us humans. Don't make me hold a philosophy lecture here on what it means being human please.

It does not matter who that individual it is by tagging a name on them. But it is extremely important that there is a person there. Otherwise there is no connection point. If there is no person there is nothing to understand. But it does not matter how that person looks like. It does not matter what the person wears. Or what that person is called. What matters is that it is a human being. And as such you can understand it. Our at least you should be able to.

Regardless of the design of a mask.

#there is so much more there i could bring up and talk about but i have stuff to do today so i can't get hung up on it too much #but i hope it comes through what i'm trying to convey here #i'm not trying to hate on people not liking the masks because it is an extremely valid opinion #i hate people trying to mask it as a thing about sleep token loosing sight of their own thing #please do not try to hide behind stupid shit like 'this is not what they talked about' #cut the bullshit #grow up #and own up to the fact that you are visually do not like something #there is no need for a moral high horse in this case #you can dislike something for the aesthetic #but again. please do yourself a favour and try not to look utterly stupid about something you only half understand appearently #i'd say i'm sorry if i offended anyone here but i'm prepared for getting shit over this anyway so no i'm not apologizing #if you feel offended by this maybe this is your reminder that maybe you should think it through why you feel targeted #✌🏻 #sleep token

[orionsangel86]

.

#I know this is gonna come across as a bit pathetic #but I was already feeling a bit untethered today #wondering if I actually have a purpose here #ever since I came back to tumblr after my 4 month break I've felt very alone here #it feels a bit like everyone moved on without me #and I dunno i guess I hoped I'd be able to dive right back in again and just start engaging and enjoying it #but honestly I have been plagued with anxiety and intrusive thoughts about not being wanted #and the last thing I needed was some asshole anon #I'm already wondering if people are finding my event annoying #like maybe i should just shut up and quit #but I really fucking like doing this stuff I just wish I didn't feel so isolated #I'm being stupid i know #you should never trust how you feel about yourself after 9pm #but bleurgh its a horrible feeling #shut up saz

[miramisaki]

36(???) days until Charlie...

#mira draws stuff #fate charlemagne #charlemagne #fgo #fate grand order #fate extella link #charlemagne countdown #sorry for the relatively small ratio of Charlie to picture today I realized it was 11 p.m. and went oH CRAP #so smol Crane Game AU Charlie strikes again #the class work and the existential ennui have been kicking my butt #hopefully I'll feel up to drawing something more detailed soon... #thank you to those of you who've put well wishes in your reblog tags I see them and I love you #and for those who missed my post about it like forty(?) days ago I do know we'll be getting charlie earlier than my countdown predicts #but changing the numbering when we don't have an official release date would be too confusing #so I'm waiting until we have proper confirmation of the release date before updating the countdown number #prayer circle for Traum on May 10

[woosh-floosh]

comic about the mundanity of intrusive thoughts

#Just gotta learn to live with it! #sometimes it's a bit funny relaying this type of stuff to people who don't have anxiety #one time I couldn't find my dog and after I found him (still in the house!) I told my dad: #I was so scared he got out and got hit by a car and died! #but my dad reacted: D: thats a big leap to jump to. Are you sure you're feeling alright? #YEAH I'm alright I just have a bad case of brain worms #art #comic #my anxiety was high today but that was for worrying about whether or not I have a tonsil stone NOT the threat of nuclear annihilation

[jils-things]

to love someone is to heal someone

#~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #ignore tags if youre just here for the art and not me going full diary mode #anyways ... this is a little personal to me #especially with how i treat her here. i think this is a direct projection of how i'm feeling right now #today has been a little harsh on me - maybe a little painful even #i'm okay now - because i resolved it. albeit harboring some bits of anger to it but its not worth fighting about anymore #its hard to say that i'm - very optimistic so to speak because it's only one pillar i just jumped over and there will be more later #and this is me coping with it and im lucky to have mustered some energy to at least express it through drawing #i havent been drawing much for myself and it makes me sad because its my source of happiness #my time for drawing is being repurposed for other stuff right now and it still is and i dont feel entirely happy doing it unfortunately #i still have many things i want to follow up on my drawing list especially in my recent interests peaking again #but i resorted for now to making something im already used to. stevaide lol fgsjsddsjjsdjkghsdjgdjkhskjghshsgsasjhjsjksdjfhsfasgs corny ass #rest assured im at a somewhat relaxed state right now. throwing boops here and there calmed me down because theres people around me #who ig thinks im cool eajdhajhd #ahh anyway

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

questioning sexuality is so exhausting

#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me) #i keep on doing it for no apparent reason #someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that. #even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women. #i hate it here! #for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man! #at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage #and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk #but at the same time i. want to be loved. #i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself #i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it #and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately #this isn't entirely related but it kind of is #like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it? #i don't know. i don't know! #for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know #i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that. #but i don't know how to stop it. #i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all. #this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are #queer stuff tag #i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as #the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing #ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded #also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him #i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know #i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all. #i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever #care for me #now im rambling. sorry

[disposal-blueeee]

guess what ! doodles . again

edgar , nny and devi belong to johnen vasquez (even if i only drew nny and devi at the bottom)

scriabin by zarla-s

#vargas #vargas zarla #edgar vargas #scriabin vargas #zarla s #doodles #scriabin #okee dokee ! time to ramble about my life . you can skip the rest of this if you don't want to read . #started these one day before my first day of school and i just finished them today WOAH #i haven't had time to draw for one reason or another #i've had only two weeks of school and i'm already sick of it #my teachers are okay . #i've been interacting with my friends a lot more lately and i realized that that makes me feel really happy ! #overall . everything's been fine these days. #i pretty much gave up on trying to find people with my interests #los fans irl de jthm son puro invento de los papás #what else hmm #i struggled so much with some of these #my art style is still inconsistent af #trying to fix that ... #also halfway through this i realized that everything i was drawing was SO BORINg #i keep drawing the same stuff over and over again #whatever i want to draw some crossovers next #i have some things on mind :3 i'm exciteeeed #hopefully i'm able to draw them tomorrow . #DAMN it's already 3am good night #sunny's art

[ive-a-problem-to-flaunt]

Unexpected thing I discovered today: the Bad Buddy fandom is a bit of an outlier with its penchant for PWP!

(Well, based on the few fandoms I could think of that I compared it to, anyway.)

What I did was basically compare the ratios of [number of fics with the PWP tag/total number of fics in the fandom] for a bunch of different fandoms on AO3, where I picked the fandoms based on what caught my fancy - so let's call it random sampling so it sounds better.

The highest was Hades (the video game) with about 6.5% of the fics being PWP (unsurprising, Hades remains the horniest fandom I've ever looked up, you go Hades fandom). Setting that aside, the average of the other fandoms was between 1.5% to 2%.

Except Bad Buddy, which had 4.6% fics tagged PWP.

So then I looked at averages. I looked up the most popular fandoms in the PWP tag (i.e., the fandoms which had the most PWP fics), and the top five were Harry Potter, BTS, BNHA/My Hero Academia, MCU, and Supernatural. All of them were at 2%ish, except BTS which had about 4%.

I also looked at the most popular fandoms in general, based on these stats by destinationtoast in 2022. The top 5 fandoms and the percentages of PWP fics were:

MCU - 2.4%

Harry Potter - 2.2%

Supernatural - 2.6%

BNHA/My Hero Academia - 2.7%

Video Blogging RPF - 1.6%

Again, Bad Buddy has 4.6% PWP fics - close to double of nearly all the top 5 fandoms.

Admittedly, these are all small percentages so idk how much significance that 2% difference really has. And the fandoms are wildly different in terms of number of fics and stuff. But it's still interesting to me.

I even compared it to KinnPorsche and Only Friends because they're better known for sexual themes and have overlapping audiences with Bad Buddy. KP clocks in at 3.6% PWP fics, making it lower than Bad Buddy (but it also has 11k total fics compared to Bad Buddy's 2k, fwiw).

Only Friends is actually on track to beat Bad Buddy - out of 803 total fics, 4.7% are PWP.

Still, I think Bad Buddy stands out because here, canon's themes aren't particularly explicit, but it still has more PWP than most fandoms I looked at. (I actually looked at nearly 20 fandoms before I got too sleepy to keep going, but I'm not listing them all out because some of them had fewer than 1000 fics so the sample space might be too small and stuff.)

So yeah, the Bad Buddy fandom is horny and I, for one, am very much here for it :]

(I also looked at the % of E-rated fics (not just PWP) and in that category, Bad Buddy didn't particularly stand out. Actually, there it was Only Friends that came the closest to giving Hades a run for its money in terms of which fandoms have the most explicit works.

Aside from that I also noted the % of PWP fics that are E-rated, but I am too sleepy to make sense of those numbers, and besides, every fandom has those numbers in the 80-100% range anyway.)

(Also why am I posting this on this blog? idk. I usually put all fandom stats-y posts on a different sideblog but mhmm I felt like switching it up today. If I ever expand on this post - big if, that - it'll go back to that other sideblog.

Though I probably won't come back to this because I have the attention span of a fruit fly, there is more stuff to explore! Like, from a very superficial look around, it looks like South East Asian shows' fandoms may have a higher-than-usual ratio of PWP fics? I'd like to look into that properly and see if that's an actual thing or just true for the few fandoms I looked at.)

#pls ignore my inconsistent italicisation #I usually like putting in graphs or other visual depictions of the numbers #but I couldn't think of a nice way of doing it for today's numbers #also mhmm I think a fairer analysis should group fandoms by size+genre/medium #like the fandoms i looked at today included podcasts and musicals and shows and books - not just comparable TV shows #I did toy with the idea of putting in the effort to find better fandoms to compare BBS to #but then decided to ditch that and just go with comparing it to the most popular fandoms bc otherwise i'd have to sink a LOT of time in #and i'm feeling too bleh for that now #also also disclaimer: I've got a couple of people muted on ao3 so the numbers might be (slightly) off #placeholder tag #bad buddy #also as always if anyone wants to see my spreadsheet and stuff - lemme know! #one day (night) I will stop talking about fandom stats at 1 AM #today is not that day

[cerise-on-top]

I love your writing so much, you really captured who the Cod Men are 💜💜

Can I request Rudy with an S/O who likes to steal their clothing? Like I just know this man has soft hoodies and nice button-up shirts that we can use

Thank you 💜

Thank you, I try to write a mix of what I think the requester wants and how the CoD people would genuinely react to something! It's not always easy, but I try! And that's a really cute request! Rodolfo's been getting quite some love as of late, which is nice!

Rodolfo with a Clothes-Thief!Reader

When thinking about the relationship he has with you, Rodolfo thinks about many things: Spoonfeeding you some of his sorbet, cuddling under the blankets while drinking hot cocoa on a cold winter evening, kissing each other on the forehead during soft moments. He doesn’t really consider the bad things a relationship could bring all that often, being fairly romantic and wanting to live those soft and sweet moments with you, as well as remembering them in as much detail as he can. This changes when he notices you, who could usually do no wrong, waltzing around in your home wearing one of his hoodies. And I agree with you, his hoodies are very soft and warm since the fabric is important to him. He also makes sure they stay soft and comfortable since he always thought he’d be the only one wearing them. You opened his eyes, you are a thief.

When he sees you washing the dishes wearing one of his gray hoodies, he’ll simply stare at you for a moment, thinking about whether or not it’s real. He completely forgot that he, too, could be a victim of a relationship and lose his beloved clothing to his beloved criminal. If it’s a chilly morning, then he’ll simply walk up to you and hug you from behind. If he’s feeling especially mischievous, then he’ll put his hands under his article of clothing and onto your tummy so you can feel his cold hands. But that is unlikely to happen. Still! You need to be considerate of your partner as well! If you’re cold he is cold, put him in a blanket burrito!

While he knows exactly who this hoodie or sweater belongs to, he will ask you where you got it from, claiming that you’ve got a nice taste in fashion with a gentle smile. You can then either tell the truth or lie to him. The truth will earn you a chuckle and a kiss to your temple. Lie to him and he’ll interrogate you where you got it from. But eventually he will also ask you if you like his clothing that much. If you do, then you’re more than welcome to take it if he doesn’t need it that day. That extends to things that aren’t just sweaters or hoodies as well. Granted, he isn’t the most fashionable guy, but if he likes something enough he’ll usually buy it and look good in it as well. If you like his shirts as well, then sure, go for it. If it fits, then you can wear it. His clothing is, for the most part, fairly neutral. Lots of grays and lots of blues, so he prefers colder colors over warmer ones. There aren’t many motifs on his shirts, maybe some white palm leaves, but that’s about it.

If he sees you’ve really taken a liking to his clothing, then he’ll buy some more things he thinks you might enjoy, wear them every once in a while, and leave the rest up to you. He sort of does like seeing you in his clothing, in all honesty. You look snug and comfortable in it, plus it gives him the feeling that you do really really like him. When the two of you are roughly the same size, he’ll wear a sweater of yours as well from time to time, just to get some revenge and maybe feel as though you’re with him at that moment. It’s got your scent on it, and what else could be more precious in your absence? In fact, he’ll even give your big pink sweater a try if he really feels like it. You make him feel more comfortable in his skin, so he might even wear stuff like a hot pink and walk up to you so you can see him. If he looks ridiculous to you, he’ll be a bit nervous but laugh alongside you, if you compliment him and coo over how cute he looks, he’ll be a bit flustered and give you a shy smile. So yeah, if the both of you have been with each other for long enough and are comfortable enough, then the clothes stealing will go both ways, if possible.

Rodolfo might try to buy an extra oversized sweater so he can see if the both of you can fit underneath it. Yes, he hides that sweater for quite some time as he’s afraid you’ll laugh at him, but he really does want to try it some time. Maybe it’ll be fun. Maybe it’ll be pleasant. And if it’s neither of those things you have another oversized sweater to call your own. Sometimes you might even go clothes shopping together, just to see which parts of your wardrobe you can share together.

#cod #cod x reader #rodolfo parra #rodolfo parra x reader #I think I've gotten so many requests with Rudy that I feel more comfortable with him #not in writing sense but more in an established relationship sort of sense #not everything feels scary and new with him now which is why my view of him is slowly changing #like he's more willing to be touchy with reader now than he was when I started writing him since that “relationship” has been #going on for a while now. does that make sense? probably not but it feels nice #like the “relationship” is slowly progressing with him and he feels more comfortable with reader these days #I think it's sort of similar with Ghost since those two characters do share similarities when it comes to touch in my eyes #it's sort of sweet to watch actually reader and Rudy have grown closer and started loving each other even more these days #I remember when most of what I wrote could have been read as platonic as well. that's probably why they were hesitant on touch #but most if not all of what I write these days is romantic so touch isn't a big issue anymore #it just makes more sense. same thing with Valeria too I think #as a writer you sort of do build a relationship with the characters as well which is also very sweet in my eyes #the characters are friends. they're lovers. they're enemies. and anything inbetween #I never really noticed such a thing before but I thought about it today. did that happen with off too? I don't remember #so yeah. my HCs are slowly changing for the sweeter and I think that's cute! more domestic stuff which I'm a sucker for!

[cathalbravecog]

Mity I doodled (mostly from memory) earlier instead of studying for finals

#Sorry if I've been talking to people less or if I ignored literally anybody I'm trying to focus on stuff #Even if I'm active on Tumblr a bunch reblogging stuff #I'm tryna not to distract myself TOO HARD #I got finals this week dawg.... #I feel really bad for it but also I feel better distancing myself a bit from certain activity online #And like tumblr #Bc I've been checking this app endlessly and I need to get out of that habit #I think I did well enough about that today (that I wasn't actively thinking about it) and now I have the feeling og #POST AND SKITTER AWAY back so that feels a bit better but I feel bad for not responding to people oops #IRTS oakey. Have a mity. I will be mental illness rambles in my tags sorry #I am go eepy after posting this #Toontown #Toontown Corporate Clash #(unsure abt main tagging this for reasons stated earlier and bc too many notes can get to my brain but... I likey this one.) #Rainmaker #Guz art

[chiropteracupola]

this round's my treat!

#em draws stuff #team fortress 2 #medic tf2 #heavy tf2 #this is a story called I Would Like To Be Having A Flavor of Soda They Don't Stock At The Grocery Store #and so instead of having any myself I shall send the fictional characters to the soda fountain of the imagination #another continuation of cliftonsimage I fear. but then again cliftonsimage does continue consuming my thoughts to this day. #[tilts my head to one side and my neckbones make a noise like a bundle of spaghetti snapping] I'm very normal about them #currently experiencing a curse of little time and many ideas and also did not feel like doing inks and colors in my usual way today #so it goes so it goes.

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc. #Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ?? #Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER