#im still probably going to kill myself hving to go back to my childhood . there is no escape

[tamagotchikgs]

my mom said my cats cant live with us in the trailer which . i just can’t do that man i cant live w/o them they are my only reason for getting up everyday,..... they’re the only thing i have irl that makes me smile or feel any amount of joy or anything whatsoever. i wonder if i could get my own used trailer too,,,,, i was looking & there r RVs for 12k,, if only i could get hired somewhere maybe i could afford it by summer :(

#im still probably going to kill myself hving to go back to my childhood . there is no escape #it never ends its always there & it’s always rotting me away #even my therapist agrees i need to get as far as i can #but i never can. #also #i got turned down from the other cafe i was trying to work at a month or so ago #ive been trying to ignore it to not fuck my mental health into a spiral but i do hav to face it I guess o(-< #there’s still the bubble tea spot I’ve been trying to get my resume to since they opened #but i checked my resumes today and something pink spilt on them o(-< #and i have no way of printing new ones #unless i go buy usb stick and pay to have them printed at staples or something but i. don’t have any fucking money #they really make it as hard as possible huh