#i've wanted to drop this forever

[useragarfield]

♡ ULTIMATE SHIPS MEME ♡: ‘We Could’ve Had It All’ Ships [3/4] ↳ Nicholas Scratch & Sabrina Spellman, The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina ( 2018 - 2020 )

Maybe it’s selfish of me, but I don’t care about the world. I care about you.

#caosedit #nabrinaedit #caos #usertokio #andremichaux #tusercourtney #usc* #romancegifs #usertelevision #tuserisabel #nicholas scratch #sabrina spellman #tv #myedit #i've wanted to drop this forever #there aren't enough posts in between #but whatever

[spellboundcities]

can anyone hear me

original v

#dropped everything to make these in a fit of mania the likes of which I cannot describe #I've been wanting to make pearl fanart/work on a design for her for a while and. and harrow. harrow??? #like the big jacket? the wolves? come ONNNNNNN #big jacket pearl will forever be real to me #local cryptid draws #pearlescentmoon #pearlesentmoon fanart #double life #technically #kinda???? I based this on her red skin so #milgram #milgram project #been obsessed with these btw. peace love milgram #traffic series #double life fanart #trafficblr #are we rocking with the hair streaks btw? Cause I'm kinda rocking with em #block game go brrr

[arthursfuckinghat]

Arthur and Honey Puff 𑁦𐂂𑁦 Lake Isabella

#I love andalusians they have really great stats but they're definitely not as brave as I was told they were :( #I found honey by brandywine drop she's really cool but I've been bucked off less by my belgian draft horse weetabix #she's fine with packs of wolves and gunshots but everything else even snakes she bucks me off #she's left me to die four times by cougars and bears :( not even grizzly bears either #I'm not sure if I'm going to keep her but she's perfect for everything aside from getting spooked a lot #I had to sell Lloyd because she would get spooked by everything and I'd died many times to her leaving me on the ground #it broke my heart but I didn't want to stable her forever #I am too attached to my horses #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #honey puff my horse #liveblogging

[karda]

my birthday is in 8 days and i am n nnotttt feeling it . at all.

#i work the day before and day aftwr so i cant really go anywhere #i have nobody to invite if i could👍 turning 21 going to bed at 7pm and not drinking with no friends im like the ultimate loser #😁 #i was planning to finish my meet the artist before my bday so i can make like a yearly thing with it #but i havent been able to sit down and color anything in forever #art has been so shit lately. i just sit down and scribble and then get mad and stop #playing sdv like an addict for a week and then completely dropped it #reading random manga i found in my closet (love hina) #i really am like . not feeling it #im off center #i want a new tat but i got dentist bills next month #and i really need a new car. i think mines about to explode #and I really need to go on testosterone #but i cant even go to the doctor for my migranes #so how am i gonna ask for hormones #everything is baby steps away but im too scared to even try #i couldve been on hrt since i graduated #i couldve been trying to get into schools #i couldve . fuck idk? actually learned guitar by now? instead of dropping it and letting it rot in my closet #I've been on fucking autopilot since 9th grade #last tkme i had friends.

[stevebabey]

ello all,

obviously you might've seen that poll i put out last week, to check interaction for a stranger things writers server, and it’s literally DELISH! to see some of you keen to join :D!!

i’m worried i’ve potentially pitched it as just a general server, so i want to clarify; this will be a writing server, for x reader writers.

we won’t be screening for that, there will no need to ‘give proof’ that you're a writer or anything whatsoever! especially because there are plenty of aspiring writers who find their feet in their own time & may be inspired in this chat and we would never want to discourage that — but this server is to be very writing-orientated. 90% of the channels are dedicated to discussing fics.

another reminder that this server will be 18+, and while it is for the older st teens, there will be no space for billy hargrove here.

you can message to ask for the link.

hope to see u there! mwah, ruby and sanne x

#hopefully that answers some questions as well! #to clarify what i mean by writing server #god forbid i ramble in the post but i WILL ramble in the tags #its like. so many times i've dropped into my friends dms and been like TANGLED AU. YOU AND ME. LETS TALK #and had the most delicious ever discussion for HOURS #and just the other day! me and sanne helping each other with our fics!! #sometimes other people can see what you can't #the last thing your story needs #the callback detail you forgot to put in #that's the goal! #plus... as always it's forever fun to just drop a pic of steve #and ramble your headcanons to someone #i want that space to be like that #ok that's all for now #plenty of hopes & yet.... we will see aye #ruby.txt #stranger things writers server

[front-facing-pokemon]

#azurill #okay let's see if i can be functional for this set of tags. azurill is a retrofit baby prevo for some fucking reason #i was under the impression that these mostly happened in like gen 4 but here we are. i've been surprised multiple times #and this experience has been showing me that they're spread out everywhere they feel like being for no reason #and natdex ordering makes no sense forever and ever #i am currently very cold and i woke up earlier than i should have and did not get enough sleep because my body decided it wanted to #which i think is a pretty shit reason but it wouldn't exactly allow me to go back to sleep so now i'm up. and. well. i am not liking it #azurill is like cute. it's like. cute. it's blue so i always thought it was a water-type. it has the pikachu cheeks. ummm #it used to be a normal-type until gen 6? and then boom. fairy-type. the azurill kid in pmd sky who drops his apple #shouts to that kid. end of sentence

[tenspontaneite]

Bruh people aren't fucking lying about COVID fatigue goddamn

#covid #life of sponty #ive been sick since i got back home on 12th #infected probably 1 to 3 days before that #so im coming up on 2 weeks of covid #and right now the worst symptom remaining is the fatigue and exhaustion #i got up and showered and sat at my desk for 30mins and now I'm so exhausted i have to go back to bed #it's effort to stroke the cat #the other day i did a small physical exertion and afterwards was so intensely tired it tooo about 6 hours of recovery #just to be able to lift small objects without dropping them #shits fucked bruh #also I'm getting the classic taste fuckery and bitter and alkaline flavours are literally making me choke #it's wild #desperately hoping it doesn't last because i really dont want to lose onions forever #i love onions #i was scared for a second that I'd lost mango too but it turns out it's just the mango skin flavour. the flesh is fine #cough was only monstrous for like a day #rest of the time it's not been any worse than ive had from normal nasty coughs. pretty manageable #the fatigue is wack though #I've never been this weak before #it's kind of fascinating from an authorial perspective #this is going to be useful experience for the writing banks

[novelconcepts]

i don't make resolutions, but if i did

it would be to finish this fic

(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)

#i'm finishing it if it kills me #i know i've been writing this makeout scene for 3 weeks but baby that can't last forever #if we want to get deep and dark and serious for a second i do think a lot of my struggles to write lately have to do with engagement #and how incredibly low engagement has been on the last few things i've written #which like. is what it is. i'm not entitled to anybody's time or comments or kudos. #but when you write stuff you're proud of and it feels like it's barely getting read it's hard to keep momentum. #this isn't intended as a woe is me or whatever it's just kind of like. there. hovering. #happens enough times you start to wonder if it's you. am i just writing for the wrong fandom/ship? #(too bad if so. they're in my bones i'm writing for them and no one can stop me.) #but yeah. if you ever wonder if authors do care or notice about hits. comments. kudos. buddy i am here to tell you #not only do we care and FLOURISH we also notice when those things drop off and readers vanish #and it is a giant bummer. and sometimes makes us wildly paranoid about why that might have happened. #so if you liked a fic today--not even one of mine. just. anybody's. share it. comment on it. #kudos at the VERY least (cuz frankly kudos is there to be an 'i got to the end and this was nice' feature. #so when you get 500 hits and only like 30 kudos? it feels like 470 of those people hated your work) #anyway. that got out of hand. lil' too raw lil' too honest. happens when you let yourself ramble at 11:30 instead of sleeping #to sum: let your local fic writer know if they've made you happy #and as we go into 2024 i am swearing to myself that this fic (and probably several others) are getting finished #come hell. high water. or dishearteningly low engagement numbers. #(and then maybe we...actually work on something original. cuz why not. new year same old me but i'll do my best.)

[musicalchaos07]

At least s4 didn't try to convince us that Hawkins has an airport

#I'm hyperfixating on the small town feel of it all #like Hopper and Joyce went to high school together #everyone but mr Clarke knows what happened to Sara #Dustin didn't move until 4th grade #these kids have gone to school together forever #Steve's house is next to Jonathan's like #even the bad things like the hawk is Jonathan's job #or that Joyce wants Jonathan to go with Karen to make posters #and then Karen drops off a casserole #Jennifer Hayes cries at Will's funeral #that's Lonnie's missing kid #I've worked here for ten years donald #Tommy and Carol have been having sex since 7th grade #like they have all known each other FOREVER #ugh don't talk to me #stranger things

[gloriousmonsters]

read camp dama.scus. enjoyed some stuff, really wish i didn't have the experience so often reading a book that's Good and Progressive and about Queer Affirmation etc of feeling like i'm side-eying the author like 'and you know that delineating the people that oppose you as pure evil that therefore deserves torture or death or being eliminated from society entirely is bad, right? you know that, right??'

#it's kind of funny bc the main character is a jack chick tract atheist in a way bc #she rejects her religion (REALLY quickly and easily lol) and immediately starts... conceiving of HERSELF as a prophet/god #as in. starts making up 'bible' verses that are about Her and how awesome she is #and how she's going to bring down her enemies with the righteous flaming sword of vengeance and wrath and truth etc #which i would love as a character Thing if the narrative didn't just treat this as 'super metal' with absolutely no further examination #(seriously she casually drops that she's been making up bible-style verses abt herself and her ideas #in convo with her Token Good Christian friend. by CITING ONE OF THEM #LIKE IT'S A BIBLE VERSE. and then going 'o yeah i've been making those up' #and her friend's reaction is just 'haha that's sick' and moving on) #listen i'm all for god complexes and edgy bullshit but the presentation along w the general #descriptions of the Enemy as 'cartoonishly pure evil' and implicit 'haha nice!' around the idea of THEM getting tortured forever #just leaves me :///// #i might be oversensitive to this after stuff like Sorrowland and Pet but.... just. ech. i wish i didn't have to play the game of #'do you think torture is ok if it's someone you don't like?' and 'do you consider people who do bad things as human?' in the first place #also it was just a HUGELY underwritten book lol it'd make a decent movie but viewed as a book it gets funnier the longer i think about it #was marketed as conversion camp horror. 0 conversion camp content bc IT ALREADY HAPPENED #0 relationship development bc the two people the MC connects with she ALREADY HAD RELATIONSHIPS WITH. THAT SHE FORGOT #so you can 'i'm falling for x again' all you want dr tingle that's not what's happening the work is not there #also ofc the other two people are just. The Tech Guy and The Cool Hot Nice Love Interest (2 aesthetic traits no personality) #so yeah like. some very good horror moments/concepts! but some Problems. For Sure #vic talks #book talk

[keeps-ache]

heart cake !!! i have a little pink heart cake :DD

#just me hi #joy is so real man hfhbsh :DDD #the gas station by our house has these little cakes that change with the seasons #i like the spring/easter ones the most bc they're bigger tho (and also they're the first kind i had so i have the Attachment to them lol) #but yyyayyy pink heart cake :DD #there is something about a little pink heart somethings that makes me so happy. cannot explain #it is the Epitomy of joy and love on planet earf god bless #[chanting] heart cake heart cake heart cake !!! #//in other news!! there is not much news Lol :3 #though it's starting to get warmer which means it smells like spring which means i am nearing my Maximum Brain Functioning hfsh #something about spring has me making like 5000 new characters and stories and then dropping them as soon as the weather hits the 80s lollll #if anybody wants to take any of these things off my hands. please help Hbvsh #though i am very attached to everything i've ever made so they may just sit in my brain forever anyway pff #//gosh i am !! filling up with ~+~sparkles~+~ and blueberry jelly #/blueberry jelly is the BEST jelly of all time by the way. absolute Peak condiment #it tastes perfect and the little blueberry bits they put in there?? wow now That's a real gift hfhshb #i don't really like blueberries but blueberry jelly could steal all my belongings and i'd let them bvhsh #/why Are berries so sour though? #is it cuz of all the sugaryness i'm used to? cuz if so that is so tragic #little berry is trying its best. its not their fault i like confectionary sugar :< #sad! #//OH but if you have the time please look up a variety of fruit-based cakes #orange and grape cakes are very pretty :D #don't look up banana though after you do that you may be slightly grossed out (even if you know you shouldn't be Hbvhsf) #//hm is it hard to read what i'm writing sometimes lol ? #cuz i'm always trying to get the full thought out in one breath and i think that translated over to my writing hvsh #//oo i'm running out of tag space #i must depart !! for the moment !!!! :00 #see you on the moon !! [crawls under a traffic cone]

[allyphase]

and the Tactician stood proud, as she always had

It was over. The soldiers had retreated, the line had been reestablished. Quiet returned to the throne room of Castle Ostia, and Mark pressed herself into a corner, slid down to sit on the floor, and sobbed into her hands. 

When was the last time she’d been caught off guard like this? When had she been ambushed, left without a plan...? When had she ever had to give orders over the roar of battle, trying to be heard over the screams of the dying? 

Her throat ached from the strain, but it sobbed anyway, forcing sound to her lips stained with salt. She curled her body into itself, the backs of her hands to her knees, and prayed to anyone that’d listen that she was free, that no one would look to her for direction, that the weight of so many lives had been lifted from her shoulders, for now.

What honorable commander started the game when she hadn’t even put her pieces on the board yet? Who developed their side without allowing her to respond in kind? Who cornered her when she should have been safe, when they were resting, unprepared for battle? 

A smart commander, she had to admit. Had she the chance, she may have done the same. 

Heavy footsteps charged away from the group, as the soft hum of healing magic and murmurs of comfort began to swirl around her, trying to mask the sounds of a battlefield dying slowly. Someone placed a hand on her shoulder, but they must have seen how it startled her, so they pulled away without another word. She didn’t bother looking up to see who it was. 

She thought, somewhere, she should be celebrating - no lives had been lost, and the castle had been reclaimed - but her mind only could remember the piercing eyes of the sniper, the crashing of the walls around her, the fierceness of Hector’s demand - Mark, we need a plan! 

It felt like a miracle, that the battle had ever ended. Like they had expected a miracle, from her. And with her victory, suddenly Mark, the girl from nowhere with a broken chess set and an empty stomach, was the Tactician, a title, a miracle worker who would win them an impossible war. Her quiet voice had become the foundation of peace, ordered to boom loud enough to fill villages, castle halls, the entire Dread Isle. Her name was one with weight, a legend on its own, that would stand the test of time, stretch beyond her life. 

The weight threatened to crush her, break every bone in her too-weak body. But there was nowhere to hide from it, not for her. Not for a deserter, not for an unlucky girl who kept stumbling into justice. How could she ever admit, that her almost precognition was from years of harsh schooling, from drills being forced into her head, from endless battles where her soldiers wielded wooden spears and the banner she flew was the one she now fought? 

She couldn’t, was the simple answer. She couldn’t force the words past her tongue, couldn’t dare to imagine the betrayal in her lieges’s eyes as she admitted that she wasn’t the miracle worker they wanted, that she was just a girl from Bern, and she was afraid.

An ambush wasn’t difficult to respond to because of the amount of soldiers, or the unfamiliar terrain, or the need to think quickly, decisively. Any normal battle would test the skills of all on the field, in the dodge of an axeblade, the retaliation of archers, the hum of magic just below the chest. No, an ambush was difficult because it forced all of life to become a battle, where every hallway could have enemies down it, and each point of light in the dark could be a lantern or an eye of a sniper, already aiming an arrow to her heart. 

The Tactician held herself in her arms, and cried until she couldn’t anymore.

#winds across the plains (ic) #distant travels (drabble) #and the tactician stood proud as she always had #YIPPEE ITS DONE #i feel like her reactions to this shape so much about her character and how i write her #and i go insane for the mark/tactician divide #its my headcanon that mark's name gets dropped from the legend of the rgb lords really fast #there's talk of a Tactician but not Mark yfm #i've been wanting to do this forever im so happy its done #minor fe7 spoilers ig?

[goldiipond]

bro you cannot keep reminding me itll be 20fucking23 in a little over a day i’m still stuck in 2020. idont feel a day over 16

#skye's ramblings #calling myself an adult still feels so wrong. lockdowns and dropping out of highschool deprived me of like. crucial development i think #i dont think im ever gonna grow up properly and im already treated like a kid for daring to exist with autism. i am just sitting here #im 16 and i'll be 19 in 5 months and im being SO brave abt it #but enough about that!!!!!!!!!!! because im also thinking abt how pretty soon i'll have known some of you guys for 3 years #which is wild to me. my online friendships before tumblr never lasted but i've made some of my best friends here #nice that we can go forever without talking and i can still look at you n go HEY thats my best friend as if we talk every day #new years resolution or some shit is to reach out more. i've gotta get more comfortable just talking to my friends when i want to #ive been too lonely recently. i miss my friends' servers but theyre almost all dead/gone i gotta get more comfortable talking one on one #idk. all in all i this this new year is bittersweet. but i think i'll be okay

[v-iv-rusty]

I feel like growing up with parents that are rabid conspiracy theorists about anything and everything affects you like. way way way deeper than most people do (or maybe want to?) acknowledge. and I just wish it was talked about more honestly

#misc.txt #ventish #(<-not too bad just tagging for blocking purposes) #like. this is embarassing to say but my parents were and still are severely anti vax. so at some point I need to go get #proper rounds of vaccines #bc obv I was not fucking allowed to #preferrably uh. fucking soon if I can work out how to do it without them knowing #(and if I can't I guess. I'll have to figure out some health insurance stuff bc I could literally be in danger if they did know.) #(which is a whole can of worms on its own.) #and EVEN THOUGH I fully 100% know that everything they fed me was bullshit #I still have so much deep fear around it bc it was drilled into my head so fucking hard growing up #x will kill you. y will make you sick. z will probably damn you to hell forever but maybe not who knows better to be scared and 'safe.' etc #and it's so hard to even explain it to ppl because they go 'oh so you still believe that stuff' and no!! no I do not!! #Ive just been trained since birth to be afraid of anything n everything!! I've been fed lies for my entire life!! thats hard to shake off!! #I WANT to do good things for myself but my stomach drops on instinct just thinking about it #and I am so so so tired of having to be brave about things I never should have had to be brave about. that's all ig. I'm tired. #like either ppl think you have also inherited their insanity OR they just look at it like 'oh haha funny quirky kooky' #no it's kind of torn my psyche to shreds in ways I'm still uncovering. but w/e go ahead and laugh <3

[flecks-of-stardust]

went wiki diving based on what i already know, and also a few things i know i'd never find on my own. what the fuck.

so straw has a canon design now too, huh

#i can't wait to go visit moon as spearmaster #hbhbfgbhbgbbh #also i just spent a while flicking back and forth between the SL and WF maps to compare them #just checking how the rooms align #it's so cool but also makes me so so sad #i also just want to know how moon's can collapsed #i guess i'll know more about that when i play rivulet #i also finished watching all of arti's dreams #apparently i locked myself out of it by killing chief scav? #which is. so sad. what the fuck #all she's going to have forever are nightmares then #i died in the last one too #ouugugug my fucking. god #still brainrotting over arti. expect the fic to drop. eventually #it's gonna be multi chapter i'm pretty sure #i just need to get this out of my system #i've explored WF pretty thoroughly and found out most of what i want to know about arti #so most of it has passed #i can function again :'D #rain world #downpour #downpour spoilers #artificer spoilers #saint spoilers #(? at least that's what the wiki says) #i like tumblr folks' designs of straw better tbh #also this basically confirms that sig is the iterator that shows up in hunter's ascension sequence right??????

[girlscience]

I know it's kind of cheesy, but since I've started getting into the idea of being healthier and working out and stuff I've been trying to figure out why. Why am I doing this? Am I just doing it to lose weight? Am I doing it to get stronger? Am I doing it to make my body and mind feel better? And every reason that I've thought of has felt very weak. They are all reasons I've tried doing this before and I have dropped it every single time. None of them have been strong enough for me to continue and be consistent. But I think I found my reason last night and it is actually kind of hitting me hard. I don't want to quit again. I just don't want to quit again. I have given up on nearly every single thing I have ever tried to do for myself. And I don't want to give up again.

#i have picked up and dropped so many languages and art programs and exercise routines #i have started and stopped trying to teach myself physics and astronomy and calculus #i have made so many goals about keeping up with chores and doing them on a routine only to quit a week in #i've told myself i would reach out to family more often because they won't be here forever only to never call them #i've tried to make myself stop procrastinating on my to do list and get things done as soon as i think of them instead of waiting months #but still they sit and wait on there for me to 'get the right energy' #i say i'll read more books and i never do #i say i'll get off social media and i never do #i say i'll stop watching short form videos because they are affecting my brain and i never do #i say i'll start waking up earlier and i never do #i say i'll make a consistent bedtime routine so i can fall asleep easier and i never do #it's literally a fucking THEME in my life. if i was a movie character it would be a central aspect of my characterization. i quit. i give up #over and over and over again #i do NOTHING i set my mind to and i'm so tired of it #i want to do just ONE thing. ONE THING. i say i'm going to #I don't want to quit again. I'm not going to. I'm not. I'm done