#over and over and over again

[viliantropy-art]

how

#sth #myart #amy rose #metal sonic #it keeps happening #over and over and over again #it goes the other way around too...

[luminousstardust]

JESTER MESSAGING IMOGEN?????

#OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN #TWO QUEENS MAXIMIZING THEIR JOINT SLAY #i’m fucking cryinf #jester lavorre #imogen temult #bells hells #critical role #critical role spoilers #bells hells spoilers #c3e86 #tay liveblogs

[strqyr]

forever cursed to be having strq thoughts they truly are The Team and The Moment

#how do they do it #i do not know #but they keep rotating in my head #over and over and over again

[wolfofartblock]

More researchers au because I love that au but never know what to draw for it, but!

I like the idea of Alex crawling around through vents, pipes, across the floor, walls and even ceilings as a horrifying mass that, depending on the day, can range anywhere from a puddle of tentacles to a half-formed human-ish shape. It's the most terrifying thing Desmond has ever seen and of course no one else has witnessed what he's talking about when he tries to tell the others. This would have to be before Alex confirms Desmond's suspicions of Dr. Mercer having been eaten and replaced.

#Alex doesn't mean to scare desmond #it just happens by accident #over and over and over again #researchers au #desmond miles #assassins creed #prototype #protocreed #doodles of the art blocked wolf

[yammmmmmmmie]

so many shows and movies i wanna watch but what if i just rewatched castlevania instead

#its either that or i cyclically watch the same four youtube videos #over and over and over again #plus #now that ive seen nocturne i would like to restart the original #since i remember it being better but i cant tell if it actually was #or if its just nostalgia #also like its just good #castlevania #netflixvania

[dandelion-bride]

have you ever sat there and thought about how fucked up it would be if you lived in a world where literally everything was made for people bigger and stronger than you? like by design. how exhausting it would be to exist knowing you are not the target audience of life. how difficult keeping a scrap of self-esteem would be.

is this about halflings or people who aren't tall men?

yes.

#Zefira-coded #i wake up #i want to write #i doubt myself and fall out of focus #over and over and over again

[kalisbaby]

I just finished watching Quiet On Set and at this point I wanna take weapons and start riding on the industry.

This isn't a joke. I am legit so mad and heartbroken by the violence that Hollywood continues to allow and enable people, especially white men, to wield all for the sake of a profit.

Mental, emotional, and physical safety of the staff and casting, especially the children, be damned, right? As long as those dollars still roll on right? How many more documentaries and exposés do there need to be before some real change takes place????

At this point burn the whole industry down and salt the motherfucking earth. Omfg...

#after reading janette mccurdy's book and hearing drake bell recount his abuse #and how many ppl just sat back and allowed that shit to happen #over and over and OVER again #i'm exhausted and angry #i have nothing else to say

[meteortrails]

the theme of tragic siblings in one piece makes me feel like a rabid squirrel stuck behind someone’s drywall. bc there’s just this constant running thread of like. your sibling will shape who you are and who you will become in ways that you can’t even see or understand. even in their absence, you will never stop being their brother/sister; the mark they have left on you is too indelible and permanent for that. regardless of how long you have been apart or the circumstances that estranged you, you will fit back together like puzzle pieces you didn’t know were missing. you’ll never stop seeing them in the people you meet and the places you go. you’ll find new people and new family but you will never find anyone who fills the hole they left behind, anyone who understands you and loves you in quite the same way they did.

#like. zoro and kuina. nami and nojiko. the asl trio. the donquixotes. law and lami and later his hearts. hiyori and momonosuke #over and over and over again #one piece #op meta #Corey is reaching the climax of marineford in his watch rn so I’m having Feelings

[epickiya722]

An AU where Miruko was the one to go undercover to infiltrate the Paranormal Liberation Front. Like that? That would be an absolute riot.

I'll tell you one thing, the Commission wouldn't even have a say in it.

She just wakes up one morning and goes "I feel like breaking into a secret ring of people and tearing it from the inside out". And that what she does.

#in fact i would watch a whole segment of her adventure just going undercover #over and over and over again #she wouldn't even need to act or lie #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #just kiya's thoughts #miruko #mirko #usagiyama rumi #rumi usagiyama #rabbit hero mirko #rabbit hero miruko #pro hero miruko #pro hero mirko #paranormal liberation front #I'M SHIFTING INTO MIRUKO FANGIRL MODE #💜🐇🌙 #lov #league of villains

[bemtevis]

you're telling me ari became friends with CHARLES but not ALASTAIR?!?

#BULLSHIT #the thing about his redemption arc is that cc never really acknowledged his real faults to begin with #his sin wasn't to be closeted. it was to disrespect his partner's wishes and boundaries #over and over and over again #so his redemption doesn't hold up when you leave the confines of what the story tells you #and analyze what's underneath that #WHEN I SAID KAMALA SHOULD HAVE FRIENDS THIS WASN'T WHAT I MEANT!!! #the last hours #chot #chot spoilers #chain of thorns spoilers #chain of thorns #arati bridgestock #arati joshi #what last name is she using now?? Idk but I love her name #anti charles fairchild

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

I can’t stop thinking about Michael Afton but not even like in depth thoughts it’s literally just “Michael Afton Michael Afton Michael Afton Michael Afton Michael Afton Michael Afton Eggs Ben-“

#foxy bro #mike schmidt #Frits Smiiiiith #Eggggs Benedict #whatever the fuck that kids name was in the lonely Freddy story #no thoughts only Michael Aftons name and his name alone #over and over and over again #michael afton #fnaf

[witchking-jr]

hey beloved gremlins of the web site.

I’m pondering escape and freedom from the psychological torture of fundamentalism this fine evening, and if you too escaped that maze, tell me about it.

Among people who grew up in fundamentalist religious environments and ended up leaving, you hear a lot, and rightfully so, about the trauma and grief and lost experiences of growing up that way.

I could tell you all those tales, but not now.

What about the feeling of the crack in the rigid little box, the realization the horizon is not a boundary but a portal, the sudden expansion of the self, your past self, that had the courage and boldness to say fuck it and walk out?

I had a few such moments, but the most vivid was a day in October of 2009. I had ridden my old mountain bike to a Campus Outreach event near the U of M campus. Campus Outreach was the college ministry of Bethlehem Baptist Church in Minneapolis, the deeply dysfunctional, patriarchal, and white supremacist church I grew up in.

We played Ultimate Frisbee, a game I hated. As I had for almost my entire time in church culture, I stayed on the sidelines, body buzzing with restless energy, which I now recognize as intuition, telling me to leave, that that place held nothing for me.

I finally, fully, listened. I made some excuse, got on my bike, and rode away. It was raining. And do you know what it fucking felt like?

It felt like that part in Pilgrim’s Progress, when Pilgrim loses his big bag of sins. I felt like I’d lost 70lb of dead weight, physically. I felt the restlessness subside, replaced by euphoria. No one could make me go back, and no one had any real leverage, except fear, and that was feeling like a rotten thread instead of the thick rope it used to be.

I rode back to the West Bank through Dinkytown in a haze of happiness. I was free. I’d freed myself. I hung around church with my family for awhile, out of guilt and habit, but that was the beginning of the end, and the birth of every other beginning: being bisexual, being nonbinary, being non-monogamous, leaving Christianity fully, changing almost every single political view I held, allowing myself to be the artist who had been pounding on the walls since I could hold a crayon. Changing myself and being changed so radically that it still makes my head spin, well over a decade later.

Fundie Christians love the narrative that someone who left Christianity was tempted, corrupted, deceived. In reality I’d realized I could fit thru the bars of the cage, the prison guard was a dead scarecrow husk, and the big scary gate was barred with a toothpick.

And since that day, I can tell you from the deepest part of my soul: every part of my life got better. Every single thing.

So tell me, where were you when you realized you were free?

#ex christian #ex fundamentalist #queer stuff #and I didn’t know then #I didn’t know #that I was not i only running AWAY but TOWARDS #towards the great loves of my life #towards politics that valued thriving and life instead of death #towards magic and witchcraft and all the glorious expanse spirituality can have #towards community that faced state terror and violence and remained #with compassion and fierceness and endurance #idk how else to tag this shit. #my writing #the soundtrack to this was Space Song by Beach House #over and over and over again #that big soaring steel bit in the background

[bnesszai]

Hmm Dazai for the ask game?

Writing Game!~

Hi Sol! 🥰

Dazai, my most hated (beloved) piece of garbage. The song that came up was “Dark on Me” by Starset which is. Perfect for pain so here we go.

You led my way, then disappeared / How could you just walk away and leave me here?

Three months.

It's been three months since Dazai was forced to have both eyes opened, forced to leave everything behind (again), forced to hide underground.

Three months since his friend put him on a new path.

“Odasaku,” he says into the darkness. “I cannot find the light you asked me to seek.”

Somewhere, someone snores. Somewhere further, someone chokes on their own blood. Somewhere even further, someone with glasses sits alone at a bar in guilt and someone with a tacky hat wanders into an arcade by themself.

Here, though, Dazai takes another drink before smashing the glass into the wall. “Odasaku, Odasaku, Odasaku,” he says. His head spins but it's too dark to tell which way is up anyways. “You were supposed to write lives. Not lose yours.” Something stings against Dazai's palm. The throb is disgusting proof of his own vitality.

“Odasaku, why did you embrace death without me?”

#i had a completely different idea when instarted writing #and then this happened #:)) #sol 💫 #thanks for playing! 💚 #bsd #grief afterall is an uphill battle #healing is a non linear mess of unravelling the threads which make us before stitching them back up #over and over and over again #ness writes

[magicalgirlmascot]

I don't understand Nuparu's character well, but I got thhe feeling that he'd try to create more objects with cores. Both for Matoro and to see if he could.

hdlgshf ohhhh I bet he would! Like he only tangentially understands how all this ghost stuff works but is that going to stop him? No absolutely not. He convinces Matoro to come hang out in one of the like six workshops he's set up all over Metru Nui for a day or two and just. Uses him as a combination rubber duck and test subject. Living beings only get cores when they die and come back, but objects? How do they get cores? Can you give something a core artificially? LET'S FIND OUT.

Bonus if Matoro and Nuparu can't actually talk at this point because Nuparu hasn't died, so Nuparu has set up a series of buttons Matoro can use to "talk" to him using recordings of his own voice

#bionicle #gt au #i think of nuparu as being like. friendly enough but socially awkward and intensely focused when he starts working on something #he gets like really zoned in on something and doesn't talk for like ten solid minutes until matoro starts slamming the 'hello' button #over and over and over again #nuparu finally looks up and matoro goes 'rest' #'oh do you need sleep? that's weird i wouldn't think a ghost needs sleep' 'YOU. REST. YOU. REST. YOU. REST.'

[canongf-archive]

i recently came to the realization that it'll be best for me to break things off with a real life friend that i've had for a very long time. and it's been hard, it's been frustrating and confusing and all sorts of different things. but it's also been a reminder of just how grateful i am for every friend i've made through this blog. i am moving on from a friendship with someone i'm just not compatible with, a friendship in where i've felt like i couldn't really be my whole self, and i don't feel like that here. i don't feel like that with you guys. when i'm here, i'm me. thank you for that.

#a soft post but i'm feeling a lil emotional tonight #i truly mean it #every friend i have made through this blog #thank you thank you thank you #for letting me be me #thank you for giving me the love and support to figure out what that is #over and over and over again #thank you for chatting with me and laughing with me and crying with me and screaming with me #thank you for letting me know you as you #i love being here #i love you guys #live

[northern-passage]

#LOL... #i think im going to update with a few incomplete paths at this point #before i truly lose my mind #i really need to just. write something else lmfao #it is SO demoralizing writing variations like it's so hard to be motivated when im writing almost the same exact thing #over and over and over again #i really do prefer writing linearly but at this point i simply cannot do it anymore #so. idk look forward to an update relatively soon ig lmfao #i have a few more passages i do want to finish and some reconvening scenes as well as editing #and then uhhh. yeah #personal