#i'm not here i'm just a hallucination

[dramascene]

IN BLOSSOM 花间令 (2024) dir. Zhong Qing

#in blossom #cdrama #cdramaedit #ju jing yi #lie xue yi #dsgifs #* #1.11 #i'm not here i'm just a hallucination

[millenniummmbop]

LOVE how kaiba would rather just openly admit to everyone that he has a psychotic disorder than actually believe for a second that ancient Egyptian magic could actually be real

#thinkin bout that one kaiba line #'oh great i'm hallucinating again 🙄' #he's really out here every day like 'yeah NO SHIT there's something wrong with me but there's clearly something wrong w all of u as well' #*experiences vivid flashbacks of his ancient Egyptian life* #'yeah it's just the mental illness don't worry about it it happens 🙄' #'i saw a fucked up melting dragon back in duelist kingdom we don't need to talk about it' #LIKE THAT VERY MUCH WAS THE MENTAL ILLNESS. BUT ALSO MAGIC IS ALSO REAL #LIKE I GET WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM KAIBA BUT MAGIC IS VERY MUCH REAL IN THIS UNIVERSE

[dazais-guardian-angel]

I hate to nitpick the Atsushi hallucinating scene in the new episode cause it was SO well done otherwise, but I'm still really sad that they cut out Francis being there. Like... it's not entirely necessary, I guess, but it just adds so much to his character and to the scene itself?

The Francis in Atsushi's mind is this looming, intimidating presence, because Atsushi did of course fight against him, he was his enemy at one point, but I think it undeniably says a lot that he's even included here at all.

I'm pretty sure I saw this discussed back when this chapter first came out, but while everything Atsushi's hallucinations say to him are framed as negative, putting him down, they can also be read as letting him know that the burden of responsibility for making such a huge decision isn't on him (hence why he decides to let Fukuzawa decide instead, because he can't make THE choice, but he can still choose to act to let someone else decide, and not simply do nothing), and Francis is no exception in this regard. Since he's naturally haughty and arrogant in his personality, this fake version of him doesn't at all feel out of character, coldly saying that "nobody expects anything of you", but again, I think this line especially can also be read as "you are not expected to do anything". In that way, it feels more reassuring, and maybe even dare I say kind -- the fact that Atsushi even considers him important enough of a figure in his life to think of what he would say to him in this moment means that he counts Francis among his allies now. Yes, they didn't get along at first when Francis lied and told him that he only wanted to revive Margaret just so she could kill Hawthorne (because god forbid he actually admit out loud that he cares about people, smh), and obviously because of the whole almost burning Yokohama down and trying to kill him and Akutagawa thing lol, but I'm pretty sure Atsushi changed his mind about him after he saw the state Margaret was in, and recognized how much Francis cares about her and wanted her to be alright. He probably still remembers him talking about his desire to bring back his daughter and save her and his wife, too. The guy still probably isn't someone Atsushi would want to hang out with and be buddy-buddy with during his free time lmao, but the airheaded vain old sport still has a good heart, deep down, and I think Atsushi has seen this by now, because he's a kind person, and so I think it speaks volumes that he unconsciously looks to him for advice here. Francis is just a really good and underrated character, and this is such a small but meaningful moment that shows his development so well, the only moment with him we've gotten or any of the Guild really in such a long time, so it makes me sad to see this cut 💔

I also just feel like not including him kind of weakens the impact of Akutagawa's appearance here?? Like, there's a progression of the order of people Atsushi hears/sees in this scenes: first, people from the ADA sans Dazai, who are all portrayed as on the same level, because he cares about them all equally, aside from I guess Kyouka (again, sans Dazai, the most important person to him). Then, there is Francis, and not to say that Francis is more important to Atsushi than the ADA, obviously not, but he's one of the last to appear because he used to be his enemy, and so he commands much more of a presence, has more of an impact -- but at the same time, like I said, it's complicated: he's not really his enemy anymore, but something between a rival and a friend, and so for that reason his words carry more weight. He is someone Atsushi, logically, shouldn't trust, after what he did to him in the past, and yet he does, because things have changed since the Guild arc, and he knows he can count on him to be there for him and the ADA now.

And then, after him, there is Akutagawa. Who is basically exactly the same as everything I just described for Francis, but times one hundred. Of course Akutagawa would be last. Of course, if there's someone Atsushi would simultaneously and paradoxically be both intimidated by and yet comforted to hear their advice because of their tumultuous history together, far more than Francis, it would be Akutagawa. The progression of ADA members > Francis > Akutagawa in that order gives Akutagawa's appearance much more weight imo than just going straight to him from the ADA members, especially with the specific framing of him standing in line behind Francis to judge/advise Atsushi.... it's just much more powerful, and I wish they'd kept it like this, for both Francis and Aku's characters.

#bungou stray dogs #meta #i know i am one of the 10 Francis fans to exist but dammit i'm defending my dumb sad American silly man!!! #he deserved this moment in the anime it's so important!!!!!! #'you just want Francis to be the weird new dad figure to everyone' and what if i DO OKAY #HE IS A FATHER WHO MISSES BEING A FATHER just let me have him being Atsushi's silly little weird uncle/father guy in his hallucinations oka #in my dreams he's Lucy's adoptive dad and therefore Atsushi's too because he supports her little crush on him #he and Dazai are just chaotic wingmen to AtsuLucy it would be the funniest thing ever okay i need this #(WHAT IF KYOUKA REMINDS HIM OF HIS DAUGHTER TOO 😭😭😭) #but i'm getting off topic ahem- #point is cutting Francis from this scene does it a disservice #it's FAR from the worst thing Bones has ever done don't get me wrong and the scene is still wonderful as it is #but i'm still sad :((((( #Francis crumbs are so rare as is so I was looking forward to seeing him here </3 after how much I loved seeing him in the chapter originall

[keets-writing-corner]

wait wait wait wait wait

hold up

hold on

hold the phone

we were already theorizing that Jaune is going through some mental issues, the whole crossroads thing hints at it BUT uhhh can we talk about 2 things that were mentioned/confirmed???

right at the beginning, Jaune trails off and doesn’t complete the thought but “Is it really you? when I saw you in the market I...” as in, he’s not entirely sure they are real. RWBY needed to console and confirm to him that it IS them they ARE real

and then later one when they’re having that confrontation with the cat, the cat literally says “These days Jaune is a few dingle berries short of a picnic” aka mentally, Jaune hasn’t been all there, or at least clearly has demonstraited SOMETHING that implies mental issues (granted we now know we can’t exactly trust everything the cat says either so this COULD be false)

but friends

FRIENDS I NEED TO KNOW

HAS JAUNE BEEN HALLUCINATING???

#rwby v9 #volume 9 spoilers #jaune arc #I wanted this cuz I'm a sucker for angst #but like #AHHHH #Has my boy been checking out with reality involuntarily this badly??? #to the point that he's hallucinated team RWBY before #and knows that it was a hallucination #and now that he's actually with them is doubting the reality of it #either that or #he dreamed about it many times and woke up sad and needs reassurance that this is in fact reality and not a dream #idk there's so many options here #I mean the other option is that it was just something he wanted for so long that now that he actually has it he's having trouble believing i #which is pretty fair tbh #but huuuuu #the cat implies that it's the former #as in he's had hallucinatory episodes #or something like that? idk

[daddyplasmius]

okay, so, I've collected a bunch of DP fandom stuff that I remember off the top of my head, specifically in chronological order & colour coded here in this post (fics/comics, tumblr posts, important imo) for no reason other than I saw a post asking for Phandom history & it triggered my biggest, most long-running hyperfixation & now I'm curious if anyone else remembers stuff.

this link is going to be the permanent version I will be updating, but I'm posting what I currently have (gonna go through my old laptop later for more) just to let people know. you can also find the link on my blog, but only on desktop. It isn't colour coded there, sorry.

please share more if you got anything else cuz I'm 100% sure I'm missing a lot of stuff & am too interested now. the biggest reason a lot of stuff isn't here is that I simply can't find it. second biggest reason is i forgor. things not included here aren't "unimportant," this is just the first stuff that comes to mind.

putting it under a cut 'cause it got kinda long

Mars by JadeRabbyt (2005)

Checkmate by pearl84 (2006)

Conversations of a Ghost Gabber by Cordria (2006)

The Foley Maneuver by bluemoonalto (2007)

One Thousand Years by Nylah (2008)

Lab Rat by AnneriaWings (2009)

Lost by Cordria (2010?) [1] [2] [3] [4] [5]

Phantom of Truth by Haiju (2011)

Ghost Deaths (2012)

Through Coals and Rain by Kakawot (2012)

Shadow of a Doubt by Haiju (2013)

Pink Pants (2013?)

Wes (2014) [original] [1] [2] [3] [4]

this "I'm Inevitable" gif (2014)

Space AU (2014)

Treading Water by The Full Catastrophe (2014)

Danny, you dead IDIOT!! comic (2014)

wash away the darkest days by anthrop (2014)

Reverse Trio (2014)

Inverse Trio (2014-2016) ALT

Halfas are "feral children" (2015)

Burn the Streets, Burn the Cars by anthrop (2015)

It's Not Gay if He's Dead by phantomrose96 (2015)

You Smell Like Death by starfleetrambo (2015)

Ghost Bird AU by @rest-in-peachs (2016?)

Things I Can(not) Do In Amity Park by RedHeadsRock1010 (2016)

KEtTLE by Cordria (2016)

Deeper, Darker by Silvermoonphantom (2016)

Danny Phantom Punches Butch Hartman In The Face by MistressVintage (2017)

Dannypocalypse (2017)

Ghost Train (2017?)

Ghost Physics by jayrockin (2017)

Ghost Infographics (2018)

The Taxonomy of Ghost Cores: An Observational Study (2018) Communicating with Ghosts Professionally: A Study (2018)

Species in Danny Phantom (2018?)

Diddles Piddles by diddly-darn-ghost (2018)

Broken Ectoplasm by ghostanimal (2019)

Ghost of Heroes by Enigmaris & ScarletNightFury (2019-2020)

do not stand at my grave and cry (i am not there, i did not die) by blueh (2020)

Undercover Phantom by artistfingers (2021)

Corruption is a Two Way Street by datawyrms (2021)

Things That Bleed by artistfingers, kkachis, & Perfectly_Inconspicuous (2022)

10,000 works on AO3 (2022)

Ghost Speak:

Danny's handwriting (2015?)

Cordria (2015)

Fiver-Rivers [1] [2] [3] (2019)

Rubber Chicken Sounds (2019)

#Danny Phantom #Phandom History Archive #do you even understand how hard it was to find the original Wes post???????? #i spent like 2 hours on that alone #Wes Weston why are you so hard to find #just realizing that a lot of shit happened in 2014 #like. 2014/2015 ish #i joined somewhere between 2014 & 2016 so i guess i literally came here right at the peak of phandom activity #the height of tumblr's paranormal activity. you might say #i think i'm just biased though #should i put my own fics on here. Phantom is pretty important to me being my first DP fic #& also the thing that got me back into writing #it's not very good but by god if i dont love it. & anyways i put Bird AU on here lol i think i can put Phantom up at some point. as a treat #also if any links are broken tell me cuz i'm not checking them again. it's 4am #reminder: gotta find those Bird AU fics i read & put em here. there ARE actual Bird AU fics. i know there are. i did not hallucinate that #it just might be the hardest thing on earth to do since that was years ago & i have no idea what they were called #anyway gonna add a fuckton of fics & (hopefully) tumblr posts when i go through my old laptop. i got everything bookmarked on there #like. so many fics. i had them organized too based on what kind of fic it was. but they all have stupid names cuz i was like 15 #me: i should do my stencil art today. just to be a bit productive & also maybe make money #my brain: what if you organized Danny Phantom fandom posts into a big archive for people to look at? for free. until 4am. #me: you know what that sounds so much better let's do that

[autism-swagger]

I think people are allowed to headcanon whatever they want, but at the same time I've never understood when people headcanon that Billy would've been a good dad to Sam had he lived.

Like I'm sorry but I don't think Mr. Misogynist is exactly girl dad material.

#au where Sam is raised by Billy but instead of being a killer she's just really fuckin misogynistic #do I think he would've raised her (or at least been in her life)? probably! #do I think he'd be a good dad? hell fuckin no!!!! #I think he would find the idea of a successor to mold and groom very appealing #and I'm talking about real Billy here btw #not Sam's version of Billy that she has in her head #I think that's where a lot of people get mixed up tbh #like they see Billy interacting with Sam #and just assume that that's how the real Billy would've interacted with her #and they're forgetting that Sam never met Billy!! she has no idea how he would've acted!!!! #hallucination Billy's actions/personality are entirely products of Sam's mind. they have absolutely no basis in real Billy whatsoever #horror tag #og fandom post tag

[astriiformes]

Surely being this sad is enough, why does it have to come with other Symptoms

#i got maybe 5 hours of sleep last night despite going to bed at a reasonable hour and now i'm so tired i feel like i'm hallucinating #in part because i ended up clinging to scribe and sobbing about the various terrifying/gory intrusive thoughts i was having #bad and messed up!! what the hell! #also makes it hard to figure out what to like. do about any of this #clearly there is something going on here that needs management but is not just major depressive disorder #i know there's some ocd tendencies in my family but nobody with a full-blown diagnosis and i don't think i meet it either #so like is it my anxiety? something else entirely?? #i don't know but i would sure like for it to stop!

[whatever-you-can-give-me]

my biggest challenge with regards to addressing the things i'm frustrated about in popular trigun fanon is that i don't necessarily think any of them are bad on an individual level, i respect everyone's right to create fanwork even if it's not so much fanwork as using existing characters as a template for their own personal proclivities. that's. fine. everyone does it.

i really don't want to imply that everyone who's decided they like wolfwood better if he's bulky and betitted and sexually capable is doing it because they need to check their internalized biases in regards to the expectations of masculinity for men of color and the general perception of latino men. that's allowed to be a thing you like. and 98 and trimax wolfwood do have some traits that vaguely resemble fanon wolfwood. it's not like it came out of nowhere.

but. if that's what everyone is doing, regardless of the canon being depicted. that's just a little bit weird!! that is a totally different guy from any of the versions of the existing character. and the specific traits that have been invented wholecloth for this fanon version have some. baggage!!! given the simultaneous redesigning that across the board darkens his skintone significantly.

and similarly i don't have anything against trans vash headcanons or even the tendency to have the trans character bottom, there is zero problem with that. i have literally, intentionally, written wolfwood the same way people write vash because i genuinely agree that the dynamic is hot.

but when "has a cunt" has replaced vash's entire personality in fanon because of course being a trans man means being a squeaky tearful uwu bottom and probably a virgin. i start looking around for who spiked the punch with terf koolaid. this is more than just falling for vash's bit this is just. wringing him of any individuality or canon personality.

complicating things even more is that a lot of this shit predates stampede, and it predates stampede because the original versions of characters did have some of the quirks that their new & fanon soup versions are assigned. but they had those as part and parcel of their characters, and that's just been repurposed into extremely tired and racist & bioessentialist tropes.

i know this is a bigger problem than this one fandom or just these two characters, but vashwood is my ship, so it's the place i've felt the most disappointment.

#more coherent post abt this now that i'm in a slightly better mood #i'm just tired yall. i'm tired. i was here for like six months before stampede and the fandom was so small and manageable #being a niche property/cult classic type fandom made it more immune to popular fandom pitfalls. #and i love stampede i really do. part of my frustration is how hard it is to find fanwork of either stampede OR classic trigun now #because there's just. fanon soup. #and a lot of my favorite things about all the triguns and vashwood in particular hit the cutting room floor first. #it's really discouraging. part of the fun of fandom for me is engaging with other people's fanworks. #and i would really love to find fanworks of. the thing i am interested in. #without wading through all of this fanwork for a collectively hallucinated entirely different property that i have no interest in.

[selfshipseaside]

Definitely kicking a hornet's nest with this one,

but it's a chance to vent so here we go.

I wish people would keep DNI's to their own pages, rather than putting them on every single selfship post.

I hate when I see an imagine that I would otherwise reblog, but it has a big DNI at the bottom.

My blog doesn't have a DNI, and I don't want to endorse the DNI's of other people or make any of my followers feel unwelcome because someone else's DNI is on my blog, so I just don't reblog those kinds of posts.

(I mean on some level I don't think DNI's are even that effective in the first place. I kinda just wish people would block blogs they don't like or agree with rather than calling for a public harassment campaign against them. I suppose on some level this technically makes me "proship" in the literal sense that I oppose harassment over shipping, but I also don't actively ship the kinds of things proshippers are supposedly known for, and I understand why they might make people uncomfortable, so I guess I'm neutral? I just wish people would use the block button instead of creating this atmosphere of exclusion. We all just want to imagine our F/O's; we shouldn't have to agree on everything to reblog an imagine.)

This is all a very fair point to make, anon! I also recognize the hornets nest *I'm* kicking by answering this ask. I have an opinion that...well, a lot of users won't like, probably. But I'll be the first to say it if not the only one. (And let me preface this, because some of you will take this as an opportunity to harass me. I'm not on either side, neutral, or adjacent at all. I do not associate myself with discourse, this is known!) DNI's to me, are extremely performative (Especially DNI banners, what's the point?). And yet, everyone has a general DNI. I do! But I do recognize how performative it is at it's core, I have one to try and attempt to what everyone else does, keep the bad eggs out. But, we cannot control people, we can't ever know who anyone is truly through a screen. Using your own judgement to weed people out is and will remain the best solution for personal curation of your own space. I can't trust a good chunk of this community because I know I'd get taken advantage of in one way shape or form, it's happened to me multiple times already. I will also say that not having a DNI might inherently outcast you from the general community due to everyone's fear of somehow supporting a bad person, or alternatively attracting people you might not want to interact with you, so a lot of people have DNI's, but don't like having them (Myself included). I don't usually answer asks that blatantly claim their stance, or blatantly oppose a stance. This blog is entirely discourse free, and I want to respect absolutely everyone who is worthy of my respect(IE, people who aren't causing harm, people who aren't assholes for no good reason). I also cannot control who does and doesn't interact with my blog, unless I catch them by chance (I see too many accounts fly by in my inbox to keep track, ya dig?) If i see someone I don't agree with interacting with me, say someone who I genuinely believe to be abhorrent with their behavior, I block them. It's not my job or responsibility as a community self-shipping blog to build people's spaces for them. That's their job. This is why call-out/block-lists posts are not my gig, nor will they ever be. They're also performative, and spread a type of negativity that I just simply wont ever promote in a place of comfort and safety. This might be the only time I ever mention this blatantly, but perhaps the future has something else in store. I'm unsure! I just know that a lot of my opinions are rooted from having a perspective and lens in every single playing field to now not even inhabiting any side whatsoever. I'm very articulate with how I manage my morals, I might be a radicalist in some aspects, and grey in other areas. Life doesn't have lines for the less abhorrent tidings. DNI's are one of many human responses of trying not to look like a bad person out of fear, and perhaps even being unsure of themselves and relying on others to speak for them. But that's another topic I won't get into! Sorry this got so long! I do enjoy talking about this subject, but it's just interesting to see how everyone feels. I want to promote listening and civil discussion, emotional intelligence and discussion on community dynamics. Once again, controversial takes are welcome! Let's discuss stuff about our community!

#Marnie answers ✦ #I'm unsure if you all will think of me differently #but I don't need to explain myself further really #I'm not on any side of this coin. baby im not even here im a hallucination #i just have opinions and thoughts and feelings. crazy right?

[wetcatspellcaster]

Which I am also enchanted by btw. Totally in chokehold. Feeling very embarassed about it, like I'm slipping love letters in your locker bc I saw how good you are at soccer. Please send help.

My silly wizard-core self reading this: I have literally never been good at any sport. I have never received a love letter. I could hold nobody in a chokehold without getting wrist cramp from my RSI 😅.

Meanwhile, I am kicking my feet and twirling my hair at the use of the word 'enchanted'. Get bewitched, motherfucker.

In (slightly) more seriousness, I don't know what help to send you, anon!!!! I'll try to write more chapters???? ...Badly?????

#asks #anons #lovely words from lovely people #fascinating developments in the ask box #i'm just sat here with my bg3 hallucinations. my dnd dice. and my cats.

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

im thinking abt zero constructs again and i think its tough to really communicate the Vibe i want it to have but also i maybe never talked about it super in depth?

but anyway as a thesis statement it's mostly about how much faith you put into the evidence of your senses, and also the intrinsic gulf of understanding between all people. there's a fundamental youness to every person that never quite gets communicated through interactions. and then imagine the youness was erased from reality entirely, and then something else came in, a blank slate, unmolded clay, and tried to reconstruct the you out of the them; out of what everyone else thinks that person was like.

say the slate can perceive those thoughts and those preconceptions perfectly. could they be a perfect you even just from an external pov? how many people could they convince that they were the one they were replacing? because they can perfectly mimic what the other expects them to be like—but that's regardless of whether or not that perception is correct. they have no idea if that conversation partner misperceives them, is overlaying their own biases or malformed beliefs onto the personal idea of them.

so that's dusk and helic. continually-updating copies of deleted people, trying to convince society at large that they haven't changed at all.

meanwhile they're cooking in these bad templates, all these people who half-know them or don't know them at all, immediately judging them based on a scarce glance. meanwhile that snap judgement becomes a part of them because they're such well-polished prisms, they're made to be mirrors.

and then barry and emmet show up, and after months-to-years of these bad copies, they're faced with the two people who know their original basis better than anyone in all the world. and oh god, oh fuck, they had it all wrong. they've got to scramble in the milliseconds they're given to try and throw up a better front; how was dusk supposed to guess how much dawn liked touch, that it would be immediately and distressingly wrong for her to not tackle-hug her friend after so much time apart? how was helic supposed to intuit that it wasn't just a resting face, ingo never really smiled, but his subtle-shift version of a 'smile' was immediately recognizable to his loved ones anyway? they didn't know, they were perfect mirrors but they didn't ever really know—

...on the other end of this, though. the b-side and the first thesis. you thought you lost the most important person in the world and now they're standing in front of you again, and you, right now, gun to your head, say that they're not real. it's not even a matter of wanting, this isn't about pretending to themselves because they want it to be true. it's just that—it's been a while, they've gone through so much, and so much more importantly, what if you're wrong? are you willing to gamble on the chance that you've just told the real them you've changed so much that i don't even recognize you as yourself anymore?

but more generally "i think they've been replaced by a construct" is a completely bonkers thing to say about someone unprompted. if we're talking snap judgements then humans really prefer it when things go how they expect. it makes way more sense for the thing that walks like dawn and talks like dawn to actually be dawn, ditto with ingo. so then the question becomes, once they get cozy with that assumption, how much doubt does it take to make that mental jump? how high do you need to stack the differences before it tips?

on both sides it's about believing one thing, without even really having to think about it because duh, of course, and then the slow realization creeps up on you from behind, that the entire time, you've been horribly wrong.

#the nemesis speaks #zero constructs #this post feels kind of deranged sorry. i talk like this when i'm tired #but anyway hee hee i love it when a character distrusts their own senses #ENOUGH PHILOSOPHICAL METASHIT about your perception let's put it to the test. let's get gritty with it. #oh so your perception of reality is functionally indistinguishable from 'objective' reality from your pov? #what if it wasn't. what if i knocked it sideways and now you didn't think what you saw and heard and thought was actually true. #what if you still feel like you're right but simultaneously your right has become wrong. #but you still can't escape your box! you're trapped in here! what now! #does anyone else feel me. am i talking bullshit right now #not just in the sense of hallucinations i mean that's a facet of it but more generally like. gestures to the above post #and also i like it when a character has been so set on a course of action and then suddenly has a crisis of conscience #and can no longer trust their own judgement bc their righteous crusade is now apparent to them as brazen cruelty #yknow??

[aparticularbandit]

Okay but.

If Ryoko is Junko.

Why are her eyes red when she's Ryoko and blue when she's Junko.

I mean, we can play the Red Oni, Blue Oni trope if we want, but like.

Which one of them is wearing contacts.

#musings #bandit liveblogs #bandit liveblogs danganronpa #i'm probably missing something here #because like #either ryoko hallucinated junko in the last chapter - totally possible! - or there's something else going on besides just #ryoko = junko with amnesia #but i figure i'll find out with the book progression and whatnot #or not #either way!

[rancidarling]

hmhmbbv nothing is technically stopping me from trying drugs actually

#I feel as though I missed out on the titular teenage experience of getting pressured to do drugs #sowwy I'm still a pure little angel that gags after a shot of vodka like a pleb #alright alright #how much do edibles cost? #and where the actual fuck do I find a coffee shop #actually can some sketchy guy on the street just give me meth #I'll take it and probably end up killing someone :) #the only thing stopping me from doing anything destructive is my laziness and total lack of apathy #remove that and we're all in for a bad time :D #.... are mushrooms legal here? I swear I've seen a shop selling them in the capital #my brother described it as an interesting experience #but also I think I'd just have an absolute panic attack if I hallucinated anything #but idk it sounds interesting #..... oh what am I even talking about #I get a stomach ache just from drinking an energy drink #and I think I could take any sort of drugs ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ #r.r #drugs cw

[fourfuckinghorsemen]

They finally gave me my phone back. I'm not sure how long I'll have it for though.

#I think those things hijacked my blog? #I don't know. #They aren't giving any answers. #I don't even know what the fuck is going on here. #The deer is trying to be my therapist? #But also my mother. #At the same time. #And somehow it's kind of working? #Either that or they're pumping me full of drugs. Which wouldn't surprise me honestly. #I'm probably just hallucinating this fucking freedom. #Tua rp #Tua rp blog

[buttercup-barf]

... Oh, shit. My queue's empty. UHHHHH- FLOATING HEADS OF OC'S??? WILL THAT DO??????

These are all from varying points in time and have varying levels of jank, but it is what it is.

One of my favourite things is putting my blorbos in distress and discomfort. They cannot have one good day, it is simply Not Allowed.

There's also some thingos I drew with them in the human "AU", featuring a friend's OC's, but since she prefers not to share them, I'm just gonna. Crop 'em out. I like these doodles too much to not share them as well.

I try to arrange the photos in such a way that they won't take up too much space, but this also results in this pretty decent-looking Ian being right next to this janky-ass Strizh just because they're both square'ish.

#ronna kuruz #strizh/shilo #ian katod #you may start to see my ''can't draw a face or hair or body type consistently'' issue creep up a lot more here #UNLESS MY WIFE WAS RIGHT AFTER ALL AND I JUST HALLUCINATED ALL OF THAT AND THEY LITERALLY DO NOT LOOK DIFFERENT AT ALL #but then what if i have same face and same body type syndrome??????? #i have no idea what i'm looking at with my scribbles half the time girl help </3